#i know ill forever be beating a dead horse complaining about my self harm scars but

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#i know ill forever be beating a dead horse complaining about my self harm scars but #its so fckn hot out and i just want a normal body that i can exist comfortably in and clothe however i want to #summer never ever gets easier for me and it always makes me want to die #like literally #my SH scars make me feel like i cant exist in this world #i know its probably annoying to hear bc i did it to myself but #i had reasons #and i cant dress comfortably and spend the entire summer getting comments abt how i must be sweltering in my jeans and long sleeves #and i cant sleep around with ppl #and physical intimacy scares me #and i cant roll my sleeves up to wash my hands or if im doing something messy like painting or cooking #cant wear shorts to the gym or if i go on a hike #i cant do shit and it hurts lmfao