I didn’t know I needed a miracle
But then I read Maggie Stiefvater’s book, and it all makes sense.
I have loved books since I first learned to read. I remember that time, in kindergarten, picking through the big books and feeling so very accomplished. And from there my love affair grew. Stories have always been my escape, even when I didn’t realize that’s what they were. I have always and will always love books for their “uniquely portable magic” and Steven King once pointed out.
And tonight, again, I am struck by just how potent this magic can be.
I did not know what to expect when I opened “All The Crooked Saints.” I knew only that I adore the way Maggie makes words feel new again. I am willing to embark upon an unknown journey with her because, so far, she has not lead me too far astray. (By that I mean she’s taken me to a helluva lot of strange places, but gently.) I opened this book hoping for another journey.
But...oh...I got so much more.
I have been struggling inside my head for such a very long time I do not know what it feels like not to struggle. I have taken myself for granted for such a very long time that I no longer believe in any of my worth or value. And, recently, I have been fighting to “fix” all of that. It is not easy to learn to love one’s self. When it has been taken as truth that I am worthless and wanting for so long, simply acknowledging the goodness I possess is not nearly enough to mean I believe it. It is a slow, painful, heartbreaking process.
And after a day of particular struggle, I found myself reading of miracles and happiness and I knew this book was meant for this moment.
Maggie Stiefvater, I don’t know if you’ll ever read this. And I don’t know why you write your books. But I do know that this book, in this moment of my life, has resonated in ways I didn’t know I needed. I think I can guess at how a writer can know the thoughts and struggles and feelings of others (because aren’t we all made of the same tangles, just in different knots?). But I want to let you know that I love this book and I have been loved by this book. Thank you for writing it. Thank you for sharing it. Thank you. @maggie-stiefvater
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