#i know im running high

[cubbyhole-for-flea-bee]

i have learned what shadowpeach is! and i think its hilarious

sun+moon coded, friends-to-enemies-to-?????? duo is so interesting i wanna put them under a microscope

#lmk #lego monkie kid #six eared macaque #monkey king #sun wukong #fanart #shadowpeach #...i may end up drawing more lmk fanart that is mostly this dude #fights between these two could be very funny #cuz they don't *actually* wanna set back their reconciliation so they gotta hold tails after #but if u think u saw that no u didn't mind ya bizznizz #(im ignoring how with a relationship this complicated they could also be Unpleasantly Violent And Emotional) #be very funny if mac's taller but people don't realize cuz wukong's floof goes that high #the fact that macaque is a shady (HOHO :D) antagonist what got sucked into the found family AND a theatre kid has made him one of my faves #is he actually running/participating in local theatre on the side i NEED to know #is it just shadowplays or does he like rent it out to other productions too that he can watch #i wanna see him react to hadestown and/or shakespeares tragedies being the only 1 in the room who doesn't know #like imagine watching romeo+juliet and when it hits the scene where mercutio bites it flabbergasted monkey screeches erupt from the back ro

[mumpsetc]

If you draw suitcase with spotify shuffle I will bite and tear and rummage around like a rabjd aniaml pretty pretty llease carrie? 🥺

(Comment but in ask form so you don't forget)

'Round here, I think the water's poisoned To test it out, I drank a lot As a kid, I lived through Project Monarch This butterfly tattoo sure means a lot

California Wine By Girls Rituals

#Inanimate Insanity #Suitcase Inanimate Insanity #Balloon Inanimate Insanity #Nickel Inanimate Insanity #ii suitcase #ii Nickel #ii Balloon #Inanimate Insanity 2 #ii2 #I Was Playing With the Idea Here of 'Sour Grapes' #Yknow the Aesop Right? Where the Fox Jumps and Jumps and Exhausts Itself Trying to Eat Some Grapes on a High Branch #Only to Grow Frustrated and Say They Must Be Sour Anyways? #Well Im Sort of Running With That Idea #Yknow That Suitcase is Desperately Trying to Get Genuine Friendship Only for Those Grapes to Be Sour #Poison Even #And Yknow Even If You Know That That Doesnt Make You Less Hungry #This is Because the Song is About Wine and Has Grapes On the Album Cover Btw 100% #You Can Tag It As Nickloon Idc Its Not Meant to Be Frankly I Hope They Both Die #Dreamy Art #I WILL BE GOIN OUT OF TOWN SOON SO ART WILL STOP... Ill Try n Crank Out the Remaining Requests But Heads Up

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

heya, i have to wake up in three hours but! here's another lil human au snippet! ft. lightly implied Laughingstock! disclaimer i am so so tired so don't come at me for typos or strangely worded sentences or missing info <3

~

Before heading home, Eddie swings by a charming little store he’s been to once or twice before. He usually goes to the chain store by his house, but he doesn’t feel like dealing with the hustle and bustle and the endless aisles. This little store is quiet, nice, and strangely has everything anyone could need. 

The lot is mostly empty at this hour, so Eddie claims a spot right at the front. As with the other times, the windows are littered with displays and stickers - half off on this, sale on that. Eddie enters Howdy’s Place with the chime of the door’s shopkeeper’s bell. He’ll get what he needs and get out, quick and easy and peacefu-

Boisterous laughter slams into Eddie like a hammer, so sudden that he jumps in place. An employee stocking cans nearby glances weirdly at him. Eddie clears his throat and hurries into the nearest aisle as the laughter tapers off. The silence barely lasts a second before loud chatter starts up. It’s too fast and muffled for Eddie to understand, but he can pick out two distinct voices - one deep, one less so but still decidedly masculine. 

Eddie tries to tune it out as he gathers what he needs. Toothpaste, some paper towels, shampoo. For the hell of it, he nabs a box of classic bran muffins from the spacious food section. He lingers for a moment, enjoying how far-away the conversation seems at the other corner of the store. Unfortunately, theft is illegal, so Eddie is forced to move towards the noise.

A strange thing about the store - it’s a combination general store, antique shop, and diner, complete with a miniature gift shop separating the two. One long checkout counter stretches from the open store area, behind the gift shop, and into the diner, where the conversation is coming from. An interesting setup, but an understandable one. It allows anyone behind the counter to move fluidly between customers and sections.

As Eddie approaches, the conversation becomes slightly clearer. 

“-said, no wonder you didn’t get her number!” the deeper voice barks, and the two dissolve into that almost-too-loud laughter again. 

As it tapers off, the other voice says, “Sounds like a real charmer! But really, you oughta be careful, Barn. One of these days someone’s gonna throw a right hook at ya.”

Eddie’s eyebrows shoot up. A transatlantic accent? He hasn’t heard that anywhere outside of real old movies and a queen he once knew. It sounds natural too, like the man was born to sound like he belongs on a 1920s radio show. It nudges something in the back of Eddie’s mind. He’s started to get really sick of that nudge.

“Oh, this guy did.”

“No kidding? I don’t see a shiner.”

“Well, yeah. I went left.”

Both of them laugh again, and Eddie feels a tiny tug at the corner of his mouth. That wasn’t funny enough to garner an actual laugh in his opinion, but it wasn’t unfunny. 

Eddie steps up to the counter and quietly puts his acquired items on it, not wanting to interrupt. He chances a glance to the side - walking space in front of the counter’s length lets him see right down into the diner.

A large man with dyed-blue hair and an interesting fashion sense is at the bar, talking to an employee leaning against the other side. The employee doesn’t really catch Eddie’s gaze, but the other man… Eddie swears he’s seen him before. He studies him from the corner of his eye, not wanting to be rude but unable to mind his business. 

“Our bouncer didn’t even get a chance at the action - the idiot knocked himself out tryin’ a second swing!” The customer says. His deep voice, wavering with humor, only adds to the sense of familiarity. Metal glints in his right ear. Eddie knows this man from somewhere.

The employee shakes his head, tutting. His busy hands polish a vintage pitcher. “I swear, you get all the crazies.”

“Makes for a good story, though.” The customer takes a sip from his tall milkshake and scoffs. “Though if it wasn’t all well-ending, amusing bull, I doubt I’d be so tolerant.”

Minutes drag by as the two keep talking. Eddie goes from patiently waiting to awkwardly trying to get the employees attention. If only there was someone else behind the counter, but the only other staff member is elsewhere, likely still stocking shelves. 

The two men are too absorbed in their little world, even though both are facing Eddie’s way. The customer has both elbows on the counter, one of them bent to prop up his chin. The employee has his hip leaned against the edge as they chat. They’re obviously very familiar with each other, and clearly deeply enjoy each other's company. 

Still - and Eddie is sorry to say, but it’s bad customer service. He’s not in a rush, but he’d still like to be on his way home. He could be fishing out the complex keys right now. He checks his phone - he’s been here for nearly fifteen minutes. Picking out the items took less than five. 

Eddie sighs, staring at the various cigarette packs displayed behind the counter. He’s never seen the appeal in smoking, but as the laughter starts up again, he almost wishes he did. He’s going to treat himself to a very long shower once he gets home. 

The store’s other employee walks behind the counter, carrying a box. Eddie lights up. Finally - she pointedly clears her throat and heads into the back. 

The constant conversation stalls for the barest moment, and he looks over. The customer grins at him for a second - lord he’s handsome - before turning that grin towards his friend.

“You’re losin’ your touch, Howds,” he teases, bringing his shake straw to his lips.

“I resent that statement. You’re just distracting.”

“Lil’ me? Distracting? C’mon, you can just tell me I’m pretty to my face. I’ll take it like a champ, I swear!”

“Ha, good try.” The employee sets the pitcher down and starts to mosey in Eddie’s direction. “Your ego is big enough for the both of us as is. One more compliment and your head’ll pop like a balloon.”

“Well, given that most balloons don’t really pop, they just kinda deflate slowly-”

“Sorry for the wait!” the employee says loudly in a glaringly obvious customer service tone. He stops in front of Eddie with a cardboard smile. At the other end of the counter, the familiar man snickers and hides his grin behind his drink. “I trust you found everything you did - and didn’t! - need.”

Eddie just stares up at him for a moment. At six-one, Eddie hasn’t felt small in a very long time. He usually stands at least a full inch above other people. This employee - Howdy, his name tag states - has several more on him.

“Uh, y-yes, I uh, I did,” Eddie stammers, glancing at his items. 

“Wonderful! And again, my sincerest apologies for the delay. My friend makes a game out of keeping me from my job.” Howdy shoots his ‘friend’ a glare with enough heat in it to make an ice cube sweat. 

“No worries.”

Howdy scans the items at an almost frightening speed. Beep, into a paper bag. Beep, in. Beep, beep - “Oh, no.”

“What?” Eddie says, dread plucking at his ribs as Howdy holds the bran muffins and shakes his head. “Is there somethin’ wrong?”

“Indeed there is! You’re making a mistake with these. They’re absolutely horrible, I tell ya - and bad for you, too!” Howdy tuts and puts the box to the side. “No, no, you don’t want those.”

“I… don’t?”

“Not if you knew better! Lucky for you, I’m here to set you straight. What you need is-” he snaps his fingers, “Barnaby, be a pal and-”

“Already on it,” ‘Barnaby’ says, appearing next to Eddie.

If Eddie weren’t already paralyzed, he’d jump right out of his skin from how Barnaby towers over him. He has to be a scant inch or so shorter than Howdy, but he still makes Eddie feel tiny. Unfortunately, Barnaby is even more handsome up close. 

“Here ya go.” Barnaby hands a plastic container to Howdy and taps it, smiling lazily down at Eddie. “I’d take his advice on this one. Those bran-named muffins may sound fancy, but they’re pretty crumby! You want muffins of quality. Real breadwinners!

Eddie can’t help a soft laugh. “Breadwinners, heh, that’s a good one.”

“Are you selling these or am I?” Howdy says, raising a bushy eyebrow. 

“Hey, I’m just doin’ what you asked! I’m bein’ a pal.”

“And I - I’m sorry," Eddie interjects, "but you’re awfully familiar. Do I know you from somewhere?”

“Eh, I’ve been around, but uh… you ever been to [INSERT GAY BAR NAME HERE]?”

Howdy clears his throat. “I’m trying to make a sale here, Barn. You can flirt on your own dime when you’re not costing me mine.”

“Didja know your nose gets redder when you’re jealous?”

Howdy rolls his eyes and shoves Barnaby in the diner’s direction. Barnaby goes with a hearty snicker. Despite the joke, Eddie thinks it has some merit as Howdy scans the final item and rings him up, considerably frostier than before.

Belatedly, Eddie realizes that he didn’t actually agree to the different muffins. Too late now. “Say, what kind of muffins are those?”

“Poppyseed-lemon.”

Eddie relaxes - that is a lot better than boring bran. “Y’know, my mother loved poppyseed-lemon muffins.”

“Did she now,” Howdy drawls.

“Like you wouldn’t believe! If baking was so much as mentioned, she’d jump right on houndin’ us to whip some up for her, or send us to go buy some. We’d never even get a taste! They’d be gone the moment they hit the air, I tell ya.” Eddie chuckles. “Took me a while to understand what all the fuss is about, but man was she right. They are good!”

“Uh-huh. Well, we have a fresh batch delivered every morning. They’re not the same type every time, mind you, but I can promise that they’re all of the highest quality.”

“Breadwinners, right?” Eddie jokes. Howdy doesn’t blink, but Barnaby snorts. He’ll take it. “I might have to come by more often, if that’s the case! Thank you kindly, sir.”

“Mhm, have a good day.” Howdy hands him the bag and strides away without a glance. The dismissal is clear as day. “Say, Barn, did you hear about the racket one of those cult crackpots stirred up at our dear friend’s tearoom?”

Eddie doesn’t catch the tail-end of the sentence as he hurries away, but he frowns. Cult? What cult? There’s a cult? He certainly didn’t hear of one before moving here, and none of his background checks had turned up anything of the sort. He hopes it was just a figure of speech. 

The door chimes again as Eddie leaves. It isn’t until he’s in his car that the embarrassment of that whole exchange catches up with him. If he had a nickel for every time he’d made a fool of himself in front of a gorgeous, strangely familiar man, he’d have three nickels. At the rate he’s going, he’ll either be rich, or he’ll have to move. 

Eddie subtly tries to peek around the store’s window displays from the safety of his car. He catches a scant glimpse of blue hair - come to think of it, it’s a similar shade to Wally’s. But where Wally’s had, to Eddie’s memory, been uniformly dyed right down to his eyebrows, Barnaby’s rich brown roots were obvious. His beard and eyebrows weren’t dyed, either. 

As Eddie relaxes back into his seat, he re-reads at the store’s name. The color drains from his face and he barely restrains himself from slamming his forehead against the steering wheel.

Oh, of course. Of course he made a fool of himself in front of the owner. Eddie can never come back here again. And it was such a nice store…

#wait wym this is almost 2k words what the Fuck! #ok! the writing gods blessed me tonight i guess! #anyway slight context - #in my mind there's a whole Plot and stuff for this au #where it starts off with eddie running into The Group™️ and meeting them mostly separately #before they all meet up and go 'hey yeah you guys ran into eddie from high school too? cool. he's ours now' #and forcibly drag eddie into their little Circle #wh modern human au #snippets from the bog #also sorry about the [INSERT GAY BAR NAME HERE] lmfao i cant come up with one atm #i want it to be wh-related and Clever #but i am not very clever on a good day and this has been a bad one! and again! im tired! #i. dont know how to tag this. whatever! if you see it you see it! #ok im going to sleep. for a whopping three hours before my alarm goes off. *less than three. Sigh. #i always do this! its like 'oh i have to wake up early tomorrow! lets not sleep at all! im feeling so creative!' #gonna go think about this au's laughingstock as i drift to sleep #FOR THREE. HOURS. #have i mentioned the three hours????

[vampire-lord-garfield]

I KNOW YA'LL DON'T SHIP SEBARD BUT PLS JUST HEAR ME OUT! Imagine servants greeting Ciel and Seb post Compania ark. And Seb is just covered in human bites (weird dolls) and has a massive fuck0you wound in the middle of his torso. Like even in canon he was pretty fucked up by that scythe and i headcanon that his body can't do it's usual demon healing magic on that wound. All energy goes in keeping him alive, so his injuries heal at human speed. So when they finally arrive at the manor who else then a army veteran wound treat his wounds. (You can't tell me Seb would allow human doctor look at his weird otherworldly anatomy, especially when you can see his freaking insides...). Imagine how triggering that would be to Bard. His mind would probably be on autopilot until he was finished. And then flashbacks to both war and his family dying. And like he thought of Sebastian as a "superhuman", a constant. Seeing him injured and in need of HIS help is verging on uncanny valley... (Also he saw this dude literally eat bullets. It would be kinda scary to think what was at sea that would fuck up Seb so badly... With human teeth no less.). --- Seb probably hasn't been so close to his own mortality in a long time so the whole experience doesn't sit right with him either... But even more weird is SOMEONE ELSE worrying ABOUT HIM. I like to think that he would be absolutely shit at comforting someone distressed about his wellbeing. Like his whole experience with that is comforting a bratty 12 years old and dealing with Ciel's nightmares. And here is a grown ass man with PTSD. He is so uniquely unprepared to deal with it. He tries his best, which is absolute worst, until Bard just asks him to shut up. And like he is probably not in a right mind either. He failed, he lost the fight, he got injured and then they basically run. And the whole "possibility of dying thing" is not a concept an immortals creature really thought about. He asks Bard to sleep at his room. Totally for Bard's sake. Not because of the latest events or because most demons don't like sleeping alone. Cause in hell that would just make you an easy target to others.

#im so normal about them #pls discuss this stuff with me #i know ya'll have better ships then #sebard #but like #idk i just really want to share my brain moss with you all #if you actually read the whole thing - thank you very much #i know that my english is shit but im trying #also if you come after me about bard's body on the pic. i legit think that after he gets acess to high quality food #+ add that he is regularly running around defending the manor - he'll sooner or later acquires a dad bod #injury #kuroshitsuji #black butler #sebastian michaelis #bard #baldroy #kuroshitsuji bard #black butler bard #angst #hurt/comfort #whump #can you tell im a sucker for angst? #and whump? #but only if there is comfort #i don't need the “no escape” stuff #i have real life for that #smoking #compania ark #kuroshitsuji book of atlantic #garf posts

[rohirric-hunter]

I've long lauded the entertainment value of running around LotRO on an overleveled hunter and oneshotting everything.

Little did I guess the entertainment value of running around LotRO on an overleveled brawler and oneshotting everything.

#lotro #i am having so much fun rn #context: i stopped running all the moria world instances on leonys prime #because i did the math and you get more bang for your buck from crafting instances #so instead ive been running crafting instances on all my high leveled chars #actually thats not even true i started with drof who is 62 #and even she can take them apart in less than 10 minutes each #someone who knows what theyre doing with a guardian could probably do better #anyhow i have like five or six characters her level or higher #and one of them is indarant #who got valared because #*checks notes* #i didnt want the valar taking up storage space #but ooh hoo hoo #unrelated but her current appearance was just meant to be a placeholder but im kind of liking it #i might keep it mostly as is tbh

[cradle-of-darkness]

COOKIES OF DARKNESS NATION WE ARE OFFICIALLY BACK 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

(long rambling in tags if u care)

#cookie run #licorice cookie #red velvet cookie #affogato cookie #I KNOW im late to this but i was at school ok 🙄 anyways i have a lot of thoughts #first off LICORICE UGH I MISSED HIM SO BAD IM SO HAPPY FOR HIM #his stats are so fascinating to me. i don't think anyone was expecting his strength to be that high #its pretty average but its still his best stat surprisingly #im shocked his strategy and puzzle solving are only 3. i think that's a strange decision to make them so low but I'm open to accepting it #maybe his avoidance/lack of ability to see the big picture contributes to the low scores? #his stats are so unexpected but I could get used to it. still i want an elaboration from devsis on these #i want them to show his strength in the show because i was expecting his strength to be like. 3 or 4 #but anywho. i think its very funny how affo is 0 strength. i love how its canon licorice could easily kick his ass in a fist fight #i really do love affo and im SO happy to see him with the cod fucking finally all we got with him as a cod until now was ODYSSEY 😭 #im so excited to see him work with the cod as an actual member. he's a very fun character for me #i cant wait for them to actually make him feel like one of the cookies of darkness its been over a year since he joined by now c'mon #im just so ecstatic that the cod are back. hopefully this is a good omen and will pave the way for more cod appearances soon #bcs u all know how i feel about the lack of cod for the better part of the past year. this better be their comeback i believe in them #😁😁😁😁😁😁 IM JUST SO HAPPY THIS IS THE BEST POSSIBLE OUTCOME IM SO HAPPY U HSVE NO IDEA I LITERALLY SCREAMED #btw ik crepe is there. but they're in a weird grey area of being a cod so i didn't post them BUT IM VERY HAPPY THEY'RE THERE TOO ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #♦️charlie's miscellaneous

[bee-turtle-kind]

Scarlet Hollow characters I DO trust with my life and love: the demon stalking you, your cousin everyone hates who has likely committed murder, the abomination of changing flesh and bones that hangs out in the morgue, the possums in my drawer

Scarlet Hollow characters I DO NOT TRUST and never will: sybil. fucking. Local Town Grandma

(Also accurate small town representation)

#scarlet hollow #sybil #im gonna go off but #MANNNNN I do not trust sybil #i feel bad since in my area i generally do not trust most old people because i know everything is so generational and interconnected #and sybil reminds me of that distrust so much #in the whole tea scene i had to see her reactions to all the different responses to who the cat is in different runs and man. #she is setting you up HARD!!!!! #she smiles when you say tabitha and is most agreeable with it being tabitha no matter what reasons you give for her to NOT BE the cat #i really end up trusting everyone she doesn't want me to trust 10x harder. wayne and tabitha team if they just could vibe together..... #i feel the whole cat thing is also just to reassure you that you cant trust anyone except her rather then any Real thing #it does worry me though because i feel shes orchestrated everything. shes too aware and after ch4 i believe the tea controlling theory hard #and i wonder how far it goes? you have to think her tea blends are given to THE WHOLE TOWN #how much does she control? how much can she see? i feel she likely can see thoughts and bend them but if its wide spread #its just a matter of who and what has her attention. #i havent done a run with mystical and high kaneeka friendship yet but want to see if that helps any #scarlet hollow spoilers #scarlet hollow ch4 #technically just in case

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

every day i weep for the people who haven't read king of scars

#IM LOSING MY MIND #LEIGH BARDUGO LOML #IM ACTUALLY BURSTING AT THE SEAMS I CANNOT TAKE THIS GLORIOUS WRITING #I HAVE NO ONE TO RANT TO ABOUT THIS IM LITERALLY RUNNING UP THE WALLS EATING THE PLASTER #ASJGDKLSJGSAIJDFG #welp! off to get emotionally wrecked by rule of wolves AGAIN #king of scars #rule of wolves #grishaverse #zoyalai #AJSGKLFSJBKLDFBJ I GENUINELY CANNOT TAKE ZOYALAI THEY ARE LITERALLY DESIGNED TO HURT ME AND HEAL ME #TWO SELF SACRIFICING SELF HATING DEEPLY INSECURE PEOPLE HIDING DEMONS FROM THE WORLD #WHO ARE SO DEVOTED TO EACH OTHER THAT IT MAKES ME ACTUALLY INSANE #THEYRE THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT SEE A GLIMPSE OF THE OTHERS PAIN AND DONT SHY AWAY FROM THE MONSTER #PLUS THE BANTER #AND YET THE WALLS BETWEEN THEM THAT THEY WANT TO REACH PAST SO BAD BUT THEY DONT KNOW HOW BECAUSE TRAUMA AND VULNERABILITY ISSUES #CALL ME ZOYA THE WAY I BE LEAPING OFF OF JURIS'S HIGH TOWER #CALL ME NIKOLAI THE WAY I BE LEAPING OUT OF MY BEDROOM WINDOW TO RAMPAGE THE TOWN #also #fuck the darkling #hate the darkling #all my homies HATe the darkling #literally vibrating rn with how much i despise that mfer #GET HIM AWAY FROM ALL THE WOMEN HE ABUSED #KILL HIS ASS DEAD IN THE DIRT #MAKE HIM SUFFER #anyways #im really normal about this series #:D

[scarah-screeeaaammss]

everyday I see a comment or tags on a monster high post where someone has so clearly missed the entire point of the message of monster high and it makes me wanna yank my own hair out

#personal #monster high #im seeing so much fatphobia and transphobia lately its so upsetting #and of course racism runs rampant too which is so fucking insane to me #like did you not understand the message? #like i know these are shows and movies made to promote a doll line but they do so much more than that #its all about embracing yourself freaky flaws and all and embracing the differences of those around you #and then people go and say the worst things ever #like i know reading comprehension is on the decline but i think monster high is pretty straight forward with its message #anyway. stop being a fucking asshole towards queers and fat people and especially towards people of different backgrounds and ethnicities #like jfc man get it together

[disastersteps]

ortega, after learning sidestep is that new villain in town

#fhr #fallen hero rebirth #fallen hero retribution #fhr fanart #fhr spoilers #retribution spoilers #ricardo ortega #julia ortega #ortega #fh: ricardo ortega #fh: julia ortega #if someone had done this before already im sorry!! 😭 #i learnt that this ass (affectionate) will tell others high sus or no sus if you confess youre that villain #AND IM LOSING OVER THIS MGSDMGMSDMGMSG #also. this is the broken trust stage. you know. you know- #...........yes i uh broke ortegas trust in my first run. rip me-. #myarts

[jiraidanshi]

i need people who have never been anorexic or just straight up dont remember what its like for whatever reason to shut up about it forever because literally it changes the way your fucking brain works . when its really bad its literally the only thing you think about its wholly obsession literally the only thing you think about is your weight / measurements / how you look and how many calories your eating or burning and you literally cannot help but humblebrag about how your killing yourself and everyone is competition . and people act like youre just some bigot who hates fat people if you show symptoms or talk about it ever even if you were also a direct victim of fatphobia . i am not joking when i say they need to add looking at th*nspo or running an ed blog to the fucking dsm there is a reason its so widespread IT IS A SYMPTOM . and everyone acts like its just Disorder That Makes You Fatphobic and that its mental illness lite or mental illness only white cis women have when thats not even true and it is the mental illness with the highest mortality rate

#file type: .txt #chara♥ #i literally went from overweight to SEVERAL bmi points under underweight in two years and my resting heart rate was 40 bpm #it got to the point my heart was so weak i was physically incapable or excercising or even running #you cannot do something like that to yourself ' just because you hate fat people ' there is something wrong going on in your brain #i still have pictures of my body from that time and even though im ed brained rn its like so fucking scary looking at some of them #and the thing is even though i havent been anywhere close to that bad again in nearly 10 years theres still that little voice in my head #thats like ' you need to go back to that ' #and i am underweight rn and i still get that same high whenever someone comments on it even though i know its bad to think llike that #this is why its also so bad to be telling anorexics they need help / your worried about them you are literally adding fuel to the fire #trust me they know they need help the thing is it makes you not want it

[bahoreal]

the way theyre so out of sync with each in where they are in the relationship (stede is 100% in but ed is hurt and overwhelmed, whereas when they first kissed ed was 100% in but stede was overwhelmed) but they're so weirdly in sync in their view of themself (ed desperately wants to be someone different to improve his view of himself but doesnt know what that is and stede is trying so hard to be different, to be his idealised view of himself - a pirate - even if that doesnt suit him) and when they move too fast theyre liable to just run away (stede to mary, ed to a fishing boat) they keep coming back to each other theyre always circling each other they absolutely love each other but theyre both so bad at dealing with it

#im very intrigued to see what'll change next episode to make them come back together again #ed knew he would be overwhelmed if they fucked but put his feelings to the side because stede was hurting. it wasnt the right decision for #either of them but they're. they're so whim prone when emotions run high they're liable to do anything. ough i cant wait to see how they #like. settle their emotions enough to get together and stay together. #but i know we'll have to waut until f UCKING S3. godamnit #ofmd spoilers

[starbberryblue]

cringelord what do you think about the new beyblade protagonist and his blue hair + pronouns

he looks like a white boy who would bump into me in the hallway and say "gomenasai! heh, sorry.... hard to switch back. sorry for bumping you.... i-i don't know my own strength sometimes. headed to the art building? thats so sugoi! so you like anime? ...what's my favorite anime? heh... you've probably never heard of it. its about a guy named jo-"

#im sorry bro #HE LOOKS COOL THO I LOVE HIS HAIR!!! #maybe ill do blue and blond after i run out of pink dye #not art #text #askbox #beyblade #i dont know anything about beyblade but thats how kids who liked beyblade would talk to me in high school 😭

[dayurno]

what are your fav crack ships of aftg? personally me i love allison and kevin two bitches slaying love to see it

WHEHE well obviously its kevseth to me im too invested in the lore i made up in my head with @rabidfoxt to ever actually answer anything else when it comes to absolute favorite, i think hardly any other interactions in the book beat "i'm sick of him getting everything he wants because he's kevin day". like the jealousy! the tension! the hatred! the resentment! you have everything i want and i dont know what id do with myself if i wanted you too. you couldnt believe in me if you tried so i will make you hate me before you can get to that conclusion yourself. LIKE ITS PERFECT. ITS PERFECT

other than that though. (grabs you by your cheeks) listen to me. kevrenee. kevrenee is good and true. kevin acting out and being met with affectionate patience. trying to get renee to snap and hurt him and realizing she's not going to. knowing she COULD hurt him, knowing the extent of her mercy when she chooses not to. It's Real. It's Too Real. renee couldnt fix him but she could make him believe in a kind god when he looks at her

also if im being EVEN MORE real its kevjeanrenee. but i will abstain from sounding insane on main

#i love kevallison too its just that kevrenee man. hits different #its about immovable object vs unstoppable force #its about being annoying and callous and a brat and seeing renee not once raise a hand to hurt him for it #its about letting her gather him in her arms and run her nails down his neck and know she could snap it #its about renee rubbing her thumb against the corner of his eye and saying quietly under her breath #'you really are pretty' #DO YOU GET IT. DO YOUUU #(panting) (shaking) its about believing in a god only when renee says he should #asks #kevrenee #IM REAL. IM SO REAL #kevin could be her little bird. he could be her little songbird. if you even care #plus they could wrestle and get real sexy about it. maybe she could hold his face to the carpet idk idk. ass up face down pretty boy #im like if the oracle from greek mythology was an autistic high femme

[bananonbinary]

do any other autistics have like...extremely minor coordination problems? like, i don't think i have anything that could be Diagnosable or that needs aids so i can function, but i drop shit often enough that i don't like handling sharp or hot objects and i'm resigned to spilling a little bit of basically every meal and drink. is that a thing. do we as a community just drop shit all the time.

#im not trying to be like Everything Is A Symptom but this is annoying enough of a problem it FEELS like i do it worse than neurotypicals #like i often ask for help getting something out of the oven not bc im a child but because i dont want our dinner all over the floor #actuallyautistic #and its a bit of a running gag with my sibling how terrible i am at high-fives #we both know its not a goof tho im just very bad at it

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

bye bela :(

#she doesnt come back in liams run sadly ;; #i can never get her approval quite high enough oops #(tbf tho im not making a Huge Effort since thats how it happened the first time and its a replay run anyways) #laya plays dragon age #liam for his part is. so so pissed rn #what the FUCK isabla what do you MEAN you need that relic??? #like. what. you would trade having one guy off your back for having THE QUNARI hunting you down???? #he is. VERY goddamn angry in that qunari compound. at isabela but also just in general at Everything #that being said he still cant bring himself to tell the arishok that isabela has the tome #in part out of spite towards the arishok but also bc he genuinely doesnt know if the relic was there and/or if bela has it now #and if it wasnt then isabela might get hunted and killed for nothing #and if she does have it? well theyre gonna find out soon enough #stop fucking acting like this is all his fault somehow #if it were for him once the qunari attack he'd frantically gather up his friends and gamlen and evacuate somewhere safe #he does NOT want to be in the arishoks line of sight when he goes on a rampage #(hah. we all know how that works out LOL)