pain is not relative. tears are neither a sign of weakness nor strength, but above all they are not a sign of pain. tears mean you can swim, you can remain afloat despite the murky depths grasping your last breaths. but feeling pain and not being able to cry, that means you drown. that means there's a crater inside of your heart that no amount of magma and tephra could fill back again, that there's a hollow that no amount of love could repair.
so when people ask me if i don't care because i'm not crying, that my pain is lighter, so light that i can't express it, they're wrong. the mineshafts inside of me are being dug with no prospect of gold nor diamonds being found.
so i will not cry. i will merely sit and stare at the void in silence, the void so dark and expansive, the void now tearing me apart.
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I can't do shit without people (my MOTHER) making me feel like fucking shit.
I just got in from work and she's already badgering me about my fucking room, and then bitching cuz I wanted to buy mcdonalds cuz I fucking hate cooking.
I'm just fucking. Annoyed and bothered.
Bitch fucked my entire vibe.
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i wish that I could implant what I’m listening to at that very moment into everyone’s minds. Maybe if I become a silly little bug and crawl into all of ur ears. Then you’d see. Or hear ig. I LOVE MUSIC!! SUCK MY DICK!!!
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Someone get me a dealer T-T
Im in South Miami but I don’t go out much
Down for whatever :)
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i am so overwhelmingly bored all the time
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I can't believe that something that happened over thirty years ago still kills me every time I think about it.
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