#i love it i thrive on Pain

[lonereaper]

Anyone else feeling stagnated as fuck in their current situation yet are terrified of the possibilities of change? Just me? ok....

#ok to rb i guess wharterver #This post is inspired by the pain of seeing my dad depressed and knowing that if i stay in this home that i'll never grow and change #Yet hesitating to since according to him he gets up in the morning because of me. #I want to go to this college because I know that i'll thrive in a different situation #A place where I'll know people my age and where I'll do things that I love #Yet both him and I are hesitant because of different thiings #I'm scared to leave him alone and he's afraid because of the way my mental health worsened the last time I went to college #Things are tough right now but i know i just have to hold out #Do things I'm afraid of doing.

[andminnequin]

Posting this here because even though it was from a meme I still think it’s cute lol.

#aaaaaaaaaa #art #digital art #tags? #obey me #drawing #obey me shall we date #oc #meme #obey me mc #obey me oc #omswd #twice yes or yes #pls date me #I don’t care who somebody go out with me by Len Kagamine #the flowers are dying but our love is thriving aha huzzah #these colors hurt my eyes #you must feel the pain too now go stare at this for a million minutes at 12 o’clock nighttime #ok nvm pls don’t #my arrt #oc drawing #obey me sheep mc #but she’s human oh my so sad #you see the drill tails are supposed to look like sheep ho- #me when I erm actually #is this enough tags #nuh uh

[zainmalik]

proud of louis always and forever

#he’s just. he’s gone through so much. so much hurt and trauma and pain #and that fucks you up. that has the potential to make you bitter and angry at the world #and yeah he may have felt those things because he’s only human #but the way he didn’t let that get him down and instead fueled him to fight for what he cares about. what he loves #what he’s passionate about #and raise on top of all that #raise on top of the people who tried to bring him down #and now look at him #he’s confident. he’s doing what he loves. he’s putting on amazing shows. he’s reaching into different industries #he’s slowly but surely getting independent #he’s making connections and giving underground artists opportunities to showcase their music #he’s loved and appreciated and respected amongst his peers #and yes there’s always people who will want to shit on his achievements #but he’s not letting get that to him #he’s thriving #and i absolutely love the fact he’s not afraid to show his vulnerable side #the man who was scared and nervous and anxious about going solo is now on top of the world #i’m so so proud of him #i can’t wait to see him continue this journey #logan.txt

[klonoadreams]

This is now a Camazotz appreciation blog, where I will simmer like a soup over every little detail about Camazotz in FGO because I am going fuckin feral over him

FGO please add him as a servant, I need him for my collection of Mesoamerican servants. But also i love him so much because he is such a well written character aaaaaa

#fgo camazotz #fgo #lb7 spoilers #camazotz #i thrive off of tragedy that makes use of love and futility #and also the pain of not being remembered #good shit #please i want him

[yoursghouly]

#source: twitter #actually needed to hear this thank you neil #brb listening to love of my life by queen on repeat #straight chillin in gay hell #currently non-thriving #even though I know the s3 payoff will be sooooo worth the pain #poor babies #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #good omens season 2 spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #prepared to sacrifice my first born for s3 #even though i’m pretty sure I can’t have kids haha #it’s the ​thought that counts right #good omens #neil gaiman #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #my shitposts #Twitter #gaiman

[bichimney]

I respect the people that never want to see eddie in pain again

unfortunately. I can't relate. I need to see him in agony

#eddie diaz #NOT that i don't want good things for him #obviously i love seeing my baby girl thriving #it's also just really important for me to see him in pain <3

[dutybcrne]

Fake dating/fuckbuddies with a hearty helping of requited unrequited love plots my Absolute Beloveds-

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Its about #//Person A proposing the arrangement bc they are hopelessly Down Bad for B but don’t think they’d feel the same way #//So they come up with a pretense so they can have even SCRAPS of the love they want; even if it hurts knowing it’s ’not real’ #//Meanwhile B is actually Very Much also pining and agreed for the Very Same Reasons #//And now they are both Aching but also Thriving on having their affections returned; even if in that brief moment #//Until one or both start flubbing things up and lines start blurring and suddenly what they have is NOT enough #//And either or both break the ice and ‘admit they caught feelings’ #//Either bc one tried to break things off bc it got Too Real and painful; or it impulsively happened in a Moment #//And they BOTH realize they’ve been dumb fucken idiots this whole time #//Bonus if they butt head fucken CONSTANTLY before all this #//Yes I read a good fucken hk.vh fic; NOBODY LOOK AT ME jdhfb #//But yeah; holy SHIT #//This trope combo is like crack cocaine to me in fics

[hikeyzz]

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#anyway um happy thursday i hope y'all are havin a great day thx for following me and dealing with my antics i rlly appreciate you all so mu #esp all my beloved moots y'all are so so precious to me #anyway don't keep reading unless you wanna know what goes on in my dumb idiot brain all the time #i would simply love to not be in pain and suffering anymore #i feel like i'm never going to feel well again #and idk how much longer i can keep going like this #like this life is not so great that it balances out the absolute suffering i endure #so . #why am i doing it?? #i never expected to live this long to begin with which is cool whatever like i chose to keep living #but i also expect to have a short life because of my health and my genes #and there's been some comfort in that where i feel a sense of ease knowing i'm not trapped in this life and there is an end #but so far my life has been that i am in poor enough health is seriously disrupts my life but only mildly disables me and does not actually #pose a risk to my ability to stay alive #like none of my health issues are fatal or life threatening in any way #they just seriously make it HARD to live and thrive and bc of that i'm like in disability limbo #and i don't wanna do it anymore #and trust me when i say i have thought soooooo much on it and am TRYING to make it worth it i am TRYING to make this life livable #i just can't keep living like this and my options rn are very limited #i want to ... so bad yet i keep trying and it just really really isn't worth it in my eyes #i don't know much longer i can hold on. i don't think i want to much longer #hikey #talks from ur local sexy psycho <3 #disabled lyfe

[daughterofhecata]

What is going on?! There has been little new music coming out from bands I love pretty much since covid at least, and now, there's not only a new Megaherz album but within a few days also the new ASP album, a new Oomph! album, a new song from PAIN and a new Indica song for the first time in like ten years???

#like seriously what's going on #i think sabaton and powerwolf were the only ones of my big old loves really putting out new music #(most of which i admittedly wasn't too fond of tbh) #and asp of course did put out some songs and the last album is 'only' two years old #but megaherz and oomph published their last album in... 2018/2019 or something? #the last pain album is from 2015 or 2016 i think #and indica have been dormant literally since 2013 or 2014 i sincerely thought they disbanded #sooo much new music i'm thriving #and also fighting the impulse to get tickets for the pain tour because again. peter seems to have drifted to the right #and i don't wanna give him money #music #kaj rambles #to delete later

[theeyeofthetigger]

You ever get so inspired by your fav again that you break out of your three year long writing slump, cause I did 😅

#rwby spoilers #neopolitan #rwby #my writing #as with everything the psic is a little more than implied #but roman isn't /in/ the fic just mentioned #but the intent is there it is still very psic leaned ✌️ #am i thriving this season? yes #am I in incredible amounts of pain this season? 100% absolutely #i rolled out of bed at just before 5am and slapped this together i love it

[animezinglife]

I can’t flirt. I thought I’d gotten better, but apparently not. I just go into this weird, to-the-point, almost corporate mode. I try too hard to play it cool.

I need to just step into the sun.

#personal #love life #funny #humor #30 and thriving #I just need the guy to literally do all of it for me #why can't I just put off girly energy #why do I have to put off lawyer or sniper energy #I'm laughing at myself but I'm also in emotional pain because I'm tired of this and myself

[dragqueenpentheus]

not to be like. A Freak in the tags but

#sometimes things cross over from like. passion i love and NEED to create about #to like. SO COMPLEX AND BEAUTIFUL WITH SO MANY LAYERS THAT IT BECOMES HOLY AND I JUST. CANT MAKE ABOUT IT ANYMORE. #and that happened w ruehob WEEKS ago but god tonight hit it home SOOOO HARD #like. i'll need to marinate with this ship. consume the entire canon. dissect it later by layer. #and then maybe be able to make things #other ships that fall into this category are and have been. valvert. fitzier. jupeter. #like we are talking heavy hitters that i've tried to name myself after levels here #obiwan and anakin too....... #i wanna make but it's SOOOOOO #THEY ARE SOOOOOOOO #like. rue doesn't care and doesn't THINK about the consiquences of their actions. meanwhile hob is so completely fixated on his consequences #that he doesn't let himself be a PERSON #like. he needs orders so the consiquences are other peoples and the pain and horror he sees himself enacting has that degree of separation #and then RUE OUT HERE LIKE. HM. MY PRIORITY IS LOVE. BECAUSE I NEVER TASTED IT. BUT I KNOW ITS REAL. ILL DO MY VERY BEST TO MAKE LOVE HAPPEN #AT ALL TIMES #AND I WILL NOT AT ALL CONSIDER THE IMPLICATIONS OF MY ACTIONS THANK YOU 💖 #like god rue is sO. i think they are the one i really have to sit with and mull and consider like. there is so MUCH in that lil freak. #like. ough baby rue is so complicated and brash and impulsive and hob sees that so completely as brave and i'm SOOO #i love them both so much i can't even say like #rue has so much shit goin on in that brain i need to piece it together. lads we have a GRAY CHARACTER and i'm thriving #the LYING baby the LYINGGGGG #i had a fic i was pretty deep in on that i abandoned after the hedge maze/tailor shop episodes bc i was like #mmmm nope these lads have too much percolating in em i don't have this umami right yet #and i was correct. the layers on them. #ANYWAY MONOLOUGE ASIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!! #these kids are stickin around even post series this is one of the long term ones i can tell

[larryjohnsoncosplayonthursday]

last

for realsies

#HELLO IM VENTING AGAIN IM SO SORRY #i am sick of everything the usual but i just need some fucking therapy and my diagnosises are taking too long because the system is shit #over here and i feel like i am a literal walking disaster a hazard to myself are my meds even working anymore idk? someone needs to lock me #in a fucking wardrobe before i loose my shit and do something stupid as fuck at least im self aware ok were growing this is called growth #wow ok amazing spectacular #like tonight ive decided i hate everyone again i want to quit uni actually might do it this time i just applied for a random job for no #reason i have a job but if i have 2 then i can over work myself to the max so i dont have to go into uni #i have three weeks off so now im cutting everyone off who knows how long this episode is gonna last for #i am loosing my god damn mind i do not want to do anything everything is so hard why is everyone so pressuring #i stopped doing some of my stupid habbits but now im just going full circle again so im thriving rn live love laugh am i right guys or what #AND WHY CANT I JUST HAVE A THERPAIST WHO CONTACTS ME ITS BEEN SINCE OCTOBER U FUCKING BITCH GO FUCK URSELF #anyway im in huge amounts of pain too idk what i do in my sleep or something but my shoulders hurt so bad #i hate wet tags on clothes when they stick to you throws up actually #i had stale fucking garlic bread today and i want to move out but if i move out then things will get worse for me #why cant i maintain a normal friendship without loosing my mind and hating everyone i mean no one knows my friends are pretty good with me #they understand but i dont know #ive come to the conclusion that i am just a shit

[mazojo]

#siS!!!! I can’t do this!!! rn!!!! devastated. #can they all just commmunicate and hoLD HANDS I AM- #so we all agree Francis Franco and Miguel are all gonna date and be in love and thrive right? right. awesome #i feel Miguel so much bro like it’s lack of communication but his overthinking feels so real I wanna hug him I want us to be best friends #i can fix this I swear I can I’ll make them all karaoke the night away with their pain #Miguel #Franco #francis #the doctors are out #webtoon

[ghostlyanon]

I think one of the most valuables advices I can give as an adult is: if you ever have the chance to acquire a bathrobe, get it. Even a simple bathrobe will improve your life quality.

#I love my bathrobe sm #also now that I am not in pain like yesterday I am feeling more productive #I will do some chores and get to work #hopefully since I must be writing I may also be able to attempt some progress here #i thrive in sleep ( ooc ) #delete later #mobile

[wonderloste]

i’m STILL working on all the different ways each character would propose to their s/o bc legit every single person does it a different way / with a different wonderlandian-inspired custom depending on their kingdom region and i’m so kjenrhkgjnm bro it’s so mushy.

#i figured out aleister's last night and just #''🥺'' #he creates a new breed of flower specifically designed for how he sees his partner and then embeds it (it's not painful it sounds painful #but it's not JHEBNRG) in their skin... then he lets them create a flower for him to embed in himself too #stares at my hands #i love writing gross ass romantic otome shit i thrive #ʚ o. out of character ɞ ⁄ otome games are my thirteenth reason. #ʚ x. delete ɞ ⁄ an eye for an eye‚ a leg for a leg : a shot in the heart doesn’t make it unbreak.