#i just wanna have fun and not worry but idk i feel like that gets in my way sometimes bc im too worried or anxious about something to let

[skitskatdacat63]

Some matador studies :)

+ ref pic I like but couldn't even attempt to draw 😭

#its funny how your brain can randomly turn on #no one saw it (i hope) but i posted some other matador sketches last night #MAN they were not great imo. i only kept one of them for this post lmao #like i was referencing pics and it was just not working in my brain except for the one #and then i came back to it just now and boom suddenly i could ref poses very well?????? #istg i either struggle so bad and have to trace the pose to check shapes and its a whole ordeal #or like now i randomly can look at pics and get the pose down pretty well #not perfect obv but i drew these all in like 50 mins so ????? pretty good no? #just having a severe matador moment #like i wanna draw more of the AU but i need to study poses first #something i actually really dont do a lot cause its often frustrating #but wow these were quite fun! #not worrying abt the end product yknow #i love matador pics so fucking much #bcs you never have to worry abt: is this unrealistic? is this too flamboyant? #cause man the pics are fucking insane #i think the legs are my favorite? theyre all just very slayful i guess. idk how to describe it #but it always feels like a dance #anyways! maybe more matador nando soon #i think i said before but ah....really wanna draw him bloody #catie.art. #matador au

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

hate how im now at a point where im legit like kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot over fictional characters SEND HELP

#take One Guess who im talking about. YES ITS KOI BOI #hes so prettyyyyy and cute and lovely and i love looking at him i wanna hear him speak and laugh and sing just AAAAAAAAAAAA #(turns to my own brain) BITCH WE ARE MEANT TO BE AROACE WHY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH TWO FICTIONAL CRIMINALS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING????? #my brain: (that fuckin anime girl gif from evangelion (i think??)) #like fuuuuuck man is it self shipping if u use a proxy? like. hes an oc but he's a stand in for me. he is me and i am him but we also arent #he is his own person and i am my own our lives are very very different but i use him to express love for Mad Dog and Koi Boy #cause they could actually love him if i were in their world i wouldnt stand a chance but my boy has one so he loves them for me #its far easier to imagine him kissing them than it is for me to imagine myself kissing them but that might be because im wired weird #idk it *feels* like it counts yknow. my dumbass out here gettin jealous when i see a Certain Ship cause like i disagree with it on #a Fundamental Level. and on TOP of that half the time the art is so CUTE and im like 'motherfucker that should be ME' or i guess my lad but #STILL am i making sense?? doesnt help that i worry im like. misreading what content i have but also fuck you i can do what i want and also #i get him more than yall kgyugkhjhk (jk jk. Unless) basically when i call them my boyfriends i fuckin mean it #look its Real Missing Nishiki Hours i love him i wanna kiss his perfect face someone shoulda shown him love i could save him and he could #make me worse <3 I Want Him #and do not get me wrong i may be focused on him but Majima is still my wifey too!!! hes mine you cant have her <3 #i just have koi boy brainrot i very much desire them Both (YES THAT MIGHT BE WHY I SHIP THEM TOO LOOK I ALSO THINK THEYD WORK WELL TOGETHER #OR AT LEAST HAVE A FUN DYNAMIC TO EXPLORE I SHOULD DATE THEM AND THEY SHOULD DATE EACH OTHER WE ALL HAVE 2 HANDS) #might delete this in the mornin who knows but im feelin silly i wanna talk about them i wanna talk about my boy but idk if ppl would really #GET IT yknow i can think of maybe Two People and that INCLUDES bestie but just aaaa point is i love my koi boy so much hes so lovely <3 <3

[bunnyb34r]

I know I should just block (and not OPEN) tags and posts ab '24 but my brain is stupid and likes to be informed even if it makes me worse

#marquilla #im not even joking when i say this next election makes me wanna kms so bad. im fucking terrified and i feel like we already know what's #gonna happen. not bc people arent voting or organizing i mean bc of how far the right has gotten and how angry they are that a #dem won so theyre gonna show up in droves and it's like god i wish we could idk have some safegaurds in place??? like oh idk you #incite an insurrection you Can't run for president?? but also that wouldnt fully stop shit bc florida has its own neo nazi running and #theres more behind him in the wings. but like idk man i just get so fucking suicidal thinking ab the future #and my drs. are like well then dont look at the news??? 'i sure dont' mkay thats great (not) but um i CAN'T not watch bc i need to #be informed i need to know. and they're like well then stop worrying ab it til election day?? LIKE THAT HELPS #so i just dont bring it up. and i just spiral and have breakdowns in the shower and think ab making a will and shit yknow normal stuff #bc this is fine! just dont engage! stop worrying it's like a year away! it MIGHT get better! idk Join in your community then?? #like yes yes thats a start but with what fucking energy when im bedbound most of the time im not working and that doesnt stop these fascist #s like me helping the community garden would be good for the community and probably my mental health in general BUT that doesnt deal with #the actual fear that makes me wanna Kermit #like it really fucking feels like all i can do is pray and hope god somehow intervenes (rapture anyone?) and that things do go well and #that the outright outspoken nzis don't win but like I really just wanna die man #i know the outcome more than likely will not directly affect my life bc im white. cis passing. and can go back in the closet regretfully #but like that doesnt reassure me any bc i have friends and loved ones and generally just give a shit ab other people and how this WILL #affect them directly and that terrifies me. it really feels like we cant ever have a moment to just exist yknow?? #idk man i just wanna die bc im so scared haha how fun (: how normal (: this is fine. everything is fine.

[boyghcst]

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#it’s so weird how u can just feel two extremes and both r just so real #like often ill feel so suicidal and angry and upset etc but then other times I just feel so hopeful for the future and happy w my group #of friends #n both can b true but I just kinda get scared of when I feel rlly depressed n stuff bc it just feels so unbearable #n I just feel so out of control #idk last week was a p good week while socially exhausted #it was acc good to socialise and have fun etc #but idk I get my ups and downs so frequent idk if it’s normal to feel this way #but while im ill I’ve got an interview for college on Friday #trying again idk if ill even get in tbh #and im probably gonna drop out lollllll lit dropped out 4 times already #n every year I try but I’ve been out of work/education since late last year n I just feel I need to do something #even tho I struggle w my mental health a lot n just functioning like going outside and socialising and loads of ppl and noises it’s just #v overwhelming so idk if im just making another mistake but I picked a different course this time and it’s lower than my last so I’m hoping #they’ll give me a shot ig im worried they’re gonna judge me for dropping out so much but tht was care #and I just don’t wanna work w children / care anymore #and ive done social sciences before just the foundation level so I wanna progress #journal

[fabulouslygaybean]

sexuality is so dumb. relationships are dumb. romance is dumb and sex is dumb and it's all too fucking complicated and weird

#sorry. im just having a lot of thoughts and it's making me frustrated. #ive been thinking a lot about polyamory? which sounds strange ig but. i don't know. #it sounds very appealing at this point in my life #i don't always feel romantic attraction like other folks do and it feels like i wouldn't be understood in a monogamous relationship bc of it #i don't think people could handle the fact that sometimes my romantic attraction just Disappears for a day or two before it comes back #or the fact that my ideal romantic relationship is just. we're best friends but with all the extra relationship shit added on. #i want someone to be my best friend that i also kiss and take out on dates and bang sometimes. or something. #part of me feels like id be better understood in a polycule bc it's already a slightly unconventional relationship situation #also because i have a lot of love in my heart and im scared ill have to cut that part of myself off from others if i have a partner that - #- gets possessive over me in a weird way. maybe i just have poor experiences but idk. #there's sexy possessiveness (fun when done right) and then there's just. Gross possessiveness. which is what im worried about. #i don't fucking know!!! it's weird and complicated and the longer i type the more i realize i don't wanna think about it #im cutting this post off now. that whole rant probably made no sense but whatever

[danielnelsen]

finally playing the sword & shield dlc (yes i’m a little late to the party lmao) and woooow crown tundra is so much more enjoyable than isle of armour

#maybe it’s just because i’m stuck in the stage of leveling kubfoo and the only other thing to do in the meantime is the diglett quest #hey you know what would be fun for the players? spotting a dozen sight variations on the ground in a sandstorm!!! #also the dynamax lair thing in crown tundra?????? VERY FUN and basically just free legendaries #they just tell you where to find giratina and you do 4 fights and don’t have to worry about catch rates?? #tbf i did lose again kyurem but then you can just retry at any time and it doesn’t cost you ANYTHING #i also really like the fact that they give you pokemon to choose. takes a lot of the stress out of it for me #ANYWAY so it’s rough having to choose legendary forms #i wanna go with the darker type for everything all the time lmao #like i’m gonna get the ghost horsie. but i’m still trying to decide for urshifu #i think i might actually go with water. but dark is cool 😭😭😭 #tbf i can just use a different switch profile to get the other one and then transfer it but it’s not the same yknow. only one is my choice #anyway idk. i’m having fun. i played for like 8 hrs straight yesterday OOPS #trying to work out the regi puzzles tho….regirock was very obviously an everstone but i’ll have to think abt the others #(NO SPOILERS IM DOING IT MYSELF) #and then i have to choose electric vs dragon right? fml #i’ll probably go electric because my strongest pokemon are more dragons #but i know regieleki is the competitive choice and more ppl take it so i feel bad for regidrago lmaooooo #whatever that’s a choice for later. the only choice i have to make right now is where to plant my carrots and im going with ghost for that #IM GOING GHOST GUYS #personal

[mrpsychokiller]

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#i think ive been going way too overboard from what im actually comfortable with i dont actually like that #this is all weird and ive been acting weird and i feel bad maybe my mind has been way too foggy for me to. really think straight #like that sounds really dramatic i just feel weird and uncomfortable and wrong like my posts are weird and my attempts at talking #to people are weird and my conversations with my friends are weird #like im not acting like myself or im too out of it to remember how to act like myself #idk. i just dont wanna keep doing any of this but im not sure what ''any of this'' is #i got myself in some kind of spiral and im not having fun and i feel bad and gross and lame #i think im in an actual like bad mental health state #and i now im worried i have thousands of people following this damn blog and seeing my posts while im in a vulnerable state #and im acting erratic and weird and because i post my every thought in this website everybody is seeing me act erratic and weird #which just makes me much more anxious #i really hate how prone i am to letting my mental health make me act weird and how prone i am to over posting online due to a lack of #impulse control #and how i have an amount of followers that is way too large for it to be safe or healthy for me to be fucking myself over online #i am not minimally healthy or stable enough to keep my posture in front of a large audience and this should never have happened to me #i dont know that being said i should probably take a break for a bit #post less until i can get my head in place

[unproduciblesmackdown]

obligatorially thinking through [uhh "i don't dance" from hsm2 crossover with summer stock joke] instead i'm posting that umm "like me" from meta dcom musical "teen beach movie" crossover put it in summer stock ('50 movie) where the main problem is jane as mack (green) isn't telling gloria as lela (pink) to be more feminist as much as a dcom character a decade ago could do so (girlboss through personal choices, which eventually (sequel ending) lela does so hard she becomes a god in the teen beach cinematic multiverse which includes the "real world." win) but rather jane is hardworking enough to never Need to be ordered with increasing browbeating into doing things correctly, while gloria is so sillily insistent on thinking of herself as a person, oversensitive as she is, that she ends up with orville who is silly enough to be focused on his fiancee being a person with feelings, instead of romantically bossing her around, and doesn't mind that gloria has Too Much Moxie, while himself interestingly indeed having an arc about behaving more "correctly" that still only hinges on telling the other guy who's being pushy & demanding & mean to back off (his father) (gloria getting to do the same to joe When. while jane is like "oh whew i thought you were going to yell at me. wow i can hardly believe you aren't" to joe while their romantic future is assured to us) like gloria and orville as sympathetic & uncondemned & deserving of a happy ending too but also still like haha smh oh those two. surprise, the [husband ready to declare his demands and his wife who is hopefully so dutiful he doesn't even need to give them] dynamic isn't Timeless somehow. anyways every teen beach movie number rules also. and jordan fisher is there

#'50 voice ''haha we all know those wayward couples who are so compatibly [way to be a pussy] that it manages to work'' #the man who won't run over the woman's feelings and the woman who won't stop insisting on having & even acting on those feelings #again i'm so sure that summer stock '23 is like ''okay so from the start actually joe's Not an asshole'' lol #Like Me! x6 #''i don't dance'' also requiring the shakeup of [okay so corbin bleu's role is jane's. or orville's. vs ryan being joe. or idk. phil?] #truly when learning jordan fisher was cast as evan hansen like omg i know him.....Seacat #teen beach musical not only riffing on but building on hsm like thee choreography. composing & arranging. editing. thee Fun. my god.... #Youtube #also nothing could be like I Don't Dance is re: sexuality metaphors but teen beach movie is impressively gay #in that like hsm it's like time to be more confident following our hearts & then unlike hsm this happens through friendship #and the friendship that gets the most focus & weight is that of the would be gay pairings. but also everyone in the main quartet #dates every other member of it basically so it's like well really all the more reason to be like okay sewww.... #while you tell your bestie to not even worry abt Attracting The Opposite Sex(tm)(tm)(tm) #but hey chill & have fun & don't be afraid to be vulnerable & follow your heart do what you wanna do :) nothing gay possible therein #and if it improves your would be straight(tm) relationships? well that's Just Like Real Life :) (for real lol. nonsarcastic '':)'')

[maskyartist]

yknow maybe i'll do a raffle if i ever hit 500 followers >3> not that the numbers TOO close but i've been thinkin about it for a bit...

#masky says #only worry is i've never DONE a raffle??? #but i get the idea! randomly generate a winner and they'll get a fancy picture for a prize! #idk if it'd just be one winner or three... could have a 1st 2nd and 3rd place #but i wanna keep it to my followers i guess? #augh idk! i wanna do SOMETHIN yknow??? #feels like a celebration #but idk i dont want this to make people suddenly flock to follow me only for the raffle to happen- #-and to lose a bunch of people #OR MAYBE IM OVERTHINKING IT WHO KNOWS! #im still busy with commissions anyways so i couldnt do it regardless #but its fun to think about! plus this means i could get yalls opinion

[fuckin-sick-bih]

i hate the days when i desperately want to write but nothing i like comes out of my attempts at writing :( (side note i do make the "just bex talkin" tag so you guys can block it and ignore my rambling in tags if you want my writing but not my bitching lmao)

#just bex talkin #part of the problem is i want to write EVERYTHING and nothing at the same time #like i wanna write that cute convenience store steddie idea + a million more steddie ideas #but i also wanna write hale and jessie #and i know people wanna read some fem snz but i'm really struggling with that #i don't even know how to describe the fears stopping me from writing fem snz atm #it's very social/gender related but it's also me probably making a problem where there isn't one? aka overthinking #would i love to write some fem snz or even introduce my lesbian characters? absolutely! #but i don't feel like it's my place? i don't want to anger/upset the lesbian community cuz what if my portrayal is inaccurate and terrible? #also how dare i (an AFAB very masc leaning individual) assume to know what it's like being a lesbian when i never identified as one? #roll the clip of someone yelling a slur at me when i was 14 just because he *thought* i was a lesbian #bottom line? i don't want to objectify an already very objectified community even tho the realistic chances of me doing so are pretty low #listen i just have a lot of anxiety and i don't wanna piss anyone off or upset anyone by accident #don't get me started on all the fears i have about my writing being TOO angsty when i'm really having fun with it either #seriously there's a super heavy steddie snz snippet i have written that i'd love to post but i'm worried it's waaaay too heavy #especially for tumblr #but that's also just because i'm not good at feeling out where the boundaries are for this kind of thing? idk... IDK! #like am i allowed to write angsty feels + snz? of course i am! but am i allowed to *post* it??? no fuckin idea #like even Golden Blessing has some good angst to it in the beginning (which i did get to writing a bit more of that) #there's some impostor syndrome going on feeling like nothing i'm writing is actually making sense or engaging in any way rn #should i take small prompts and just do tiny little scenes of snz? #i want to WRITE but... most of me trying to write rn is me starting an idea and feeling like none of what im writing makes sense #so i immediately abandon it #and i do not know how to break that feeling/sensation of whatever i'm writing is not *flowing* ergo its shit #maybe i'll just quietly post the angsty steddie to my ao3 and just... leave it to the wolves

[yoongisautumnleaves]

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#dann i really have nothing to live for im just out here drifting by doing nothing every day #i took the summer off from work but it’s making me realize i am in fact still mentally I’ll and now there’s more things i DIDNT think about #before like ever that keep coming to mind and idk to me it feels like being here is only fun if you are pretty or skinny or conventually #attractive #none of which i am and none of my friends get it and every time i think about talking about it i just don’t because i KNOW they won’t get #it like the feeling of never having been wanted like i don’t even care for men but never getting male attention or having any person be #interested in me has affected me and i always said i don’t wanna get married etc bla bla but maybe that bc i cant ever #see that happening for me bc in my 25 years of life so far it has never #um losing train of thought here very sorry if you read this #im Fine but im not at all and just have nowhere else to voice this without worrying my friends #or seeming like i want attention? idk okay bye #i should prob Tag this with tw idk what for but #tw

[humofnight]

….

#Afton hums #hmmmmmmmm what if I let myself develop a crush #it’s been so long since I had a proper one the feelings are always kind of fun #until they get crushed by disappointment lmao but like! let’s not put the cart before the horse #for now I can just be a lil excited #heheh #I am saying this in the tumblr tags bc the people I know in irl who I would USUALLY talk about this with #introduced me/know the person #and i have the suspicion they would be ridiculously pleased with themselves/try to push me (in a loving way) to do something #and rn i just wanna vibe 😌 #anyway glad to have a positive tag rant 💕 #eheheheheheh he said he wanted to sit down and chat with me about my PhD project *twirls hair* #MAYBE THATS JUST WHAT FRIENDS DO THOUGH IDK #i am not very good at romantic signals mostly I just earnestly ask you how your day is but unfortunately this is almost identical #to how I befriend people #I am Just 300% more worried and 50% more earnest if I’m *twirls hair* about you tho #he’s on the right track for me tho the guy I was besotted with in college used to ask me about #my multivariatw calculus homework even though he was a comms major and we had No overlap #ANYWAY If he turns out to be Just A Friend still a good outcome #I need friends that are staying in the area and not graduating and leaving lmao

[arminsumi]

DIRTY TALK.

fem / afab reader

NOTE: just trying smth out... a dialogue-only smut scene from ur fave. it's literally just the script of what your fave is saying lmk know what u think :) it was fun to write and very satisfying bc i am a huge lover of dirty talk writing. anyways it was written with armin/gojo in mind but the char is ambiguous, you can insert anyone

🔞 mdni / 18+ content

SUMMARY — diaolgue/script of your fave's dirty talk

WARNINGS — smut, dialogue-only

WARNINGS — pls ignore errors i wrote this over maths homework, dialogue-only smut, dirty talk, unprotected sex, he's super horny, soft dom, creampie, daddy kink, breeding kink, aftercare, slight size kink, "good girl" used, "slvt" used, "baby" used, pre-established relationship, playing with ur clvt, 2x orgasm (reader), laughing when he cums, implied overstim, lmk if i have missed a warning thank u, i'm sure it's fem reader implied but i wasn't too sure so idk lol it's 1 am im going to bed

WORDCOUNT ≈ 750

🍒 𝐉𝐚𝐲 ⋅ 𝐑𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐬/𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭 !

"God, I'm so fucking horny, baby. Spread those legs 'n let me use that pretty pussy, 'there we go. Here, put your legs on my shoulders. I've got you. Fuck look at that perfect pussy, all wet 'n ready for me — yeah? All for me? Just for daddy? Gonna let me stretch you out? Good, good girl. Breathe deep while I just s-slide the tip in. Oh fuck. Y-you're so fucking tight today, t-tighter than usual — fuck me — oh you're gonna make me cum so fast, haha. Loosen up a bit for me. Thank you baby, fuuuck let me slide it in, just like that. You're so perfect. Look at that... look how we fit together. Our bodies were made for each other, don't you think? Yeah? Oh fuck, don't clench up yet, loosen for me again. Fuck. That feels so fucking good — ahah — I'm not laughing at you, baby, j-just can't believe how good it feels to — fuck — ahhhuh — yeah that's a perfect little slut, just take daddy's cock like you're meant to."

"Gonna spell your name on this dick, baby? Yeah? Cream and cum all over it? Oh, fuck, can't wait to make you cum again and again and a-again — yesyesyes — fuck that's so good, when you tighten 'round my length like that. Feels like your cunt is sucking on my cock, 's so fucking good. Baby! Fuck, hold onto my arms if you need to. Oh, nasty slut moaning already? That's okay, you can let it out. Moan all you need to — moan into my ear while I fuck this little hole loose. Haha, are you gonna cum already? That's okay, you can cum. Play with that little clit — so cute. Faster, play with it faster. I wanna see you go numb on my fucking cock. Yeah? What is it? Oh this spot? You want me to fuck this spot? Right here? F-fuck, right here, baby? Yeah that feels so fucking good, doesn't it? Ooh, baby cum for me. Cum. Don't worry about a thing, daddy's got you safe in his arms. Let go and get your sweet relief. There we go — oh fuck, haha, there we fucking go. Someone came big time, huh? Look at those legs shaking. Yeah, now daddy wants to cum, too. Got me all fucking worked up. Just gonna take it out for a moment... ah, fuck don't worry baby I'm gonna put it back in. Don't wanna overstimulate you on accident. Huh? Oh? Really? Fuck alright, I'll fuck you up just like you want it, then. Turn around slut, let's give that pussy a good filling then. Oh my god 's fucking tigh-tighter. Shit, makes me wanna fucking bust. Baby? Look into my eyes and tell me how much you love this cock. Fuck. Yeah, again. Say it again. 'Need to hear you say it again, baby. Louder. Fucking louder. Don't care if the neighbours hear you, just need to hear that sweet voice breakingg while I fuck — fuck — baby yes, yes of course I'll cum inside y-you. Are you really sure? You're not on birth control, right? Gonna get that pusssy knocked up if I cum inside. Oh fuck — can you repeat that?! You want my baby? Yeah? Fuck, you want my seed? God, baby, yes, yes fuck I'll give you my fucking babies. I'll make you a mommy. Stay right there, fuck — oh my god I'm close. I'm so fucking close. Gonna fill up that pussy, stuff it so good not a drop spills out. Oh my fuckin' god you're creaming so much, 's this what you've been into all along? Sh-shoulda told me sooner, 'woulda fucked my cum i-into this tight hole — every — fucking — day. Fuck, baby, ahah I'm gonna cum. I'm gonna — oh god, yeah, you gonna cum again? Cum with me. Let me play with that clit. Fuck I'm cumming — I'm cumming — gonna cum so hard 'n knock up that pussy — fuuuck — oh god, fuckfuckfuck ahah — ahaha that's — so — fucking — good — fuck. Holy shit. I came so much... look at all that... aw baby, don't let it drip out; tighten up 'n keep it deep inside. Get pregnant for me. Hm? I love you, too, dumb baby angel. Let's get that pretty pussy cleaned up. Aw, you can't stand up by yourself? Legs too numb, huh? Here, I've got you. I'll massage your legs in the bath. Ah, you're the sweetest. Y'know how cute you sounded begging for my cum? Sorryyy! I like teasing you, you know that!"

© 𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐢 𝐃𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐋 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐈'𝐕𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐊𝐄𝐃 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐄.

#✒️ — unlisted #mdni #smut #gojo smut #armin smut #gojo x reader smut #armin x reader smut #toji smut #toji x reader smut #gojo #armin #toji #aki smut #aki x reader smut #gojo satoru #toji fushiguro #armin arlert #jjk smut #aot smut #csm smut #csm x reader #armin x y/n #chainsaw man x reader #kishibe #csm kishibe #kishibe smut #oh my fucking god kishibe i need you #BRO I FORGOT HE EXISTED TILL NOW??? #FUCK THAT MANS HOT WTF #anyways

[pizzapizzadickz]

I feel a lil bit better today after getting some rest in. I always feel better when I can spend a day at home. I think tomorrow I'll wear my noise cancelling headphones or something so I can chill even more.

...funny how my way to chill is just trying to eliminate all external stimuli

(Pt 1 for description rant)

#diary #personal #i rly wanna book a therapy appointment but im having a rly hard time trying to get myself to do that bc i need to check i can vid call #cuz my computer monitor is broke and havent fixed it yetttt ugh. #i rly feel like researching autism again. idk. i saw a video about communication badges being used at furry conventions #and by god that sounds so fun ;-; like. i really struggle with interaction with others and talking is sometimes really hard. #mainly bc if theres a lot of noise i usually wanna block it out and if i gotta take my earbuds out to comunicate all the time its not fun #idk. i just wish i could go around writting shit out for ppl to read and thats that. no need to speak to clerks or crap. #bc imma be honest. i have a hard time hearing too. like in crowded places. its so overwhelming all the time. #its both a good and a bad thing that im giving myself the permission to be overwhelmed in situations #but its also making it much more difficult to actually be in those situations. #idk. i used to force myself through it. tell myself i like it or whatever. but by god everything just hurts nowadays #like. i dont like leaving my house mostly bc of the sensory overload. #i wonder how things'll change in the future. just how much more accepting will i and society be. i dont know. #but i hope i learn to cope more. bc life is really hard and imma be honest im struggling at best. #idk. i find it so hard to work lately. i love my thoughts. they are so fluid. and just. language doesnt keep up. #everything i say or write isnt quite right. and it bothers me. i sorta wished telepathy existed just soley so i could comunicate #idk maybe someday ill learn sign language. and maybe that could help. but it wouldnt help when im shut down. or having a meltdown #yknow. i find face to face human to human contacr really scary. i worry theyll want to do something and i wont #i worry i wont be able to get across my reasoning as to why. i worry that theyll see just how odd my behaviour can be. #and above all i just sorta worry they wont work with me to meet me halfway. like. im stuck with my family i dont want that with friends too #i hope if i visit them itll be okay. that like. i wont cause a problem or accidentally offend them or something? #idk. i wanna make friends n hang out. but as ive gotten older ive discovered just how much i hate that. #like i saw a rly cool tik tok about how they set up their home for all their autistic friends when they come over. #like. its established you can just stop talking and remove urself if you wanna. and theres stim toys n plushies n shit. and low lighting #and just. that sounds like heaven. i struggle so much in social situations. bc i eventually get tired. #and it makes me feel sorta burnt out/depressed. so itd be nice if i could just remove myself from a stituation whenever. #or just lay my head down on someones lap and silently observe. #i wish i knew what to do when i get overwhelmed in public. bc it happens a lot. and i freeze. and idk what to do. #and ill cry and get overwhelmed and shutdown or meltdown. and i start to aimlessly wander and its sorta dangerous tbh?

[moonbaetarot]

Pick a pile

How will you and your future spouse meet

1. 2. 3.

Pile 1

Who ever makes the first move is going to have a lot of bravery to make this action towards you. this person or you may be shy and doesn’t usually make the first move. Before you meet you will be letting go of something’s that is mentally draining you this could be a relationship or job. just in this first meeting this person will make you feel safe, comfortable and secure this person will be the calm after the storm. you may meet them online or your first conversation in through text. your future spouse visits you in your dreams so pay attention to them. this person will thank your really sweet but a little crazy in a good way lol. your future spouse has never met someone like you they may be a little speech less at first. You or your future spouse could be an air sign Gemini, Libra, Aquarius or a Taurus. I feel like this person could a friend of a friend like you don’t know them personally but your friends friend does and your like “damn who’s that” and it’s your future spouse. you may try to find there social media I feel like you will be asking around like “who’s this” and “where are they from?” but I feel you will try to be lowkey about finding your future spouse attractive lol. you could meet them around winter or Christmas. you could also meet this person not in your home town or there home town someone will be traving when you two meet. you could also meet in august.

Thank you for reading loves! 🤍

Pile 2

You will meet your future spouse when you’re having fun and it will be spontaneous like your friend or someone could be like let’s go out on a random Tuesday and you go out and meet your future spouse. you could also go and do something you’ve never done before or learn a new hobby and you meet your future spouse. feel like you will be in a state of boring ness your getting tired of your life and you just wanna change it up, you want a new beginning and you meet your future spouse doing all this spontaneous stuff. y’all’s meeting is something you will always talk about later on in the relationship. Whoever makes the first move will hesitate like “omg should I go up to them idk”. I feel like someone’s future spouse has moneyyy lol they have a big White House like I feel that when you first go over to there house for the first time your going to be like “omg you live here ?!”. Someone here says omg a lot lol I don’t say omg a lot but this pile I am lol. There may be an age gap with you and your future spouse. this person thinks your a sweetheart I feel that you may be a bit closed off then yall meet and you don’t wanna get close with this person because of a past relationship but your future spouse if going to reassure you that you don’t have to worry about them I’m hearing “I’m grown” so you may have an ex that is a bit childish gave you trust issues and not a reliable person but your future spouse is different. you two may meet at night or on a night that the moon is really bright. someone could live near a beach or likes the beach or going on cruises.

Thank you for reading loves! 🤍

Pile 3

You may meet your future spouse when you moved or bought a new house. you could meet at some type of event a family event. you may be really introverted so when you meet you future spouse your going to be like “wow did I really meet this person right now that’s so random”. When you two meet it’s going to very out of nowhere you either forget about this event going on or no one told you so last minute your going to be rushing to find a outfit, what time you need to be there and where it’s at just a sense of you rushing. someone could’ve had a change of plans like you weren’t even supposed to be there but someone got sick and you had to fill in. I feel Like you the introverted and your future spouse is the extrovert or the other way around. Your future spouse feels that your confident even if your not it’s just the way you carry yourself they see you as very youthful. you may look very young or younger then your age they see you as someone who gets things done someone who is independent. This person may see you as a competition at first like they think your to good they wanna know like what’s the catch to you. they don’t really know how to talk to you at first but this is your future spouse so I guess they find a way lol. there is a sense of not knowing what they are going to say or what there next move is they are scared your not going to feel the same way. someone here may love fishing or went fishing a lot as a kid. y’all could meet In January or September someone could be a Virgo, Taurus or Aquarius or had it in your chart.

Thank you reading loves! 🤍

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how the night started vs how the morning ended up, a very surprise welcome to our little girl Mila Grace Ricciardo. You are so special to us, mommy and daddy love you so much already❤️❤️

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