#i mean like. are you even doing LA right if you dont bring ativan & a bottle of liquor

[ourbastardofsorrows]

its the desire to be perceived versus the fear of being disbelieved and theres no quick & easy infomercial solution to this one because nobodys buying what youre trying to sell

#tia text #negative #uh unrelated one of my neighbors car alarms sounds Exactly like the noise a dog makes right before it gets sick #and as a result ive rushed out before bc i thought there was a dog that needed help or smg #what this is about of course is that i want So Badly for my loved ones to know that im struggling which is kinda new for me #bc usually im more the [crawls under a bush to die with no warning] type of person when it comes to suffering #but like. ok its really just one specific person bc i know that if she believed me she would understand #but if she didnt believe me then i think that might kill me faster than my big LA plan wouldve #suicidal ideation cw #i mean like. are you even doing LA right if you dont bring ativan & a bottle of liquor? #i mean the good news is that im not going through with the plan bc i have to at least live long enough to see MCR in october #im afraid i have pretensions of poetry & delusions of literary merit & no amount of therapy has cured me of those