#i love him way too much haha

[meownotgood]

he's here....

#AAAAAAAAAAHHHH FUUCCCKK #he looks.... so amazing... #pics don't do him justice because he really looks so amazing in real life #I'm just blown away #actually have to sit down because I'm so giddy with excitement lol #he's so beautiful like #I love the way everything turned out #I forgot how big scale figures are too haha #his face is so handsome #and the blood looks really good especially on his clothes #he's so detailed and pretty #and all of his assembly is magnets so it's really easy to put together #I also like that he can be displayed without his base or the chair haha #like a big noodle stopper #there's so much detail on his clothing!! #all of the folds #the bottom of his shoes is detailed with blood #they included the back of his tie #the buttons on his shirt cuffs and the individual holes of his belt #his fingernails too #has aki's shirt always had a front pocket? lol #sigh... I want to spend the rest of the night staring at him #I'll take better pictures of him tomorrow when the lighting is better!!! #I want to make a detailed post about him #fighting the urge to bite him rn #aki <3

[turtleblogatlast]

I’ve gone on and on about how Leo wants to be who Splinter finds is the ideal person (which just so happens to be Splinter’s ideal version of himself) but I have yet to really touch upon how Donnie is the one who most directly parallels Splinter himself to an honestly shocking degree, Raph’s taking from Splinter’s teachings and parenting has resulted in an unhealthy mixup in the different dynamics of a family versus a team, and Mikey is the one who is simultaneously the most focused on family and the most intrinsically himself which both leads to his better grasp of mystics and honestly what just might be the healthiest dynamic with Splinter.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #it’s late so I’m just speaking from the top of my head haha #anyway yeah #the Donnie Splinter parallels are crazyyy tho #I always see ppl say Leo is just like splinter but no Leo WANTS to be like splinter but he’s more a Karai #meanwhile Donnie exhibits many of Splinter’s traits and behaviors #basically Leo has taken on many perceived Lou Jitsu attributes #including his stance his most flaunted skills and his overall demeanor #while honestly being more of a quiet and determined soul at his core that is most like Karai - with the same hope and love for family #we see the more Karai aspects of Leo throughout the series but most blatantly with Future Leo’s portrayal and how Casey Jr talks about him #Donnie though - rather than Lou Jitsu he has many Hamato Yoshi attributes #it’s funny too because Donnie ALSO parallels Draxum in many ways #(you know who else does albeit to a much lighter extent? Mikey) #make no mistake I super wanna get into Raph having a hard time separating team and family and just sorta jumbling them together #but that mindset can be unhealthy! #SHOULD I GET INTO HOW RAPH ALSO PARALLELS HAMATO SHO IN SOME WAYS AS WELL AS ATSUKO #not to mention his direct parallels to OROKU SAKI HIMSELF #and Mikey - I actuallly have a touched briefly upon how his individuality and sense of self has led to his greater control of mystics #but I do think it’s interesting that he has arguably a more healthy relationship with splinter than the others as well? #idk it’s late #and I may be talking about nonsense BUT #I gotta stop here bc I’m very sleepy but I’ll probably be back in these tags rambling more later lol #would just like to add that splinter loves them all very much he is just a flawed and depressed man with a lot of untapped trauma #which unfortunately ends up affecting his boys to different degrees

[wikiangela]

wip wednesday🎄

tagged by @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove

i wasn't gonna post anything but i wrote quite a lot today and need validation lmao (I think I might be about halfway done but who knows, it always gets away from me haha) today some buckley siblings feels, and hopefully soon ill get to the fluffy christmas part haha

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"(...) I used to make stuff for Maddie, and then when I was older I would save money to buy her something small and mostly symbolic.” he glances at Eddie. There’s a mix of bittersweet nostalgia and sadness on his face. “She made all my Christmases bearable, and after she left-” he stops abruptly and quietly clears his throat. When he speaks again, he doesn’t finish the sentence. Eddie wants to ask, but he figures Buck will share what he’s comfortable sharing, he doesn’t want to push. “But that was the one thing I wanted so badly, more than anything, more than any cool toys or- or anything,” he chuckles again, “and Maddie tried to give it to me, and she got in trouble for it. So after that, I just never asked again.”

“Buck.” Eddie says softly, wishing he could do anything to make it better, to fucking go back in time and give Buck all the Christmases he ever dreamt about.

“But I always wished-” Buck continues, then glances at Eddie nervously. 

“Wished what?” Eddie’s thumb softly swipes along Buck’s neck and jawline, as far as he can reach. He just wants to comfort him somehow, and at the moment this is the only way he knows how, just a comforting touch, being there, listening.

“That one day, when I grew up,” Buck looks down at his lap again, his voice getting even quieter, “I’d have my own family and I’m gonna do matching Christmas sweaters every single year, and take tons of pictures of us all together, and-” he pauses again, and, with a teary laugh, raises his hand to wipe at his eyes. Eddie wants to wrap him in his arms and hold him. (...) “But it doesn’t matter, I don’t-” Buck shakes his head, and leans away from Eddie’s touch. Eddie aches to keep touching him, to reach out and follow, but he respects that clearly that’s not what Buck wants anymore, that’s fine. “I don’t have my own family yet, so it doesn't matter. Let’s just drop it.” he says, tone decisive, face red, eyes glued to the screen again. 

Eddie frowns. What the hell is Buck talking about? He has a family, right here.

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#wip wednesday #buddie christmas fic #took out a few sentences from this snippet bc it was too long lol #it was mostly about buck loving to take pics and keep photo albums etc #and eddie wondering if his parents ever even took any pics of him when he was little or if the few he has are bc of maddie #bc ngl i wonder about that way too often #and I have like 5 albums of just my pics from my childhood and i love it and i think buck'd love that and he'd make sure chris has that lol #idk buck's childhood is something i think about so fucking much and it's so sad and im projecting my anger toward the buckleys onto eddie #this fic was supposed to be cute and fluffy with a sprinkle of sad but so far it's all sad with a bit of fluffy oops haha #fic snippet #buddie #buddie fic #buddie wip #wikiangela writes #my writing #my wips

[jade-len]

luo binghe better than me fr i think i would've gone fucking apeshit if the person i loved with my entire soul pretty much said "fuck you" because of my race and pushed me down into literal hell for me to suffer for years

i've said it before and i'll say it again, i really don't think we give binghe enough credit. that man was on concerning levels of forgiving all the way from the start

#this would all be without xin mo eating at my brain btw #were the things he did wrong? of course. can you blame him? absolutely not. #like lets not act like at least half of us wouldnt go insane #i would be devastated #just.. place urself in his shoes ok #like he was able to still change for the better despite all the shit he went through #able to realize his wrongdoings and make up for them #thats fucking amazing and we should not discredit him ok #my ass would probably do the same thing as him tbh. or have a whole mental breakdown. or both #also same goes for bingge i wouldve done the same shit too probably. id fuck shen jiu up #again #not excusing his actions but i feel like people seem to focus on that part of him way too much when we literally see his character growth #and yeah hes still just a little unhinged but arent we all #hell some people are WAY more fucked up than binghe and they didnt even go through #i love him so much can you tell #so anyways yes if he were real i would date him hes so relatable #because then id now that he would actually change for the better and make things up and learn from his mistakes #yeah haha yes hes a red flag whatever all jokes and fun but are we just gonna ignore his development??? #im not a binghe apologist. maybe. #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #luo bingmei

[sysig]

Delusions (Patreon)

"Could I have your hand, sir?" Max didn't move, which Dexter was, sadly, getting used to.

"Sir?" Max jerked, then turned and stared at him, lost and blank. "Your hand, please."

Max's hand lifted shakily, and he laid it gently in Dexter's upturned palm. Dexter gave a quick and quiet "thank you," then turned it over in his own hand, observing him closely.

Too closely - his knuckles were rough and his fingernails were dull and cracked in places. His once-soft, not-a-day-in-his-life-subjected-to-hard-labour hands were now, already, toughened and split and scarred in places, especially the heel of his palm. He turned it over again, this time to stop looking so intensely. He had only wanted to give it a cursory glance to begin with.

"Do you know what I see, sir?" he asked as conversationally as he could manage, running his fingers along Max's abused flesh. He seemed to be at least half paying attention, his eye gazing down between them, and he'd occasionally twitch, encouragingly Dexter thought. He seemed to want to curl around him, then stopped and shook, his hand squeezing into a fist. Dexter coaxed him back out, encouraged him to hold himself lightly.

"What do you see?" He was almost startled by Max actually continuing their conversation, that happened so rarely now, shaking and quiet as it was. He took a deep breath, was he really going to do this?

"I see a hand, with five fingers." Max remained quiet, though his brow curled, and a guarded look came into his eye, though he still wasn't looking at Dexter. He felt a pang of guilt, but he had to try. "What do you see?"

Max's eye unfocused and began to water. He looked up, but not enough to reach Dexter's gaze in return, instead staring through his chest, and he felt just as hollow and empty as he must look to him.

"Do you take me for a fool, DAX?" Quiet and as close to angry as he'd heard since they'd been here.

No, not angry.

Betrayed.

He swallowed down the stinging lump at the back of his throat. He had to put on a brave face, had to keep his composure if he wanted Max to get better. That was the only thing he wanted, more than anything.

"Of course not, sir. Genuinely, what do you see?"

Max pulled his hand away and turned his body, his bandaged side facing Dexter. Shutting him out, pointedly. Dexter's empty hand curled into a fist, he was no better.

"Please, don't..." Max took a shallow, shuddering breath, and several beats before he spoke again, even quieter. "Don't ridicule me." Dexter could hear his breath catch, and he wanted nothing more than for this all to just stop.

"Sir, I didn't-"

"I've had enough of that." He shook his head stiffly, the action strange and wrong, like he had forgotten how. He stilled, his head turned even further away. "More than enough."

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #And a drabble-fic under the cut #I ended up writing that the night after I read - I was a bit too inspired while busy so it's a little on the unfocused side haha #I would've cleaned it but I worry it wouldn't make it out of that stage! Please enjoy it for now <3 #This set is mostly periphery ideas - inspired by events rather than directly shown ♪ I suppose the first two kinda count tho #But they're more directly of the little scene I wrote ouò Poor ZEX </3 #And Dex! He's usually so capable! But he's stretching himself so thin ahh it's hard to watch in the best way #Of course he doesn't want to give ''Max'' over to just anyone - anyone at all really - both of their trusts have bottomed out #But how much could he reasonably care for him in that state? When he's still being actively haunted and most importantly - Not Max #He needs helps he needs support he needs to sleep and shower but a second with his eyes off Max and - then what? He'll immolate from fear #It's hard to imagine him crying but pushed to this extreme? To the thought of losing Max utterly and completely? Hhhhh #I do also just love him being possessive even outside of how terrible the situation is - he's always had his glimpses but this situation #Brings out the worst in him <3 In terrible ways #Really his method is just setting ''Max'' up nearby and prompting him over the sound of the shower like that's not nerve-wracking at all #Like he already doesn't answer half the time if that #As for the mini fic I was really interested in Dex's line about indulging ''Max's'' delusions #Apart from the fact that they're not delusions - not that anyone believes him outside of the Institute - what it means to indulge is weird #I saw one example of how to handle delusions that stuck with me - how not to deny them outright while also not reinforcing them #Since it's not actually helpful to be told ''That isn't Really happening to you'' when to you - to ZEX - it really is! How invalidating #And so rather to take the approach of ''I don't see/feel/hear what you are - I can't find any evidence of it myself'' and extrapolating #Dex taking the approach of ''What reality are you experiencing right now?'' and trying to build from there! #Unfortunately ZEX has already been treated like....well like all that - he's not in the mood for games even well-intentioned ones #He /knows/ he's in a human body. He can feel that and see that and understands that. It doesn't change who - what he /is/ #The idea of a completely broken ZEX is so sad to me :( He's so strong and prideful and vivacious - Max really is another him </3 #It's not the same but he was saved from death! To fall into torture... But even despite that I want to see him succeed! As much as he can #Even in that small and shaking way I want to see him be hateful and spiteful - angry. Powerful <3 Fighting ♥

[pankomako]

this is the closest ive gotten to drawing failing four fanart in years

#failboat #fyrus #jaymoji #too bad gab's too busy to join them as much. would love to see a reunion stream one day #lol remember when i did incorrect tff. and then i had to delete twitter #fun times. anyway #i get the feeling i draw fyrus too similarly to juicebox (my oc) now i hope that's not the caseee #like i stg if you combined juicebox and hot-rod you'd pretty much get fyrus the way i draw him haha Whoops #cant believe boat's close friends with TWO bears. throw me in there youd straight up get goldilocks and the 3 bears but theyre all dudes #im mean im just kind of assuming they fit the physical description im. not actually sure but they seem like they would

[vargaslovinghours]

Todd is baby, so - Baby Todd

#💟 #Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Todd #Shmee #Baby Todd AU #These are scribbly and largely unfinished because I had A Lot of ideas and I needed them out of my head as quickly as possible lol #Normally I'd save these for the sketchdump but a) there's too many lol and b) I'm too excited about them #I just wanted to draw cute stuff that's my explanation lol #This is just my ultimate form of making Todd extra tiny and hold that was my justification and goal all along lol #I love these kinds of domestic AUs and the Vargases already have a kid! Now he's just a bit younger haha #Details details - Todd would be at around 8-9 months here #Able to hold his head up and sit on his own but not quite to walking and talking fully - more than a little human blob but not a child yet #He just shows up in a little basket on Edgar's doorstep lol is that how it works - it'd be so much worse if it was Nny's doorstep #Edgar gets a call in the middle of the night like ''Uh...........so I think there's a baby'' ''What do you mean there's a baby'' #How could they have a baby they haven't even gone on a date- #I also thought a neat way to differentiate (because I always draw Todd as a tiny little chibi baby lol) would be Shmee #Since Nny slices him up when Todd's a kid - would he do the same to a baby's bear? Is Shmee even Shmee in there?? Hmm hmm #And more thoughts of ages - is Edgar 8&1/2 years younger? Probably not right?? But that would set Todd's birth year way later! #It's fine just don't think about it too hard lol #Or do I mean I have lol #It's all just for cutes and being a good and Definitely flustered but also Definitely father and dad to a baby ♥ #It is honestly really fun to draw him so so so tiny hehehe ♪♫

[fragmentedblade]

"Though I don't know exactly what you are or what you're up to... My bullets will find you — until then, you best find a casket store in Penacony, and ask the owner to reserve a good quality casket for you, imposter!"

Hardly could get more Western film than this

#That one scene in A Fistful of Dollars #The casket maker doesn't appear that way in Yojimbo if I recall #I love those films so much #Boothill has such a... soft youthful voice? I didn't recognise him at first. His voice is beautiful though #I talk too much #Boothill #The way he awkwardly laughs a little and asks almost shy 'Did I make a mistake?' lmao #I was wondering how he got her number and she gave it to him but gave him Black Swan's? #Or was Black Swan talking about Constance when she mentioned that 'she' who gave Boothill her whereabouts? Or someone else altogether? #He was kind of cute with that 'Did I make a mistake?' haha #'get that forehead clean and wait for me' this man is hilarious and has watched far too many movies xD #'are you asking me to write your will? Sure‚ go ahead' omg stop hahahahaha #'Not quite' responds Black Swan. Truly an elegant lady. I would have mocked him to no end #Hilarious too the idea or possibility of her apparently clocking him by the way he talks #'She's clearly not a Pathstrider of The Hunt. But you are‚ aren't you?' #Of course it could be context but it'd be funny if simplistic perhaps to think it's his manner of speaking lol #'go buy a bottle of Asdana's White Oak and warm it up‚ and I'll raise a glass to you' this man is hilarious and would be unbearable irl xD #I love the idea of an Emanator of Nihility existing despite the impossible. It seems very fitting #Also‚ unrelated‚ but I love Aventurine's little whimpers before his 'Didn't think you'd have the nerve to show yourself' #When Ratio claims he 'is the manager of this task' does he mean as undertaker or something real in the mission? #When he says Aventurine won't be seeing the Strategic Investment Department because he's the manager #did Ratio mean he will be the one dealing with the funeral or that there won't be a funeral at all because he's in charge? #I found this confusing

[trashcreatyre]

She’s my oc now, sorry i don’t make the rules :/

Some of y’all don’t deserve her tbh

#no this isn’t because someone was kinda mean about her in the tags of one of my 06 posts that had literally nothing to do with her why would #you even think that thats crazy omg haha #(<- that is exactly the reason) #okay but to be fair #the way I interpret her is pretty different from cannon now #she might as well be my oc #but in my defense!!!! #almost all of it is from thinking about the source material way too hard and thinking really hard about all the tiny little things that they #barely give us because the game wasn’t given the time it needed #or maybe not idk #i just be making shit up tbh #like how i think she and mephiles and kinda like (if not actually which i think so) siblings in a way and how they would both definitely #daddy issues but like #in different genre? #like for elise its very ‘i still love my dad but I’ve come to terms with the terrible things he’s done’ kinda way #and then with mephiles it’s very much Frankenstein’s monster type of ‘if he were still alive I’d kill him myself’ #yk? #erm anyway #trash rambles #sonic 06 #mephiles the dark #princess elise

[flamestar126]

Snuggling near the fire

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#dexdark #dexter's laboratory #dexter's lab #dexter #mandark #I AM SO HAPPY TO FINALLY POST THIS LOL #near christmas time for them and they're currently hunting down ole saint nick but dex fell asleep and mandark is taking care of him #ty cherry for the inspiration of just mandark staring lol i kept thinking back to it and it got added lol #earlier that day they played in the snow and made a snowman and mandark stole his gloves the snowman lmao good luck finding them later #mandark also put sticks together to replicate the M on his hair #psst they're newly weds that year by the way. their rings >:3 it's not on the correct hands because i wanted it shown loll #i love the fire so much i wanted it to look good this year since last year i wasn't too confident to even make one #monkey didn't get one a stocking because he spent christmas with that agent instead #mandark makes his own wrapping paper and ornaments it just wasn't shown #blanket is important to me later haha that feels like a spoiler... #the pictures in the back was originally be a marriage photo and a protrait of ducky but they were quickly changed to another drawing i made #and sims 4 photo i have of them. that idea was my sister's in order not to spend too much energy on the drawing #i think the atom tree topper is gonna be a reoccurring item i just really like it and there's lord vader's helmet in there too! #mandark's sweater says “I'll deck your halls.” #dexdarkholidayevent2023 #dexdarkmas2023 #flame draws

[frecklystars]

sorry for the long ass post but this has always my favorite scene in the entire film - for obvious reasons - and im so glad greta talked about it and the way she worded it made me laugh so hard i had tears in my eyes. haha... god. my boyfriend sobbing his eyes out over the metaphorical crusts on his patriarchy sandwich......

#i dont think ill ever love anybody quite the same way that i love Ken #because he came into my life during a time when i was like. dying. not in a haha millennial way. i was genuinely fucking dying. #he is so. special. to me. he is so... everything to me and i truly mean it every time that i say it #i miss and love him so deeply so WHOLEHEARTEDLY *EVERY* single day #and i didn't used to be able to do that anymore! but he!! HE made me feel SAFE again and thats INSANE #because i was SO UNSAFE for SO goddamn long! and the feeling of safety is STILL unfamiliar to me and foreign and horrifying #but he's constantly such a Safe character. Barbie too even moreso. and it's so refreshing after feeling Unsafe for so. long. #i spent over a year feeling like my whole world had ended and i was destined to die but then he! shows up! in my life! #and no other character was able to spark life back into my heart the way he did #AND I HAD *TRIED* I had tried so hard to get into old special interests and find new ones but NOTHING worked #i was just an empty husk. just a shell of a person having flashbacks *constantly* #feeling unsafe *constantly* suffering *constantly* every single second i was awake i was in so much pain #and then every time i'd sleep i'd have the goriest nightmares about all the abuse i was put through and all the F/Os i'd lost #but then Ken Carson plucked a star out of the sky and said 'hey sweet girl you don't know me but i miss you and love you' #'and barbie is here and im here and allan is here and everyone loves you already. we're so happy to meet you' #'and everything is gonna be okay because we've got you! we came for you! and we will fight for you!!' #and then hearing greta comment abt this scene made me laugh so hard and then it hits me. i laugh now. #i laugh so often because of This Dude. i didnt used to be able to laugh before but now i laugh like i used to #i used to say all the time about my past main F/O i had lost from abuse from an IRL person 'i will never love anyone more' #and true i will never love anyone more than i loved my starlight. but here is the thing #i will never love anyone the way i love Barbie. i will never love anyone the way i love Ken Carson #because it was IMPOSSIBLE for me to feel joy for so long and it was. THIS MOVIE that brought me back #when this movie is so full of the most specific triggers. colors. clothes. yet i push thru it every time #and its because these characters make me feel THAT safe!!!! like if i see a trigger i tell myself that's BARBIE'S Thing. and Barbie is safe #ive never ever once had a flashback during the barbie movie NOT even once even tho logically i Should. but i dont. #because these F/Os are like!!! sweet girl!!! we've got you!!! and i'm like yeah you sure do now don't ever let me go #god i cry my eyes out every single time i think about this i need to sleep LMFAO SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT #love notes #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́-

[idlenight]

#fallen hero #fhr #fallen hero rebirth #fallen hero retribution spoilers #fallen hero retribution #im still heavily debating this myself haha #either way River ends up in his own body but idk if I want him to be in the crash or have the puppet crash #my current runs ended with the puppet crashing #river will always end up in his own body because i do NOT trust whatever is in the puppet. and it then being a telepath? thats terrifiyng #Also. while River hates himself a lot. I don't think he'd want to BE anyone else. Even his mirror puppet feels too much like a mask. #he would hate being stuck inside of a mask. #which is also why im more inclined to have the puppet crash. that way its at least indisposed and wont be able to run around freely #i also just love the steelstep scene in that path and being able to undo HG's threads in Chen's mind. #on the other hand. River would be balsy enough to just go to HG in person. and that is the hardest thing to consider.

[kitether]

if yuuya and anghel went to a pride parade as a date, what would they do there

!!!!!!!! well of course they'd march!! I think Yuuya would be into it right away and Anghel would take a bit more time to warm up to it, but eventually have a great time! They'd show up early (Yuuya because he's a gentleman, Anghel because he's just an early riser), and march along with the parade. They'd spend the day holding hands and chanting and hollering and kissing, and would forget to reapply sunscreen so they'd be a little burnt at the end of the day ☀️🌈

Also, I think Anghel would LOVE leather queer fashions, given his wardrobe. Anghel would especially love harnesses - they're the next logical step to all his belts, no?

#burritofish #thank you so much for asking??? #what a welcomed surprise in my inbox 🥺😭😭😭💘🌈 #i'm really mixing in a lot of my own pride experiences in here haha! #yuuyanghel #hatoful boyfriend #kitedraws #also i'm going to put my queer headcanons for yuuyanghel in the tags because...... i want to! #yuuya is trans bi ace and demiromantic! #in human form yuuya would have taken blockers before puberty and doesnt need to bind or need top surgery #in my mind yuuya doesn't really know that he's ace and demiro #since it's a lot harder to quantify a lack of a certain type of attraction and he does find people and birds attractive #just not in certain ways most of the time #plus work keeps him busy so its not like he ever felt like he had the time to experience romance #like most of the fandom i see anghel as trans too! #and he does bind properly the bandages are just for the Aesthetic #i also see him as pan and possibly polyamorous? #i think he has a lot of crushes on a bunch of birds for different reasons #he's got a lot of love to give! a small bird with a big heart who constantly gives 100%! #bare chest // #ask to tag

[maskyartist]

me: i should update the au list, pretty it up, list ALL of em this time-

me looking at the many new AUs i havent even told yall about yet: ...okay maybe not ALL all just the special ones

#masky says #jokes on me they're all special to me #haha...H A...ugh i cant stop makin aus for these stupid brothers #like im sorry its gonna be putt putts or brozone either way clay WILL be my favorite #everyone will get their turn but ~clay~ #~serious boy clay~ #my beloved my angel my sweet boy love his vibe too much to let him go #hes just such a FUN punching bag what do u want me to do??? be normal??? #no i have a new favorite stress toy to squeeze violently i WILL be shoving him in any scenario i can

[hecksupremechips]

Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of

#writing him has just been like. OOOOWOEOEOEOOE i piss tears i cant handle this shit this gay ass shit #i came up with an idea for just like a cute short one shot i wanna do soon and hnnnghh im so emo about it #very healing its like very hard to write some of the shit im gonna be writing cuz basically #some of it is just a little too real man and while i crave the angst and the drama i am just like #AND THEN EVERYONE HOLDS HANDS AND ITS OKAY PLEASE DONT CRY PLEASE #and ive mentioned how shinji has accidentally become nb to me now because i just kinda happened to write him that way without meaning to #and now another thing im noticing is that in my fic hes kinda bpd coded #it definitely wasnt intentional but now im accepting it as truth no one can stop me #i just really need him to be happy its more important to me than anything else man i need it for me #and he needs to be gay with aki they need to kissy and i think its funny cuz even in the parts where shinji is mad at aki and pushing him #away its like. he kinda has it bad lol and its clear he feels no actual hatred towards aki but more just self deprecation because he doesnt #feel good enough and like idk i just think about their respective roles in society like #aki is an honor student star boxer hero very attractive very kind very popular got adopted by a rich family #hes going places you know meanwhile shinji is a drop out who never had a family ever hes homeless hes sketchy hes on drugs #his reputation couldnt be any worse and he just leans into it and feels he has no future and hes worthless garbage #and aki could literally have anyone he wants you know he has an army of girls pining over him but he doesnt want them #HE WANTS SHINJI AND NO ONE ELSE HE SPENDS YEARS CHASING AFTER HIM #and shinji HATES it hes trying so hard to push him away and be the crusty delinquent and make aki see how worthless he really is #but aki just doesnt stop he loves him so much makes me sick SICK #and shinji really loves him back hes like not gonna shut up ever about aki hes like either doing it in a gay ass annoyed way #or hes like ‘haha omg aki is so cute though hes always trying so hard to be tough but hes just so sweet and gentle you know i hope he #doesnt push himself too hard if he got hurt id fall apart hes so silly i hope hes eating good i desire him carnally’ #yeah sorry gamers this is just a pairing i cant be normal about they mean so much to me personally the fate of the world rests upon them

[inkykeiji]

hello hello good morning!!! i am just stopping by to let u all know that fishie touya nibbled on my finger today and it was literally the cutest thing in the entire universe <333

our pretty rainbow boy <333

also!!! today’s everskies outfit under the cut!! (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

how cute is this!? i wish i had a pair of black overalls irl :(( i only have blue ones atm 。ﾟ(ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

anyway anyway come add me on this silly app if u wanna!! my username is inkyclari! let’s be friends!! i’m still figuring out how the whole thing works hehe but my gosh does it ever remind me of the hours my best friend n i spent dressing up digital dolls when we were lil kids!!!

#i kind of love the fact that there’s a blog AND a guestbook #i was so so so young when i had myspace (way too young to have myspace but all of my bffs older brothers had them D:) #(so we HAD to have them too duh) #but the guestbook function especially reminds me of myspace SO much!!! #like just early web 2.0 type sites #and msn!!!!!! tbh i miss msn HAHA #i was one of the last kids in fifth grade to get one >.> #because that’s when i FINALLY got internet lmfao #my zia made my account bcoz i didn’t know how to #anyway we used lil pixel dollies like this one as our profile pictures ALL the time #and we’d like;;; gatekeep them so hard LMAO #like we’d search online for hours for the cutest ones and then when someone would ask where we got it or if we could send it we’d be like #“oh sorry idk where it is on my computer i lost it :((” and then we'd all laugh together #terrible we were mean kids man #anyway enough reminiscing #i’m off to go edit ta!haitham!!!!!!!! <333333333 #all +10k words of him!!! #heeeee wish me luck #have a wonderful day friends <3 #clari chatters #pxl.clari