#i mean at least i know the problem now

[iwasbored777]

The most beautiful thing in the entire Trolls franchise will always be Branch's character in the first movie when he wanted Poppy to understand that life isn't as perfect as she thinks but when she got betrayed and hurt and lost all hope he did everything to make her happy again because he wanted her to understand the pain but not experience it because she didn't deserve that and he didn't think that others have to suffer because he did.

#i know so many people who would look at her crying and say your problems are not that bad mine were worse she literally thought her kingdom #will be cooked alive #she got betrayed by a person she trusted and for whom she risked her life #she learned that some people never change #and no one knew what to do #but branch knew he had to heal her emotional damage first and let her know that he's there for her #so many people would tell her i told you so lol i was right you were wrong at least now you understand but he knew that she deserves better #because she didn't mean any harm #and because it's not her fault that he suffered #this is so important to show #because so many people want others to suffer too just because they did #so many people want to see optimists with broken spirits because life is bad #yes it is but don't hurt innocent person for something that has happened to you years ago #the writers understood the assignment #the writers fucking understood the assignment #and she loves him so much for it #trolls movie #trolls 2016 #trolls branch #branch #Poppy #trolls poppy #trolls band together #trolls world tour #trolls holiday in harmony #trolls holiday #Broppy

[silenthillbunni]

🏥🦷

#damn my teeth on my left side reallyyyyy fkn hurt #last night it started hurting so bad i couldnt fall asleep #i took some regular over the counter pain pills nd they brought down the pain a bit #so it at least didnt hurt as bad as it did first #but now after sleeping a few hours it still hurts :// #idk what to do... bc i've googled but it is like impossible for me to know what this is. could be anything rlly #nd w physical health stuff im not as terrified bc i can just go to the ER. when i was there it only cost $15 lol #but dental care is so fkn expensive i dont even have that in my account #anyway. i could get an 'urgent appointment' which i get financial aid for... probably. thats the thing. it's not 100% certain #idk what i should do bc like i could wait it out nd see if it'll pass nd then wait on my appt the 6th may #or maybe i should call my dentists nd ask them what they think nd if they can give me an urgent appt.. #i hate calling tho. i know that sounds ridiculous esp when im dealing w pain but my avpd makes it so so hard for me. i'd almost rather not #if i was smart nd normal thats what i would do. just call them nd see what they decide for me. maybe i'll wait nd see nd call tmrw.... #nd idk abt the pain. like it rlly hurts but it isnt extreme i think.. but when i press one tooth it hurts a lot nd makes me worried it's #dying 💀 nd like u can actually die from teeth pain nd complications... nd infections nd stuff. it's scary af 😭 #idk if my tooth is dying nd i need to contact a dentist rn or if its smth that can wait for a bit #i mean if i had a job nd a salary i'd book an appt for tmrw nd get it checked but i have to discuss w myself bc i cant afford lol #ugh this is the reason im terrified of dental problems. the pain is awful nd theres nothing u can do if you're poor #my head keeps spinning idk what i should do abt this 😭 i csnt make up my mind. just want it to go away on its own but i know it wont #nd it hurts so that i can barely sleep or eat or concentrate. so i rlly dont know..... #oh if only things were easy

[gibbearish]

kinda frustrating how we've spent the last few months acknowledging how a lot of well intentioned but guilt trippy social justice posts are like specifically designed to worm into ocd ppls brains and then now every single post abt palestine is "i dont care how bad your mental health is, i dont care how bad looking at all this makes you feel, if you don't read every single post you see on this topic in full you are a horrible person and directly contributing to their deaths. 'waaaah my mental health' well at least youre not being bombed, did you think about that??" and its like. i absolutely get where youre coming from but you dont get to complain that guilt tripping is bad then turn around and use it anyways because you think the cause youre using it for is worthwhile. like. everyone thinks the cause theyre using it for is worthwhile, thats why theyre using it. but its still a shit way to do it

#like when you make a tumblr post to your tumblr blog youre not guilt tripping people who disagree with you #youre guilt tripping your followers who if theyre still following you probably already agree with what youre saying #and esp on a topic with so much brutality involved like. yeah OBVIOUSLY theres people who have to look away #like. yall know a bunch of these posts and articles and videos show graphic injuries in them right? #like i physically cant watch news videos abt this bc i will spend days with my brain making me imagine #peoples deaths in graphic detail specifically because it knows that will upset me. and i would prefer not to do that #in fact me doing that helps palestinians exactly as much as finishing my brussel sprouts helps starving kids #by which i mean none. its just a cheap guilt trip to get you to do something you don't want to #which when it's brussel sprouts thats whatever but when its 'deliberately expose yourself to extremely triggering #things otherwise youre a bad person'. not so much #idk i feel like maybe its due to ppl feeling. agitated abt not being able to do anything abt it #like the government isnt listening and we're a world away so physically /all/ we can do really is sit and watch #so i can understand a) wanting to find someone to lash out at to alleviate that feeling #like if you cant stop the actual problem at the very least you can shout down the people supporting it right? #and b) seeing 'not watching' or even just 'not watching as closely as i am' as a transgression #bc well its all we can do so if youre not even doing that you must be bad #and its like. i really do get it. but the whole world is watching right now‚ like this is THE big news thing happening rn #so a few people choosing to avoid to subject will not make a single iota of difference #idk. i guess what im saying is if youre feeling the urge to yell at someone for not looking close enough #just donate some money to a support fund instead itll do a lot more

[bereft-of-frogs]

it is kind of funny writing commentary in fics about the differences between Cal and Cere's fighting styles when Cal's fighting style is....technically dependent on how good of a gamer you are and I am a Bad gamer XD 'Cal over-relies on a few key practiced moves, while Cere is more fluid, natural' yeah because there was actual fight choreography involved in Cere's fight in Fallen Order, and not just me button-mashing and doing the same thing over and over in the hopes it actually works this time XD

like I think it works thematically and idk this paragraph might end up getting cut, but it is just kind of funny to be like, trying to reflect on canon and how to describe it and then having to be like 'well…that might be on me...'

#my poor skills should not reflect on Cal...but in this case they do haha #sorry Cal my bad #it works tho so I'm keeping the description (for now) #writing problems #specifically fallen order writing problems #also i mean i know you briefly play from Cere's POV in survivor so I'd probably have the same button mashing style problem XD #but i think it does work at least with the comparison in Fallen Order between Cere fighting at the end and player-as-Cal #and generally the difference between someone who might be out of practice but was a master and a half-trained teenager #but yeah file this alongside that post i made years ago like #'i've had cal for five minutes and if anyone hurt him...' but the one hurting him is me being bad at video games #and falling off of things #i think i am improving someone i have SOME strategy now i'm not just slowing and then striking until they un-slow rinse and repeat

[munamania]

ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

#and now we're gonna get into some quiet parts and youre just gonna let me have this #i. am so sick. first of all it was kinda funny how people ik ended up sorta surrounding her. felt good. but like we've shared a space #together since everything. i can like be in her presence it's seriously fine. that said. i do sometimes miss her #i say this after going through the really hating her guts period bc of her evil evil evil ways. and feeling like she's lame as hell bc she #s. but i mean it's me talking i have my problems too. i Hate the way we always so naturally act in sync. and i hate that we've both picked #each others' brains for hours so it's like. i knew you once and now we can't even look each other in the eye and that just really sucks #and i feel like. not that i strictly believe in these things. but we were sort of twin flames. i largely suffered for like. basically #falling in love w her. and i know i didn't leave as much of a mark. but i still hope it sucked a little for her #and i'll admit i think it'd be some sort of miracle if we could ever talk civilly. unfortunately we work in two ways #literally behaving in Ways and borderline fucking or not speaking. so. here we are #and i already humiliatingly tried to extend an olive branch this summer so im not gonna be fucking stupid. yk #but GOD how annoying. i did talk to situationship today and we were relatively normal so at least that's not deathly awkward #it's still. definitely um. stiff. but not terrible #i need to get to the club. pretend theres a cig emoji im on desktop rn #sorry for this. #film girl saga

[rogersstevie]

this season of ted lasso saying sam should forgive racists who vandalized the restaurant and  then you know, dropping anything to do with that storyline immediately afterwards

and the saying jamie should forgive his abusive father bc hating him apparently isn’t good for him or whatever

doesn’t feel great tbh

#ted lasso #like yes absolutely tbf for some people spending that energy hating their abuser doesn't work #and they ultimately decide to forgive for themselves which i get is what they were advocating for #in his and ted's convo #but it's also like i don't even think jamie HAS had a lot of hatred bc so much of the time has been trying to prove himself to his father #and with sam they had that weird bit like 'oh we'll keep the broken mirrors bc it doesn't have to be perfect' #bc he was so concerned about everything being just right with the restaurant like...this was not that #could've kept the mirrors sure but not comparing it to the issue from earlier like....it was intended to be a violent attack #and then ya know. just never mentioned again all wrapped up apparently bc he chose to let it go #which hey they can absolutely go the route of sam choosing to let it go but that doesn't mean the problem is gonna go away #it's just like the whole thing i get forgiveness is a big part of the show but these are two things that i just don't love to see #though at least with jamie they've dedicated a good amount of the show to that particular issue and it's not so with sam #and they gave so much to colin's story line?? which has been pretty well done ofc but they were really like #sam gets a single episode and it's all wrapped up in the end bye like WHAT #ik with so many characters they can't devote the same amount of time to everyone but like....they should've done better for sam #and now there's only one ep left so ya know. i thought they might come back to it but they did not

[navramanan]

Isnt it crazy how yes, my liberation notes makes me feel seen in some parts, it also makes me want to die for the things that i dont have compared to the characters

#with that i specifically mean friends #is that really the one thing that will set me apart from everyone? #people will have relationship problems money problems job problems family problems #and all of them have friends. is it bc there really is no end in sight for any problem when you dont have friends? #i dont have anyone to talk to every evening about how my life is if i wanted to #sometimes i want to get it all out anyway and write it down somewhere #or on the very very rare occassion snap a friend. but i always feel like a left over person by doing that #i feel as if i'm so so desperate to talk to someone #lately i've been feeling lost in that gap i feel in my life #i have stopped hoping there's an end to this #at least for now i've stopped hoping. i hoped and tried and failed for so long i feel exhausted #i dont want to expect anything. bc then nothing comes out of it anyways and i feel awful just horrible. more than i would without expectatio #i dont know what's worse. to keep trying and hoping or to keep wandering around in that gap feeling lost #nesi rants

[leatherforhell]

mornin’

sending my love out to all of u

#I am still suffering but I’m getting better 💕 the good thing is that I know #that even if I don’t feel up to writing for a while #at the very least I’ll be back in November bc my vacation is at the end of October #which means I’ll have time to sleep and recuperate and be happy about things #bc right now my problem is not a lack of motivation or muse but a lack of energy #like I’m just kind of miserable rn bc of irl stuff and also not sleeping much for similar reasons #but when I fix that I’ll be sorted #ooc.

[chennnington]

It's kinda pathetic how I just googled "how to call in sick" cause I have never done this in my entire life. What do I say? How hard will the doctor judge me? Will she agree that I'm sick enough? Do I just go "okay" and go back home to my desk and work if she thinks I'm fine? And even if she agrees I'm sick enough, is there any paperwork? Do I have to make any additional phone calls? Won't it be easier to just work instead of trying to figure this out?

#by now I think I know how things work and I have some coworkers I can ask who won't laugh at me #my main issue is that it'd feel like lying #I mean sure I cry at work every day or feel paralyzed and I have some physical stuff going on that may be the result of stress #but I'm also alive and breathing and my job is just being on the computer and reading and typing #you can pretty much always do that unless you're in a coma #and a doctor is mainly focused on physical health. maybe they have the same opinion on mental health as the external dude? #like 'we all have problems. deal with them yourself and don't bring them into work cause that affects the entire team' #I guess you could call 'pull yourself together' my life motto cause I've heard that from so many people for my entire life #and as they say: if you have the same problem everywhere then you might be the problem #I guess I just have to try harder instead of whining and running away #I always sucked at running anyway #and I have an entire weekend to beat myself back into shape for the next week #haha actually I have a sword seminar and tournament on Sunday so others will do the beating up #unfortunately it's unlikely that I'll suffer any serious injuries that'll put me in hospital #but maybe breaking a few fingers would be enough for a short break? #cause with my lack of proper gloves that's not impossible #but then again I once broke my hand and it didn't count as being sick and I just kept attending my college lessons #maybe if they break all my fingers so I can't type. but that's unlikely and takes at least two hits I think

[unproduciblesmackdown]

truly something that, amidst facing / going through a dramatic Life Change ft. unavoidable emotional effects of that, there are instances where i can't conceal any & all degrees of being distressed / upset, & repeatedly getting "it's hard for me too" as a Direct Response to that: really something & a half how the asserted theoretical Sympathy of [i feel similarly!] is invoked so as to, oh you know, preclude sympathetic Treatment. such as that what would be More sympathetic in these instances would be to say Nothing, "if there's nothing but dismissal / making it first & foremost about someone else's feelings to say, don't say it at all" style

#reading also that original Lovelessness essay ''love is meant to make me human / love is also the mechanism by which my humanity #has been denied'' always preferring to have [sorry! couldn't fully bottle up this Emotiona externally manifesting at all!] Ignored rather #than ''nicely'' interacted with so as to Invalidate; Dismiss; someone's annoyed at you for having it; etc #for bonus context like we are not in the same boat with it. #not a case of ''the same situation; mine is worse though'' like no; fundamentally different situations here lmao. mine is worse #If You Feel So Bad. Or At All. then at least now do me the favor of Not Saying That; Repeatedly #their feelings put on me too in other ways. stewing resentment into lashing out; tossing out ''but i'm justified'' like ok! Your business!! #the ol like. If You're Going To Do Something Anyways then how you justify it to yourself is Your business / b/w you & your god as they say #& the last thing to do is be making it the problem of ppl Most Affected by what you're gonna do anyways & Also ask their Absolution..... #like if you need more moral support abt What You're Doing Anyways: turn to Anyone Else. even No One if you have to. #bit going tf through it when it's spilling over into Posting but such is life!! we all have that [the horrors. girl help] blogger on dash #again the tl;dr like oh you don't say. the [umm but have you considered? My Feelings! (they're so sympathetic at all. yor welcome)] is #the mechanism through which Really basic sympathy is being denied & replaced with [Saying Nothing would've been less hurtful] #misgendering me the other night too while Also all 'hey I'm trying to talk to the customer service. why are You going up & talking first' #(that was me experiencing the latter. i didn't say it but i was like cmon. my glasses are fogging up w/surgical mask (don't have access to #more effective masks so doing what Nonzero i can there) i'm a bit carsick i'm weathering a crisis. can i have anything here lol) #just Oh You Know. The Horrors.... #balancing ofc trying to endure trying to self soothe etc etc. with ''it's the horrors. it's gonna be horrific & you're gonna be affected'' #ah the [being kind to oneself] like also means knowing how reasonable it is to Not solo contain & endure & Cope Through everything.... #crushing a paper cup in my hands genuinely i would like to generously thank my virtual allies out here today. mic feedback #irl In Real Life? life is Real asf here & nobody Realer than them

[cienie-isengardu]

I don't want you to get upset," Vau said, "but Fi's not as you remember him." Etain nodded gravely as they waited for Aay'han to land. Vau wasn't sure if an emotional shock was a good idea for a pregnant woman so close to term, but he had Rav Bralor here if any of that female stuff needed attending to. Mird followed Etain around, staring fascinated at her belly. "He's still Fi, and I think I understand post-coma recovery now," Etain said. "You have no idea how much medical literature I've read recently. But Mird's worrying me." Bralor flicked her thumbnail against the butt of her blaster, making Mird whip its head around to stare balefully at her. "And I can worry Mird. Can't I, my little stinkweed?" Vau felt the need to defend his comrade. "Strills have very acute senses, remember. It knows the baby's coming soon." "As in snack opportunity?" "As in parenting, Rav. Mird is hermaphroditic, remember. It's capable of being a mother, too, and you know how female animals will mother anything." "Even you, Walon ..."

Republic Commando: True Colors

#star wars #republic commando #etain tur mukan #mird #walon vau #rav bralor #OKAY LISTEN BOTH KAL AND VAU HAS SHITTY TAKE ON PREGNANCY AND PUTTING ALL FEMALE PROBLEMS ON RAV #BUT VAU IS STILL BETTER IN THE SENSE HE PRESUMBLY HAS ZERO EXPERIENCES IN THAT MATTER (no children no wife etc) #AND HE IS STILL BETTER THAN SKIRATA'S PREGNANT WOMEN ARE CRANKY SHIT WHEN HE GOT INFO THAT ETAIN ALMOST LOST UNBORN KID #i mean vau worrying that emotional shock may not be the best for etain right now and be glad to have rav around so there will be #at least one person knowing what to do is quite a lot for a man that has zero reasons to care (etain is jedi and kid is her and darman #so vau doesn't need be involved but he is still worrying about her) #like it is clear he is out of his depth when it comes to the female stuff (lol) #but he is clearly trying to be nice and supportive to etain #but also rav #RAV's sass and the even you walon #haha but we know the truth vau is mothering the strill XD #but also i wonder #if strills have this strong need to mother babies - even human babies #shouldn't mird be very protective of small clone cadets? #which make me wonder more why mird would attack ordo on vau's order like it happened according to triple zero? #unless ordo was much older but then if mird mother lil clones would strill see them differently than its own pack? #like i'm kinda furious this thing about strills come in true colors when triple zero was putting vau and mird in such abusive (cruel) act #against ordo / clone #gimme protective mird mothering lil delta squad and atin good damn

[hella1975]

by pure evil accident taob zuko's current mental state is the exact same as the one ive been stuck in for the past few weeks and that's a bit funny to me. like i started writing this chapter months ago and knew what i was doing with it even longer ago and suddenly ive manifested it into reality. we are both facing the horrors rn

#when the angry character finally learns to acknowledge their rage not as its own problem but as a coping mechanism to the problem #& faces at once the relief of finding the source of all this anger & the horror of realising that the anger itself was never the final boss #and it leaves them in a depressive state where they actually MISS the anger because at least that was active and - in a sense - dignified #whereas this just feels stilted and mopey and like each day is passing and you're losing time doing nothing #but you cant shake it anyway and wow im no longer talking about zuko!!!! we stay embarassing ourselves over taob!!!! #like i realised just now while staring off into space stirring my tea that the reason this particular depressive episode has hit me so hard #(aside the fact it's been a pretty extreme one and my paranoia has rlly flared up to the point ive felt honest to god CRAZY lately haha) #is because it's so DIFFERENT to how i usually respond to feeling like this #like normally my temper gets very quick and i completely isolate and i get mean and sharp #and i convince myself that everyone is out to get me and/or hates me and therefore i must manipulate everyone in my life #and ofc NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE A GOOD RESPONSE. I AM NOT PROUD OF THEM #THEY ARE ALSO NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS HOW I USED TO BE HENCE I KNOW I AM GETTING BETTER #SLOWLY PAINFULLY WITH MY NAILS DIGGING IN THE DIRT BUT I AM GETTING BETTER ALL THE SAME #but STILL despite how awful those things are they're also very external. like i hurt the people around me in order to protect myself #and there's a dignity to that. there's more control there even if ultimately it's a lack of control causing it #like i have some fucked opinions from my upbringing and ik that like im quite a selfish person and it's bc i was raised to truly believe #that hurting others is always optimal over letting myself be seen as weak. like if my options are to hurt someone even someone i love #or let myself be vulnerable then sometimes i STILL will pick the former (it used to be all the time though <3 progress is progress) #and anger has always been sold to me as a very dignified STRONG emotion and it's how you're SUPPOSED to respond to badness #otherwise you're weak and a baby and pathetic etc etc #and just bc you know something is wrong doesnt mean you didnt internalise the fuck out of it anyway #like i will always see anger as the 'dignified' emotion and unlearning it regardless of that has been one of the hardest things ive done #('wow hella your own journey with mental illness is the literal exact same as taob zuko's-' i will hospitalise the both of us) #whereas currently ive just been sad and pathetic and oversharing to anyone who will listen and desperate for someone to look at me #and be like 'you're not okay' and to fix it FOR ME. like im not ANGRY im SAD and im not used to that response #AND GUESS WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS THIS CHAPTER BY PURE FUCKING COINCIDENCE?? LITERALLY WHAT #like it's been happening for a few chapters that we're finally moving from anger to sadness on my unofficial healing chart #ever since zuko's outburst with hakoda when zi se had that tantrum #but this is the first time we see Sad Coping Mechanism as a response to a problem instead of Angry Coping Mechanism #taob updates

[bread-of-death]

Whelp. I just emailed the Dean.

#bread hates college now I guess #if you see this without seeing the post I made the other day #basically I was wrongly dropped from an online course #I don’t know if it’s a mistake or if the professor is just a dick #but I got dropped from the course and it’s a required credit for me #the main problem has to do with financial aid I was receiving #it only applied to this semester and we have been sternly informed that it will not carry over to the next semester #so if I have to take the class or an equivalent again #that could be a minor problem #I mean money isn’t an issue- but like- if I were someone else and it *was* #what the fuck then #are they just gonna say ‘tough luck’ like ??? c’mon dude #cuz I don’t want to take this course or this professor now- and I certainly won’t be doing it this semester #it was already a compressed course- 15 weeks down to 10 #and this is setting me back by at least one week- probably more like three #so I could very easily be failing with no chance of regaining footing if I get put back into the course #and that’s if I do amazing on all the work- which I realistically know I won’t and can’t #so I’m going to take a different course that satisfies the requirement next semester instead of this semester #but the problem there is that I’m almost certain that the financial aid won’t transfer #and that’s a huge pain in the ass and also entirely *wrong* #cuz like- what if I really did need that money? #and they dropped me from a course I need to graduate- without ever contacting me personally about dropping me from the course- after I had- #-already shown participation in said course #so like.. b r u h. #at the very least. they could’ve talked to me directly about what the issue was #cuz at this point I don’t even know what the problem is #anyways #I’m frustrated and tired

[themyscirah]

Philippus? Wym philippus this is a wholeass other woman?????? She's white?????? Guys come on now

ALSO cursed white Euboea in this same sequence.... homeboy she's Asian please stop

Joe Phillips I'm sorry but this is some shitty ass guest pencilling how can you not know anything abt what these people look like thats literally your job... you also just needed to read the issue before this to know?

Editors should have caught this one these are major Amazon characters

#also i did a quick wiki check for one thing and basically confirmed that i was right about this entire arc so i win i guess 💪💪💪💪 #like “the amazons are starting some crazy murder shit!” are they really now. which amazons may i ask? are you sure its not the bana- #oh yep its the baba mighdall. well then. TOTALLY didnt see this coming (said w love) #i mean its like maybe im being perceptive but they literally showed two of them in their armor and had one say phthia aka one of the #founders of the bana. like okay i had to do a wiki to check that and obvi id know slightly more than a pérez run reader abt them #(but not much honestly ive read the same stuff they wouldve just plus some fandom osmosis/knowing who artemis is) but i digress. do think he #maybe could have put showing them off but i understand the motive of not wanting readers to go months thinking the amazons were chopping #ppls heads off. but they could have teased the mind control red herring (probably? think it was a red herring although it could pop back up #the arc is still ongoing) a little bit more considering weve had dr psycho starting shit for the past 4 (at LEAST) issues but well whatever #anyways the pencilling on this one needed help like its not even a coloring issue at the core of it its legit this guest guy drawing #totally different people... very lame #anyways maybe im too quick to blame it all on the bana i am only halfway through the arc #like i do think it is the bana. i think thats the answer. but again dr psycho IS causing problems and theres been hints of the cheetah being #involved (“animal attack” killings + a shot of her in arkham) AND circe was namedropped (although now we know it was dr psycho) but im still #slightly suspicious bc there seems to be possesed animals... like they are v much laying different hints and pathways here #but i think its the bana. i think its psycho fucking around and also the bana and MAYBE a psycho controlled cheetah or the bana mimicing her #patterns. or are the bana even there if psychos involved??? he could just be fucking around then- okay you know what. maybe im less sure of #this than i thought and should just read more. wait but how would psycho even know about the bana to have ppl hallucinate hed just use the #themyscirans-- okay i need to read more im getting distracted. the bana are definitely involved though im calling it. its them and maybe #psycho. and maybe cheetah. and maybe circe but likely not bc we already established that was a false lead. unless that was also a trick. and #WHAT ABT ARES ALL THE STOLEN ARTIFACTS HAD TO DO WITH WAR-- #.... guys im losing it. fuck it im saying its all giganta and calling it a day i cant do this #no but i love how this mystery is set up its like they just dropped clues for every single ww villain onto it and said “here. good luck.” #this is before the big ww crossover too so it could actually be all of them im losing my mind here. WHO IS IT #ive twisted myself in a circle here i dont know anything now. only that i did call it if it was the bana. or if theres mind control or smth #sus about heracles cup. i also called that although its seeming less and less likely now that the bana and psycho are likely involved. and #maybe cheetah. and circe. and ares. guys im falling apart here #what was the point of this post then? oh shitty guest pencilling and editor flops. the editor flop part i can understand im sure they were #busy even if this is a big thing to miss imo. the penciller though is just silly come on now. someone should have caught that. anyways-- #swishy liveblogs

[marley-manson]

I think writing fic is mostly making stuff up, even the most canon compliant fic is technically made up and therefore not canon in the traditional sense. And with that logic all fic is made up, and I release you to go wild in your fanfic writing dreams.

Yeah like I definitely agree, it's all just a case of degrees of separation from canon - unless you're writing for the show you're not writing truly canon fic, and even some of the show writers kinda fail at canon compliance lmao.

But tbf different people have different limits for how far they'll go and in what circumstances, and we all have our different preferences in terms of canon compliance (and our own different interpretations of canon to comply to, for that matter. Like straight Hawkeye is technically more canon compliant in terms of creator intent lol but you won't catch me reading anything where Hawkeye is straight.)

So yeah, everyone should definitely write whatever fic they want regardless of canon! But I do have my own personal limits in terms of what lines I want to cross, what's more flexible vs what I can't change without losing interest, even if it's in service to an otherwise interesting scenario.

Like to put my preferences another way, I would be more inclined to write magical AU dubcon featuring a love potion or smthn as a way to facilitate trainwreck Hawk/BJ/Peg, than I would, say, write Hawkeye agreeing to that triad because he's naive enough to think it's actually a good idea, or he loves BJ so much that he'll accept an unbalanced relationship, or he doesn't think he deserves better, etc. That's not My Hawkeye.

(Actually tbf the one non-AU way I think it could work is leaning into Hawkeye quitting his career post-canon in passive giving-up-on-everything depression, maybe his dad dying to make it even worse, and BJ innocently taking advantage, believing he's taking care of him and helping Hawkeye recover when really he's just emotionally manipulating him into becoming his second wife and giving up on his career forever.)

(Or maybe if Hawkeye lost his license...? Alcoholism, or being outed could do it easily. I feel like that could destroy him enough that he'd just cling to anything anyone offered. At least for a while.)

#the problem there however is that passive depressed hawkeye sounds boring as hell to write lol #also a little too dark at least for this particular scenario. i want dumb relationship mistakes that blow up more than misery ever after #text post #marley on mash #like what i really want is bj proposing the triad thing and hawk and peg both being on board and bj being unable to handle it #and i just don't see hawkeye not going in knowing it'll either be a bj has 2 faithful wives situation which i don't think he'd be ok with #or bj is lying about being able to handle hawkeye and peg either fucking each other or others on the side #unfortunately hawkeye is pretty emotionally intelligent #he's optimistic but not blind. i mean mmmmmmaybe bj just makes a very convincing case? maybe? hmmm #maybe that AND his dad just died or he broke up with someone so he wants to make a change and start fresh... #lmao ty for bringing this up again anon and making me think more about it #at the very least i now have more weird beejhawk ideas

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i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there

#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru #but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days #and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay! #and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing #i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail #i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time #not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me #im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me #anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early #i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great #and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most #expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth #but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans #but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated #about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like #u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends #w yall. things happen #abby talks #and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw #a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes #OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it #was years ago but also like christ!