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swap-and-possessions · 1 year

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Brotherly Support

Can you believe my little brother used to be such a fucking dork? He’s already twenty, and his cherry hasn’t popped– what a fucking disgrace. I was fucking the moment I reached legal age, and I haven’t stopped since. I mean, it’s easy to see the reason why. He’s a shut-in nerd who barely socialized in his classes. His only friends are those behind a screen, and I sure won’t in hell call that friendship. As for me, I am everything opposite of him. Instead of slaving away with video games, I am lifting weights and building muscles. While he was in the comforts of solitude, I bar-hopped and attended parties. We do share the love of machines and literature, however.

That would soon change when I dragged him out of his bedroom and forced him to go to the gym with me. He was stubborn, and I did everything to convince him to stay and do sets with me. I even bought him his blender and ingredients for a delicious protein shake! But he just wouldn’t budge. He thought I’d give up. But no! We’re cut from the same cloth, so I am as stubborn as he is!

Although, such desperate times call for desperate measures. I had to call a friend of a friend to do supernatural bidding so I could help my little brother. Perks of being famous, boy!

Eric was in for a surprise the following morning. Instead of waking up to immediately play video games, he found himself craving a morning protein shake. In a few more seconds, he’d realize that he’s now in my body while I am in his! His body is so fucking weak that the urge of returning to sleep was great! But as I’ve said, I am stubborn. I made my way to the gym despite Eric’s protests of returning us to normal. I ignored his pleas and did a sit-up in front of him.

God! I feel my body giving up a minute after I started! But I pushed through the grit and pain. Something about seeing me struggle sparked something inside Eric. Soon. he was trying out the weights and was in glee when he realized how strong he was in my body. See? It wasn’t so hard to find the joy of becoming strong.

We found each other back to normal the following day. Eric was sore all over, so I gave him enough time to rest. The morning after? We swapped again, and I returned to building his muscles. We did this dance for the next few months. By the middle of it, I found Eric doing his own routine. And now? We’re training together while in each other’s skin and as ourselves the next day.

Then Eric came to me one morning in glee. Someone asked him out on a date! I was overjoyed as a big brother to see the massive changes to his lifestyle. He still plays video games but not as much anymore. He’s gotten confident with socializing outside, probably because of the ego that came with his improving body.

I’m proud of the changes we’ve made together. All it took was brotherly support and a touch of supernatural magic.

Look at all those gains! There are days when I find myself enjoying becoming him. Since he's a virgin yet, his sensitivity is out of this world. I wish I'd be the one to spend his virginity with his date, but I wouldn't rob him of the pleasure.

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Based on the poll, most like body-swapping stories. So, here's a hopeful body swap story between brothers.

Read and listen to the AI-voice-covered version on my 🧡Patreon🧡.

#Body Swap #Male Body Swap #Male Body Switch #Body Switch

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capricorndevil15 · 1 month

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Our Wonderland Themesongs Masterpost or Whatever

Out of excitement for the Our Wonderland finale (which is coming out next month!), I've written an incredibly long post sharing one song I associate with each of the main 4 characters (and also Cecil is there), as well as songs for my favorite ships. Come imagine AMVs with me, under the cut!~

To start off, a song that I associate broadly with the plot of OW is Leopard by Jack Stauber. For most of the other songs, I'll pick out certain lyrics to highlight/site my sources lol, but with this one I'd prefer not to because all of the lyrics are The Lyrics. Every time we change, it's a game, okay? Cool.

Characters

🥩Iggy: Devil Town- Bright Eyes (x)

All my friends were vampires Didn't know they were vampires Turns out I was a vampire myself

🚬Genzou: Getchoo- Weezer (x)

I can't believe What you've done to me What I did to them You've done to me

🍷Orlam: I made an entire Orlam playlist, but don't worry. I always have more. Today I'm assigning him,

Shake The Disease- Depeche Mode (x)

You know how hard it is for me to shake the disease That takes hold of my tongue in situations like these Understand me

✂️Gidget: Touch Up- Mother Mother (x)

I forget that I can remember when I was young climbing up fences Scraping my knees, dirt on my cheeks Not one makeover queen bone in me

🔪Cecil: Genie In A Bottle- Billy Cobb (x)

I have no tangible explanation for this one. You'll either get it or you won't and that's okay. 👍🏻

No songs for Bucks or Hunar yet because I need to know more about them first. I've heard the finale is pretty Bucks-centric, so I can't wait 2 play!

My fave ships

💙💚 Iggy/Genzou: Run-Around- Blues Traveler (x)

But I want more than a touch, I want you to reach me And show me all the things no one else can see So what you feel becomes mine as well And soon if we're lucky we'd be unable to tell What's yours and mine, the fishing's fine And it doesn't have to rhyme, so don't you feed me a line!

💙🧡 Iggy/Orlam: Funky- Royal Treatment Plant (x)

I should be over this No time for playing games with little wicked boys

💙💔💜 Iggy/Gidget: COWARD 2 COWARD- Ada Rook (x)

I will become whatever you think of me I will be nothingness or disgusting dreams Idol or target, anything in between Falling forever, witnessed by nobody

🧡🖤 Orlam/Cecil: Somethin' Stupid- Lola Marsh (x)

I know I stand in line until you think you have the time To spend an evening with me And if we go some place to dance, I know that there's a chance You won't be leaving with me Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place And have a drink or two And then I go and spoil it all By saying somethin' stupid like, "I love you"

🧡💜 Orlam/Gidget: Pure Morning- Placebo (x)

A friend in need's a friend indeed A friend who'll tease is better Our thoughts compressed, which makes us blessed And makes for stormy weather

💜🖤 Gidget/Cecil: Guy.exe- Superfruit (x)

In lieu of cherry-picking specific lyrics I just want 2 say that the AMV in my mind is exquisite. In pursuit of the Guy (with help from Cecil), Gidget becomes the Guy. Do u understand.

💜🖤🧡 Gidget/Cecil/Orlam: Sideways- Carly Rae Jepsen (x)

Everything's goin' my way And I like to get my way Even when things go sideways Rainin' on my parade I get all my confidence from you

Lovecats- The Cure (x)

We should have each other to tea, We should have each other with cream Then curl up in the fire and sleep for a while It's the grooviest thing, it's the perfect dream

(They get two songs because...I said so. ❤️)

💔⚰️ Orlam/Genzou: Suedehead- Morrissey (x)

You had to sneak into my room Just to read my diary It was just to see, just to see All the things you knew I'd written about you

And that's the end! If u want to share your favorite ships or songs you associate with anybody, I'd love to hear them too!

#my official coming out post as gidget/cecil/orlam number 1 fan.#I have been calling them mad3party in my mind. u know like. mad tea party bcuz it's alice in wonderland themed. but. there's 3 of them.#our wonderland #come play dolls with me!

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lraerosesims · 27 days

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Hey, hi, hello, greetings, sul sul!

So I know I've been a little quiet lately on the Sims CC front, so I thought I'd update you all on what stage I'm up to on each project:

1. The Elderwood Manor Build

I was working on testing this build for functionality etc, and tried to test in different spots in the neighbourhood, and that's when I discovered some broken terrain in the back of the lot (where the terrain slopes from road height to the beach). I've tried to fix it, haven't had any success yet. So I may end up having to either:

Do more heavy research on how to repair just the broken part - putting off uploading it until fixed, or

Remaking the build as close as possible to how it currently looks but on a flatter beach lot to avoid breaking terrain

Either way, it's unfortunately not ready to post for you all to enjoy just yet, I'M SORRY!!! 😭😭😭 I was really hoping to post it but I'd rather not give you guys a broken lot.

I haven't made basically any progress on this outfit since I last shared a texture WIP here. No excuse really, just taking on too much for my little pea-sized brain to handle and can feel the ADHD burnout creeping in so I don't wanna push myself too hard. Making my CC textures is exhausting, and takes a very big toll on ye olde✨mental✨ so I promise it will get done, but I just require some time to recharge so that way I can share the best possible retextures for you all to enjoy.

2. The Harlow Jumpsuit outfit

This one is about 75 to 80% complete. It's another very time consuming project, with the screen recording, video editing, voice over recording, blah blah blah. The biggest problem I have is that I feel the need to announce when I'm working on something (to build interest and anticipation for what's to come) but then take ages to finish it - which leaves people wondering if I'm just full of shit or actually going through with it 😂😂but I promise the tut is happening still!

3. Retexturing YouTube Tutorial

Don't expect this one anytime this decade🤣 I have no idea what I'm doing so I'm winging it entirely. Watch this space though, because who knows maybe I'll just magically find the willpower and mental capacity to figure it all out.

4. Stretched earlobe mesh

And...5. Whatever this hair is

So I did a recolour of a base game hair to make an undercut bun hairstyle (that's accurate to my real life five-head)...not sure if anyone would ever even want this in their game. So far I haven't gotten around to binning it, or even making it in different hair colours. It's also just using a Maxis texture I stole from a different hair and reworked to fit this one. But anyway, that one...exists...for some ungodly reason 😅😂

If you read this far, and haven't given up on me or this page yet then I'm eternally grateful (and slightly confused, but I won't question your intentions 😝)

To be honest with you all, I've got a heap of stressful shit going on in the real worldz right now so bear with me and I'll eventually work through the current projects I'm yet to finish.

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤 - L'Rae

#WIP update #Help I'm tired and need a 10 year long nap #lraerosesims

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copperbadge · 2 years

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Hi Sam! (If you have the time/spoons!) What did you do to get ready for Dearborn and Polk to arrive in your home? I am adopting cats for the first time as an adult and I am so nervous about not having the right stuff for them and not being prepared.

Even if you could point me in the direction of decent resources, I would really appreciate it! As a fellow ADHDer, I am hoping you might have some more neurodiverse friendly advice and I've seen how well you take care of the cryptids so I feel I can trust your judgement.

You're awesome either way! 🧡

Eyy, congratulations on your upcoming adoption! I felt very similar, like I was unprepared and nervous about it, even though I did my best. Just be ready to do some extra spending in the first few days after they come home -- buying supplies you didn't think of or extras of stuff they really like. You really have to get to know them first. And give yourself permission to not be perfect (for example, my cats eat junk-food kibble, but it's what they'll eat and they're so tiny that any way I can get food into them is good, so Meow Mix it is).

I think the most important thing really is to start with the bare bones to find out what your specific kitties like. For example, I got two beds, a nice soft plush fluffy $20 bed and a Sulk Gourd made of like, $2 felt. Guess which one they wouldn't go near! I ended up using the fluffy bed to keep them off of furniture I didn't want them to jump on because they avoided it so hardcore. So I'd start out with really basic stuff -- a couple of toys, 2-3 kinds of cheap bed, basic food/water dishes, and see what your little ones prefer.

I do want to point out that I didn't know I had ADHD when I adopted the cryptids; it wasn't even on my radar yet, as it would be a year or two later. That said, I still had coping mechanisms. I did look at cat ownership and think "What are the most unpleasant parts of this going to be?" and tried to mitigate those -- I know myself and I know it would be hardest to do the unpleasant parts, so I wanted to make those parts as easy as possible. I wanted to be sure I could give them the care and love they deserve.

For me, there were two major concerns: I didn't want them eating anything they shouldn't, and I was worried I'd forget to scoop the litter, or avoid doing it because it's stinky. For the former, I just went through the house and picked up anything I thought might hurt them; I bought a few containers and put stuff like sharp objects, string/thread, plastic, etc in the containers. I kept an eye on them when they came home to make sure they wouldn't chew any wires (Polk tried, but I wrapped double-sided tape around it and that stopped her).

For the latter, the "how often can I make myself scoop the litter" concern, I bought an Omega Paw "rolling" litterbox. You just roll it onto its lid, roll it back, and pull out a tray where all the poop ends up, which you can dump into the garbage (I have a bin specifically for dumping litter, which I double-bag and empty about once a week). This was fine for a while, but they both love to "garden" in the litterbox, so eventually I replaced it with a vertical box (they have to jump in through the top) to cut down on how much litter I had to sweep up. It's actually less work to scoop it every night than it was to sweep up litter constantly, and I'm spending like $20 less a month on litter. (You are supposed to have one litterbox per cat plus one spare, but mine are bonded and prefer to share litterboxes, plus my apartment is small, and so are they.) If this is a concern for you I might also suggest something like the Kitty Poo Club that sends you a new box with litter crystals in it each month; it didn't work for me because again, the litter got kicked everywhere and those little crystals are FUCKING SHARP, but it's an option.

Lastly, because I knew it might take them a while to feel safe, I deliberately left spaces in my home where they could hide -- they have a whole labyrinth under my bed where they can run around between storage boxes, there's space behind one sofa, there's some little cubbyholes in the bathroom, etc. I wanted to be sure that if they felt scared or unsafe they could go to ground somewhere that I controlled, rather than trying to, say, squeeze behind the stove or something, where they might get hurt. They didn't use them often, but once in a while something would scare them and at least this way I could see where they hid. And so I could leave them alone until they were ready to come out again.

Good luck with your incoming cryptids! Get a bonded pair if you can -- they're sweet and they keep each other entertained. :D

#dearborn and polk #sam has adhd

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deejadabbles · 5 months

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hi Deeja!!! I’m sliding through for the OC x OC asks, and I would love to see who you ship with Blizzard, our warm-hearted, snow-loving king 🥰

the highlights: Ace pilot, cold name warm heart, loves the snow and ice, lives for the freedom of flying, puts others needs before his own, sweetheart on the ground, deadly in the skies, tenacious, total flyboy, energy for days, thick fluffy curls, kind eyes, you can take him home to your family

total pleasure dom, will spoil tf outta his S/0

romantic or platonic works for me 🧡🤍 I’m so excited for this one!!!

I ship Blizzard with me look we're already married and buying a house together okay okay but seriously I knew who I shipped him with the moment I saw this and now I'm so soft over these two!! I ship him (romantically) with Jaylee!

Jaylee really admires Blizzard’s warm heart and it's a reminder that there is inherent good in people. She finds it easy to let her guard down around him and that's not something she's used to! It honestly scares her a little, but I think Blizz would just kind of naturally soothe those fears when he's around her!

I hope he's ready to have the coziest, softest sweaters he could ever want because she's making them for him. Sweaters and scarfs, for when he wants to have fun adventures in the snow! (Like seriously she knows that clone armor is temperature regulated but I'm just imagining her still being appalled that he'll run into snow in just his armor and her yanking a sweater over his head like “maker’s sake put this on- you're going to get frostbite!”)

Speaking of snow, I am super super soft while thinking of this: so winters were very harsh on her colony, so she unfortunately always associates the cold with hunger and fear. She never understood how anyone could take enjoyment in snow…until she met Blizzard. Seeing his delight in such a thing had her in awe honestly. And if he confides in her why he loves snow so much? She is very soft and doesn't know what to do with herself! So soft that she'll even let him coax her into a snowball fight!

At first she finds his flying quite terrifying, but he would exude such confidence and, more importantly, competence that her fears are quickly tempered. She still worried over his safety, she can't help it, but she knows that his skills will keep him as safe as possible. Eventually, if the opportunity presents itself, she'll even ask him to take her flying…so long as he promises not to scare her with too many flashy stunts!! If he wants her to cling to him there's other ways to accomplish that!

It will take her forever to admit it, but she absolutely loves to snuggle with him. Will make large blankets for them to share (“I made this blanket too big by accident so we have to share- stop giving me that knowing smile!”) and she doesn't care what they're doing so long as he's close to her. It makes her feel safe, something she isn't used to, and she's very thankful for Blizzard giving her that warm, secure feeling.

Also of note! Once she's sure that he's actually serious about the relationship they're building, she'll start slowly rearranging her apartment to suit both of them. She, like the clones, doesn't have much so it's not that hard to integrate the space to feel like their own and she wants him to feel like he has something to come “home” to. Small acts to make him feel comfortable and appreciated are very important to her and is how she shows love since she has trouble expressing it verbally.

Okay I'm gonna make myself stop there cos I keep having more thoughts (and a few thots 👀👀) about these two!! And I'd love to hear yours if you have any 🥹

#oc ask game #i ship them your honor #oc: jaylee #oc Blizzard #Blizzard x jaylee #my ocs #others ocs

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ridleyytheriddler · 8 months

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im suuuper bored rn and in a mood to write so! rant! yay!

first thing i wanted to rant about - my sexual orientation (:

im ace, period. i know that for a fact. at least I'm somewhere on the spectrum, maybe demisexual? but I'm not sure, I'm not really diving into microlabels.

romantic orientation is an ENTIRELY different story...

had a crush on a boy in 3rd/4th grade, back when (i thought) i was a cishet girl. liked him until like 5th grade when my feelings sort of faded away. now, i was virtual schooled through 5th and 6th so i didn't really like anyone in sixth grade but i spent a lot of time exploring queerness in general- like my nonbinary awakening happened sometime in like January/February of 2022 (though i did first label myself as a demigirl, it still falls under the enby umbrella).

i entered seventh grade as a closeted aroace enby and went through about 3/4 of the year without any major crushes (i had a platonic interest in a boy that i misinterpreted as a crush). i didn't really label my romantic attraction because i didn't need to.

however, as the end of the school year approached, i started feeling uncomfortable. i wanted to know who i was, and the only valid part of my identity had been my asexuality, since i knew that i liked a boy in the past so how could i be aro? i was drowning in a whirlpool of invalidation and not feeling queer enough.

so, i go to the first camp of the year, a writing camp, filled with TONS of queer people. i loved it there, but seeing so many people around me, sure of their identities, made me die more inside.

sooo, a couple days after i was accused of flirting with my friend (who happened to be a boy), i "discovered" i liked a girl. she was pretty, she was smart, she was blonde, she was sporty. i texted her a lot (even after camp was over). i put hearts around her contact name. but "liking" her didn't feel thrilling and it didn't feel happy. to put it simply, it felt like a fucking punishment. talking to her made me feel like i wasn't enough.

so after going through about a month of emotional turmoil and dying inside and bragging to my friends about how i liked a girl, i headed to my first sleepaway camp of the summer, a church camp, ironically enough. and THERE. THERE i fell. not in love, but probably the realest crush i'd had. there weren't really butterflies, so to speak, but if you looked at a picture with the two of us in it, you would see me gazing at her (lets call her M) with literal heart eyes. we'd started quietly chatting while our mutual friends were off doing other stuff, and ended up bonding with each other despite how the only thing we shared was our introverted-ness. and I'm not even that introverted. we're polar opposites. we still text each other almost every day, and i had hopes she liked me back, aaaaaaaaand she doesn't but. here comes part two of my rant.

my crush doesn't like me.

and i don't even feel the tiniest bit sad about it.

this is probably the most confused i've ever been. i know i like her. maybe it's because her "rejection" was so soft it didn't even feel like one. i don't know. it's complicated, but my best friend had been cheering me on to tell her, so i did. and i was honestly divided as to whether she liked me or not- at times she acted like she did but other times she didn't. honestly, i think I'm just hopeful that she likes me

anyway thats not the point-

so. after writing this THERAPUTIC post, i have discovered that:

i am aroace and proud 🧡💛🤍🩵💙

im nonbinary (and proud, but I've known that for a while)

I'm confused

but I'm 100% queer. whether I'm lesbian or straight or bi or something, i am queer! and I'm tired of feeling invalidated by being compared to the people out there who are out and proud with all their labels. i don't need to be exactly like them to be queer and be myself.

to put it poetically, "our friendship is worth more than being in any relationship." I'm going to write a poem about that now. good night yall <3 or even good morning/afternoon.

#queer #shitposts #rants #lgbtqia+#questioning #my posts

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archangelmacaron · 1 year

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NTMF College AU Chapter 14

I apologize in advance if this is Too Much, this isn't even the most embarrassing thing I've written, so,

Might be a slight hiatus if necessary, I'd like to get a few chapters ahead before I start daily posting again so we'll see what the weekend holds.

Thank you as always for your comments and likes and support and encouragement :D enjoy your weekend and I truly hope you enjoy this too! 🧡

Noel checked on Jillian one more time, and then headed out of the room with Caron, quietly closing the door behind them.

The devil looked down at her with a shrewd expression that she was starting to recognize as evaluating her current state of wellbeing. “I know you wish to speak more, but first, you should probably rest, yourself.”

Noel hesitated. “About that...”

“What is it?”

“As I said, I do not wish to disturb Jillian, and um, there is only one other guest room, so...”

“Ah. I can stay on the couch downstairs—“

She shook her head. “No, that's not acceptable. You need to rest too. You haven't slept at all since you've gotten here, have you? And you have been so active... A couch is hardly an appropriate place to get adequate sleep.”

He made a small face. “It's not that different than a bed...”

He isn't exactly wrong, but I feel like if Fugo comes home and finds him resting there... I don't really know what he'll do, especially if I am not there to try and diffuse the situation. So I must convince Caron to do otherwise!

“Look, let's—let's simply share it, then.” She knew her face was turning red, but she tried to continue to speak calmly and logically. “We're both adults, so we don't—don't need to make it weird or anything. I don't take up much space now, after all, so...”

“That's fine,” he said. She blinked in surprise. She had truly been expecting him to put up more of an argument, but he didn't seem even slightly flustered by the idea.

Ah, I forgot. Devil. Of course he wouldn't find it weird, not with his vague understanding of personal space! Besides, I guess he probably doesn't... see me like that... er, wh-why would he? It's not like I see him that way, of course n-not—

His deep voice interrupted the silly thoughts. “Should we talk more after we're rested, then?”

She nodded, exhaling again. “I... I think that's probably the best idea. I don't know that I have the energy to truly think anymore.”

They headed up the third floor stairs. There was only one door, it seemed the area had once been an attic and was now split off into an obvious storage area on one side, and the finished guest room on the other.

Noel shivered as they entered the bedroom; it seemed to have worse heating than the rest of the house. She glanced at Caron as she walked towards the bed—he was already at the side, and had begun taking his jacket and vest off.

She quickly spun away—thankfully not tripping over her own fake feet—feeling like her face had been set on fire, and more than a bit foolish.

Oh, I am so stupid—of course he's not going to sleep in that full suit! What was I thinking? I-I should go take the couch myself, but I somehow feel certain that he will not accept that—

Ah, get a grip, Noel! As I told him, we do not need to make it weird. I will be an adult about this! Although...

She looked down at herself. The large, fluffy sweater and jeans she'd chosen that morning hadn't been particularly comfortable for her nap, earlier, but removing them to sleep in her underwear wasn't exactly an option that was even remotely acceptable now.

“Something wrong?” Caron asked. She gave a small jump. He had slightly unbuttoned his shirt as well, showing off more pure black skin than she'd been prepared to perceive. She felt like fainting for a moment.

“Ah, it—it is nothing! I simply forgot that I do not have anything appropriate to sleep in, but I managed to nap fine in this, s-so—“ She felt like she wasn't saying anything that made sense as she forced herself to fuss with the blankets to avoid looking at him.

“Here.” She blinked, not sure what he was handing her for a second, then her eyes traced up his arm to his body and she realized that it was the shirt he had just completely taken off. “That shouldn't be too heavy, correct?”

As she looked at him, the thought she'd been trying to avoid having finally slapped her at full force.

“Ah n-n-no, it's um. Okay. Yes. Thank you. Of course.” I'm staring. I need to stop staring!

She took it from his hand and spun around again, this time tripping a little but catching herself. “I'm um. Just going to go get changed in the bathroom there, th-then...”

He made an unconcerned but slightly confused noise in reply as she hurried into the attached room and shut the door, leaning back against it with her heart beating worse than ever.

She clutched the shirt against her chest. It was still warm. She felt lightheaded.

Well, at least I have figured that out, but it certainly doesn't help me any...

There's a very basic reason I feel so utterly foolish, like I cannot even think, when we're close, or like I will pass out when we touch.

It's simply that I'm attracted to him. Terribly attracted to him.

It has nothing to do with our species or a contract. I'd—I'd never felt like this before, so I guess it took a bit to really sink in...

So I have certainly put myself into quite an awkward position now!

She forced herself to take a deep breath, then headed over to the sink, setting the shirt aside as she splashed intentionally cold water on her face. She looked up in the mirror and grimaced.

Now I must stop being foolish. Just because I am having those kind of thoughts and feelings towards him, it does not mean that he feels anything remotely similar! So if I can simply play it cool, he likely won't notice at all. I have not lost all self control. I'll just head back out there and go to sleep. I'm sure I will fall asleep quickly regardless, I am utterly exhausted, after all.

She tried not to think about anything else as she pulled off her sweater and jeans—awkwardly, pants and the prosthetics were always a little tricky—and slipped into his shirt. It was much larger on her, emphasizing their size difference.

It's strange, though... I used to feel a bit scared, underneath everything else, because of how much bigger he is, and stronger... but I do not, anymore. Why is that?

Everything seems to be happening so quickly, but I'm not afraid. Even when I'm confused, or worried, I simply don't feel terrified. Poor Jillian was more emotional than I've felt during any of this! Shouldn't I be more stressed, though? I have someone out to kill me, after all...

But I just don't believe Caron will let that happen. Why? If we truly did not make a contract, then he has no real motive to protect me, so...

I keep getting lost in my thoughts—I should be getting cleaned up and going to sleep. Sleep!

She dug through the bathroom drawers and successfully found a brush to run over her long hair. The motion calmed her significantly. She tried to smile in the mirror. At least I do not quite look a mess anymore... eh?

That's interesting, his shirt no longer has a hole burned into it... Does his clothing heal as well? I want to ask him... maybe tomorrow. Right now, I am going to sleep before this cursed brain has even a single thought more!

She steeled herself, making a determined effort to empty her head entirely, before walking back out.

Caron was already in the bed, leaning against pillows with his arms crossed behind his head and his eyes closed. She found herself taking an abnormally deep breath as she forced herself to calmly walk over to join him.

She frowned at the prosthetics as she sat down on the mattress. They were terribly uncomfortable to sleep in, but there didn't seem to be a suitable place to set them. She started to take them off anyways, considering leaning them against the bed.

“They'll fit on this dresser here, if you're looking for a place to rest them until morning.” Caron held out his hand and gestured towards the furniture on his side of the bed.

“Eh? Oh, uh, so—so they will!” Noel smiled awkwardly. “Um, thank you...”

He understood what I was thinking just by looking at me?

She moved underneath the covers, laying her head down as he set her fake legs aside, then clicked off the small bedside lamp. The moon was still bright outside as it shone through the windows, and she realized she could still see him almost perfectly. He was on his side, leaning on his elbow and looking at her. Their eyes met. Neither said anything for a long moment.

Finally, “You seem to be staring.”

Is this not the pot calling the kettle black?

“Ah? Oh. M-my apologies... it seems that's something that you do quite a bit, though, so I hope you don't mind too much.”

He raised a brow. “Ah, so you're picking up some bad habits from me.”

She gave a brief laugh. “I—I suppose I am! Perhaps you can take up some of mine in return?”

His eyes narrowed a bit, but she got the impression it was a more playful expression than annoyed. “Hmm, I'll have to think on what exactly I would want from you.”

She ground her teeth at the phrasing and hoped he couldn't see her blushing. She looked away from his gaze, then laughed again.

“What is it?”

“Well, I—I believe I answered your question from earlier, just now.”

“Oh?”

“The matter of, if I trust you.” She met his eyes again with a small, wry smile.

“What is your answer, then?” His voice was serious, but she kept hers light.

“It seems that I am in a bed alone with you, wearing only your shirt, and I also handed you my legs, leaving myself stranded and rather helpless here. I think... that's a pretty solid answer, is it not?”

She couldn't read his expression, but it seemed a little surprised. She tried to close her eyes, acting calmly, like she was in a completely ordinary and expected position, not trying to keep her heart from escaping from her chest.

“Well, g-goodnight, then— …?”

Just like earlier, he had moved quickly, without her really noticing it. She opened her eyes to see that he was now above her, his arms resting on either side of her shoulders as he leaned over her.

Her heart fled into her throat, and her brain stopped all coherent thoughts. She could only stare at him. Her mind slowly started regrouping as he did not move further.

“Noel.”

“Um, y-yes?” She tried to hold the calm and ordinary tone again.

“It is truly bold of you to be here, as you said, rather helpless.”

“Ah... I s-suppose so...” Her heart made her voice squeak. She clenched her hands together, hoping the action was subtle, to avoid the strong impulse to reach up and touch some of that ink black skin.

It looks so soft. His face was so soft, and so were his hands, so the rest of him must also be...

“I truly appreciate your trust in me.” His face was very serious.

She gave a nervous smile. “It is not exactly a conscious choice, like believing in you is... it simply is how I seem to feel, as evidenced by my actions.”

“I am grateful.” His expression changed; this one seemed to have some amusement in it. “Although, I am a bit disappointed you aren't a little more... nervous.”

Nervous? You think I'm not nervous? I am entirely nerves right now, Caron! I cannot believe how well I am holding it together! You've been reading me so well, how are you missing what an utter disaster I am inside right now?

“H-how do you mean?” She blinked up at him.

“Hmm... it's nothing important. Simply that most people would not feel so calm in bed with a handsome devil.” He looked smug again.

D-did he just wink at me?

“Ah, no, I cannot, after your saying something like that!” She hesitated, her eyebrows furrowing, then decided to simply blurt it out. “Are you flirting with me, Caron?”

“But... I suppose you are rather good at keeping your cool.” He started to move away again, adjusting the blankets. His tone was still teasing. “Sleep well, Noel.”

Oh, no, I understand this now, he certainly has noticed, and he's—he's—

He paused his movements, but remained surprisingly cool at the accusation. “And if I was?”

“Then—well then, that would make my flirting with you a bit less awkward, would it not?”

It's not just physical attraction... I really like his personality, too. I like him. It has not been even two days, and we met under such dire circumstances, and yet I feel so happy that he's here with me now like this.

He stared at her for a moment, then started to laugh.

She couldn't help but laugh as well. It felt like the tension was draining out of her.

“Well,” Caron finally said, “with that out of the way, that does make our sharing a bed a bit less... appropriate.”

“Well, you have already stated that I am a bold woman, so...” She shivered slightly as she laughed again, then sneezed. Having such strong emotions was no longer enough to keep her warm with the blankets tented up over him like that.

He looked down at her with a raised brow. “Did I say bold? I believe I should have said cold. You seem a bit chilly.”

“Ah, just a li—“

Her heart seemed to stop entirely for a moment as he pulled her against his bare chest, laying back down with his arms around her. He pulled the covers up over her shoulders. “Then I'll have to keep you warm.”

I-I certainly feel plenty warm at this!!!

“Ah, that—that will be quite nice, I think.” She pressed both her hands against his chest, leaning her head against it.

This feels... absolutely wonderful...

“Good. Now go to sleep. I mean it.” A trace of solemnity entered his voice. “We do have a lot to discuss regarding our next steps, preferably before the brothers return or Jillian awakens.”

Noel wasn't ready to be serious again. In a slightly teasing tone, she asked, “And if I do not sleep?”

“I'm sure I can think of an appropriate way to punish you.”

She laughed again. “All right. I shall behave, then. Good night, Caron.”

“Good night, Noel.”

She closed her eyes, feeling his large hand gently weaving through her hair before resting on her shoulder. She snuggled a bit closer.

How did I go from so nervous... to so very, very relaxed... I think, in this moment, everything is perfect... even though it cannot possibly last.

It's so utterly foolish, with everything going on, but right now... I'm happy.

#fanfic

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ehcahache · 9 months

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Hi Hache! Sorry for the late answer but wow! you really thought this whole thing through!! Glad my ask could relieve your boredom a little! ✨🙈 Also I hope your trip went well!

So. Red Bull and Mercedes:

I agree 100% !! For RBR, with Max it's obvious and for Checo, depending on how his season ends it could also be that he retires soon. Maybe not this year but after 2024? We'll see. He's not an amazingly talented driver but he's for sure not bad. Otherwise he wouldn't have kept his seat all this time. Personaly I'd prefer someone new in the 2nd RB like Charles, Carlos or Daniel. 🤭 For Merc, like I said you put it spot on! And I don't see Lewis moving to any other team ever so it must be either Merc or nothing.

Aston Martin:

Tbh I have actually been wondering whether Lance will ever leave his dad's team and go to maybe Alpine? Just imagine Estie Bestie and Lance as teammates! It could be so entertaining! Ik that AM are doing quite alright for F1 team standards but... why not? Lance might want to try smth. new too. Maybe that's also what Fernando tells him? (don't really think so but it could be so interesting!! 😁)

Ferrari:

You made some really good points here! I agree on both Charles and Carlos and I wish that Ferrari finally get their sh*t together and give them a car that'll get wins next season. I'm not sure what I'd say who of the two will make the move to leave for another team first but they both really should...

McLaren:

My thoughts exactly! If McLaren <3 keeps it's success and they keep getting podiums I'd say Lando and Oscar will both stay as long as it lasts. Maybe even longer bc we've seen the faith Lando has in his team and as you said he IS kind of connected to it in a similar way Charles is connected to Ferrari. I hope they stay with them for a couple of seasons at least! 🧡✨

Alpine:

Yes I imagine there will be a few more changes coming, not sure if that includes the drivers though. Pierre might leave (or have to leave) sometime in the future but since he's not doing that bad and he has just joined Alpine after all, I guess he'll stay next season. But Jack could totally be a option as well! I forgot about him 😅 Always love an Aussie in an F1 car 🥰

Williams:

You probably are right on this one again but I'm being delusional 'cause I honestly really like Logan 🥹 He is very american yes and he isn't showing the results asked for ik but I adore his character and I just decided to tell myself he'll be around in F1 for a few more years... 🩵 Alex is quite impressive atm and deserves a much better car!! That's all I'm going to say about his case 🩵

Haas:

Nothing to add. (Except I think it's a cringeworthy team. 😅)

Alfa Romeo:

I haven't heard the rumours about Valtteri so thank you for informing me. 🤔 It'd be too bad to see him go but I guess he has been around for quite a long time and he probably wont get a contract with a top team anymore. So yeah makes sense for him. Zhou's contract renewal is in the works I heard so he'll be back for sure.

Alpha Tauri:

Daniel will make it to the next season I'm sure. He's not doing outstanding but he's doing better then Nyck. If he works hard enough and him and Max stay friends (which I don't doubt at all) Helmut will give him that 2025 RB seat happily. And Yuki might stay with AT forever. 😭

Agree on both your points about Alex and Charles. I just hope they realize sooner rather than later that Williams and Ferrari can't give them the car they need just yet. And if they are successful with other teams they will always be welcomed back in the end. So Charles could still go back to his beloved team. 🏎

Hey thank you so much for sharing your thoughts I enjoyed reading them a lot! ✨ (And sorry for this veerrryy long ask!)

Cheers, Insil

Ahahahah I REALLY had a lot of time

I think we might have been too positive for Checo because apparently, the Australian GP twitter account said they might be the silly season protagonists and RB just changed the title of the video "one the sofa one last time" to "on the sofa with Daniel Ricciardo and Max Verstappen"

Nothing is made accidentally so... let's see how bad Checo ends up👀

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Ahh Rid i was rereading a thousand reasons why again and idk why but my app crashes every single time i try to reblog it 😭 i'll try again via website but i thought i'd send you my appreciation here first...and it's gonna be long 😭 because this story is one of those that have the ability to change lives 🙏

i know that it's based on a movie (if i remember correctly?) but frankly i don't care about those opinions that it's not your original idea because you wrote everything that in a movie is only seen, you described and put boundaries on ideas and made them your own, reading atrw is reading whatever you wanted us to read which is far more detailed, emotionally oriented, and i'm not even starting on all the work it takes to have an idea and create it in your way through actual words... it's a beautiful artwork for me and so well-paced considering it covers such a big chunk of experiences. i read it for the first time months back and i was ruined for days bc it was exactly what i needed to know to help me with my life choices that aren't easy to make 🥺 the way you write is so real and genuine, i learn so much from your stories and atrw is a prime example and i come back to it again and again when i'm not sure, when i need the comfort that your words and storylines give of what is more. it's simultaneously a tough pill that's also so beautiful, loving, emotional, true and therefore so comforting... i don't know if i make sense, it gives me so many emotions all at once, i consider it to be one of those groundbreaking stories that i'll remember for many years ahead 🥺🧡 and it's because of what you created with the idea you had, it's the you factor for me and not just the general plot... i love it how you created it so please know that whatever people said about you writing it with a existing plot in mind, is their opinion and there're people like me thinking very differently 🥺 i love everything about atrw, the characters and how you described them, their thoughts and motivations, THE EXPERIENCES like i felt even the cold and snow on the mountain tops, the wind and sunset when they were in that small town, the gentle change from not knowing what is it that jk and oc were feeling to realisations and accepting them, oh god RID HOW ARE YOU SOO UNBELIEVABLY GOOD AT WRITING 😭🧡🧡🧡 i could write you 837473 essays on how i love your writing 😩

i have to stop myself now this ask is getting out of hand and it's so all over the place, you can keep it private bc it may be too much 😓 but i just really hated that i couldn't say anything about it bc of this app crash 🥺 take care love and i'll happily move on to the new jimin and tae's stories, i just felt like it was time for me to read atrw again 🧡🧡🧡

omg i'm so sorry, i needed to make & eat dinner, but i'm here now 😭 yeahhh, it's probably cos it's a 40k fic 🤡 i can NEVER reblog the original post either on mobile, but it works on desktop !!

nevertheless, thank u so much for sharing all ur thoughts like 🥺 THEY'RE NEVER TOO MUCH !!!! i don't even know where to start. but gosh, the fact that you mentioned how it's still somewhat unique makes me so so happy, because i sometimes feel bad when someone praises atrw's plot, cos it's not TRULY mine. but u said it's the way i wrote it down and captured the emotions that u love so much and that's !!!! SO SO damn kind of u to say :(((

UGHHHH the snow and sun and sunset, that takes me back fr. the nostalgia 😭 and the "you factor"? idk why but this really got to me, bcos it's so beautifully phrased, so gosh truly, thank u for all ur words. every single time u send an ask or leave a review, my heart lights up :((( and ily :(( <3

#have fun w the jimin and tae story omg !!! those are long ones damn </3 #fic: atrw #notes for rid 🌹#bts-ify #long ask #c. <3

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hey there, this is nix! i'm sending you positive thoughts and hoping that the symptoms ease up soon 🧡 i admire your courage in opening about your struggles. you have a whole support system behind you here, and your health and happiness are important to us readers. i don’t have anything else to discuss at the moment, but i had this idea. what if we exchanged playlists or sets of songs we each consider favorites or just wanted the other to hear? i’m not sure if you've heard most of these songs (perhaps you have, given your wide knowledge of different genres), but i thought i’d recommend them for you to listen to:

⭐️ goodbye by the sundays

⭐️ hot rod by dayglow

⭐️ 97 avalon by charlie burg

⭐️ sparks by coldplay

⭐️ on and on by stephen bishop

⭐️ live and learn by the cardigans

⭐️ so far away by carole king

⭐️ two princes by spin doctors

⭐️ mardy bum by arctic monkeys

⭐️ tears dry on their own by amy winehouse

⭐️ good old-fashioned lover boy by queen

you can recommend some of your favorites as well. share with me the songs you love or think i'd enjoy 😊💝 take care!

Hey Nix! Thank you so much for the message – when I first read it last night, it really did make me tear up and even this morning, still a little teary and it’s all still very, very much appreciated. Thank you, truly, for saying that – it was scary to be open about the mental health stuff, as I normally don’t go beyond the ‘I have mental illness/am neurodivergent’ mention. I promise, my loves, I do medicate, I do the therapy, so things aren’t nearly as bad as they used to be, but I truly appreciate the support from all of you lovely constant readers. Messages and support like this truly mean the world to me, so again, thank you so much! I really loved your idea of exchanging playlists and I added all of these to a playlist that I’ll listen to on the way to work this morning. I know a few of the songs, but not all of them, so I’m so excited for the new ones (was also super excited to see the cardigans, arctic monkeys, and queen on there)! I have a hard time choosing favourites for anything, but I put together a mix down below, made it all pretty like, of things I’ve been listening to a lot lately and I hope whoever wants to listen to it will enjoy 😊

MADAM, WILL YOU TALK?

a ciaossu-imagines march fanmix

🌸 LITTLE IMP, mairimashita! Iruma-kun OST

🌸 MAD SEASON, matchbox 20

🌸 KRYPTONITE, 3 doors down

🌸 GOOD GIRLS, elle king

🌸 ASIMOV, 65daysofstatic

🌸 UGLY, 2ne1

🌸 DAYS LIKE THIS, dermot kennedy

🌸 CRY LITTLE SISTER, the lost boys soundtrack

🌸 THE SUFFERING, coheed & cambria

🌸 YOU, atmosphere

🌸 SHE USED TO BE MINE, sara bareilles

🌸 CODE MONKEY, jonathan coulton

🌸 THE PRINCESS WHO SAVED HERSELF, jonathan coulton

🌸 SURFACE PRESSURE, encanto soundtrack

🌸 ROSES (IMANBEK REMIX), SAINt JHN

🌸 SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT WITH ME, cold war kids

🌸 HATE MYSELF, nf

🌸 HOMECOMING QUEEN?, kelsea ballerini

🌸 HEATHENS, twenty one pilots

🌸 MAMBO RAP, parov stelar

🌸 WALK LIKE A GENTLEMAN, eye alaska

🌸 I’SE THE B’Y, great big sea

🌸 JACKIE AND WILSON, hozier

🌸 MEET VIRGINIA, train

🌸 RIBCAGE, mary lambert

🌸 SCAR TISSUE, red hot chili peppers

🌸 THE MISTRESS, amelia curran

🌸 BUTTERFLY, crazy town

🌸 DOWN WITH THE TRUMPETS, rizzle kicks

#admin chatter #playlist

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inherconstellation · 10 months

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I love it when the streets start to quiet down at night and the building lights gradually dim. I'm having trouble sleeping lately, so I decided to hang out by the glass window and enjoy the peace and quiet of my neighbourhood at night. Sometimes being alone in the dark, with just you and your orange pekoe tea, is the best way to think.

I never dreamed I'd be able to survive being alone, and I don't mean that in a romantic sense. Not everything revolves around romance. Lol. But what I really mean is that I can handle being alone despite having been sheltered my entire life. Everything came easily to me in the Philippines, but it's a different story here in Canada. I struggled physically, emotionally, and spiritually, and I must say that there were times when I lost faith and had no idea where my life would lead me. I saw what an unprivileged existence may be like: no one to turn to, difficulties finding work, difficulty meeting new people and dealing with coworkers, and how some people hate you for no reason. I was so lonesome that I could hear my own thoughts eating me alive at times, and I felt it was the death of me. Emotionally, I was fatigued, and I relied on myself because I chose to be here, to be independent, and to forge my own path, so I had only myself to blame. The person I expected to be there for me couldn't keep his promises. It was hard to think that before I came here, we had plans, and thought maybe there’s hope in a long distance relationship and we could make it work. I was wrong. Everything fell apart.

Fortunately, I had the best support system in my family and close friends. They are the ones that have kept me going, as well as the goals and dreams I have for myself.

Moving forward, I believe I am a different person with a clearer goal and motivation. Instead of being frustrated about things over which I have no control, I am leaning towards the idea that maybe, everything does happen for a reason.

Perhaps, the universe is telling me that everything that has happened to me has made me stronger and wiser in life. Maybe, God took something away from me because it wasn't good for me, and that there's something better for me out there — one who shares the same wavelength as me, same desire, same passion for what we actually believe in and achieve in life. One who understands that love is more than a feeling and a word, but a commitment even when you are at your worst, still can see that there’s so much more to love about you. One who sees right through you, that even in your brokenness, you are God’s masterpiece, always have and always will be.

Maybe the universe is letting you suffer because you were designed to be great, and your destiny is so bright that you need to be prepared and seasoned. That with the appropriate determination and perspective, even the most difficult road appears to be a walk in the park. Perhaps you're simply inside a tunnel. It may be dark now, but it will be at its brightest once you get at your destination.

The experiences I've had in this wonderful country have been incredibly humbling, and I've learned to appreciate everyone around me and how they make the most out of their lives.

This is a terrifying rollercoaster ride. It's stunningly exciting and can make you churn, but that's part of the appeal of it. After all, how can you call a rollercoaster interesting if it lacks thrills and suspense? All you have to do is sit back, grab on tight, and enjoy the journey because it will be a beautiful experience that you will remember for the rest of your life. 🧡😊

( I decided to take a video of my view that night so I would have something to look back on. So that anytime I look at it, I will remember this sweet night of reflection and how a shift in perspective made all the difference for me. 🧡)

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spookyemorockbabe · 2 years

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made this as a background for myself but I thought I'd share it 🖤 happy Pride my loves! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 (shout out to my bi lovies)

might make some more in celebration of our gayness so stay tuned 😉

#bisexaul #bi pride #happy pride 🌈#winnie the pooh bisexual pride #winnie the pooh #sketchesbyhaya

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glossolali · 2 years

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I got y'all ;-)

#these songs are GOOD #i made it for myself so thought i'd share 🧡#caleb widogast #liam o'brien #critical role #caleb #cr campaign 2 #cr 2 #cr #glossopost #glossoplaylist #cr playlists

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coldercreation · 2 years

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I'm in a similar boat as the single anon, if it's okay to share; I'm 22, never been in a relationship, never had any experience of the non-platonic sort, and I don't want to change that for its own sake but it would be kinda nice, you know? Thing is, before the world imploded, I was actually feeling a lot better about the thought of maybe being able to be in a relationship one day. I was getting more comfortable with the idea, I felt like it was a thing I could do and that I wanted to do, if I found myself attracted to someone. (I'd gone through some rough emotions in high school and the people I was around weren't the sort of people I'd have been interested in, so a relationship wasn't ever something that felt like it was in the cards for me then.) I felt able to go there, if I wanted to, if someone came along, if the timing was right, which was a hell of a lot more than I could say about myself before. And then a pandemic stole two years of my life. And there went all my progress, back to square whatever. It's so easy to feel bitter at the present and scared of the future, even though I know 22 is still young, but I guess… I don't know, I guess I don't really have a point here. Just wanted to commiserate.

The last two years really have made such a big mess of all the plans we had hasn’t it😩 the (very) little security I personally used to have in the future is pretty much completely gone now lol. At this point it’s just waiting for that next thing to happen and then figuring out how to adapt y’know?

But I guess that should also remind us that none of this is, and was, under our control in any way, so hopefully we can learn to let go of that. Yes, it fucking sucks that everything we had imagined for ourselves was just snapped away. And yes, it’s been such a tragic two years that I don’t think most of us properly even comprehend all the stuff that’s happened, being too busy adapting and numbing so we can stay somewhat sane. But, for me at least, it has helped a little to remind myself that it really is out of my control. Nothing I could’ve done would have changed what happened.

I know it might feel like all your progress was taken away by the pandemic, but that progress you had is still a big deal!! Congrats on that🧡 And despite the pandemic, maybe you can still keep working on it in some little ways (if you have the capacity), even if it’s not in the way you originally planned. It’s been near impossible meeting new people during this time, so I really get how stuck these couple of years might’ve made you feel when it comes to finding/working on building those relationships. I’m definitely feeling the struggle with building any social contacts, while also trying to stay safe and sane.

There’s no correct answer to how we should/should‘ve dealt with this plague time, but I’m sure anything that keeps us going is a step to the right direction. Hopefully the world will start chilling out soon and we can start working on our progress (and on unpacking these past years too, most likely😓🤘🏻).

I‘m also very much familiar with not being attracted to anyone/not being interested in the people around me at school/uni/etc. After uni the amount of people I tend to meet has become even less, and it really is an unfortunate combination with the whole ‘rarely attracted to anyone‘ thing... But as you said, “I felt like it was a thing I could do and that I wanted to do, if I found myself attracted to someone.”

We shall see what the future brings, dear anon, but let’s just try to enjoy the now the best we can, that’s the only moment we really have any control over🧡

#<3 #I wish there were some clear answers for us #as I feel like almost all of us are feeling #so much #about these past two years #but I think talking about it #and sharing our thoughts and feelings #will hopefully make us feel less alone with these things #especially the isolation and strain on the social side of things #the pandemic has caused #Sharing is caring #and I care about yous #🧡#Thank you anon for your message #I really feel you xx

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