#i love her too much to abandon her

[gatogotica]

psych is actually so fucked up for the mommy issues they gave shawn. like idolizing her for so so long simply based on the fact she’s not henry (which is a whole other can of worms). she’s never in a single childhood flashback. she’s never mentioned even off-handedly. nobody calls her when shawn got shot, or really any of the other countless times shawn was hurt or in danger. like she sincerely in every sense of the word was a deadbeat and shawn refused to allow himself to see it because he had to hold on to the belief he had his mom to cling to because, again, she wasn’t his dad

#all that to say shawn is a textbook daddy’s boy no matter how much he wishes he wasn’t LOL #im sorry king you’re too similar to your dad and you spend too much time together youre your fathers son for real #I love you henry spencer but I also hate you…. #I straight up just hate his mom sorryyyy madeline but. you fucking suck #madeleine* #and her being like. eh i thought you were old enough you could handle me abandoning you. LIKE HELLO? die #I could talk about spencer family drama forever and never be bored #psych #shawn spencer #madeleine spencer #henry spencer

[suitetarts]

#i'm still in love with delilah my current durge and i cant wait to drag her story out for a really long time buuut #already planning big play through no. 3 #human ranger with bird familiars and dad issues lets gooooooo #but this time Not A Durge! i'm gonna try my best to rp the romance options with fresh eyes #probably still gonna romance astarion though i'm gonna be real with myself #my origin astarion run is gonna get abandoned for now. i miss having him as a companion too much. and seeing him make the tav faces is weir #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #tav

[spacedlexi]

trying to keep all my clemviminnie thoughts contained until i get to episode 3 but

its hard

#telltale was CRAZY for this btw!! the drama of it all ALWAYS gets me #violet blaming herself for her gf/minnies death. clem helps her open up again. starts dating clem. finds out minnie is still alive? #saved violet telling clem she has nothing to worry about and she'll fight minnie if she has to to keep clem and her loved ones safe #kidnapped violet getting brain poisoned by minnie into turning against clem after feeling betrayed and abandoned by her #saved vi shooting minnie to save clem!!!!!!!!! but cant leave minnie behind because she already left her once and she cant do it again #vi begging minnie to stop trying to fucking kill them but shes too far gone. the 3 of them fight to the DEATH!!! #now add all that to the parallels and dark mirrors going on between clem and minnie in the A plot like the tension is off the charts #plus the parallels you can draw between clem and vi but those are less “you are my dark mirror” and more “we are the same i understand you” #HOW are the girlies not still talking about this #you know what i partially blame myself i dont talk about it enough either. i forget how many things ive left in my wips folder sometimes #UGH its all so good violets route just ads so much Flavor to the clem/minnie plotline its Delicious i couldnt imagine it Not being there #i neeeeeeeed to draw them fighting and being gay and maybe bloody even #if u cant tell i really want to get back to that wip i posted a few weeks ago but im Trying to Restrain Myself #i love forcing myself to take things slow sometimes really makes the brain shift into overdrive #twdg #violentine #it speaks

[knbposting]

the kagami + momoi friendship makes me cry because he's SO nice to her and is such a good friend, usually in direct contrast to aomine being a dirtbag. yeah kagami's really blunt and he doesn't ever mince his words, but even though momoi is sensitive, i just KNOWWW she is able to learn to live with that when they hang out. and he gives her his jacket if she's cold, he'll help her carry her shopping (as long as she's also carrying shopping, so it's fair), he'll aggressively scare off any creeps around her (he'll pretend to be her boyfriend if that's how she phrases it!!!), he'll provide the blankest most innocent advice in response to her problems. i am not saying it would ever happen because why would it but if she ever asked him to buy her pads, he'd say "ok" then face time her in the supermarket like "dude what the FUCK are wings. actually i dont wanna know but what the fuck am i looking at?? is it this brand. is it this one. just say yes when i land on it. momoi. is it this one"

#kagami #momoi #i dont see it as romantic i see them as being BESTIES #kise and momoi are a really fun friendship too #AND MIDORIMA AND MOMOI!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY #that scene where she's sad about ruining something at the festival where aomine literally abandoned her ass by herself #and midorima hears her out then says something like “no dont worry everythings fine” (in his own way) #i love these boys so much #aomine and momoi's friendship is siblinghood to me #like they're so mean to each other

[a-blip-of-billdip]

we need more ford haters in this fandom. this dude is a fucking loser. it has nothing to do with him being a nerd, and everything to do with him being a borderline narcissist who has ruined the lives of every single person he's come in contact with

#gravity falls #ford pines #stanford pines #fuck ford #yall i cannot describe how much i hate this fucking dust bag #i hate how much the fandom is obsessed with him too #even alex acknowledges that ford is an asshole whos in love with himself and has no problem destroying peoples lives to get what he wants #examples; stan fiddleford (almost) dipper and mabel (almost) his au self and fiddleford in an au AND the entire dimension of that au #fiddlefords entire family- their parents (specifically his mother who loved stan more than she loved ford and NEVER GOT TO SEE HER SON AGAI #BEFORE SHE DIED BC OF FORDS FUCKING ACCUSATION) #which btw let me just side track slightly to point out that ford DIDNT make a pwrpetual motion machine. #if all it takes is one screw loose for it to stop working it isnt a perpetual motion machine. period. #he wouldve gotten into thr college with a lie and he wouldve absolutely failed to meet the expectations in his 'dream scgool' #(a school he didnt even know about until the day pRIOR. a school he was willing to abandon his TWIN over and... again. #destroyed stans life over.) #theres so so so so so so so many other examples #so mamy #but im getting TOO mad

[designernishiki]

I feel like I liked yakuza 5 a lot more than most people for some reason

#like a lot of people seem to not like it or think it’s mid #idk man but it was one of the games I enjoyed most and I really liked the range of characters you get to play #love me a murder mystery too #idk I think people seem to not like how disjointed the plot is at first and trying to keep up with everyone’s seperate plot and characters #and etc. but I personally really liked how it was all disjointed and the further you get into the game / the more characters you play the #more shit starts coming together and forming a full picture #like don’t get me wrong it’s not perfect and I do have qualms with some. choices. (mostly having to do with majima and #mirei) but overall it’s one of the games I’ve enjoyed the most and that’s kept me interested in the plot the most #fantastic to get a more in-depth look at haruka and to get to really know her by playing her and seeing how she interacts with people and #choices she makes and etc. I don’t think she was a fully fleshed out character prior to that #loved her with all my heart already don’t get me wrong but she just didn’t have much time on screen especially as a teenager to fully get #her personality across and some of the issues she deals with (mommy issues. abandonment issues #etc). #and her and uncle akiyama are a very nice unexpected duo!!! #the different settings were fun too. overall I think the whole thing just felt like more of a streamlined story in a way with drastically #different viewpoints depending on the character #also shinada’s a gift. bless him #daigo feels three dimensional and emotionally present in a way I didn’t see much in other games- even when he’s literally a boss in 4. tbh #the only other time I think he feels really solid as a character is in fuckin dead souls. I think it’s cause it’s SO rare to see daigo in #non-serious situations or vulnerable with people on purpose. dead souls has the first thing and y5 has a bit of both #and I could complain more about how y6 SHOULD have made daigo more present instead of sending him to fuckin jail the whole time but. I do #get that that was kind of important to the plot. I mean to have that power vacuum. don’t think all three of them should’ve been put in jail #but I digress. anyway I got off topic point is I enjoyed yakuza 5 it is very unique in my opinion #y5 #rambling #ALL THESE TAGS AND I FORGOT TO MENTION KIRYU BEING ANGSTY AND GAY AS HELL. THE BEST PART OF YAKUZA 5

[bisupergirl]

anyway she shouldn't have been killed off and erased from continuity regardless but if dc was #real in the 80s and actually gave a fuck about kara and her supporting characters then we should've at least gotten a scene during crisis on infinite earths of fred and edna danvers reacting in horror to barbara giving kara's eulogy on tv that specifically calls back to this scene from action comics #285:

#or like. any scene at all of them reacting to kara's death. #can't think about how kara's precrisis friends and family were completely abandoned after COIE or i'll start punching holes in the wall #like they were her parents too!! kara loved them as much as she loved zor and alura!! #especially since kara is the second child that fred/edna lost... they would've been devastated!!! #*shakes fist* dick giordano when i get you... #kara zor el

[madame-mongoose]

Speakin of Cassia here's her first fully realized concept vs current!! I think these were about a year apart? I need to draw her again she's my fav oc

#she was originally the villain of a greek inspired story #but i switched her to my pirate one #bc i loved her too much to let her die with an abandoned story concept #actually why she has a spear as a weapon #thought itd be a cool nod to her origins #cassia #my art

[teufelme]

You ever just want to talk about Bertl,

#i . ooc . #The tags got so long just warning U now! #OK I know his appearance wasn't the longest but like. I'll never stop talking about him because he doesn't get enough credit? rip. #I know it's not really relevant any more because post-timeskip everyone is a lot better but. Referring to everyone's skill as of pre. #Reiner said Bertolt was the strongest of all of the shifters but he held himself back. He came 3rd without giving his all. Or really trying #I hc he held himself back to try not to let too much of his strength show bc people forget he had military training b4 joining the 104th. #And ofc. Also to not bring too much attention to himself bc of who he really is??? #The way he mastered his Titan straight away and also has such a good handle on it. #Out of the 3 shifters he was the one that stayed true to the mission. Despite his reluctance he's got the strength and commitment. #People are so quick to say he relies on Reiner too much. And while he does at times. Reiner relies on him just as much if not more. Even if #Reiner doesn't realise it. Bertolt keeps him on track and has no one supporting him at all. #In COTT arc... U see him dodge Mikasa who is an Ackerman and seen as one of the strongest characters in the series... #And the same in RTS. Everyone gets too distracted by Mikasa to actually pay attention to how he dodges her 4 times?? Even tho she attacks #from behind? And the way he lands a hit on her. I just *screams*. I love how many times she tries to kill him. lol #How effective he is when he abandons his guilt and this is sort of irrelevant but. It's so special to me because as someone who is #a quiet person irl round people I don't know well. Who has it brought up a lot. I just adore when a character that remains in the #background just comes out and says enough is so hhhhh I know his reasons aren't good BUT RTS BERT... AH. #Also gotta talk about his marksmanship skills in a thread at some point?? Maybe Mp bert I J UST.. #Anyway I might do a cheeky revamp of graphics n icons and that. Dunno yet. Need to actually write that'd be good lol. #This account is a lovebot didn't U know.

[snixx]

middle/high school me didn't form parasocial relationships with celebrities they formed serial parasocial relationships with random lesbian 20-something bloggers with a penchant for being 24/7 haters on increasingly obscure platforms (often that they had abandoned years ago) and would stay up till like 4am every night reading their posts from like five years back and collecting the Lore

#if you look closely i may still not totally be over that tendency - [gunshots] #and it was hilarious id know ALL these details about their lives ok. from their old abandoned blog on wordpress dot com #and i would stalk them and try to find if they were still active somewhere #oh the stories #so first was the forums on fanfiction dot net. i would stalk them daily #and these people would overshare everything about their lives on the internet and id meticulously collect all the details and fantasize #about joining their group someday #and sometimes i would leave reviews on their stories and mention some detail i picked up and they'd be like wait how'd you know that - #and i would make up some shoddy excuse like i did not know every single detail about all their lives #they used to have so much drama too it was hilarious. like full out brawls and catfights #and then there was goodreads. i would get obsessed with a reviewer and stalk hundreds of their reviews #and slowly put together pieces of their life and personality i would never use #there was this one reviewer in particular called emma and she's probably like 25 now?? anyway she was my IDOL in eighth grade #and her entire brand was she loved leaving long rambly one star reviews #and then my blogging era. there were a few then but the most notable was this girl called elle #i know what university she studies at i know her birthday i know all her family drama her girlfriends which taylor swift songs she thinks #are the gayest and she doesn't even know i exist lol #anyway she was A HUGE ONE. she's still influenced such a huge part of my personality to date #and she recommended me so many of my all time favourite books and she was the reason i got into glee #anywayy i stalked her all the way onto tumblr and even summoned up the courage to send her an ask one time #she was the reason i realised i was sapphic actually. and the person who made me the obsessive sapphic media enthusiast i am today #i remember having the awakening at 4am reading her blog posts from years ago on my kindle and listening to all too well #which btw she considered the gayest song of all time so i naturally did too #and i got reallyyy into sapphic media after that #then there was this blogger who went by may #then of course i came on here 💀 and the rest is history #definitely had a bunch of those here too there was this woman named heather #and i was perennially stalking her blog she randomly left tumblr after falling in love with a guy #and making this dramatic post about how she had a burning red love with lots of women in her time but now her love with this guy was golden #noooooo i ran out of tags compulsory stop to my obsessive rant ig

[bumblingbabooshka]

I will walk down to the end with you / If you will come all the way down with me.

#B'Elanna Torres #B'Elanna art #B'Elanna #-thinks so hard about B'Elanna's self image issues and about how Tom Paris could be baked into an apple pie he oozes so much All American #Charm and about how B'Elanna was literally ready to break up with Tom because she felt he wasn't committed to her emotionally #and didn't prioritize her needs/wants and when she tried to bring it up he didn't address any of that and instead just asked her to marry #him and she said yes bc it's what she wanted wasn't it? But also thinks about how getting married solves literally 0 of their problems bc #that wasn't the issue - and how they never REALLY talked about the issue she had and the proposal seemed more like a desperate attempt to #hold onto her and B'Elanna's acceptance was her tightening her grip as well and thinks about how the solution to Tom not prioritizing #B'Elanna was framed as B'Elanna trying to do what Tom wanted and about how B'Elanna blames her mother entirely for her father abandoning #them - how she blames SPECIFICALLY the fact that her mother was too Klingon and about how Tom blames the fact that he never showed how much #he cares about/is committed to B'Elanna on the fact that she has 'that tough Klingon exterior' and how her response is #'do I look that tough right now?' and about how B'Elanna associates Klingon features so strongly with negativity - unloveability - rejection #that she tries to erase her features from her daughter's face and make her Human which to her means Good and Beautiful and Loveable and #about how she STILL after all this time only wants her father to love her again. Thinks about fear of abandonment which makes you hold onto #something which doesn't work bc you can't bear to be alone or fail. If she said no to Tom's proposal who else would she have? And #doesn't it feel like a prize? Like you finally WON. The Human Prince wants to marry you - you're FINALLY good enough for someone to sign #a contract saying they'll never leave you. Even if they don't pay attention to you - even if they abandon you to pursue their own interests #every time something shinier comes up they'll never LEAVE and that's what you're the most afraid of. Thinks about the fear of being too much #and too klingon and about how B'Elanna told Tom it was okay he forgot their romantic getaway even though she took so much time to plan it #and was so excited for it because she didn't want to spoil his fun (is being with her work?) and about how she still remembers that little #human boy who pointed at her forehead ridges and called her 'turtlehead' until she beat him so viciously they had to pull her off him #Thinks about all of those things VERY hard and EXPLODES- #bea art tag #st voyager #st voyager art #CHARACTER. OF. ALL. TIME.

[kuuyandere]

Omg wait how did that call went?

Not well on my end. I thought I was getting better until the darling started smiling and rambling about a dog she really liked, and I felt like bashing my head into the wall from the sheer amount of frustrated yearning. Then she spent most of the time talking about her new relationship (her fourth since me), and I wanted to violently stab someone. But she sounded happy. I had forgotten how sweet she sounds when happy, even if it is not because of me.

Anyway, I am alright overall, don't worry.

#your yandere #aidoneus asks #yandiary #It probably is unhealthy for me to keep talking to her but I care too much and honestly don't have much of a support system outside of her #Gods I still fucking love her #I thought I was doing so well too #Perhaps it is in part because I denied her yet again #Maybe I will bring up limiting contact next year after I give her gifts but knowing her issues with abandonment she will not take it well

[afishcalledwanda1988]

new icon :) everyone say hiiiii john linnell from tmbg

#loved that hampter but needed a change #and i like this url too much to abandon her just yet #?.txt

[dutybcrne]

Thinkings thinkings of Fatui!Kaeya have been reawakened in reviewing Arle's teasers/animations

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Whether it's Dad!Pierro or not; I do love the idea of him being left in the care of the Fatui/House of Hearth #//Tho timelines considered; he prolly would be in Pierro's personal care while Arle goes through her Traumatic Matricide Experience #//Doubt the man would want to leave him out of his sight; Khaenri'ahn/Alberich ties considered #//Or maybe he was raised/trained to fight under Signora. Or even for Columbina (her namesake's ties to Pierro's; considered) #//Tho also do LOVE the idea of Kae and Taru growin up together in the Fatui ranks and being the disastrous + shy boi duo #//Tho Kae'd prolly have less to hide/fear with them when it comes to his heritage. The strictness he'd be raised with though... #//Eh; Taru could bring him out of his shell even still jdbgfkf. If anyone can; he deffo could. His little wintry sunshine #//So maybe he'd grow into his peacock self a little more naturally; even if perhaps still out of necessity/for ease of his missions #//Less of a facade to hide his grief/missing pieces tho; more like the way Taru is charming & goofy to lower people's guards #//Still has his little habit of testing people deffo is Much worse and much more sadistic when it comes down to it #//Particularly towards fellow Fatui who disrespect him or their comrades; or just someone he ends up disliking in general #//Does 'test' new comrades; but is more willing to step in & help them if need be. Wants UTMOST trust; determination & loyalty in his men #//So will only ever take those who push to complete the mission at all costs; even themselves/willingly ask him for help when they need it #//Dislikes those who run; & LOATHES cowards who abandon comrades to save themselves; he WILL deliberately make sure they don't make it back #//Still employs his intel gathering methods as normal verse; but has preying mantis tendencies when it comes down to it nbcfjgf #//ESP if they try to take advantage of/blackmail him in some way. Or worse; those who betray him. He is meticulous & VERY ruthless abt it #//His signature is decapitation & an unmelting (Abyssal energy-laced) ice shard through the heart; around which he'd carve a stylized one #//If those informants keep being useful to him; they are safe; and treated so lovingly by him; spoiled rotten with gifts & favors aplenty #//Once they lose their usefulness...well; regrettably he cannot leave any loose ends. These become frozen as statues for him to keep #//'Precious mementos of lovers & conspirators'; he'd call them. He'd keep them in his private home in Snezhnaya #v; glacialis pavonis (fatui!kaeya) #//If he had to have a Harbinger title/name (maybe bumped up for when Scara erases himself); he'd prolly be l'Innamorato #//Fitting of his methods (is also the remaining role of Commedia dell'arte lololol). He is saccharine sweet; pretty & deadly as a belladonn #//Deffo would have tango-based motifs rather than waltz; would favor frost-laced roses. Might even leave those with his victims too #//Can you tell I listened to Rondo Across Countless Kalpas as I wrote this up jhbfjgkfhf #hc; kaeya #//I mean yeah lol. I have so many more thinkings abt this verse aaAAAA #//Am torn if I want his to use a Cryo Delusion; or have him with Cryo Vision and an Anemo Delusion. Do like that for Cryo Swirls #//Then his rage/scorn could be likened to a Blizzard. Do like that image. Deffo favors his Abyssal powers more tho; maybe THAT'd be better

[spaceratprodigy]

lights are on but nobody's home

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#this was my I PromisedTM I would talk more abt Faith's deathwish arc but was too lazy to write out my thoughts #instead just doodling her slowly spiraling and becoming more numb more distant more reckless #no outlet for her anger no space to breathe no time to grieve #constantly making split second moral decisions where no matter what someone will Get Hurt #be thrust into a new life so suddenly not knowing anyone or anything and having to fend for herself and hope she's doing right #having to abandon her former life and her former self because they don't exist anymore they can't exist #having to be some mysterious entity because she can't find solace in anyone nobody will ever listen or believe her #and she bottles it all up #ends up in a new found family of misfits who she adores dearly and wants to love and take care of them so much #still feels so utterly alone and undeserving and unlovable #captain #captain of the unreliable #my art

[asteralien]

i had planned on making loreleaf my first pc when i finally get my paws on bg3 because that's my MO on all games with character creation but he's so gay and i want to romance karlach so bad

#like yes i will do a lorestarion run eventually i just know that's going to happen because i know myself #but my first pc needs to be a sapphic for sure #maybe rae. idk. i could/possibly should take this chance to make a new character specifically for the game #but i love my ocs too much </3 how could i abandon them and not let them woo hot fantasy ppl </3 #and then i need a no romance run with ashleah to let her have the aro adventure of her dreams #i have so many plans and i havent even gotten an external hard drive yet lmao like calm down i dont even know if this game'll kill my lapto #mythtakes