#i need to apply for a new one

[skunkes]

#JOB SEARCHING ON INDEED IS HELL I CANT EVEN GET PAST STEP 1. #how do i even pick what to apply for idek what 99% of these listings are talking about. #and 99.9% of them are scams im sureand im too stupit to sniff them out #talkys #the issue is i dont even Need a remote job as a whole #but i do need one while i live here bc taking comms pays more than any of the physical location jobs in my area #ykwim. #i need a remote job in order to save more to move out and maybe get a better one that is or isnt remote. and its #hard to find. augh #doesnt help that my home also sucks for remote job what with constant noise #like what else can i do. im not taking an $8/hr job here. #maybe i jst need to keep saving with comms... #figure smthng out. idk. but then ill just stay here forever bc i dont think i could find a job thatd help me move out to work at a new loca #ion ykwim #I WILL KEEP LOOKING o7

[sugar-and-spite]

hey @ discord i finally updated your stupid app. why does the contrast slider not apply to the actual message box, which is the main interface of discord, and the thing i need the contrast slider for, because you idiots decided to change your color scheme for no fucking reason?

#rey rambles #discord #i hate this fucking app #the new layout sucks so much and the contrast is terrible #the slider doesn't apply to the one part of the app i actually need it to apply to #motherfuckers

[aria0fgold]

My headcanons for the named trio in The Cursing of Chateau Castle series:

Josephandre is a big bear. It just fits for him I think! He gets he/him pronouns, and as a way to make him a liiiil more relatable for Mira, he'd have two craft types (Rock type being his main one and paper craft for the other). Battle style wise, I think it fits him to be more of a self-sustaining tank. He buffs defense, heals, and puts up shields. For his weapon, he'd use his fists like Isabeau. He'll be the second fastest in the trio.

Lady Irene-Janine-Kanine looks like an elegant noblewoman on the outside but she has vibes similar to Euphrasie! She gets she/her pronouns. Her craft type is Paper. Battle style wise, she's more on the offensive side, a main dps kind of thing. Most of her skills focus on buffing attack and speed, she'd have an item that helps regen her hp a lil bit and her chosen weapon is an umbrella. The tip is a sharp blade so it's used like a spear that has a hidden sword in its handle. Open it, and it becomes a shield! That'd be one of her skills too, although it's only applicable to her. She's the fastest one of the trio.

Pierre-Jacques-Erneste looks like a nobleman and carries himself as such! He gets he/they pronouns. Their craft type is Scissors. Battle style wise, he's more of a debuffer, skills focusing on weakening the enemies, slowing them down, poisoning them. Their weapon is a sword dagger, though he doesn't seem to be able to handle it well, how clumsy! But he Is a nobleman so it makes sense! Oh but... why doesn't he have a title? They're the slowest one of the trio, how strange, he seemed to be faster than Lady Irene-Janine-Karine that one time though.

#aria rants #how do i even tag these things bro im like-- why am i such a fan of a fragmented series in isat #okay so-- josephandre relied mostly on raw strength when he was travelling all alone before meeting the others #and i think he'd have a fun uncle vibe to him. which makes it easy for others to approach him and befriend him #but he Also carries a sort of pride and dignity to him which makes the others mistake him for a nobleman cuz of it #esp considering the fact that he later became famous for helping those in need and such. #lady irene on the other hand. being a noble she's always had to keep her guard up. also doesnt help that noblewomen #got the short end of the stick what with the ''arrange marriage'' things and being below noblemen #her umbrella weapon helps a lot in warding off the assholes. i think that during the journey with josephandre's party #she got to finally be herself without needing to sugarcoat her words in a way that a noble should. she would also figure out a #way to improve on her shield spell to not only apply to just her but her entire party too. she cares a lot about them after all #meanwhile i got a Whole scenario for pierre (being an illegitimate child of a noble family and all that. i made a post bout it) #he's actually a lot more capable than what he makes himself appear as. but its like part of the plan on getting the others #to lower their guards around him for when pierre betrays them. in actuality pierre is actually faster than irene altho #not much stronger still (irene and josephandre are still stronger than him) considering that pierre mainly focused on #stealth type attacks. hes more used to using a sword than a dagger (he mightve wanted to prove their worth) #it makes their battle style and weapon clash due to the fact that swords arent that good for stealth much than a dagger #its one of the reasons why hes trying to get used to the dagger than the sword. but it is a bit difficult to learn a new weapon

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

Cosplaying a dndads character for ren faire is half fun/exciting and the other half terrifying and imaging what you would do if someone Did get the reference

#camera talks #went as the one the only Nicky close foster freeman swift (?) #I made wings for the cosplay which so slapped btw ty to my cousin for helping me paint them (life saver) #and then I also had a homemade Glenn close trio shirt as a ‘home st Nicky - Christmas Tour’ shirt #(I had so much fun designing this costume yall) #maybe I’ll rb with a pic of just the outfit in the morning or smth but honestly I need to go the fuckk to bed lol #anyways uhh if you happend to see me at a New England ren faire as Nicky dndads fans- no you didn’t </3 /hj #dndads #this can also apply to other fandoms but for me I’ve only ever cosplayed dndads </3

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

juggling two jobs and four different regular doctors appointments and household chores and social life and me time and hobbies and substance abuse is really difficult

#personal #several different calendars… i always forget something #i will apply for vacation on one job then have to work the other #then there is an important meeting here and a doctors appointment there but i also have to buy a new bicycle and so on #i need a personal assistant

[arsonist-chicken]

What if I just developed social skills to be able to actually make new friends in person and then used those skills to get a new phone number and pack my bags and run away to a place where no one knows me and all my past mistakes and fuckups and started over there without going into social isolation

#i needed to hand my expose in in february and got an email about it this weekend and agreed to hand it in on tuesday #it is now sunday evening and i just got another email about it but thinking about opening it makes me want to throw up #she's so nice and i don't want to see her scolding me for AGAIN not sticking to a deadline #what if she tells me that was the final deadline and i won't receive a grade for that class and so i won't be allowed to write my thesis #until next january? I wanted to graduate this autumn. it's april and i haven't even started on my thesis and i have like three bullet point #for the expose; and idek if I'll be able skillwise and mental health wise/adhd wise to actually write the stupid thesis #like what if i can't do it and then i've spent the last one and a half years on a degree i won't get in the end and then i won't be able to #apply to a lot of the jobs i thought actually looked good #@god give me some social butterfly skills and I'll give or throw most of my stuff i don't absolutely need away so i can just.. #go somewhere new. start over. and not become even more socially isolated than i already am. #does anyone know what a panic attack feels like because i'm having suspicions that i might have finally gotten them this year #but didn't recognise them as such because it could be worse #so anyway. god grant me some social friend making skills #if you can't do that at least throw in some adhd and depression treatment. i am sick of this. #and by this i mean the way i've been living my life at least since i left high school; probably even while still in high school #vent posts #mine #i love my online friends so much but i can't meet them outside to sit in the sun or chat about anything at all or go have coffee together #or or or you get me

[abstractlesbian]

Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.

#trying to be as vague as possible even tho this is someone I know offline and no one involved follows me online #on one level I get it that relying someone who is forgetful and does things slower/differently than you can be frustrating #but like its a medical condition. and u dont need to know someones medical info to have some empathy instead of assuming malice/incompetence #i just found out they have adhd today but day one i was able to go 'wow i did not like the way they handled that but i dont think they were #being hurtful/careless we just handle this task differently. rhey didnt do anything wrong and i can let this go and adjust my expectations' #not to say im perfect and never ableist towards others. my first reaction to seeing traits i dislike in myself (from my disabilities) #in others is often to get annoyed and needing to adjust my thinking #i get annoyed with myself when I cant focus / cant be coherent or concise / cant finish tasks quickly etc #→ get annoyed sometimes when I see others doing that → realize thats not fair to them → realize thats not fair to myself #→ assume good intentions and find ways to communicate/collaborate better with them → get along better and maybe make a new friend! #sorry i am rambling #idk its scary seeing someone being disliked for adhd symptoms/traits that im mostly doing a good job of managing/hiding in this #social environment so far and knowing that could happen to me in the future #but im also like ready to have this persons back #me 🤝 them: prioritizing the wrong tasks and overexplaining things and struglging to get our points across #and not noticing when we talk too loud and forgetting tasks halfway thru etc #not to be that guy but : without love it canmot be seen!!!! #lifes so much better if u just assume ppl arent doing things a certain way to be annoying + let go of / adapt to the thing that are annoying #but not harmful #thats not exactly what without love it cant be seen means but thats one of the ways i apply it in life #just like dont assume malice. assume u dont have all the info. approach ppl/situations with empathy. #or youll make yourself more miserable needlessly #again like only for shit that's not harmful obv #i need to shut up and go to bed

[andariyadoesart]

I applied as a page artist for a fanzine about a month ago. I've never done something like that and also did not expect to be accepted, tbf.

BUT somehow I did!

I'm so happy. I'm going to contribute to a zine as a page artist waaaah ❤️🥺

#;; rambles #now only need to figure out the stuff for printing to make sure it'll look good later #but like #ME? I got in?? #I read online you shouldn't expect to get in right away for the first one you apply to #but I did somehow?? I'm- sdjkfhskjd #the hardest challenge is probably going to be to keep my illustration a secret until I'm allowed to post the artwork lmao #because I'm always excited to post new artworks xD

[loumands]

There are literally 3 euros left on my bank account

#i should get tax refund and pay for my summer job this week i guess i'll survive #still stressful as hell though #i don't want to complain too much cause i know i'm privileged living in a country with a broad social security system #but it's also chaotic and bloated as fuck with a million different benefits and no one understanding how it works #my previous social security benefit ended in may so i had to apply for a new different one #but i needed a medical certificate for it and only had doctor's appointment last week #and getting the decision on that application takes time so meanwhile i applied for the last resort income support #but my application for that was rejected for unknown reasons and i complained about the decision but it's still in progress #so now i'm just waiting here with no money from anywhere whatsoever 🤷 #bro what they expect me to do #go begging from the church? go shoplifting? #if this post is incoherent to you i feel the same #keanu.txt

[fideidefenswhore]

If only Henry's marriage to Catherine of Aragon counted in Catholic eyes, does this mean Mary wouldn't theoretically consider any of his other wives 'real' stepmothers, as such? If she did, how would she rationalise defying the Pope's will, whilst upholding the papal authority to sanction the marriage of her parents?

She probably never did, based on the wording of that Act in question. Her attitude towards papal authority during her own reign was...contradictory in other ways, however.

#anon #the pope like you have to send reginald pole back i have to try him for heresy mary like hmmmmmmmmmmm i don't think i will...... #'i don't like this pope i'd like to return him with the receipt in exchange for a new one' = kings and queen regnants for centuries. #so basically she never did but AB was the only one about whom she was honest about this? oddly funny if funny is the right word for this #since she scanted her courtesy to kh as well but not some of her others stepmothers #it would suggest that in those cases that her behaviour was more inspired by personal dislike #*other #i don't want to say that was universal either bcus that was not necessarily the case however like ...yeah...the catholics among which #upheld specifically the validity of henry's marriage to koa did not fare very well in henrician england #you would think maybe bona fides would apply to edward vi (or in some cases even elizabeth... #sources loyal to the papacy actually said pretty early on that the 'faith of the mother' was sufficient ) #altho it would be hard to argue jane and henry were not aware england was in schism #(elizabeth was born beforehand technically) #but as for mary she didn't really need bona fides and might have even had mixed feelings about her supporters #using that argument in the 1530s... #as far as she was concerned pope julius had granted the dispensation and pope clement had confirmed it #that was more airtight papal legitimacy than frankly most prince/sses had #now if paul iv wanted to be a REAL bitch he could have been like yk what. wild card. that's cancelled #confirmed? affirmed? upheld? whatever the word is

[dittos-everywhere]

Good evening my pals my gals, I definitely did not forget to eat dinner while reading studies on ditto cell differentiation. I am totally not drinking coffee so that I can read more studies. It is totally not 12:25am.

#look i found a really interesting lead ok #i wanna see if one of the post docs or grad student is up for an extra project #its better than writing grants #ugh grants #speaking of I need to look at that new grant the lab manager applied for #pokeblogging #pkmn irl #unreality

[cozycreaturescorner]

y'all i'm finally applying to colleges after basically 4 years of procrastination! be very proud of me

#em is yelling #i have not written this much in a While #i'm really only applying to conservatories/intensive drama programs #bc i am terrible at real school and want to be surrounded by art all the time #mostly looking at boston and new york but lowkey also considering california.. #but i'd rather stay on the east coast lol esp considering i've never lived away from home #i haven't been in school since i was taking single community college theater classes one at a time pre-pandemic #soooo. nervouss. but i need to further my career and education and also not live at home anymore afjfxhn

[purple-is-great]

So my name and legal gender have changed today, i'm going on monday to apply for a new id card and i'll also inform my bank on monday so hopefully i won't have to be without bank access for too many days

But i sent my family a message just like "hey btw it's changed officially now here's my middle names" and both of my parents just sent loving emojis

Then me and mum had a video call where after some chitchat she went "so you changed your name?", i replied "yeah" and then both of us were just silent until i broke and said "anyway how's the weather there?"

So it's not a disaster but neither one of us knows what to say, honestly

Also just so that i actually get around to doing it: i want to send a message to my relatives' group chat just like "hey surprise i'm trans here's the new name but don't tell grandma" and i want to do it preferably this weekend but before wednesday at the latest

#had an exciting about two and a half hours today #where my name change confirmation came first #and the decision confirmed that my gender marker was also changing #but the decision for the gender marker was a little delayed #so basically i knew my old id number was my old one #but i didn't have one clue what my new one would be #which was fun because you kinda need that information to apply for a new id card or passport #but it did come! #let me tell you printing stuff with my id number on it using a printer in the university library #is a bit of a weird sensation

[nyxwoven]

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#had a pretty bad breakdown yesterday #can't handle this job anymore #woke up feeling tired and defeated #trying to shake it off but im dreading the phone calls so fucking badly #i know i needed this job but i shouldn't have taken it. i feel so stupid #and i feel so stupid bc i do have a decent amount of time to do whatever i want and i like MOST of my job #but i can't handle the constant yelling #i feel weak. ive tried my whole life to not be intimidated by yelling or people being mean but i just. break #and I'm gonna try to find a new job but we're down to one car so it pretty much has to be something remote #and it took me a whole year to even find this job. i applied to so many places last year and i only got three interviews and one job offer #really wondering wtf is wrong with me that I can't find a job worth doing #especially when i have friends who have similar experience to me who have gotten the first fucking job they wanted #fuck

[pikslasrce]

you guys have nooooo idea how crazy this moving period has been november was CRAZYYYYY literally all three of us are going insane from all the shit going on ever since we found the new place

#basically we were supposed to move in last week but then the landlord was like. hey i need to do some reno first you can move in next week #anyways in those two weeks (the one when we were supposed to move in + up to now) so much has happened with the current ONE AND THE NEW ONE #the toilet broke down and flooded the bathroom so we had to get that fixed #then the OVEN SHORT CIRCUITED BC THERES STH WRONG W THE ELECTRIC SOCKET and we decided not to deal w that #so for the past week weve been using my induction stove i brought w me when i moved out of the dorm #on top of that the landlord of the new apartment is dead set on installing a window in the bathroom BUT the guy whos supposed to do that #keeps postponing it bc shit keeps popping up thus preventing him to do his thing #ALSO since furnishing the new place + the rent for the 1st few months ride on grandma selling her house in the countryside #murphys law applied to THAT too. for her to finalize the sale she needs moms signature and all so she went back to our hometown to do it #and there she found out that they wrote her information wrong in the registry which means that now they have to deal with THA #and before the weekend nonetheless... but the lawyer sorting that mess out is apparently technologically illiterate #AND OUGH. everything is soooooooo stressfullllllllllllllll #anyways .. vent over <3 #piksla.txt

[familyofpaladins]

Why are certain tasks impossible to even try to do sometimes?

Like I know I need to do a thing, but when I try to work on it or even think about it, my brain turns to static.

#I'm trying to edit a cover letter that I wrote for one job so that it applies to the new one #And the jobs are pretty similar so theres not much that even needs to change #But I try to read through it and suddenly I cant read anymore. Sorry 404 error code. The words turn to static #(Its the executive disfunction. .... I think) #THIS IS JUST A GOOD OPPORTUNITY SO I REALLY NEED TO APPLY AND I KNOW IT #BUT DOING APPLICATIONS AND COVERLETTERS AND GENERAL TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF LOOK PERFECT FOR THE JOB IS AAAVDLDHDOWHLWAJAKHDKDHD #ITS STRESSFUL. Its stressful. I hate trying to make this stupid 'perfect' image of myself to get a job #*biting chewing tearing* >:( #It feels like serving your heart on a platter so then when you get rejected or not even acknowledged #It's like throwing your heart in the trash #Vent