#i may not show it yet i’m literally feeling insane ❤️ in the worst ways

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wait it’s the perfect amount of quiet on here that means i can overshare freely because no one cares

#i’m getting a therapist soon #which is really big for me #i’ve mentioned before how my parents basically eat up the stigma of therapy #primarily my mom who’s a nurse - ironic i know #but i kind of reached my breaking point #not kind of. i did this week #i may not show it yet i’m literally feeling insane ❤️ in the worst ways #so it led them to being okay with it telling me i have to do what i have to do #and it feels really... nice? that they took it well minus the obvious concern #but also very weird since now they know how i’m feeling partially #and also weird that i finally am fully acknowledging i haven’t been myself in awhile #the awareness is frightening because it makes it more real i guess #i’m just proud of myself though #it was really nerve wracking to even think about bringing therapy up #the last few times i have ended up in arguments #i just need it now the most #esp because zoom university is killing me more than i thought it would #plus we never talk about these things so opening up a tad wasn’t chill either #would love to go back to the person who was always positive i hate being so... whiny ;/ #and feeling like the entire universe is working against me ;/ #i managed my stress and mental health better before all of this now everything is out of my control and i hate it sort of thing but ya #thanks for coming to my ted talk #also side note emailing for consultations or waitlists makes me feel like A Real Adult ;/