im not doing well at all mentally these past few weeks and it’s so tiring im hoping i see some light at the end of the tunnel soon we have to push on 🫶
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I wanna make bangs my signature look bcus it's cute and I like it on my face 😈 if this turns out to be one of my phases that I give up on ima 😭🔫
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old habits die hard and i stay playing with my piles
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This is going to feel pathetic but, I’ve just felt really hopeless lately. Nothing really sparks me the same joy as before, and I’ve been feeling more…not a fan of existing as of current (Not in the SUPER bad way, but still bad) and every time I’ve tried talking to someone about it they’ve left me feeling worse.
Humans are scary. I feel so terrified of other people. So tired of them.
I just can’t find hope lately.
The internets just getting meaner, and the world more terrifying, shootings, homophobia, racism, climate change, Im just so damn…scared.
And even little things have been going worse, I just don’t feel good anymore, and I don’t know what to do.
Does anyone have any tips for dealing with this?
(Im sorry if its cringe, I just don’t know what else to do.)
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I literally cannot put into words how much i hate my body
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Sorry for not posting as much. I’ve been in a really weird place mentally. It’s times like these that you can see the appeal in something like joy.
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What I need..are looong hugs...I'm talking like several minutes long. The ones where you hold me tight for so long that I start to cry and you don't let go of me until I calm down. That's what I need.
Cause those short 1sec hugs only make my pain worse. They do nothing but intensify my deepest fears - you give me a taste of what it feels like to have you near and then you disappear - meaning i have to experience that feeling of loss and being left over and over again.
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Well. It's been another hour and I'm down to 274 🙃 gave yet more insulin because I'm almost through the IOB from the last bolus
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I want a boy to cuddle me during a spout of depression while watching theme park videos to try and calm down
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it's been a hard couple days and I'm trying to be nice to myself. tonight self care means gently grinding against a pillow and having my thumb in my mouth because those things soothe me
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i absolutely adore music, we can always talk about music
currently im listening to aidan bisset's ep, its just 15 minutes long but its the perfect mix of nostalgic but new music. its an awesome ep
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This year has been really rough... Psychosis, heartbreak, losing my dog, moving back in with my parents... Every day is hard.
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I'm so tired.
I'm tired of being in pain so bad I want to rip my hair out.
I'm tired of having more bad days than good.
I'm tired of having to put projects on hold because I don't even have the energy or pain threshold to sit and type let alone any other creative aspects.
I'm tired of fucking waiting weeks and weeks and weeks to see my specialist.
I'm tired of having health problems that make having pain moderation next to impossible because my body's chemicals get angry at themselves let alone the meds that would make me feel less pain.
I'm fucking tired.
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