#i mean it was a super shitty thing to do

[ladystardust-thinks]

This is so random but do you think there were teenage girls, peak young coriolanus snow era, living at the Capitol and going “Unpopular opinion, but president snow is kinda fine ngl.”

Brainrot I KNOW but it IS confirmed that there were fangirls. I mean his granddaughter was fangirling over katniss in THG, it wouldn’t surprise me is all I’m saying. I think he would be at least UP THERE in the celebrity crushes att.

#it’s 2 in the morning #I have to sleep #this is so fucking dumb #the panemdro pascal?? #ok i’ll shut up now #i’m sorry #i’m just a girl #I mean they didn’t know the shitty things he did #he was supposed to be super liked #so idk do what you want with that #coriolanus snow #corio snow #the hunger games #the hunger games ballad of songbirds and snakes #tbosas #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #brainrot

[thompsborn]

i know i’ve said that being able to do the stereotypical insane ao3 authors notes is fun and amusing to me but can the universe NOT take that as a challenge to add more shit to my list of things to add next time i post ???? like. fucking. Calm Down Please.

#situations keep happening and i am TIRED #had to restrain a kid at work today which was AWFUL but he was trying to run into the road so i literally had to #almost cried bc of it but got the situation under control #but then when on my way to meet w coworkers to carpool to a meeting #my tire popped #super fun times super awesome super great #i mean my mom helped and we got it all fixed and handled #but basically from noon to like 6pm my mom and i were dealing w it bc everything had to be COMPLICATED #so i only just got home like 45 mins ago ish and i am SO tired holy fuck #but im eating left over orange chicken and then gonna shower and then just gonna be lazy and read and maybe write #if i have the brain power i will work on hb chp17 #but i also have a 4 hour training for work tomorrow so yeehaw #its 12:30-4:30 which isnt that bad but still #im also going to my dads afterwards to stay the night and visit him and my siblings #which is a good thing dont get me wrong i love visiting them #it just means i wont have a lot of freetime this weekend to work on writing and cleaning and stuff #not the end of the world and definitely worth it to see my dad and my baby siblings #but i wish it was a 3 day weekend so i could also have a day to just stay home and do things that i havent had the time to do yk #oh well. tis life. adulthood. having to handle situations and finding the best out of shitty circumstances. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[munamania]

i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there

#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru #but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days #and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay! #and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing #i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail #i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time #not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me #im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me #anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early #i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great #and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most #expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth #but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans #but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated #about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like #u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends #w yall. things happen #abby talks #and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw #a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes #OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it #was years ago but also like christ!

[resplendentgoldenwings]

#killing stalking #sangwoo #yoon bum #the whole thing is fucked up but this annoyed me immensely #like i felt sorry for bum but he legit murdered that one chick and like lied to the police and all kinda shit #i mean i kinda get he didn't like being compared to a woman and that is weird but dude you're so far past weird #he was okay with all that fuck shit Sangwoo was doing but that's the thing that put him off #like priorities #like 3 people get murdered and you're ok with that as long as you can have your happy little romance #but as soon as your shitty fucked up romance gets one little weird thing in it you're disgusted #I know I'm super late but i had to make this

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread    

The Surviving Sky

adult scifi/fantasy about a fracturing married couple who live with the last of humanity on a floating city powered by arcane science

Iravan is a privileged and powerful architect, who keeps them afloat with his plant magic

Ahilya has no magic - and is deeply interested in studying the magical megafauna which are the only thing that can survive the cataclysmic jungle on the ground

#The Surviving Sky #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #ok concept; vibes; immaculate #(also they're yaksha not megafauna but. for context that's not an innacurate description) #it didn't Quite go in ways i wanted in some ways #me at the dudes first POV: bro what are you ON ABOUT #fr tho the description of how the plant magic works is super interesting. it's all like. idk reaching into the quantam universe and changing #the way things Exist. or something. it all sounds very complicated #one thing that kinda bugged me is how it seems to be like. there is no (non-plant) life on earth at all and im like??? #there’s no way there’s NO life on earth???? ya heard of bugs????? the concept of a jungle existing with nothing survivng except megafauna #doesn’t make sense to me… i mean it is all very magical plants and tbh them saying there's nothing else doesn't mean that's true #however i couldn't stop thinking about it #I do feel like it keeps having the dude do something terrible that she should leave him before. and then explaining why it wasn’t that bad / #he had no choice….when she doesn't really do anything bad to him back........idk. i mean we're aware he's pretty shitty but also? #DIVORCE HIMMMMMMM #i understand the plot couldn;t have gone in the way it did if she did but also DIVORCE HIMMMMM #regardless i do think the concept and worldbuilding is all very cool and im sure i'll pick up the next one

[heloflor]

You know, considering that new untitled Peach game is a bit like Luigi’s Mansion with how it puts a Mario character in a new environment with new game mechanics, I’m kinda hoping Peach gets her own original villain the same way Luigi was given King Boo.

Hell, with Super Mario RPG coming back, which has many original characters, and with the characters from the Peach teaser being something other than Toads, it seems Nintendo might be willing to dip their toes into original characters again. So what’s better to start making new characters than by giving Peach her own bad guy ! Also the new Mario Bros game has some new characters as well from the looks of it, so again, it’s possible !

And don’t get me wrong, Bowser is absolutely iconic and I do enjoy the irony of Peach battling against him. But with this game not being a platformer, and again taking into consideration Luigi’s Mansion, it would be a fun change of pace for Peach to have a new villain in her own series (god I hope this game becomes a series of several games!!!). Plus, it seems Peach will be more and more playable in mainline games, meaning more Bowser beat-up from her anyways.

And yes, part of me wants that new villain to be a female character as it's been forever since Mario games has had one and I am very much aware of how people would go crazy over it for the shipping.

(Also going back to Bowser, it’s more of a “me” thing but I always found it slightly weird to see Bowser attack Peach, since he’s supposed to be in love with her (Paper Mario games prove it well) and in all the games she gets captured, there are no indications he ever raises a hand on her. Hell in Odyssey he’s very gentle when putting Tiara on Peach’s head. Also Peach is never particularly afraid of him despite how horrible he can be, which implies he doesn’t physically hurt her.

Fun fact : this is why I headcanon Super Princess Peach as taking place very soon after Super Paper Mario, since the two of them would have just spent weeks working together and getting along. So it would work for Bowser to lose his shit upon getting rejected yet again “despite doing everything right” and thus be willing to fight her. As for 3d World, there’s three other people Bowser can focus on to avoid hurting her)

#Super Mario #Princess Peach #Untitled Princess Peach game #Flor talks #you know; about the possibility of Peach not getting captured anymore in future games; I don't know how to feel about it #and funnily enough; it has nothing to do with Peach herself but instead with Bowser #the gist of it is that Bowser is a shitty person with a pretty big soft side #and outside of being a dad; the other thing showing that soft side is his love for Peach; granted the mainline games barely ever show it #but the RPGs do; and as messed up as it is; it's also kinda cute ! #and basically if Bowser stops kidnapping Peach; not only does it show less that he likes her in a sense as it reduces how obsessed he is #but most importantly it means Bowser will need new reasons to be a villain; reasons that might turn him into an irredeemable piece of shit #and that's what I'm afraid of; I like Bowser as that absolute douche with a soft spot who's willing to work with Mario if needed #I think the best way Nintendo could go about this would be to find a balance to the kidnappings #have all the big Mario 3d games be about Bowser kidnapping Peach along with a few of the mainline games #meanwhile have the other half of the mainline games feature Peach as playable + give her her own game series #(I mean reminder that in the 5 main 3d games; Luigi is only playable in the Galaxy ones #and for the first one takes finishing the game to unlock; so having Peach sometimes be the hero sometimes the damsel could work) #(the main issue with her being the damsel is that we never get to play as her; causing her to be seen as a bland character by many #but if we do play as her sometimes + she gets her own games; her being the damsel will be less of an issue) #(another way to fix the issue could also to go the early Paper Mario route and have her actually do things while captured)

[rosicheeks]

i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.

#uhhhhhm no you HAVE NOT SENT THIS TO ME BEFORE?!?! #I literally am speechless #I’m not super talky right now #but even if I was I feel like I’d still be fucking speechless #like I already said I love your writing 🩷 #and it fucking BLOWS ME AWAY when people write about me or use me as an inspiration #like????????? what??????? me???????????! #I’m going to keep this close to my heart and look at it whenever I’m feeling down #I don’t remember if I said that already but it’s true #I need to get a journal or a cute box to put things like this in so I can just grab it and look through them when I’m feeling shitty #one thing I needed to say is the fact that you shared this with me now of all times??? is kinda crazy to me #idk if it’s a coincidence or if the universe/God/whoever/whatever is trying to tell me to go back into music and singing #not going to go into it too much but I’ve been looking at my life a lot lately #and I’m realizing I’m not getting any younger…. I know I’m still young but if I don’t do something soon - #my life is going to completely pass before my eyes and I really really don’t want that #I’m *finally* going to get mental help soon (long story but I have to wait a few weeks) #and once I’m actually mentally stable I can focus on what I want to do with my life #so I’ve been thinking a lot about my performing arts background and then randomly a get an email from a choir director I know #asking if I could please join the choir for their Easter performance cause they could really use my high notes #and she just kept complimenting me and it felt really nice ☺️ #then when I went to the first rehearsal I sat next to this girl and we were singing a part and the first sopranos go up to a high A #and I can hit it easily but most of them couldn’t so it felt like I was going this mini solo lol #but she asks me what my range is and I told her that back when I trained I could sing queen of the night which I think goes up to an F6 #and she was talking about how impressive that is #and it made me think about if I actually trained and got back into it how good I actually could get #I don’t mean this to be like ‘look at me look at me I’m so good’ #it just feels nice to have a little bit of a direction again #who knows if I’ll actually go down the music path again but it does sound damn exciting #I miss it with all my heart - I miss singing and performing and acting… I even miss music theory #anyway rant over and i ran out of space but thank you so much I seriously can’t thank you enough 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[starlit-mansion]

Occasionally now i will see a sentiment about how it's groundbreaking and meaningful for fnaf to be an indie game that got a huge movie deal but i think it's actually a bit more meaningful that it had a huge movie deal years ago and scott held onto it for long enough to at least genuinely make sure there were good effects and casting rather than it being farted out at the height of popularity

#like it already broke into mainstream walmart plushie territory #and there were like a dozen shitty scripts and at least one movie (maybe two?) that fully came out trying to eat its lunch #it would not be super surprising it the nic cage one was a cannibalized fnaf treatment or reaction to it #and again. i dont think the movie will be exceptional #but the animatronics are right. the casting is promising. #i think that's more interesting than 'wow internet thing is in mainstream media' but that's just me #also like my only real source for scort's reasoning is his reddit posts and an interview with the blumhouse guy #but i always thought that the fact scott just *could* not break through for a long time but was VERY savvy once he did was interesting #he was (and largely remains) an incredibly popular head of an internet franchise and rarely misstepped #(obviously i disagree with his politics and people that claim that the backlash was unwarranted just bc he's not openly homophobic) #(but i mean. i do still like him as an internet personality and artist. i cant separate him from his creation and i like both.)

[dimonds456]

Nah, nevermind, I don't feel like I can properly comb through everything on my own. I'm just gonna get shit wrong, miss things, or otherwise get yelled at.

I'm just gonna rb stuff.

Read the tags as I go off there but. yeah.

Thanks to the people who helped point things out to me. As a bit of an explanation on my own end, I had just woken up lol. I was groggy and that was the first thing I did before even getting out of bed. I really should have waited, but curiosity got the best of me, so.

Whatever.

#this is about james s-merton btw. censored to keep this out of the main tags #yeah feeling like shit rn #not like i didnt have it coming #i am a gullible person and I know i am #i tried to be critical about james' apology and i only managed to notice two (2) things while actively watching #and as a filmmaker I DO still relate to the telos thing #but i think that relatablity is making it hard for me to pick out lies during that section and i HAVE noticed he lies throughout the video #I'm just not the person to properly call him out on it #i will say though that his whole 'memory issues' thing is ACTUALLY making me mad #mfer *I* have memory issues you don't get to use that as an excuse #especially since he talks about stuff on stream so much #if it really was a thing A) why is there no evidence for it? and B) why has he never talked about it before? #I didn't believe him for a second even though- when i first saw it- i REALLY wanted to #but now that i've had time to think about it it's just pissing me off #you don't get to pretend to be disabled to try and win brownie points. #even if he DOES have memory issues that DOESNT MEAN copy+pasting is suddenly okay!? #the other thing i noticed up-front was just the monetization thing- which i had admittedly forgotten about by the time I made the post #(again I had just woken up) #and that was super fucking shitty #while i was at work thinking about this i rewatched Todd in the Shadow's video and a vid debunking the apology (drama mama i think?) #and i kinda wanna rewatch now that i've had a refresher but i also dont wanna give him more money #so i won't #like i said im just gonna reblog stuff #fuck you james. genuinely. it's OVER get OFF the internet. #if you DO wanna stick around then DONT MONETIZE IT. #dimond speaks

[ghost-of-someone]

literally just saw some radfem bullshit on my dash, & then when I went to their blog to block them not only was it full of anti-trans half arguments & accusations of other people being childish, but one of the very first posts was about how a certain show would be better if one of the main characters was a young woman instead of an old man because they "don't like old people"

#there is no point to this other than i'm pissed and tired of having terf bullshit pass my dash #i feel like i'm gonna have to get that eye thing because i don't super vet the blogs i interact with casually #so as long as they're not immediately anti queer i usually don't notice #and then i've got fucking radfem shit in my 'based on your likes' feed #all because i interacted with feminism stuff that - without the anti-trans lens - seemed totally fine #& like terfs are already shitty people but i feel like the anti older person sentiment just further highlighted the fact that #terfs are just shitty hypocrytical people who play the 'poor me boo hoo you're all childish' card & act like they're so fucking superior #& that any trans folks are terrible #and then turn around and spout all kinds of bigotry #but it's okay i guess because they've got a vagina <3 (& experience the exact same kind of misogyny that tons of us do but they're special) #ALSO #I learned what 'moid' means and you guys are fucking assholes #men are not just mindless sex freaks you fucking cunts #& the fact that you think that just shows how warped your sense of the world is #you 'hate the patriarchy' but aren't interested in actually dismantling it #how could you when you don't even view half of the people involved as really human! #fuck off #terfs and radfems aren't welcome here and you can all kick rocks #i try my best for this to be a queer friendly space and i want that to be clear right fucking now #if anyone who follows me has bothered to read this please let me know if i've accidentally reblogged something from the 'drop the t' crowd #i am not the golden standard queer or whatever the fuck the term is #but i dont ever want someone to think that i'm part of that crowd

[clowngremlin]

did some reading today......this year i'm gonna try to read more because i used to love to read and then i stopped and i have a ton of books i want to read....

#the wretched gremlin strikes again #i feel like social media has like ruined my attention span and idk what to do about it besides like trying to do things offline #for a period of time every day #i also got some new books for christmas that i am excited to read!!! #and i have some comics i got over the past year that i want to read but i was really put off reading comics because of the comic that i rea #that was super triggering to me like it just put me off comics but i think i'm ok to read them again! #i read for like an hour today which made me really happy because that's the most i've read since we like moved from the shitty apartment #when i had access to a library and was taking books out from there to read! #i'm still reading american psycho by bret easton ellis which i got over the summer and kept meaning to read more #but never really got around to it

[oglegoggle]

I’m stressed by my work schedule. Thankfully I get paid on Friday and can hopefully deal with the speeding ticket issue. I know my dearest friend is also stressed by their work schedule. I feel so distant from them. I want to spend time with them and do activities with them in the evenings when they get home from work but they’re usually more interested in playing video games or staring at the internet than actively engaging with me. I had brought up to them that I feel distant from them and they said they’re trying to distance from me so it’ll hurt less when I leave in a few weeks. It… was an emotionally confusing response, like why did they ask me to stay longer if they’re just going to distance from me? I feel stuck in a place where I’m desperately trying to connect with someone I care very dearly for and like they want to connect with me but just can’t, doesn’t want me to go despite knowing that they can’t be present in my life the way I need. I kinda feel like my brain is being ripped in half again. I hope that things will be easier when their work schedule lightens up. But just the same I don’t quite know how to handle the growing stress of my own work schedule when I don’t even really want to be here where I increasingly feel ignored. The ambient sounds of the city stress me. The grinding gears of capitalism stress me. The long work hours and irregular schedule that doesn’t respect the one fucking day of the week I requested to always have off stresses me. I want so much to be out in the woods again. I stay because of them. I would stay as long as they want me to. But I just wish they would act like they actually want to spend time with me if they want me to stay.

#this is goggles #autism continues to make me feel like I’m trapped in a glass bubble #where I desperately want to connect with the world around me but can’t #I’m charming and fun and kind and intelligent and interesting and helpful #I am a well liked person but I just can’t quite feel integrated with those around me #I reflect upon the trans support group the other night when I had asked about dating tips and everyone said to use the internet #and I just don’t jive with the internet as much as I used to #it actively makes me feel more distant from others not more connected #like I want to live somewhere with shitty to no internet service again #it legitimately forced the people around me to actively engage in meaningful fun activities not just staring at rectangles all the time #I’m so tired of staring at rectangles I want to cook by the fire and do sports and play games and make art and build things and snuggle #I want to feel human and I want to be with other humans #I want to love and be loved in return #why do I repeatedly get super attached to people who are too broken and skittish to love? #I’m so tired. I want to go to Washington. I hope that I’ll find what I need there. #I mean I hoped I would in Wyoming and I did not. I hoped I would in California and I did not. I hoped I would in Oklahoma and I did not. #I really wonder if I ever really will find someplace that is gentle on me and I feel loved and integrated with the community #I desperately hope so. I’m so tired of being an outsider.

[munamania]

something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.

#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love #what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it #why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties #of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often #so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk #and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore #i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them #. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec #but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd #but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE. #OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL. #and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness #but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart. #this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it #that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too #and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch #now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it. #because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do #something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope #and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude #this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post #ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting #all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever

[chennnington]

Haha, I almost forgot that one time in my early 20s when I still thought I could write and submitted something to some website that was like some writer community where you had to get approved to join.

And I was rejected cause my writing sucks after all.

I wish all those grown-ups who read my writing when I was a kid hadn't lied to me. I grew up thinking I was a great writer. Then I was an adult and suddenly I sucked and it hit me unexpectedly and I never fully recovered.

#but I get it. nobody wants to be the asshole who tells an excited child who created something that their creation sucks #when my brother and me were adults mom told us how much she hated the pictures we drew and brought home from kindergarten #they were so ugly but she had to praise us and hang them up and she hated how ugly the kitchen looked with those shitty drawings :D #luckily I figured out I suck at drawing before someone else could tell me how shitty I am #but I wish I could've known earlier that my writing sucks #and I was so dumb after submitting something to that website #cause I sent my YA book to all the agents I could find #every year that pic of me proudly holding my printed manuscript shows up in my facebook memories #and one of two things I'd do if I could time travel would be to punch my past self in the face and stop them from sending those emails #cause now the thought of agents reading that pile of trash makes me sick #I think I'll message my friend and ask her to delete the email with book 1 as well #I mean how stupid is that? 'I don't let people read my stuff cause it sucks but hey let's make my best friend read it' #and thus make her uncomfortable when she has to come up with an excuse why she couldn't finish it #or she'll have to lie to me and say she liked it #tbh I'm pretty sure she did try to read it but she hates it cause it sucks so she tells me she hasn't read it yet #I'll just never ask her about it again so that topic can just die #just like 10-ish years ago when another friend was so excited to read the book I wrote back then #so I sent it to her and never heard back from her #well of course not. she was a super smart and cool and ambitions person and I wrote ...THAT #disgusting #in short: I should've learned my place much earlier cause now everything is harder because of it #I still have those idiotic moments of 'hey what if my writing is good' #no you fucking loser it's not. they lied to you cause you were a fucking wimp as a child and nobody wanted to make you cry #tbh I probably shouldn't even be writing that series right now #what purpose does it have? it sucks. nobody will ever read it. I'm lying to myself when I enjoy writing #cause there's nothing enjoyable about creating shit that pollutes everything #maybe I'll just delete it all #why not delete myself while I'm at it

[rebelwithoutabroom]

.

#this whole thing with spnp is wild #everyone on twt acting like this is a huge moral failing when in reality hes like... a white cis man whos a millionaire #even tho the communuty around him is super diverse he will never be able to fully grasp what it means to go there #i dont agree with it but its also shitty to see how many stans are acting like entitled little gremlins dictating what he can or cant do #he has a right to choose to do what he wants and its up to us to watch it or not #(i wont) #this is not a personal attack it is a business decision and he will deal with the consequences whatever they are #one thing i always talk abt with friends is how much of this energy should be directed at actual queer/women/poc creators #they are white cis male americans i dont go here expecting a masterclass in anti-capitalism and class awareness #we all gotta also take a step back sometimes and gauge why we're expecting so much from a bunch of mncrafters

[vigilantejustice]

ebbs and flows. a week ago responded to the group chat for the first time in two entire years + then responded to my friend who was definitely joking about me dropping her off some snacks by doing a sneaky surprise drop + am now feeling very flat + apathetic about everything :(

#the group chat is just me + my friend from high school + her childhood friend who i buddied up with at the mutual friends birthday #years ago + we just clicked real well #and they tried to keep messaging the group chat for a few months but when i just never replied the chat died #so it was a super surprise to get the ping last week #they messaged back + forth for a bit + i jumped in #+ it was all like nothing had happened like i hadn’t fallen off the face of the planet for years #which makes me feel very grateful but also confuses me because fairly they should want nothing to do with me #like what kind of friend + also person does it make me that i just shut off like some sort of recluse for literal years #no explanation no nothing it’s so shitty of me even though i don’t mean for it to be #like it’s always a very ‘it’s me not you’ situation in a very genuine way #it never ever is anyone else it’s absolutely entirely me + my neuroses #but it has been nice to be reinvolved :-) #+ then the driving thing was so out of character for me #not the buying a gift for someone thing just literally the driving thing #new address during the day on a weekend is a pretty standard no go for me #but it was nice to be able to do something nice like that #to be fair it was just a sneaky surprise drop off i didn’t have to face her or anything #but it’s funny that i can be so close to feeling at least ok #to tanking in such an insignificant amount of time #+ for no reason or at least no reason known to me #anyways. going to work hard at keeping up with the group chat #personal