#i know i can’t control the changes but still

[babygazette]

📠 📰 ────────*𑁍༘⋆ ────────

dealer!rafe had to make a lot of changes to his life since ward kicked him out. if there’s one sacrifice that rafe hates, it’s having trailerbunny!reader cut his hair instead of a professional barber. you, a trainee at a dingy salon, doing his hair. who the fuck knew that haircuts were so expensive? not rafe, when he was rich at least.

rafe sits outside on a dainty chair (that you might have snatched from someone’s sidewalk) a towel around his neck while you carefully trim off his bangs. “you do know what you’re doing, yeah? like you’re not gonna mess up my hair? —cause i can’t go out with fuckin’ lopsided hair and i don’t wanna hear you whinin’ either when you’re the one who messed it up.” he scolds you, trying to eye your actions, staying very still to not make you fuck it up even more.

“m’not gonna mess it up.” you promise to him, tongue peaking out a bit in concentration. rafe clearly doesn’t believe you and rolls his eyes, “heard that before.” hinting at the first time you cut rafe’s hair which was a disaster. let’s just say he was really pissed off and had to wear hats for a couple of weeks.

“that was my first, rafe, it’s different. stop worrying, i’m a professional!” you retorted, tired of hearing his anxious complaints while you work all around his hair. “in training.” rafe adds behind your sentence, not amused one bit, he doesn’t like how fast your scissors are moving back there.

“slow the fuck down before you chop it all up, i swear— kid.” he’s close to snatching that thing out of your hand because he’s not liking how much control he doesn’t have. thankfully for him and you, you’re already done. you make some final touches before stepping back to admire your work.

“all done!” you beam happily, clapping your hands in satisfaction. rafe can’t trust you just yet. you hand him your pretty hand-held mirror for him to look at your masterpiece, smiling from ear to ear in anticipation.

rafe’s expression changes instantly when he looks at the mirror. his eyebrows raised for a second in shock before he begins nodding as he looks at his hair from all angles. “i.. you did good, bun. this is— yeah, this is real nice.” you were over the moon at the fact that rafe was actually complimenting your work.

“think you deserve a reward for this, baby. let’s go— let’s go get you something.” rafe takes off the towel and dusts any hairs off him. he get up from the uncomfortable metal chair, giving you a kiss as a thank you, before guiding you by the waist to buy you anything you wanted with his drug money <3

little did rafe know that letting you cut his hair would actually be even more expensive because of the way he spoils you after.

#dealer!rafe #trailerbunny!reader #rafe cameron x reader #rafe x reader #rafe cameron blurb #rafe blurb #rafe cameron fanfiction

[hanasnx]

NO KISS SEX — satoru gojo.

MINORS DNI 18+ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ WARNINGS: bratty fem reader | dom satoru | established relationship | explicit sexual content | cock warming | fluffy | size difference | no kiss sex.

“Sato, please?” you beg, pouting your bottom lip so enticingly SATORU GOJO nearly breaks his streak just to lick at it out of familiarity.

“Wasn’t this your idea?” he anecdotes amusedly, tilting his head with that wolfish grin. “You said you wanted to try it, and now you don’t wanna commit.”

“I change my mind!” you insist, bobbing your body in place to emphasize your frustration, his cock still lodged comfortably up in your guts in a mating press. “It’s lonely.”

He gives a few swings of his hips, and your lashes flutter in turn. “‘Lonely?’” he parrots in feigned disbelief. “You wan’a kiss that bad?”

Eagerly, you nod, under the impression he’s about to give in and you raise your head to meet his with an innocent smile. “I didn’t mean what I said earlier, honest.” You eye up his lips, just out of your reach.

“Ah, ah,” he chides, arching away. “I distinctly remember,” he states matter-of-factly as he picks himself up using your knees, pressing them to the pillow as your head is forced to lay back down and you peep and grit your teeth when the dick soaking in your hole brushes your spongy spot. It twitches, but he keeps it sheathed. He alters his expression to exhibit what he sees when he looked at you earlier, upturned brows, wide-o-shaped mouth, and heightens his voice to an embarrassing high pitch that grates the ears, “‘Goji, I want to try no-kiss-sex, please? Please? Can we-can we-can we?’” he mimics you unflatteringly, and you reach up to yank him back down to you. “You only call me ‘Goji’ when you want something, just like you call me ‘Sato’ when you’re trying to butter me up.”

You jerk your head away in a mock attempt at bratting, frowning your brows as he snickers through his nose as you, readjusting so he pulls out a few inches just to push back in. As if he’s testing the waters with his hips, watching your minute reactions written all over your pitiful little face. You pant through your mouth, so he keeps going, slowly sinking in and out.

“If you get so lonely, why’d you suggest it?” he questions, soothing you out of your difficult mindset and your want to be uncooperative with the splendid ministrations of his cock licking your insides.

“I dunno, I saw it on a show or something! I wanted to see if it would make me want it more.” you inform him with a fair amount of attitude, and toy with his hair at the nape of his neck. That pout resurfaces, and you must know you’re making your pillowy lips look so irresistible that Satoru bites his own hard. He has to remind himself he’s proving a point. Even folded in half you’ve got some kind of power over him.

“Does it?” he asks, more winded than before as your hole loosens the slightest, letting him pull out more. You question him with an idle hum, brain fuzzy from the sensations pulsing from your core. “Does it make you want it more?”

“Yes!” you cry, offended he’d ask such a thing. “Obviously!”

That wolfish grin stretches back onto his mouth as he dips down, and a grateful thrill blooms in your chest at the notion he’s going to do it this time! You offer yourself to him, facing him to reach for him, but as soon as you get close he rears his head. Your lips narrowly miss each other. Your bodies bob as he moves in you, a steady pace of pulling completely out to ease in until he bottoms out. He’ll do all that, exhibiting a strong sense of control over his body, but he won’t give you a kiss. Instead, he does the same thing as before, ducking so you’ll gain a false sense of security, reach for him again. He teases you, keeping his lips just out of your area of influence. “Stop that!” you whine, your brows pinching together from the pleasure he’s giving you between your legs.

“Can’t help it, pretty, you make it so easy.” he taunts, “You keep falling for it.” As soon as he’s said it, he stoops and lingers, letting your cock-drunkened brain work through the thought process, lifting yourself again out of habit and trust to go for a kiss. Once more he corrals it from you, but he laughs this time. A jeer that burns your cheeks hot as you glare at him. “You keep falling for it!”

“Satoru!”

“I see the appeal now.” he lowers his voice, the grain of it traveling down your spine straight to your core, taking his cock at gradually hastened pace. “No-kiss-sex, huh? This shit was a good idea, baby.”

#[🃏] #indy: drabbles #ch: satoru #satoru gojo drabble #satoru gojo smut #satoru gojo x reader #satoru gojo x fem reader #satoru gojo x you #satoru gojo x y/n #satoru gojo imagine #satoru gojo fanfiction #gojo smut #gojo x reader #satoru smut #satoru x reader #jjk smut #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen smut #jujutsu kaisen x reader #reader insert

[dhampling]

sun astarion x reader drabble

Granted, only for a few hours; until morning at most - but there’s a genuine relief when your compatriots want to scatter across the town and leave you be. 

All except for him. 

-

wc: 600+

Blistering.

Eyes closed, toes outstretched - free from the confines of all leather and the tough of a sole long-battered - heels heavy in the fresh grass, the new soil. 

There’s a moment where all the air carries is far-off laughter and the smell of woodsmoke. 

You can’t say you’ve ever spent much time in Rivington - if any, at all. It’s charming in some lice-ridden rickety fashion, akin to other small towns you’ve travelled through in your time; and in prime position under the sun it simply bakes. Smoulders. Dirt paths trodden with clouds of pale puff, shoes laced with thick dry creases of dust. Warm ash on the waning breeze. 

The birds chirp in a dot-smatter overhead. Sky blue and vast and baking in the swell of the midday heat.

And it’s here you decide you’ll stay.

Granted, only for a few hours; until morning at most - but there’s a genuine relief when your compatriots want to scatter across the town and leave you be. 

All except for him. 

His first few tenday spells of day in two hundred years and he understandably basks in it. Pallid, occasionally wounded by the tender curse of long sun-reddened flesh for some small while before the skin heals over and his whinging stops. Forearm over forehead, eyes half-squinting; the gentle cant of his head toward yours on the lolling hill.

Astarion is quiet. It’s understandable. In a few long nights once reaching the Gate, he may have to relinquish his freedom once more. Give himself to the shadows, to the endless night; some awful routine of the moon rising as the stars sparkle overhead and the memory of every ounce of self-control leaving his corpse for the hunt. 

Granted, his centuries of plight will no longer be a problem. You’ll die if it ensures he’s free. Unspoken but he’s safe in the knowledge you won’t leave him behind. You won’t forget his struggle. You hold every ounce of his deliverance in safe hands and you’ve proven yourself time and time again to be in his corner.

“I’ll come with you, you know.”

A soft whispering into the sun; and you feel him shift to turn his head fully to you, still squinting; heat radiating from softened cheeks and lashes fluttering at the high of his cheek.

“Hm?”

“If you want me to. Whatever happens next.”

He offers some noncommittal hum and blinks slowly, wriggling a little to lay on his side with arms outstretched toward you.

“Come to me, lover. Please.”

You shuffle closer and rest a head on the hot skin of his inner arm, lips dipping to kiss your head.

“I mean it, Astarion.”

“I know. I do.”

A sleep-heavy sigh of contentment as he holds you still.  

“A house. Here. Thoughts?”

You wrinkle your nose.

“Why?”

“Why not?”

“I can’t see you settling here.”

“I could definitely settle here, if I wanted to. Little house. Little... pets.” 

His fingers flutter on the peachy low of your cheek. You groan.

“You’ve got a lot of life to live. Rivington shouldn’t factor into that, love.”

“Oh, I know. I’m familiar. However, it has a certain charm by day that I’d never seen before now. Cobble all… warm, underfoot. It’s nice.”

You grin.

“You’re the pet. A fat housecat.”

“I’m not fat.”

“No, but if you keep feeding on me the way you are doing, then that will change.”

He taps you playfully then pauses, before softly nuzzling his face deeper into the warmth of your hair. 

“That or the wine, I suppose. I’m a creature of comfort.”

“You’re a creature. Full stop.”

-

#my writing #astarion ancunin #astarion x reader #baldurs gate astarion #bg3 #astarion #astarion baldurs gate #astarion bg3 #drabble

[8um8le]

We simp for Cat! Lol

How did you come up with Cat? Like what was his character proccess or what inspired this beautiful character? :3

Ooo interesting question :-000

Well, the gist of the city toons (ones we know and love: sun, moon comet and cat) is that they are robot cartoon characters from a upbeat silly show put into a more brutal, grim, corrupted environment. They all have key cartoon traits, which is a part of their core programming, something is permanent, it can’t be changed, removing it will only kill their character/consciousness. They can still build off their core traits though!

Sun= fury/fighter Moon= money grubber Comet= people pleaser Earth=control freak

Despite Cat being the only one who gave themselves a new name, he’s the closet to his Hills character, all the way from his mannerisms and aesthetic.

When I thought of his character, I thought to myself like “what if we made a robot mascot of a cartoon character and dumped them in a hostile wasteland, having to fend for themselves” unlikely for them, they wouldn’t be able to withstand a anvil to the head like how they could originally, having to adapt to the new logistics of the strange place they got put in. I always liked the whole scenario of one of us being put in a cartoon world, after being originally from here, and how overwhelming that can be, I took that concept and flipped it around.

#sc cataclysm #lore #imagine putting spongebob or bugs bunny in the hood or somthing lmao

[cosettepontmercys]

I truly can’t pinpoint when/what exactly changed about Taylor’s fans/fandom but the last few years (especially the midnights release) has really soured things for me and it’s honestly quite disappointing as someone who genuinely enjoys her music and thinks she’s a great artists. how did we get to the point of not even being able to voice an opinion about taylor without being crucified online. or if heaven forbid you dislike a song/album or enjoy the work of one of her exes (john mayer, the 1975, calvin harris, etc)

i’ve always been very fascinated/intrigued by the relationship between celebrities and their fans. and i think it’s really interesting to look back and think about how taylor built her fanbase by making herself as palatable/relatable/approachable as possible. like secret sessions, t party/loft 89/rep room, swiftmas, lover diaries, etc — all of which allow for fan interaction — but also relies on people getting noticed which then in turn encourages people to be as vocal? extra? whatever it is. which then feeds into the "who is a bigger / better fan" competition. i'm speaking from personal experience here, as someone who has liked her since debut — but i think a lot of this is also rooted in how much of the world hated taylor swift prior to ... i want to say folklore, really — like it was deeply uncool to like taylor swift, to be a swiftie, etc. and because a lot of that early criticism was rooted so much in misogyny, i think fans felt the need to (over the years) defend her — and i was one of those! i still am, when i feel like people are criticizing her unfairly. but i think that lends into the "taylor swift has never done anything wrong, and she's perfect and if you disagree then you're against us and you're a fake fan" mentality.

and then i think there's an element of ... not necessarily a superiority complex, but a something among fans who have met taylor. it's a genius marketing move, intentions aside. taylor's music is very personal — and taylor's marketing, and persona is very personal, in a way that other artists prior to taylor weren't, i think. relatability sells. you can see it in the way that people talk about her, and her music. which is very different from the way people talk about other artists — and obviously there isn't anyone else out there with the amount of fame/popularity as her, but you don't see the same amount of fanfiction-writing personal-life-speculating-projection onto other artists' lyrics as you do with taylor. and i think that when someone is that vulnerable with their thoughts, it makes it easy for people to think that they know them personally.

and i think that — as much as i love taylor — it's important to talk about her white woman feminism mentality. and i think that also seeps into how her fanbase interacts with her. the ginny & georgia "joke" is what comes to mind the quickest, but there are countless instances of taylor's white woman feminism — and her benefiting from it. and obviously it was in her right to call out a misogynistic comment, especially one directed at her, but not saying anything when the actress got so much hate for a line she didn't write ... made me feel a bit 🥴. it's interesting to see who taylor will choose to align herself with, i guess is all i'm saying.

i've really taken a step back from taylor — not just because the fandom is exhausting ( the amount of things i've seen about her, joe, travis, etc. is ... something! it's all projection! we do not know anything about these people other than what they choose to show us! ) but also because of her saying that she wanted to be on the right side of history and then over and over again choosing to be increasingly passive and silent. she will call herself an ally but won’t even talk about queer rights; she won’t talk about the literal genocide that’s going on. gun control, abortion rights, anything at all. it's just "go vote" but even that is incredibly passive. but she will take time to remind us to buy new variants, and to stream her music, and that her ex sucks.

i think there was a huge shift that started with folklore/evermore, just given that there weren't a lot of albums being put out during that time, the overwhelming public reception to it — a lot of people who previously didn't care for (or disliked) taylor started to like her, to give her a second chance, etc. then we get into the rerecordings era/midnights/etc., which started off with fearless and nostalgia and then became "how quickly can i put out the next thing". and bailey @placeinthisworld posted this earlier, which i fully agree with. it's about the next award, the next milestone. it's just all quantity. it's overexposure.

and then we have the joe alwyn breakup and the public response to that was also ... interesting. like i saw people crying over it, or saying that love is a lie, removing things from their playlists, acting like they were the ones who had been broken up with. which is just ... odd, given that we aren't the ones in the relationship. and now there are all these comments about being a "joe defender". and then with taylor dating travis, it feels almost like some weird american pipe dream unfulfilled fantasy for so many people — the singer and the american football player. and obviously, i want her to be happy! i don't care who she dates! but i do think the public reception about her and travis has been ... incredibly odd, and i think that the way people talk about her and travis is just ... very ... off-putting and is very rooted in some weird ... stuff. "she finally gets to be small :(((((" is such a weird thing to say. it feels like there's even more projection and self-insert-y stuff with her dating travis, which is a level i did not think was possible from her fans (and more so, the general public).

i have not felt this ... detached and impassive about a taylor release, ever, and it just makes me incredibly sad because i love her music, and am excited about the work, just not excited about the public reception, the public autopsy of her and joe's relationship, or the noise, and i know that internet spaces (and spaces in general) are what we curate, but it's also difficult when she is everywhere.

#so sorry this took so long to reply to! i was out of town! #post: answered #ts critical

[dev-mars]

Garroth’s Betrayal

Garroth was in a depressive episode but even then I can’t see him betraying Aphmau and Laurance (the two people he trusts most in this world.) Like clearly Garroth can be a jealous person but he also bottles his emotions till he absolutely can’t anymore (usually till outside forces make him tell the truth.) I feel like his jealousy would have more likely led him to close himself off again and his extreme self hatred would grow rather than him just deciding to betray them. Especially because Phoenix Drop itself is one of the most important things to Garroth. But, if Zane or Lillian did something to cause Garroth to spiral and back him in corner it would make way more sense for him to rely on the only person that can understand everything he’s facing, his little brother.

Lillian says she’s a herb specialist it would have been interesting if she had given Garroth a potion or item that worsened his mental state. Something that made him more paranoid and anxious. Like Garroth has an overwhelming feeling of doom. Zane’s plan could’ve had begun as soon as they got back from the Malachi arc. Possibly, Zane found in an item that causes Garroth intense nightmares or Lillian is able to control dreams sort of similar to Malachi’s magicks . So Garroth stops getting sleep because of his nightmares. The dreams could just be a million different scenarios but they all lead to Phoenix Drop’s destruction. So he doesn’t know what’s going to happen and the cause changes in every dream. One of the worst dreams involves Laurance giving into his shadow knight form. He kills the entire village including Aphmau and her sons. Once Laurance is himself again he begs Garroth for forgiveness and death. He pleads with Garroth to make him pay for what he’s done.

All these dreams cause Garroth to begin to isolate himself. Then from his lack of sleep he begins to impair his judgement and this is when Zane really begins his manipulation. Zane reaches out to Garroth, Garte is becoming dangerous to everyone (some kind of lie that makes it seem like Zane has no where to go) he somehow creates a lie that opens up communication again. Garroth can’t differentiate between his scared kid brother and the high priest Zane, after all he still is a protector through and through.

Garroth is barely keeping it together and he’s wearing his helmet again. Everyone is noticing this change but Garroth says he’s fine and he’s still managing to keep up his duties as head guard. Garroth feels like he’s going crazy but he can’t falter everyone is relying on him. Garroth is also talking to the enemy (Zane) and he can’t tell anyone because they wouldn’t understand. The final nail in the coffin is when he sees the illusion of Laurance and Aphmau.

They kiss in the clearing and break apart to have a quiet conversation seemingly to themselves. Garroth intently listens despite his heart aching. Aphmau confesses she’s been having terrible nightmares and she falls apart in Laurance’s arms. She sees Phoenix Drop burning to the ground and Garroth realizes she’s having the same nightmares as him. Then she finally says she can’t trust anyone but Laurance and she suspects Garroth is betraying them. He’s been pulling away from them and Aph can’t even recognize him anymore and Laurance agrees with her. Garroth sneaks away after this and decides that he’ll make sure everything is okay. He’ll fix everything at Phoenix Drop and leave for O’kasis so he won’t cause them anymore pain. So, he tells Zane of his dreams, the amulet, and he agrees to go to O’kasis as long as Zane never harms the Phoenix Drop and its people. He’s convinced himself that what he’s doing is for the greater good. He can handle it. He’ll make sure everything is alright, after all he’s a protector and he never deserved Aphmau and Laurance anyway.

#aphmau #minecraft diaries #aphmau mcd #laurance zvahl #mcd rewrite #garmau #garrence #garroth ro'meave #larmau #mcd garroth

[ash-pile]

Starting a thread for myself of theories and ideas about tmp. Gonna update it as I listen to episodes.

I’ve listened to 11 as if this first post. Also I think it goes without saying but there will be spoilers here, I might not have a ton of info but I do have and reference stuff in the episodes

Jon/chester/computer bois:

I think that Jon is using the cameras and things to see and listen, which is why he’s able to give statements that are very close to what’s happening with the characters.

Also I think he is trapped, but idk if he’ll ever get out. Maybe if he and Martin get out then Jonah Magnus can too so they’ll have to choose.

I wonder if they’ll be the same if they escape?

Or if there is a jon and Martin in the world too?

The entities:

-I saw someone else say this (don’t remember who or where tho) but I think that when the web and Jon pulled the entities thru the crack in reality in tma, they got squished and melted together.

- It would explain why statements often multiple fears now.

- They are so squished/interwoven that they litterally can’t separate.

Can they still do rituals/summonings?

Alice

-Another thing I saw but makes so much sense. Alice used to hold Lena’s job/she’s secretly the boss-boss of OIAR

-would explain why she and Lena got the message that Sam was trying to access restricted files.

-I mean why would Alice of all people see that. Lena make sense but Alice would only see it if she had the same kind of access

-also It might not end up being canon but I want Alice, Sam and Gwen to end up together as a poly. The whole scene with the mocha and Alice being confused but not hostile to Gwen was sweet and I want more of that trio

Celia

-I think she and the others who weren’t in any fear domains were brought here, so Georgie and Melanie could be there too.

-Would also explain why she seems to know more about the archives that most, cause she would have heard about them from those two.

-Maybe she ends up in random places regularly hence the ‘not again’ because the world recognizes she isn’t supposed to be there

-or she’s like Micheal. Tma 198 did reveal that the cult was taken back to their domains, maybe Micheal/something like him got to her before the end?

So she’d be able to jump around with doors. Probably not on purpose tho.

-either theory explains why she’s looking into dimensions and space and physics things

Lena/OIAR

-I think that when Jon and Martin and Jonah and the fears came through, they came through at a different time but same space. The explosion from the gas destroying the building would have been brought over at the same time and thus destroyed the archives in this world

-and maybe if it was an important place for the eye/the eye is ‘staying’ there/leftover energy from the panopticon, maybe thats why redcanary was so affected and pulled out their eyes. They were forced to by some kind of eye powers

-so with that, I think OIAR formed to document what changes came about after the fears came through. And their database doesn’t work with the fears separately cause they aren’t separate any more

-I haven’t figured out what Lena’s deal is yet, I just think she’s aware of the fears in someway and uses them/avatars/whatever the monsters would be called now to control the amount of fear being spread

#the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #tmagp #tma podcast #tmagp spoilers #tmagp speculation

[aheathen-conceivably]

IF Jo runs off, I don't think it will be for long. Is she having a crisis, absolutely, but the world has changed immensely in the time she's been on the farm. She's not going to be able to make it on her smiles and sharp wit. Her struggle with perceived loss of control isn't going to improve by running away from "the trap". She is the the trap, it will follow her to the ends of the earth, much like her shadow.

That is all. Incredible. Stupendous read of her, beautiful analogy, marvelous writing. I am so happy and so touched.

Because like, yes. Exactly. Until Jo allows herself healing and vulnerability, she will always feel trapped. If not by others, then by her own emotions. The trickiest part of control is that it’s not just controlling everyone around you, is it? It’s about controlling them AND you. Even if everyone else falls in line, you still have to deal with yourself at the end of the day, and especially for Jo, she clearly does want things outside of her control (*cough cough* Gio).

Then on top of all of that, Josephine is deeply concerned with controlling her surroundings. She will not and can not feel safe without a “safety net.” And you’re right in that that is a rarity in the world she’s living in now. She absolutely knows that. We saw her realize it in this post. She knows the world she would be running into is precarious at best, and the safety of a home and family that she would be abandoning. To run away from that with no plan, no money, and no support would be dangerous and reckless.

Josephine isn’t stupid, and she certainly isn’t rash. This isn’t to say she can’t be, especially when backed into a corner, but it isn’t her nature. She’s cunning, calculated, and measured. Just like her mother. It’s only a matter of figuring out how to use that in her favor in a way that fits with the other parts of her nature, which are governed by a sense of perceived morality and loyalty for her family; OR if she can’t, and she’s backed too far into a corner first, then the rash side of her wins out despite everything she knows about the world and what running into it would mean.

#for real I teared up a little when I read this bless you Nonny #I do not know you but you have my heart ❤️ #she is the trap #UGH #that one is gunna haunt my dreams tonight I tell you 😩 #listen if I manage to work it into a post just remember this okay 😭 #ask #answered #Josephine Duplanchier extra

[fortune-maiden]

Random TGCF Thought of the Day

The urge to frankencanon Ling Wen’s revised backstory to keep all the cute moments with Bai Jing but still have Ling Wen be actively responsible for Jing Wen’s pseudo-death and somewhat responsible for Xuli’s downfall

(preferably with swd & pm’s backing)

#tgcf #ling wen #random tgcf thoughts #I am still mad about that one change in the revision #was it a censorship thing? lw can’t get away with everything in the end if she murdered someone? #everything else about the backstory is great but I refuse to acknowledge this part #how I would do it is have her actively plot against jw #she knows xuli’s downfall is coming no matter what so she decides to speed it up #after BJ refuses to withdraw for her she finds some conflict to keep him busy #and makes arrangements for other kingdoms to start invading - BJ can’t be everywhere after all #and then in the confusion actively starts burning JW’s temples #(possibly pm helps here) #(or for more fun it’s swd who borrows PM’s men and makes him complicit) #while lw stays in heaven and waits for jw to weaken enough so she could kill him #(but he manages to survive like in the og novel) #i like the idea of lw trying to keep bj safe at first but then settles for just having him elsewhere #but the general feng conflict happens anyway #and her temple burners spiral out of control #and target her own temple as well - but BJ protects it #also picturing a scene where lw warns swd about pm (who he’s kinda friendly with) #pm is a xuli man and owes jw some favors #so if swd starts an open conflict with jw he should expect PM’s help #*shouldnt #(lw is wrong about this - pm wouldn’t help jw and would prefer to stay out entirely) #(but he also doesn’t actually like jw) #(the favor jw did for him? help clear his name after the failed rebellion) #(pm never asked for that and it caused the beautiful tale to spread) #(however I do also see pm in a sort of lxc-style peacemaker role for lw swd and jw)

[sacha-da-1]

Alternate universe where Ace was in the TV movie and she saw the Doctor Professor regenerate.

Then she would’ve encountered two unorthodox versions of the Master. (Both Cheetah!Master and Goosnake!Master)

#why i don’t know bc i said so #grace and chang lee are still there #but ace gets separated from the doctor for awhile so he meets grace separately and she can’t explain anything for him or be able to help #him till later #maybe she’s trying to track him down while also tracking down the master and getting into trouble trying to stop him #maybe he gets her under his control eventually idk she’d obviously put up a good fight if he did #also i don’t know the full details of her eu departure yet so i don’t know how this would fit with that yet #just an idea #ace mcshane #doctor who tv movie #doctor who the movie #ace and her adventures with the professor’s freaky boyfriend #she’ll be like why is he like this?? can all time lords do that?! turn into snake beings after death and spit acid after possessing someone #can they just produce acid from their mouth in general what the hell 😂

[unicornofgt]

re my most recent gtms post: y’all do not get to decide if it was uncalled for for me to acknowledge the last year’s worth of events. it is not up to you. you do not have to like how or that i did it: it is not up to you, i do not care how you feel about it. as i said in my post, i did not make it as a call out, i made it as an acknowledgement to move forward. and to the people whose reaction was “why didn’t you just say no/that you were uncomfortable”: re-evaluate that take. i am not interested in dragging this out further than it needs to be and will not be addressing it again.

#also a clear example of why i do not feel safe talking to her personally is how she reacted to this: #she still views this as something i did to her and not that i felt pressured and unsafe #and it is quite simply not my responsibility to reopen wounds to spell out for the person who caused them why they hurt #not to mention that post was never meant for her—she is blocked for a reason #it was not meant for her to find and read it was not meant to send hate her way it was just to acknowledge the elephant in the room #that is it. #and yeah i knew somebody was always gonna send it to her but i can’t control what other people do #it doesn’t change that it was never meant for her #but all of this is irrelevant bc even if i did talk to her privately that post would still be necessary bc the Point is acknowledgement #i could not continue about the Point Of My Blog (gt and my ocs) with this unacknowledged #and do not brush off what i have to say just bc she makes nice art and is nice to You #that does not make my experience illegitimate i cannot believe i have to say this #also people are saying i hate neurodivergent people bc she’s ND like ?? i am also ND it excuses nothing #not to mention she knows the personal details of my traumas that make boundaries difficult to set #but however much i struggled i DID set them and they were blatantly ignored #sometimes less than 24 hours after being reinforced #anyway as i said i will not be addressing this again but this post had to be made bc some of y’all desperately missed the point

[ziracona]

I guess what should be considered with Marie is whether your character starts a relationship with her because of their shared past drawing him back to her, or because he just feels bad for what part of him did to her. I don't know about Marie, but the idea of someone hooking up with me purely out of pity would be awful, worse than a rejection. No one is obligated to start a romance they don't want to soothe someone else's pain. Of course it's all up to you and how you're playing him, godspeed

TuT everyone seems to hear my quandary as “Am I responsible for this girl’s suffering and thus indebted to get with her to make her better.”

That’s really not it at all. I’m not responsible. I didn’t do that shit. And none of this has ever been based on pity. There’s certainly a level of justice to it and what’s right vs wrong in motivation, but fairness and pity ain’t the same at all.

It’s not “Do I have a responsibility to get with Marie?” (Read: do I owe it to her to romance her to make up for what a part of me did?) — its “Do I have a responsibility to get with Marie?” (Read: is this my dead wife?)

There’s a lot to consider. But. Idk why everyone seems to hear my distress as “Should I pretend to be in love with this girl so I can right a cosmic wrong and heal her, because I’m sort of a part of what did it to her and I feel bad?” and it distress me

I’m not a bad person TuT I don’t just think that way.

It’s “If this is a part of me’s dead wife, who he destroyed and abandoned, am I to me Izanagi? And am I Izanagi to her? Because if so, that means she’s my wife. It means I’m a part of the person who abandoned her, but more than that it means I have a chance to be a better me. It means I have a ‘for better or worse’ and even if I don’t remember the me who made that vow, we are the same person, and that matters to me. I take it serious. I wouldn’t abandon my wife. If we are Izanagi and Izanami to each other, that is more important to me than my character’s preferences or former plans. That’s my wife. I have a responsibility to her, and to myself. I have a chance to end the cycle of abuse. I have a chance to save someone. And even if I don’t remember her, and don’t remember making that promise, if we are to each other those two, it doesn’t matter, and it’s my wife memory or no. And I would put everything else aside for that. That isn’t pity. It’s responsibility sure but not in a begrudging way. In a desperately important choice of love. I would chose the spouse a part of me vowed to love over everything, because they’re me even if I can’t remember, and even if I never do. I would love and become who I need to be, because if that’s my wife, it matters, and it will always matter. The question is if I have that responsibility, if I have that bond. Because I don’t know if I am Izanagi to her. And I know my thoughts and my answers, but you can’t tell someone they love you. And I don’t know if I am to her, and if she does, and I don’t know how to know. So I don’t know what to do. It’s about what I want and who I am being tied to a determinate framework, and not having the other half of the equation, and if I have to guess, trying to figure out what the right thing is to do.

#and I feel like this will still somehow be misinterpreted as something it’s not #but idk how else to say it at this point #ask #anonymous #r’s p4 run #why does everyone think this is about guilt and pity. it’s about right and wrong and loyalty and partnership and values and identity #‘you can’t tell someone they love you’ but isn’t that what you’re doing to yourself?’ — NO. it’s not!!! I love her regardless. not #maybe in the specifically amorous way but deeply. and I will regardless. but I can’t be her husband if she doesn’t view me that way. and #that’s ok! if she would be happier moving on or just doesnt and we go on as friends that’s fine! I am happy to become a new me or bring an #old me back to life and reinhabit him. I don’t like ‘want’ to date her and don’t know if that’s ok. I want to know what she wants #because that impacts what I do. I’m a third of a person in this game. and I can’t make myself be the friend or the husband to her. I can’t #choose if people see me as the whole or the fragment or which fragment. I can only live the best I can as whatever I am #but regardless I want to do right by those a part of me is bound to. just what that means changes and it changes based on a framework I hold #only minimal control over. and that makes ot all so complicated. but it matters so much. #I would be just as happy as Ryung-gu the gay single guy into Kanji as I would Ryung-gu Izanagi the part god trying to love his wife gently. #but I don’t know what I am so I don’t know what to do. which to be which is right. which I am to anyone else. and I can’t control what I am #and am not. so I’m under enormous stress

[calamitydaze]

okay i’m gonna go to sleep cause it’s late iiiiii hope i don’t wake up to nuclear bombs dropped on us

#tag ramble to try and unpack my feelings don’t take this too srs i’m just saying words: #i’m so so incredibly sad and disappointed #i never went into much detail on my feelings on the drama before this but my stance was that from q’s perspective he has a right to #be pissed (at least initially) and i don’t think he Had to say anything supportive of u.smp itself although it would’ve been nice #but once his fanbase started getting out of control (and now knowing to the extent it got) man that’s on you that’s your responsibility #ESPECIALLY if they had just previously been friends behind the scenes and dream was still under the impression that they were #i can’t fathom leaving a friend to the wolves like that #and when dream talked about things like trying desperately to reach out and getting nothing + the confusion of being friends one day and #ignored the next #and when he did things like alternating between cracking jokes about the ‘feud’ and being kinda shady— that all hit home for me personally #and if being in a similar situation hurt Me i can’t even imagine what he was feeling with his and his family’s safety in danger #and through it all he’s still being more gracious than i think i could be. i’m so so sad for him he’s always treated with such vitriol #and people don’t even think about it because it’s okay because it’s dream #and more than anything i guess i’m thinking about how it didn’t have to be this way #from dream’s perspective at least it seems like he was doing everything in his power to smooth it over and help both of them #(and he still is by changing his concept. which he shouldn’t have to do) #and one party wasn’t willing to cooperate. and i can’t wrap my head around that #if it was just dream not getting a response i could say Oh well maybe it was just a mistake maybe another horrible coincidence #but if what he says is true nobody was getting any feedback except to say they couldn’t be on both servers #and like i said i always want to hear both sides and i really hope q is willing to give his (to dream personally if nothing else) #but as someone who cares a lot for both of them and thinks they’re both great creators it just breaks my heart a bit #i’m trying to avoid being negative from the jump but i can’t pretend i haven’t lost respect for q over this #anyway. christ i wrote war and peace over here goodnignt i hope it all looks better in the morning #much love to you all #bella talks

[yampidimp]

I fucking love miitopia literally my favorite video game

not even for the character customization because I play the 3DS version more lol I just love it so much because of the everything

I do have MAJOR complaints but the good far outweighs the bad for me

#the complaints being #the multiple paths that are just kinda there for padding/grinding #the game is extremely easy so that’s not really needed and is just annoying especially when the diverging path is right at the end #like come on #also the difficulty but it’s not meant to be hard so I’ll give that a pass #I think you should be able to toggle auto battle on and off for your whole party #or just make it so you can control everyone but funny stuff will still happen regardless #I know why they made the party do their own thing but the AI sucks sometimes #and if you change out your player character for anyone you just can’t control anyone in your party and you’re basically just watching #but like. I get it because it’s intended to be more of an experience than a serious game #it’s just annoying lol #also if your mii comes back with a banana instead of armor you should get the option to just kill them.

[sobekc]

thinking of making a slightly shameful self-insert werewolf character/story even though I’m absolute dog shit at making characters and narratives

#I haven’t had an oc since my warrior cats days back when I was 12/13 #here’s the lore i’ve come up with so far: #Character lives in the mid/northern Catskills with their mother #somehow they become a werewolf which in this case is a humanoid wolf monster/borderline furry that has the whole bloodlust thing going on #at some point they eat a few yuppies and figure out that they’re a werewolf since they don’t have any memory of being in werewolf form #there’ve been some reports of some weird roided coyotes deeper in the woods so Character tries to find them #it turns out that theyre werewolves and the bloodlust can be reduced/eliminated but the werewolf must permanently take on a wolfish form #the bloodlust is caused by the transformation into werewolf form so the more wolf you decide to become the less bloodlust you feel #you can choose to become more wolfish but you can’t go back to being more human except.. #werewolves live freakishly long and if they develop enough self control/wisdom or whatever they can change back towards a more human form #more like a lycanthrope but they’ll always revert to wolfy form on full moons #still figuring out how they shift into a permanent werewolf form but it’ll probably be some ritual #I also don’t know what the werewolf form actually looks like bc i’m indecisive #the end hopefully I get good at drawing so I can actually make this stuff #ocs