#i just watch k-on and i smile at how great all of htt are to each other and i look into my own life and i just....don't have that at all

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idk why i’m feeling like this rn but i’d kill to have a friendship/have friends like the one(s) that these five girls have:

#why am i in my feels? who knows #i'm just randomly feeling lonely as shit now #bc i wasted my hs years not making any sort of relationship with literally anyone and now i'm all alone with no one to be with #platonically and romantically #i just watch k-on and i smile at how great all of htt are to each other and i look into my own life and i just....don't have that at all #like they have such a connection with each other and i know that they're not real #but i can *feel* the connection they have with each other and how good of friends they are #they have each other and i have nobody #but maybe that's why i love this anime so much: i can kinda live thru them in a way #i can reimagine all the things i would have done differently and maybe i would have more friends than i do now #but alas....here we are #me pushing all my regrets and emotions onto fictional characters once again #but then again what else is new? #idk....maybe i feel jealous of them in a way? that they have each other and love each other so much? #like they're all so different and yet they don't get made fun of for their weirdness/their quirks and i do in my own life #theirs get them loved and accepted while mine get me ostracized from the rest of my peers #hmm...... :| #but i still love this anime nonetheless; it's literally perfect for me #i just can't help but feel the way i do because of it #maybe it's just in my dna to project my deepest fears and regrets onto the people/characters i feel the closest to....