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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 8 months

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i’ll go see you again tomorrow (spring is coming to an end) ; sashisu

[ part 0 - first meeting ]

synopsis; the gradual blossoming of a youth shared with three strange classmates, at the weird, isolated boarding school you all attend. as the seasons of your first year together pass, the relationship between you changes into something you don’t need to put into words to understand.

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contents; sashisu/reader (but can be read as either platonic or romantic, or something inbetween!! i wrote it with the latter in mind), gn!reader, no curses au (dw they’re all still a little bit insane and damaged), very shoujo manga-esque, reader is a little bit in love with all their friends, just wholesome comfy vibes :), characters may be ooc but pls bear with me </3

a/n; this is the shorter opening piece of a sashisu/reader series i’m writing and the first out of six planned parts!! :> the rest will be much longer this is just me setting the tone. sorta. i’m extremely normal about sashisu and i wanted to write something summery and sweet so <3

you first meet them in a sun-soaked classroom, with blue-tinted windows.

the room in question, clearly not having been of use for some time, is just a little dusty. enough that you notice it, nose scrunching up as your gaze trails over the space.

tiny specks of light dance around, meeting and intersecting between the gaps where streaks of sunlight fall and illuminate the floorboards. they’re oddly mesmerizing, a little hard to forget. the flicker of their movement begins to etch itself into your retinas; for some reason, you can’t quite take your eyes off them.

eventually, your attention is caught by something else, coaxing you into moving your gaze towards the translucent windows. they glimmer softly, tantalizingly in the sunlight, reflecting the blue of the sky. through the glass, it’s all you can see at first — a sky so blue that it’s a little irritating. big, white clouds are scattered like splotches of paint across a blue canvas, treading gently over the boundary of your vision.

in a similar fashion, the ground of the schoolyard is littered with dots of white. for just a second, you delude yourself into thinking that it’s snow; it’s not until you spot the skeletal trees and their pale blossoms that you see them for what they are. soft petals flutter down to the ground eagerly, covering everything in a pure white.

it really is eerily reminiscent of a snowy landscape, ephemeral in its beauty. it gives you the impression of having stepped over some sort of threshold, into another realm, another world entirely. coated in apricot blossoms, soaked in sunlight.

(it shouldn’t be possible from where you’re standing, behind the windows — but the scent reaches you all the same. everything smells of apricots.)

it’s springtime, and you’re in the prime of your youth.

a youth you’re about to share with three other kids, all standing in front of you and wearing mildly indifferent expressions as you give each other a brief glance.

you try not to stare too hard, but it’s difficult to resist the temptation. three new classmates, mysterious and just slightly intimidating; two guys, and one girl. the tiny glances you steal at them aren’t very sneaky, but you doubt they’d care, when they’re all doing the same.

you study their appearances, eager to sate the curiosity clawing at your heart.

the girl is pretty.

the expression on her face is laid-back, almost bored, and she looks a little like she doesn’t quite want to be here. her hair reaches down to her chin, just barely, brown and smooth and silky. estimating her exact height is a little tough; you can tell she’s fairly short, but you don’t know how much of it is exaggerated, courtesy of her placement between the other two. their lanky legs and broad shoulders only make her look smaller in comparison.

her eyes are chestnut-coloured, a little dim, somewhat hazy. there’s a mole under one of her eyes, too, and you’re acutely aware of how charming you find it. you’re relieved to have at least one girl in your class, anyhow. you hope she’s nice.

the boy on her right is pretty, too.

he’s much taller, and wearing a somewhat serious expression, but something about him feels almost comforting all the same. he seems relaxed, but also sharp, as his eyes trail across the room. his hair is black and silky, and it’s long — or so you assume, judging by the fact that he’s got it in a bun. two things about him stand out in particular; one, the black gauges on his ears, and two, a single lock of hair framing his face. his hair is tied up and neat, prim and proper, with the exception of his bangs. you don’t think it looks bad, exactly, but it’s an odd choice.

at first glance, you think his eyes are black, but when a ray of sunlight falls across his face you realize that they’re brown. a deep colour, oddly soothing, warm. little sparks of amber glitter in the depths of his irises, illuminated only by the sun. it gives you the impression that there’s more to him than meets the eye.

then there’s the other boy.

he’s the most intimidating out of the three, without a doubt, though you still can’t pinpoint exactly why. he strikes you as particularly unnerving; maybe it’s the expression on his face, that you can’t seem to identify. he’s also tall, very tall, even taller than the other guy — though only by a smidge. he towers over you slightly, and that unnerves you even further. there’s something in the way he’s standing that almost seems a little menacing. his hair is white, and soft, and just a tad messy. and he’s wearing a pair of round sunglasses, even though you’re indoors.

you can’t see his eyes well, behind the black glass, but you get the vague impression that they’re blue when sunlight cascades down the contours of his face and reflects in them.

you take another moment to simply look at them, observing them, as if trying to reach some sort of conclusion about what they’re like. it doesn’t really work, but you do get some semblance of an impression.

finally, your teacher clears his throat, breaking the silence of the classroom — urging you to hurry up and get the introductions done and over with. the impatient reminder snaps all four of you out of your collective trance.

the first person to speak up is the boy with the weird bangs. that alone gives you a sense of his personality; polite, proper, the first to do the thing no one really wants to do.

”my name is suguru geto,” he begins, well mannered. ”it’s nice to meet you.” his voice is pleasant, somehow. nice to listen to. there’s something comforting about it, that you can’t quite place; it sounds almost familiar, like you’ve heard it all your life.

then, the cute girl chimes in, casual and unbothered as she fiddles with something in her pocket. ”shoko ieiri. just call me shoko,” she says, short and sweet.

she really is pretty, you muse, bathed in the streaks of sunlight falling haphazardly across the room. and she seems nice, not uptight or obnoxious; the kind of person that’s easy to talk to, easy to be friends with. you think you like her already. but she notices your lingering stare, and so you look away, gaze falling to the floorboards.

finally, after a slight pause, the boy with the sunglasses speaks up. you still can’t get a good read on his expression. ”… satoru gojo,” is all he says, and you can’t seem to grasp his tone of voice, either.

it irks you, though. you’re not sure why. you almost get the sense that he thinks he’s appeasing you, by introducing himself, like hearing his name is a priviliege. that, and you feel a little like you’re being dissected when his gaze falls on you — like he’s weighing your value, deciding your worth. you think you almost catch a glimpse of his eyes behind the black tint of his glasses, and they strike you as acutely menacing, bright blue and uncanny. you decide that you don’t like him, and that his sunglasses are kinda ugly.

their gazes fall on you, at last.

you’re the only one whose name they don’t know, now. it’s a kind of power, in a way, the power of mystery. intrigue. their stares feel heavy on your skin, and you feel more than a little nervous; but you’re intent on following the silent cue, all the same.

and you do so, dutifully, raising your hand up in a silent hello before tentatively saying your name. then, in a voice you hope doesn’t come across as bored or unpleasant:

”— it’s nice to meet you.”

some of them hum in affirmation, as if to say it’s nice to meet you too — others remain silent. even when the introductions are finished, you continue to look at each other, vaguely and discreetly, as if trying to look inside each other’s heads.

but then your teacher begins to speak, in an authorative voice, and you’re snapped out of the trance, once more.

he babbles on and on, about something you’re sure is important, something about the school and the classes you’ll be having and the dorms and so on. you try to listen, you really do, but it’s tough — you vaguely get the gist, but all you can really think about is your classmates, still so mysterious and intimidating.

you try to repeat their names, inside your mind, trying to ingrain them into your memory.

suguru geto, shoko ieiri, and satoru gojo.

you still don’t really know what to think about them. shoko will probably be fairly easy for you to warm up to, but the other two are a different story. all three of them seem to have strong personalities, reflected in their eyes; a dim hazel, a deep umber, and a stark azure. you don’t know what’s hidden in them, but you have a strange inkling that you will, in due time.

that’s how the four of you meet. and in this moment, as you look into their eyes for the first time, you have no idea how much your life has changed — how much they’ll change it for the better.

you only know that it’s springtime, and that you’re in the prime of your youth.

a youth you’re about to spend with these three kids in front of you, who you know nothing about. some part of your soul urges you to find out, for yourself.

maybe you will.

(outside the sun-soaked classroom, through the blue-tinted windows, the world observes your meeting with bated breath and barely contained excitement.)

part i

#title is taken from the lyrics of yorushika’s ’spring thief’ btw i listened to it while writing this n cried <3 its sooo sashisu.#anyway!!! this series ended up kinda reader-centric but the focus is meant to be on the relationship between all 4 of them #its just… really easy to analyze the characters from a third party pov. and im a shameless self inserter so. x reader it is!#this series is also my excuse to (attempt to) analyze sashisu as a trio/individually but idk if my own interpretation will align w/ canon #in my defense theyre a lot less traumatized in a no curses au #but i still wanted to try and explore their high school selves + their issues w/ intimacy and trust n all that. im obsessed with them.#so i hope i did a decent job :’) anyway thats enough ranting in the tags if u read this far i am in Love With You #sashisu x reader #shoko ieiri x reader #geto suguru x reader #gojo satoru x reader #sashisu #gojo satoru #geto suguru #shoko ieiri #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x reader #…. i think thats all #jujutsu kaisen #jjk

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dungeons-and-dragon-age · 22 days

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You ever think about Hawke and their relationship with their name

#lay rambles #it can be a title or a nickname it can be personal it can be made up by varric to protect their identity it can be all of these things #either shifting or at the same time #not to mention the relation to malcom it might have. was that his real last name or was that a name made up after fleeing?#either way if its related to him there is something to say about them choosing/being assigned that name over the amell name #despite that being the one with official status in the city #i could go on about it tbh i love the leeway we get to play around w it #in fact do feel free to tell me abt your hawkes if you read this i am very curious abt your interpretations of it!#(also dragons if u read this: 'tis the one! xd)

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nopefer-art-tu · 1 year

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listening to ppl react to brokeback mountain is such a great way to identify who is good at paying attention to subtext and who is not lol

so many podcasters have cited the scene where theyre on their last campring trip together and jack tells ennis he has a girl hes been seeing on the side as proof of jack's bisexuality or whatever and like. look. you can argue whatever sexuality you want for him, but if ur gonna do that, CITE A DIFFERENT SCENE!

the whole reason the scene w david harbour and anna farris was written into the script at all was so that later in the story, when jack's dad tells ennis that he had another guy who was going to come up there and live w him on his parent's ranch, we realize that the "rancher's wife" jack said he'd been sneaking around with back in texas was actually the same ranch neighbor jack's dad was talking about, meaning jack was lying to ennis

and thats also why ennis kind of freezes for a beat when jack's dad says that, bc he's making the same connections the audience already did. or at least was supposed to lol

#its not that hard to understand people #i bet theyd have an even harder time picking that up if they just read the short story and had not seen the movie lol #cause that whole scene w david harbour and jacke gyllenhaal was not in the short story at all #we dont see any of jacks life in the short story so the only references we get to that mysterious rancher is when jack says hes been #hooking up with his ranch neighbors wife and then later when the dad says that whole thing about the ranch neighbor of his #like that scene was written into the script to make things MORE CLEAR #and ppl still dont get it #its just funny to me idk #anyways i love listening to movie podcasts talk abt this movie cause i love seeing ppls different reactions and interpretations of the film #but if ur gonna argue that jack is attracted to both men and women then please use a different argument ppl. thats the wrong scene to cite #brokeback mountain #still brokeback posting

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marcmorrigan · 1 year

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i finished the duel monsters dub for the first time ever last night (!!!) so i figured i oughta lock down my faces for the aibous... what a show, man

#yugi muto #yami yugi #atem #puzzleshipping #yugioh #ygo #ygo dm #duel monsters #my art #ive had atems face pretty set for literally years but ive never managed a yugi i was 100% happy with... this one is MUCH closer tho #i might render this later + experiment with some other hairstyles for them... i prefer drawing them with afrotextured hair #sketch #there are so many other yugioh artists who do such PHENOMENAL interpretations of ygo hairstyles in diff textures & styles!!!#i dont think ill be bringing anything new or revolutionary to the table hsdfghjkl. but i wanna play around w it!#i wanna experiment with‚‚‚ atem mullet‚‚‚ similar to how i did it in my yami jareth art. the super long jellyfish mullet is so cute on him #also!!! its so crazy to me to be done w the DM dub!!! ive loved yugioh for ages but had never managed to finish the show #but i decided some time last year/the year before that i was gonna try again in Earnest and!!! wow!!! call me matchbox 20 #because how far weve come...#this is a big deal to me ive been into yugioh (as an adult) since like 2014ish so this has been a long time coming!!!#im gonna read the DM manga next and i think we are gonna do DSOD this week #then i guess jump right into GX!!! ive been cosplaying jaden for so long its gonna be crazy to watch his actual series...#i only know him from bonds beyond time hsdfghjkl. AND BBT ABRIDGED... MY AUTISM MOVIE...#anyway. yugioh. 🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖😭😭😭💕💕💕

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lemongogo · 10 months

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cant describe how nice it feels 2 see canon!vash again after bejng surrounded by fanon for days. its like waking uo from a nightmare . trimax vash my fresh glass of water

#went back to some random chapter in the manga n i love him so much #everytnjng ab him jn trimax is just so wholly n truly him.#i dont necessarily hate fanon for fanonsake per say #but i saw a rb today thats said smt smt like : i prefer when people stay true to canon content #and work around that and its limitations bc its so interesting to see the story As it exists ans how you can interact w all of its poeces #pieces* as opposed to reimagining smth so completely that you inevitably change core components of Who characters are or why they are that w #way #so idont mean for this to sound like . boo fanon blows bc i definitely pick and choose things ab my fav charas all the time #but trimax vash is jst The perfect iteration of him in my mind. the og . the blueprint . my 1 and only #trigun #vash #trigun maximum #like yk when you havent read the source material in a while #and u only rly see like . other ppls interpretations of ur fav chara #its like a mountain of minute differences that gradually water them down #and ur like hmm maybe im like indifferent ab them.and then u go back to the source n its like nonavtually they r my everytbing j still love #them . heart emoji. v . ❤️

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 8 months

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hiki and geki matching post

#utau #kazehiki utau #gekiyaku utau #(this isn't all of them but these are the ones i thought matched the most esp given the poses; these r the 偽薬; 点滴; and 顆粒 vbs respectively)#(also i hope this doesnt go against kuzutokaze's terms?? cause its just low quality screencaps and not the full high res art)#(but ill delete if i have to)#theyre sillyyyy i like them BOTH when u have vsynths that are meant to b counterparts do not separate them!!!#angst siblings angst siblings... (to me.) maybe im particularly based b/c reminds me of my own brother and i #but also ive just read interpretations/fantheories abt these two that have absolutely DESTROYEDDD me sad as fuck man wtf 😭😭#i have a lot of thoughts abt a lot of vsynths. ughhhh curse me not having a lot of time to draw rn #i will admit i was a bit more hiki based at first lmao but ive warmed up to geki; yeah her voice tone def isnt for everyone #i totally get that. but she can roll her rs so good LMAOO... and also just in the way/s i interpret her she reminds me a lot of myself :(#[well ok i project heavilyyy on a lot of my vsynth interpretations but these two. i can do things. *hits them w/ my latine beam*]#[JOKINGG... /hj. in a way. shhhhhhhh dont even worry about it. i NEEED to test out more how they both sound in spanish tho i need]#please ignore these tags for the love of god 😭😭😭 its late and im going a little unhinged

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pbnmj · 10 months

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Ur tags about how Miles and Pavitr are the ones who say "I can do both" because it IS quintessential spiderman thinking AND because they're too young to have seen that devastatingly not work yet. BUT the thing is they are RIGHT but only if it's "we"! Spiderman's mythos is inherently a lonely one reinforced by Miles and Gwen's isolation and by every. single. intro. reminding us that every spider person is the "one and only spider person"! And yet!! These films are just about relationships (1/2)

YES YEAH YOU GET IT !!!! and (quite recently rewatched it and mentioning it here cause i can't believe i forgot to mention it in the post you're talking about) it really gets me that gwen also says 'i was doing both' in regards to protecting miles and protecting the canon event, and i love that the phrase was reflected like that, even tho (at this point of the movie) miles and gwen pretty much oppose each other in views/priority !!

it also absolutely kills me the way that gwen begins (like you say) atsv quitting the band and isolates herself, and then throughout the whole thing she finds something/someone that she wants to take that leap for, all over again :') she (and the entire spider-team!!) is willing to bet everything on miles and is ready to fight for him, and i really just love the idea that miles just is a force that inspires good !!!! IT REALLY IS ALL ABOUT LOVE!!!

#and . i dont think she would have done this without reconciling with her dad and that entire speech.#i do think that acceptance and love meant everything to her when she was at her lowest and it pushes her to do more +#AND it shows her canon events arent necessarily end alls. and it reflects in how she tells miles parents how much he loves them #just feel like. gwen now believes that love he has couldnt ever be bad. and it shouldn't have to make the world end...#and she believes it wont. AUGH #also been thinking that it's such a fun way to reflect that 'parker luck'#where yknow . where peter just cannot balance his two identities #and usually a spider-man success means something in his personal life goes badly #and idk i love when things are acknowledged to be like. the RESULT of being spider-man .#its fun to me. perhaps i am analysing media wrong. but tragedy magnet spider-man is so fucking depressing on many levels #and that opens up barbie dreamhouse levels of fun to me #generally superheroes creating their own enemies on accident . like ssm's venom was a goldmine to me i enjoyed that interpretation so much #i dont think miguel was right tho . fate of the multiverse/anomaly/etc I DONT CARE OLD MAN. UR OPINION WAS OVER WHEN U STARTED BEEF W MILES #and so sorry this took forever to reply to omg i adored reading this meta !!!!!#answered #disinherits #long post #sorry everyone the floor was open for my deranged takes again

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dreemurr-skelememer · 10 months

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ao3 post has me curious and i cant seem to find anything on it- could you perhaps point me in the right direction here? if not thats alright, can just keep looking (have a nice day/night btw! ^^)

it be this

if its a little too much to understand (trust me i know), op replied to someone with a more brief version that helps put things in better place when you reread the thread again

all you gotta do is basically make sure you have backups of your work because ao3 is being a bit urrghrgrg rn

#tl;dr: volunteers have been getting sent CSEM and i thiiink the legal team arent doing shit abt it and helping volunteers deal w it #also the site is fucked in the way that the way it removes work doesnt wipe everything and can leave IPs and other sensitive info open #with that (comma) the anti-censorship ppl sending CSEM to volunteers r threatening to send the vulnerable info to places like kiwifarms #(kiwifarms and lolcow i think most especially. basically they love doxxing and swatting for fun)#i read it this morning so it might not be totally accurate so sorry #also sorry for writing this tl;dr in the tags! its a habit but im on my phone and now its a hassle.....im very dunb #its also good to get a personal understanding if the situation w the thread itself #im not very law smart at all so i might have interpreted this all wrong #Anonymous

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en-chi-la-da · 2 years

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idk about the otaku thing but i love the idea of his mother reading manga to him and that’s why he likes reading to his hamsters as well and oops, here’s my portrayal of what i think gundhams mother would look like :0

#EPIC GUNDHAM DUMP TIME AGAIN!!!#100% his mother loves animals like him and reads to him stories about magic and watches hamtaro w him #i htink it would be funny if his mother also had some more like. action-y violence fantasy manga that gundham finds and reads #that adds to his interest in the 'dark and mystical' arts. like he reads about some dramatic overlord manga villain and thinks #'oh now THIS guy is cool >:)' thus the middle school syndrome set in lmao #anyways do you guys like the baby gundham i made up? LMAO i tried #sdr2 #danganronpa #gundham tanaka #for the gundham simps (me)#ari art #ask draw #the dark shadow over her eyes arent supposed to make her look evil or anything its just supposed to imply some individual interpretation #to how she looks. obvs we're never gonna know OFFICIALLY but thats what personal headcanons are for :) lol #gundhamronpa

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jakowskis · 2 months

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have i talked about owandy dog motif. the fact that owen repeatedly compares andy to a dog (he says smth abt him having big puppy dog eyes at LEAST twice. gay ass) and yet in the last two of the owen&andy audios, hes the dog. "andy im not a bloody dog you cant do this" (and he was indignant bc andy was trying to keep him safe btw. haw haw), and even more so in gooseberry (at the end hes literally like a sopping wet dog bein told to go on git) like.... owen harper king of "i do this thing and it's embarrassing and a show of weakness so ill pretend it's the other person who's doing it" the projection 😍😍😍 he literally does it with every character it's so bad. but with andy... he's like 'this dumb copper's my pet now cuz he's amusing and hes more of a loser than i am which makes me feel better about myself. oops apparently im following him around like a lost puppy bc he's the only person who shows me kindness'. literally makes me ill

#txt #mine #also reading owen as in love w andy is. Smth. especiallyyy if u also interpret andy as straight #like. owen falling in unrequited love with a straight man when tosh is right fucking there 😭#now u know how it feels bitch!!!! hows that yearning taste huh????#anyway i think andy should get roped into the tw polycule #i luvvvvvv owandy my 2nd torchwood otp #also im your man is an owandy song to me. it could fit a lot of pairings but i think it fits them soooo so so so well #ive been intending to transcribe their audios purely so i can do a webweave w it fhsdjkf #torchwood posting #sss

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beatle-capaldi · 1 year

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i’ve been thinking about the transfem! abbacchio headcanon and while i do not think it necessary to have in-source backup for a headcanon, i think the narrative reading of abbacchio as transfeminine could flesh out the character further

i think the reading of abbacchio particularly as transfeminine and nonbinary is interesting if you look at societal institutions that they upheld as a cop as allegorical for masculinity itself, so when she eventually cannot measure up to those impossible standards and can no longer put up a front about it, the realization she is made to face means they have to come to terms with existing outside of that system. by existing outside of said systems/institutions, though also existing within a marginal, liminal space, she presents herself more femininely and also more honestly - no longer forcing herself into a mold of what is expected of them by others or themself, almost an antithesis to how she presented before.

also cracked egg . symbolism

#i tried writing this out a few times with different pronouns at different points #but for now i think she/they fits best/is more clear within this context #though as i am writing this i am thinking about how their goth ass would definitely use some kind of neopronoun w the letter x in it #but also this is english and idk enough about italian pronouns sooooo #leone abbacchio #jjba headcanons #trans headcanon #jjba #jjba part 5 #vento aureo #jjba vento aureo #my posts #special interests #anyway i have SO many thoughts about va character gender i have a whole really long thing written out about fugo i am considering posting #i also do want to say i am not exclusively a believer in one reading of the character i love hearing all different interpretations

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angelsdean · 1 year

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my tags on my prev reblog re: dean's misinterpreted attitude toward monsters just got me thinking abt sam and the bloodfreak stuff in general and like, as we know a lot of the early seasons were framed in sam's pov so a lot of the time it' him who's feeling like a monster and projecting that onto others to confirm his own beliefs abt himself. like when he finds out abt john telling dean to kill him if he goes darkside sam suddenly is in agreement w/ john saying john's right and dean has to do it because dad said so !!! anyways that's just preface to what i want to say which is, sam isn't really a monster. what i mean is, he's not a monster in the inherent sense that he seems to think he is, and that's part of the reason why dean pushes back against the demon blood stuff because he knows sam can be saved and for dean his number one job is to save sam because the alternative is following john's order and that's something he just cannot do. so it makes sense that dean would do whatever it takes even if that's being a little mean or forceful (calling him a monster, echoing john by telling him not to walk out that door to give sam pause, forcing him to detox) because he does not want to kill his brother.

but anyways, sam is not a monster in the way he (and a lot of fans) thinks he's a monster. he was Not born a monster, it's not something that is intrinsically and inherently part of him. and i'd argue there's really nothing special or "chosen one"-esque about him (aside from the lucifer bloodline making him a better candidate for vessel purposes), he was just a regular baby who was dosed with demon blood, which in the text is treated as a drug / addiction. there was nothing special about any of the babies azazel dosed, they were just the children of people he'd made deals with. i think pretty much any baby (possibly even adult) who's fed demon blood from a powerful enough demon (like a Prince of Hell) would develop psychic powers. so it's not something completely out of his control that's turning him into a monster like a virus or a vampire / werewolf bite where he can't stop the progression. it's not happening to him he's making active choices to strengthen those powers and the more he feeds the more he wants it. everything w/ ruby is framed as him knowing he's doing something "wrong", the sneaking around, the lying. and i think dean's response is along the lines of "we need to get you help. we need to stop this because it's something that can be stopped. and if we stop it then i won't have to see you lose yourself or go too far. because if you go too far and start hurting people then i might have to kill you and i can't do that so please just let us save you." and i think that's fair. yes he and bobby maybe go about things the wrong way but i think it's born out of desperation. and also it's not a rejection of "this is who you are and we hate you for being a monster" it's "you're making choices that are leading you down a dangerous path and we're scared we may lose you so we're trying to stop you from going too far down that road."

like the end goal of all the bloodfreak stuff (ruby's end goal) was to free lucifer and freeing lucifer would mean sam becoming his vessel. they obviously don't know all that at the time, but in hindsight it's like, yea we should've curbed that bloodfreak stuff sooner. also heaven was telling dean to stop sam too and that he was going down a dangerous path and that if dean doesn't stop him they will (likely meaning death) so again, of course dean's gonna try to do whatever he can to stop sam even if it's by not great methods. (also heaven was playing him too bc they also wanted lucifer to be freed so that Destiny could come to pass)

#i've been thinking a lot abt the bloodfreak stuff lately #esp whenever i see takes that sam is like inherently different or monstrous #like he's really not ??? he was just a baby who was fed demon blood like many other babies #i read the bloodfreak stuff thru an addition lens moreso than a 'there's something inherently wrong w/ me' lens #which is also why the queercoded sam stuff often just. does not stick for me. like i Can see where ppl are coming from #but when you don't view sam's monstrous-ness as inherent then it's like. well it doesn't make for good parallels to queerness #whereas you take the shifter / dean parallels and it's like !!!! the shifter relating to dean and saying they're alike in many ways #that they were both born different and hated before they had to make themselves different and both just want someone to love them #and the shifter as dean earlier telling sam he's a freak he knows he's a freak and that everyone will always leave him #it's just different the way dean's ''freakness'' is framed as something inherent to him #while sam's is literally literally !! something that was Introduced to him after the fact not something he was born with #i'm sorry and this isn't sam crit it's more. interpretation crit ?#but also i think we can all have different and conflicting interpretations too bc sometimes i'm like yea. queer sam!#(tho often that has nothing to do w/ the monster-coding)#but idk i've just been thinking abt the bloodfreak stuff lately and how other characters reacted to it and how it's framed from sam's pov #vs deans and other characters. like sam seems to think there is something inherently wrong w/ him and so a lot of viewers believe it #but from outside perspectives dean and bobby and even heaven view it as an addiction and as choices sam's making that he can stop #vic.txt #mymeta #long post #sam studies

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everymlmhybrid · 4 months

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this part genuinely makes me feel like eating dry wall like i can't explain how i feel about it without making some of you finally tire of me and block me about it i think

#.txt #reservoir dogs -#sorry for just randomly posting clips . i was actually working on my vid i swear but then i started Thinking. and here we are.#anyways going genuinely insane in the tags . i'm so sorry. ->#(im only sorry for the sheer amount of tags or if u disagree w/ my interpretations / headcanons. if ur just annoyed lmfao sucks to be you!)#anyways. you guys ever think abt the way orange HAS TO know white's lying to him abt his odds of survival.#bc i think abt that genuinely constantly. all the time thinking about it.#also the ''joe's gonna get you 100% again'' -> first of all . lol. second of all -> ''he was the only one i wasn't 100% on'' hello? HELLO!!#also freddy's voice here makes me feel like punching walls . like it makes me wail in anguish.#no but yeah i think abt the theme of lying & the fact some of the first lies we hear are in this scene in a way #also this part is leaning wayyy harder on headcanon but i always think. like if orange WASNT lying abt who he is. then it'd be reasonable #forhim to not know how likely he is to die and/or how blatantly larry's lying (''i'm talking days!'') but as a cop he SOOO knows he's fcked #but like . what's he gonna do. ''hey i know that's bullshit'' like obviously not and partly bc of How he knows but also bc like #you just don't argue with the only guy who's caring for you while you're seemingly on the brink of death!! LMAO #and certainly not when he's the only one telling you you'll be fine!! even if he's just bullshitting you so you don't freak out!!#I DON'T KNOW i go kinda insane about this scene . as . you can tell.#if you too are insane about this and the implications . don't worry. in several months. my fic will feed you. you will see.#idk . larry lying to and/or for him <33333333 kinda makes me go insane. kinda makes me go wild.#idk. i should be getting ready for bed rn. WHATEVER. bye. logging off. if you read all these i'm in love with you okay #i've just been turngin them around in my head like a microwave for hours so i needed to infodump or else i would explode i think

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minamotoz · 2 years

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when will the boy meets world queer renaissance occur so society opens its eyes and becomes shory-pilled

#boy meets world #jeric stans got their fun in 2020 w Those Videos. you know the ones im talkin about #now its time for shory to get their time in the spotlight🙏#im genuinely shocked at how unpopular reading cory/shawn as romantic is #ig its because corpanga is so iconic and shawngela is just as loved in its own right #but also u have to be willfully ignorant if you can watch BMW and not read their relationship as romantic especially in the later seasons #ok 'willfully ignorant' is stretching it a bit #but i just have no idea how you can watch episodes like its about time or IYCBWTOYL or an affair to forget #and not be like. ok those boys r in gay love #i dont think cory wholeheartedly interpreting shawns extremely romantic poetry to be abt himself #or shawn having a full on BREAKDOWN over cory getting married #or any of whatever 'its not you its me' was #is heterosexual behavior in the slightest #but i am biased soooo………

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IT'S ME AGAIN HIHIHIHI i wanted to ask whether u have read crime and punishment???? i've been thinking about it a lot and now it keeps popping up whereever i go and ofc bsd fyodor exists too and i keep thinking about him and sighhh i think i should do it..... (i literally already have the book too......)

- @catchuuu

MICKEY U HAVE COME TO THE RIGHT PLACE…….….. i HAVE in fact read crime and punishment and i’m gonna let u in on a very embarrassing secret if u promise not to laugh :’3

……. i bought the book and read it…. because of fyodor bsd…………………….. look. i wanted to get into classic lit ok and. i just thought he was hot 😭😭 so i was like hmmmm let’s check out his works IT’S SO EMBARRASSING BUT I THINK I WAS REAL AS HELL TOO…………

anyway i was pretty young so it might not have been the best choice, it’s a VERY heavy book just language-wise, dostoevsky is not for the weak 😭😭 but it’s very good and interesting too!! i think i would love it even more if i reread it now… dostoevsky is basically known for being kind of a master at exploring the human mind and obv the main thing he explores in this book is guilt. and how the mc raskolnikov begins to punish himself for his crime the moment he commits it…. i like it it’s good :33 would def recommend it!! but it’s not everyone’s cup of tea and some scenes are very Raw. there’s one that’s pretty infamous where the mc dreams about one of his childhood memories right?? when he saw a horse get whipped to death… and it’s just really. ough. made me feel kinda sick. stuff like that is common for dostoevsky so watch out!!!

ooohhh and mickey !! while we’re on the topic of russian lit :333 gogol is super good too !! so far i’ve only read one of his shorter stories, diary of a madman, but that one was so cool. i like him a lot he’s definitely …. a lot more unhinged than dosto….

#I THINK READING IT MAKES FYODOR’S CHARACTER MORE INTERESTING TOO #like his fixation on crime/punishment….#my interpretation of the book is basically that crime and punishment arent opposites or even consequent #they only exist together !! crime demands punishment and punishment doesnt exist without crime #like. raskolnikov is basically his own worst enemy. he’s the one who’s plagued by guilt and almost exposes his murder on his own #idk i just think it’s interesting!!#aaaaa one more thing i will say is that i do Not enjoy dostoevsky’s romances lol. like… at all 😭😭#they could be a lot worse but they follow this weird savior comolex thing where the woman is always very intelligent #but needs to be saved by the (more intelligent) man… like the woman is the saint and the man is the sinner #idkkkk it just icks me out i think crime and punishment would be better w/o it but who am i to deny doestoevsky’s his wattpad romances #PLS LET ME KNOW IF U READ IT MICKEY i’d love to hear ur thoughts!!! there are lots and lots of great quotes in it :33 #ask tag ✩#mickey !! ✩

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