#i live to make my own life hell

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[kitamars]

how can you drop a heavy burden if it's holding you up as well

#im having too many feelings post the very final #NGAHH. im in a hell of my own making #they said a heart’s a heavy burden #and gintama said to live a full life is to carry a heavy burden throughout a long journey #and i said what if i started sobbing #the yorozuya actually mean so much to me. i can never explain it in words #they are THE found family first and foremost. and i really want to convey that in the art i make later on #they’re such a comfort #oh god i might tear up #anyways #sakata gintoki #kagura gintama #shimura shinpachi #yorozuya gin chan #yorozuya #gintama #ok bye

[patron-saint-of-lesbeans]

Very interesting (concerning) that while there’s a general consensus of “of course there’s queer Muslims and Jews and Christians we love them!” But that love is conditional. You can be religious but not too religious. You can be spiritual as long as it’s not actually that important to you. You can be observant of your religion’s dogma and traditions as long as you keep it away from everybody else.

But I don’t want to cut myself into smaller pieces. I don’t want to take a part of my life and culture and being and hide it away behind closed doors. It’s just…hypocritical and disappointing when people, who clamor about their love for the contradictory and self-authentic, hate when they’re confronted with it.

#tower of babble #catholic #lgbt #side b #sorry I saw a very good post pointing out the way queer Jews are often cited with the caveat that they’re not observant Jews #and how there are queer observant Jews but I didn’t want to derail so I made my own post #because fuckin hell how often do you see white queers telling queer Muslim women to stop wearing their hibjabi (unless it’s for ~cultural~ #purposes). it’s disgusting and demeaning to assume queer people don’t have deeply meaningful spiritual lives. #side b Christians 🤝 observant queer Jews 🤝 devout queer Muslims #me. happily trans and gay: I’m so happy and blessed to have this body and life - #homo/transphobes: you’re going to hell you’re evil you’re stupid you’re faking it #me: huh. oh. um. well I’m still blessed because I know you are not speaking with Christ in your heart- #a surprising number of self proclaimed radicals: uhhhh please don’t acknowledge that you’re Christian it makes us. uncomfortable. #me: …being uncomfortable and confused about others is the pride of Pride? the queer community thrives on contradiction and self definition? #anyways. prof put my pronouns down as he/she/they on the syllabus and I am popping the biggest gender affirming bottles tonight #(praying a chaplet and eating rice like the grad student peasant I am)

[shorlinesorrows]

qpr jean and neil. that's all i'm gonna say.

do you see my vision?

#i might add onto this later but right now I'm too busy crying #“misplaced forever partner” ARE YOU KIDDING ME THAT DESTROYED ME #neil ordering a hit to keep jean safe changed my brain chemistry #i need them to be friends #i need them to call each other and gossip and send each other stupid memes that only they understand #i need them to slowly grow closer as they heal until one day they can finish each other's sentences #and they ocassionally make super dark jokes about their trauma out of the blue (they bet on how people will react competitively) #i need them to call each other derogatory names but get Super Upset whenever anyone else talks shit about the other and offer to kill them #and i would love them to reclaim the spots next to each other that riko set #and make them their own #they're not partners on the court but they sure as hell are partners in life #the mcs ever #at one point andrew and jeremy are just looking at each other across a table at a restaurant as these two bicker #and realize they have somehow both become the Third Wheel despite the fact that 1) there's four of them and 2) jean and neil aren't dating #the amount of queer platonic pining i could fit in these traumatized people #the: “i'm lowkey obsessed with you but I Really don't like you romantically and I don't know what to do with it” #and the: “oh thank hell me too i thought i was even weirder than i already am. wanna go harass the fbi with me?" #jeremy and andrew watch this trainwreck both exasperatedly and proudly you can't convince me otherwise #cannot convince me that these four won't somehow end up living in each others pockets even if they live 1000 miles away #kevin pops in frequently as his usual wonderful diva self #anyway i'm going insane how yall doing #neil josten #jean moreau #all for the game #the sunshine court

[thattheater-kid]

Everyone talks about how fucked up it was that people told kids, especially girls, that if someone picks on you it means they like you. And that is fucked up and should be talked about, but you know what else is fucked up?

Telling bullying victims to have sympathy for their bully because “they’re probably hurting too” (also that the best way to stop bullying is to ignore it, but that’s another post). That’s really harmful and just teaches kids to ignore mistreatment and abuse because the perpetrator has had a hard time too.

#like no #fuck them #idgaf #their trauma is not my problem #their bad home life is not my problem #they don’t get to abuse others because they have a bad life #I’m traumatized too #you don’t see me making other people want to end their own lives #bullying #anti bullying #my childhood bully came from a single parent home and her mother was a drug addict #you think I gave a shit when I found this out? #hell no #yeah I felt kinda bad for her #that sucks #doesn’t give you an excuse to treat me like shit though #that’s not my problem #another bully had an abusive father who humiliated him in public #I watched his father embarrass him at a school concert #and you know what I thought to myself? #‘damn that sucks. I feel kinda bad for him. still a dick though’ #not ‘oh that’s why he’s body shamed me and called me slurs every day since third grade. that’s why he told that girl to khs. I forgive him’

[dramarants]

Wanting more homoeroticism in the tension between the show’s leads as the narrative introduces greater intimacy and higher stakes between them, especially in a landscape that lacks queer representation who isn’t a villain or dies within one or two episodes, but also recognizing that core values/motivation for these characters lie in their relationships with one of two major female characters in an on screen sausage fest where the only other woman is a morally reprehensible femme fatale and erasing and/or vilifying female leads in favor of conventionally attractive males is a common practice observed in fandoms that’s rooted in misogyny and justified under the guise of rejecting heteronormativity, thinly veiled double standards, or claiming the woman is simply not interesting enough and not wanting to bolster that mindset

#the worst of evil #you know who’s not interesting enough? haeryeon!! bibi’s acting the hell out of her and slaying while doing it #but idk anything besides she’s willing to subvert her dad for dick and values money over everything else #and also she’s hot which is great for me!! but also the male gaze #and I also get it - we don’t know much about euijeong in her limited screen time besides her relationships to junmo/kicheol #but she is given so many traits that are silently conveyed like compassion and bravery and sacrifice #she brought a fucking gun to her date with kicheol like the conflicts and motivations here are SO JUICY #her exasperation guilt and despair with the investigation; esp after listening to the voicemails #what’s the self respecting thing to do; do I still love my husband if he loses himself; can I continue a game I never wanted to play #at the cost of my life or my family’s life? #even though a lot of her choices are for her marriage she’s using whatever agency she has in her own terms #kicheol works to be an honest man and make a difference partly bc of her #not trying to place the burden of fixing men on her but ignoring her impact in the boys’ lives is wild #ship whoever you want hate whoever you want but don’t deride a woman just cuz ‘she’s in the way’ ya know #all this being said; kicheol bringing junmo home after he RAMPAGED seemingly on his behalf - literally who else is doing it like them #the yearning all around - I get it now; we need gangster mob!throuple to get any shit done around here (and for all 3 to stay alive 🫣🙏) #but the reality next week is gonna be so so bitter

[raymoo--hackery]

quick Parsee doodle

#touhou #touhou project #東方 #東方project #parsee mizuhashi #subterranean animism #touhou 11 #I’ve been thinking a lot about the SA cast recently #i love the residents of Former Hell a lot… #this isn’t a full drawing but the idea popped in my head and I had to make something #funky jealousy touhou #living her life like she’s chronically online #i really do wonder what her interactions with other Former Hell citizens are like #there’s no way she hasn’t talked to them while on that bridge #but given her attitude I wouldn’t be surprised if she mostly keeps to herself #honestly most folks of Former Hell seem to mind their own business #in Satoris case she kind of has to #with that whole mind reading chronic fatigue thing #at least she has Orin and Okuu to do things for her #mostly Orin #i love the residents of Former Hell sm <3 #raymoojabber #raymooart

[sunnykeysmash]

something we have discussed is how dennis was the only one who could understand mac and that's great but can we also discuss how it must feel for mac that no one can understand him

this seems to be accentuated by how off he keeps being about things (offering of war/dennis being shot being "awesome"/being unable to read subtext both with dennis ["figure of speech"] and donald) and how much he's looking for a sense of meaning that he used to find in his identity until s15 made him realize how pointless it was (in a way that reminds me of his crisis in goes to hell 2...), but legacy, history, money and prizes are worth nothing if your heart is not in it.

and in a way I think dennis is coming to the same conclusion which is why he's the only one who can understand mac.

dennis "you're just being honest about how you feel" reynolds, so concerned with authenticity and upset by the perceived lies when it's just his own denial making it that way. that's building the biggest lie of all.

if we're looking for the Point, then the point is to have fun and embrace feelings. Big Mo already showed this.

it's interesting to me how it seems that mac and dennis are working off of each other in the way sunny works as a whole. because if mac is the structure and the text, and dennis is the subtext and the jokes (it's how he's trying to communicate in inflates but it's also the whole reason he comes with mac in madbu), they kinda NEED to be working together for the show to work... they need to find their harmonies, they can't just one or the other lead, they gotta have each other's back.

and also like, a small coda. this season deals so much with nostalgia vs how the past really was, there's so many flashbacks.

becoming aware of denial and reality can feel really upsetting but ultimately it's a positive development.

if "the hair is a lie" chopping off the head isn't the answer, that was the old way of doing things (in times of war... murder, betrayal, beheadings... "we figured out what works a long time ago"), but now we're looking for peace. basically, death isn't the answer. building your legacy doesn't have to be like pulling teeth. "this doesn't have to be a scam"

it's a good thing if we start seeing things for what they actually are, because it means less denial.

#iasip #s16 spoilers #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #macdennis #analysis #meta #i have decided that for my own mental health im not gonna do indepth meta until the season is over #by in depth i mean making extra sure i dont sound rambly as hell #i still want to make an extra post on charlie i have stuff to say about HIM but they closed soap so i cant screenshot shit #kms fr #the tldr is that charlie represents rcg's frustrations and fears to me pretty consistently since s14 #it's why a lot of his jokes have become ''thats actually not funny'' and ''this is so annoying'' or “can we just start?'' #and why he wants the status quo and laments that he ''wants his life to be simple and doesn't wanna live in a maze'' #and a lot more..... #sorry for metaposting do you still think im cool #i reread ''my thoughts on the first 2 eps'' and i basically already said all i think. except for this charlie thing #dare i say this season has a theme of truth? it's too early to say #but to have the meaning theme hit right after the identity one is crazy because its... LITERALLY WHAT RCG WENT THRU WITH SUNNY #anyway both mac and dennis are the jumper... theyre holding two big piles of darkness called denial rn #find yourself in him.... #it's 6am if this doesnt make sense thats why. but it does to me #big mo really was the key....

[britishassistant]

Twisted Wonderland was so real for having the enemies in the first Halloween special be entitled customers

#twisted wonderland #twst #british musings #every day at my job I understand it more and more #the new year’s event too #one of the writers for Twst worked in retail at some point #and decided to channel their past trauma into events for us #and I love that for them #it’s about the conflict between #having customers is good we WANT people to come here we WANT people to like this place #and #we have the signs for a REASON just because you don’t like it why do you have to make OUR lives hell #you are the protagonist in your own life but that doesn’t mean you get to be exempt from the rules everyone else has to follow #i like my job #most of the time #but then there are the horrors

[pankomako]

6 years ago today i joined the failboat discord server and effectively joined the community. contrary to what you may think i have no regrets

i think that's officially like. more than half the channel's existence. and about a third of my life. which is crazy to me. wish i could do more to celebrate but ig im just stuck here on tumblr for now

#failboat #genuinely this community is so important to me. probably wouldnt be the same guy i am now if not for the friends i made here #even if they dont seem to identify as much with the community as i still do. which is fine by me but im staying here lol #even if i did go down a different path i know im stuck here forever. even as an adult who may head up their own communities in the future #not even just the community though like. i probably get a lot of my sense of humor from boat's content #honestly the easiest way to make me laugh. or even cheer me up when life gets sour #my favorite way to waste time is to watch boat fuck around in video games live. literally the only streams i watch like 99% of the time #idk. i dont wanna get TOO sappy right now. i got other stuff to draw haha #just know that i've enjoyed all 6 years that i've spent in this corner of hell whether on discord or not <3

[gecemi09]

Most of the songs in Electra Heart are incredibly Jason Todd coded(except certain lines being abt romantic/sexual relationships, change those slightly and voila). No I won't elaborate because you know I'm right.

#jason todd #look im just saying.. #i know why electra heart is abt romantic relationships in general #bc thats what the character is abt #but if you ignore those lines #it makes SENSE #teen idle is rlly obvious #hypocrates in relation to bruce bc hes a huge ass hypocrite #and “you're the only one who can break me who can make me into a young girl” #and “youve played the martyr for so long” #buy the star in “you bought a star in the sky tonight bc your life is dark and it needs some light #you named it after me but im not yours to keep bc youll never see that the stars are free“ #very robin in general #also “oh we dont own our heavens now we only own our hell and if you don't know that by now then you don't know me that well” #etc. etc. #fear and loathing in “ive lived a lot of different lives. been different ppl many times. #i live my life w bitterness and fill my heart w emptiness“ #& “got different ppl inside my head. i wonder which one that they like best? #im done w trying to have it all and ending up w not much at all“ (sheila lol) #homewrecker i always thought abt how jason was blamed for everything? #and bruces shitty relationships w everyone after him can be attributed to jasons death #like “your death broke bruce. WE had to fix it” kinda thing? #“i dont belong to anyone” and “im the image of deception” feel like him to me for some reason idk #i think i will reblog with these+more bc i might be going over the tag limit lol

[dirt-str1der]

Love characterising nishikiyama as a booze hound drug hound meth addict high every day body mass 75% alcohol hands constantly shaking literally spacing out while driving fifty over the speed limit using elderly folk as speedbumps one hand on the wheel and one hand free to do more drugs and coming into work while functionally deaf and blind and he is still leagues more competent at his job than kiryu

#Yakuza loveblog #i dont talk about nishikiyama enough because im kazamapilled and hate him a little bit but im also kiryupilled and love him so much so you #see my problem? like i adore when nishiki is just. better in every way than kiryu and nobody ever sees that because theyre all too busy #sucking kiryus cock like okay nishiki had the rest of his life planned out when he was twenty and he was an extremely successful criminal #and getting himself noticed in many many circles then kiryu steps outside and gets into a street fight immediately and the entire tojo clan #surrounds him to throw cash at him like nishiki was actually doing so well for himself before his life was ruined. nothing is his fault #like i love just accepting that nishiki has one hell of a substance abuse problem and nobody cares enough about him to talk to him about it #and kiryu thinks its normal because hes the only one who can see that nishikis doing some great work out there so he must be doing #everything right. inconceivable that nishiki has any sort of ‘problem’ hes the real screwup and kiryu knows he makes life harder for himself #but he refuses to change because hes convinced that thats the only thing hes good at. like i believe that nishiki has a coke snorting #mechanic in game like harry db and without his coke buff he cant do as much damage like with it his output is on par with kiryus whos just #been blessed since birth by the violence gods. anyway kiryu is the only person in the world who thinks that nishiki is great do you get it #nishiki has lived his entire life in kiryus shadow and he doesnt care that kiryu has a natural charisma that he will never have. he has to #get out there every single day networking and socialising and hustling and nonstop landing interviews with cool magazines to get his name #out in the world while kazama takes kiryu out and drags him by the elbow to meet people like this is my son kiryu who has every disease and #everyone claps and cheers like i cannot stress enough how on top of the game nishiki is compared to kiryu. he has a car. kiryu doesnt even #have his own lighter. they are not on the same playing field and yet nishikis always trailing behind him because opportunity is always #knocking at kiryus doorstep whether he likes it or not and nishiki gets fed scraps and nothing else and hes the one with ambition he wants #the view on top and most importantly he wanted his brother there with him but nobody ... likes him ... nobody likes nishiki nobodys in his #corner he onky had kiryu and when he lost him it was quite literally him against the world. it always made me laugh how at the end of yk1 #harukas paying her respects at nishikis grave when the only time he ever cared about her was because he wanted her little pendant and he #(actually fucked how alone nishiki was he didnt even have his own fucking men to rely on he was basically working alone with someone he knew #was using him like ??? he was fucking desperate) anyway i really love to think that kiryu being nishikis only friend and the last person in #the world who thought kindly of him (barring like ... kashiwagi) was grieving terribly over his death and haruka being a sensitive and #sweet little girl took the initiative to ask about nishiki and i think kiryu would tell her stories every night of the kind of stuff he and #nishikiyama would get up to when they were her age. he would tell her how amazing nishiki was and how he always looked out for him how he #took care of his sister and how he would always be the one to remind them of impending birthdays and the like. nishiki cared about the #little things .. and he made kiryu want to care about them too but theres just something different between them because nishikis always #been a better person than him .. and he would tell haruka in a voice that sounded like he was begging her to understand that nishiki wasnt a #bad person.. though he did bad things he was a good man and he still wishes with all his heart that he could have done more to save him ...

[mejomonster]

Oh also when I start dropping the Red White and Royal Blue book quotes expect a FLOOD I'm highlighting the fuck out of this book

#red white and royal blue #lb #okay so 1. its well written. sincerely. #2 it knows the GOAL of its story so in its own way its Plenty deep #in regard to a. romance. b believable lived in characters c hinted emotion and biased pov narration #d political commentary social commentary international commentary generational commentary family trauma commentary #e excellent at what seems to be its theme which is showing how to connect to people you see as different #and like. the way that ties into the core romance and ties into the leads individual family trauma and fharacter arcs #and the way f OUTSIDE the novel how that affects the reader #the novel expects all readers to connect to this democrat politicial loudmouth half mexican texan child of divorce #whos stubborn as hell and somewhat self centered and so Mean to a guy he barely actually knows (when novel starts) #and thrn of course Alex is asked by his life to Connect to Henry. and the readers even if they are a TON like alex #still will also find connecting to Henry a leap (after all most of us simply are NOT royalty and know no one who is #even if we know public social media figures. its not to rhe degree of the Fantastical levrl of Prince Henry #and i think partly the character is a prince rather than Old Money generally because it TAKES the point further #it makes it so unrelatable to nearly all readers. so it asks us and alex to be open and get to know someone we simply cant judge or guess #ok anyway my point 3. i fucking HATE writing advice and heres why #different authors who are GREAT tackle the challenge of writing wrll very different. theres somr advice to #avoid writing thought felt wonders etc type words. this novel does it. and i feel does it well #it keeps the pace snappy in a DENSE book that needs it. it helps create the biased unreliable pov narration of alex #by telljng us not what he Actually thought but what hes PRETENDING TO HIMSELF to acknowledge or not. #which is alsl how i use those words. and its a fun time when the character is lying to themselves and readers have to notice #and get to be in on it

[lyrikmumare]

"message for scorpios for what to expect for THIS SOLSTICE 😆😆" do you want to trigger my ocd so fucking badly i don't take any potential advice you're going to give me bc you're scaring me more. fucking hate future-telling astrology and divination and witchcraft pls just leave me the fuck alone

#clyde.txt #they always say the same thing too like MAKE SURE TO START GETTING A MOVE ON ALL THOSE MAJOR LIFE PLANS YOU'VE BEEN COOKING UP 😋😝 #LIKE I KNOOOOOW BUT YOU'RE PUTTING ME IN FREEZE MODE A BIT AGAINCAUSE YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ I HAVE OCD AND YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ NOT HELPING #astrology is fun insofar as guessing and assigning fictional character's signs but good lord this is just evil and not helpful to me at all #literally don't tell me what to do or make me feel like if i don't do anything i'll die and live an unhappy life forever and have bad #things happen to me BC THAT'S HOW YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL‼‼ YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO HAVE TO KMS EVEN IF I DON'T WANT TO #IDK WANT TO HAVE TO FUCKING. LIKE MANIFEST OR CHEAT THE LIFE SYSTEM yes i'm well aware i'm responsible for my own success and happiness #and i do indeed plan to do something about that hopefully sooner rather than later but also like.... i already worry enough i'll never be #happy and will just have no option other than to kms like.... like? shut up. i eat good food and pet my cats and hang out and talk to my #friends i don't need to be on the fucking grindset. but fine i'll call the stupid healthcare provider tomorrow. MAYBE #if u want me to realize my potential than how about we stop having a world and society that isn't hell 🤔🤨 how abt i don't feel valid in #feeling scared to leave the house...? 🤨🤨🤨🤨 #the problem is i feel justified with the way i feel abt the world so strongly that idk what's gonna happen that's gonna prove me wrong #and then i can't cope with it either .... which is why i need Mental Help. or epic money

[rabitzzz]

avoiding talking to my fp about feelings by ignoring them again peace and love on planet earth

#vent post #sorry i just #' let me be selfish this once ' i . always try #i dont know how to convince her that im not leaving #anytime i express happiness that fp2 talked to me ( which ties into a fear that i have about fps not speaking to me for days at a time ) #( thanks jay ) #he gets upset and immediately thinks ive just . replaced her as someone special in my life #when honestly at this point i dont think i could ever live without him ? really ?? #i dont know what i can do to finally make her realize that no matter what im literally still always talking to him at the end of the day #even when we fight even if someone else had my attention even when i have a partner thats not him #i dont know what to do and its scary and people are so terrifying i dont want her upset over me time and time again #he really needs to find a new fp or just try not to care about me so much because 1 ) im not something that should be cared about in the - #- first place and 2 ) i clearly just keep directly upsetting her over and over so im not good for him whatsoever #even if im not doing it on purpose he splits directly because of me and when i split at her its because ive let things stack up without - #- handling them for too long so its more like misdirected rage because im such a high strung person #i dunno man im just #one of my fps hardly talks to me and the other is too attached to me im stuck in a hell of my own creation #might call the crisis line again its such a time #man i so totally really love december nothing bad EVER happens in december !!!!

[filmcel]

Hey man, some advice from someone on their way into their mid twenties: don’t continue into higher education if you don’t want to. I know it’s easier said than done, but I mean it wholeheartedly. School is draining, and if just the thought of it is causing you stress, than actually going will be worse. It’s hard when it feels as though there’s all of this pressure to not disappoint yourself parents or anyone else that expects this of you, but you are what matters most. You should be your top priority. You should do the things that are in your own best interest. I tried to go to college multiple times after graduating (and struggling to do so immensely despite the fact that I’m smart and school came easy to me. I was just incredibly burnt out on life by that point) and it never ended up working out. College isn’t for everyone, and that’s okay. You’re not less than or a failure for not doing what society tells you you have to do to be successful. You can find meaningful work that doesn’t break your body and soul without college. You can maintain or create new friendships without college. Put yourself first, and you’re doing great 💜

thank you 😭

#saying more in tags bc i’m shy #currently bc i’m so young i’m just going to stay with what i’m doing #i was able to figure out my shit for today and i start next week #i’m an easy quitter so if i fucking despise it u best believe i’m leaving #but maybe it ends up being amazing. i rlly don’t know . #just doing this now to please my family. #i still work and i have friends. my future goals aren’t limited to school and i have to remind myself of that. #getting a life outside of school has helped me become a better person i think. #and i hope if i remember that i do have a life outside of school i’ll survive going to class if i know it’s not the end of the world if i’m #not the absolute best. #for now i’m too young to say no to my parents #all things considered i should just say no #but living w them is hell dealing w this #i think my best option is to dip my toes in and see how it goes. #i don’t even have to push myself too hard. and they won’t either bc they know anything is better than nothing #but i do not regret at all the time i spent out of school #i was able to work so much and as annoying as work can b i’m very grateful i got to do that #bc not only has that helped me make my closest friends but also …MONEY. #soon i’ll get a car. and soon i can start planning my own future #captain’s log #One step at a time ☝️🙏 #incoming transmission #i appreciate u anon . #but this year i’m going to try and b easy on myself #we’ll see how that goes #also it’s low stakes bc it’s just community college #maybe if i can take stuff that interests me i can figure myself out more #bc while ik ever job doesn’t NEED college degree. idk what i want to work in. #there’s things i’d love to do. but i have zero knowledge of anything