#i may have cried today

[demadogs]

“they look SO good they literally dont age” theyre 31 years old

#ive seen three people say this about van from catb #why do people think you shrivel up and die at the ripe age of 27 😭 #also if you dont follow my main i am losing my shit bc my all time favorite band is releasing new music for the first time in 6 years #i may have cried over a 7 second clip of new music today #catfish and the bottlemen #the fandoms not even big enough for this to really pop off so im putting it here instead of my main

[okkennymay]

JFC TIMING BODY PLEASE-

I really, really should’ve seen that one coming.

Now I hope to heavens I haven’t just jinxed myself for tomorrow, but MAN I’M IN JUST SUCH A GOOD MOOD- I GOT THROUGH MY DANGER DAYS WITH MINIMAL BULLSHIT 👏👏👏 When you got a chronic illness (or illness’s), you gotta take the victories where yah can ( •̀ ω •́ )✧

#i may have cried a little bit today because I was just so relieved #had to suck them back in and zen myself 'cause getting too emotional makes me sick #ain't that ironic #I've had a really nice day though #my sisters and nieces visited and we went and fed the ducks in the park just a short walk from my home #which is tbh is one of the best perks of this house #easy access to duCKS

[allylikethecat]

January OTP Prompts

I think this might be my least favorite one I've written so far, but I actually wrote it so I'm calling it a win anyway.

Warnings for mention / descriptions of blood (Fictional!Matty accidentally cuts himself chopping vegetables) and a reference made to a past suicide attempt

4. Bright red

“Fuck!” Matty swore. He dropped the paring knife, and it clattered to the counter, then slipped off the cutting board and landed with a clang on the hardwood floor. “Shit,” he continued, tears welling in his eyes as he tucked his bleeding hand to his chest. He didn’t care that he was staining his white tee shirt with the fresh bright red blood that welled from the slice in the webbing between his thumb and pointer finger. 

“What’s wrong?” George asked, spinning around from the stove, his eyes widening at the commotion, at the bright red splatters on Matty’s white quartz countertop.

“I nicked myself,” Matty said, purposely not looking at the blood on the counter, he knew it wasn’t a bad cut but the shock of the sting had caused him to recoil in pain and surprise. Matty had always been squeamish and now even just looking at his own blood was making him feel light headed. He squeezed his eyes shut and tried to focus on breathing, a steady inhale and exhale. His hand felt like it had a pulse of its own now, throbbing painfully as his heart pumped more and more blood out of his body. 

“Let me see,” said George, stepping into Matty’s space and carefully pulling his hand away from his body, wincing at the blood staining his shirt, dripping down Matty’s hand. “Fuck,” said George, grabbing a wad of paper towels and pressing down on the cut, trying to stop the bleeding. 

“Is it bad? I didn’t think it was that bad?! Is it bad?!” Matty asked, the pain making him feel frantic, he didn’t want to look, he couldn’t look for himself. He tried to focus on the counter behind George, instead of the bright red splotch growing larger on the paper towel as he continued to bleed. They were going to have to throw away the bell pepper he had been slicing for the stir fry he thought hysterically, he had bled all over the vegetable. 

“It looked pretty deep,” said George, his voice sounding far away as Matty’s vision tunneled. He was no longer thirty four years old, standing in the kitchen with the love of his life, but sixteen in the bathtub, hands shaking as he tried and failed to end it all, bright red staining the white porcelain. His parents hard ripped out the tile in the bathroom after, replacing the bathtub with just a shower. 

“What does that fucking mean?” Matty asked, he needed to stop looking at the blood on the counter, but his vision felt spotty, and George’s worried face wasn’t providing any sort of comfort. 

“It means you might need stitches,” George said, “or to have it glued back together or something, I’m not sure I’m not a doctor.” 

“What about dinner?” Matty asked, his voice wavering. 

“We’ll get takeaway on the way back,” said George softly, putting his hand on Matty’s lower back to shepard him to the car. He paused, leaving Matty standing in the hallway to run back to the kitchen and turn off the stove.

“I’m sorry,” said Matty, still feeling woozy as he climbed into the passenger seat of his Audi. George pressed a kiss to his forehead. 

“Accidents happen love,” he said softly, “let's just go get you all patched up.” 

Day: 1 | 2 | 3

#allylikethecat #January OTP Prompts #fanfic #fanfiction #matty fic #gatty #keep it kind #once again feel free to continue ignoring these #this one is my least favorite so far #but i actually did it so im counting it as a win #i went back to work today #and am back home now #and so i am tired #i miss living in vacation land #i did get to see Pop for the first time in two weeks though so that was super exciting #usually he gives me the cold shoulder and ignores me because he's pissed that i left him #if im gone for more than 2-3 days #but i think i was gone for SO LONG this time he actually missed me #because he shoved his head into my arms and started nickering when he saw me #i may or may not have cried a little bit #i missed him so much #i cant believe my baby is going to be 17 this year #he's not allowed to be that old #my trainer was like... are you sure are you positive he's 17 this year #and i was like YES #like i have his breed registration papers and all his vet records he turns 17 this year #thankfully he is very healthy and doesn't act his age #but i worry #he needs to live forever

[eternal-brainrot]

finally finished this natsume animatic ive been working on for ages hehe

lyrics are in the subtitles since i couldnt fit them on the animatic itself!!

#natsume yuujinchou #natsume's book of friends #natsuyuu #natsume takashi #i may or may not have cried multiple times while making this from thinking about the episodes involving natsume before he came the fujiwaras #ive watched them sooo many times and yet they still GET TO ME ToT #someday I'll learn how to do basic video editting so i have less clunky and abrupt transitions but that day is not today lol #pasc's art tag #lowkey proud of this one hehe it matched my VISION

[baeshijima]

hes back again

u will get ur eepy time jing yuan dw 🫶🫶

#may the stars guide you <3 #also i will be ia for the rest of the day bc its currently 6:55 am and i have two exams today ;w; i finish at 4 pm 🐥 #cries im just glad my mum made me gimbap for my lunch bc i dont like the canteen food JHLKJDS

[kirishwima]

Havent posted my face here in a while ft The BOY

#just in case anyone thought im over ch 236 #i bought an even. BIGGER Gojo plushie after it. may or may not have cried onto said plushie #anyway i like my hair today so here. My Face #burrito talks #my face // #delete later

[gearstrider]

.

#i fucked up one of my most treasured relationships today #i couldnt have hurt them worse if i had tried to #i was just. careless and impulsive #and now they're probably out of my life for good #i am so fucking devastated #i cried on and off all day at work #i've apologized profusely ive explained why i said things the way i did #ive begged forgiveness and the chance to make things right somehow #i dont even know how i would do that given the chance #my one last iota of hope that things may be salvageable is that i havent been blocked yet #please for the love of god if anyone has any advice about how to #fix this #or somehow soothe the pain ive caused #please tell me #i dont know what to do #gear grinds

[peterlorres21stcentury]

they tell me I need to stop being so self-critical

me when others have period problems: oh it's okay! Accidents happen to everyone. Just take it easy, it's natural and nothing to be ashamed of 😊🌸

me when I have period problems: now look what you did, you gross sack of shit. No, why even bother changing your undies, you're just going to befoul them again in about five minutes. Oh, now you're crying? Good, cry harder, baby. I hope you're satisfied. Hey come back here I'm not finished with you--

#I am cruelest only to myself #I may or may not have cried in the bathroom 😭 #thank goodness I'm working from home today #periods #not much fun

[permanentreverie]

a moment of joy in days of tired darkness!!!

#i complain way too much here so sharing my triumphs <3 #(taking a page from songbird because i want to be more like her) #getting home from work today i was able to get ALL of my chores done!!! #i loooved having my friend stay with me for a week i truly needed the break and she’s such a blessing <3 #(we bought ‘soul sisters’ matching bracelets - hers gold and mine silver - and the statement couldn’t be more true 🥹) #but in that i let my room get VERY messy #and i was busing working yesterday and didn’t have time (literally cried on my way home because of how tired i was) #so i made it a goal to do everything tonight so tomorrow (my one day off) i may relax! #so i was able to clean my room; do two loads of laundry; wash my bedding; vacuum; water my plants; and tidy my bathroom!! #it may not sound like much but it was a MESS #also i did my nails cause they broke :( #so now they are VERY short (had to cut them) and i painted a few coats of clear nail polish so hopefully they won’t break #i have to get gas and get my oil changed and exchange some icecream tomorrow morning #but then i’m just gonna relax!!! #would like to change my themes but we shall see. i want to watch tv and read mostly #also i’m gonna stop in and book a hair appointment for next week!! #that’s right i’m gonna chop off my hair #it’s been years and i didn’t get it trimmed as it was growing out so i have lots of split and dead ends #and if i have to get it cut i may as well just go all the way yknow #i love having short hair and i’m lowkey excited #and i work 6 days after that but thankfully i booked myself for opening shifts which leaves my evenings free to myself which i really love

[yohankang]

hi besties <3 sorry for being so inactive lately but i've been busy acting insane irl

#turns out my actions (telling my father i want to change jobs in september) have consequences and uh. i will be changing jobs in MAY 💀 #and now i have to somehow tell my boss and coworkers that i'm quitting in a month + FIND A ROOM TO RENT. ASAP. WHEN I HAVE NO SAVINGS #and also move 450km away and get acquainted with a new job before my finals lmao. this is fine. i only cried 2 times today #how did i even end up here. #tomorrow i need to send an email and make a phonecall so you all better keep your fingers crossed!! #k.txt #before my finals start*

[lady-stormbraver]

hey!!

your work MATTERS.

you show up every day and you care so much and you give so much of your time and energy, and that MATTERS.

it matters so much!!!

even if you get no recognition.

even if you get snubbed.

even if you can’t see the fruition of months and months of trying.

even if you’re feeling stretched so thin you wonder if you’ve helped anyone at all.

even if you’re second-guessing the way you handled one thing or another.

CONTINUE!!!

because you have inherent value and you bring something unique and new to the table and you are seen even when you do not feel it.

and resilience shines brightest not in the mountaintops but in the valleys.

so take a deep breath. take a mental health break. talk to the people who will uplift you, and hold their words close to your chest like priceless treasures. hold them up to the light when you begin to doubt yourself again.

and continue!!!!

your work matters even today, even here.

i see you. you’re doing great, lovely. keep going.

#I got some MUCH needed encouragement from two of my teammates today #(and may or may not have cried on one of them but it’s fineee) #so I figured I would send the same out to whoever needs to hear it #you are SEEN and you are VALUED even and especially when you don’t see it 🤍🤍🤍 #keep fighting the good fight and doing the hard work #we’ll make it. we WILL. #mental health #be kind to yourself

[orcelito]

I've gone through a character arc today. I'm... better(?) now

#speculation nation #animal death ment/ #turns out shoving all my grief down and refusing to process it in fear of experiencing negative emotions is detrimental to me #i just went through all my pictures of cassy. experienced again what a loverboy he was... #cried again. twice. miserable experience honestly. i dont know how people do this more than a few times a year. #i have a few videos of him. including him watching a bird video on my computer. #unfortunately i never did capture his meow. which breaks my heart but there's nothing i can do about it now. #i'll just have to hold that sound in my memory. his obnoxious 'mraaaa' that could get comically long when he was begging for food #it hurts. but i'm allowed to remember that i loved him. i'm allowed to remember what he was to me. #an obnoxiously bullheaded cat that was strangely skittish at the same time. #it was annoying at the time but i treasure the memory of when he got out of my apartment unit #and i went chasing him up and down the stairs of the central area several times yelling 'cassy get BACK here!' #as he loudly did his 'MRAAAA' the whole time as he ran from me #my baby boy. tally loved him too. it hurts my heart that i cant communicate to her what happened. #no wonder she hates june bug so much. her friend disappeared & then a few weeks later theres This weird new cat #hopefully in time she can be friends with june bug too. there was a solid month or two where she haaaated cassy lmao #before a switch was flipped and she was grooming him every time he sat in front of her. #cassy may have lived for too short of a time. but he was very very loved. and i can see that in the records of him. #he was purring for me in the end. my sweet loverboy... #... i was going to try writing before work today but it seems like it's a grief processing day. #oh well. it's probably better for me overall. #negative/ #sure. i guess.

[baeshijima]

tl 40... how.... what...?

aha...

...ha...

:D

#omg a convo !? #nonnies !! #may the stars guide you <3 #the only reason im close to tl 41 is bc i beat simulated universe world 5 earlier #el oh el tl 41 tmrw unless i beat world 6 today which i wont 🤩 #but anyway also thanking su bc without it i wouldnt have reached 155 special passes 🫶 all for luocha blade dan heng il jingliu and andjksh #cries theres too many charas i want and im skipping jing yuan for luocha too 😔 #stares at his rerun tho

[bsaka7]

please tell me why i thought it was a good idea to schedule my Arabic lesson at 6am tomorrow

#It's cuz I hadn't had one in a month and I was like shit. So I scheduled a bunch at once. And I work at 8 #Also because I think I'll be up early bc im stressed about the divorce hearing cuz my mom like cried about it on the phone #Cuz my dad has a new gf #So I figure it's a way to put off my emotional turmoil #AND THEN I can go to work have a 2hr mtg open and then it's time for usa vs Iran. Baller. #Also please remember this is MY Sunday night and Sunday nights suck so I'm allowed to be emo #Maybe will rb an ask game maybe will clean up my pierresteban mermaid au notfic from earlier.... #oh also I swam laps for 1hr today. So I am WIPED!!! I had not swum since may