#i lowkey hate some of them so much

[wackydoggs]

season 2 of clone high might have killed joanfk and spat on its corpse but i still love this ship with all of my heart, even if the show does not LOL

#clone high #clone high art #clone high fanart #jfk clone high #clone high jfk #joan clone high #joan of arc clone high #clone high joan #clone high joan of arc #my art #i have missed them so so so much #i even started working on one of my old clone high fanfics from 2020 that i lowkey abandoned LOL #honestly might post abt that fanfic once the new chapters done #but anyway #i adore them so much and i will never get over how poorly the show did them #i hate getting depressed over a ship of clones of historical figures bc its weird BUT I CANT HELP IT I MISS SEASON ONES POTENTIAL FOR THEM #i liked season 2 but im also lying if i said i do not slightly resent it LOL #in my head there are like two versions of the clone high canon #one where season two never happened and joanfks potential as a good ship stays cemented forever #and one where season two does happen (in which case i ship the hell out of some jfk/abe and jfk/confucious LOL) #but yeah basically joanfk is my roman empire and shipping them is my canon event

[mwagneto]

sorry i can't hang out rn the two men from that 4 year old show kissed and i literally cannot think about anything else. yeah gonna be all month

#good omens #gomens #crowzira #deleted messenger haven't talked to any of my irls in a week #lowkey hate how nice it is to get a break tbh like oh my goddd im in the mental illness zone do NOT talk to meeee #it feels mean but also I've spent basically every second since September hanging out with #1 - 10 people near constantly. i need some downtime. although by downtime i did not #imagine stopping all human functions and just becoming a vessel for an engless loop of g0mens thoughts #not even true i CAN talk to ppl but only if it's someone that knows how ill i am or if it's #about g0mens. otherwise leave me alone #like i can literally only talk in terminally online tumblr terms rn i can barely remember hungarian #MY ASS LITERALLY GOT FACTORY RESET TO MY TERMINALLY ONLINE SELF😭😭 #not true coz back when i used to be this online i still talked to irls. mostly to get them to watch whatever i was watching but still #im gonna hang out with some tumblr mutuals who are just as ill as me soon. so that's something #idk how the fabric of budapest can handle that much mental illness in one room but whatever #ineffable husbands #i misspelled it.

[idkwhatimdoingbutslay]

ADAPTATIONS DO NOT HAVE TO BE BAD ADAPTATIONS DO NOT HAVE TO BE BAD ADAPTATIONS DO NOT HAVE TO BE BAD ADAPTATIONS DO NOT HAVE TO BE BAD ADAPTATIONS DO NOT HAVE TO BE-

ADAPTATIONS ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD ADAPTATIONS ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD ADAPTATIONS ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD ADAPTATIONS ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD ADAPTATIONS ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD ADAPTATIONS ARE NOT INHERENTLY-

#i can’t help but get a little defensive at people who hate the entire idea of adaptions as someone who is sooo biased towards visual media #I recognize that but ALSO- #THERE ARE SO MANY GOOD ADAPTATIONS #the reason there’s an over abundance of bad ones is completely on purpose #who’s making these bad adaptations? MASSIVE CORPS #who don’t make adaptations out of love for a source material but obviously for money. they also don’t hire directors and writers who care #theyre also not given enough time or paid enough to have the chance to care. no executive is going into the adaptation with passion theyre #obviously going in with greed #adaptations and the idea of them is just so beautiful to me it’s like lowkey making fanfiction for your fav show 😭 #you can love and adore something on paper so much that you would love to be able to craft it with your own hands for others to see with #their own eyes #it’s just SO- I’m so passionate about this #friendly space ninja just posted a video about good adaptations that even exceeded the source material and it brought up this fire in me 🏃🏾 #some of my all time fav pieces of visual media are lovingly crafted adaptations #all movies can be bad but it’s especially painful when it was already something so well loved #adaptations without care RUIN the industry as well as any hope for people who genuinely want adaptations #adaptation #movie adaptation #show adaptation #arcane #to all the boys I’ve loved before #you Netflix #so many that I haven’t even touched yet UGH #I would love to make adaptations of my favourite books you don’t get it it would HEAL ME #slay on the run

[twunkzilla]

Once you meet like cishet dudes that are actually cool and you can dudebro around its the funnest shit I'm like dude imagine for every birthday as a kid you just got barbie dolls and dollar store nail polish and they were like broooo that sounds awful I know your pain

#my straight boy friends are lowkey gay as fuck but #being the person i am i have an easier time with cis men than women #just cause cis men are much more overt with transphobia and they tend to see how im like them and appreciate my aggro male rigomoroll #with women i feel like ahhh im out of place youre all bathed and shit #you keep your voices at an even speaking level 😭😭 #jk straight cis girls scare the shit out of me and they tend to think im like them for some reason so ill see them make shit up and project #deffo been traumatized by both cisgenders but i think i focus more on trauma from women cause it lasts so long #with gossipping and snitching and making shit up to their boyfriends #so with men it was usually one and done id get my ass kicked but the cycle was perpetuated by their crusty girls #god theyre like fucking symbiotic species #anyway no hate all genders are valid both real men and women and cis men and women

[moregraceful]

Also I deleted the post bc it was a bad version of myself, but I'm gonna say it again, it is bananas to me that Taylor Swift only sang one song off of her self-titled album in the Eras tour movie. like girl you cannot hide from "Tim McGraw" and "Teardrops On My Guitar" even if you were just cosplaying Tennessee country like those songs put you on the goddamn map and this is how you repay them??

#the thing abt the eras tour movie is. it unlocked many opinions about taylor swift's music i didn't realize i had #''is fearless her greatest album'' i asked myself. ''all these songs are bangers i still know all the lyrics'' #no dummy you only know all the lyrics bc your 15yo sister put the house in 24/7 tswift lockdown every time she released an album #these songs are fun but more importantly your sister is 6in taller and an athlete so you didn't control the aux past the age of 17 #i haven't listened to a taylor swift album in full since 1989 was released (when my sister moved out)...some of her newer stuff is fun #don't blame me is pretty good. wish i had not been surrounded by middle schoolers the first time heard it. #but she's got some bangers. DON'T tell me anything about her personal life i don't wanna know and i don't care to learn #(my coworker: ''i forgot she swears so much on reputation and midnights 😭 oh well our kids probably see worse tiktok every day'' #me: 🫠🫠🫠) #also side note my 21yo coworker was like do you ever call our kids ''my kids'' around people and do people get really confused #i was like yes. people think they are my real kids and ask how old my kids are and i say high school and they get kinda worried #she was like yeah....my college classmates asked how old my kids are when i said i was taking my kids to the eras tour movie #and when i told them middle school they got really really alarmed and worried about me #nonprofit work lol. i'm stressed all the time about other people's children. i call them my kids. they all lowkey hate me. life this is it #fresno oilers.txt

[churchydragon]

V2 vocalizes ass the angry sass and frustration that V1 internalizes in the co-op au because V1 can't.

#looking at V1 you'd think they don't get mad. wrong. they hate everyone except their other half (V2) #and Gabriel but that comes much later #V1 just puts the anger in a jar and replaces it with bitter acceptance for how they were treated. this will blow up in their face later #also V2 totally verbally attacks Minos after he says the line about the crimes machines committed against humans #“oh so humans are allowed to be terrible to us and refuse to acknowledge our feelings as people but god forbid we lash out about it” #they. do not like Minos. V1 isn't super fond of him either. Minos lowkey feels like shit for what he said #the only reason he's alive is because V1 said “no fuck you you don't get the release of death. live and suffer like the rest of us” #well. they said it in their usual beeps and clicks and V2 vocalized it cuz they're the only one that can understand V1 #V1 and Gabriel also end up having a sort of symbiotic thing going on later #Gabriel needs something to worship. V1 finds comfort in some kind of higher power giving a shit in them and praises him in turn #totally didn't get this idea from an art piece I just reblogged (lying) #also! during both the V3 fights V1 and V2 get enraged! V1 gets enraged during the first fight and V2 gets enraged during the second #churchy talks #Ultrakill #Ultrakill au

[byanyan]

ㅤhave some fledgling verse info that i've been meaning to get into forever but am somehow only getting to now!! i've (finally) done some further reading on vtm lore, looked into merits and flaws, and played around a bit with character sheets, so i feel more confident in getting into how being thin-blooded affects byan and how the curse differs for them compared to a fully-fledged vampire. ...even though i'm still playing fast and loose with the rules and maintaining some creative freedom with it since i'm not creating them for the purpose of running a campaign, and given the fact that being thin-blooded affects everyone differently.

they have about the same resilience to damage as a fully-fledged vampire, but heal more slowly

they are also as prone to frenzy as your average kindred is, if not slightly more so given their temperamental disposition and less than stable mental health

they are slightly more resilient in regard to sunlight, but not nearly enough so to risk actually stepping out into it. they are, however, able to stay awake after the sun rises and even retain a lot of the difficulties in sleeping which they had in life

their heart hasn't ceased beating entirely, but it beats very slowly and weakly. it's actually more unnerving to them when everything is quiet and it's the only thing they can hear than if it didn't beat at all, they think. something about it just feels wrong

they can eat food, but it's incredibly difficult and takes a lot of effort. too much effort to be worth the little sustenance it provides in most cases, outside of maybe some very specific and unlikely emergency situations

similarly, they can indulge in alcohol and drugs, but the effect is weak and requires amounts that would be dangerous to a human for them to actually feel drunk or high. as with food, it requires a lot of effort to keep their body from rejecting it

they can get sick. not easily, but it can happen, and medicine doesn't do a damn thing

they look a little more alive than a fully-fledged vampire, but they're still a bit paler, a bit thinner, and overall look a bit more sickly than they ever did in life

when feeding, they aren't able to lick the wound fully closed. they've tried. they've spent a couple minutes trying before, to no avail

they aren't completely incapable of forming blood bonds and embracing new thin-bloods, but it's very hit or miss — sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. not that they've ever actually tested it because they do fully believe that they're incapable

they aren't able to create ghouls, however

they are faster, stronger, and have better reflexes than a human, but not nearly to the same extent as a full vampire. they got a buff, just not a very strong one

this is less relevant to how the curse affects them, but it's a note i want to make all the same: they're still trying to get a grasp on blood resonances and how to use the disciplines they can temporarily gain from different types. they're also actively seeking a way to learn thin-blood alchemy and/or someone to teach them, but have been unsuccessful thus far

#love the concept of them being trapped in this weird and uncomfortable limbo between mortal and vampire (: #they got some perks but mostly it's a lot of disadvantages on both sides and isn't that just the story of their life am i right #oooooh and i can't tell you how tempted I was to give them the baby teeth flaw omgggg #the idea of them not being able to bite and having to use a knife to feed instead is REALLY funny to me #and would have been this added insult to injury that they would have hated #...but i'm too much of a sucker for fangs so i couldn't do it to 'em #also played around with the idea of making them vitae dependent just for some extra spice but #i think that would've made things a little too hard on them when they're lowkey kind of avoiding most kindred #anyway idk what inspired me to finally jot this all down but u bet it happened in the middle of the night last night smh #here it is. hopefully this bodes well for doing replies later 🤞 #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ verse: fledgling.

[toastsnaffler]

everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏

#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too #things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄 #jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that #having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically #and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me #despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence #and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik- #she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh #and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space #and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she- #likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man #i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them #theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road #theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill- #finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me #old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc #anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included- #bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately #also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that #im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it.. #ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too #its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes #regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a #fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling #and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........ #sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!! #.diaries

[alpinelogy]

been playing around in indesign with theoretically collecting my favorite graphics, getting them printed out properly, and then binding them on my own cause i like a good arts and crafts project and ive handbound stuff before and wdym i only have four graphics i like that used black as its base color? i thought i had way more?

#i miss formatting artbooks is it obvious? i miss the craft of putting everything together and it slowly becoming something greater #anyway in total there are fifteen separate graphics/seventeen images cause two of those have multiple pictures in one graphic #lowkey summer project vibes. idk if i want to struggle with hard cover binding or if id stick to japanese stab binding instead #afaik stab binding is easier according to a friend who handbinds regularly but also. ive never done it #but the one time i handbound hardcover. war flashbacks. igcse art my deeply detested </3 #tbf id probably get either three or five copies so i could experiment and keep a set totally on its own no binding so i could do both #also i yap so much in some of my graph descriptions jfc girl (gn) stop you dont need to yap so much- #also getting them printed out would mean the inherent strangeness of being seen:tm:. ew i hate that #time to figure out an online order form i guess lol #erika.txt

[truckstoptigers]

when i was seven and our trailer burned down, i thought about leaving my father there, grabbing my brother, and getting us the hell out

i didn't. i ended up waking our father and we all ended up at the neighbors' house

but i should have

i fucking should have

because the minute he had a chance to be alone with me (after we got to my grandma's trailer) guess what he did! shortly after our fucking HOME burned down and the firefighters gave my brother and i teddy bears and wrapped blankets around us for shock!!!!!! fucking christ i hate our father more than anyone on this earth

#haha :) feeling normal abt this! #all i cared about was my brother being safe. thats all. i still remember holding his hand and walking him to the neighbours house #i couldnt see because i left my glasses in the trailer. they put on the little mermaid cartoon for us. i even remember what episode it was #but i genuinely considered leaving my father there and honestly that scares me #honestly i was afraid to wake him up bc i didnt want him to get mad at me. if he got mad at me i would always suffer for it later #milo murmurs #fun fact we lived w someone & his son and his son ended up becoming my cousin when his mom married my uncle #i am so so glad neither or them were home that night #he was so young. im several years older than him & he was so little that he doesnt even remember we lived together #csa vent #tw csa vent #csa tw #also feeling fucked up abt the fact that my father wld put his cigarettes out on me when he was pissed #sometimes i wonder if the fire started because he was smoking smth and passed out while doing it but my brother slept in his room #i feel like they wouldve been much more worse off if the fire started in their room #anyway im pretty sure that the fire was set intentionally bc he had some ties to the wrong ppl #and either they didnt know me & my brother were also there and were only going after our father or they didnt care we were there #to this day even bonfires make me nervous if i can only smell them & cant see them. i hate smelling smth burning & panicking #we live in the country now so its very common for ppl to burn leaves and wood and what have you. its still scary sometimes #i think abt this a lot actually bc any fire still makes me lowkey nervous. less so if i know where/what its coming from but still nervous

[azurescaled-archived]

Hm. I hate to say it but I may be moving this blog come the new year. It's gotten too cluttered over here, and I need to move some shit around.

#i hate moving around so much #but #idk #i wanna do stuff here b/c i know it's harder to interact with my pathfinder OCs b/c of circumstances #that being said #I'll probs be working on some stuff #working on my single muse blogs #namely #my ladies #because sayomi luka and tomoko deserve attention too #also i kinda lowkey put more effort into them as characters? at least i feel like i do #but thank you all who stick around and are patient with me #it means a lot

[voidscreamns]

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#god would i look insane if i sent an email to mhy complaining abt what they did to dehya :/ #i’m just. i dont even care this point if they never buff her i just want an explanation for WHY they made her kit like that #it’s infuriating to me that they took this well-liked character in the community and gave us time to really know and sit with her #only to absolutely shit on everyone by making her kit so fucked up #and this is the SECOND TIME that they gave a dark-skinned female Pyro claymore character split scaling with bad multipliers #i honestly do think colorism has some involvement for why they did Dehya dirty like but also this whole thing smells like capitalistic to me #there are 3.6 leaks abt a potential artifact set made specifically to fit Dehya not to mention her weapon being really good #but also extremely exclusive #it feels like mhy is trying out a new strategy where they purposely make certain hyped characters with weak kits only to indirectly ‘buff’ #them later via artifacts or exclusive supports specifically to reach specific demographics of the community— aka fans of the hyped character #to stick around the game longer for those ‘buffs’ thus ensuring longer term play #it’s so blatant that this company is doing everything it can to make its community go with all its whims and moves #and i hate it so much. nobody likes feeling like they’re subjected to a company’s follies #i’m not that surprised tho bc it’s lowkey obvious that genshin is NOT mhy’s fav child fudhdhdjfjdjdk

[bloominstorm]

These Mikey chapters lowkey getting to me..

#like why does it have to be so sad #but before that Omg the opening scene with Emma and Draken was so pure and cute #Emma I completely understand why you fell for draken he was literally perfect #because no really he was PERFECT - he grew up in less than favorable circumstances yet he never complained and had good manners and morals #even from a young age like if it wasn’t for him Mikey would’ve fallen into darkness sooner and had no morals #mitsuya would’ve been a shitty brother and hakkai would’ve never found the person to look up to AND taiju would’ve continued being an #abusive asshole - Draken had a ripple effect on the whole gang and I fucking HATE tht he was killed off #like again WHY I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY OR OK WITH HIM DYING #MY FUCKING FAVORITE UGH #but ugh fucking continuing on 😫 did y’all see how wakui is reinforcing how much he hates Sanzu? 💀 #he made it a point to have Mikey list Draken mitsuya pah Baji and kazutora as his greatest friends #and have him recruit them for Toman despite Sanzu being one of his childhood ‘friends’ AND him having him talk to him about it last chapter #why not have him in the original gang? 🤔 also the fact tht he will call mitsuya and kazutora his greatest friends but not Sanzu when he only #knew those two through Draken and Baji 🤷🏾‍♀️ #anyway I’m glad we got some clarity as to why Mikey was out at night at Shinichiro’s bike shop when he got killed like how convenient but #knowing shinichiro called him to come there so he could give him his present at midnight (I’m assuming) is fucking heartbreaking like tht #lowkey made me tear up along with the reactions of Emma Mikey and the grandfather #it’s nice to see the grandfather actually emotional since we didn’t see it up until now and it seemed like he was just there tbh so yeah #i feel so bad for Emma tho like God she was abandoned by her mom never met her dad developed a relationship with her siblings mom just for #her to die then have her older brother die AND then for her to die so young?? it’s just so fucking tragic she never got a break #and knowing she still tried to be a rock for Mikey and her grandfather (I’m assuming) by taking care of them makes me so incredibly sad #but I was hoping this backstory would help me understand Mikey’s actions more but it didn’t #why did he forgive Baji??? just bc he said he was sorry?? he was still an accomplice and then proceeded to defend kazutora despite kazutora #talking shit to Mikey about how it was his fault he killed his brother??? #why did he have such an attachment to Baji and why did forgive kazutora?? #i get Baji sacrificed himself so they wouldn’t fight but how would tht be enough to negate all his negative feelings towards kazutora over #his brother death? i don’t get it #but anyway I’m glad next chapter we’re finally gonna get Mikey’s actual thoughts on Takemichi #i know he’s shared his thoughts at times but I wanna hear how he subconsciously feels and I especially wanna know how he felt about Kisaki #Tokyo revengers 264

[narmothewraith]

Introduction of my blog

My main rule is when interacting with me: just be nice and if you harass people for the content they like?? Just fuck off, this page is safe for the freaks. (I mean look at the warning) As long you're nice and you let me be me, I won't give a fuck who you are. So yeah that's all :)

~ I go by the name; Sam

~ I'm a masc person and while I prefer male pronouns I don't really give a fuck, so you can call me anything.

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⚠️ WARNING: I play DoL (Degrees of Lewdity) and I post/reblog stuff about it but it's a very fucked up porn game, so I will post/reblog dark content on here. I will try to tag accordingly but yeah. In general there will be some reblogs of dark content, so if you don't like that, well this was a warning ⚠️

#My thoughts on some things + a bit about me -> #I dislike shipping discourse (and labels) So I don't consider myself anything #I do agree with them about: Ship who you want with whoever. Don't like; don't read/Dead dove; do not eat #and the very basic one don't harass people about fucking fiction!! #I'm anti censorship. Cause I believe it's a very slippery hill and don't want to take any chances #while I very much hate stuff like l0llicon. I still believe it shouldn't be censored because then would also the works that deal with csem #and other works that deal with inappropriate stuff between adults and minors but in a way to showcase the awful aspects #or the ones with an unreliable narrative (like in Lolita) be also censored and I think it would bring more harm than good #uhh yeah. If you're a pedophile; seek help and even better go to jail. I don't tolerate that shit #One thing that should be banned: Real People fics. They are fucking creepy especially because the “subject” is a real fucking human being!! #anyway a bit more about me: I like dark content; such as yandere #other heavy/dark things (I mean look at DoL... I love that game but the shit that happens?? Oef) #i'm very much into problematic and toxic fictional men (also women but less) and am lowkey a monsterfucker :) #so yeah. The content I consume don't reflect my actual morals :) #and yeah i'm a freak myself so ofcourse this blog is safe for other freaks #proship safe #pinned intro #my own post

[perenlop]

man i do not feel like doing my final project for my animal literature class and the reason why makes me feel like a bad person

#so i took this class thinking it was going to be a mix of like animal symbolism and animal rights #as well as how people end up doing animal xenofiction which do or dont play on animal tropes and where they come from #which is interesting to me #but there was only that last thing in like the first thing we read and in some lecture related homework #and pretty much everything else is about whether or not this portrayal of an animal is cruelty for not putting it on the same level #as a person #and ngl a lot of the stuff just sounds like a reach to me like one was like #''omg this man doesnt REALLY care. he FAILS at his analysis of his cat that saw him naked bc he thinks abt what the cat thinks abt clothes #but he doesnt consider how it would LOGICALLY feel he only cares abt HIMSELF'' #and professor also kinda lowkey implied the college students were being derogatory in what we named the campus cat #(literally like a goofy food name bc apparently we dont respect it?) #anyways usually our finals are like ''pick anything we've discussed and narrow down into a thesis'' #but she wants us to ONLY have our papers be about animal cruelty and if like idk the lion king is ethical or not #and i was like ''eh i can do pokemon maybe bc that has interesting things to say about animal and human relations sometimes'' #but her response was like ''ok but how SHOULD we treat animals in that context tho. are they saying animals have to fight? thats weirdddd'' #''are they like saying the creator wants animals to beat each other up are they saying animals inherently hate and fight each other and need #humans to survive? thats kinda weird????'' and im just like. ok the series literally does go into that and its a video game but ok #echoed voice #and i wanna do my final abt symbolism and such in shows that i like but she keeps nitpicking them #and its like she doesnt even want a NEGATIVE portrayal for us to explain why its bad at conveying its message #bc i was like ''hey livestock is used as a dehumanizing thing here and also says something abt how cruel meat factories can be how abt that' #and she was like ''um but if its used to be dehumanizing then theyre implying its bad to compare humans to animals and thats not fair to #to animals'' #like i SORTA see where shes coming from but it feels more exhausting than anything

[neverendingford]

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#hmmmm. the game night was very underwhelming. I committed to playing Catan and then other people showed up and played smash bros #and ngl I kinda wanted to just throw in my cards and play smash bros instead #got called 'he' IMMEDIATELY by some dude so that was hmm and then someone noticed and was like 'let's all say our pronouns #and several dudes were visibly uncomfortable about saying pronouns and made jokes about it and were deliberately obtuse #so honestly pretty meh vibes overall. I really don't want to make a neckbeard gamer bro stereotype but ummmm. sorry those were the vibes #anyway not for me I think #also there was zero chaos energy at all. I need manic energy to feed off of #I did my best to sow a bit of chaotic fun and no one played off it either. #honestly just very boring. I lowkey shoulda stayed home #I learned what app people use to coordinate groups though. so I guess I'll look at that now. maybe find some other groups #the city I live is really is kind of a dead end though. so not a lot of opportunity. I'll keep hunting though #I just want to find wildly adhd people is that too much to ask. I need chaos and jokes and laughter and objects thrown through the air #I cannot take boring small town talk around a small table. #and like. I've met neckbeard gamer bros who I loved and got along with super well. they were mad adhd. but like. ugh. I can't stand boring #I can't stand calm. I need them to be hopped up on neurodivergence #I wish it were socially acceptable to get up and go 'sorry you're all very nice but you're very boring I'm going home now' #like. no offense but I hate it here bye #tag talk