#i just wanna know what its like so im ready

[zeesturniolo]

car date 🤍

creds to gif owner ^!

summary: you and matt go on a date! 🤍

disclaimers: none! (if you find any let me know!)

*not proof read*

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you were currently in your apartment watching your favorite movie, its been your favorite since you were little and you never get sick of it. right before your favorite part, you get a phone call. you’re clearly annoyed, but you pause the tv anyways in case its something important.

you look to the side of your bed where your phone sat, and picked it up to see who it was. it was matt, your boyfriend of 6 months now. you swipe the answer button and hold your phone to where he can see the top of your forehead on the facetime call.

“hi matt!” you said excitedly, even if you were annoyed about your movie, you havent spoken to him all day, so you were quite excited.

“hey baby, i was wondering if you were tryna go on a car ride with me? im bored as fuck.”

“depends, are you gonna get me food?”

“duh, we can get wingstop.”

“okay then yes.”

“pick you up in 10?”

“sure! ill see u then.”

you guys said your goodbyes and i love you’s, and then ended the call. you turned your tv off and decided yo go get ready now instead of watching the rest of the movie, knowing matt, he’s already in his car on the way there.

you decided to go with something simple, flared leggings and one of his your hoodies. you brushed your hair and then grabbed your purse and phone.

after about 3 minutes, you get a text from matt letting you know he’s outside. you liked the message and walked out of your door, locking it behind you and running outside to the van.

“hello gorgeous, how was your day?” matt said as you closer the car door and began to fasten your seatbelt. “it wasn’t bad, i did a little bit of cleaning here and there, then i just sat around all day.”

you continued to rant about what you did all day as matt silently listened and nodded as he drove. you shut your mouth as he pulls up to the wingstoo drive thru and orders his food, then asks what you want.

you told him your order, then he pulled up to the window and paid. you held the bag of food as he drove into one of the parking lots him and his brothers use to film.

you guys ate in silence and just comfortably enjoyed each others presence. once you were done, he strikes up a conversation.

“have you ever thought of starting your own youtube channel?” he asks looking at you.

“i mean yeah a couple of times, but not anytime soon. i think im okay with just being a guest on your channel.”

“hm, i was just wondering. i think it would be cool if you did.”

“i agree, it sound fun, but im in school so i think i wanna focus on that.”

“fair. maybe you and me should film alone and then i can post it on my personal channel?”

“yeah that sounds fun. im down for that.”

you finished the conversation off and the two of you stared at each other for a couple of seconds, before matt, broke the silence.

“i love you baby.”

“i love you too matthew.”

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hope yall like it !! 🩵

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[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something #asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao #so then he hates hospitals with a passion #my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so #headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao #im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao #it just made draco that little bit more protective #lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands #this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child #he has sick child energy lmfao #he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently #just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally #breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days #let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast #but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system #got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling #scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha #timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE #(he absolutely was not fine) #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #draco malfoy #hpcc #scorbus #this is so many tags im so sorry

[seariii]

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#im gonna kiss the mental break down out of her #i love women... #hecho con amor #wife <3 #im not ready to wake up yet tho... nor to face the consequences of that message.... #i wanna hug Kotoko.... gently hold her in my arms while we lay down on our bed. ill run my fingers through her hair and place little kisses #on her head 'its going to be okay. im here with you' i whisper softly 'you arent alone. you did what you could' #i just wanna hug her so gently and give her the soft treatment she deserves... #heh .... im now imagining the full fledged scene... at the very end of it just a soft #'thank you for trusting me. i know it wasn't easy. im proud of you for trying' #because she would be so hesitant to say anything...barely able to show herself like thst in front of anyone..m she truly is making an effort #heh and after s couple seconds of silence after that thank you i can see her hugging slightly tighter #burying her face on my chest/neck area and sighing 'i dont like this' as in being emotionally vulnerable #'thank you for doing it still' i would whisper back to her softly #lets see if i can still sleep for a bit more

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[tomboyyyaoi]

i cant describe it but people just putting meryl and milly in the background of vashwood instead of just putting them front and centre in their own piece genuinely feels like im being cucked like why did u even bother

like damn maybe id like the ship more if people didnt just go "theyr so cute and soft and married aahhh so so gentle and femme and girly theyr so cyute" then the only time they draw them is like. idfk them walking in on vash and wolfwood fucking eachothers brains out like god. all talk.

#i think its the only reason i dont like the pairing like. i like them theyr cute but. idk for me theyr not romantic #and its like. really annoying when people just say they ship them but its just lip service bc they rlly wanna pretend they care #but the truth is is that ive seen maybe 3 people put milly/meryl front and centre in their own dedicated art #and it was good #ppl just dont know what to do w them #not that i do either but hey at least i dont claim to ship them #listen im not tryin 2 dictate or anything #but fr it annoys me sm when people pretend to ship them to either go 'see? i do care about women!!! (lie)' or to get them 'out of the way' #DONT SAY U SHIP THEM IF U DONTTTT FUCK STOP PRETENDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #id rather u just leave them out of it like genuinely its such an insult to their characters like god #even nightow doesnt shove them to the back this much and they werent present for like 30 chapters at one point #BECAUSE HE KNEW IT WOULD BE MORE IMPACTFUL TO BRING THEM BACK IN SOME BIG REVEAL AND GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO DO #bc he respected his characters enough to not have them just bumble about in the background doing fuckall while he figured them out #so they were temporarily removed from the plot and them coming back and being Ready 2 Fucken Go was powerful it was so cool #please just respect these girls ffs stop having them be the Background Cardboard Cutout Dykes #so so so so so so annoying 2 me as a meryl and milly lover #rbs off i dont wanna start discourse #also ive talked abt this before

[asktotallyhuman]

Sarah would you harm/kill a baby Illager?

"...They had to come from somewhere. It makes sense they would at one point have been infants. Come to think of it...there is little I actually know about Illagers as a species. I was not even aware they could be women!"

"Perhaps a visit to the library is in order..."

#i know i used two different oranges for her text i made the other two with a red light filter on #i cant actually decide which orange i like more now so...now there's both on one post #cuz i dont wanna go back and fix it #she's getting ready for the daaaay #minecraft ask blog #minecraft oc ask blog #ask blog #oc ask blog #minecraft human #minecraft human oc #minecraft #minecraft oc #dont...worry about the timeline with regards to what characters are doing #feel like this is gonna get a little confusing now that im not doing backgrounds or showing time of day #but lets just say its really early morning #sun's gonna rise any minute now #i really hope it's clear she's looking into a (broken) mirror

[bangcakes]

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#personal #keep being like. if Only i had talked to him sooner. if Only i had been Friendlier sooner. but its like #Realistically.... probably wasnt ready. and also like. itd have to happen after school was over anyway bc 1. um i need to focus on school #and 2. how Awkward if i asked him out n he said no. or say we broke up or soemthing #like there were weeks i saw him every day. aint no way... i could handle the awkwardness of that #so ok ok ok. everything is fine JFJFJKFKFKFMFMFMFMFMF #i just have to remember not to get in my own head about it #like if i wanna message him i just should..... #its just..... hhhhHHhhhhh whyd this have to happen to me at 29. i could have been a happy spinster thank u NFJFJFJFJJFJFJFJF #but now ik what having an actual crush is like and oh wow is it painful. but also beautiful n fun. i just...... and lets face it this is #more than a crush. like its definitely Like like but i dont wanna say the Real L Word bc it seems..... idk JDJDJJDJD #but ive definitely um.... fallen. ya. ew JDJDKDJKDKDKDKDKS #but im just gonna follow my gut or whatever the fuck has been guiding me bc things have worked out so far #and like it wouldnt have without his participation. like ya.... #im just like... what if he Forgets about me or like everything fizzles out #but then its like i Know if i see him again itll all come back. #bc in the summer i tried so hard to get over him (and kinda succeeded)... only to see him again in class and be like oh fuck oh no and the #n That Dinner. that was the final blow. i was so overwhelmed i got lost on the way home #which... the restaurant we were at is less than 10 mins from my house so you can imagine the uh Overwhelmingness #i cant even remember the original point of this but. i think we'll find a way ....... i say we but i should say 'i' bc until he tells me #that he likes me im gonna have to like Not Assume. hhhh #it doesnt help either that ppl were bringing up 'hes just not that into you' on twt bc Now im like #oh God. am i in that kind of situation???? i doubt it tho. i think hes just reserved. GAH. whatever happens happens

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[odinsblog]

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#its so funny #so a while back i hired a housekeeper #and when i hired her she was insistent on a twice a month schedule #and i was like - wow building up that bank account much? sorry but i will be good with once a month #and she was like - noap! its once every 2 weeks until we see if you can make it to once a month #and im like - damn. ok. maybe every 3 weeks? #and goddamn if she didnt stick to a twice a month schedule #she said its like maintaining a car - she didnt want to wait until *after* i miss the oil change and then have to fix my crib #but i was like - ok whatever. when i see that every 2 weeks is too often i will just re-negotiat. no prob right? #i mean im pretty clean right? momma didnt raise me to live in a pigsty #soooo …. its been like over two months now? #and guess what??? #lol - by day 12 or 13 im like: GODDAMN THIS PLACE IS A FUCKN MESS WHERE TF IS THE CLEANING LADY? #and you know whats funny? i *think* i have always kept a relatively clean house (its only a 2br 2ba condo) #but now im wondering if she didnt pull a jedi mind trick on me? #ya know - did she plant a suggestive idea in my head? #bc now right at the 2 week period im like - SOMEBODY HELP ME !!! #lmao - but she is sooo good tho #after shes been here and ​then i get home #i almost dont wanna touch anything bc the place looks like its ready for a hgtv photo shoot #my crib is soo fresh & clean #lol #imma fuckn mess sometimes

[mieczyhale]

becoming a fan of something or someone means getting weird secondhand embarrassment that didn't occur before. and anxiety! !SO MUCH!! both SO EASILY. just because i... now care about the thing or the people involved?? really??

because i really love a thing i can't freely enjoy it without some weird vague negativity related to some unknown vague people?? sure. okay. checks out.

#i know i cant handle criticism.. and people hating things i like is a personal and miserable experience #but come o n #this has happened since forever and i hate it #kim's new video drops tomorrow and where i've never cared what other people think of their content before as of late im like OH GOD. OH FUCK #maybe its because i saw so many shit fucking takes about their album?? maybe its just that i love them and i feel ready to #physically fight anyone with a bad thing to say?? #plus idk how this is gonna go. they have Messages and don't give a Fuck and thats beautiful but i have anxiety and the general public does #not seem to understand them #again: i didnt care!!! there was no shred of secondhand embarrassment or anxiety or anything when i first started listening to them!!! #but now when new content comes out??? fml i guess!!! #this absolutely did happen with the shadow and bones #as with all things before it #i cant watch most interviews and stuff #trying makes me wanna scream and kick my feet but in a nearly painful way?? like its an aggressive feeling. not the fun kind most fans get #i can sometimes watch them with no sound + subtitles #not sure why the fuck that is #anyway #im positive i didnt explain ANYTHING about ANY of this well but i have literally never tried to put it into words before and i am. so tired #maison speaks

[landofgay]

excited for another day of my one supervisor telling me I'm doing an amazing job and gushing over me vs my other supervisor and my "boss" who's not supposed to still be my boss persay or not in the way she was anyways, they fucking act like I'm scum for trying to get ahead by *glances at notes* helping my supervisors

#like im not trying to take anything from anyone!!! im just trying to help them out!!! #if my supervisor who has a stack of paperwork to fix infront of her now has another folder for an order that #she wasnt in the room for. the other person my 'boss' is exlusively training on paperwork also wasnt in the room for. and the supervisor who #WAS in the room is the one who just fucked up this paperwork for the order #then yeah im gonna offer to help her with this folder since i actually WAS in the room #in fact i got left in charge for the first 2.5 hours cause no supervisors were in the room at all!!!!! UGH #at that point i was the most experienced person in the room by far!!! and i know so much about this company #cause its like. a passion of mine. so i know a lot about the products we sell!!! like a LOT #more than my bosses cause i actually buy a shit ton of our product. so i know how many per product or what colour label or whatever tf #just off the top of my head!!!! #i also am very passionate about NOT SENDING OUT DAMAGED PRODUCT #meanwhile 'boss' says im being too picky #AM I??? CAUSE IVE BOUGHT TWO PRODUCTS NOW WITH MY OWN PAYCHEQUE THAT WERE DAMAGED #ugh christ. im just very tired from this week between all that and the intense drama from earlier this week #im ready to sleep in all weekend #except idiot me made plans for every day this weekend #tonight i hang out with my dad and my bf #tomorrow me and bf go to my coworkers for drinks and viddy games #and sunday we go out of town with bf's sister for drag brunch and thrifting #so itll all be fun i just KNOW im gonna wind up exhausted 😭😭😭 plus truthfully i just wanna show my bf more movies

[the-kipsabian]

its a sad day when you see a person you know is good and creative to use ai tools to make art

#sigh #i mean.. i get it in this case i guess. and he did edit like half of the text to fit but also ew #i know he could have written this on his own. he has that talent in him. but no he used ai to write the scene instead #and it completely threw a wrong name for one of the characters too like. wouldnt have made that mistake otherwise #as a writer its just bringing me down to know i have someone like this in my circle.. #kinda hurts you know #like.. in small defense of ai it can be good at creating ideas and concepts for reference and starting points i guess #but making full pieces of art and writing with it when you are perfectly available of doing it yourself? #or able to commission someone else to do it? or not using it as a reference but as a ready finished piece of something? #no. #its so hard to put my emotions into thoughts rn but im just. disheartened i guess #as if being a creative wasnt hard enough already. seeing someone close to me replacing my favorite craft with ai.. #im sad fellas #i hope you know im never using ai for anything i make. dont ever put that label on me no matter what #also dont feed my stuff into anything ai or i will have to kill you #i wanna just lay down now ough #night is an absolute mess on main

[earlyspringtranscendence]

btw i think one of the most impt hobbies in the world is having a mostly non-existent, mostly self indulgent crush on a professor/lecturer just to zone out to their classes to and focus instead on their hair and their hands and their dark circles speaking NAWT from experience. maybe a little bit.

#yeah he's got me a lil crazy i was doing dishes this morning thinking abt all the things i still have to do this week #bc we have his exam on friday and im trying to determine whether i should try to do some prep work or just leave it for the day of #& i was just thinking abt like. oh he's so fucking precious he like actively took the time over winter break to memorise the names of #the people who consistently show up to class and like its cause he's sweet and wants to eventually teach more focussed smaller groups #but like my man my absolute angel you have accidentally stumbled upon the number one surefire way to make people wanna keep coming to class #like his classes r great but mostly i like that he knows who i am #and like i was thinking abt like. we were talking abt language in art movements like dadaism and i asked if he'd read embassytow #-n and he said he hadnt but that he had a list of student recs i'd be on and then in a later class i asked if he read fever dream and he #like made the joke that he'd have a section in his list of just things i told him to read #You Dont Understand I Need This Man Carnally. THIS is what one direction meant when they said thats what makes u beautiful #fuck me i hope he has this effect on the ladies cause if not hey babe there's a whole world out here for you ready to be explored #its also jst funny bc we r genuinely all afflicted by this tragic desire of him i think its partially bc his classes r a little boring #again love him to bits he does try his best its just rly surface level shit because it has to be within the nature of his classes #anyway. convincing myself not to fail his class on purpose so i can retake it next year its going poorly #also just had like a rly long convo w him after class once and he's just. URGH SO SWEET IM LEAVING. IM GOING AWAY NOW. #dreamboy... ugh ! AND he's a poet professionally !!!

[todayisafridaynight]

the worst part in being able to write sentences is that nothings stopping me from writing fics yk

#snap chats #i get inflicted with images and i MUST share them through art lest i die i know it's awful #like i keep being inflicted with images but my arm hurts too much to draw any more today #bitch ass arm why are you hurting. WHY are you hurting its not even my wrist it's my bicep?????? #anyway the problem with writing lies in writing up to the scene in question #not even 'scene' just like. A Visual that lasts Max five seconds but i need to project into people's brains #ive sketched a lot of things to finish on other days today. im still too intimidated to leave the house lest i run into Mother #so im just thinking of how to kill time now that i have nothing left to do today #ough id work on my june-sale comm sheet ad thing but my arm hurt.. as i said before.. #maybe tomorrow ill do it- or ill have it ready by monday #anyways. im gonna sit here and hallucinate and see if i come up with anything 5k words worthy #'snap you know you can just write the scene you want right. you know you can even just tell us what it is right' #1.) we know how i feel about saying things i wanna write/draw !!!!! i SUCK !!!!!!! #2.) i like build up... i like us getting there.. i hate me too its ok #ok hallucinating time. or i-grow-up-and-leave-the-house time idk we'll see in like an hour ig

[bangcakes]

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#ladies.............. i asked him to hang out BDNJDNDJDJDJDJ #i guess..... background info maybe ??? #i had asked him if he wanted to keep in touch with me n one of our mutual friends. he said sure. #said mutual friend is gone on a trip all of january #so i was like oh fuck what do i do #so.... i was like oh i can like.... tell him like.... #blank is in blank. id still be down to do something or we could wait until she's back. either is good with me!! #and he was like.... (after over AN HOUR) 'i guess we could wait till she gets back' #so im like NDJDJDJDDKS OK. i sent.... okay let me know if you change your mind !! #like brb dying NDJDJJDJSJDMS #like could have been worse. like he could have said no to both. idk the 'i guess' is kind of sending me. #n e way. im just glad he replied. thats more than most ppl get from him JDJDJDJDJJDJDJDJ #hhhhhhhh ya... idk if i was ready to hang out with him by myself anyway. id like to get to know him better first.... #like i wanna see if we can even be friends outside of school....... n e way !!!! #so relieved that i just asked !!! its been hanging over my head a few weeks now. i just wanted to have a calm christmas n new years JDJDNDN #personal #ONE OF MY TAGS GOT ERASED. HOLD ON #... GOTTA GO ON DESKTOP TO FIX IT #edit: ok it should be fixed

[emmafallsinlove]

i wanna edit literarti + invisible string but i got no ideas all i know that is their song

#one! single! thread! of! gold! tied! me! to! you!!!!!! #hell!!!! was!!!! the!!!! journey!!!! but!!!! it!!!! brought!!! me!!! HEAVEN!!!!!! #GAVE ME THE BLUES AND THEN PURPLE PINK SKIES AND ITS COOL BABY WITH MEEEEEEE #and isn’T IT JUST SO PRETTY TO THINK ALL ALONG THERE WAS SOME INVISIBLE STRING TYING YOU TO ME? #LIKE ALREHTSH #i wanna be with YOU but not here!!! not this place! not stars hollow! we have to start NEW #you’re ready and I AM ready I’m ready for THIS you can count ME now #LOOK YOU KNOW WE’RE SUPPOSED TO BE TOGETHER I KNEW THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU 2 YEARS AGO #AND YOU KNOW IT TOO I KNOW YOU DO #IT IS WHAT IT IS. ME. YOU. #i said…. why did you come here? #because…. you didn’t say goodbye #IM A MESS IM GONNA THROW UP NO ONE TOUCHES ME PLEASE