#i miss the animals at my last school and the days in 1st grade we would have practical work w them all day
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1st day in 10th grade 8/29/2023
I literally couldnt sleep that much the night before and ended up staying up until 3AM, though I'm kinda surprised that I slept a bit early than usual so I felt a bit relieved. But knowing that I had to set an alarm so I wont wake up at 10 or 12 AM I was hella depressed from just the thought of having to wake up exhausted af. I ended up waking up at 8AM I was EXHAUSTED I couldnt even move for the first 10 minutes and I just stared at the ceiling. I was having a manic episode the night before because I was so chill and so anxious at the same time I couldnt contain myself.
I later found out that the entrance ceremony starts at 1PM so I felt relieved knowing I dont have to rush.
Then the ceremony began. It was just like the other ceremony I attended last year.....though I was more down that time I couldnt even listen to a single word I was hearing from the people on stage, I was so out of it TT its weird because it felt like 9th grade was just yesterday.....time flies so fast:/.....Anyway when I got there, there was already many students lining up.... it was I think 20 minutes before the ceremony starts I saw some of my friends from my previous school year I'm soooo lucky to have some of my friends on the same class this year...I hope I can make some friends this year too or just at least get along with some of them:D
After an HOUR of standing at the ceremony it finally ended and we all headed to our new classrooms. I was enlightened to know that my classroom was in the first floor cause I have a bad stamina and bad experience from my old school... I was first very happy about it "ohh I get to be on the 3rd floor!!" then months later "I HATE THESE STAIRS" so 2ND,3RD,4TH FLOOR CLASSROOMS?? NUH UH🗣🗣..
So when I got to my new classroom I immediately continue reading one piece cause Im too introverted and shy to even talk to my new classmates, but I'm pretty sure when group activities and all that start happening we'll all talk and get along well:) (probably not everyone though)..ALSO I just realized how much I space out but its not that bad it just happens at times Im seriously not aware which is scary....I believe the term for it is called dissociation but mine is just mild though it happens from time to time I think mine is pretty normal...
When it was time to introduce ourselves my hands were COLD. And when it was my time to introduce myself I just talked fast and sat down, not realizing I didnt include my other hobbies such as reading manga or watching anime but oh well I did tell myself I wont trust people that easily this year and be more secretive about myself since I talk so much about myself when I'm comfortable enough to someone....
A few hours later it was snack break.... some of my friends from our friend group gathered... gosh I miss them so much:{ I dont know but I think I became a bit more quite than last year.... idk though maybe its just me. So then we all started talking about our new teachers... some of them had badluck and have a strict teacher and meanwhile me I was luckkyyy even though I dont really fit in with my new teacher's humor she was still pretty chill and understanding and I relieved about it... though I still hoped that I had the other teacher I wanted to be my 10th grade teacher:( hes pretty strict but hes a friendly guy and teaches well... I hope hes my math teacher this year PLSPLSPLS🤞CROSSING FINGERS
Then a few hours later it was already time to go home...I'm kinda happy that the first day of school wasnt as tiring as last year:D...I walked home.... it was nice since we got dismissed pretty early than the normal school days since its still the first day after all.....I was walking while listening to the songs I downloaded on my phone and look at the sky...it was still 4PM so it wasnt dark outside yet.... it felt nice walking home like that:>.... while walking home I remembered one of my friends eshy gave me her snack since she didnt want any and I couldnt buy snacks at the canteen because it was pretty crowded and looked like it was impossible to even cut in line....I'm pretty grateful to have her as a friend....though she should srsly look out for herself too....so in order to pay her back I stopped at a small store...it was run by an old couple....I used to walk by the store a lot since kindergarten and I rarely bought anything from that store....when I walked in the old man smiled....idk but something about it made me a bit happy since like oh....its been so long since I bought anything from the store and its been...probably years ....he looks different from before....everyone gets old and its a sad thing for me to even think about://....anyway after buying the snacks I then head home and took this picture while walking.....thanks for reading this long ahh journal about my day:DD I usually ramble things in my journal but I firgured I should use this account instead and use it as a digital journal since I rarely post anything on this app, Im also planning on doing this everyday so lets see if I actually do it this time:DD so bye for now MY HANDS HURT FROM TYPING ONG but anyway take care!!
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(Autobiography)
Greetings! My name is Cirilo G. Lagrosa and I'm currently a senior high school student, particularly a Humanities and Social Sciences student, studying at Gen. Pantaleon Garcia Senior High School. I'm 19 years old, born on May 8, 2004. I'm currently living with my family in Imus, Cavite. We moved a few times due to financial problems and I even remember having a friend with the same nickname as mine way back in Navotas.
Even though my memory was quite blurry, I can still remember how happy I was back then as a 5 years old kid living in Navotas. I had some friends that I could play with and a best friend. I can say that we had a very simple life back then. Having a small house didn't negatively affect us but served as a motivation to work hard for a better life.
Five years later, I was already 10 years old when we finally moved here in Imus, Cavite. I was filled with anticipation for this new and unfamiliar environment. This time, that is 2010, is when I finally started attending school as a kindergarten student. In contrary to my current self, I was really happy attending school every single time. Listening to lectures, reading, and coloring materials is what made my days as a 10-year-old kid. As embarrassing as it sounds, I didn't know basic geography that I asked my mother on the way home, as was mentioned by my teacher, the question "Nakatira daw tayo sa Pilipinas e di ba Cavite yon?". I was quite introverted and I won't talk to people unless I was approached. I only had 1 friend in kinder but it didn't really matter to me. When we moved to Imus, Cavite, we became so close to a family in the neighborhood that we treated each other as family. In that neighborhood, I made a friend who then became my best friend that would last up until now. We're friends for over 14 years now. She's a really good friend to me as she would always include me in almost every sort of activity she doeslike participating in church, helping me become part of drum & lyre band, and more. We haven't had contact for a year now as she's busy with work and we already moved out.
I started elementary during 2011. I made a lot of temporary friends and I honestly miss them. Moving into elementary was quite a culture shock to me as it was a lot different than in kinder. I would be randomly approached by other students asking "kapatid ka ni-", about my older brother, it made me question if he's popular in school. Around 4th grade, I was introduced by my friend to her co-members in the church's children's choir, and around the same time, she helped me join their Drum & Lyre band as Lyre piqued my interest. Playing Lyre has made me really happy. Joining church activities has made me experience a lot of things that are both positive and negative. It was during elementary that I experienced being made fun of as my actions were "not of a boy's". I remember going home one night and hearing that my father got angry as his so-called "friend" called me gay because I mostly hung out with girls. It wasn't that much of a big deal to me back then as I was too innocent for these things.
Around 2017, I started my junior high school life. During 7th grade, I made a friend with a similar interest to me which was playing the lyre. I had a lot of memorable experiences with him like eating as Mang Inasal, making me eat lunch at their home out of nowhere, and more. During 8th grade, I met people telling me that I was "intelligent" and that I just needed to make effort at school. I made great friends and had great teachers. Honestly, I didn't like 9th grade except for my friends who have similar interests as me, anime.
After the school year ended, the lockdown came after some time. I stopped during the 1st quarter of the first online classes as I couldn't adapt to the new normal. During the lockdown, I immersed myself in online games meeting different kinds of people and even making some friends. I was supposed to drop out for the second time but my class adviser home visited me to give me a chance to graduate.
Mid-2022 was when the face-to-face classes were finally brought back and I didn't know what to expect. The two-year lockdown was quite isolating and I forgot the feeling of socialization. Though I'd rather be alone in a room, I still tried my best to socialize. The first day of class with set B was quite memorable and I enjoyed it. In the second quarter, I finally made a friend who made my senior high school life bearable. I encountered a lot of failures in grade 11 until I finally started trying and even got results that far exceeded my low expectations. As a grade 12 student, I'm working hard to give my best and so trying to find out my future career and goals.
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a rant abt missing things all the time ig
#it feels like all i do nowadays is going around and missing everything i dont have anymore#i miss being a kid and having an imagination and ambition and being proud of myself#i miss field trips and packed lunches and falling asleep on the bus ride home#it never hit me how much it hurts to know i might not ever feel that way again#i miss the animals at my last school and the days in 1st grade we would have practical work w them all day#i miss the smell of hay and the smell of fresh veggies and seeds we’d give to the birds and rodents#i just wanna go back in time and hug my kid self and tell her to enjoy it all#i should be enjoying it all now too but its so hard with everything going on you know?#im 20 in a month#i want to be 20 but i also really dont#squid.rants
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The Irreplaceable Charlie Weasley: Pt. 3, Ch. 9
PART 3: THE YEAR OF QUIDDITCH & MAGICAL CREATURES Chapter 9 - A Very Muggle Invitation
Nova
I couldn't believe I was already packing my bags, ready to board the Hogwarts Express and go back home as we finished our Third Year.
I don't even know where the year went and I don't remember half of it. Did I attend all of my classes? Did someone use a Memory Charm on me? Who would know!
What I do know is that I had an amazing year. I became Ravenclaw's new Seeker and we won 2 out of 3 games. Of course, Gryffindor beat us, Charlie is just too sneaky on that broom of his. Still, Orion was more than happy to take second place in the Quidditch House Cup as last year's Team was such a disaster that they didn't even come close to third place.
Dad surprised me for Christmas and my wish to spend the holidays at the Burrow finally came true. We visited Hogsmeade for the first time and Penny confessed she had a crush on Bill. Sometimes I wonder if she still does, she has been helping him study for his Potions O.W.L. for the past 3 months and she seems to be handling it well.
Tonks, Tulip, Penny, and I almost ruined Christmas for everyone trying to learn the Snow-making charm and then helped the professors restore the School Grounds to normal. I still can't believe we weren't punished for that but got points instead.
However, my proudest achievement is when Charlie and I helped Bill ease his mind about his Career Meeting and his O.W.L.s as my dad offered him a Summer Internship to which Bill gladly said yes and was starting on the 1st of July.
My main focus for next year was going to be the O.W.L. for Care of Magical Creatures. I know I shouldn't stress about it in my Fourth Year, but when Professor Kettleburn told me that I might get to take care of a Salamander if I do well on my O.W.L. I was determined to achieve an Outstanding.
Talking about Care of Magical Creatures. I have to say that the class exceeded all my expectations. Not only did I learn a lot about different creatures and was the only one who managed to befriend a Hippogriff called Chestnut, but we also had to do an assignment to pick a creature from the Grasslands Reserve and take care of it for 2 months. I picked a Niffler since I knew a lot about Abraxans already and he was just too cute to resist.
I named him Perry and I had to go to Grasslands a couple of times per day to feed him. Which was a perfect opportunity to bond with him and I managed to complete two drawings of him as well. We had to study the creature and report back each week with everything new we have learned about our furry little friend.
Needless to say, I almost cried when Kettleburn told us that the assignment was over and we don't have to visit them anymore. However, most of us were so sad to hear that that Professor let us in the Reserve a few times per week so we could say hello and bond with our new friends.
Charlie and I also befriended a Slytherin named Barnaby as he was just as big of an animal lover as we were. Tonks surprised us all again when she got so attached to her Porlock that Kettleburn caught her as she was trying to smuggle it out of the Reserve.
I also tried to convince Charlie to not go snooping around and try to find a way into the Reserve as he was sure that if he went to Scorched Vale he would find a Dragon there. As much as I wanted for him to see one and as much as I wanted to see one too, I had to think rationally for both of us as Dragons are as dangerous as they are fascinating.
He finally gave up after 2 months and started listening to me and made me promise we would try next year, as we will be and I quote “much older and more prepared to handle a Dragon.”
We weren't surprised when in March, Penny started nagging us about exams. The second she started to talk about them, Tonks stood up and exited the Great Hall. She later told us that we are lucky we weren't sorted in Hufflepuff as she was listening to the same speech a month before Penny brought it up in front of the rest of us.
Just like most of the year, studying for the exams has been a blur to me. I remember Penny losing her patience with Tulip and Tonks as they didn't take her seriously during our Potions study sessions in the Library.
Charlie and I were so confident in our knowledge about Care of Magical Creatures that we took the time we would otherwise spend studying for it to bond with Barnaby and help Tonks study instead.
Tulip was doing surprisingly well in Transfiguration this year and I was in awe of how good her studying was when we were revising one night in our dormitory. She, however, had to help me with Astronomy, as I was so confused at what we were even doing in that class that I didn't even bother trying on my own.
Ancient Runes gave us the most trouble. Tulip, Charlie, Andre, Jae, and I formed a study group for that as we were talking one morning after class and realized that we were all having problems memorizing the runes and translating them.
Tonks helped us all with Herbology and at this point, it didn't even surprise us anymore as she was doing incredible in class all year and she was rather proud of it.
In the end, we all did quite well on our exams. Mostly O's and E's except History of Magic for which I was sure I would never get a grade above A. Penny, however, took her mission to take notes in the class seriously and got an O for the first time. She gave the notes to the rest of us as well but we couldn't be bothered by memorizing so many events and so many dates.
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When I was done packing, I went down for breakfast and while eating cereal, I decided to reply to my aunt. This would be the third year she invited me to visit her and stay for a week or two and help her with her Abraxans. I decided to surprise Charlie and ask her if he could come as well this year.
I am sure Molly wouldn't mind and I was certain that he would be over the roof as he would finally be able to meet Angel and won't have to be jealous while I send him pictures of my adventures with him.
I just gave the letter to Pip when Charlie dragged himself to the Great Hall and sat next to me.
“Morning.” He said in the same sleepy voice as every morning. I was wondering what Molly will do to his hair when he returns home as it was an even bigger mess than usual.
“Good morning. I have some news for you.” I grinned.
“You are coming to stay with me for the whole Summer?” He woke up immediately.
“Well, almost as good.” I chuckled and I couldn't help but wish that was true.
“What is it then?” He asked and poured himself some porridge.
“I just sent Pip to my aunt, asking her if you could accompany me to visit her this Summer.” He looked at me, his eyes widened.
“Are you serious?” His smile, bigger than ever.
“Of course. I wanted to invite you last year but everything happened so quickly.” He gave me a big hug.
“Do you think, she'll say yes?” He asked hopefully, still hugging me.
“I don't see why not?” I winked at him. That not only woke him up but made his day as well.
My invitation, however, wasn't the only one of that day. As Tulip, Tonks, Penny, Charlie, Bill and I sat down in our compartment on the train Penny told us that her dad invited us all to spend Summer at their home.
Tulip had to decline as she was sure her mum wouldn't be happy if she didn't help her around her coffee shop during Summer. She did, however, promise to at least come to stay for a night or two. Tonks said she would be more than happy to come as she couldn't wait to get an excuse not to stay at home.
Bill was more than proud to say that he wouldn't be able to make it as he got the Internship with my dad in Egypt and would return in the last week of August.
Charlie and I said that we have to wait for my aunt's reply but since I went there every year at the beginning of the Summer, I said that we would be glad to join them in August.
“Brilliant! It is going to be so much fun!” Clapped Penny. And I agreed. I have spent most of my time with Charlie and his family during the last two Summers and I always missed the girls. I was happy that I got an opportunity to do so this year.
Tulip wasn't happy about it as she couldn't help but feel left out. We promised that we would write to her as much as Pip could fly.
Tonks started predicting how Penny's house looks like since her dad is a Muggle and she replied that her dad couldn't wait to teach us about the Muggle world. Charlie wasn't very pleased about that as he knew his dad was going to want to know about everything he'll learn when he comes back home.
I, of course, wanted to reserve some time for my mum as well and I was hoping she could get at least a week off work before I go to Penny's so that we could visit dad and Bill in Egypt.
“What exactly will your dad teach us?” Charlie asked carefully.
“Oh, I am sure he will find something. He likes when we cook with him outside in the garden and makes us use Muggle recipes.” Penny smiled, reminiscing on something.
“He will probably want to teach you all about electricity and make you change a lightbulb.” She giggled.
“A light-what?” Tonks got confused. We all started laughing as it was obvious she didn't listen to Penny at all when she was telling us about her Summer when we took the train to school on 1st September.
I didn't mind learning about Muggle culture at all. I was kind of sad for not taking Muggle Studies when Penny started to describe all the objects they got to examine in class. So I couldn't wait to see what they have in their home.
I also promised Charlie that if his dad sends him too many letters about Muggles, I would help him reply to some of them. Even though he acted annoyed, I knew he was as excited to spend some time at Penny's as I was because it meant that he wouldn't be home for the whole Summer for the first time since we started school.
When our train stopped on Platform 9 ¾ and we had to say goodbye, we were as sad as every year because we were so used to seeing each other all the time. I couldn't help but wonder how hard this was going to be in our Seventh Year, when we will part ways, chasing our dream careers. I couldn't even imagine not seeing Charlie every day and I shook my head as I tried to tell myself that I have 4 more years before I had to worry about not seeing my red-haired best friend all the time.
Molly and my mum were waiting for us together, as usual, and pulled us all into a hug. Not much to my surprise, Charlie's hair was the first thing Molly commented on and she was already discussing with herself how she will cut it first thing tomorrow.
I said goodbye to Tulip, Tonks, and Penny and wished Bill all the luck on his Internship. I couldn't help but be a little jealous since he was going to spend more time with my dad than I was. Mum, however, surprised me when she told me she had two whole weeks off and just as she had to go back to work were we planning to go to Penny's.
There wasn't a doubt in my mind that this Summer was going to be just as amazing as the other two before it, when I said goodbye to Charlie, Bill, and Molly and mum asked me if I wanted to get ice cream from Florean Fortescue's Ice Cream Parlour in Diagon Alley before we go home.
END OF PART 3
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Holy shit, this will be so much fun B-) *cracks knuckles*
Ask me: FANDOM EDITION
A - Your current OTP
Uhhh pff,,, skeleton dance I think?? I mean sure, skelley dance is always my current OTP, ngl. They're basically made for eachother, hell, even craig himself wore tshirts and stuff with wander hugging hater ifthisisn'tcannonthenidkwhatitis
B - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind
To be honest,, wander x beza. I used to dislike every wander x girl ship bcs I see him as gae and nothing else. But I have a friend who does lots of art with them so I think it grew on me more and more with time?? Now I think they would look cute together, even if i'm still not super big on it.
C - A pairing you have never liked and probably never will
Wnder x domi. No comment, I despise it with all my heart 😂😂 Like I said earlier, I don't like most of wander x girl ships, and domi really hates wander. Sooo this ship simply doesn't make sense to me,, lmfao.
D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t
I think Twi x Flash from mlp. Yeah, I thought twi was cute when crushing on him in the 1st EG movie but they don't seem to have that chemistry I was hoping for. Plus I haven't seen any recent episodes of mlp in a long time, though I heard ppl say that he was mean to her once, if I remember well? Anyways, doesn't work so much for me.
E - Have you added anything stupid/cracky/hilarious to your fandom, if so, what
Besides memes/ shitposts, not really. Check @gunxball if you want to see posts of mine back when I was into gumball 2 yrs ago (golly i miss those times)
F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom
Probably su (2016-2019) or kid vs kat (2011-2014)
G - Do you remember your first OTP, if so who was in it
Why yes, of course I do. cosmo x wanda from fop. They were so adorbs together esp in the first 2 seasons. Don't like how they got so flanderized with time, their dynamic was absolutely destroyed, and my day was ruined when I found out.
H - Do you prefer characters from real action series or anime series
I don't watch either lolol
But I think anime.
I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why
Dislike the fandom, not the show itself? Probably hzbin hotel. The show has a pretty neat concept and animation and it had such a big impact on my artstyle when I first watched it. But the fandom? Absolute hell. (pun intended)
From shipping wars, to pestering vivz, anything is possible. Glad I haven't actually interacted with that part of the fandom.
J - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr
Not a show but among us. Back in september/october last year, my tl was FILLED with among us, up and down. Made me a lil tired of it but once I tried playing that game, I couldn't stop. Also the owlhouse, fell in love with the artstyle and story.
K - How do you feel about the other people in your current fandom
I don't have a current fandom. Not feeling in the mood + school + inactivity bcs of school. So I'll say abt my latest fandom, which was animaney. Well, people were really nice, and they seemed to enjoy the reboot. Nothing more to say tbh,,
L - Your favorite fanartist/author gives you one request, what do you ask for
Ummm I don't really like giving rqs to my fave artists, i don't wanna bother them haha
M - Your favorite fanart or fanartist
I don't know aaaa, prolly toonipi but she also draws ocs, not just fanart.
N - Your favorite fanfiction or fanauthor
Anything cute or sappy with skelleydance (NO nsfw)
O - Choose a song at random, which OTP does it remind you of
Lasers and feelings. Skellydance again. It matches sO well-
P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas)
I used to have a skatepark AU ft. su chars but never put anything over here. I still have the sketches from 9th grade lmao.
Q - A ship you’ve abandoned and why
To be completely honest, Amydot. Up until s3 they really gave me possible ship vibes. They interacted a lot, and peri discovered her metal powers thanks to amy. But after s3 they hardly ever interacted anymore (besides that one ep from s5 with the kindergarden). I was so dissapointed, but hey lapdot isn't so bad anyway, right?
R - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships
Back in 2014 I would have said chred from angry birds, definitely. Not many really shipped them, and when I saw some fanart of them on dA everyone would say "ew, gae". Well, 2014 everyone. I was always like "so?? i like that ship, what's the problem??"
S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon
Uhmm, i headcanon darwin from tawog that he likes to yodel lol
T - If you mostly have homoships, do you have any heteroships
I think my ships are 50-50, but here are some examples:
Larsdie
Stevnnie
Blckeye
Fluttrcord
Beeckard
Starc0
Tanyamao
Foxodile
Pennball
Carwin
U - If you mostly have heteroships, do you have any homoships
Same as T. Another examples:
Skelleydance
Wnderingeye
Sylava
Lumty
Rupphre
Pearlmthyst
Badgrmao
Bubbline
Flutterdsh
Patbob
V - Are you one of those fans who can’t watch anything without shipping
Lol no. Tbh, i'm not super big on shipping either. I only slighty like/dislike any ship i listed earlier (with the exception of skelleydance, i'm too in love with that ship)
W - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms
wakko warner (animaney)
wander (woy)
fluttershy (mlp)
amethyst (su)
bubbles (ppg)
X - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms
skelleydance (woy)
lumty (toh)
stevnnie (su)
Y - A fandom you’re in but have no ships from
kid cosmic (or maybe I do ship papa g w/ chuck), animaney, okko, gravity flls
Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go
That one fan made episode from su called the smothering, it was so freaking amazing. It helped a lot in relieveing the pain of that big hiatus from 2017 (which was the biggest one, i literally turned into a skeleton waiting for new eps). Loved peri's needy personality, as well as lappy's playful one. It was so well written, like it could be perfectly fit as a role reversal episode in the main show.
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"I have an A-, so let me steal you art."
I had this friend clear back in junior high. Well, she was more of an acquaintance than a friend. We will call her Miss.
I met Miss in my 8th grade. She had moved to the area during summer. I'm the type of person who tries to include those who aren't being included anywhere else. And, due to the fact that she was a new student who didn't move in part way in the year, she was alone. (When new kids come part way, they are swarmed by students.) Miss and I had a few of the same interests. Anime, especially Naruto, we loved making music, and though she was a tad overweight, she loved to run (which I thought was awesome).
Anyways. Even though we had connected in some places, Miss always made me feel...uneasy. She had this tendency to jump headfirst into something. Sometimes, it equaled out into a grand talent, other times, she had a severe addiction to Sims. But, due to this motivation she wore, her math skills were above and beyond. Miss was a year younger than me and was already in my math class. I was, and still am, terrible at math. It doesn't click for me. It is normal for me to stay in the D range for my math, even after doing all the worksheets, studying many hours every night and taking every test. At least I tried.
Miss refused to tutor me at all. Which was fine. Her choice. I do not think she quite grasped how tough math was for me. There was one day she came in and said, "Aren't you excited to take calculus with me. We should be in it the same time in high school." I just laughed. (I never even made it to pre-cal.) There was a strange thing I noticed though. Miss was absent every single test. I thought it was something that should be addressed. But, I had watched her do assignments and they were a breeze for her. I wouldn't see a reason for her to cheat.
Toward the end of our first semester, Miss had noticed that I drew on a regular basis. I'm an artist. Far more so now than back then. I can't even look at my art from junior high without cringing. She asked for me to draw her something. I was delighted and said yes. Whipping her up something that was similar to other pieces I had done. It was on line paper and wasn't the best thing I had accomplished by that age.
As the semester was coming to a close, I realized the likelihood of me getting a D+ by the end was small. That meant I wouldn't be able to go on the school trip. Which, as you would imagine, devastated me. The last chance I had was an art project my math teacher would do every term. It still involved math, but a creative outlook on it. This one was based on a radius of a circle. So someone could draw a dog with a leash as the radius, and the grass may create a circle around the dog. As long as it had that idea, it counted. And, the art was judged, first and second places received extra credit. Basically, this was salvation for the super artsy students.
There hadn't ever been a term where I didn't get first place. I got first place the year prior as well. This was the only way I had passed. I attempted to think outside the box. (As the dog and leash was used regularly.) I ended up drawing an angel with broken wings, chained at her ankle with a sort of magic suppression circle beneath her.
After the drawings were judged, the teacher would go through all of them and show the class. The last two were shown as 2nd and 1st place. Some people had cute ideas and then he went to 2nd place. I saw my drawing. The one I had turned in. I got 2nd place. That never happened. And then, he lifted up 1st place. I also saw my drawing. Mine. The one I had drawn for Miss. The speed at which I twisted to turn my body toward her must have given her the hint that I wasn't happy. She later came up to me and said, "I'm sorry. I needed the extra credit, I'm at an A-."
I didn't say anything to her at the moment. I was fueled with anger and anything that would have come from my mouth likely would have been nonsense. But it bothered me that she wasn't willing to tutor me for ten minutes, and then proceeded to claim my art as her own while I failed.
I let it go for awhile. I still refused to speak to her, yet, my animosity only grew when I saw her absent for the final test, and, as I saw one of her friends she had made taking pictures of his test.
At the end of class and test taking, I walked up to the teacher with a giant binder of all of my art. I declared that she had stolen my art and displayed him my works in the binder. One of which was extremely similar to what I had drawn for her. My teacher said, "When I saw her piece, I even thought it was similar to your art." I then told the teacher that it seemed strange that Miss was absent every single test. The teacher knitted his brow and pulled out our attendance records and skimmed through it before saying, "AEON, thank you for bringing this to my attention. You may go."
For awhile, I didn't hear if anything had happened to Miss. Semester was about to come to a close, I still had a D- and winter break was on its way. But, one day, I come into class and sit down. Miss comes up behind me and sits in her own. I still hadn't exchanged words to her and then I hear:
"Miss, could you come here?" I glanced at the teacher and he gave me a smile that eased my entire being. Miss made her way to the teacher and I got to eat every bit of the conversation. "Miss, it has come to my attention that you do not deserve the extra credit of coming in first place. A friend of AEON's approached me and showed me proof that it was a gift she had given you. You are aware that even though art may be given as a gift, you can not and should not claim it as your own unless the artist agrees you may?" I heard subtle agreements from Miss. "Good," the teacher continued, "with your understanding of such, I'm sure you understand why I must give AEON not just the extra credit from earning 2nd place, but 1st place as well, giving her 70 points of extra credit." He seemed to say that especially loud. That amount would put me beyond a D+. I was thrilled.
It didn't stop though, the teacher kept going, but quieted his voice as more students filed in. "I have been going over your attendance. I found a glaring inconsistency in your absents. You have been gone every single test." I heard a rustle of papers. "As you can see, there isn't a single test you weren't absent for. Thus, you took them on a later date after school. I have spent the last couple weeks investigating this and have found that another student in this class had been taking pictures of the test and sending it to you. Are you willing to confirm this at this time? Or, would you like to wait until we have a meeting with your parents."
Silence.
Pure, revengeful silence. All those years practicing my art wasn't going to be abused. I figured that she must have known that I was the reason for such knowledge to pop up and I didn't care by this point. I didn't need to say a single thing to her.
Miss finally spoke. "I am good at math, AEON can confirm that." I had to stifle a laugh, because, I honestly could. I watched her math in front of me all the time.
"Meeting it is then. I would like you to know that we have records of the text messages between you and the person who sent the images. He will also be joining the meeting. Whether or not you are good at math won't change the situation. In the end, you may need to retake this course."
Miss gave a brief, "Okay," and sauntered to her desk.
I didn't get to know much after that. As much as I wanted to hear everything, the teacher still needed to uphold a safe environment. That being said, there are some cherries on this cake worth taking note when I saw her again in high school. While I knew we were about to be in the same school again, I had no plans on reaching out. She sought me out though and pulled me aside.
Miss went on to say that I destroyed a lot of her parents' faith in her as well as her teachers'. Her entire school life was dissected and studied. They found further errors where they had figured out where she had been cheating. Any respect teachers found in her had decayed. Her final year in junior high was a mass of redoing classes and taking online classes to catch up and be ready for high school. I had ruined a lot of her life. And then Miss said, "I'm happy you did it while I was in junior high before someone called me out in college. I don't think I would have stopped if I hadn't been taken down. Since then I've been actually trying. I've even lost weight!" (I'm not sure what the weight thing had to do with me ruining her reputation, but, that's what she said.)
I went on to tell her that that's great and I hoped she would continue to prosper in her education and body, but I did let her know that I wouldn't be able to have a relationship with her again. I mentioned that having someone steal my art after I gifted it to them quaked a lot of my trust and I haven't given anyone my artwork since. (I have now after five years being out of high school.) She understood and took it well.
I feel like this is pro-revenge in two ways. One, I gave her her comeuppance, I got my revenge. I received my extra credit plus some. I went on the school trip when she didn't. Everything fell exactly where I wanted it. But, two, I also helped her stop cheating her way through life, inevitably leading to a better future. Who knows, she may have fallen back in her ways, but at the time, everything worked out.
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Love Drowned
@dianakko-week Day 3 : how they fell in love
pairing : diakko / dianakko (diana + atsuko)
reading time : ~ 5min
approximate word count : 1200
context : this is an AU where Luna Nova is a normal school, but with professional SWIMMERS in training, in stead of witches. Diana talks about her days to her dead mother through her diary. As the days go by, Diana tends to write more and more about Akko, not even realizing she is spilling her love interest to her mother.
I based the ‘moment they fell in love’, on the episode of the anime, where there is the big witch ceremonial festival, where Diana summons a unicorn, and the red team get eaten by a big sad ghost. Yeah, that’s that.
(i’m also sorry i got to lazy to properly finish this, but i will try to continue this AU later on. alsotheendingisapracticaljoke, it doesn't actually happen, lmao)
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(Sun) September 1st , 2014
Good evening Bernadette,
Today is the last day of summer, which means, school is starting over. Finally.
New year, new beginnings.
As you already well know, vacation has always been a time of the year I dread most. Having to endure two months of it, is an amount of time utterly painful for me. How can I become the world’s greatest swimmer, if so much time of my life is wasted on things else than training?
But alas, time has come.
This also means, there are only two more years before graduation, and I’ll be off to university. Each year passing by, has only got more thrilled!
Jeana is worried about me. She says that ever since you pa , ever since you told us your farewells, she has judge me too hard of a worker. Though she is always so polite, it seems she is inclined to using the term “sportaholic”. She says it would pain you to see me so deep into my training, “never taking a brake” as she puts it. Is it true? Do you worry for me? For I must assure you, I find myself most fine and content in my hard work. I hope you can see that.
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(M) September 2nd , 2014
Good evening Bernadette,
Today went by quickly. Nothing much changed since last year. My classmates are almost all the same. Anna and Barbara are still by my side, like always. They haven’t changed either. Always chattering and blabbing about anything and everything. I’d forgot how much I preferred to be alone. I usually find the silence quite comforting. I believe the library will yet again be my best friend. Although I must say, nothing can ever relieve my heart the way you do. You’ve been such a great friend and listener to me all these years, through and through. I certainly can’t thank you enough. I miss you. Always.
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(F) September 6th , 2014
Good evening Bernadette,
For the first in a long time, a new student has arrived in our school. She is from a foreign country. Japan. She will be in my class for the year.
As head of school club comity, and Luna Nova’s best student, it was my duty to accompany her throughout the school. After the tour, we said our goodbyes, and I haven’t payed much attention to her since. Or at least, I tried. Work is always more interesting than most people of course. Yet, in the little time this new girl has been here, she’s been making quiet a fool out of herself.
She doesn’t listen in class, often distracts everyone with her unspeakable manners, and worst of all, when we did our first swimming lesson, she didn’t know how to dive! It was quite ridiculous seeing her in such struggle. I am still perplexed as to how Luna Nova could allow such low trained commoner enter our team.
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(W) September 27th 2014
Good evening Bernadette,
Today was spent making preparations for the synchronized swimming event we are holding next week. Establishments from all around the United Kingdom and Ireland will be participating. The festival is something quite intense and a bit stressful for our teachers and the principal. It is why I naturally accepted to help with the making of posters and to organize the new shower head delivery and the arrangements of new pool filters to complete the renovations.
The event must be perfect. After all, Luna Nova has its reputation at stake.
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(F) September 30th 2014
Good evening Bernadette,
Today was the great “Luna Nova Autumn Dive Festival”. Everything was in order. Everything was perfect.
All the snacks had been laid out, posters put in place, showers scrubbed, and prizes stored.
When th evening started, the classes of Dublin were the first to present. Then came that of Limerick. Then Whales and London. Aberdeen, Edimburg, Cambridge, thus leaving the hosts for last.
Each school had remarkable performances, though the judges seemed particularly unimpressed.
I had spent the night before the event, embroidering our ancestral coat of arms on my suit, believing it would provide me with our family’s hope and strength.
So finally came my turn.
Although the event held most rules from the sport, some other specific things were allowed too. This is why the girls and I had agreed on making a very special move at the end of our performance.
As the show unraveled, after spinning a few times at the top of the water, all three of us plunged under the surface. Anna went at the bottom of the pool, while Barbara put herself on her hands. This allowed me to go on top of her, and to push through the surface of the water, with a back layout flip before diving back into the water without disturbing it.
As I swam to the ladder and pulled myself out of the pool, multiple students from other teams came running at my side to congratulate me. The crowd all around also seemed quite impressed. I must say the recognition of my hard work was quiet comforting.
I wish you had been there to see it.
actually… you’re right. There is something else. Something troubling me... It’s about Atsuko Kagari. You know, the new foreign student.
Because this event concerned our school, all of our classes had to participate, meaning that even though the new girl could barely swim a few laps without running out of breath, she still had to put on a show, like everyone else. Yet, she didn’t seem discouraged at all. Quite the opposite actually. She was fierce and determined. Until the very last second, she was training in the second pool, to make sure she could compete.
I’ve seen her train. Day after day she stayed past school curfew, sneaking at night into the pool, to work and train. But what was most shocking, was the look she gave,that day ; when she came out of the pool and through the changing room, still dripping, and stared at me dead in the eyes : “Watch me.” was all she said, before entering the second pool to show the judges.
The power this girl holds, just bewilders me. Though she says she doesn’t want to prove herself to anyone, I simply refuse to believe her. How could such a frail girl hold such determination…
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(W) October 14th 2014
Good evening,
Atsuko Kagari is such a pain.
Let me enlighten you on the subject. She has been continuously falling behind the program and her grades are disastrous! This implies she has to work extra time, thus meaning she hasn’t any time from training, and though professor Ursula has been her assigned mentor, she has been notably unable to provide Atsuko with the right aid, so, the teacher counselors have now turned to me.
I used to love helping people. It has always been my noble “cup of tea”, but when it comes to Atsuko, my patience suddenly vacates me immediately. No matter the effort I give, it is like she is bound to go toward the opposite of scholar success. This doesn’t either amply her troublesome attitude, which has already caused her near expulsion for the third time this week.
I am lost to what to do. Some help would much be appreciated. Until next time.
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*many, many, MANY pages later*
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(F) December 13th 2014
Evening,
I think im gay
#diakko#dianakko#dianakko week 2019#lwa#lwa diana#diana cavendish#akko#lwa akko#atsuko kagari#diana x akko#lwa fanfic
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Book 2 FAQ!
Book 1 FAQ
Beginning of Book 2
Dang y’all, 14 chapters done for Book 2! It’s been a little bit of a struggle to hash them out on time BUT I deliver. I’ve asked, y’all keyboard smashed in my inbox...let’s get INTO IT!
4 KIDS?!
Yep. And all 4 of them are full of personality! I guess I dreamt them up to convey all of the unspoken parts of the My Hero universe (canon or not).
Are the kid’s names in relation to their abilities?
No unfortunately, they’re names are based on their personalities/the major event that happened around the time they were born (no spoilers about it tho! Gotta read book 3 to know why!). Lili Perla is based off of Pearl from Steven Universe and their character type. Iwata El Roca is a nod to Luchador’s names and a character that passed away in the AU to honor them. Tensei Oro is a play on their family position, Tensei was the first born twin and his uncle was the first born, Oro is spanish for ‘gold’ and it’s a play on being first (ya know, because they give gold medals for 1st place!). Hanaka Rosa is a double trope name, Hanaka (Japanese: hana- flower, ka- power) is a nod to the tough girls with flower names in anime and Rosa (spanish: Rose) is a name used in telenovelas as the woman that causes all the romantic tension. I did the whole Japanese first name, Spanish middle name because thats what I want to do when I do have kids.
Why did Mineta have to be in this AU?
I hear you! The thing is that I DREAMT it like this. He’s the slightly incompetent teacher that gets dunked on by the parents. Good news is that he’s single and isn’t as gross in this part of the AU. He’s this AU’s punching bag if you will.
It was weird when you wrote in hate-crime/dorm incident bc I didn’t think about it that way...Why did you decide to explore it?
That part felt important to me to write. Yes the canon shows like actual crimes of different intensities, but not nessatreily hate-crimes done in schools. As you know, being LGBTQA+ in grade school is a terrifying thing to express if don’t want to stand out. The constant fear of peers judging you, bullies hurting you and teachers that seemingly don’t care about you if you come out is enough to silence anybody. Imagine that but in a hero school?! The hate-crime would be a villainous act and the culprit would have to do desperate measures to make sure nobody rats on them to maintain a clean image/record. Plus on the flip side, any ally that stands up for their oppressed peer is hailed the hero but they wouldn’t have to stand up for them if there were real consequences and punishment for the bullies. So in the AU, I wrote it how I’d want such hate-crimes to be handled. Not only justice but also accommodations for the victim.
The Mcdonalds order cracks me up! What is your Mcdonalds order?
I throughly enjoyed the Mcdonalds order part too. It’s a nod to the proposal in Book 1 when they went to Mcdonalds before the peer over. I wrote it to show that the family goes every now and then. My order is: Triple Cheeseburger, Large fries, Large sweet tea, 2 sausage and egg McMuffins & a cone. And yes, there will be a Mcdonalds order for every child because it drives the plot.
Will there be more interactions with the pro heroes from the canon series?
YES! Though old, theres more interactions planned with them. Of course, it’s all in Book 3 (trying not to spoil anything!).
Is it spoiler if you tell us if your kids (or one of them) becomes a villain?
I’ll tell y’all right now....NONE of my kids becomes a villain. It might look like one or two of them might from the way I wrote them but they’re just latina.
Will one of your kids be the next Ingenium?
Yes but I won’t tell you which one. But I can’t wait to reveal it to y'all!
I see all the call-backs to your self insert character’s past...Is it alluding to the conclusion?
I dreamt it as such and I fixed it in writing as a way to come full circle. Notice that Lili didn’t get any of her mom’s past from her mom? It wasn’t until when she confronted her on the couch in chapter 13. Even then, it wasn’t the full story nor did it fill in all the cracks and time skips after her mom’s time at UA. In Book 3, we explore more of the past. The conclusion is yet to be revealed.
How big is that house?!
It’s a little hard to explain? I want to say its big but parts of the house are disproportionate. It’s a two story house with no attic nor basement, 3 bath room, Master bedroom, 2 large bedrooms, office space, guest room, full kitchen, dining room, large living room, three car garage and a decent size backyard. What I’m trying to say that it’s big enough for that chaotic ass family.
Where’s Aizawa?!
Let the mans rest! He’s alive but he’s busy being a grandpa and taking naps.
Canon villains OwO?
Y’all ate UP the Dabi surrender in Book 1 and his little mention in Book 2. But in this AU (not to spoil anything to anime only and manga dabblers) the League of Villains are still rampant but dispersed. In Book 3 (and part of Book 4) they pop in to drive the plot from a canon storyline. In the series, the rookie Hawks has been seen as a double agent and exposes a corrupt Hero Society. Same concept but in this AU, Hawks has gone missing when he failed to kill Best Jeanist. Here’s where the kids go into play BUT more on that as the plot progresses!
I really want to see art of these OCs! I wanna see how Iida’s genes transferred over to his kids!
I hear y'all! I’ve slid into DM during commission windows and have the means to pay for some line art at least...but with no responses. I’ve got my self insert character done in this post if you wanna check it out plus the artist was super sweet during the whole process. I may commission them again when they got a window of commissions open. But I may do a lineart of the kid’s faces in the near future.
What if....hypothetically....Shinso stayed?
Oh boy, okay so the Shinso stans have BOMBARDED my asks since the last arc of Book 1. So what if Shinso stayed...obviously I wouldn’t have 4 kids, just the one that we were gonna have. We wouldn’t be married and overall just be loveless the more we see our friends get married and start families. The company would still be there but delayed by 5 years or so. Our son would grow up to convince me and Shinso to separate when they get at around High school age. Tenya still wouldn’t have said anything but done the reunited part differently. I would’ve considered cheating but morals would’ve stopped me. Eventually, when our son decides to move out, we’d stay as housemates and basically die alone....aren’t you glad this AU isn’t such a downer?! Luckily things are patched up with my self insert and Shinso, because he comes into play in Book 3!
Eri Nurse! In your AU!
Yup! I’ve actually read some NurseEri! AUs on twitter and Tumblr (btw, some of y’all that like my posts have good taste in fics!) and it manifested in my dreams and created UA Nurse Eri. She shows up a few more times in the AU, so don’t fret if Eri is your fave.
Is it okay if I follow you on a different platform? Do you have another social media that I can follow you on?
You can follow me on Twitter (@oketsusama). It’s my personal twitter that I repost memes and get my news from. So it’s not as poppin as my Tumblr, but at least it’s AU free over there lmao.
What’s you favorite rare pair in the My Hero canon storyline?
Oh! and DON’T hate me, but I stan the Sero x Iida rare pair! There’s crumbs of the pair on twitter and here but the ones that I did read got me in tears. If you haven’t seen this tag on twitter and Tumblr, DO IT! The one on twitter had a lot of angst in it and it got me HOOKED on some of that goofball with their geeky partner energy.
Not a question, but I like your //Palma-sama Speaks in the tags. They’re funny and makes your posts that much more personalized.
I will cry! Thanks for reading that far! I like doing the ‘talking in the tags’ thing to basically point out the callbacks to new readers that stumbled upon that chapter of the AU.
How long is this AU?!
It’s quite long BUT the ending is marvelous, trust.
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Thanks for reading! That’s all the asks for now, keep asking them! I love reading them. Next is the finale of Book 2! Everything will still come out 2-3 days of each other until further notice. Stay safe, drink water!
-Palma-Sama
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Field Trip 2019
So this years Fieldtrip was kinda boring, it wasn't worth 1,500 pesos, we were in the bus for almost 16 hours with half of the Grade 9 and some of the Grade 12 students, I was so dizzy the whole day, couldn't sleep properly because the others were too noisy.
First we left the school by 6 AM because our classmate Lara was late, we were suppose to leave by 5:30 AM yet Lara was late so we have to leave by 6 AM, we met the tourist guide and the driver. We were so noisy for 2 hours, my seatmate was Zander, we only talked when I need something or he needs something, me and my group friends were just eating and talking all the day, this is me before I was feeling sick and messy.
After hours of travelling we arrived at our first destination Paete, Laguna around 11:30 AM, we went to the church and learned about how the church was made with feces and mud only, how the paintings were made by using animals blood and chicken feathers. We also learned that Paete is The Carving Capital of the Philippines, they carved wood, stone, ice, foods, etc. We were there for 1 hour and 30 mins, we met people who are great carving items, watched them, and the other students got a souvenir for answering the tourist guide's questions, then we left the place by 12:50 PM and ate our lunches on our way to UP Los Banos.
( Bus Tour )
While we were eating our lunches, we arrived at our second destination UPLB yet we missed it our chance to go inside because we were late so we already missed 2 destinations, we paid for 1,500 pesos yet we missed 2 of our destination. We were in the bus for almost 4 hours and the other Grade 9 deciced to join our bus and ruined our sleep :))
( Lakbay Museo )
We almost thought we were going to miss our last destination ( Lakbay Museo ) yet they moved the time and we went to Lakbay Museo, this were the only time we were happy because we got to enjoy the whole museum, we ate unique filipino foods and go home.
In the 1st to 3rd pictures it's the display in Lakbay Museo about Filipino Culture and Traditions, the last 2 pictures were the time we took pictures before we go home and sleep.
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Going Once (Stucky)
Pairing: Steve Rogers x Bucky Barnes
Tags: High school AU, punk Bucky, Nerd Steve, First kiss, first date, drop out Bucky, artist Steve, pre-serum Steve, asthma, fluff, charity auction, diners, and milkshakes.
warnings: None
Description: Bucky helps out his sister, Becca, with her school auction fundraiser and it doesn’t actually suck.
Bucky’s still not sure how he got himself roped into this mess. Maybe the fact that he had never learned to say no to Rebecca was to blame, but all she ever had to do was batter her sweet blue eyes at him and he was gone. Becca had been through enough in her life already, Bucky didn’t need to leave her feeling alone too. Still, he wishes he’d denied her this, as he’s walking up the steps to the large building on the end of 1st street. On a day to day basis, Bucky couldn’t tell you what the building was for, but it was rented out often for town events such as this.
The particular event that Bucky wasn’t just attending but being forced to participate in was some kind of fundraiser. Becca had said it was for her school if he remembers right. The event was set up to be like some kind of auction. Girls and boys from Becca's school would choose to either be up for auction or to bid. Several girls and boys will walk out onto a platform and people will have a chance to bid on them. Once there’s a winner, the money bid being given to the charity, the two have the option to go on a dinner “date” paid for by the school. The whole thing sounded bizarre but Bucky had been willing to help out until he realized exactly what helping entailed.
“Becca, come on,” Bucky whined desperately, dragging his feet as he followed behind her into the building. They were here early (per her request) and the place was already stuffed full of high school and middle school students. “No one is gonna care if I’m not here.”
She spun on her heels to flash him a glare. “Yes, they will. I put your name on the roster. Come on, James, you promised.”
“That was before I realized helping you meant I had to be one of the things being auctioned off,” Bucky reminded, following her close with his hands jammed in his pockets. He was wearing a dress shirt with his leather jacket over it and some jeans, nothing fancy, even though she tried to wrangle him into a suit. She looked much nicer than he did, her long hair tied into a bun and dressed in heels and a long navy blue dress.
“It’s for a good cause,” she said, smiling. “It’ll be fine, everyone here still knows you.”
“Was that supposed to make me feel better?”
“Come on, I’ll be up there too.”
Bucky sighed. “Yeah, okay. You owe me.”
She laughed as she waved at someone she knew, lining up behind the other people ready for the auction. “No, I don’t,” she said simply before pulling him into line with her.
There were about a dozen people ahead of them so he had time before he had to step out in front of a bunch of people he didn’t really know and then let them bid actual money on him. There was no way he was doing dinner, though. No girl could be cute enough to talk him into that when he could go home and lay in bed, cursing his sisters' name. They could have the whole thing to themselves.
Bucky waited somewhat anxiously in line for what seemed like ages before the auction even began, after that everything was so loud he just tuned it all out and waited for his sentence. He could hear the thump of music playing and guys and girls hollering and cheering over some man raffling off numbers faster than Bucky could understand. Rebecca seemed very much in her element though, bouncing in place, chatting happily with the girl in front of her.
Seeing her so happy almost made it all worth it until the man was loudly announcing the next group and Rebecca was tugging at his arm to follow. “Come on, that’s us!”
Bucky followed like some kind of pack animal onto the platform, which felt much higher up than it had seemed from the ground. There were stage lights on overhead that made it almost impossible for Bucky to see, especially out into the audience. They lined up and everyone clapped and cheered and Bucky wanted to sink into the floor. He hadn’t seen almost 90% of these kids since he dropped out last year and really, he didn’t miss it.
The man shouted out their numbers, 15-22, Bucky being 19 and Becca 20, and then the bidding began. It started at only two bucks, which seemed ridiculous but it didn’t actually take that long before the girl a few people down from him was being bet on with numbers well up in the twenties. She was auctioned off in the end to one of her friends, who was laughing hysterically as she forked over thirty-two bucks. The bidding went on down the line in similar fashion, some only getting up to ten dollars and some nearly at fifty. It seemed like a perfect setup for hurt feelings and bad self-confidence but he shut his mouth.
When the bidding reached Bucky, his face was hot and he was more than ready to get the hell off the stage. There were one or two small bids placed after several long and agonizing seconds, likely from people not knowing who the hell he was. But then, like a fucking blessing from above, a voice shouted out over the music and hollered, “fifty bucks!”
A lot of people started whooping and clapping, including his sister who jabbed him in the side with her elbow, grinning ear to ear at him. Unsurprisingly, no one topped the ridiculous bid and then Bucky was helped off the stage and lead to the bidder. Now he just had to excuse himself from the night and leave the person with a lot of food.
“Here’s the coupon, just give it to the restaurant after you eat and they’ll comp it, have fun,” the woman said, handing it to Bucky, who looked like she was probably a teacher that had been roped into the ordeal.
“Oh, right, thanks,” he mumbled, looking up to find a guy grinning at him when they stopped walking. It took him way to long to realize that the guy in front of him, wearing a nice blue dress shirt, hair all combed nicely, was who’d won the bid. “Is this some kind of joke?” Bucky asked dryly.
“What?” the teen asked in response, raising an eyebrow.
“Is this some kind of joke,” Bucky repeated. “Because I’m not interested in playing some ‘hah, gay guy’ kinda joke, alright?”
The guy laughed softly in response, cheeks getting pink as he ducked his head. “No, no, it isn’t uh, it isn’t a joke, actually.”
“Then what?”
“I’m Steve,” he offered instead, jutting a slender hand out. He was tall, about Bucky’s height, lean and actually rather handsome. “We had an art class together before you uh-”
“Dropped out,” Bucky finished, shaking Steve’s hand awkwardly. “Right, sorry last year is kind of a blur, honestly.”
“No, no! It’s fine!” Steve said, quickly shaking his head. “I didn’t expect you to remember me, we never really talked.”
“You remembered me,” Bucky pointed out with a shrug. Steve just turned redder in response.
“I just saw you and uh, you looked really miserable, honestly?”
Bucky snorted, jerking his head at the door. “Wanna talk outside, where it isn’t deafening?”
“Huh? Oh, yes, please,” Steve smiled widely, following Bucky out.
Once they were outside, leaning against the wall around the corner, Bucky lit of a cigarette and tried to relax. “Want one,” he asked, holding the pack out, to which Steve quickly shook his head.
“No, thanks. I don’t smoke. Asthma.”
Bucky chuckled and nodded. “Alright. So, did you really just blow fifty dollars just to get me off stage from looking uncomfortable?”
Steve scratched the back of his head, staring pointedly at his feet. “Well, I mean, no. not exactly, anyway.”
“Then, why?”
“Honestly?”
“Yeah, for real,” Bucky nodded, blowing smoke slowly out his nose. “No bull.”
Steve exhaled, biting at his lip before opening his mouth. “Honestly, I was kinda hoping you’d go to that dinner with me?” he admitted, eyeing Bucky nervously.
“What? as what?”
“As…” Steve hesitated. “Maybe as a date?”
Bucky nearly choked on an inhale of smoke, coughing as he looked at Steve, but there wasn’t any trace of a joke there. Steve looked sincere and like he was maybe ready to hide under a rock. “Wow, you’re fuckin’ serious.”
“I mean, yeah.”
“You don’t even know me,” Bucky said, feeling a little awkward. The guy seemed really sincere and sweet but it all still felt really strange and set up. He could maybe remember seeing him in the hall a couple times before when he was still in school, but he couldn’t remember a single time they’d spoken before now.
Steve shrugged. “I’ve had a crush on you since seventh grade,” Steve laughed awkwardly. He was beet red now and it was making Bucky feel kind of bad. “And James, I’d really like to get to know you.”
“Bucky,” he said, waving a hand off at him. “Only my sister calls me James, honestly.”
“Bucky,” Steve mimics, smiling a little wider. “I think I’d like to get to know you a little better.” he tugged at the cuff of his shirt nervously before adjusting the thick-framed glasses perched on his nose.
Bucky smiled a little as he put the butt of his cigarette out on the wall behind him. Steve was beyond awkward, someone Bucky probably would have openly avoided in high school, but he seemed sweet and it wasn’t like he was still in contact with anyone from his previous high school clique. Becca was probably already off with a friend or some boy and she’d text him when she was ready anyway. “Yeah, alright, why not?”
“For real?” Steve gaped and Bucky laughed out loud, nodding.
“Yeah, let’s go eat, I’m starved.”
“Yeah, yeah!” Steve agreed feverishly, grinning so wide Bucky thought it might hurt his face. “Me too- I’m hungry.”
“Alright, dork,” Bucky shook his head and headed towards his car. “I’ll drive us there.”
Steve climbed into the passenger seat without any grace, even fumbling with the seatbelt while Bucky started up the car, letting the engine whine in protest for a moment before backing out of the parking lot. “So, there’s like five restaurants doing this coupon thing,” Bucky said, turning on the radio. “Where do you wanna go?”
Steve was bouncing his knee, looking out the window as Bucky drove. “Oh, uh, Kathy’s?”
“The diner?”
“Yeah, if that works?”
Bucky nodded and headed towards the small restaurant towards the edge of town. Bucky had only been there a few times before but the food had always been good and the music and decor made it feel like the ’60s. When they pulled in, it looked mostly empty, which was fine by Bucky. The fewer people he had to see, the better.
They headed in, nabbing a table towards the back and the waitress took the coupon and their drink orders before leaving them to talk.
“You didn’t get a milkshake?” Steve asked, almost in disbelief.
“No?”
“Have you ever had one from here before?”
“No, why? It’s just a milkshake, I don’t think my Dr. Pepper is gonna kill me,” Bucky chuckled, checking his phone briefly for any texts or calls from Rebecca.
“No, but you’re missing out,” Steve said, smiling as he propped his chin on his hand. “The milkshakes here are the best.” almost on queue, the waitress returned with their drinks, sliding them across the table.
“Need a few more minutes?” she asked, smiling sweetly.
“Uh, please,” Bucky mumbled and she nodded, leaving to help another table.
“Here, try it,” Steve said, pushing his milkshake over to Bucky. “It’s just chocolate.”
Bucky hesitated before taking a sip through the straw. It was thick and honestly, really freaking good. It was creamy and rich, and Bucky nodded. “Alright, you win, it’s good.”
“It’s great,” Steve corrected, nabbing it back to take a drink of his own, humming happily.
“Right,” Bucky chuckled, leaning back in his seat. “So, we had an art class together?”
Steve nodded, messing with his silverware. “Yeah, last year, third period with Mr. Dandaferd.”
Bucky didn’t remember that much truthfully, except that he’d been a terrible student that entire year- or what little of it he was there for.
“You sat at the front,” Steve said.
“Right,” he recalled, running a hand through his hair as he laughed nervously. “He moved me up there after-”
“-You were on your phone, yeah,” Steve smiled.
“How do you remember that and I don’t?”
“Maybe because you were always high?”
“Okay, okay, take it easy,” Bucky snorted.
“Sorry,” Steve flushed, though he was still grinning. “Anyways, I sat at the back, so you probably didn’t really even notice me.”
“If it makes things any better, I didn’t really pay attention to anything last year.”
“I’m not upset,” Steve shrugged, smiling to himself as he poked his finger against the prongs of his fork. “I guess I just wish I’d had the nerve to say something to you before you left. Honestly, when I saw you at the thing tonight, I couldn’t believe it, it was like, here it is, this is a second chance, and I just sorta shouted it out.”
Bucky could feel how warm his face was, listening to Steve ramble. It was weird thinking that someone like Steve, or anyone at all really, had a crush on Bucky while he was at school still, let alone enough of one for Steve to bet fifty dollars on him. “Was it worth it?” Bucky asked before he could really stop himself.
“Huh? Oh, yeah, I think so.”
Bucky smiled. “Cool, I’m glad.”
“You’re glad you came?”
“Yeah, I think I am, honestly. I haven’t gotten out a lot recently unless Becca’s dragging me somewhere.”
“Becca?” Steve asked, taking a sip of his milkshake.
“Rebecca, she’s my little sister,” Bucky explained, swirling his straw around his drink, watching the soda bubbles pop and fizz.
“Oh, she’s in advanced history,” Steve nodded. “Sophmore, right?”
“Yeah, yeah, she’s crazy smart,” Bucky grinned.
Steve smiled back and they just looked at each other for a minute. It didn’t feel weird or tense, Bucky actually felt strangely more at ease. He was out, more or less. His sister knew he was bi and most of the school did too, but it felt good to be around another guy who actually liked him. He’d slept with a couple of guys before, mostly when they were all drunk as hell anyway, but this was worlds different. It felt like a normal relationship, like how he felt walking around with his (now ex) girlfriend on his arm, he felt confident.
“Are we ready to order now, gentlemen?” the waitress asked as she approached the table, pulling her pen out of her apron. Steve and Bucky both pulled their attention away from each other and nodded, clearing their throats awkwardly.
Bucky had hardly even looked at the menu. “Uh, the number five, please? With bacon.”
“Sure thing, and for you?” she asked, looking at Steve, who was fiddling with his glasses again.
“Um, I’ll have pancakes, please? Extra strawberries?”
She nodded happily. “Alright, I’ll have that right out.”
Bucky glanced back at Steve once she’d left. “Breakfast for dinner, huh?”
Steve shrugged. “Pancakes are good.”
“Burgers might be better,” Bucky argued lightly.
“Ehh, not if you don’t eat meat.”
Bucky gawked, leaning over the table to look closely at Steve, who was giggling softly, also leaning in, like there was some big secret. “You’re a freakin’ vegan?”
“Vegetarian,” Steve corrected.
“And that’s better?”
“I took a lot of animal health classes,” Steve explained shyly. “I just can’t get myself to eat meat now, I guess?”
“This might be a deal breaker, here,” Bucky teased and a look of worry crossed over Steve’s face before he realized Bucky was grinning and he punched him lightly, just on his shoulder.
“Fuck off,” Steve blushed, leaning back so he was sitting properly in his seat again.
“Nah, it’s cute, I guess.”
“Cute?”
Bucky made a so-so motion with his hand. “Yeah. you’re compassionate and shit, right? I think it’s cute.”
“Oh,” Steve breathed, his ears turning a shade darker than even his face.
“You always this pink?” Bucky asked, poking a finger into Steve’s thin cheek.
“What? No? Screw off, seriously,” Steve shrieked, though he couldn’t seem to stop smiling. “You’re a jerk.”
“You’re just now figuring that out?”
“No, I guess not, you were a jerk in school too,” Steve deadpanned and Bucky laughed, finishing off the last of his soda.
Their food arrived only a moment later and they dug in almost immediately. Bucky hadn’t realized how hungry he was but he was sure glad to be stuffing his face now. Even Steve’s plate of pancakes stacked up and dripping with sugary sweet strawberries looked good.
“Can I ask you something?” Steve asked around a mouthful of pancakes.
“Shoot,” Bucky said, popping a french fry into his mouth as he checked his phone again. This time he actually did have a text from his sister but it just read, HEYY! Going to the movies with my friends and a guy! I’ll be home later, hope whoever you’re with that their cute! Bucky just shook his head and smiled.
“How come you dropped out?” Steve asked. “I mean, you were almost there, right? You’d be graduating this year, with me.”
Bucky sighed. It wasn’t exactly the direction he’d wanted the conversation to go, but it wasn’t a new question. He was asked that same question almost every day. “I dunno, I was going one way and school was like, completely another way. I don’t have something that I feel like I could ever go to school for and do for the rest of my life. Becca’s already applying for scholarships in engineering, ya know? I was never like that. I don’t have that same determination or drive, so I just felt like I was wasting my time there. I wasn’t ever gonna use that education anyways, and honestly, my grades were bad enough it wouldn’t have mattered.”
Steve looked a little sad, brow creased as he chewed another forkful of food. “You don’t have anything you want to do?”
“Nope.”
Steve sighed, visibly thinking for a moment. “Maybe you just haven’t found it yet. So yeah, you got high and fucked off when you should’ve been doing school work, but you don’t have to go to college for everything. There’s lots of stuff out there. I bet we could find something you like without even having to worry about school.”
Bucky just stared for a while. He’d only been talking to Steve for less than an hour and here he was, putting more dedication into his life than his parents had in the past several years. Bucky hadn’t found an easy talent that he loved and would make money, nothing ever interested him enough and it didn’t take very long before he was just burnt out. Sure, his dad was on his ass about grades a lot, but he didn’t care too much if the grades weren’t working towards anything.
“Like what?” Bucky asked, finishing off his fries. Steve lit up a little.
“Well, what kinda stuff do you like?”
“What do I like?” Bucky copied back, unsure.
“Yeah, sure. Like, what do you do all day when you aren’t at school?”
“Sleep.”
Steve laughed, louder and more open than he’d been all night. He was still crimson, but he seemed worlds more comfortable than when he’d first approached Bucky with the whole dinner idea. “Yeah, not what I meant.”
“I don’t know,” Bucky said honestly, trying to think. “Sometimes I get high? I watch way too much Netflix? I work out sometimes? That’s about it.”
“Okay, do you like working out?” he asked, bouncing in his seat a little.
Bucky scrunched his nose up. “Not enough to be a, like, personal trainer or anything.”
“Okay, do you like film?”
“I watch horror movies and Rick and Morty, Steve, I’m not a cinematic maniac.”
Steve hummed. “Do you like being around me?”
Bucky chuckled. “What?”
Steve shrugged, looking down at his plate, not that it hid his little smile or how red he was. “Do you like being around me?”
Bucky grinned. “Yeah, it’s pretty okay.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, I have good news, then,” Steve said, glancing back at Bucky, glasses slipping down to perch on the edge of his nose. He had to resist the urge to reach across the table and push them back up himself.
“Yeah, and what’s that?”
“You don’t have to go to college to see me.”
Bucky flicked a bit of his burger bun at Steve with a laugh. “Get out of here.”
“It’s true!”
“Yeah, yeah. Very helpful, punk.”
Steve just looked pleased as he finished off the last couple abandoned strawberries off his plate. “I could help you find something you really like to do though, I can tutor you even.”
“Why would you do that?” Bucky shook his head.
“What? Because, you have potential and I think you’re worth it, duh.”
“Don’t get cocky, I just met you and now you want to help me get my life together?”
“Kinda, yeah. I really like you, and it’s kinda scary, but I really wanna try.”
“Try?”
“Try ‘us’?”
Bucky couldn’t help the little bubble of laughter from his throat. “You wanna like, date-date me?”
Steve frowned and placed his silverware neatly on his plate. “No, I don’t know. I’m sorry, I got too ahead of myself- you just met me.”
Bucky pushed aside both of their plates so he could lean closer. “It wouldn’t be the craziest thing I’ve ever done.”
Steve looked at him closely, hands fidgeting nervously. “This is the craziest thing I’ve ever done.”
“What, a date?”
“I mean, yeah?”
“You’ve never been on a date?”
Steve shook his head. “Nope.”
“How??”
Steve laughed and made a vague gesture to himself. “I’m trying for an art scholarship, Bucky, I’m not playing football or something.”
“Who gives a fuck about that stuff?”
“You did,” Steve offered meekly and Bucky frowned because he wasn’t wrong.
“I don’t anymore. That’s part of why I left, all the stereotypes and the pushing to just be something? I hated it. I mean, they were all so pushy, I didn’t smoke before I met Brock or anyone.”
“So… what are you saying?”
“I don’t know, honestly,” Bucky laughed and Steve mirrored his smile. “But you like me and I just met you and I already like you, so fuck it, let’s try it.”
Steve couldn’t seem to contain the excited little gasp that came from him as he grabbed Bucky’s hands excitedly. “Really? You’re serious?”
Bucky shook him off of his hands while laughing, nodding. Steve was redder than a tomato and he looked stupid happy. “Yeah, I’m serious.”
“Like date how?” Steve asked urgently, fingers twisting at his shirt collar, all nervous and excited energy bubbling over. “Date as in we try dinner again and see how it goes, or date like I can hold your hand and I can wear your stupid leather jacket kind of date?”
Bucky burst out laughing then, which successfully drew the attention of several people to their table, seeming to mortify Steve as he sunk down in his seat, flushing. “Which kind do you want?”
“Uhh, both, I guess? Like, uh, I wanna still go to lunch with you and get to know you but I wanna know you aren’t gonna be doing the same thing an hour later with someone else. Is that- is that fair?”
Bucky watched Steve twist himself into a puddle of anxiety before he smiled softly and just shrugged. “Yeah, I think that’s fair.”
“Is everyone still staring?” Steve asked nervously, refusing to look away from Bucky.
“Huh? No.”
“Can I kiss you?”
Bucky raised an eyebrow at the teen across from him, beet red and wide-eyed behind his glasses and slightly frazzled hair. “Here?”
“N-not if you don’t want to.”
“Go ahead.”
“Really? What if someone sees?”
“So? Fuck them.”
Steve laughed nervously, eyes a little brighter with determination. “Right, okay. Fuck them,” he breathed as he leaned over to meet Bucky across the table, letting their lips brush before he pressed his gently to Buckys’.
It was more of a brush of their lips, a quick peck, than a real kiss, but it was still sweet and nice, and that alone made Steve look like he might die on the spot, so Bucky let him pull away, back into his own seat. “So?”
“That- it was good- I liked it-” Steve stammered shyly as he pulled his inhaler from his pocket and took a couple puffs.
“You gonna be okay?” Bucky grinned and Steve nodded quickly before putting the inhaler away again.
“Sorry- I’ve been wanting to do that since I met you- and uh, yeah.”
“You’re a nerd.”
“Technically I’m your nerd now though, right?” Steve asked with a soft smile, ducking his head a little so he didn't have to look directly at Bucky.
“Yeah, technically.” he smiled. “Let’s go, huh? I wanna kiss you in my car for real.”
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Well I challenged @masonjar828 to do this ask meme like 200 years ago and he challenged me back but I’ve been busy so here we are.
200: My crush’s name is: don’t have one. men suck.
199: I was born in: Mickey Mouse’s lair aka Orlando
198: I am really: trying not to make a self deprecating joke rn
197: My cellphone company is: Not being disclosed bc I don’t need stalkers
196: My eye color is: brown
195: My shoe size is: 8. I’m pretty sure I’m supposed to be taller than I am bc of that shoe size
194: My ring size is: Uh no idea. Maybe 9?
193: My height is: Five foot three inches
192: I am allergic to: A couple of antibiotics but that’s it
191: My 1st car was: 1995 Honda Accord. RIP Goldeen.
190: My 1st job was: Technically I was an assistant for an occupational therapy clinic that paid me under the table. My first paid job was a pool attendant for a hotel.
189: Last book you read: My professor’s shitty textbook.
188: My bed is: currently unmade.
187: My pet: doesn’t exist. Bro is allergic to the entire animal kingdom
186: My best friend: I have multiple and love them all very much
185: My favorite shampoo is: Just recently bought a new shampoo from OGX (coconut curls I think?)
184: Xbox or ps3: xbox
183: Piggy banks are: Not a bad concept. I have upgraded to using mason jars to save money
182: In my pockets: Not wearing pockets atm. Usually I only carry my phone tho
181: On my calendar: Is a bunch of doctor’s appointments
180: Marriage is: Fantastic with the right person
179: Spongebob can: ??? do whatever he wants? idk what op was thinking
178: My mom: is great and shouldn’t have to deal with my shit
177: The last three songs I bought were? I haven’t bought music in over two years. Spotify is my life.
176: Last YouTube video watched: I watch so many a day that I forgot what I last watched.
175: How many cousins do you have? 5 on paternal side. 3 on maternal. But I’m hispanic so it’s def more than immediate family
174: Do you have any siblings? 1 and he’s a pain but I love him
173: Are your parents divorced? nope. fun fact. I used to think divorce was normal as a child and wondered when I would get a second set of parents.
172: Are you taller than your mom? No I’m like 4 inches shorter
171: Do you play an instrument? is mayonnaise an instrument
170: What did you do yesterday? future job training and watched my brother
[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: Lust at first sight
168: Luck: kinda
167: Fate: sure
166: Yourself: a lot more than I used to
165: Aliens: why not
164: Heaven: in a way
163: Hell: sure
162: God: the catholic in me says yes
161: Horoscopes: yes and no
160: Soul mates: tough question. 21 year old me would have said yes. 23 me is on the fence. Maybe for other people but I don’t really believe it for myself.
159: Ghosts: I love ghost walks so I hope they’re real
158: Gay Marriage: Of fucking course
157: War: No
156: Orbs: Isn’t this the same as ghosts?
155: Magic: No
[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: Either one has it’s benefits
153: Drunk or High: Never been high so I guess drunk
152: Phone or Online: they mean the same thing now
151: Red heads or Black haired: dark hair
150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes
149: Hot or cold: hot
148: Summer or winter: summer
147: Autumn or Spring: spring
146: Chocolate or vanilla: depends. rn I want vanilla
145: Night or Day: day
144: Oranges or Apples: oranges
143: Curly or Straight hair: doesn’t matter. I feel more myself with straight hair tho
142: McDonalds or Burger King: mcdonald’s
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk
140: Mac or PC: pc. Apple is a peice of shit.
139: Flip flops or high heals: heals
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: this is a weird question
137: Coke or Pepsi: depends on whether it’s a can, glass or on ice
136: Hillary or Obama: lol was this made in 2008
135: Burried or cremated: not sure. i wanna say burried tho
134: Singing or Dancing: I’m bad at both
133: Coach or Chanel: neither
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who
131: Small town or Big city: small town
130: Wal-Mart or Target: target
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: ben stiller
128: Manicure or Pedicure: pedicure. my hands never last
127: East Coast or West Coast: east
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas bc I can see my family
125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers
124: Disney or Six Flags: six flags despite the fact that i’ve never been
123: Yankees or Red Sox: I don’t give a shit about sports
[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: dumb
121: George Bush: dumb
120: Gay Marriage: I’m hoping for a day where the LGBTQ+ community is no longer discrimated against
119: The presidential election: dumb
118: Abortion: No woman should be denied a right to abortion
117: MySpace: yeah this was made in 2008
116: Reality TV: dumb
115: Parents: great wonderful
114: Back stabbers: dumb
113: Ebay: useful
112: Facebook: kinda useful
111: Work: a necessity
110: My Neighbors: I don’t talk to them
109: Gas Prices: could be lower
108: Designer Clothes: I don’t care
107: College: a scam but education is worth it
106: Sports: depends on the sport
105: My family: great wonderful
104: The future: idk
[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: yesterday
102: Last time you ate: when I started this thing
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: last month
100: Cried in front of someone: Two weeks ago
99: Went to a movie theater: going tonight
98: Took a vacation: three years ago. going soon tho
97: Swam in a pool: I don’t even remember.
96: Changed a diaper: never
95: Got my nails done: a year and a half ago
94: Went to a wedding: a year and a half ago
93: Broke a bone: never
92: Got a peircing: three years ago
91: Broke the law: probs when I was underage drinking
90: Texted: yesterday
[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: all of my friends
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: free food and family
87: The last movie I saw: toy story 4
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: starting my career job
85: The thing im not looking forward to: taxes being taken out of my paycheck
84: People call me: Karina, Kari or Rina
83: The most difficult thing to do is: let go of someone in your life
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope
81: My zodiac sign is: cancer
80: The first person i talked to today was: no one. Update my boss just called lol
79: First time you had a crush: 1st grade lmao
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: myself
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: uh recently I think
76: Right now I am talking to: Romantic? no one Normally? No one lmao
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I’m grown but I’m not disclosing my job on here
74: I have/will get a job: already have one
73: Tomorrow: I’m working
72: Today: I’m cleaning
71: Next Summer: No idea
70: Next Weekend: no idea
69: I have these pets: no I don’t
68: The worst sound in the world: styrofoam
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my mother
66: People that make you happy: family and friends
65: Last time I cried: Thursday
64: My friends are: cool great wonderful
63: My computer is: working
62: My School: I’m graduated
61: My Car: I need to wash today
60: I lose all respect for people who: have no respect
59: The movie I cried at was: toy story 4
58: Your hair color is: brown
57: TV shows you watch: Sabrina, jane the virgin
56: Favorite web site: twitter
55: Your dream vacation: new york
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: wisdom teeth
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rare
52: My room is: a mess
51: My favorite celebrity is: chris evans
50: Where would you like to be: on vacation
49: Do you want children: yes
48: Ever been in love: three times. Ironically only one was with someone I actually dated
47: Who’s your best friend: I have multiple
46: More guy friends or girl friends: good mixture of both
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: makeup
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: a few
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: hell no
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: not a physical list
41: Have you pre-named your children: kinda
40: Last person I got mad at: no disclosing
39: I would like to move to: the smokey mountains
38: I wish I was a professional: MUA
[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: lifesaver gummies
36: Vehicle: hondas
35: President: obama
34: State visited: TN
33: Cellphone provider: ATT
32: Athlete: n/a
31: Actor: i can’t choose
30: Actress: cant choose
29: Singer: can’t choose
28: Band: currently little mix
27: Clothing store: rip charolette russe
26: Grocery store: publix is the only acceptable floridian answer
25: TV show: jane the virgin
24: Movie: high school musical
23: Website: twitter
22: Animal: meerkat
21: Theme park: busch gardens
20: Holiday: halloween
19: Sport to watch: soccer
18: Sport to play: none
17: Magazine: n/a
16: Book: eragon
15: Day of the week: friday
14: Beach: n/a
13: Concert attended: hannah montana?
12: Thing to cook: beans
11: Food: rice
10: Restaurant: taco bell
9: Radio station: n/a
8: Yankee candle scent: n/a
7: Perfume: anything fruity
6: Flower: rose?
5: Color: pink or blue
4: Talk show host: ellen
3: Comedian: n/a
2: Dog breed: black lab
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? wouldn’t you like to know
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10:12 PM | May. 6 | 2019 | I am back!!
I don't think any of you missed me but... if any of you did, I am here so you don't have to think about when I'm coming back anymore!! A lot has happened while I was on hiatus.
So school-wise I did quite a bit. The week after I went on hiatus I had state testing. So, I completed 5 tests in 3 days. It wasn't very hard, but I really need to get better in science. I basically just skimmed through science in the 1st semester so I didn't really remember anything I learned. Plus, they brought up topics from 1-2 years ago. I was really struggling in my 1st and 2nd years of online school. So I barely focused and just rushed to get it done.
Other than that, the other tests were fine. I saw a cute boy with curly hair. It seems like 90% of guys with curly hair are cute. But he was probably like 17 or 18 so it would be pretty much illegal if we were together and all that. Very unfortunate. T-T
There was also this boy in like 5th or 6th grade that had a full on cowboy outfit... like that's cool but we were testing, so I didn't really understand why he was dressed like that. He had like a fedora hat too. But,,,,, I shouldn't judge people like that so just forget what I said about him. His outfit was nice.
OKAY BUT. Really good news! I'm going to public school after summer break!! I'm... actually going to see and interact with people!! Physically!! I have felt so lonely these past few years. Everyone says high school is terrible, even my dad said it was the worst of the worst. Is that true? I feel like it's true but I also don't want to assume everyone is annoying and stupid.
I had a choice to decide to go or stay in online school. I was mixed between feeling deep fear that everyone would judge me or something bad would happen to me and feeling excitement because I might actually find friends there...? I had only a few days to decide. But, of course I said yes to going to public school. I truly want to see what it's like. It's only been 3 years but it feels like it was an eternity of being alone. So much has happened... and I've changed so much.
So my mom enrolled me in the high school. I get to see the campus and get a tour on Thursday this week!! That's why I wanted to come back. I wanted to start posting before I went.
I also completed tests and an essay while I was gone. Currently, I actually need to do this essay. I haven't even begun to do it yet. I hate when I procrastinate. It's not even hard, I just would rather not do it! But other than that, I'm caught up. I can't fall behind at the end of the year.
Now starting from now, I'm not going to talk about anything related to school.
So, I got to play with the boy. It was actually really fun and still his voice makes me weak,,,. Like- I was waiting for him to get back online and suddenly he talked into the mic and his voice was like so much deeper I just-. It's such a blessing to hear his voice I'm not joking. T-T
ANYWAYS. I am finally caught up on the bnha manga! I wanted to catch up for weeks but I just didn't do it. Plus, it would kind of be useful for my story. I can't believe the 4th season still hasn't come out and there's this much going on in the manga!!
So, I have watched some animes. I am on the last episode of the 2nd season of Bungou Stray Dogs. It's so good!! Just a few more episodes then I will be all caught up on the anime. Then I'll have to wait a week for the next episode like everyone else. I also want to read the manga too.
So, we're actually almost done with Naruto, then we should be watching the Shippuden. I finished season 2 of free! And I am currently on season 3. I haven't gotten to it because... of school stuff. I watched like 5 minutes of Noragami. But I know I'll watch it once I finish free! I also need to start watching Demon Slayer. Thankfully, the anime just started so it won't be much to watch.
I started another anime,,, I told myself I wouldn't watch more than 1 anime at a time but,,, I lied to myself. It's called Servamp. I was searching up... stuff for my writing and I found it and watched the 1st episode. It's decent so far.
Speaking of writing, I really did get a lot of inspiration for my story from the manga and some songs too. AND! I was right! I estimated Tomura's age to be around 20 and it's canon that he's 20 currently!!
[ This paragraph below has spoilers for the bnha manga, don't read if you haven't caught up completely on the manga, or read Tomura's origin! ]
It also seems that the theorists were right about him killing his family as a child. Unless AFO messed with his mind and he actually killed them, y'all were right. I really feel like I understand him more as a character than ever!
I also came up with some more OCs and quirks they could possibly have. I have no intention of sharing my story but... if it turns out decent maybe I will.
I'm playing mystic messenger. I'm on Saeyoung's route!! There's so much drama! It's so good! And he was kind of mean at first but now he's really sweet and cute! I mean he was always cute but y'know. What happened with his family is so sad. :(( Thanks Cheritz! We don't deserve y'all!! Not being sarcastic either!!
Not last yet, but so far I have done a water change for my goldfish! They're doing really well right now. :)
Lastly,,, I have come up with a plan to better myself before public school. I intended on doing it "later" but it seems that I should geniunely start my plan now. I've had this in mind for months. Now is the time! It's really late for me now though. I'll post my plan later this week! But it should be before Thursday! There's no guarantee though.
If you read all of this, thank you! I had a lot to say since so much happened.
~ Valentina ✨🕊
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Things About Me
200: My crush’s name is: louise
199: I was born in: Pittsburgh, PA
198: I am really: stressed and anxious all the time
197: My cellphone company is: verizon
196: My eye color is: blue
195: My shoe size is: 7
194: My ring size is: no idea
193: My height is: 5'5"
192: I am allergic to: nothing
191: My 1st car was: ford edge
190: My 1st job was: a marketing assistant
189: Last book you read: a view from the bridge
188: My bed is: one of my favorite things in the world
187: My pet: don't have one
186: My best friend: i miss her
185: My favorite shampoo is: function of beauty
184: Xbox or ps3: don't care
183: Piggy banks are: cute when you're a kid
182: In my pockets: my phone and ID, ventra
181: On my calendar: hw assignments, finals and shows coming up
180: Marriage is: beautiful
179: Spongebob can: ?
178: My mom: love her more than anything
177: The last three songs I bought were? Home-edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros, i see fire-ed sheeran and so long lonesome-explosions in the sky
176: Last YouTube video watched: we haven't been doing too good...karin&skyler
175: How many cousins do you have? 17
174: Do you have any siblings? A younger brother
173: Are your parents divorced? No, my dad is deceased tho:(
172: Are you taller than your mom? Same height
171: Do you play an instrument? No I wish
170: What did you do yesterday? Went to classes and did homework
[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: no
168: Luck: yes
167: Fate: no
166: Yourself: no
165: Aliens: no
164: Heaven: yes
163: Hell: yes
162: God: sometimes
161: Horoscopes: no
160: Soul mates: yes
159: Ghosts: no
158: Gay Marriage: yes
157: War: yes
156: Orbs: no
155: Magic: no
[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs
153: Drunk or High: drunk
152: Phone or Online: phone
151: Red heads or Black haired: red heads
150: Blondes or Brunettes: blondes on girls, brunettes on guys
149: Hot or cold: hot
148: Summer or winter: summer
147: Autumn or Spring: spring
146: Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
145: Night or Day: night
144: Oranges or Apples: apples
143: Curly or Straight hair: curly
142: McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: white chocolate
140: Mac or PC: mac
139: Flip flops or high heals: flip floos
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor
137: Coke or Pepsi: neither
136: Hillary or Obama: Obama
135: Burried or cremated: buried
134: Singing or Dancing: dancing
133: Coach or Chanel: Chanel
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: don't care
131: Small town or Big city: small town
130: Wal-Mart or Target: targey
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Can't choose
128: Manicure or Pedicure: pedicure
127: East Coast or West Coast: east coast
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas
125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers
124: Disney or Six Flags: disney
123: Yankees or Red Sox: don't care
[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: ugly
121: George Bush: no opinion
120: Gay Marriage: completely accept it
119: The presidential election: rigged
118: Abortion: no comment
117: MySpace: nostalgia
116: Reality TV: is ok sometimes
115: Parents: caring
114: Back stabbers: two-faced
113: Ebay: cool
112: Facebook: addictive
111: Work: dumb
110: My Neighbors: very kind
109: Gas Prices: too high
108: Designer Clothes: ehh
107: College: scam
106: Sports: don't care for them
105: My family: love them
104: The future: scary
[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: brooke at formal?
102: Last time you ate: 2 minutes ago
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: my family a month ago
100: Cried in front of someone: probably mari jo
99: Went to a movie theater: months ago
98: Took a vacation: January
97: Swam in a pool: January
96: Changed a diaper: never
95: Got my nails done: at least 6 months ago
94: Went to a wedding: june 2018
93: Broke a bone: never
92: Got a peircing: 8th grade
91: Broke the law: 2 years ago
90: Texted: 10 hours ago
[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: ryan stiles, wayne Brady, colin mochrie, louis tomlinson
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my brother
87: The last movie I saw: a simple favor--so good
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: summer
85: The thing im not looking forward to: finals
84: People call me: idk
83: The most difficult thing to do is: act like you're happy when you're not
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: no
81: My zodiac sign is: leo
80: The first person i talked to today was: my roommate
79: First time you had a crush: 3rd grade
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: my mom
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: not sure
76: Right now I am talking to: no one
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: hopefully be a dance teacher
74: I have/will get a job: next year hopefully
73: Tomorrow: i get to go home!
72: Today: was ok
71: Next Summer: i hope i'll be happy
70: Next Weekend: i have 3 dance shows!
69: I have these pets: none
68: The worst sound in the world: nails on a chalkboard
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: not sure
66: People that make you happy: larry, summer mckeen, jess conte, lucy, my brother
65: Last time I cried: an hour ago
64: My friends are: awesome
63: My computer is: always on
62: My School: ok
61: My Car: cool
60: I lose all respect for people who: are rude/ignorant/selfless
59: The movie I cried at was: safe haven
58: Your hair color is: blonde
57: TV shows you watch: gilmore girls, single parents, one tree hill, gossip girl, chilling adventures of Sabrina, glee, the office, the list could go on
56: Favorite web site: tumblr
55: Your dream vacation: Santorini
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: either my first period cramps or any ear infection I've had
53: How do you like your steak cooked: i'm a vegetarian
52: My room is: very me
51: My favorite celebrity is: can't choose one-miley cyrus, ariana grande, louis tomlinson, harry styles, tarjei sandvok moe, dianna agron, kiernan shipka
50: Where would you like to be: santorini
49: Do you want children: yes
48: Ever been in love: no
47: Who’s your best friend: emily
46: More guy friends or girl friends: girl friends
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: people complementing me
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: my dad
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no
41: Have you pre-named your children: yes
40: Last person I got mad at: one of my professors
39: I would like to move to: somewhere on the east coast
38: I wish I was a professional: ballerina
[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: nerds
36: Vehicle: idk
35: President: Obama
34: State visited: Arizona
33: Cellphone provider: sprint
32: Athlete: simone biles
31: Actor: tarjei sandvik moe
30: Actress: amanda bynes
29: Singer: ariana grande
28: Band: the 1975
27: Clothing store: target
26: Grocery store: kroger
25: TV show: one tree hill
24: Movie: the blind side
23: Website: tumblr or pinterest
22: Animal: cat
21: Theme park: not a huge fan
20: Holiday: Christmas
19: Sport to watch: gymnastics
18: Sport to play: volleyball
17: Magazine: cosmo
16: Book: the english roses
15: Day of the week: friday
14: Beach: any beach in FL
13: Concert attended: hannah montana/miley cyrus
12: Thing to cook: pasta
11: Food: pasta with vodka sauce
10: Restaurant: macaroni grill
9: Radio station: don't listen to the radio
8: Yankee candle scent: I honestly love them all
7: Perfume: don't have one
6: Flower: rose
5: Color: blue
4: Talk show host: james corden
3: Comedian: wayne brady
2: Dog breed: don't know
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Yup
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#me#dancer#dance#glee#nicolekruszka#dianna agron#love#nicole#harry and louis#harry styles#louis tomlinson#ariana grande#miley#miley cyrus#chilling adventures of sabrina#the office#gossip girl#gilmore girls#one tree hill#tarjei sandvik moe
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🕹️, 🍀, 👻, 🕸️, 🐈, ▶️, 🔇, 🏞️, 📽️, 🎠, 💫, 🌈
Thanks for the ask! :D (And sorry for the slow reply XD;;;) Hope you like my ramblings cause hoooo boy this is a long one XD
🕹️- what video game(s) hold the most nostalgia for you despite no one else feeling the same way?
Hmmm.. this is actually a little difficult, cause a lot of the games I played as a kid are games that I still play these days (especially since I got Sonic Heroes and Ripto’s Rage last year XD) so they don’t hold that Nostalgic Feeling so much for me, I guess? I guess though I would say one of these two, or Pokemon Gold/Silver xD Now THAT game I haven’t played in ages, lol Though I’m not sure if anyone would disagree on the nostalgic value of it xD
🍀- do you believe in luck or fate? do you think we can influence our luck/fate?
Ehhhh, yes? No? Maybe so?? XDD I mean, luck, not so much. (But that doesn’t stop me from saying “Good luck! or “Man I’m really lucky right now” or anything XD) But like, fate? Sure, to some extent. I think there are multiple possible fates we could have? And yeah, I think we can influence it (By praying XDD (And if God is willing, lol))Like see, I think God has multiple different paths that we could go down, since we have free will and all and maybe the first path He had set up isn’t something we wanna do. I mean if He REALLY wants us to do it then by golly it’s gonna happen one way or another XDDD But otherwise, yeah. So in that way, we might have multiple possible fates, see? :>(MygoshI’mramblingssomuchsorryXDDD)
👻- do you believe in ghosts, superstition, the paranormal, or the occult? do you believe in witchcraft? to what extent?
Yes, actually XDDDD hEAR ME OUT okay, like,,,, there was a ghost in the bible. I kid you not, there was. At least kinda?? I’m pretty sure lmbo. 1 Samuel 28 talks about King Saul getting a medium to bring up Samuel’s ghost (despite it being against his own law) and she does and it actually happens so I mean??Besides that I’m like 95% positive that my grandma is haunting my ice maker but that’s another story I’m sure you don’t want me to bore you with it ;3
🕸️- would you be nervous walking alone in the dark? why?
Mmmm, depends? If I’m walking around my house in the dark alone, I think I’d be mostly fine, lol. If I’m walking around in the dark alone, outside, oh heck yeah I Would Be Nervous. Why?? Because after 10 years of living here in the middle of nowhere-ish, what if there’s a serial murderer in the woods and he chooses nOW TO KILL ME??? D:
🐈- do you find more comfort in animals or in people?
Hmm, depends on the animals or people and the situation I guess, lol
▶️- what is a song that made you cry/gave you chills when you first heard it?
Tbh, the first time I heard The Dawn by Julianna Zobrist I wanted to cry a bit xD (Either that one or Alive, I can’t remember :P I think it was The Dawn, lol)
🔇- are you a whisper in the darkness kind of person or a comfortable silence kind of person?
I really like both X3 (Unless I’m almost unconscious, then silence is preferable XDD)
🏞️- mountains or forests?
Yes
📽️- what is your favorite trope in media?
Oooohh, there are so many good ones… I was thinking recently about how much I miss the “Evil Side of Good Guy” trope (example: Dark Sonic, Anti Mabel, Heartless Sora (whateveryoucallit), etc) XDDD But also like, someone trying to protect someone else and getting hurt in the process? hhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
🎠- what is one thing from your childhood that you remember for no real reason?
No real reason, huh? Hmmm…Ugh I’m putting too much thought into this uGH OKAY RANDOM MEMORY TIME I remember when I was in 1st grade and still going to public school, I would stand on the highest point of the playground and look out as far as I could, and I could see the tall signs for the Taco Bell and Jack-in-the-Box from down the street. And I would like, stand there looking off into the distance like it was really important. And then go down the slide XD
💫- what makes you lose your train of thought?
Other thoughts, usually. :P
🌈- what tends to make you step back and appreciate things?
Thinking about how long we’ve been living here, or looking back and thinking about where we used to be, I think. It’s always amazing to think how far we’ve come in life and how God has taken care of us, lol ^^
~Cute asks~
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200: My crush’s name is: Russell :)
199: I was born in: April 1994
198: I am really: energetic
197: My cellphone company is: Verizon
196: My eye color is: hazel
195: My shoe size is: 7.5-8.5, depending on the shoe
194: My ring size is: 7.5
193: My height is: 5′5″
192: I am allergic to: penicillin, cats, pollen, and strong scents
191: My 1st car was: I’ve never owned my own car.
190: My 1st job was: babysitting. First real job was a desk job at my university
189: Last book you read: I don’t remember. I don’t have time to read for leisure.
188: My bed is: comfy
187: My pet: Seamus the miniature schnauzer and Sugar the Aussie-mo
186: My best friend: Ashlyn
185: My favorite shampoo is: Dove
184: Xbox or ps3: neither
183: Piggy banks are: for kids and rainy days
182: In my pockets: nothing
181: On my calendar: going river tubing on Saturday, party next Saturday, trip for T’s birthday weekend, and possibly going to Kennywood and Kings Island sometime in August.
180: Marriage is: something for my future self
179: Spongebob can: do anything
178: My mom: is the bestest
177: The last three songs I bought were?: who buys music anymore?
176: Last YouTube video watched: probably an ASMR video
175: How many cousins do you have?: too many to count
174: Do you have any siblings?: three sisters
173: Are your parents divorced?: no
172: Are you taller than your mom?: yep
171: Do you play an instrument?: piano, drums, bells, and I know three chords of the guitar
170: What did you do yesterday?: sleep
[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: sure
168: Luck: yes
167: Fate: maybe?
166: Yourself: depends on the day
165: Aliens: not really...
164: Heaven: yes
163: Hell: Do I believe in it? Yes, because God is just. Do I believe people are damned there? No, because God is loving.
162: God: yes
161: Horoscopes: no. It’s funny to see “horoscope” posts and see if they apply to me, but it’s a bunch of b.s. A bunch of Aries aren’t going to have the same day/month/year. That’s ridiculous.
160: Soul mates: I’m not sure if I do or don’t, but I do believe in love.
159: Ghosts: no
158: Gay Marriage: of course!
157: War: it’s an unfortunate and unnecessary part of life
156: Orbs: no
155: Magic: yes
[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: both
153: Drunk or High: drunk
152: Phone or Online: online
151: Red heads or Black haired: no comment
150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes
149: Hot or cold: hot
148: Summer or winter: summer
147: Autumn or Spring: spring
146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
145: Night or Day: night
144: Oranges or Apples: apples
143: Curly or Straight hair: straight
142: McDonalds or Burger King: McD’s (though I’m probably biased because I work there)
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: both
140: Mac or PC: PC
139: Flip flops or high heals: flip flops
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor
137: Coke or Pepsi: neither
136: Hillary or Obama: Obama
135: Burried or cremated: I want to be cremated and have my ashes buried with a seed and grow into a tree
134: Singing or Dancing: dancing
133: Coach or Chanel: neither
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Kat
131: Small town or Big city: small town
130: Wal-Mart or Target: Target
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben
128: Manicure or Pedicure: mani
127: East Coast or West Coast: east coast
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas. My birthday stopped being special after I turned 19. I get good food every year on Christmas.
125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate
124: Disney or Six Flags: Six Flags
123: Yankees or Red Sox: Indians
[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: What is it good for? Absolutely nothing.
121: George Bush: he had some good policies. Better than Trump, that’s for damn sure.
120: Gay Marriage: should never be illegal again.
119: The presidential election: #FuckTrump #VoteBlueNoMatterWho #ImpeachTheMF
118: Abortion: all my life, I was told to be pro-life. These days, I don’t know anymore, but I think my beliefs are closer to pro-choice than pro-life.
117: MySpace: it’s not 2008 anymore.
116: Reality TV: glad it’s not my life
115: Parents: they’re doing their best. I’m not looking to be one anytime soon though.
114: Back stabbers: bye!
113: Ebay: Amazon is better.
112: Facebook: these days, I use it to get laughs and memes. I don’t interact with people I know IRL much.
111: Work: good for the money. Not good for my mental health.
110: My Neighbors: they’re ok.
109: Gas Prices: #ThanksTrump
108: Designer Clothes: I can get good clothes at Target. The only “splurge” I do for clothes is at Spencer’s or Kohl’s.
107: College: I plan to go back soon.
106: Sports: entertaining.
105: My family: family is life.
104: The future: anything can happen
[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: Tuesday.
102: Last time you ate: a couple hours ago (chik’n patties and cheese)
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: last week. I saw a manager I hadn’t worked with in like a month.
100: Cried in front of someone: Monday
99: Went to a movie theater: July 2nd
98: Took a vacation: June
97: Swam in a pool: back in February
96: Changed a diaper: I don’t remember
95: Got my nails done: way too long ago
94: Went to a wedding: in April
93: Broke a bone: 2017 (broke my toe)
92: Got a piercing: 2006
91: Broke the law: never. I’m a good person.
90: Texted: three hours ago
[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: Russell
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my dog
87: The last movie I saw: in theatres, Toy Story 4. At home, Adventures in Babysitting.
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: being off on Saturday
85: The thing im not looking forward to: working tomorrow
84: People call me: Vonnie, Vonn, Bonbon, Sophia, and “the girl”
83: The most difficult thing to do is: not cry while watching Grey’s Anatomy
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never
81: My zodiac sign is: Aries
80: The first person i talked to today was: my sister
79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten. His name was Wally, and we were “boyfriend and girlfriend” til about third grade, and we remained friends til we graduated 8th grade. Haven’t talked to him much since.
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Russell
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Sunday
76: Right now I am talking to: nobody because it’s 3:30am
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I hope to be teaching English education
74: I have/will get a job: I currently work at McDonald’s, but within the next 6-12 months, I’ll be moving out of state, so who knows where I’ll work.
73: Tomorrow: work
72: Today: work
71: Next Summer: I’ll be in a whole new state, so that means new amusement parks to visit and rollies to ride.
70: Next Weekend: party. Oh, and next Saturday makes officially 18 months with me and Russell, so go us!
69: I have these pets: two dogs
68: The worst sound in the world: the beeping in the headset when I work back cash. It haunts my nightmares
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Heather because she sends me to back cash all the time
66: People that make you happy: Russell, my mom, my dogs, Ashlyn, and Aunt Dolly because she sends me lives on Candy Crush
65: Last time I cried: Monday
64: My friends are: Ashlyn, Mikayla, Jon, Rilee, Lamar, Tae, Alexus, Clare, Katie, Mario, and Kel
63: My computer is: all mine because I bought it with my own money
62: My School: not in school
61: My Car: don’t have one
60: I lose all respect for people who: lie
59: The movie I cried at was: Avengers: Endgame
58: Your hair color is: natural
57: TV shows you watch: Grey’s Anatomy, Once Upon a Time, House, The Simpsons, Bob’s Burgers, and... I don’t really watch TV because I don’t have cable.
56: Favorite web site: YouTube
55: Your dream vacation: Just a big coaster trip
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: my period this month. I had cramps for days leading up to my period that were so bad that, the day my period actually came, I couldn’t stand straight.
53: How do you like your steak cooked: I don’t eat steak
52: My room is: a mess, like my life
51: My favorite celebrity is: NPH
50: Where would you like to be: with my boyfriend
49: Do you want children: someday, but not today
48: Ever been in love: ohhh yes.
47: Who’s your best friend: not answering again
46: More guy friends or girl friends: i think i have a fair amount of both
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: this is tmi, but sex with my bf.
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Russell
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: yes
41: Have you pre-named your children: I don’t have any definitive names, but I’m thinking MaryGrace Linda for a girl, and James Sebastian for a boy
40: Last person I got mad at: Anna because she put me on back cash
39: I would like to move to: someplace south
38: I wish I was a professional: dancer.... no, writer.... no, why not both?
[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: peanut butter cups
36: Vehicle: Jeep
35: President: FDR
34: State visited: North Carolina (not just saying that because I lived there for two months)
33: Cellphone provider: Verizon
32: Athlete: Trevor Bauer
31: Actor: Justin Chambers
30: Actress: Amy Poehler
29: Singer: Chester Bennington
28: Band: Linkin Park
27: Clothing store: Kohl’s
26: Grocery store: Marc’s
25: TV show: Grey’s Anatomy
24: Movie: 13 Going on 30
23: Website: Pogo
22: Animal: seal
21: Theme park: Cedar Point
20: Holiday: Christmas
19: Sport to watch: baseball
18: Sport to play: softball
17: Magazine: I only read magazines at the dentist office, and I’ll read whichever has an interesting cover story
16: Book: A Series of Unfortunate Events
15: Day of the week: Saturday, as long as I’m not at work. If I’m working, then Mondays, I guess...
14: Beach: Huntington
13: Concert attended: Winter Jam, because I got to see Skillet play, and I met Matthew West.
12: Thing to cook: desserts
11: Food: eggplant parm
10: Restaurant: Olive Garden
9: Radio station: Star 102
8: Yankee candle scent: vanilla
7: Perfume: I don’t wear perfume
6: Flower: Daisies
5: Color: pink
4: Talk show host: Ellen DeGeneres
3: Comedian: Steve Rannazzisi
2: Dog breed: I really like terriers lol
1: did you answer all these truthfully ?: For me to know and you to find out :)
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Autoimmune disorders- Alopecia and Underactive Thyroid: Friends/Enemies Since Forever
I'm on the rollercoaster of trying to love myself while Alopecia is in complete control and deciding how fast new bald spots are popping up. I want to tell my story.
When I was in preschool, I started showing signs of thinning hair, but my mom didn't take much notice because I was constantly growing it back relatively quickly. She did notice that parts of my scalp were extra tender, and when messed with enough, caused redness and tiny bits of swelling to occur. She chalked it up to me being rough with my hair and her braiding my hair a little tight (which was never the case in reality).
Kindergarten: I started to complain of always being hot, being so incredibly tired, and quarter size bald spots start popping up. This is when my mom takes notice and starts bringing it up with doctors. Doctors say I may have a slow metabolism, causing my tiredness, I was a little bit bigger than most kids my age (but definitely NOT fat when looking back at my flat stomach and not touching thighs), so I retain heat easier. The doctor said I could be pulling my hair without my mom knowing, and said to come back for my next yearly checkup with concerns if it gets worse.
1st grade: the exhaustion hits me like a truck. I can barely make it through a full day of school without falling asleep in class. As soon as I get home, I sleep until I need to wake up the next morning to go to the babysitter's house. Most of the time, I sleep through dinner and breakfast, leaving only lunch as my actual meal of the day. My teacher, nurse, and mom come together and make a plan, I take a 20 minute nap towards the end of the day if I need it, the class gets more time to do homework in class, and I only am graded on the work I complete, even if I don't actually finish assignments. My dad was still alive at this time, and did not like that I was asleep all the time, but no matter what they did to wake me, it never worked. He then dubbed me his Sleep Beauty. My mom only recently told me that the school started questioning if I was being hurt outside of school, and apparently did involve a caseworker, in which I was interviewed during a play therapy session (which I don't remember) and my mom had medical records sent to show that the doctor knew the symptoms I was having and that they weren't from abuse.
2nd grade: The year my doctor realizes my diagnosis of Alopecia, but knows that something else is going on and refers me to a specialist, refusing to see me as he didn't feel qualified for my case since I was so young. This is when I was diagnosed. I met with a team of specialists from all over my state at a Children's Hospital an hour away from my hometown. They immediately know what it is what they walk in the room, but require blood testing to back up the diagnosis of Underactive Thyroid, which would take a few days after the visit to receive. They then tell me that my Alopecia isn't a stand alone diagnosis, and that I don't have a primary diagnosis with a secondary diagnosis. My alopecia is stand alone, but also entwined with my underactive thyroid. They hoped that the alopecia would only last a year, and that if they got my underactive thyroid under control, that it would help reverse the effects of the alopecia. I got to meet 3 endocrinologists in the state, and fell in love with the one that worked in the hospital that the meeting took place in. We made our first appointment with her, were given a wide variety of pamphlets, and sent on our way. The specialists did make one mistake, though. They thought my alopecia had just popped up, but I had it for at least 2 years at this point, which they would later realize when their theoretical year ended. This was the year that I lost A LOT of hair. I had to cut my long, straight locks to a short bob cut to help my hair look fuller. This was when I started asking questions about my hair dying, what an autoimmune disorder was, and if I would be able to beat it, whatever it was. This was also the first time I got to break a school rule: by wearing hats in school. My mom met with my principal and teacher, and I was allowed to wear a hat in school and would be encouraged to wear one outside during recess and outdoor activities to protect the fragile skin on my head. By the end of the year, I didn't have much hair left, but I had my baseball hats and bandanas, so I was okay. This was also when my class/school was told of my diagnosis with my mom and I's consent, because it was easier to explain it once and know what slightly new expectations there were.
3rd grade: This was the year I started the process of getting on the right medication and medication levels. It was determined that I was not a candidate for the shots in the scalp, which would have been once a month for me, and the only alternative at the time for me was medication. I had never had to take pills before, so my mom had to get creative in crushing pills for my crying self to be able to take them. This was also when I lost all my hair the first time. I felt a little naked sometimes, but I always had a color coordinated bandana or hat at the ready, so it was an easy comfort blanket at the time. My teacher spent a lot of one-on-one time with me, helping me with anxiety, self-esteem, and body perception issues. She also kept me inside when UV rays were high, because even through a light hat, my skin would still burn at times. 2nd and 3rd grade were the years that I learned to write out feelings through assignments for the first time, any way I could.
4th grade was a big year, in a good and very bad way. I gained about half my hair back, then lost my father in March of that school year. I almost instantly lost all of my hair from the stress and grief, but my teacher, class, and school were so incredibly supportive. I missed a week and a day of school, for the passing, viewing, and funeral of my dad. My teacher was also my first male teacher, and helped me learn to express myself to people other than women and feel comfortable doing it. He instantly became a pseudo-uncle for me, and helped me through the few bouts of grief that I experienced in his room. This was also the year we went on a camping trip to conduct science projects. An anonymous donor funded my trip, and all of the supplies I needed for the trip, as no one wanted me to miss out on the BIG school field trip because of the passing of my dad. I got to learn what family meant in every sense, and knew I was in a supportive community. This was also when my friends started answering what my diagnosis was for me whenever someone asked. It was uncomfy for me to say the same thing over and over whenever someone new met me at school, so my friends took over, and whole classes talked about what it was so that they didn't have to ask me, which I greatly appreciated.
5th grade was rough for me emotionally, and to be honest, I don't remember much past my emotional breakdowns, frequent visits to the counseling office, and regularly getting sick from medication changes that required me to miss a lot of school. A lot of good things happened that year, and my teacher (another male), was super supportive, and was okay with me randomly crying in class, or darting out to cry in a stall for a few minutes before returning to class with freshly dabbed eyes. He owned a floral and decoration shop downtown at the time, and ended up getting a stuffed animal from his store that I particularly loved and having everyone sign a card from the store to give to me during Feb/March in the school year, the first anniversary of my dad's death, which was one of the hardest. This was also the year that I became a library ambassador, so I got to spend lunch/recess in the library reading to kindergarten kids and helping them learn to love reading as much as me! (Tbh, I honestly don't remember how much hair I had that year, but I know I did have some growth, but lost it at least once during the school year). This was also when my endocrinologist realized I was not going to outgrow the Alopecia, and changed her perspective on my diagnosis. I was moved from a mild-moderate diagnosis to moderate-severe, which I have stayed ever since.
6th grade: I lost my hair yet again, but also became eligible for my first wig. This was also the first year that new kids arrived in my grade and didn't know what I had or what it was about, but everyone in my grade and below knew, but wanted me to be the ones to tell them. We actually gained the new classmate(s) the first week I had my new wig, and my teacher had to miss that week, so they couldn't help with making those connections as well. This was also the first time I lost friends because of my hair loss, as when I told these new people, they were shocked, but processed it and continued to be friends with me for a while before telling me that they didn't want to be around me anymore because I was bald and "had holes in my head." Most of my class didn't support them in these actions, but continued to be friends with them because of other connections and similarities. This was also when I had anxiety of going to middle school and having to explain my hair situation all over again and being judged. My teacher had a lot of conversations with me about this worry, and it was noted in my records so that I had "proper supports" in middle school.
7th grade: the year from hell. I was bullied from the few friends I had from elementary school, as I went to the other middle school than most of my elementary school friends. I had a plan ready, but knew that I would do it at school if I did it, because my mom had just gotten comfortable in living at home without dad for the first time that year. My exhaustion got worse, I lost a lot of my hair growth from the summer, and my symptoms were all over the place no matter the medication changes due to the amount of stress and anxiety I was under going to and attending school. Classes and the library were my escape, as those bullies were not in the honors classes that I was, and were mostly too loud for the library in the morning and during lunch. I had break downs every morning going into school, and my mom would have to drag me into the wrong door of the building to meet the principal and nurse at the doors, then have me wait with staff until the counselor came in to talk with me about what was going on. No one believed me that I was being bullied, and all thought I was grieving my dad's passing, but the librarian offered me a position in opening and closing the library every day with her and joining her during lunch hour after I finished my lunch. This is what saved me, and this kick started my hair growing back, and my stress levels dropping, which helped with my underactive thyroid.
8th grade: I had a whole new group of friends through the connections the librarian made naturally with me, and I was so happy and supported. A lot of personal stuff also happened in middle school, so this helped tremendously in me living a better life as a fully functional student with natural supports built in. My teachers were aware of my diagnosis and my loss at this point, and whenever I struggled, would encourage me to write out my feelings, walk me to the counselor personally, or have me complete assignments in the library with my now pseudo-aunt, the librarian. I also gained most of my hair back, and for the first time, it was shirley temple curly! Everyone was astounded, and the endocrinologist was excited at how much growth I had in one year's time, as no one in the midwest had seen that in cases similar to mine.
High school: my hair came and went a few times more, but I never hid anything except maybe wear a hat outside during marching band. I had a completely new set of friends because of band, and fell in love with the peer tutoring program in the special education department, so I had support in all forms. I did have some bad autoimmune flareups in which I got very, very sick very, very quickly. But living with a chronic illness, I was sick most of the time and wouldn't say anything about it because it was/is my normal. So the nurse knew that if I went to her office, something was really wrong, and most of the time ended up with me leaving school immedoately for a hospital or emergency doctor's visit. I wore my hair all natural from my memory, and I only grew my hair all of high school, except for one cut (which was one bigger trim of about 6 inches taken off in total). My senior year, I did have a little more thinning in my hair overall, and was afraid I'd lose it all at the end of high school, but my hair never had the straw-like consistency that it did in my younger years whenever I lost all my hair.
Freshman year: I grew it out more, to almost my butt, when I chopped it off to about collar bone length during spring break. That was so freeing to feel like I could do things with my hair again.
Sophomore year: I had my hair cut again right before I moved back to school for band, and the hairstylist was one I had never been to before but at the same studio I went to, and cut it to my ears. For a while, I was worried that it was too short. Everyone told me it would grow out, but I'm not guaranteed the time for it to do that, and explained that to people. The time I had in high school and the start of college was a gift, but the doctors always tell me that if I lose my hair, there is no guarantee I will get it back at all. Looking back at my band pictures, I was cute as hell, and didn't have to put my hair up under my shako, just pin back the front part of my hair to keep it out of my face.
Junior year to now: oh boy, I noticed spots popping up that I hadn't had in a really long time. I was always used to having at least 2 small spots now, but the spots started popping up all over, have joined into bigger spots, and now I currently have about half my hair with about 9 spots taking my hair away at different rates. It'll grow rapidly in some areas then randomly slow down. I am actually getting married next year, and I want my hair so I can have a fun hairdo, but I'm preparing for being patchy, in which I have agreements with people I trust that if it gets to a point in which I can't cover everything anymore, I'll shave it and do alternative gemstones on my head in place of a veil and hairdo for the wedding. I did all natural in childhood, and looking back at the pictures, I don't have the confidence to do long patches of hair again. I'm trying to accept the loss of hair again, but also love myself in my current state, as I may never be in this spot ever again in my hair journey.
I have been completely baby-butt bald, peach fuzz bald, patchy halos bald, full head of hair with minimal spots, and a fullish head of hair with major spots. My hair has been perfectly pin straight, wavy, curly as heck, and for the past several years, an exact 50/50 of either wavy and curly or straight and curly. The split is literally one half is on texture, and the other half is a different texture.
My doctors have told me I would never get my eyelashes or eyebrows back again, and that's mostly true. I have very faint eyebrows that are very thin that may or may not randomly grow in more full/darken in color, and I actually prefer no eyebrows for myself, as I actually raise my eyebrows in all pictures as a natural response to open my eyes more, and I don't look as crazy compared to penciled in eyebrows doing the same reaction in a picture.
I have never had and mostly never will have hair on my armpits, and I constantly surprise myself in how much hair some people have on their armpits, but support all the armhairs or lack their of!
I only recently learned how to shave my legs, because up until then, I would mostly lose my leg hair in the summers due to more exposure to elements and gain more of it back in the winters.
I have "thyroid syndrome of the eyes" in which my underactive thyroid affects my eyesight in not only blurriness, but also double vision and other visual impairments that have just recently finally started to be corrected with added prisms in all directions to my glasses that I had to first start wearing in 7th grade when I suddenly couldnt see much at all.
I get migraines and headaches easily, mainly because of the part of the brain that works with the thyroid and when my medicine is off, it affects that part of my head. I also have been way more light, sound, and motion sensitive in the past couple of years, but much more compounded in the last year.
But it is who I am, and whenever anyone asks me if I ever want to take my autoimmune disorders away, I confidently say no. Why? Because it makes me who I am today. I matured and still mature within myself which helps me accept others' differences as well. I connect with the individuals I work with in the special needs community that my coworkers, peers, and typical individuals cannot. I'm upfront with those I interact with about my disorders once we have an established connection and I feel safe telling them the information.
Yes, I do have problems with anxiety, trust, self-esteem, and body impressions of myself. But my alopecia and underactive thyroid know when to kick me in the pants a little bit to get me to realize different life lessons. It's made my heart so much bigger because of my struggles that I've gone through, am going through, and will go through.
I've been on the same medication since 3rd grade, with varying levels of prescription. But my tolerance is high, yet I can't change prescriptions due to me having horrific reactions to the other medications. There will most likely come a day in which my thyroid will stop working and I will have to have surgety to remove it and be on hormonal medication the rest of my life, but I'm always going to be on some sort of hormonal medication for the rest of my life anyway.
Also, I've struggled with getting the help I needed medically with anxiety and depression and being on a hormonal medication. My doctors wouldn't put me on any depression or anxiety medicine until I started college because they didn't want to effect my thyroid medication. So I have been in and out of counseling almost all of my life, and most likely will continue throughout my life when I need it. Now, I have the help I need with supportive and safe network, a counseling program, and the medicine I need to be my best. I also have connections to social workers and other specialists that can make immediate arrangements if my needs are not met ever again.
This isn't even my full story, but the thread of consciousness that I wanted to share right now about my autoimmune disorders. Thanks for reading all of it!
#alopecia#underactive thyroid#hypothyroidism#autoimmune disorder#mental illness#life story#my life#no armpit hair#prefer no eyebrows#stream of conscience#stream of conscious writing#stream of thought
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