letters to my soulmates
i'm not sure of much about life, but i'm sure of one thing: i was meant to meet these people, and i was meant to love them as much as i possibly could. you see, as much as i want to think of myself as a loving person who loves everyone and is sunshine in human form, i know that to most people, that's not what i am. i actually can be incredibly pessimistic and negative and i've been told on more than one occasion that people would like me more if i was more positive and friendly but that's really just not who i am. but i've met people, people that i'm positive are connected to me in one way or another, and i see myself being soft and sappy and loving them with everything in me. they're people that i'm actually happy to talk to, because it doesn't feel like a chore, because i feel like i can be myself, because it's effortless. they're the people i would hug over and over again even though i hate being touched and the people i want to make sure i say i love you too every day. and i contemplated making this post, i really did, but i just need to feel like i'm sharing my love for them with more than just myself. scroll if you want, but if you choose to read i promise you'll see that i'm a much better person because of each and every one of them. to my soulmates, i love you.
to my heart in human form,
of course you're first, you'll always be first. i think you saved my life without either of us even knowing it. i don't think i knew i needed saving, but ever since i met you everything just feels different. and of course i still have struggles i have to work through, everyone does, they don't just go away, but life seems so much more worthwhile with you in it. i wake up excited to say good morning and spend another day by your side, and we both know i'm not a morning person in any way, shape, or form. i never really thought about the things i dream about with you. i never thought about having children in more of a "society expects me to" kind of way. but with you, it feels like something i've always wanted. i can't even put into words all the positive ways you've effected my life but i know you're the best thing that could've ever come into it. every plan i ever make has you in mind, because i can't picture a single day of my future without you in it.
you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, and not only do you make me happy when skies are gray, you make me happier when they're yellow and pink and orange and red. i'm in love with you and i will never stop being in love with you.
to the pete to my patrick,
finding the words to express the absolute blessing you are in my life is hard. i never expected to meet someone like you, honestly. i never expected to have a friend like you and i can't even explain what that means besides saying that you are, without a doubt, my best friend, and that i hope i never lose you. i'm just now processing the fact that we've only known each other for a few months, because i feel like i've known you for years. it's so easy to talk to you which i know probably sounds basic but i've never been good at holding conversations and i'm awful about reaching out to people but honestly? messaging you was so easy for me even when i had to do it first. you're one of the only people that never fails to make me laugh, can always put a smile on my face, and that i can love more each day without fail. our friendship is something other people wish they had, i know it, i was one of those people wishing for a friendship like this.
and in the end, i'd do it all again, i think know you're my best friend, and i love you beyond words.
ur bestie <3 (aka a patrick stump wannabe)
to the only valid reid fan,
you wanna know something? i've dreamed of having the relationship we have my entire life. i've always wanted to have a good friendship with my partner's best friend, and i think we set that bar pretty high. i forget that you've known taylor much longer than you've known me, and it's because you made me your best friend too. you're someone i always want to confide in, because you make me feel so safe and secure. your presence is calming and just talking to you feels like a hug. i thought i would turn into a third wheel. i know usually friends of the couple say that, but i think it can be hard for some people to fit in with their s.o. and their best friend. i was afraid of that happening to me, and it just feels stupid now. because now you're my best friend too. i can share all my deepest secrets and fears with you and you make me feel valid and loved and important. and i hope you know that you are all of those things too.
you can count on me like 1, 2, 3, i'll be there, because i love you more than anything (yes, even patrick stump)
1/3 of a five dollar combo
to the baddest bitch i know,
god, where do i even start. i don't tell you how much i appreciate you enough. like genuinely everything that brought you into my life, i'd go through it all again because you are one of the greatest people i have ever had the pleasure of knowing. you're the greatest friend. i joke about you being the mom but it's because you do everything you can to take care of everyone and anyone, you're so strong, and you're always putting everyone first. it's mom behavior but i love it, because i love everything about you and everything that makes you you. i'm truly lucky to know you and i'm luckier to be loved by you. everyone needs someone like you in their life and i'm so glad my you is you, you know? you've been there for me more than i could ever ask of anyone and i just hope you know i'd do anything for you, and that i'm always here for you as well.
you're so golden, i'm out of my head, but i'm not scared that my heart will get broken (because i love you)
to haley bo baley,
i wish i was able to express love as beautifully as you do. you have the biggest heart, and i truly believe that that is why you are so strong. i admire you every day and only hope i can be half as brave as you are. you teach me to stand up for what i believe in and watching you take what life gives you every day inspires me. i wouldn't trade you for anything, because i don't think i could ever find someone even remotely close to you. you're one of a kind and so special, especially to me. your heart and soul are beautiful and i hope to god you never let anything or anyone change you. i would genuinely trust you with my life and not worry for a second.
a wise man said, only fools rush in, but i think jumping headfirst into being your friend really payed off. i love you
tia bo bia (idk it matches)
to my little sis,
i never thought you'd mean so much to me. when we first became mutuals, i never would've guessed we would end up as close as we are now. time zones suck and you live way too far, but you still manage to be so near and dear to my heart. i admire the way you handle life, and i want you to know you are so much stronger than you think. you are so loving, determined, and just an overall kind soul. you're one of the only people i trust to tease me because i feel nothing but love every time you do. i hope you never feel unappreciated by me, because i appreciate you every day.
i'd walk through fire for you, i hope you always let me adore you, because i love you so much
ur sister <3
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