#i know i shouldnt care. i know

[chestcrush]

already made this post on my old account but i’m going to say it again.

“smooth brained” as an insult is ableist. full stop. there is no way for it to not be. lissencephaly is a legitimate brain malformation that is always fatal- the oldest person with it made it to 30. most die before they reach 10.

there is no cure. it is incredibly painful and debilitating. it is not funny to use a disability as an insult, especially when you’re using it to avoid using the R slur, and to tell someone that the reason why they act “strange” is because they must have a brain condition.

#vita.txt #ableism #actually disabled #disability #disability awareness #i actually shouldnt HAVE to say this but so many of you just dont care #also if u give me that bullshit of ‘you could be nicer people dont know’ go jump

[unfortunatelyilikebnha]

Thinking about the KaeyaJeanDiluc friendship where they grew up together and they were CLOSE & sure maybe Jean felt like Diluc & Kaeya were closer since they were brothers & sure maybe Kaeya felt like he had to keep secrets from the two of them bc they would never understand but they were like. A trio! A team!

& then Diluc’s 18th birthday comes around and everything goes to shit and Diluc LEAVES so they’re no longer KaeyaJeanDiluc but just Kaeya & Jean & in some ways Kaeya and Jean get closer because of it but there’s also a pronounced DISTANCE where Jean doesn’t know how to reach Kaeya anymore & Kaeya is even more determined not to tell Jean anything & they both lose themselves in their duties to Mondstadt while also missing Diluc and ALSO, despite everything, offering each other unconditional support

& then Diluc comes BACK & in addition to Kaeya & Jean there’s the shaky reestablishment of Jean & Diluc and Diluc & Kaeya but it’s not THE SAME. they’re no longer KaeyaJeanDiluc; Jean & Kaeya are knights and Diluc will never be a knight again & they all changed while Diluc was away & none of them know how to talk to each other anymore AND YET there’s still an undercurrent of trust!! Not fully, especially between Kaeya & Diluc, but Diluc still calls on Jean during the archon quest, trusting that she will keep their secrets even though as the acting grandmaster she should probably not. Jean says in her about Diluc voiceline that she understands why Diluc hates the knights & is working hard to make them an organization he can trust again. Kaeya covers for Diluc’s darknight hero escapades & fondly reminisces about their childhood in front of him. Diluc invited Kaeya to dinner at the winery & (afaik) never told anyone about Kaeya’s origins. Kaeya tells the traveler that they need to give Jean their full support and planned a birthday party for her. Jean left Kaeya in charge of Mondstadt when she went to the golden apple archipelago! On some level they recognize that their goals still align!! There’s still trust and love there but there’s also this gap between them that none of them know how to cross and I just!!!

#kaeya #kaeya alberich #diluc #diluc ragnvindr #jean #jean gunnhildr #genshin impact #YOU CAN TRY TO REASSEMBLE THE PIECES BUT THEY WILL NEVER FIT THE SAME WAY. AND MAYBE THEY SHOULDNT. #I DONT KNOW IF THIS MAKES SENSE AT ALL I’M JUST GOING INSANE THINKING ABOUT THEM #GRIPPING THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE. HEY DO YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT KAEYA JEAN AND DILUC BC I SURE DO. #also not blaming diluc for the leaving btw I feel like it was necessary for him #it’s just emphasized bc of how it contributed to the change in their dynamic #I can’t always put it into words right but I have a lot of thoughts about these three. #my brain is going GSVDKDBCJHDEJDHSBDVDHWBDNHSJSBSJDGSHSBSHSB rn #also also in the ‘duties to Mond’ bit I’m also not downplaying kaeyas indecision abt choosing mondstadt/Khaenri’ah #I don’t think he’s chosen & I think he has genuine love for but also feels indebted to both places #I fully reject the ‘oh kaeyas chosen Mond fuck Khaenri’ah’ takes i hate them it’s so much more complicated than that!! #he can care about both places!!! #anyways just wanted to clear that up since I didn’t really elaborate & don’t want it to be taken like that

[queenerdloser]

i just finished dark heir

#me foaming at the mouth during the last chapters: HE IS! FUCKING! SAVING YOU! #i am huddled around will kempen hissing like a mama cat none of these fuckers are allowed to look at him #dark rise #okay but like. cyrian at literally every moment in the book you see will anticipating things and making connections #that you never make. doing things like a leader & being fucking smart and strategic. and your dumb ass really thought. #hm. must mean i shouldnt listen to him about the magic staff that can literally stop the end of the world. must be evil. #me: [screams into the abyss] #i know i cant expect characters to react like readers and they DID all react like i knew they would but god it was so infuriating!!!!! #and heart breaking! god!!!! god!!!!! will reliving his mother's initial betrayal over and over and OVER again #and thinking about all the little moments we get where the novel tells us: if these 'evil' characters had just been accepted #instead of tossed aside maybe they wouldnt have fallen. if they had been protected instead of killed maybe they would have #become protectors instead of killers. maybe if will's mom hadn't tried to butcher him for the sin of his own birth #he wouldn't have been so scared to tell people he lied to them. #anyway im not normal about will kempen and if book 3 doesnt give me his friends fucking accepting him i'll kill someone #me looking directly at visander: i dont care how charming you are i'll murder your ass about it #i read this book in like 5 hrs im being very normal about it

[tangledinink]

TMNT: Stabilize [ part one ]

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#fuck it we ball #see i told yall fifteen pages was reasonable #tmnt stabilize #tmnt iteration #tmnt fan comic #tmnt fan iteration #tmnt comics #blood #blood and injury #self harm #psychosis #kinda sorta #thats the closest thing i figure i can put that'll work as a cw tag i think? #chronic illness #y'all know im always trying to find new ones to torment turtles #this guy has got kinda dark themes #degenerative illness and kids taking care of themselves and medical shit and all that jazz #and daddy splinter being mentally not there for at least some of the time #part of me is like shouldnt we wait until its not two am to post this #shouldnt we wait for a better time #but then im like #the most well received tmnt comic uve made yet u posted at 4 am the moment you finished it #so why not #fuck it #lesgo #fidgetwing #tmnt

[redrobin-detective]

#me writing my lockwood that literally one one is going to care about #I know Ive written some pretty dog shit stories with zero notes #but its an interesting experience going into the writing being like 'man literally No One is gonna want to read this' #this is for me only #probably shouldnt even bother posting #zero notes in my heart ❤ #in a way its kind of freeing like zero stress or expectations I can write my story as shitty and self indulgent as I like #I was thinking today i really want to work in skull driving and was like man thats stupid #then i realized no one but me will read this so beep beep motherfuckers this bone head is driving

[rickybaby]

T: Daniel Ricciardo has a history with the team as well and you worked with him 10 years ago when it was Toro Rosso. How has he changed in the time he has been away?

M: You walk in the team, you see Daniel and you see the race winning guy. You see in the car the guy who has been hunting for races and podiums. The Daniel you see in the car is the Daniel who was fighting for the very top position. For whatever reasons, I'm lucky to have in our team right now a race winning guy. The Daniel we have now is the best Daniel we have seen. Of course, he has had a rough patch in the last few years, but ironically, it's probably putting him now in the best mindset, in the best spirit, in the best energy. He has this incredible technical sensitivities. He's buying into the project, he's living Visa CashApp RB with us, he's proud of the colours. He's pushing us with all the positivity we know about him. In the start of a project like that, having a guy like Daniel with us driiving the car is a game-changer.

T: Have you talked to him about the rough patch?

M: It's very difficult from the outside to understand it [...] but i would lie if I was not telling you that this increases the attention level that we have in making sure we have the right condition around him. So we are very careful with him and he is part of that process. He is driving that process in making sure we put him in the right spot, 360* in what define in the car and outside of the car and how we manage this energy.

#when i keep saying that the Daniel of now goes racing with so much intent!! #the silver lining of the whole mclaren debacle has been to make him aware of what his weaknesses are but also more importantly #what his strenghts #what makes him the fast driver he knows he can be #and the way he is so careful to lean into that now!! #and to have a team that's willing to put the work in to give him what he needs!! #he is still the daniel that dragged that dogshit renault to places it shouldnt have been!!! #daniel ricciardo #laurent mekies #byg

[candycatstuffs]

uhm. erhm.

#10k what the fuckkkk 😳😭😭 #jesus man. i never thought id have that #i try not to bring it up but i really have trouble believing i deserve the attention my art gets. especially since ive really slowed down #but thank you guys so. so much #for caring #for making me feel like my art matters #like i matter #yesyes i know shouldnt equate self worth with my art im workin on it fsjkdjg #anyway i hope u guys r doin ok :] <33

[satsuha]

valerio for 60min challenge

#dragalia lost #satsuhart #valerio #it was over 60mins but i wasnt really sure how long but it shouldnt have been over 90min...? #anyway the way i went from eh to AWOOGA @ valerio the moment he tied his hair needs to be studied #like i am so neutral-neg towards long haired men (women too actually but i mind it less w female chars) but the moment its in a ponytail i #i just think alt hairstyles are nice.. but i also just really... dont care for untied straight long hair i think its visually boring #anyway i totally forgot he got a spiral LOL i was checking his release date for something after drawing this and i saw it again #icr if i ever used him in endgame? but probably not bc i kinda suck at controlling stance users and its awful to let them ai... #i must have done kaleido with him tho... i did it with about half the cast #anyway did you know valerio has a little fang ? its so cute even tho it only shows up when hes being really emo about primia

[ganondoodle]

i have seen alot about it on twitter but very littel here so im gonna mention it jsut because it makes me sad/angry how quickly people are okay with studios doing shitty things if they find a game funny enough- (take it with a grain of salt since i havent been able to do research on it on my own)

so recently a new game released called 'palworld', its a blatant pokémon rip off (or a weird mix of that with some shooter game idk) but with guns hooray, and i am not here to defend the giant that is pokémon (im well aware their games arent exactly the greatest lately) but plagiarism is plagiarism and not only does it steal from pokémon itself but also stole fakemon designs made by fans (the examples i saw were literally 1 to 1)

as other people have been finding out the owner of the studio is also really into AI, so its not out the question that its been used in there, and is also of the opinion that anything they see can just be taken, be it idea or design; the studio itself seems to be build around copying whatever is popular (the examples i saw were well .. pokémon, breath of the wild and hollow knight) kinda like those shitty copies of popular movies meant to trick parents into buying the wrong one

just now i also learned that apparently you can sell people into slavery in the game (people, not "just" the "pals"), cool.

its already made a big impact, half the streamers i follow are playing it to thousands of people and i heard it made millions in profit already, which, given how the whole hogwarts legacy bs went down, maybe shouldnt surprise me, but at a time of artist struggeling against being stolen from and shitty game studios releasing shitty games, betting on or already replacing artists with AI and still make billions, AND in dark times in general i find it especially disheartening

people are proudly yelling about not caring about anything off about the game or the studio bc they either find the premise funny enough or just hate pokémon so strongly they laugh and dance about the stealing, actively cheering it on and more

i guess i shouldnt be surprised by anything anymore after seeing people actively cheering on a genocide but here we are. (do not try to argue with me, i know what "inspiration" is, i know what "you cant copyright an idea" means, it either doesnt apply here or isnt the point, fuck off.)

#ganondoodles talks #random #literally anyone trying to talk about it on tiwtter is getting spammed with comments of gamer bros #going LOL I DONT CARE HAHAA #and FUCK POKEMON LOLOLO LWHY YOU DEFEDNING BIG CORPO #again- not the point #i even saw someone asking where to submit designs they want them to rip off #like man i KNOW i shouldnt be surprised anymore #but i still am #just how awful people can be over stuff like this #and really it shouldnt be a good sign either that i shouldnt be surprised anymore #bc i have seen so much shit #thats a bad thing

[mercumeme]

#guy fieri #im SO BUMMED #I know i shouldnt care about celebrities bc theyre all rich scumbags but sigh

[cemeterything]

my dad is exactly the same "why are you wearing these unflattering clothes. a girl should not hide her forms" 1) not a girl 2）kgkfjfjfjksks so weird and why are you obsessed about how your kids dress uunh like thats so weird (my sister dresses too "provocatively" for him so theres really no winning)

good luck, and fuck dads

honestly. it doesn't stop being creepy and uncomfortable just because it's your parents saying it. if anything it makes it even more creepy.

#like obviously parents are allowed to have opinions on how their kids look thats normal #but theres a difference between having an opinion and treating your kid like theyre your property/an extension of you #and phrasing is important #like i wouldnt mind if my dad said 'speaking as a man men will find you less attractive if you dress/look like this'. respectfully i dont #care but i appreciate the well meaning advice i guess. whereas saying 'you shouldnt dress like this it makes you look bad. im a man so i #know what men like and you dont look like it.' is just rude. and a bit creepy.

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Not to keep beating dead horses like I so much love to do but I am still completely Flabbergasted and Astonished at how you (Merle Ambrose) could discover the most terrifying fact that a child that is essentially under your care has been indoctrinated into a cult (which, by the way, a process that has taken over the course of years) ((by an agent that has been stationed in a direct position to make it easier to access and manipulate children, that has easily escaped your notice for such a long time)) that worships a nihilistic entity whose ultimate goal is the absolute and total destruction of Everything and Everyone around you, and your one, single, simple-sentenced response to that is to say "Oh, that's a shame. He (Duncan) always was pretty terrible. Hope he gets better someday." And then to move on from those extremely worrying and dangerous bundle of issues permanently without taking any sort of action to protect the vulnerable and make sure nothing like this ever happens again

#i love ambrose as a character but the things he does makes me clench my fists so hard blood circulation gets cut off #the absolute.... lack of care ambrose has for certain things literally render me speechless #and like okay in his uh. in his uh “defense”. there was like. other stuff going on at the time. i get that #like the end of the world for the 7th time yeah there were other things on ambrose's plate #but i dont know how many different ways to put “your children are being manipulated and kidnapped into a cult that means them harm under- #-your nose and it can absolutely happen again“ and make that stick #you... i #that is a horrifying fact to learn and the response is dismissive at BEST #like im not saying ambrose should adopt all 800 children that go to his school or whatever #but like... DO SOMETHING #you have COMPLETE AND UTTER INFLUENCE OVER THE NATIONAL GUARD. DO YOU REMEMBER THAT? USE THAT #send out watch parties! hold stranger danger assemblies! have adults regularly check in with kids! install a curfew! ANY OF THOSE THINGS? #like even if ambrose couldnt single-handedly stop a powerful cult he could at least make an effort.... AN EFFORT #ONE ATTEMPT. TO MAKE SURE ****HIS**** SCHOOL AND STUDENTS ARE SAFE........ #and the fact that he says something along the lines of “well duncan was always fucked up” ☹️☹️☹️☹️ #this shouldt surprise me fir the man who for 1. some reason refuses to fix the death school #2. does not care about dworgyn or mortis in the least #3. keeps trying to pressure necromancers to change schools #4. kidnapped US from earth and used us. #it really shouldnt but........ but #im gonna say it and idc (/lh) if its unpopular. ambrose should not be in power #he is incompetent at best. he is harmful at worst. #he does NOTHING 99.9% of the time and the one Tuesday where he takes action it makes something worse. he should not be in power #this post is /lh but idk. im a little angry #NOT SERIOUSLY ANGRY BUT CMON MAN. CMON BRO #if the game utilized ambrose's potential more and pointed out how useless/paranoid/rash he can be i would ascend to heaven #i would like literally one person (who isnt a villain) in the game to look at ambrose and say “wow hes kinda fucked up” #THATS THE BARE MINIMUM BUT I WILL ACCEPT THAT I WILL. #kind of unrelated but im kinda mad that the only person to correctly point out how weird ambrose is is morganthe #the murderous tyrant. the person we're not supposed to listen to. because she's evil. she couldnt POSSIBLY be right about Good Guy Ambrose!

[toubledrouble]

You know what we should bring back?

Older christianity. I mean the anti government, anti military, community based christianity. The one that cared the most about peace, equality, mercy, kindness, and radical love. The one with shared property. The one that didn't conform to society but instead existed mostly outside of it. The one where noone considered one sin worse than another because in the end, we are all sinners trying our best to be better.

#“progressive christians are ignoring the bible except for ”love thy neighbour“” #yeah well LOVE OVER VERSES #quit it. im tired of this. just. can we just be nice to everyone?? please?? peace and love on planet earth?? #“being gay is a sin tho” “wow this is so immodest” do i look like i care? does jesus look like he cares? i dont think so. #go stab out your eye or smth if you wanna live by the law so badly huh??? #funny how suddenly it isnt literal and shouldnt be done because humanity learned and grew since that was written #*points to the verses used to justify homophobia* i mean literally this whole concept changed since then it isnt even the same thing #screaming at the top of my lungs while punching the wall like please please dont cherry pick the bible #“*blank* is a sin” do you like seafood tho?? is your clothing from mixed fabrics?? did you shave?? #im just saying that maybe you should let the spirit guide you instead of following the law blindly. what do i know tho. im just a stranger. #queer christian #progressive christianity #i guess?? #my religious rants #leftist christianity? anarchist christianity? i do not know??

[spaciebabie]

dawg pls dont interact w/my more explicit posts if you're a kid oh my lord 😭😭 this is your only warning after this imma start blocking

#spacie spoinks #YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER!!! #IT MAKES ME FEEL STRANGE AND UNCOMFY!! STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #YOU'LL BE ABLE TA DO IT WHEN YOU TURN 18 OKAY WAIT UNTIL THEN LIKE I DID #i really dont care if minors follow me but PLEASE have the awareness that i am an ADULT and will post about ADULT THINGS #that you SHOULDNT INTERACT WITH IF YOU ARE A CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #oye vaye #OYE VAYE.... #YOU CANT HAVE THESE CONVERSATIONS WITH ME. I AM AN ADULT GO HAVE THEM W/YOUR FRIENDS WHO ARE OF THE SAME AGE

[kokoasci]

every time i post i am reminded that some of my irls follow me on twt/instagram (not here afaik. thank goodness) sorry guys for being way too invested in a manga based on dead authors. i may be cringe but i am free

#i feel like in high school or younger like ok. thats cool and i was the weird art kid in middle school so like ok youre just like that + #and its a phase you go into of making stuff for something you enjoy #but im in college now adulting and doing real life things and im like. is this childish to draw and whatever #i love drawing and stuff so whatever i draw is really just for me to explore a hobby #idk. maybe im reading too far into this i know i shouldnt care about what other people think but these are ppl i look up to and am close wi #also every time my irls have found my art account its been an ACCIDENT when they see me on my phone or something 😭😭😭 that is NOT + #information i give out randomly im way too embarrased for that they do not need to know i go by a whole different persona online very far + #removed from my irl stem student duties

[littlelightfish]

The hearts don't mean he is in love with no one. The problem with English is how vague of the word love is in his meaning. It envolves different kinds of caring in one single word. But I'll try to express here what I mean.

He cares, as a person, about everyone. This is a basic level of love that he haves towards everybody. He doesn't want anyone to actually die, that's what I mean. He doesn't necesarily cares about someone, but he loves them enough to not want them to die.

He starts befriending someone and gets to know it. He starts liking things about them and disliking others. He starts loving this people in another way, we'll call it liking. This is more a get-to-know phase he doesn't always like. The less he knows, the less reasons to get attached get attached he has. I think this are the kind of love the hearts show in the image. He has to make sure to keep a balance between how much he loves and how much he let's himself be loved. He doesn't want to have misunderstandings. He is in constant fear of "what if I made them love me more and they care more?"

And then it comes the deeply care that love is in the non-romantic way. This care a (good) parent has for his babies. The love that makes people suffer emotionally in an absolute different way from what it could be a heartbreak or a misunderstanding between friends. If something happens to the loved one, the pain is unbearable. It's one of the worst things rhat can happen. And Chilchuck knows this, he is father of three daughters, and his wife left him. She left, he knows the pain it is to come home and find it empty when there should be someone. He knows the guilt it comes with failing those loved ones. The shame. He doesn't like being this vulnerable. This love makes him suffer like no other does. So he is very very carefull of how much he allows himself to care about someone so he won't get to love like this.

He draws a line between work and private life because his private life envolves love and deep care, and he doesn't want to love nor care like this for people who's job is to constantly risk their lifes. He doesn't want to feel the anguish, he doesn't want to feel the loneliness it will come after the unenviable separation of the party.

He tries his best to not get attached to people. To not let people get attached to him. But he fails. He fails and falls downstairs with a whole drum set.

He can't help but to care about this people. He can't help but to love this people he's been living with the past few weeks in the risking of their lifes. He tells himself he's doing this for money and that he doesn't care, but he does.

Those hearts don't mean anything other than him caring about them. He cares about Senshi. He cares about Marcille. He cares about Laios. About Itsuzumi. About Namari. He cares in a way that hurts. He loves this people. He doesn't want to even imagine a world in where they are gone, or suffering, or in problems. They're his friends, they're something he, unwillingly, accepts as family.

He cares about Falin and Mickbell because he doesn't want them dead. He doesn't feel any anguish toward if they do or not get hurt after they're out of his sight. Sure, he cares, but he can live without thinking about them the rest of his days. It doesn't happen like that with Laios. He can't just simply let Laios go and follow Fallin just after he recover consciousness from a punch in the gut. Was it Mickbell, he would let him if he really didn't wanted. But Laios didn't wanted to sit and wait, and he had to care. He had to verbalize to himself that he cared. He had to let them know, so they would act accordingly. So they won't get themselves killed like idiots.

He doesn't want others to fall in romantic love with him. He doesn't feel romantic love towards anyone either. He isn't the man for this kind of love. He is, in fact, afraid of it. He doesn't want to fall in love, because he's still in love with his wife. She left him because he was negligent. But since when has this become the definitive stop for love? Chilchuck knows his wife is angry at him, and she has all the reason to be so! His husband, the one she loved and cared for, gets himself in dangerous situations, treats his body poorly and almost never is home. She loves him, and it hurts her to love like this, so she leaves. Like this she won't have to look at him get himself mistreated like he does. She would have the pull in her's stomach that tells her that he could be in great danger, that she could become a widow, but she tries to calm it with his daughter's mail to him. He could never. He can't imagine a world in wich they cease to exist. A world without his wife, even if she distanced herself, without his daughters, would be a world worthless of living. He knows this. Because he cares and he loves in such a deep level that he is scared of loving anyone else like this. To become so vulnerable to emotion. This vulnerable to something bad happening.

The fact that he is so afraid of loosing his wife, even after she left him, says a lot. He still cares about her. He is still in love with her. He wants to go back to what it was before, but he can't and he know its his fault. And he respects his wife's distance because he loves her. Now, he doesn't love her in the movie way, he isnt in love like a teenager would to his first girlfriend, he doesn't want to kiss her, or hug her, or be by her side at all moments of the day. He loves her. He cares about her deeply, deeply enough that he doesn't need to be by her side to care, to love. He also respects her. He can survive without her because he knows she's better with his daughter. For sure he wants to hug, kiss and be by the side of this person he loves, it would be ideal, but he can survive without thinking about it too much. It's just like with his daughters. They're all adults that now live far from him. And he is ok with it now. He sends mail and recieves mail, and even if he misses greatly, he can manage not to think about it. Because he knows she is allright. Because he knows he fucked up. He doesn't know where he fuked up, but for his wife to leave him, at least he knows he did. They never talked about it, because they both seem to have a problem in expressing themselves. She fell into a bad mood and then she disappeared. The amount of pain he must have felt it's... let's say it's quite big.

He keeps his guard up. He doesn't want to love deeply anyone. He doesn't want to feel the emptiness, the hurt, that comes after someone so dear leaves. He knows for a fact he'll be leaving this people. He knows that they could die. If he loves, it will hurt in a way nothing else hurts. He will miss. He doesn't like missing people he cares like this. This is why he doesn't want to love. This is why he doesn't want to be loved. This is why those hearts that are almost full are his main source of concern. This is why he makes the effort to keep this feelings at bay, to love only in the friendly way and with extreme caution.

But he can't controll his own love. And he ends up caring more and more about these people. He slowly makes him a part of the dangerous love zone that family means. He is afraid to confuse someone about his feelings towards them, so he still tries to maintain distance with his abusive remarks, but this only works so far. He loves and is loved. And because of this he will suffer.

I... I extended myself a bit I see...

#i dont even know what im talking about anymore #but i hope i made sense #as an aroace i feel the need of being extra cautious about how people think of my relationship with them #because I dont want them to like me romantically #i want friendship #because its so uncomfortablr #not #love #so this Chil here is basically me trying to figure out if saying certain things could be considered flirting or not by the other #i shouldnt care #it isnt my fault if they do fall in love with me #but i would be happier if they didnt #to know someone is in love wirh you #and that you dont love him back #but youre still friends #so youre friends but the other wants to be more than that #and to avoid that i gotta measure every interaction #maybe im a bit paranoid #but it has happened to me to have friends fall in love with me #and i dont want to hurt their feelongs but i definitely dont lovs rhem bacj #because i care abkut them in a friendly way #and i don't want them to suffer because of me. but I dont want to suffer because of them either #its all way to complicated? yes bit thing is that chil here represents me interacting with my friends #but in my case the hearts would be romantic #dungeon meshi #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #my shit