this shot is one of my favorites in the whole movie and I'm so sorry but I'm gonna tell you why in so many words below the cut
now I could very well be mistaken, it's been a couple weeks since my last rewatch. but I'm pretty certain this is the only shot in the whole film that shows only Benson in the car. every other shot has Randy in frame too, sometimes in the background, sometimes even eclipsing Benson. but we never get the sense that Benson is alone in the car, because he's not.
he's not here either. but it sure looks like he is. sure feels like it, with the empty bench behind him and the vast nothing whipping by outside the car. sure feels like it because Benson's not in the car with Randy anymore. for the rest of the movie, from this point on, Benson is stuck in the memories of his trauma and slipping in and out of the present moment.
this is right after Benson tells Randy if he brings up Sheppard again, he'll kill him, and that's the only time I think Randy was ever in actual danger from Benson. credit to Randy: even after watching Benson beat a man to death with his bare hands and the butt of his gun, Randy's brave enough to ask who that man was. I think Randy realizes right then, based on Benson's response, that he doesn't know him like he thought he did after their afternoon of trauma bonding. I think it snaps him right back to the start of the day when Benson was unpredictable and volatile, except now, he really is. Benson's been giving him a play-by-play of his thought process all day, manic as it may be, but that's over now. Benson severs that connection without explanation. Randy's cut off and cut out of the shot.
so we get Benson, alone. alone in the car, alone with his thoughts. the camera angle tilts. the car seems heavier on the driver's side. the blood is drying on his knuckles. we're off-balance, we're teetering. we're clawing to stay level-headed and on track. the shot no longer frames the car. it frames the road, not the road before us, but the road looming behind us. the shot looks backwards. Benson's looking backwards.
we're still moving forward, though...right? we've gotta be. but there's an awful lot of emphasis on the physical past. on what we've left behind and bleeding back there. and haven't we been on this road before? weren't we just here? are we going in circles? are we going in circles? haven't we already crossed this bridge and buried this body and left it all in the dust? if we didn't before, we sure have now.
so then why are we running? what are we running from? what if we can't get away from it?
what if, all along, we've been driving straight for it instead? and what's behind us, in the past, in the parking lot, is catching up fast?
is he alive?
how is this going to end?
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No artwork this week because I've been away for a few days on important business.
But while I was out there braving the distant wilds of south London I was also able to go visit some familiar old faces – so once I've had a chance to actually sleep and recover a bit I'll show you all what can currently be seen of these iconic retrosaurs...
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Pussydrunk!Rin. That’s it 🏃🏻♀️
OHHHH ........ pleaseeeee i am like 100% sure this is canon behavior for him. it really is. once rin gets into it - gets into you - he drops into this mindset where the only thought left in his head is how good your pussy feels around him :(
he loses count on how many time he's made you cum. but it's definitely a lot, judging by the way you're crying for him, body growing putty in his grip :( frankly, he's not sure how many loads he's stuffed inside of u either. but you're dripping, soaking the sheets with all the filth, and each n every thrust feels like you're sucking him in even deeper. he's flushed, from the tips of his ears down to his chest, mouth parted and he DROOLS. HE DROOLS !!!!! you can't tell me otherwise :( gets so into the zone he literally loses control. groans a lot and vocalizes every single thing he wants to do to you. makes sure u know how good you make him feel. he lets his mouth run sm, has no filter at all :(
nnnghghhhhh this makes my mind reel he's literally SO needy it's insane. he's insane for u he rly is !!!!
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Happy New Year!!
*pops grape juice bottle* woooo we’ve made it, guys!
2023 was such a nice year in the fandom, in my opinion. There was s3 and that was a banger, but I feel like the stuff we were up to ourselves over here was amazing too. I got to talk more with some of my mutuals who I hadn’t been as close to before, and lovely people keep coming to this corner of the internet!! We had our first sketchbook event and are currently preparing for a general Hilda Appreciation Week, I feel like this is all amazing considering the size of this community.
Just wanted to thank everyone who’s been here for the ride as well! It’s certainly always more fun when you have people to be insane with you. I just. Get very touched thinking about the amount of support in this fandom and how we creatively fuel each other.
Anyway, just wanted to write this post as a thank you. I hope you’re having a lovely end of the year, and may 2024 be even better 💜
(I do have one small writing update to add, though! The first months of the year will probably be relatively devoid of new content from me. This for two reasons. One is that I churned out so many fics this year that I feel like even the people who like my writing are having a hard time catching up (I don’t know how this happened either-), and the other is that I’ll be using my free time to get ahead on preparing my content for the rest of the year! I won’t completely stop or anything (Hilda Appreciation Week will see to that), just wanted to leave this noted so no one things I’ve Vanished from the fic writing scene or anything. I’m just preparing my next attack. Anyways that was it happy new year!!)
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Lucas & Eddie is one of the more fascinating dynamics to me because I think there’d be this, like, mutual guilt? And a need to make amends with each other? Eddie for making Lucas feel othered for the crime of Having a Mainstream Interest when his whole Ethos is making people feel included; Lucas for siding with the basketball team after Chrissy’s death and not interrogating that, given all of the everything in Hawkins there might be Something Else At Play Here. Lucas is also the most self assured of his friend group and probably didn’t need Eddie the way Mike and Dustin did, and Eddie probably didn’t know what to do with that? Couldn’t figure out how to Connect with Lucas the way he had with the other two boys and because of that disconnect he (let’s be generous and say inadvertently) drove a wedge between the three of them. But then he does click with Erica, and it’s through his friendship with her he’s able to build something genuine with Lucas. Idk like. The two of them are sensitive and kind and intuitive and put themselves out there for the benefit of their friends and admit when they’re wrong about something and apologize. They have a lot more in common than meets the eye, and I think after everything they finally see that.
I also think Eddie gives Lucas one Cancel Hellfire Free Card that Lucas cashes in at the ABSOLUTE more INCONVENIENT time.
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Ppl be offended by 3D, then proceeds to read the filthiest smut about Jk degrading Oc in bed... or like, ppl be unhappy about this side of Jk, but still reads fanfic that most of the time sexualize him. I dont get it
siiigh i'll be honest, after all those different asks, i don't even know what we're talking about now 😂 bc at first it was about harlow's verse, then about misogyny, then about sexuality and innocence and yeah now i confusion what the main issue is :')
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