#i love my family! i think im lucky to be in this family and not another one!

[moeblob]

lil meow meow (affectionate)

#honkai star rail #lynx landau #the baby cat of the family! the littlest meow meow! #also thank heavens i have to finish commissions so i cant draw what i really wanted to draw which could easily get me canceled #its not my fault her hair style is super similar to another girl whomst i love also #i would absolutely draw a lil crossover parody spoof thing and i dont know the fandom well enough to think im safe #so ill just keep the parody doodle in my head bye #once i understand yays and nays in the game setting ill experiment more with the cast and stuff #but i also fear for my life because i really dont dabble in fandoms in general #and i got REALLY lucky with fe putting up with my art for so long

[puppyeared]

dumb

anton belongs to @poicyss

#i. dont know how to explain myself and im not gonna #ive been collecting shitposts and finally drew them out with some sillies #btw lucky would probably be the irresponsible/fun uncle just because 1) vincent is indestructible and 2) he dont give a shit #this man is painfully oblivious to the fact that he joined a man eating werewolf cult so i dont think it would be out of the question #i also know anton is technically an abno but also. weirdly funny to me what it would be like for him to deal with an abno breaching #like hey wait you cant do that. only i can do that wtf #ALSO I FINALLY DREW HIM WITH FAT TITS. LETS GOOOOOO #god theyre so unhinged all of them. i love them <3 #my art #myart #my oc #friend oc #anton #augusta #lucky #vincent #doodles #sillies family #starshadow

[luck-of-the-drawings]

(OLD OC SKETCHES) Meet Sunnabelle Von Sunnoviche, final daughter of the Sunnoviche family. Peeking from behind a window, she witnessed a wizards final spell, one that reduced the world to a wasteland. Her noble blood damned her to [HELL], but unwanting to suffer with her family, she made a deal with the devil. She now hunts in his name. The top of her head was taken by the blast on that day. The fires of her spirit have boiled her blood into a super-heated plasma.

#luckys original content #GRAAHH MY OCS OCS IM SORRY MY OCS I NEVER FUCKIN DRAWW YYAALLL #i was cleanin stuff on my pc again n found a buncha stray doodles of her that i made like. 1 or 2 yrs ago. so i cooked em into smth edible #shes a gunslinger rogue i think! mechanically aasimar bc plasma blood #played her once for a very teeny tiny improved oneshot me n some buddies did forever ago #would love to play as her again... someday a cowboy themed game will find me.. n she will live again... #SUNNABELLE VON SUNNOVICHE! the last name was sposed to sound like 'son of a bitch' ehehehe #bc she is ONE HELL ofa son ofa bitch. shes mean shes short tempered she takes NO SHIT #and she loses her mmIIIIND when she meets a delightfully stupid pretty person #i didnt play her for long so her personality hasnt evolved that far. thats the fun thing abt playing characters! u meet them when u play em #SUNNABELLE FUNFACTS: she is the 6th child of 11 siblings. middlest a middle child can be. bc o this she was often overlooked or ignored #she grew up in a family of obnoxiously rich nobles. all the other siblings were trained and focused on to be the best a sunnoviche can be #meanwhile. sunnabelle often stuck to herself. drawing and creating little fantasy worlds. was always a fan of wild wests n cowboys n guns #she was the only one that saw the WIZARD coming. she was peering over a window when the blast went off. taking the top of her head #GUHH IM ACTULY SO PROUDA HER DESIGN SHE LOOKS SO COOL.. LIKE WHATS WITH THE PLASMA HOW DID I DRAW THAT SO WELL. IM SO PROUD. #I lov all the sun symbolism.. its so fun.. what a fun character ive made.. hell yeah.... anyway hope u guys like her too. #if u got questions ive got ANSWERS!!! my askbox is always open. im pretty sure.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I can't express to you how much I adore Weaver Márquez. The ghost in the static. A mystery not a puzzle. A person gone but still taking up space. A thing still leaving marks after it's gone.

#i love her i love her i love her #one of the very very very few characters i relate to across any media piece. i can only think of 4 that i relate to even a little #shes more unteathered to reality than i am but shes an odd person with bizarre niche extremely academic interests #who just drifts through places like a ghost. more memory than person #she makes me so sad but i guess everyone in kr0 is a tragedy #but weaver is like thr 2nd big anomaly u meet. standing in her farmhouse where a grave out front reads marquez even though as far as #Shannon knows its not a family member and her one last echo of impact on the world is seemingly to guide Shannon to a place where maybe she #can make somwthing better once the rain has washed everything away #uuuuuugh its such a beautiful gorgeous game that i love so so so much #as an Appalachian i feel it in my soul Even tho im not from Kentucky and i was lucky enough to grow up not in poverty the town where i went #to school was better than a mining town but still poor rural America #its just a game that changed my brain chemistry #kentucky route zero #krz #kr0

[ratgingi]

woe characters inspired by some of my cats be upon ye. info on them in my tags lol

#dialtown oc #jack dlc #twerpys head is a sledgehammer bc the cat theyre based on was born in a wall lmao #he works at the petstore with outis bc i got said cat frm the local petstore #lilys head is a fluffy couch pillow thing and she works at an animal shelter bc thats where i got the cat shes based on #twerpy is genderfluid bc we make jokes that my cat twerpy is genderfluid a lot #also i feel like shed be aroace if she were a person. its just the vibes yk #lily isnt labeled as anything shes just vibin #the 2 are part of a big sorta found family type shit that consists of chars based on my other 3 cats i just didnt feel like drawin more rn #twerpy is really mean and stuck up but is secretly super sweet it just takes them a long time to warm up enough to someone n show it #shes also secretly incredible at like. comforting people and helping them out. but again only shows it for people hes warmed up enough to #lily is super confident and full of herself and spoiled. she thinks shes super fuckin smart but she is very much Not /lh #she loves attention though and gets her feelings hurt super easy #also shes Huge on physical affection. she loves giving people hugs and holding hands and shit #like. shell be like oh im so fuckin hot and cool literally no ones on my level and of ur like eh idk that fit isnt really that good on u #she will start Crying. and get mad that youre being mean to her for no reason while sobbing #and probably will hug onto you while doing it #twerpy also gives really good hugs but they Hate being touched. so if it willingly touches you then youre incredibly lucky special #also lily loves sitting in peoples laps #if youre friends with her she is far more likely to sit on your lap instead of any chair in the room nd thats just smth youll have 2 deal w #dlc wiki

[definitelynotshouting]

heya i just wanted to tell you how genuinely important your arospec scarian thing is to me

the line "He's not sure what he wants, what's expected of him here" has just helped me solve a tiny crisis i've been having for the past month+ and on one hand i can't believe a fic about blockmen kissing is helping me figure this out but on the other hand im thinking of course it was your writing that helped me realize what is happening in my little feelings hole

anyway, just wanted to say thank you for how real and beautiful your writing is

sincerely, an aro/ace person who's feeling a little more okay about their crisis because you're an awesome human

HEY ANON,,,,, THIS IS SO SWEET WTF..... holy shit im literally speechless. I dont even remotely know what to say to such a genuine and heartfelt message, except that i am so, so happy ive managed to help you like this with my writing

Writing the arospec stuff was really interesting for me, personally, because thats an aspect of myself ive never really... set out much space to think about??? Ive known for a while that im probably demiromantic, considering how close i have to be with people before i can even begin to catch feelings, but ive never truly and consciously explored that within my writing before until now. And the fact that finally doing so has helped someone with a personal crisis really makes me so teary-eyed like hello...... oh my gods.

Thank you for taking the time to tell me this, and im so glad ive managed to help out despite being a virtual stranger. That novelty is never gonna wear off for me. I hope you're having a good day, anon❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ take care of yourself!! :]

#shouting speaks #asks #compliments #LITERALLY ABT TO CRY /POS THIS IS SO SWEET AND KIND AND IM JUST AUAUGHHH #i am very much a Helper™ in that i try very hard to support everyone in my life in any way i can #so like. man. knowing im Helping strangers somehow with my writing thats like. everything to me #cannot stress enough just HOW much it means to me #also like... man its weird isnt it #bc i DO feel romantic attraction but its just SO different from how everyone else says they experience it #for me its this conscious and informed choice #i love all the people in my life dearly and very fiercely but when i go into a romantic relationship #its always with an element of ''well im curious lets see what happens'' and choosing to try it out with someone i like #i find a certain comfort in the closeness and intimacy but i find EQUAL comfort in the closeness and intimacy of my platonic relationships #its real telling i think that i have a partner of going on.... 4 years now???? and two platonic relationships in the same household #that have been going on for even longer #smth smth the comfort of finding people you want to spend the rest of your life with regardless of romantic or platonic feelings #smth smth found family. im incredibly lucky to have made this one #anyway. wjfnejfnjd explodes #txt

[freebooter4ever]

how's the job hunt going? would you ever relocate for a job love?

Oh wow what a question lol! Honestly i dont expect to be able to find anything new till this strike is over, the competition is insane right now. In the meantime my plan is to teach myself faster hard surface sculpting in z*brush using hockey gear \o/ mostly because i dont want to pay the $150 a month for maya, that shits insane. Like a fucking health insurance payment.

For the second question - i dont think i've ever experienced love like that. I think it would take a lot of devotion and sacrifice to give up your dreams for someone else. Admirable, for sure. And also a sacrifice that historically women are the ones expected to make. Every time. :( For a job? Lol, i would move in a heartbeat. I stayed in pittsburgh 6 years after college for my dream job - i only left when i lost it. Knew the next dream job wasnt going to be there, so made my way to LA. And now im having to come to terms with the idea that the dream job doesnt exist as i imagined it - or only exists for a very VERY select few.

And actually, thats not totally true about me and love. I think if i thought for one second that nick could love me back like i diid him, id already be in new england. When i applied to this one job, that sounded like a dream come true it listed the salary, and brian and i just read it and gaped. We looked at each other and i was like i dont even know what the fuck i would DO with all that. And of course the first thing that popped into my mind was i could buy that sailboat nick always talked about. When i was writing my programming textbook a decade ago, and really going through it, and nick and i were up until 3 or 4am every night painting theater sets, he'd talk about his sailing adventures, teach me rope knots, that sort of thing, basically a mental escape. And so last week i texted him like 'hey no promises but what if im suddenly actually making good money. Do you still want that boat?' Because, nick's worked so long and so hard and all he's gotten to is the point of still working on boats other people own, and its just not fair how devalued physical labor is, you know? And his immediate reaction was to launch into our very old daydream - the whole 'yes and you're coming with me, sail off into the sunset' stuff. And that hadnt occured to me - my idea was just- id give him the boat, and he'd fix it up, and id maybe demand photos or a visit or two every so often. Because i think finally -finally- im at a point in my life where being in love isnt enough - i want the other person to love me back. And lol definitely not someone who declares love one minute and then stops talking to me for weeks or months, and the cycle repeats over and over. I think its possible to love someone enough that you recognize you arent the one for them, but still want them to be happy? Happier than you could make them.

So long answer is yes, i would relocate for love, but i have learned the hard way to know when i shouldn't.

#And if this anon is who i think it might be? #My friend i fully support your adventure across countries for love <3 #Just please have back up plans cause as romantic as love is #Sometimes it can go wrong and you need to be independant enough to extricate yourself from bad situations #whether thats just having the savings or having family friends connections who can help wherever you are going #I know personally how VERY wrong love can go #And im not saying it would happen but if something does go wrong you dont want to end up trapped #Out of the frying pan and into the frier so to speak #Im on the negative side of this debate #a positive example of relocating for love would be my favorite youtuber couple justin scar*ed and ally war*en #Her whole story was absolutely an escape from her family the minute she could and helped by justin #but i feel like theyre the lucky ones not all of us get that #anyway lol if this isnt who i think it might be sorry!! #that was a long rant from me

[lostintime-liketearsinrain]

New year, same shitty mental illness 💔

#first day back in work today and it was difficult #it's strange #I've done this job for 8 years yet I'm struggling with it so much of late #the mundane aspect of it #feeling of wasting my time #I legit had a breakdown at one point today where my head spiralled and just thought what's the point of it all #like I don't know what's up with me of late #like i feel crazy #like I'm lost but have no real reason to be #I'm lucky. I have a job. a roof over my head. food in the cupboards and a loving family etc #yet my brain just feels numb and dark #I know it's the mental illness but it's draining of late #I think it's time to go back to the doctors #discuss some stronger meds and perhaps find a therapist #I'm 33 now and I just want to have a normal life with someone I love and a future to look forward to #right now all I feel is alone and I keep people at arms length because I'm damaged goods and its easier then letting them down #… its 1am right now and I'm just rambling #im sharing this stuff because it's healthier to be out with it then keep it bottled up #this is my blog after all #I don't want nor expect peoples sympathy or attention from this either #we all struggle and while I feel I have no one right now. I will always have this blog to share my thoughts without judgement #i will get better #i will get through this #…. #mental illness #depression #tw depression #trigger warning #personal

[supersecretnerd]

I think there should be a crossover au where the protagonists of Henry Slick's film (Jack Skellington, James Trotter, Coraline Jones, and Kat from the upcoming film Wendell and Wild) are all friends.

I just feel like it could lead to a multitude of cute, funny, and even some angsty interactions- I also love all of these films so it's like a bonus to be able to talk about them to folks.

#of course- sorta have to wait for Wendell and Wild to come out to fully understand Kat's personality and how she would interact with #the other characters #but i can imagine the other characters dynamic- #coraline would at first be immediately suscipous of Jack and James' bug family and it would take some time for her to warm up to them #Jack may try to scare them for fun but other than that he would be super sweet towards the kiddos- kinda like a fun uncle- #however he also doesn't understand humans very well so that would lead to some bizarre interactions between the kids #James would be both a happy go lucky kid but also surprisky chill with the absurdity the other chatacters bring #he's seen alotta werid stuff- he's pretty much like 'oh a skeleton and some girls from the furture. cool you guys wanna play?' #also i think it would be funny if Kat and Coraline just show James technology from the future- he mainly loves the films #James just playing Cut the Rope on one of their cellphones cause he likes to feed 'the cute little froggy' #im gonna stop rambling now haha- #just wanna to shout my ideas #the nightmare before christmas #coraline #james and the giant peach #wendell and wild

[cuntstable]

thinking about how multi generational households are so hard to keep up because everything here from societal expectations to maybe more importantly things live living/wellfare support actively discourage them and try to tear them apart. hm.

#like i love living w my mom as an adult and w my brother like our arrangment works for all of us. and ik im in a way incredibly lucky to #have a home where i feel comfortable and that i dont want to leave. like i understand why my older brother left and whatever. but also its #just more benefitial for us all to live together like this as poor people than alone or w random roommates. but like #thinking about the prospect of moving for my education soon makes me so sad because the governmental moving support for families isnt #applicable to us. and we are too poor to move as a whole family w/o assitance. and how previously our benefits have been under threath of #being cut because its seen as ’un-usual’ for 3 adult family members to live together so the societal expectation literally makes it harder #for us to exist. and i imagine its only doubly hard for for example immigrant families who want to keep their multi generational households #too. like none of this is planned for us or even made with ROOM for us it sucks #and the prospect of moving alone and leaving everyone is especially scary since we are all disabled and rely on helping each other. ugh

[party-gilmore]

“you’ve got he/him in your bio but you don’t even try to pass 🙄”

this is because i (a man) love cross-dressing (as a woman) hope that helps

#everyday im lucky enough my agab lets me live the dream 😔 #im going for a more humorous note here obvs so real talk ueah id like to look a more masc i love facial hair and sharp jaws #and i look fucking GOOD with them #but a) transitioning physically is a LOT of fucking koney and thats even IF you can land an appointment since every PP in the tristate area #is too full up in their hrt program to accept new patients #and b) no one should feel like they have to change their body if they’re happy with it just to suit what other people think that gender #should look like. its one thing to want to ‘pass’ to live more comfortably and easily in the cisnormative society we’re stuck with at #our jobs and schools and even families #but to hear ‘why dont you try to pass?’ as a blanket expectation of trans people whether or not they experience dysphoria? #congratulations you just invented cis binary gender expectations again 🙄 except THIS time we have to work even HARDER to meet them 🙄

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

This is an actual conversation, reproduced nearly verbatim, between me and a friend recently:

"Look, I can count on the fingers of one hand the number of people outside my family who I feel comfortable going up to and talking to!"

*friend counts, getting to both hands* "No but you're forgetting some. Me, [the boy's sister], my parents-"

*stops her* "I think you're misunderstanding me. I said comfortable. Like sure there are the ones who I can feel comfortable talking to, but not going up to."

"So who's on your list?"

"You, [the boy's sister], [his younger brother], [the boy himself]. That's it."

*friend is, apparently, shocked into silence*

#i think she didn't realise just how uncomfortable I am in social situations #i mean i often feel awkward even approaching the boy's sister who i love dearly #his brother is happy-go-lucky enough that hardly anyone could be uncomfortable approaching him i think #and he himself i'm awkward about it but not uncomfortable #this came up in a convo bc she was leaving youth group earlier than i was and the boy's family wasn't there #when she left i proceeded to stand alone by the wall staring at nothing and nobody came and talked to me but that's okay #tehy all have their friends #can hardly expect them to pay attention to an awkward ugly weirdo xD #and eventually my transport took me home so it was fine #i am neither mad nor upset #just a little sad that i don't have anyone who would actively seek me out #like this friend *might* if she ddin't have more interesting people to talk to #and the boy's sister might sometimes #but it would be nice sometimes if others chose to come and talk to me bc they wanted to rather than me coming and talking to them bc #im dumb and boring and awkward #idk i mean like the boy himself for instance kinda waits for conversation to arrive at him rather than initiating it bc he isn't v social #he seems to like conversations when they're started? i mean he smiles a lot so i guess that's good? #idk if he came and started conversation id KNOW he was v interested #anyway that's okay i can survive perfectly well #the boy #personal

[roseyanon]

*chants* hat hat hAT-

#finally starting that hat my niece asked for... wish me luck lol x3 #also good morning i went to sleep tearing up thinking about my friends and family that i love and who also love me #and have woken up still overcome with love x3 god im a lucky bastard <3

[archipelagolago]

good things but personal so hiding in the tags

#its been a year now and WHEN will the honey moon phase be over im going ridiculous fr fr #our anniversary is literally on new years which is so fucking picturesque or whatever the word is i hate it (lying) #i got us matching bracelets and she lost hers that same day im literally so in love with her #and she told her siblings about us and her sister was just like. yeah obviously 🤨 #and then later her brother when her parents waiting in the restaurant for a table and me & her & him were in the car and he said yeah. #i figured 🙄 and then he came out to us and i love him. i love her family so much i feel unreal #and her parents literally dont know were dating. like genuinely. i dont know what they think but it works. they said next time they all go #home to the philippines they want me to come. i dont understand why they like me so much & im so scared of the day theyll find out im #dating their daughter and start hating me. but rn i feel so happy so its ok #and her mom said shes thinking of taling spamish classes at my community college and i should take them with her. even though i speak #spanish from home but i can help her #her family is just so kind to me and it makes me feel soooo i dont even know. everything #i just never thought i would be this happy its so impossible for me to understand or accept it #and everything with us is never perfect but its so much love and i feel so lucky its scaring me #i feel like im dreaming im so scared to wake up and lose it all #and its all been so hard and is going to be even harder but its worth it. more than anything and thats even more terrifying than #all the bullshit #but its good its good its good #louie type

[aro-aizawa]

still thinking about when i had to explain fandom to my favourite cousin (enby adhd solidarity) who's only six month's older than me, all about fandom and what fanfiction was. which was baffling to me, and had to explain fanon to them so people could easily understand fanfiction, specifically for comics as i was reading batman fanfiction. and THEN later when the family was playing a guessing game, my cousin had to describe batman to their team and CALLED ME OUT on reading fanfiction for it in front of half my entire family. man i love them but WOW.

#shut up danni's talking #i love my cousin they are so cool but sometimes i feel like our worlds are so far apart #them not being familiar w fandom is BAFFLING to me on so many levels like everyone our age has to have heard abt fandom right?????? #but yeah i've always thought they were so cool but we didn't have much in common #then whoop they come out as enby and i delighted in it #they also changed their name and i think i was lucky when i did mine bc i accidentally gave my family an adjustment period #whereas they didn't they were thrown right into everyone forgetting lol but i was much better at it #admittedly my skills at using singular they verbally is very much underdeveloped so originally i struggled with it but i got SO MUCH better #it's natural for me now to use singular they when written but spoken i never had to use it bc i didn't know anyone irl w they/them pronouns #but now im getting much better!!! #anyways i love my cousin but i still can't believe i got called out for it so fast xndjjdkxmdjs

[jankillbride]

since all the people i can talk to about cql are not available i get to make a post. anyways i remember seeing someone say a while ago that the real found family wei wuxian has is with the wen remnants and it’s not found family if you force his relationship with jiang yanli and jiang cheng and like... obv i have a shit memory so who knows maybe i’m very much selectively remembering that post, but a general sentiment i don’t agree with is that wei wuxian and the jiang siblings are not their own found family. cause like, when i’ve seen that attitude pop up, it’s usually revolving around the fact that they all grew up together and thus the jiang family operates like wei wuxian’s ‘original’ family (? idk the exact logic but it reminds me of people whose idea of found family are people who didn’t know you growing up/people you met only recently). but the problem with that is that who’s “forcing” the yunmeng siblings to be family? definitely not yu-furen for starters and ig people can have different opinions but it never really read to me that jiang fengmian was taking wei wuxian truly as a “son.” like by all accounts, the yunmeng siblings’ relationships probably should have been worse. but they weren’t. they all chose not to be worse and they genuinely all care about each other. they try really hard to protect each other, and even when they’re not around each other, it’s obvious that that love still exists. see the (re)building of the lotus ponds where they’re living post sunshot, wei wuxian missing his shijie, jiang yanli wanting wei wuxian to see her in her bridal outfit and jiang cheng arranging that... like, they’re the yunmeng siblings lmao and idk to me, they certainly do count as found family.

#cql #yunmeng siblings #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #jiang yanli #im sorry i just really love them so much #also note that just because something's found family or there's a family in general doesn't mean that everything's happy go lucky #i think something that happens a lot with found family is that since it's found and it's supposed to be better than what you had before #there's sometimes the expectation that everything is better now and like. obv having a better family than before makes things better but #that doesn't mean there are never any conflicts or differences or that no one in the group has hurt someone else you know #anyways i got to go study even tho i want to continue my cql rewatch #or continue watching guardian there's a good ep up next #jkb.posts