#i mean it was kinda nice to write tho

[cryptiduni]

“white mourning.”

#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’ #jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice #judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice. #she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry #he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as #he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back. #he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb. #planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco #you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen #his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but #jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control #i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation. #but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse. #i relate to ​jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late #my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone. #kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon #disco elysium #de fanart #jean vicquemare #disco elysium fanart #jean heron vicquemare #jean posting #illustration #de #artists on tumblr #my art #I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!! #i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings #my little maiu maiu

[azul-marie]

alcina. (belonging)

fem. reader

you are an angel amongst mountains of silk.

the soft of your hair rests loosely, untied or tucked, flyaways aplenty from the static of her sofa pillows surrounding your tiny, wonderful body. the nightgown you wear, deep, dark as freshly pressed wine, sits low upon your shoulders, exposing delicate, supple skin waiting, wishing to be devoured. she almost hoped you meant it a distraction, mischief hidden beneath innocence. but you watch her dress for her family meeting with earnest, curious eyes, no such gleam of trouble anywhere to be found.

alcina adored you.

“pet, don’t you have some resting to do?” she says, a trace of tease in her strong voice. she stands before her dressing mirror, catching your eyes in the reflection. her hands smooth the sides of her dress, white as snow, her tint of skin, taking pleasure in how eagerly your gaze follows. “i won’t be long, if that’s what you’re wondering.”

your chin lays tilted on the settee’s armrest, a sideways view still plenty pleasing. she feels your eyes linger on her undone face, her natural self on display. alcina pretends not to notice.

“may i help you with your makeup?” you ask.

she turns to you, shocked. her expression must betray otherwise, or be more severe than she’d realized, for you shrink back and avert your eyes away. “oh, i’m sorry, i’ve misspoken—”

alcina is quick to wave you off, tutting her apology. “my dear, you surprised me, is all. i thought you liked watching me apply.”

“i do! it’s-it’s just…” you say, blinking up at her like a cherub from a renaissance capture, sweet and rosy. “at the very least, i’d like to choose a lipstick for you, if it’s quite alright.”

there’s a familiar pull of skin, crinkles and laughlines accompanying her ardent smile. “come now, it’s more than alright.”

her powder smells of rosewater and talc. it falls like stardust upon you, landing on dolce lips and fluttering lashes.

it is commonplace for alcina to situate you on her lap as she goes about her makeup routine, a process long enough to warrant your presence being. the time is spent watching her work, holding brushes or palates for her to choose between, and the occasional touch of lips exchanged.

you know to be patient, and keep still.

with a final run of a brush over her eyelids, she seals the look of her part, taking a moment to examine herself in her vanity’s reflection. she tries not to chuckle at the way you squirm with excitement, now knowing the finishing touch was all yours to claim. she calms you with a hand brushing over your waist. with the other, she reveals to you her drawer packed full with lip colors of every kind, from the peachiest pink to the deepest violet.

“the honors, girl.”

you trace indecisive lines over bullets of every size and shape. you worry for time, shown through quivering hands, but alcina’s touch splayed across your back is patient, watchful. she’s enjoying this, your eager, careful wish of adorning her. time taken is for her sake.

you uncap a bullet to find a bright, fiery shade of scarlet.

“this one.” you decide, holding it up for her to see. “if it’s all the same to you, mistress.”

she nods an approval, then eyes you with a calm, amused smile. “you know i trust you’ll see me off best, dear.”

you swivel around in her lap, until your legs hang over her thighs, your little arms steadying yourself with the help of her wide, powerful shoulders. alcina does not miss how longingly you gaze at her décolletage, how the static white of her skin differs from yours. her large hands settle themselves upon your thighs, your nightgown exposing the soft, sensitive flesh with the lift of your movements.

she smells the heat of blood pulsing between your ribs.

“may i?” you ask, in a breathless sort of voice.

“please do, lest i arrive fashionably late.”

the gentle way you cup her face almost makes her laugh. you, with hands the size of rosebuds, your very being no larger than one of beneviento’s dolls. with concentration lacing your brow you focus on dotting her lips alight, creamy color bright against her skin. it resembles greatly the bite of blood, or the homemade wine she tastes of. it takes all you have not to lean in for one.

“you’re lovely.” you say, meek as a lamb. you click the bullet in place with a snap, holding it up for alcina to take. she does, but clasps her hand around your arm for a good while.

“such a sweetheart.” she purrs, eyes crinkling with her signature dazzle. “i won’t be long, you hear? but i still want you in bed by the time i get back. rest, rest, rest.” with the same hand alcina lowers you to the ground, paying another look at her reflection before standing upright. she watches you, raising a brow, until you scurry off and up her bed, showing your usual obedience. she has no reason to worry.

“be safe, mistress.” you whisper beneath velvet and lace.

alcina beams with a grin of pleasure. “always.”

her bedroom doors slam close behind the exit of her gargantuan being.

with a loud click, they are locked shut.

#alcina dimitrescu #resident evil 8 imagines #resident evil imagines #resident evil village #resident evil 8 #re imagine #resident evil #re8 village #re8 imagine #alcina dimitriscu x reader #b….big lady #ma’am? i mean mommy? i mean ma’am? i mean #writing this giant woman made me want to write for bayonetta LMAO #giant ladies = very nice #also would love to write for re3r jill soon…she’s so so pretty #don’t even get me started on carlos tho 👀 #YOOOO also dbd ada looks kinda 👀👀 ma’am i mean ma’am i mean #female reader

[theredcuyo]

I imagine Mia seeing her student get every single piece of paper where Miles Edgeworth is, this guy with a terrible personality and dubious methods as she remembers, and then think to herself “I already knew you had bad taste, but i didn’t think it was this bad”

For the record, i do think she knew about Phoenix becoming a lawyer for the chance of seeing him again, but that doesn’t change the fact that she can’t understand this crush he has on the man

#Wrightworth #ace attorney #mia fey #Phoenix x Edgeworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #i mean cravats #really phoenix f cravats #for the record i do simp miles tho but i can admit my taste is a bit weird #and i mean phoenix has nice taste he did liked iris but is not like mia knows that #oh also i bet iris knew miles somewhat because phoenix told her stories and no matter how many times she didnt shut him up because his eyes #will shine while talking about it #unless it came to the present and his unanswered letters #now that i think about it maybe when that happened she would cheer him up with like ice cream #also maybe she once pointed out that 'hey he looks kinda nice in this picture' and then poenix had his first bi panic #like he was in love with her but that didn't erase his at the moment platonic crush on miles yk like the kind people has on celebrities #huh know i kinda wanna write that down

[seenthisepisode]

i need help to manage my budget... by help i mean 3 million euro sent directly from heaven i guess

#this is not even about The Economy and Housing Crisis this is like. my life and choices lately lol afjsahfjk let's see: #1. christmas gifts - i don't even know how much i spent on them because i had the flu and wasn't really thinking but let's say 1000 pln #2. trip for new years eve to the mountains - 2200 for hotel and then let's say 300-350 for food and stuff #3. bills like the internet and phone is 90; rent is 1100 #4. trip to warsaw 100 hotel 180 food and drinks 200 ? #5. meet and greet with simple plan 800 .... i will never recover sfshdfsj but it was kinda worth it - won't do that again tho #6. groceries since i am back 120 #7. and now i need to travel back home and it's like a cumulation because it was my dad's name day + my mom's birthday and their wedding #anniversary adsfhgsdjhsd so i need gifts again i mean i want to buy them something nice i already spent 180 pln but i will buy something #extra for each of them because i kinda want to because we see each other so rarely #8. public transport ticket for another month is 80 #9. i will have to pay rent again soon and the internet and phone #10. i have a wedding coming and like 37 concerts #to sum up. i am Fucked <3 but writing it out helped a little ;_; #i will eat concrete and drywall by march <3 #personal

[todayisafridaynight]

One of my fave jackets is this green jacket with a fur hood im wearin rn because 1.) its green 2.) my dad gave it to me 3.) it reminds me of saejima. Who also reminds me of my dad

#snap chats #p sure i talked bout this jacket before but idc read my diary #sorry that every other middle aged man i see i say reminds me of my dad its a compliment #tbh love how i clowned on ichi for being on premium copium bout arakawa but highkey i woulda done the same bout my dad.. i get it ichi.. #anyway :) i legally get to talk about my day with him now :)) HE SAID THE FUNNIEST SHIT UPON SEEING ME #HE SAID ‘oh wow we dress similar :)’ and keep in mind. he was wearing a latte brown coat with a black turtleneck and pants and shoes #meanwhile. i approach With Black Pants And Shoes Admittedly but then im in this goofy old ass jacket with a red scarf #and a crane-decorated dress shirt that i got two buttons undone on like DAAD you are senile. hes so funny #so fun my dad actually recognized this was the jacket he got me- it was one of the first things he bought for me after i told My Secret 🙈 #also i finally asked how tall he was and i can’t believe my dad matches the criteria to be an rgg character he’s fuckin 6’1 like i thought #AH but today was really nice- i got to hang with my sis and her husband as well as my dad’s wife :) #it was awful tho cause the second my sis saw my dad’s outfit she’s just like ‘it’s so kdramacore’ AND SHES RIIIGHT 😭😭 #we later found out dad’s wife loves kpop…. and she bought him his new clothes…. so we are no longer surprised….. AWFUL. #honestly i could write a drama based off my dad’s life i really could it has elements for it. i mean ig i kinda do that already dont i #i borrow. anyways. today was fun :) even if i almost lost my mind trying to take the train the first time #this train system was weird… it wa worth tho it was great seein popop again #yeah….. ugh i have to still drive home from the station. and hope my car is still there #i get very paranoid leaving my car alone so openly i dont like it… #anyways. bye bye :) i might nap til my stop or work on a fic i started #‘snap what happened to’ dont worry about it i need to look at something else or ill scream #ok bye 👋

[sluttyten]

After I eventually finish this Haechan fic (s2g I don’t know why it’s getting so long 😂) and after I finish the rest of unholy, I’m gonna force myself to keep to a word minimum and just write something short because I can’t keep doing these long fics 😭

#I do this to myself lmfao #NONE of these things were meant to be this long but for some reason?? they are #I’ve got 4 parts to the Haechan fic rn #and it’s 71.5k in length and I’m not done #it’s definitely slow burn by the way #and I could cut that word count by like a quarter probably except the way that I wrote it I feel like adds an additional layer to the story #so I want to keep it in but I don’t technically really need that quarter/third of the story #but it adds to it!! I still don’t know how I want to post this either #obviously not in one big chunk because that’s fucking daunting to see a one post fic that’s like almost 75k #and the order I want to post it in because I can kinda change the order up from the way that I wrote it #all I know is that this fourth part I just finished has to be fourth #but the first three are kinda sorta? interchangeable #and now I have to write the fifth part but idk exactly how I want to write it #but I’m almost positive it’s gonna be the final part #but the fourth one is 25k by itself 😂 #this is what I mean tho #I need to write a nice short 5k piece #or several like 5k and under smutty things about various members #I like to think I can just squeeze these out but then damn it takes me like two or three months because I just keep adding onto them and #evolving the story as I write it smh #I gotta go I need to keep writing and also eat dinner

[dahldahlbills]

nano day 2 & 3 update

day 2

Total Word count: 1689; 1421 towards a fic, and 268 towards my main wip

Did a lot of handwriting so I wasn’t able to see exactly how much I wrote until I typed it up today (hence the late update)

day 3

Total Word count: 1603; 901 towards a fic, and 702 towards my main wip

I did two sprints towards my main wip and got ~350 words for both 20min sprints, im kinda proud of that ngl

I’m making steady progress and for the most part on track for that 50k which is kinda neat! (still not what I’m going for tho so i can’t let it get to my head lol)

but overall I’m feeling really good so far I’m excited to see what I accomplish tomorrow :D

#bet you all thought I gave up after day one huh #but no!! i was just too busy last night to give an update lol #‘you all’ being the three (3) people who know I’m doing Nano #the fic writing kinda dominated the past few days #Im hoping the oc brainrot will kick in at some point bc I really do want to prioritize that #‘i just need to get this fic out and then I’ll be good’ I say but then watch me say it again next week with another fic #it’s okay tho I’m not in a huge rush for cryptids wip #like i kinda should be if I’m aiming for 2025 but it’ll be okay #i don’t want that pressure at such an early stage #anyway I don’t expect to get a lot of writing done tomorrow bc we’re having Guests 😬 #but i will try my best #my drawing will also be dropping SIGNIFICANTLY this month #i say as if it hasn’t already the past several months 💀 #but Im not feeling that bad about it compared to before bc there’s no Events that are adding pressure to my creating #any time I do draw will be in my sketchbook. it’ll be a nice break from digital #i Can finally make some progress on those jojo spreads I’ve been dying to make #and by make progress I mean I’ll barely finish one lol #(i dont mean that negatively. I’ll be having fun the whole time I’m just making fun of how slow I am) #anyway #dahl does nano 23

[djpurple3]

yknow like none of my fics do the same numbers they used to when i wrote sanders sides fic and i shouldnt be upset about that,,,,, but sometimes im kind of upset about that

like commenting culture is so weird i know already but like augh... pspsps.... please.... tell me u like it....

the fandom that is the best at leaving comments (that arent too weird, too) in my experience Has been the ninja turtle people tho. idk whats in that fandom but they leave some good comments

#t/ss was also pretty good for nice comments but usually u also got kinda weird ones. which doesnt surprise me #can't forget that one person who called me british bc i used the world 'whilst' once in a 14k oneshot and demand i change it to #'make it more american' #like a) ur wrong abd b) no. it's been like 4 years and i still resent you #writing mcy/t fic is rough sometimes because i fucking love to write it but people hardly comment #the worst fandom was overwatch. like NO ONE commented. that could have just been bc no one was reading my works tho #dj rambles #vent #i guess #somewhere in my brain i was a 'semi big tss writer' but like. only one fic was vaguely popular. #tho i mean a lot of people read the effects of shame. i wish i could ifnish that sometimes but aughgdkjgdffg. yknow? #i also dont want. people to think im into sides anymore #tho i am living a little double liffe i do still write tss stuff i just write smut on another completely unrelated blog. it amuses me #sorry im just rambling fr. i just think about this too much #i wish i could churn stuff out like i used to #even like a year ago i was writing like fucking crazy #im just. iASOHSDG!!!

[hobbitunderthemountain]

i found a bunch of my old ACTUALLY FINISHED amvs and i think i’m gonna make an archive channel to host them all on so i can stop booting up my 2006 desktop computer every time i think about them

#i mean other people can watch them too #but i feel like im the only one who will watch them bc they're nostalgic for me #im realizing its kinda nice having finished projects even tho they're not perfect #they're still fun #and i think that's what holds me back so much now #and i mean the same aspects applied to my fic too #comparing what i got done when i was younger writing wise too #like damn

[orcelito]

posted chapter 4 of Sentido

now with the tag of "Plants Shenanigans". i think im very funny for that

#speculation nation #or less that im funny for it and more i just find it funny #im really sleepy and i wonder if that's evident in my author's notes #whelp. hope the chapter's still readable #i wrote like most of it today (yesterday). Whoop whoop #i had like 2 hours between therapy and work. which is where i went and reworked thru the earlier stuff #used my break during my shift to write. and then wrote basically the entire time from when my shift ended #i was feelin it. #tho im not fucking writing on the bridge anymore bc a big group of moms and daughters interrupted me #to ask if i could take their pic. and i mean i did. they were pretty nice about it. but it was still annoying #me writing a metaphysical experience of a man and his extraplanar sister but stopping to take a pic of a rly loud group of women #there was a lil baby puppy that passed by right after tho. that made everything ok #i like writing on the bridge. or reading on the bridge. there are benches in the shade of trees and lots of open air #and plenty of foot traffic sure but it's also much more on the way than my beloved forest path. easier for times like this #where i just kinda wanted to chill a bit. it's fine. #anyways hi hello i posted the thing. i need to go to sleep now. #tomorrow is gonna be hell. lmao.

[keeps-ache]

just remembered a couple weeks ago my brother was being annoying so i looked at him and asked 'i wanna know what kind of media is influencing your personality, like really'

#just me hi #[lays down] #like that was kinda mean i think lol #[lays down again] #tbh i was tired and the fricken. yt shorts he's constantly 'joking' about is frying my insides #like there is a difference between joking abt it and then it becoming an actual part of your speech pattern #and the line is starting to blur #uahguha it's just kind of annoying that's all #//anyway. trying to pick if i wanna 1) art 2) write 3) watch smth #all of those very tempting #if i go with 3 i'm prolly just gonna watch the a-team again lol #i like those dudes. very fun #if i go with 2 it's probably going to be a complex piece so it'll take today and tomorrow to finish and i love being busy for some reason #lol #if i go w/ 3 i'm going to phase through reality #not on purpose but i can already feel it loll #like i'm already on the verge of zoning out hard. it's nice tho so might do writing #if it wasn't for the spinner !! #to the spinner !!! #//kk so i put in; art - write - watch - waste #the spinner chose waste so we ain't doin Nothin #:) #the spinner says i gotta do it so social media it is lol #a bit of wasting really helps the brain think ykno #just let it cook for a bit #a nice simmer #a light boil #soup

[sanchoyo]

Ik i don't talk abt bnha much anymore (I tend to wait to binge read stuff anyway and do go thru phases of being obsessed then completely ignoring stuff for months to years until I remember I Like It, but admittedly I've lost interest with it a lil bit regardless) but like. I get baffled when ppl lump bnha in with 'crazy fandoms' or whatever. yeah its a big fandom and im SURE theres discourse the likes of which i could never imagine (I am very good at blocking and blacklisting tho lol) but. it was genuinely, for me, one of the MOST positive fandom experiences I've ever had! ppl were always very very nice to me and supportive and I used to get so many nice ppl leaving comments or sending asks, and it actually makes me a lil teary to think abt bc. I am a very shy person tbh! and I always kinda worried the type of content I posted wouldn't be received well, but it was always met with kindness, and even when ppl disagreed with me they'd stay polite and thank me for explaining why and it always stayed very civil? so its hard not for me to look back on it fondly.

like for whatever problems I have w the series or direction its taken my experience was OVERWHELMINGLY positive and idk if thats just because I was firmly in the villains stan camp or what but. very grateful for it idk I'm just rereading old reviews and getting very nostalgic and happy if I could make ppl happy with it bc it made me happy too ;w; ill always be fond of the lov and a lot of the characters anyway. I still care for them very much. whenever bnha ends u guys gotta lmk if they get happy endings bc if not I'll be glad to write a fix it fic 👍

#to be FAIR. ive never had any super BAD fandom experiences either. i like to think im p good at being chill and reasonable and maybe that #kinda attracts similar ppl?? or. idk honestly but im glad for it lol #but bnha fandom overwhelmingly was supportive like. i had the nicest anons for it...i got the cutest merch sent to me for nothing?? that #was SO NICE I STILL HAVE IT BTW. i wonder if the person who sent it still follows me even tho i dont post bnha... #i mean i do every now and then when the mood strikes but ye #oh also danny phantom fandom was rly nice too abt my oc!!! my god she still has more notes than ANY oc post ive ever made #baffling how many cool ppl liked her and i got fanart for her too??? #im always like. ugly crying when i get fanart of any kind JKASDHKF or fan works!! #very very very cool and nice.... #sanchoyorambles #i want to write more fics sometime but i am STILL burnt out on writing from nano tbh?? it was SO EXHAUSTING #i HAVE fic concepts altho not bnha exactly #i do have bnha fics i could add to the wip comp that im never gonna finish but post regardless #altho tbh that wasnt received the best so maybe not... #:thinking: #there are some warm healer wips in there....i think #?? #would have 2 check #also very funny bnha fact my sister is also a lov stan and has spinner merch in her car lol #same hat. we r truly related #me and a friend were talking abt smth related to this earlier #i dont get into good/perfect media much #bc i have this need to FIX THINGS #bnha fits that. i could fix her #ive never claimed its the Best Anime Ever but I CAN FIX HER *with a sledgehammer*

[badnikbreaker]

there are so many different sonics!  a sonic for everyone :)

#i dont mean in the rpc tho thats true too! i mean like.... #even if were just treating the 3d games as our canon on which 2 build hes been written so many different ways #somebody entering in adventure is gonna have a vastly different sonic in mind than someone who entered in lost world yknow #then u throw in idw and archie and the movies and the OVAs and etc etc #hes always got his core value of freedom and he always loves his friends but like #how does he treat those friends? what do his morals look like? how emotionally intelligent is he? etc etc #hes been written so many different ways over the years #and while that 'inconsistent writing' can be kinda frustrating as a fan its also sorta nice #cos it means theres a different sonic for everyone 2 love!!!! #and it also lends a lot of fun freedom in an rp context of course. doubles are barely doubles

[noxtivagus]

HELP no one talk to me rn /lh i'm in such a flirty mood for no reason, i'll flirt w anyone n everyone rn 😭😭

#🌙 rambles #LOWKEY SICK OF BEING SINGLE I KINDA WANT TO FALL IN LOVE ??? #but... studies first ig... sob #this is why star-crossed lovers & soulmates are my fave tropes... #IT'S FINE I'LL LOVE MYSELF AS I'VE ALWAYS DONE #being in an all-girls school made me a hopeless romantic and i hate it /hj #/hj bcs the tragedy feels kinda nice actually /lh 😭 #my discord status rn is: if i call u cute that means ur allowed to kiss me #bruh can someone volunteer to be my kitten or smth #let me practice flirting on you or smth #HHHHHH that's all a joke #i shld head to sleep soon bcs i'm going out tmrrw #but seriously tho #how do ppl even get into relationships. do romantic relationships even exist. does mutual pining exist #nah not that i want to fall in love tho nah #i wrote a bit more today and read some of my old writing so i guess that's why i'm like this rn #i'm just so baffled bcs i remembered that i have a friend that #a friend in another school and she has an s/o !?! and ik she has a friend as well that already had an s/o way back in middle school #DAMN HOW DOES THAT WORK ? #being an independent person kinda sucks sometimes #i'm afraid of getting attached but yk #i'm not against someone falling for me first 👉🏻👈🏻 #ignore me 💀

[todayisafridaynight]

I genuinely can never thank you enough for the past year. I can't express how much it's meant to me to be understood and have my energy reciprocated with someone on the same wavelength. Although I've been in the fandom for quite a bit longer than most people writing in, and longer than you, even, I can't remember the last time I felt this welcome and motivated. A TRULY embarrassing amount of my work's just been fueled by "oh Snap's gonna wanna see that," and of course that circle's expanded since then, but it probably wouldn't have had I not met stream chat through you, aaaaaand if I'm honest you're still up there... lol...

It's always, always a highlight of my day to see your your work, your posts, and your responses, whether they're to me or to others, and it's always a highlight of my week to be able to make it to streams! You're a huge inspiration for me, particularly in terms of your work ethic across the board. I always come out of streams energized and feeling like I can actually finish things, and usually this is hubris, but it's gotta count for something.

Not to be dramatic, but you kinda changed my life, no exaggeration. I still really can't see myself the way I was two or three years ago not just calling it quits after some of my Gaiden experiences... lol... but I'm still around, and like always, I wanna be able to write in and interact as much as I used to sometime soon. Thanks for everything! I hope RGGS continues to deliver so we can stay in touch :3

i cant thank YOOOOU enough for the past Xsome months or so. feelins ABSOLUTELY mutual in that i wasnt sure anyone else would really be into talkin bout rgg as you and i have (or would be willing to read my. miles-long scrolls of bullshit LMAO) so it's been real fun gettin to know you an everyone and chattin !!

most bafflin thin to ever to think i have good work ethic, i feel like ive been behind everyone for the past couple weeks and even with the things i do make it's really not up to snuff. it's always nice to hear that's not supposedly exactly the case :) I Suppose :^)

rgg community (like any community lbr) can be. An Experience, esp for someone with a position like yours. so im glad i can make it worth to hang around somewhat LOL

regardless, i always look forward to you next ask or the next time you leave tags on a post i make. if i ever bother making a post again ☠️☠️

#fave #snap chats #I DID SIT ON THIS ALL DAY OOPS #i got a bit busy with some stuff...... also i always try my best to write a sufficient response cause ill feel bad if i dont </3 #mad funny youre stoked for me to see stuff And I Am Always Stoked To See Stuff cause i got a similar sentiment towards you #i mean i TRYYYY not to get too in my head bout it since then i get paranoid but i always do hope on the downlow like #'ah man. hope this is funny. hope masu likes it. hope im shot for this one' VERY NORMAL things to want :) #so funny tho. funny timin of this ask i feel like ive been disappointin people an particularly yous #which 'snap that doesnt make sense please be happy with yourself for three seconds' which. NO?? no. impossible #but i do get worried im disappointing or being too annoying or yk. just being a pest or not being adequate #so it's fun/ny gettin this ask today all that considered LOL #I MEAN I KNOW EVERYONE BEEN NICE THE PAST DAY OR SO YK SO NO REASON TO THINK IT #i cant avoid thinkin a it... my number one bully is myself he Will Not leave me alone no matter how hard i try to complain to the board #the board also bein myself. i cant excommunicate myself from myself-- #REGARDLESS. very cool that i give you motivation :) esp after streams :) #every time i finish a stream i feel like i made an ass out of myself. ALWAYS HAVE FUN. but i feel at the cost of bein obnoxious #tho i guess theres no point stayin round if i was. lest its like Last Resort kinda deal then TRULY i am sorry im The Last Resort #ILL STOP WHINING FOR FIVE SECONDS TO SAY thank you :) for everythin :) both just chattin with me an all the work you do for the community #it truly is a lot and indescribable and its very cool i have someone like that who likes what i do. you do be the beyonce in walmart to me #to reference that post i rb'd last night LOL its still hard for me to understand but ig i dont have to understand it #i think i mentioned this before but i remember when id draw for persona (cringe ik) id mostly draw adachi (this is relevant Trust) #and this one mate one day was just 'snap its really nice how much. love you bring to the adachi community' #which is a hilarious thing to say since adachi sucks but POINT IS im glad i. i THINK im kinda doing the same thing now still #thats the consensus ive gotten the past couple asks.. lol.. its nice bringin people together and havin a fun and welcomin space :) #ILL WRAP IT UP HERE THO before i make people throw up. i kept this ask hoarded long nuff.. ill just hoard it in my chest cavity instead #once more thank you forever and always :) when we inevitability branch off to other things i'll always treasure all you've done for me

[girl-bateman]

Ok so update on the date situation is that i actually got rejected which is kinda crazy BUT at the same time I didn't feel any romantic vibes at all on the date so I'm actually more relived than offended

#usually i would be offended but idk ? #omg does this mean ive matured ??? 😳 wow character development etc etc #one part of me wants to write out a long paragraph abt the insanity of him rejecting me #but like if the vibes arent there then looks or personality or literally everything else doesn't matter #and i guess im kinda relived that i didnt have to be the one to break it off and do the rejection part lol #bc i rly dont like hurting ppls feelings #he was very nice tho! but yeah.... idk #it was fun to give it a shot but 🤷‍♀️ yeah #i think i shall go back to my comfortable no dating lifestyle #personal