#i managed to skip dinner tonight bc ppl were just eating as they got hungry

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#trying to figure out how to not eat without wasting food tomorrow at lunch #bc my mom packs my lunch purely bc she knows that i just wouldnt if she kept not making it #but i dont wanna eat #i managed to skip dinner tonight bc ppl were just eating as they got hungry #ed mention #i guess? #idk #i dont think i actually have one ive been eating almost 3 meals a day for a few weeks now #but it was a Mistake #idk i just feel like shit and im tired #my insurance company sent a letter in the mail telling my parents that i need to lose weight and to put me on a diet #today has been shit and i hate it i really do #i hate the nightmares i had last night and the transphobia from math class and my mom bringing up the stupid test #and i hate that i never wanna eat again and i hate that my parents couldnt tell that i was crying #i hate how incompetent i am and how i cant seem to be able to lie to my theater teacher #i hate that i was serious to some degree when i joked that a noose was my weekend plans #i hate that i woke up and practically begged my mom to not make me go to school because im too damn tired and too damn depressed #and i hate that i have to finish this damn book series before i can die #if i even have the guts to do it in the first place #hell yell #this was negative lmao