#i like this one bc it is calm and nice

[theguardianace]

it should be illegal to feel like this on your birthday

#i really loved my morning i got such nice gifts from my mom #and it was nice to just have a morning off #but that was honestly the worst class i’ve ever been in #i was trying to talk to my professor but my voice sounded so off #i’m so stressed bc i’m so behind i don’t know what to do it’s not clear at ALL #i think he’s assuming everyone’s done something like this but it’s not true!! i’m a sophomore and everyone else is a junior or senior #and i was trying to hard not to break down and i think i made it #but now i’m in my room and i need everyone to shut up #i want to take a shower to calm down but i can’t bc my roomate is here and she knows i already took one today #and i don’t like that i’m 20 i’m scared of growing up #and im homesick im always homesick in the back of my heart #i just want a hug honestly

[somerandompizzatowersideblog]

@awakenthebeing hi hello i still heart the 🅱ie🅱oe and it's fambly very much

bonus doodle of piepoe flying away with their bow bc i cannot get that idea out my head

#i do not like the single color thing i did but i was forced to do it as i do not have a color reference for my clones augh #piepoe deserves better 😔 #i would've drawn keepino too but i had this doodle page half done when they were announced and i was tired from working on this drawing #it took me like 5 days 😭😭😭😭 #I WILL DRAW THE EMO SILLAY #just not right now #anyways piepoe doodles weeee #the top middle one is me playing animal crossing new leaf on a in game rainy day bc those songs are really calming and nice #and i feel piepe would like them #i hope you enjoy my cringe fail art i heart piepoe a lot <3 #jesus christ the bow size is so inconsistent wtf #pizza tower #h does pizza tower art #i will not tag this with oc tags

[fatcowboys]

im done w moving and out of the shitty apt w the shittier roommate (who did not let move out happen without adding as Much drama as possible) and have just. been feeling so much better. living w my two friends who actually communicate well and all work together on our needs and gah. so less stressed and anxious now!!! and also in a week kitty introductions have gotten farther than they ever did w shitty roommates kitties (they were kinda bullies, so we had to move glacial speed even w oregano cat expert) and just. thank u the universe things are so much better now

#only improvement would be if anjo Also lived here curse grad school!!!!!! #i moved out over a week ago but we just tuened in keys after cleaning day on sunday #and across just those two days bad roommate accused me of faking cleaning a part of something (that was not requested or clear) #tried to turn anjo against me by saying im a liar and manipulator and gaslighter (which. listen the last one i could say the fuckin same) #(which is also so funny bc anjo and i are so close. became codependent in a heart beat. why tf would u think anjo is gonna be on ur side) #then at the walkthru pointed out things that were damaged (which they are Alsonin on that security deposit what are u doing) #and the texted again accusing me of shit with a stupid fucking infographic on weaponized incompetance #thankfully like all of these i had my friends with me bc when infirst got there for cleaning i uhhhh had a panic attack lol #so i had good support thru everything and now never have to deal w them #its just. been So much lmao. and its so fucking nice how calm and smooth things have been #like i had that sort of shit. i in general am good at communicating and avoid shitty drama like this person #so its been So exhausting. but im done now thank god #and the new place is so much better and nicer and i love the friends im living w and Yeah :')

[silenthillbunni]

🐰🩹🧸🏨

#i hate being in pain like this #bc it completely takes over my life. like im incapable of thinking of anything else #im incapable of relaxing or enjoying anything. i cant do important things. cant do anything else but sit still nd be in pain #it just renders me completely useless and makes me stop functioning properly #im just a hopeless mess made of anxiety nd sadness. idk why but i just hyperfixate on it and i cant 'let go' or relax or not think abt it #idk how other ppl do it.... i wish i wasnt like this bc it's awful. it's like the only thing that exist nd ever will exist is this pain 4evr #im dramatic i know but ​it genuinely feels like my entire life is over and i'll ever know is pain nd nothing will ever get better again #im so caught up in it i cant see anything else but my pain. i cant think of the future bc do i have one?? i dont know #im just not feeling good at all. and everything feels bleak and depressing and i dont want it :(( #i cant have any fun or nice moments at all and im just tired of life #i feel so fkn stressed abt all the things i need to do nd all my responsibilities and idk how i'll do them when im in this pain #i just hope it can calm down soon i just want it to be a little bit easier just a little bit #getting thru each day now is so fkn hard i barely sleep but when i do i wish i never wake up #i hate everything and it feels like my future is fucked #which makes me wanna die!! but it also makes me sad bc there is actually sm i want to live for #i dont want it all to be ruined bc i want to try to live!!!! :( #and yess im know im being dramatic but i cant help it. im weak nd im terrible at dealing w pain nd issues #im not a strong person who can withstand everything nd finds ways to live either way. maybe it's bc my will to live isnt that strong #idk. i just hate this i want it to be over. it's taking over my life nd idk how to still function like this

[supanuts]

finally made peace with being the slowest gifmaker on earth i will just. get to it eventually. if i still want to

but also i very much am going to make a bunch of bases for gifs (since i can’t colour well on my laptop bc it looks too off) after i watch today’s eps so maybe i will end up spamming gifsets in the next couple days mmm we’ll see

#like i was too at peace after yesterdays pb ep lol #anyway #no one even cares its just ME #annoying myself #i feel oddly calm about making gifs suddenly #which is nice bc i make them for fun #please remember that @ self #sasa talks

[lavender-acee]

tell me headcanons and things about Kokomi that aren’t about how much guys are attracted to her plsssss im making a list

#sorry its just in the fic i want to give her.. more than one personality trait 😅 #so #to me #on a basis of absolutely nothing #she memorises names dates and numbers because they’re calming to her #she runs an anonymous pintrest aesthetic blog for pastel academia #she loves the rain and will always walk to and from school regardless of the weather #ironically keeps live laugh love things everywhere bc people see it and think ‘wow shes so nice’ but she secretly just thinks theyre funny #kind of person who can solve a rubix cube in less than 10 secs #had an artsy phase and painted flowers all over her wall and theyre kinda mid but she keeps them there #hates the feeling of her school uniform and wants to change into a cozy hoodie or sweater the moment she gets home #horrendous at creative writing excersizes because she worries about the plot not being good enough #her favorite colour is actually like a muted pastel pink (makoto was wrong in that one episode lol) #has a dainty silver charm bracelet she fiddles with in lessons #she and rifuta have a minecraft server where theyve made a giant city #saiki k #kokomi teruhashi

[hauntedpearl]

not to get back here and immediately get whiny but you know.

#anyway. like. i think maybe something is wrong with me. like psychologically hadghdjdkd #every TIME i get in a group of people and i fall hard and fast for the people there bc im normal and im like FRIENDS NOW & FOREVER YIPPEEE #but then they just like. stop liking me or talkign to me or sth. or like idk i will be open and talk too much or infodump or sth and they #just start distancing themselves #and it's like OH MY GOD I DUD SOMETHING #i also wish they would just tell ne what i did so i won't do that in te future but instead they're all etiquette-y about it #and now i have to go cry in a corner about it #and then im like okay i should leave the group or whatever they can have fun w/o me so i jsut sort of pull away #and then i get tOOOOO lonely #and then im like oh no let me go crawling back #and they're nice bc maybe all this is like fully in my head or maybe absence makes rhe heart fond or whatever #and then cycle cycle #anyway. i need to get a life bur i dont have one so i keep cryinf about everything stupid #WHATEVAAAAA #im gonna go do math to calm down #ive forgotten a lot of my undergrad stuff so im doing linAl again!! and it's v fun!! i actually never had to take linal in college #like we used a few principles and atuff but i never had to take the course so doing it now is kinda exciting too!! #ANYWAY ANYWAY. EVERYTHING IS SSTUPUF

[kathrynmjaneway]

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#the way that ive known my boyfriend not even for two whole months and weve been officially together for a month only #but ive already been invited to two weddings and a birthday party #its wild to me #and its also sooooo so nice #bc all his friends are genuinely so happy for him #and everyone ive met so far has been so nice and welcoming and open to me #and like i havent even met the guy who invited me along to the birthday party #also just in general. #life is really really good right now #like i finally feel like im finding some inner peace and have the time and space to calm down and just live life #the past 5ish years have been hell and so stressfull and anxious and full of isolation and panic and one prolonged crisis that were all #the final exams of my 8 1/2 years of lawschool and becoming a lawyer #and now its all just. Good. #and he is a big part of it #he showed up just at the right time #and its weird to be all like that after A Months #but its a if you know you know kinda thing #And i know he feels the same #because he keeps telling me how he feels and thats how he feels and aaaahhh #im all mushy about this #i wont see him for 4 whole days bc im gone for a long weekend and thats actually the longest amount of days we havent seen each other #since our first date #it was 3 whole days between date 1 and 2 #and i dont think we even had that again since then #personal #i am genuinely so happy and in peace and its just the nicest feeling #okay anyway thanks for tuning in #bye

[phosphorus-noodles]

i hope you feel better! i know it might not be helpful, but drinking water and sleep can solve a handful of issues lmao.

this is true!! it'll fix the sickness at least ahjdskfs- i'm usually pretty good with water but i haven't washed my water bottle yet so the drinking rates are reaching critical lows 😔💔

thank you for this, i appreciate it 🫶 /gen

edit: I SAVED THIS AS A DRAFT INSTEAD OF POSTING IT WAHFJDHFJS- still thanks for this, i did sleep and drink lotsa water and now i'm normal again <33

#most of my current frustrations is this One Class. bc the teacher made an A = 97% or higher. #**97%.** I THINK THAT'S ILLEGAL? #i don't actually know. but like. to get an A now i can only miss two questions on the next two exams #and get perfect scores on literally everything else. that's insane #i have other classes ma'am c'mon #she's never taught the class before i should be nice but holy frick. i can't do that #and i need those good grades for scholarship reasons #grrhhh... i'm just so mad about it :( #it's outta my hands tho. water and sleep will help me calm down i hope /hj #water sleep and prayers is what i'm living on rn </3 #pho.asks #thank you tumblr user- #sparklingbeanpudding #-and sorry for the sudden rant drhgjnfgfd

[seknots-izumimir]

vaniiii ehe hiya :3 umm we got a system sideblog if yer interested in seein more of us... but ummmm hiya !!!! i missed ya n im glad t' see ya... do ya got any advice fer copin wit' lack of attention from an fp.... we're okay but if ya got anythin it might be helpful for us :33 ehe i love yaaaa -🪴

MIIIIIKAAAAA!!!!!!!!! i missed u guys </3 i would love to see more of u tho i miss you guys when you're not around... although i guess technically you are since you said we're mutuals but skdghds

ough. tbh i've been pretty lucky insofar that i haven't had a lotta issues with that... but in my experience usually if i gotta be left alone for awhile distracting myself helps a lot? like. go down a wikipedia rabbit hole, or do a puzzle, or play a game you get super invested in. just something to focus on so you don't end up in your own head kinda thing yanno??? otherwise don't feel bad to just. ask for attention? like. it's not illegal to have human desires. and as long as your fp isn't busy or something they probably don't mind talking with you a lil :3 although idk for sure i know everyone has different relationships with their fp so ^^; do not listen to me if you know it'll cause you harm/strife/etc :< also naps. bc those pass the time reaaaaal quick. its like a lifehack. feeling bad? take a nap. you'll either feel amazing after or like you got smacked in the face with a trout ! oh and also like. doing schoolwork or smth productive maybe? thats not really fun tho so dskghds maybe pick up a kinda time-consuming hobby like crochet or cross-stitch or something where you can use that to distract yourself and have something to do with your hands :3?

but if its like. ur Already Feeling Bad i recommend like. watching a movie/tv show/etc that you really like or getting a Little Treat(tm) or something :3 curl up with a cozy blanket and drink some hot cocoa or tea or something !! its not like. a sure-fire fix. but i find the combo of distraction + comfort media + Little Treat tends to make you feel at least a lil better :3 also if it gets Very Bad just like. destroy some old school work you don't need or somethin. tearing papers to shreds is sooooooo fun. make sure u don't accidentally rip up something you need though skjghds it helps to calm down a lil and then you can work on relaxing a little more !! its not like. guaranteed. but sometimes gettin some of the destructive urges out helps

ily2 mika <3 i would die for u btw /lh

#at least i get destructive urges idk. i usually just rip up papers and stuff i don't need if i get like that #most of the time i can just deal w/ it via distractions (mmmm shitty mobile games) but !! sometimes u gotta Rip And Tear #most of my strats are just. distract urself. bc it gives you time to calm down and process stuff even if you don't realize it #so. ye. jus kinda be nice to yourself :3 it helps a little. perhaps get a plushie to cuddle with even #i have plushies my fp got me and i keep them on my bed and cuddle them when i miss them nd stuff #it helps a little !!! making yourself feel better can be rlly hard tho so don't feel bad if you struggle a bit !! #find some friends to talk to too if you can !!! it rlly helps to have people to talk to even if they don't entirely get it #just having other people around can help. i message with a few friends when my fp is busy sometimes and it helps keep the loneliness #at bay a little :3 but !! obv i cannot guarantee any of this will work for you !! but hopefully some of it is helpful at least !!! #I FORGOR U CAN'T PUT READ MORES IN ASKS. AUGH. this got so long srry mika ily #anyway !!! i am glad to see u :3 i was thinking abt u guys recently actually sdkghsd #i was worried u guys might've been one of the people in recent times that've blocked me or something orz #ily. stay safe. nd !! lemme know if i can help you guys somehow :3 #im not like the most versed in system nor bpd stuff but ! i have my silly little experiences to go off of #system anon 🪴 #long post #<- j. just in case. bc this did get Long. oopsies

[artemis-73]

Not to late night vague post about supernatural BUT maybe people view Dean as Jack's dad not because destiel shippers are delusional freaks but because that's how Jack sees him.

In 14x7, Jack specifically seeks to replicate a happy memory Dean had with John. And similarly to how Dean has a complicated relationship with John, Jack has a complicated relationship with Dean. (The biggest difference here is that Dean wasn't Lucifer's super powered atom bomb capable of ending the world as we know it, but that's a conversation for another day.)

Jack consistently seeks validation from Dean in a way he doesn't with other characters (except maybe Cas but also Cas is so soft with Jack that the validation is freely given. Love that for them) From day one, he's copying Dean and wanting to be like him. Their relationship is extremely toxic (just like most things in spn), but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

#Also maybe we shouldn't put certain chars on a pedestal for their kind treatment of Jack when it was done for largely selfish reasons #(to get mary back) #let me be clear: i think character who will remain unnamed bc i dont want to deal with the stans is super interesting #and his reasoning for helping Jack is way more interesting than if he was just Such A Nice Guy #and i do think he legitimately felt bad for Jack and saw a lot of himself in Jack's fear of himself/his powers #also also also being nice to someone doesnt mean you get 'promoted' to father figure sorry #idk i just really dislike how some people talk about relationships in fiction where the least problematic ones are put on a pedestal #because humans are complex and fucked up and so are their relationships #also everyone on the show is a murderer so maybe let's calm down a bit on trying to get the moral high ground #also also we can totally have the conversation of how much of late season were shaped by bts rumors of certain ppl being nightmares #like maybe Jack would've had more of a bond with certain characters if ppl wanted to work with that actor instead of Jensen #but thats all speculation and rumors so like shhhh

[sanchoyo]

i start that new job tomorrow 😶 ...

#... im not sure if itll be a full day or just 'more paperwork/general tour/training' tho kinda hopin for maybe like a half day TwT;; #im very nervous and considering taking one of the old anxiety meds i still have #from when i was in therapy. except idk if theyre still in date + they made me feel like a zombie which is why i stopped taking them lol #like i was SO out of it on them. but would that be preferable 2 the feeling of Soon Entering Cardiac Arrest levels of anxiety im having rn? #maybe... #+ going to take a sleeping pill around 10 to make sure i dont stay up all night freaking myself out #jkdkjfhjjk can my brain be normal about this. i havent even started the job yet calm down!!! calm down!!! its ok!!!! #i just feel so bad bc everyone has been rly nice. like 'omg yay u found a chill job w insurance RIGHT before u get kicked off urs thats #great ik youll do well!!' and its like well what if i DONT do well what if i freak out again. and self sabotage. then what. like i KNOW #its bad and i KNOW what i SHOULD be doing but its like herding geese over here in my brain zone. painful and bad and i dont understand why #things happen at all its confusing and frustrating to deal with #logically i know i need a job. i need to pay my debts and start saving and I WANT to move out! but its like that fine dining and breathing #scene from spongebob. brain on fire. lol #sanchoyorambles

[kitttenteeth]

i just took tums 4 the first time in my life ever Does this mean i’m growing up. i’m losing my fuckin edge man normally if i have a tummy ache i smoke out on the steps nd make my nails bleed on the pavement. now i’m takin chewy bitch ass medicine nd reading myself 2 sleep ?? Bye

#i’ve been doin rlly okay lately it’s a weird feeling #i always felt like there was genuinely no part of me that wanted to b happy Bc it didn’t seem like smth in the cards 4 me ever #but i like boring calm nd takin care of myself nd being nice 2 myself Yk like no one else ever is so it feels bittersweet but mostly happy

[ruairy]

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#sometimes i feel like. yeah man barely exist most ppl don't notice or care about me and it's fine #yesterday a new manager came for me for some inconceivable reason bc man had said lile one word to me and then declared me lazy #started talking to other ppl about how i dont do.anything and Quote stand behind till bank looking at one otem for two hours unquote which #i don't even need to begin saying what bullshit that is #found out he said as such bc abother co-worker im buddies with overheard and told me bc he felt violated on my behalf #we both proceeded to tell like half the floors worth of staff bc of the out rage #i may have said many swear words very loud and scared a customer before coworker cartwd me.to the staff only area to calm down #but like. every other staff that found put either came to me to ask Wtf or said to me bro u do more work than almost eveyone on this floor #combined what the hell is that man on #anyway. the coup has begun #we've already collectively chased out two shit managers and man doesnt know we'll do it again lol #feels nice hearing ppl say he has to gtfo bc he disrespected me specifically lmao

[buck-yyyy]

is it silly that i genuinely think learning to do my makeup is one of the best things i’ve ever done?

tags for an explanation-

#to preface this- obviously i don’t think that anyone should EVER feel like they have to wear makeup to look presentable #not wearing makeup is normal and there is no bare minimum for makeup products anyone should be required to wear #but in the past year i’ve started to learn how to properly do my makeup #and honestly? it’s one of the greatest skills i’ve learned #it’s really therapeutic (despite the wild strings of cursing that comes from doing eyeliner) #the brushes and stuff have such a nice texture on my face and in my hands- it automatically calms me down #i love the packaging of all the products (i feel like a crow whenever i’m shopping for new ones bc i love the pretty bottles and tubes) #it’s honestly just fun to do as well- like using highlighter on the tip of my nose? that shit gives me so much serotonin holyyyyy #and i get to feel extra pretty for a little bit after i first put it on which is always a bonus!! #my hands have gotten steadier (though they’re still kinda wobbly it’s manageable) #there is no feeling better than getting an eyeliner wing perfect first try #plus i get to have glitter on my face?! HELL YEAH!!!! #i dunno just. i’m glad i taught myself cause it makes me really happy #fuck the beauty industry though. there’s so much bullshit there #FUCK anyone and anything that preys on and creates insecurities to sell products. it’s BULL. SHIT.

[pekodayz]

idk this week i hate mondays. can i skip class today

#I’ve had this looming feeling of dread since last night .. #i think im starting to get burnout. in terms of work #im gonna have to change somethings around if i wanna stay calm #bc right now. it’s just not good. ughhhhh. #ough idk it’s getting absurd. just one day off would be nice #i know I’m not alone with like being behind and stuff and that makes me feel a little better #being overwhelmed was the reason why. but i am glad there is a late policy bc idk if i could #make it without one. yeah ik the grade is gonna be weird but at least I turned it in