#i need to find an outlet other then art and rp

[belethlegwen]

Was there anything out there that inspired you to write the stories you’ve written?

How many story ideas do you have tucked away in hopes of writing once your current stories are “finished”?

Alright, so, this may get very long and kinda real for a moment but nothing too serious, I promise. I'll keep it relatively vague.

I've always kind of bounced in and out of writing throughout my life. Big stints of lots of writing, long stints of not writing basically anything, but I enjoy it in a lot of ways so it's always been AROUND when it comes to me. I've got two short stories published in some local collections, that's pretty neat. I was in a novel writing class for a long while that was being run by my publisher (he eventually got sick of seeing me because he saw I had learned everything I could from the Moderate level class but kept re-enlisting because it was basically a few weeks of access to the in-progress works of other people and I just loved reading and sharing what other people were up to and chatting with them about it. He kicked me out of the class and told me I could only come back for Advanced class-- which would require me to have at least most of a first draft for a full novel already done hahaha) Anyway, I had a pretty bad string of relationships from about ~2016 to January last year, sapped all of the creative energy out of me and despite being in the novel writing class during the 2016-2019 relationship I just... couldn't really sit down and hammer either of those two stories out without the direct motivation of the class. One of them got scrapped completely because my vision for it and what I felt comfortable in being able to pull off, I just couldn't get to mesh. Around early summer last year I hit a pretty bad bout of loneliness, and I had sworn of relationships indefinitely as a result of the last couple of dudes (and because women are scary to talk to ;-;) so I started trying to find SOME kind of outlet for it. Tried to get back into RP the only way I really kind of knew how, which was WoW, and that didn't... go... at all. Struggled through it for a month or two and then just finally got fed up and cracked open Google Docs in August 2021. Told myself I was just going to write for ME, write what I WANTED, and make it SPICY if I wanted to, so I did. That's how Small Date happened, and why it's got missing scenes and chunks and the like, because I was literally just jumping to the good shit that I wanted to write and have to read for myself. I had tried looking for micro/macro writings and art but was finding it very hard (because I wasn't familiar with the G/t tags or terminology or anything, I'm an internet ancient) to find anything that really fit the kind of vibe I was hoping for (not aggressively/violently sexual, no vore, not gory, not furry related, in the preferred size range, etc) so writing something that hit all of the notes I wanted just to have something for ME was great. I kept poking at it and writing it up until the start of the extremely busy Christmas season last year.

By the time things had slowed down again and I could get back to writing, I realized I had been sitting on the concept (and ancient, ancient chapters I had written multiple times and that had been wiped by computer crashes and rewritten etc etc) for The Rescue and The Stranding for over half of my life, so I figured it was time to break out Henry and start writing. I was about 30 pages into Stranding, I believe, by the time I thought about posting it to actually share with people. This was obviously a kind of media I was craving and needed and saw a pretty sizable gap with in my searches, so I figured if maybe I could post it and it could find even one person who was looking for something like it, who now had something to fill those niches, it'd be worth it. It was pretty early on into it being posted that I got an incredibly sweet comment that asked me about how Melanie and Henry originally met, and if there was a companion story, and that inspired me in the moment to both try to scour through my ancient archives and see if ANYTHING had survived the last 15+ years (one did! Woof, ouch) and start writing The Rescue. I started writing The Stranding on February 7th this year, and started writing The Rescue on February 26th. As for when they're finished... I have no idea. I might jump back into the Small Date universe in some way; it's similar in a way to the kind of things going on in the background of Zip's Rose & LaPorte universe and that just seems like a fun space to play in again eventually. But if I'm being extremely honest, I feel like the stories and universe of The Rescue/Stranding could go on basically until my fingers fall off if I want it to. I'm sure by the time I'm anywhere close to down with both stories, I'll have ideas in mind. For now though, this is where my head is firmly at. ...That said though, I've been running around the ConceptSpace with Zip lately discussing "The Rescue but with Miller instead of Henry" and god damn, the gold in that thar hill... ANYWAY! Thank you so so so much for the lovely ask! - Belle

#asks and answers #g/t #giant/tiny #giant tiny #g/t author #gtauthor #g/t writing #author thoughts

[deathsfollow]

ooc: meet the mun

NAME?: GRIM

PRONOUNS?: she/they

MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: kirk and cristi are always the main or loudest ones, but sera and wade scream with craziness very closely behind and lego batman is just always there whispering stupidity lol.

RP PET PEEVES?: i don't get ticked off too easily to be honest, but theres people pushing or demanding for replies or acting like they're better than others for being quick to reply or never losing muse or people who steal content from other rpers them gets me. another not that RP related i suppose but more original work related is people who don't want to pay for things like original art that took hours to make. like i've tried to do graphics stuff for people for money before and it would come to a "oh but this is for just a personal thing why's it cost money".. BECAUSE I SPENT MULTIPLE HOURS MAKING IT FOR YOU !!

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: i dont really remember when i started, i always wrote in both finnish and english as soon as i could, to be honest, but on tumblr i think i joined like 2012 maybe, originally in star trek and star wars community with my darth vader. i first met chris then too!! ugh i cant even fathom it's been this long.

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: i like a mixture best, angst leading to fluff leading to smut is my favourite. i'm a sucker for some deep and novella like smut but i'm picky on who i'm comfortable with doing it with, romance and angst is easier and more comfortable. sad romance honestly might be my favourite way to write

PLOTS OR MEMES?: i don't like memes sent without like ANY plan behind it, or you know it making sense for the muses. i always like plotting or replying/answering to an open starter for muses to start interacting or having some general memes but i personally find it hard to answer memes for characters that havent interacted.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: i don't like one-liners, or unimaginative replies that give the respondee little to work with, but honestly it's case-dependent. like if i do seven paragraphs and get one in return, that'd suck, but if it's both parties doing short paragraphs or long novellas, it's all good. as long as it matches the love and effort the other person's putting in is how i feel.

TIME TO WRITE?: i gotta write whenever i can, otherwise i get nothing out at all, but i feel like i always end up writing most at night or late in the evening. i also always need other distractions to keep my attention to something, like right now true blood's playing on the tv right next to me and i watch it and do this taking turns.. i have problems with attention span lol.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: i think everyone puts a little of them into everything they write, but most of my intentions ever to write came from my own pain and wanting to be someone else, so that's what i did. and then just kept creating more and more lives and stories and it made me want to keep writing and creating. and it's let me explore lots of different sides and aspects of myself through multiple outlets.

tagged by: @untilthcyrot

tagging: no obligation for anyone and i don't follow many people yet so if you see this and feel like doing it, do it!

#OOC ——— ( OOC MEMES )

[star-clad-dragon]

Yall i am so bored. I used to chat so mich while i was at work (food service has some slow times during the day) about ocs and complaining about general things. I have no idea how to pass the day now. I used to doodle but my hands are still healing aaaaa

#im going a lil crazy???? #i need to find an outlet other then art and rp #at least until my hands are ok #and that may take months at least!

[stellahq]

hello  hello  everyone ,  i’m  yusi !    i’m  so  glad  to  be  part  of  this  rp !    my  friend  told  me  about  it  and  i  just  had  to  come  check  it  out .   i’ve  been  out  of  the  group  rps  for  years  now  (  i  come  from  that  indie  side  )  so  it’s  a  bit  intimidating  but  also  very  exciting .   anyways ,  i’m  twenty - three ,   she  /  her  and  my  timezone  is  est .

— && guests may mistake me as ( alexa demie ), but really i am ( stella marin + cis female + she/her ) and my DOB is ( 10/31/1997 ). i am applying for the ( secretary ) position as part of the EHP and would like to live in suite ( 208 ). i should be hired because i am ( daring & passionate ), but i can also be ( devious & impulsive ) at times. personally, i like to ( work out, do my make-up, & draw ) when off the clock, but that won’t interfere with work.

𝑻𝑯𝑬   𝑾𝑶𝑹𝑳𝑫   𝑶𝑭   𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑳𝑨    .   .   .   

at  an  early  age ,  estella  witnessed  the  effects  of  an  unstable  household .   her  father  was  a  top  shot  business  man  who  traveled  to  mexico  for  a  business  deal  and  met  the  most  beautiful ,   raven - haired ,   doe - eyed ,  mexican  woman  and  instantly  fell  in  love   .  .  .  ( or  at  least  thats  the  way  estella  likes  to  picture  it)  they  were  quickly  married  and  set  to  the  united  states ,  and  within  a  year  estella  was  born .

there  was  a  lack  of  affection  in  her  life ,  her  mother  stuck  in  a  love - less  marriage  and  the  product  of  that  marriage .   and  estella’s  father  was  barely  around  to  have  any  solid  connection  with .   at  the  age  of  nine ,  estella’s  mom  left  and  never  turned  back .  estella  . . .  too  young  to  understand  never  came  to  terms  with  her  departure ,  going  as  far  as  telling  her  friends  her  mother  had  just  stepped  out  or  was  at  work  whenever  her  friends  asked .

estella  was  a  lonely  child ,  both  at  home  and  at  school .   making  friends  was  hard  and  opening  up  and  being  real  with  people  was  even  harder .   she  preferred  keeping  her  distance  focusing  all  her  energy  on  what  kept  her  close  to  her  mother         ART   .  .  .    until  a  group  began  to  target  her  and  eventually  unmasked  her  lie  about  her  mother  abandoning  her .

her  father’s  wealth  quickly  began  declining  due  to  his  fallacious  ways  of  dealing  with  his  broken  heart ,  estella  had  to  switch  from  her  very  costly  private  school  to  a  public  school  on  her  sophomore  year  .  .  .   and  she  promised  herself  to  do  things  differently .

she  would  never  again  be  referred  to  as  estella ,  she  was  from  now  on  stella .   her  demeanor  began  to  reflect  her  life  and  it  reflect  in  a  cold  dark  light .   from  the  lonely  yet  sweet  little  girl  that  needed  love ,  she  became  the  school’s  mean  girl  and  doing  the  same  that  was  done  to  her .   that  was  her  way  of  coping .

everyone  wanted  to  be  her  friend ,  or  just  on  her  good  side  and  even  if  it  wasn’t  real  affection  she  began  to  slightly  fill  that  emptiness  she  felt .

during  this  side ,  stella  did  more  than  questionable  things  for  attention  and  to  remain  in  the  limelight .

after  graduating  high  school ,  stella  told  everyone  she  was  taking  a  year  off  to  travel  and  see  the  world ,  when  in  fact  she  had  to  take  the  year  off  to  work  and  safe  some  money  for  college .

retail  worker ,  barista ,  waitress  ;   stella  has  been  through  every  job  but  never  fully  commits   .  .  .   just  like  in  life .    now  she  is  working  as  a  secretary ,   it’s  been  three  months   .  .   .     let’s  see  how  that  goes . 

okay  so  some  other  facts  about  stella  ,

her  favorite  holiday  is  halloween ,  cause  it’s  also  her  birthday .

no  one  knows  she  draws ,  but  she’s  actually  pretty  good  at  it .

stella  speaks  both  english  and  spanish  fluently .

NO  ONE   IS   ALLOWED   TO   CALL   HER   ESTELLA ,   she  HATES  IT .

she  recently  found  her  mother  on  instagram  and  stalks  her  page  her  day ,  wonders  if  she  should  reach  out .

stella  is  a  scorpio  !   so  good  luck  !

stella’s  makeup  is  a  big  outlet  for  her  so  it’s  very  bold  and  says  more  than  she  could  express  with  words .

she  is  super  impulsive  and  destructive ,   but  under  all  that  mean  facade    .   .    she’s  actually  a  very   lonely  and  scared   sweet   girl  .

WANTED  CONNECTIONS   ;

any  and  every  is  welcome   pls

maybe  partners  in  crime 

coworkers  who  ask  friendly  but  really  hate  each  other 

someone  from  her  past

ex - boyfriend ?

ex - friends ?

maybe  a  posse  of  mean  girls ,  i’m  here  for  the  drama 

fling ?

unrequited  love 

bad  influence  or  even  a  good  influence  

someone  who  finds  her  drawings 

but  seriously  ANY  IS  FINE  !

#‘ ooc / malnatiooc . #‘ about / stella m . #it got longer than i expected #im sorry

[house-vexile]

FFXIV New/Shy Roleplayer Advice

In the wake of the release of World Visiting, and in preparation of the new expansion, I wanted to take a bit to bring up some helpful tips and tricks for those who might be diving into the roleplay community for the first time. Some of these are also very useful for those of us who may struggle to reach out for roleplay, or have trouble initiating roleplay.

In this post, I’ll be discussing Search Comments, Idle Posting, Events and Social Media outlets.

Either way, I hope these help! Popping this under a ‘Read More’ to avoid being too much of a wall-text spammer. Sorry to the mobile users! >.<

1.) The Search Comment 

Final Fantasy XIV offers the opportunity to attach a small 60 character description of your character to your character’s name.Search comments are perfect opportunities to provide links to social media sites where one might find more information about your character (such as Tumblr, Carrd or Twitter). However, it can also be used to provide a very small glimpse into what kind of character you’re playing. Using this comment efficiently can promote your character to others and collect interest from curious potential roleplay partners.

So let's look at some examples of comments.

“All RP, Tells W/Us welcome” - A good start! You’re letting the community know that you’re a roleplayer, and that you’re okay with both /say and /tell roleplay. You’ve officially flagged yourself as a roleplayer. But there’s not much going on beyond that, right? This kind of comment is like being a single fish in a sea of fish. It doesn’t sell your character very much. But, if you would prefer to hide a lot about your character, this might be the way to go for you.

“RP. Healer. Tribal.” - Much better! Now people are aware that you’re a roleplayer, your character is a healer of some sort, and that they carry some sort of tribal beliefs. This really helps people who are looking for certain RP scenes to find you!

“RP. Old Fortune-teller. Kind-hearted. Missing left eye.” - Another good example! This one lets any potential partner know about physical features that can’t be communicated in game, such as missing limbs or tattoos. This one also provides a personality trait that lets them know how your character might act during a scene.

The Search Comment has a limited space, but is a powerful tool to attract attention to your character. You can update it as often as you want to reflect changes in your character, link to art of your character’s true appearance...the possibilities are endless!

2.) The Idle Post 

I think a good number of us have experienced the “Crowded Room of Silence”. A ton of people, with their RP tags on, standing around a room...with not a single word spoken. It’s awkward, and to some, it can be a terrible mix of boredom and disappointment.

A lot of people are waiting to have someone walk up and offer a post. But without a search comment to work with, and without any context about what the character is doing, it can sometimes feel like the initiator is walking up on a statue. That’s where Idle Posting comes in.

Idle Posts are simple posts that describe what your character is doing in that moment. No dialogue is needed, no fancy para-posting required. Just a simple statement to let everyone around you know what sort of movements or activities are happening.

Here’s some examples:

“Ranya Vexile took a drink from the mug of steaming brew that was cradled between her pale hands. The face she made in the wake of the single sip sang songs to the vile aftertaste of the poorly made coffee.”

“Nikolai Barlaas scanned the crowd with a lazy stare. So many people to watch today! And yet, the crowd did not stop the man from fiddling with the worn foreign coin in his hand, the circle of metal rolling over his knuckles like a parlor trick.”

“Arty Surefoot stood at the bar, about to light up her pipe. When her smallfolk hand patted her left pocket, her brows raised in surprise. Where was her lighter? Why wasn’t it in the right place? The lalafell proceeded to rifle through her remaining pockets, muttering grumpily.”

These kinds of posts offer interest to a silent room, and also open up opportunities for those around you to comment on what you’re doing. Is the coffee bad? Where’d you get that coin? Looking for someone? Need a light?

Sometimes it’s just as hard for someone who’s not shy to figure out a walk up post. These kinds of flavor posts really offer some great chances for roleplay to start!

3.) Events

Ah, the scariest of them all. EVENTS.

Events are often built by people who want to promote roleplay experiences. Bar/tavern events are easy starting points since there are often waiters/waitresses/bartenders around that will engage anyone who arrives to ask them for drinks and such.

Other events will have games/events that pair people up (like dances, or the Grindstone) where you are provided a partner to engage. This is a great way for those with a bit of courage to force themselves into a roleplay exchange. While it can be scary the first few times, it can really help a new/shy roleplayer desensitize themselves to the fear of initiation.

There are a TON of events that happen, and with the World Visiting system in full swing, it’s pretty easy to find something to go to on a weekly basis.

4.) Social Media 

This one is entirely optional, but absolutely worth mentioning.

Final Fantasy XIV has spread to a number of different social media sources. Tumblr and Twitter are big ones. Some folks also use Pillowfort, Carrd and the RPC Wiki. But what’s the fuss? Why do it?

Roleplay is something that takes time and investment. Character portrayal and growth, storylines, history...all of this information can sometimes take months, years of roleplay for just one person to figure out all there is to know about your character. Having a social media platform where you can document this information can be helpful to attract interested partners, to provide a place to expand on your search comment information, and to post solo writing that allows for people to see into certain aspects of your character that they themselves may not experience when roleplaying with your character.

Social media is also great for fleshing out your character. It gives a place to collect aesthetics and inspiration that can help you as a roleplayer figure out all the fun little details about your character’s appearance, voice, feelings, environment, etc.

Certain media sources, like Tumblr, allow for you to interact with others via asks and messages, offering the opportunity to inspire and answer questions about your characters to build connections outside of the game at a more relaxed pace.

While Social Media outlets do have their detriments, it can still offer a wide collection of opportunities for growth and improvement as a writer and creator.

One last thing to mention - Roleplaying is a hobby that is filled with potential for new friendships and wonderful experiences. But it takes time, effort and a positive outlook. Be kind to one another. Be patient. Keep trying. Communicate.

Wow, that was a lot more than I expected to write! Sorry about the wall-spam, folks. But I’ve been meaning to collect some helpful tidbits for some time. And seeing as I’ve had an influx of new faces lately, and considering our upcoming new content, I wanted to get this done sooner rather than later.

#ffxiv #ff14 #Final Fantasy XIV #Final Fantasy 14 #Roleplay #RP #I hope this helps out a little bit

[spellnbone]

CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT 004: MYER BRIGGS

YOUR PERSONALITY TYPE IS: MEDIATOR (INFP-A)

Mind: 74% Introverted / 26% Extroverted Energy: 15% Observant / 85% Intuitive Nature 86% Feeling / 14% Thinking Tactics: 35% Judging / 65% Prospecting Identity: 728% Assertive / 28% Turbulent

Mediator personalities are true idealists, always looking for the hint of good in even the worst of people and events, searching for ways to make things better. While they may be perceived as calm, reserved, or even shy, Mediators have an inner flame and passion that can truly shine. Comprising just 4% of the population, the risk of feeling misunderstood is unfortunately high for the Mediator personality type – but when they find like-minded people to spend their time with, the harmony they feel will be a fountain of joy and inspiration.

The INFP personality does reflect Edgar quite well. He does tend to come of as a calm sea, while those who know him know that there’s wonders lurking in the depth of his mind. It is however surprising to see that his Thinking is less impactful than his Feeling, as you’d expect him, he who reads and ponders so much, to be less of an heart-person and more of a head-person. Yet, I do think it fits. His Thinking is driven by Feeling, by the wish to understand and explore more than to just analyse and take the facts as they are. He cares about how they impact the world, the universe, the people around him, and how he feels about it all is an important factor that makes him read so much.

Mediators have a talent for self-expression, revealing their beauty and their secrets through metaphors.

This is certainly accurate for Edgar. While this self-expression is never meant to be expressed for the sake of others, but simply because his words are an outlet for the thoughts he gathers and connects, he does love to talk about it. Not constantly, not randomly, but with those he trusts and those he wishes to join the conversation.

Listen to Many People, but Talk to Few

This also applies beautifully to Edgar. While he definitely doesn’t struggle to hold a conversation, he enjoys listening more than to preach (even if he were someone who thought his own words deep or important enough for preaches, which he certainly isn’t). Perhaps this won’t show as well in this RP, as most of the people around him, the members of the Order, are deeply trusted people, so of course he is able -- and willing! -- to share his thoughts with them. An interaction with a stranger would certainly look different than with someone by whose side he has fought for death and life. Perhaps it’ll show itself in the recently-joined members, compared to those who have been in the Order with him for a long time.

If they are not careful, Mediators can lose themselves in their quest for good and neglect the day-to-day upkeep that life demands. Mediators often drift into deep thought, enjoying contemplating the hypothetical and the philosophical more than any other personality type.

The latter goes without question, the former, I believe has shown itself in recent years. Certainly, Edgar has always been withdrawn, enjoying the comfort of the Ravenclaw tower all throughout his stay at Hogwarts, but ever since then, ever since engaging with the Order’s cause, he might’ve forgotten himself even more. He used to write a lot, unrhyming poetry and jotted down epigrams, mostly, but this, along with other, adolescent hobbies, have drifted away from him eventually. All of his relationships (most of them long-term and considered serious) died because he would withdraw and not put enough effort into the love. He cared, of course, but sometimes he’d forget, staying out for hours, nights, sometimes even entire days, without letting his partner know where he was going. He means no harm in that, he just ... forgets, too absorbed by his own pondering and quest for good.

Mediators share a sincere belief in the idea of relationships – that two people can come together and make each other better and happier than they were alone, and they will take great efforts to show support and affection in order to make this ideal a reality. [...] But Mediators aren’t necessarily in a rush to commit – they are, after all, Prospecting (P) types, and are almost always looking to either establish a new relationship or improve an existing one – they need to be sure they’ve found someone compatible.

The test says that Mediators don’t enjoy committing to relationships, mostly because they prefer the prospect of things over actually doing it. This is the point I initially disagree with, as Edgar for me always had a very loyal personality, someone who longs for someone to be at his side, someone he can come home to. But now that I think about it, I think he’s always, somewhat, one foot out the door. As though he doesn’t really believe that no matter how beautiful and important the thing is he has with that other person, it will never last. Partially because of the war (the secrets he fosters because of the Order and he knows secrets are poison to a relationship, but also because he’s been with Muggles, and the worlds are just too different, it’s too dangerous to let them come together like this), and partially because, in a way, he knows that in the end there’s no one he wants to be as close to as with Amelia. If he were to picture his future -- which he avoids, usually -- then it’s always her, old and wrinkly, by his side, and no one else. 

The challenge is the many dualities that this type harbors when it comes to being sociable – Mediators crave the depth of mutual human understanding, but tire easily in social situations; they are excellent at reading into others’ feelings and motivations, but are often unwilling to provide others the same insight into themselves

I think, as long as Edgar is allowed to sit in a corner and observe at a party, he won’t feel particularly drained. It’s when he has to force himself into expression to make himself feel understood and therefore has to see himself through the eyes of others, that he wears out. I imagine that during the Inner-Circle meetings at the Order, he’s not the one to just take the word and go on about ideas, even if he has some, but listens first and then take someone aside in the five-minute-break to share his opinion. Furthermore, I wonder if his symptoms of OCD make it hard to fully relax when many people are around. In a dangerous situation this comes in incredibly handy as he notices patterns and uncommon happenstances, but when it’s a party where he’s expected to enjoy himself, it’s in the way. That’s why he smokes, to keep his hands from twitching and reaching out to fix little details, keep that calm sea facade of his. And what a luck that this is the 80s and smoking inside wasn’t a tabu yet.

Even as friendships grow stronger and deeper, and friends are lulled into a sense of mutual understanding, Mediators’ enigmatic qualities will never truly vanish.

Very important. Edgar isn’t ‘philosophical’ on purpose. To impress or appear a certain way. he couldn’t care less what his impact is on other people’s minds. There’s not a self-image with reputation he fosters, even when it seemed so in the past when he tried to please his parents by being the Good Child. He did so to keep Amelia out of trouble, and to make his parents happy, never to develop a certain opinion of others on him. This just happened as a by-product. So even when he does get to know someone, and loves sharing his thoughts with them, he won’t change. Because that’s just him, from beginning to end, always.

In the workplace: As subordinates, Mediators prefer latitude, and would much rather immerse themselves in a project, alone or with a close team, than simply be told what task to do and move on. People with the Mediator personality type aren’t looking for easy, forgettable work that pays the bills, they’re looking for meaningful work that they actually want to think about. [...] As managers, Mediators are among the least likely to seem like managers – their egalitarian attitudes lend respect to every subordinate, preferring communication as human beings than as a boss/employee opposition. People with the Mediator personality type are flexible, open-minded and give their subordinates the tools they need, be they responsible delegation or an intuitive and receptive sounding board, to get the job done. Keeping their eyes on the horizon, Mediators set goals that achieve a desirable end, and help the people working under them to make that happen.

Edgar is in the Inner-Circle of the Order, but not because he’s a Leader personality, but because he’s been around for so long that he just knows the ins and outs, because he knows the rules, because he’s undeniably trust-worthy and helpful when given the opportunity. Hence why I added the bit about a Mediator as a manager, because while, in a way, the Inner-Circle does seem to play a leading role in the order, it’s important to understand that Edgar doesn’t see himself as more important than any other member. On the contrary, he embraces every idea, no matter if it’s from someone who joined the cause centuries years ago or last month. Perhaps this is why he finds the negative opinions on the Dorcas and Co. so surprising; he firmly believes that new ideas should always be welcomed, especially if old ideas haven’t really gotten them far in the past, and therefore wonder why people are so resistant to more radical means. On the other hand, the ‘doesn’t just look for work that pays the bills’ amuses me, as Edgar does work at the Daily Prophet mostly for that. Money. He has to get around somehow. Then again, you could say he chose his column for the arts, so here again, he does love thinking about what he’s doing, putting his thoughts into his words.

All in all, I think Edgar fits the Mediator type. It is funny, however, how the Mediator sounds like quite the Hufflepuff type of personality. Naturally, we all know that Edgar’s second house would’ve been Hufflepuff, but considering how the Mediator’s weakness is ‘dislike having to deal with data’, I do wonder what the test got wrong about him (or me, as I took the test). Perhaps it is the fact that he doesn’t collect the data for the sake of data, but to translate it into the bigger picture, which is a Mediator thing to do, or perhaps it is because over the years, he’s grown more distant from just studying the world for the sake of studying it.

I’d like to retake the test in a few months, when I know Edgar a little better. Or when Edgar might’ve changed some more. After all, the events of the world don’t leave him cold, even if he’s not showing his fears and worries on the outside all the time.

#homenumcharacter #{ it's rotten work }

[lavender-hemlock]

the be honest meme. - ALL OF THEM! -From ya know who.

Breathes. I am going to kill you. Everything of the honesty meme is under the cut you absolute fruitcake @kazexvoss . 

1.     What would prevent you from following someone?

Possibly if that person isnotoriously opinionated and hateful towards any opinion that opposes theirs.That’s about the only preventive thing. Just unbearable and toxic people. 

2.     Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?

Sure, I think aesthetics aregreat outlets to demonstrating outside of screenshots and prompts what yourcharacter is about in an array of colors, art, or examples. It’s beautiful.

3.     What current rp trend do you hate? Taken.

4.     How do you explain rp to someone in the real world?

Hahah- I don’t, but I would probably compare it to my lovefor literature and writing if I had to. I’m writing stories and adventures.

5.     Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?

I don’t have a preference!

6.     Do you prefer writing male muses or female more? Why?

I write female muses because it is simply easier for me to put myshoes in the shoes of a female muse. For obvious reasons I should hope. However,I have written with a male oc in the past. I want to, just haven’t found theright dynamic yet for ffxiv. I had a male Au Ra by the name of Xathun- but nowhe is simply my retainer that brings me stuff he deems is shiny. 

I love himeven if he brings me level 5 rocks.

7.     What’s your opinion on call-out posts?

I think they are both useful topoint out harmful individuals who have harmful or greedy intentions – andharmful because some call-out posts I believe are just posts to continue a potstir off the platform itself or off the drama seeping from another dms. Thereis a time and place for all things.

8.     Name any three things about the rpc that bother you. Taken.

9.     What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

I think exclusivity iscompletely up to those who choose to practice it. I only practice it on whetherI am comfortable. Very few people can make me feel uncomfortable- but my guthas yet to fail me in this. I will not RP with anyone who makes meuncomfortable or if they are just looking for ERP. I’m not about it.

10.   Have you everhad a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or assomeone who buys them?

I have not had a bad experiencewith commissions. I really need to seek out one.

11.   What do youknow now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started? Taken.

12.   Have you beeninvolved in drama? Do you regret it?

In this community, I have onlybeen involved in one instance. It was during my first few months joining FFXIV,super early on. A RPer tried to guilt trip me for not responding to them forone day. One day caused a lot of drama from someone else’s greed and possessivenature.

I don’t regret it. It just demonstrated another example for me to be wary of everyone’s intentions. Unfortunately. It isthat split-second decision that you want to think the best in everyone that brings the failure. Oops.

13.   Have you everthought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?

I probably considered leavingRP when I was leaving a forum base that I had invested eleven or so years of mylife into. I had grown so much through it and watched as it died out bit by bitonly for trolls to really remain. None of the inspiration was there and noone truly seemed passionate about anything but bars. Taverns. 

I changed my mind when I joinedFFXIV. At first I played the game because it was something to do. I wasbored and things were dying down for me. I have loved the FF series for such along time, so I thought, why not? Screw the pay wall. I just played through AtRealm Reborn and focused that down in a binge. Over time I got the itch Iwanted to write, and that had propelled me right into the RP crew in Siren.Then that branched onto the Tumblr. Creating my blog has led me to meet such wonderful people along the way. 

14.   Do you think rphas had a positive or negative affect on your life or you as a person?

Positive for sure. RP helped meduring the years I was unsure who I wanted to be, what I wanted to express, andhelped me communicate more when I said so little. I was so much moreintroverted, and the writing RP brought was so uplifting.

The character, Haine, I madeyears ago is a force in my life that influenced my traits as a role model. She’llalways have a special place in my heart.

15.   How has rpchanged you personally?

I suppose this builds on thelast question, huh?

Without finding RP as anoutlet, I don’t think I would have been ready to embrace what I could be.Things could have been far worse in my life, and I like to think some of thetraits I had crafted Haine to be throughout the years helped me remain true towho I should be rather than what everyone wanted me to be- or knock me down tobe.

16.   If you couldchange one thing about rp on tumblr, what would it be? Why?

I don’t think I want to changeanything- I would just want to encourage others to write and express themselvesmore in their outlets. Which can be writing, drawing, aesthetics. You do you.The passion is my favorite thing to see in others.

17.   Have you eversent a message to yourself on anon? Why?

No. Why would anyone do that?

18.   Have you eversent hate to yourself on anon? Why?

Why… would anyone do that? Arethey okay?

19.   Do you deleteanon hate or post and address it? Why?

I am content to say I havenever received anon hate. Yet.

20.   Have you everfelt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?

No. I refuse to put myself inthat position.

21.   Have you everfollowed someone because you felt like you had to, not because you wanted to? Taken.

22.   What would makeyou block someone?

I try to avoid blocking becauseI believe most things can be recovered- because if I put you on that block list,I am never looking at it. You’re gone. You must be very toxic to get put there-or annoying. There was that one guy…

23.   Have you everstolen something from someone else?

Does luck count? Because Iswear I stole someone’s luck once and it was the funniest thing I had everwitnessed.

24.   Have you everhad something stolen from you? If so, how did you handle it?

Yes. I’ve had the alias Hainefor over ten years. I carried that name from my old RP community and thisperson that I used to call a good friend disappeared. She came back under a newname, and then I went on a hiatus. I come back, she’s going as the name “Haine.”She pretended she was just an anonymous person and not the friend I always knewbut playing stupid never was her skill.

I was… indifferent at first.Yet, it felt like a part of me was being violated. I knew her. It hurt. I hadmade Haine as this love child of my creativity. I tried to be reasonable butthen this person began to start discourse so it would go. “Did Haine do this?” “Whydid Haine do that?” It was confusing to always say “It was the other one.” Whenoften duplicate alias’ were not typical.

It was upsetting to say theleast, and after a while, as above it as I like to be- I started getting prettyangry. It was never pretty. I can regret a bit of it.

25.   Are you open toduplicates? Why / why not?

As in duplicates acrossservers? I do that! I had stared on Siren originally before I made a characteron Balmung before world visit opened up. I think duplicates are helpful in caseyou want to keep your strong attachments in both data centers.

26.   How do you feelabout vague posting?

Vague… posting?

27.   Do you followpeople even if they don’t follow you back?

Of course! Someone I followdoes not have to follow me back. I love their content and I want to stay tuned!That is the entire point! If they follow back, it is just equally delighting.

28.   Do you readpeople’s rules before following or interacting?

If they have rules, yes. Ithink it is very important to have OOC communication to express what you willallow or what you find inappropriate.

29.   What is youropinion on “reblog karma” and do you practice it?

I don’t.. understand.

30.   How have youresponded to popular slang used on tumblr? Do you use it in every day life? Doyou use it at all?

I don’t follow tumblr trends enough toknow?

31.   Is theresomething you don’t know the meaning of but you haven’t asked anyone becauseyou think it’s supposed to be general knowledge? Was there ever something youhad to ask someone to explain?

OH! I think I did this once. Beingnew on Tumblr awhile back, I did not understand a lot of things. So some of theterms was lost on me. I think I remember asking what on earth a “mun” was. Itwas lost on me.

32.   Have you everexperienced discrimination?

Yeah.

33.   How do you feelabout personal blogs following your rp blog?

The more the merrier! I thinkthat makes it more flattering to see. It makes me think that something on myblog had to be nice for someone to want to keep up on their personal blog.

34.   Have you evercried while writing a reply?

Oh go- Yes. Recently. The plot lines that make me feel things are the best kind. Happy, excited, nervous, bittersweet, thrilled. I love it. 

35.   Do you readother people’s threads or do you only read your own?

I read other people’s threads,and my own. I read mine several times because I figure it can be better. I love reading thewriting of others.

36.   What’s onething that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you? Taken.

37.   How do you feelabout tagging triggers? Do you tag them? How do you determine what istriggering content and what isn’t?

I don’t feel anything for themor tag them.

38.   What advicewould you give to someone new to rp?

 Embrace what you want to be and do not divert from what youare comfortable with. Feel free to go to public places and watch others work.If I know the person who is new to RP I would usually offer to be their partnerto get them into the cadence.

This exhausted me. I felt things throughout this journey of asks, and through it all I give to you- 

#honesty meme #TAPROMPTS #hell

[arctikan]

aight, here’s the 411 folks.  say some gangsta is dissin’ your fly girl. just *leaves tumblr*

i’m not leaving tumblr (my art and personal posts blog is once again @izillus​ and i’ll probably set my portfolio as a sideblog there). but... i’ve decided i’ve tried tumblr rp far too many times for it to flop like this, every time, and be worth it. and honestly, yeah, i have a  lot  more to do if i want to look like an visual artist with the drive and potential i hope to have. but this all flopped harder, definitely, than my other attempts if just because:

(y’all don’t know/talk to nate.) this was 6/09. i have kept quiet for more than a month, and i think i let that get to my head harder than the act itself.

and i’m not here to instigate, or change anything. i’ve left tumblr plenty alone and have moved on, there are other outlets, and i’m not coming back  any time soon. i’m not motivated in spite, nor is this the main reason why i’m leaving. i want a canvas work done by september and i have a lot more plans for getting into art school, and i can write fanfictions if i want to write that bad. i have no motive in posting this besides the fact that:

1. it’s necessary to see this, and it’s been long enough that i can leave and be over it - so if someone wants to talk to me about it, that’s fine, but i dont need ‘retribution’ or a reason to come back. i am leaving to give myself the space to take care and discipline myself in pursuit of art.

2. that being said! it’s absurd - ASININE,  that i, who honestly could have came to these conclusions about doing tumblr rp again much sooner, found this pierce what little insecure joints are left in my right finger to let this fester for so long, and go “well i dont want to burn any bridges”! bridges that shouldn’t exist with my insecurities in plain sight.

my off-handness that people may have occasionally experienced is my bad. but i tried, and balancing this was just way too damn hard. i can make it up to you in art or a good conversation away from rp. if i try this again in close time, it’ll take up far too much of my time and my paranoia will just drive me up the wall. just in case i come back after all, i’ll keep this blog open as an archive. but it’s unlikely. 

here’s other places to find me:

my art twitter ! 

@izillus , tumblr dot comm

my personal twitter (warning. i am Loud)

discord, still leathercore#3259 !

i’m really sorry to bum out after such a short time... i was really excited for a while but realized that now, i’m graduated and preparing to move out. i can’t just spend this summer as i would if i were to return to school this fall, you know? i had fun though, and the headcanons and writing y’all have inspired me to do will continue throughout projects, be if fanfiction or art. and that means a lot to me. please keep in touch of you want! <3

#》❄。 psa ╎ this is important. #im like. sorry but gjfhdg maybe this just means i got more time for mk projects to share <3 #this blogs also stickin here because of my headcanon posts like... #trans kuai matters

[elegiesforshiva]

How old are u? When did u start writing? I love your fanfics! Keep your beautiful works alive and take all the time you need for them to finish 🌸 I really admire youuuuu❤️

i’m sorry i’m responding to this late!!!!  it’s probably the most personal ask i’ve ever gotten and honestly i was so flattered and happy from it like i’m really not anything to look up to, i’m just a fandom loser like everyone else, enjoying my otp the best way I know how but omg ur really such a sweetheart for this and thank you !!!!!!!

I’m 24, will be 25 in May!  It’s hard to say when I started writing.  I did RPs and stuff since i was like super young (lmao was anyone else here on gaiaonline????)  and in my late teens i spent a long ass time obsessively journaling to analyze my experiences, and my relationship to myself and to the world.  I do have a BA in english, but that’s not because I had an interest in writing at the time.  I just lacked direction and went to college because i thought it was expected of me.  My intro english professor had pulled me aside and asked me to seriously consider writing.  My art professor did too, surprisingly, but I decided to go for English, assuming it’d be more practical (HAH!  Jokes on me.) 

I’ll be honest, that degree didn’t teach me jack shit lmao.  The workshops were pretty cool though (there was the standard english degree route where u studied shakespeare and watched ur soul rot from outside ur body in mental and spiritual disassociation, and there was creative writing…i chose creative writing.)  The best one was probably my memoir workshop where we got to hear all these intimate stories about total strangers.  (I met my best friend that way!  Her and I were the only ones who wrote about our history with violent trauma lmao.  We clicked fast) 

I think I learned how to write mainly from reading.  Especially from subjects and pieces I wanted to be writing about.  Idk if you’re a writer yourself, anon, or have some other sort of craft that you indulge in, but if you are, I’d stress exposure the most.  You pick up techniques and writing abilities/styles that you consume without even noticing.  And you get to hear a good story while you’re at it!

But I didn’t become passionate and like…try until I started writing ss fanfiction, which is kind of hilarious to me.  Like I never even edited my essays in college, you couldn’t pay me to read something of mine over.  I’m really grateful for fanfiction because of that especially, I never would have imagined finding myself so passionate about this craft if it weren’t for exploring this outlet.

Okay, let me stop rambling, I’m pretty sure this isn’t what you had in mind when you sent that ask, but I just wanted to say thank you so much!!!!  Honestly I absolutely love people like you and I’m really grateful to be hearing that I’m able to touch people in any shape or form.  Like my kink is legit emotional intimacy and messages like these that are not only validating but also informing me of how I was able to connect to someone is just so unbelievable to me.  This is really my pride and joy and I don’t know where the future is going to take me but wonderful people like you has really made me consider options that I know I would never dream of before.  I’m in awe with this entire process, and especially with people as kind as you to leave me messages like these.  I can’t even begin to explain the sheer impact and brilliance that takes me when I receive a message saying someone enjoys work I never thought I’d have the gall to make.  Thank you so much anon.  Your patience is appreciate, and your love even more

#anonymous #this was really the best im sorry for the rambles but this was so nice!!! ty!!!! #i hope your week is as awesome as you've made mine!!!

[novantinuum]

Jen’s mega list of plans:

Written and posted here purely to keep me accountable, and also bc it’s easier to archive posts than find anything in my thousands of documents on my phone. These are all fan projects, basically.

Gravity Falls

-Draw kiki-kit’s precious flame Mabel, (from the graphic novel), and perhaps a flame Pines Family to go with it. Love her design. It seriously just... is precious <3

-Draw graphic novel like “covers” for @the-ill-doctor and I’s RPs to commemorate our 1 yr anniversary of starting the first RP

-While speaking of RP, push past editing road blocks on The Time We Lost, the Time We Mended so we can finally post TateGate™ (pardon the unintelligible inside joke)

-I genuinely want to continue working on the AU comic I’d churned out a few pages for, and test my ability there more. The graphic novel has inspired me.

-I really want to make a print of that nice piece with three eras of Stan and all the Stan related objects floating over them for myself and hang it on my wall. Simple task, but I know I’ll forget so here I am posting a note to myself. JEN YOU KNUCKLEHEAD, get it done :O

-Just, generally? I want to get more comfortable sketching quick and fast. In traditional. I want to fill up a sketchbook with dynamic poses and expressions and random bullshit and get comfortable getting messy with my art.

-AMVs. Once my brother helps me rip the boxset, I have a special commission to make for @eregyrn-falls , and then after that I had a great, emotional idea for the song Unity by Shinedown.

Trollhunters

-I had a fic I started that I REALLY want to get back into, Death and All That Follows. I just have so many crazy projects rumbling through my head that this is easier said than done XD

-There’s a bunch of dynamic Jim and Toby pieces I have half finished that I’ll prob come back to one day if I’m bored...

-My cosplay prop amulet. Need to get glue and get it all together, plus resin/glow in the dark stuff for the crystal, and maybe paint for some touch up pizzaz.

-Not to mention, if I’m going to cosplay Jim? I need to actually order shoes, a wig, and the jacket. I have a stretch goal for colored contact lenses, but eh if I don’t get there that’s fine.

-I can never draw enough troll Jim, to be perfectly honest.

-I promised @inktheblot that I’d draw Toby in the trollhunter armor at some point and I still aim to do that. I actually kinda have an AU for it too?? So I could prob just make a bunch of sketches for that...

-I also promised myself once that I’d make big two or three inch amulet pins. Mostly one just for myself. But if I had the money to do a small bulk batch, excellent.

-Also mostly just for myself, unless I threw it on like... redbubble or something, I wanted to make a custom Trollhunters shirt with the amulet and some crystals and a quote and shit. Because I’m salty that the only Trollhunters shirts that officially exist are for small children.

AU crossover nonsense

-Write more of A Tale of Two Trollhunters. Probably a given, but I’m behind where I wanted to be. Also, I have a bunch of half sketched out future scene ideas I want to post as one shot snippets bc we all know I’ll never actually get there going chronologically ;D;

-Design troll forms for my changeling Dipper and Mabel

-While we’re at it, make designs for Alex and Gina Pines, my OC Dip and Mab parents who feature in the future stuff for this story.

Other

-Just, in general... develop my OCs more. Make MORE OCs. Challenge myself to just MAKE characters.

-Speaking of that, I kiiiinda wanna make a GF dating sim persona I kiiiinda really do, is it too late for that? XD

So. Anyways. As you might tell from all this insanity, I have a whole hell of a lot I would. Conceptually like to do? I really really love making fandom content y’all, it’s what keeps me going honestly. It’s my one creative outlet in between the stress of trying to pursue a degree in biochemistry, of all the hellishly complicated things I could’ve decided to find fascinating. And there’s genuinely some points where I’m like? What the hell Jen. What the fresh hell, why on earth do you have to give yourself so many project ideas to tackle? Why did you decide to draw AND write AND edit, why can’t you just pick ONE? And I’ve no idea dudes not a s i n g l e fuck. My attention bounces so fast from one idea to the next that sometimes I genuinely marvel how on earth I’ve gotten anything done in the past two years, but eh no matter. Anyways, now I’m just rambling so?

Future Jen. Step your game the fuck up my man. Get some cool fan content done! Stop disappointing your far-too-cool mutuals and followers with a lack of fan content and make something you can be proud of! Be cool, dude.

Be cool.

#dont take this too seriously it’s just me making notes to myself #jen rambles

[softyfrom-hell]

Sorry if this comes off as invading space or rude but I mean this as genuine honesty not as rude or anything

I'm genuinely curious how the Ace label works for you,Are you sexual online but non sexual offline? Do you perform but don't feel the attraction?

Sorry if this is weird I'm just curious how the title works for someone running a nsft blog

No worries! I like this question, I'm just not all too great at explaining things so bare with me.. ^^;

I mostly run this blog for inspiration. My asexuality at most just messes with my attendance online tbh.. I JUST got back on here after not posting since October.. lmao

I don't know EXACTLY where I fall on the ace spectrum but, I do know that I find these ideas attractive, exciting and fun and I do get off to them whenever I'm in the mood. The idea of sex is just way more appealing than the actual act itself and I'd rather just focus on my partner's satisfaction, if that makes sense.

Like, there is some sexual attraction, just not enough to actively seek out sexual material or engage with my partner for my own benefit. (most of the time) But I do still perform for their benefit, both irl and through rp, writing and art. I am definitely a lot more outgoing online and with my creative outlets though, for sure.. ^^;;

I hope I explained this okay. If you need clarification feel free to message me or send another ask, I don't mind. /gen

*TLDR; Performance without attraction but I enjoy it for other reasons that aren't necessarily sexual. It's just fun. lol

#not that i dont enjoy it though #my partner definitely doesnt force it on me #its fun and i like seeing them happy <3 #as cheese as that sounds.. lol

[the-god-and-the-frog]

Where can I find your rules?

OOC: Maybe it would be easier to just put them in this ask and then link them in my description for mobile user. Anyway, here we go. 

RULES AND INFO

Thanks for stumbling on my blog! My main blog is @secretlyafrogman and I go by Danny. I’ve been roleplaying for over 10 years and have enjoyed it as a way to develop storylines and relationships with both muses and the mun. I have RPed as OC’s and fandom characters (my more popular one being Loki back in 2012) and have started to develop an L and Light muse that are dying to get out. My muses may be a bit different from what you’re used to in canon, so please make sure you read my interpretations of them below.

Rules

-This is both an RP and an ask blog. I will tag both respectively (+asks and +roleplays). I have the right to accept and refuse anything, so please don’t be offended if I decide not to answer an ask or respond to a roleplaying request.

-Even if the plot is SFW, I don't feel comfortable roleplaying with people who are minors. If you ask to roleplay with me and you lie about your age, then I will permanently ban you. This is a personal preference of mine that I wish to have respected. Thank you for understanding.

-I am a multishippers (Lawlight is my primary but I also ship Light/Mikami, Light/Takada, L/B, L/Wedy, L/Aiber, etc). That being said, I will not RP smut unless there is chemistry between our characters. My muses tend to have a mind of their own and I will not do something that they do not feel comfortable with just for the sake of smut.

-I am a literate RPer and tend to write from a third-person perspective. That’s not to say I’m expecting you to be one, just that that is my preference when it comes to RP’s. Because of that, my replies do get long at times, but please don’t be intimidated by that.

-I don’t mind OC’s as long as there is an “About” page where I can read about them. I need to know about your character before I can interact with them. Otherwise my muses will have nowhere to go.

-I’m fine with AU’s with the exception of “Light doesn’t have the Death Note.” I’m also fine with gender!bent RP’s, so if you want a Fem!Light or a Fem!L that can absolutely be arranged!

-If you want to RP with me, just send me an ask or message me. We can come up with a plot from there! Also: please read my interpretations of the characters before approaching.

-Interpretations

-My Light stays very close to the canon. As a result, my Light will always be Kira through and through. No exceptions to this unless it’s the Yotsuba Arc. He’s very strong minded, narcissistic, dominant, highly intelligent, charming and viewed as having the perfect life by many. However, he feels alone and lonely in a world where no one truly understands him. He does see himself as a God and wants nothing more than to make the world a better place for those that are suffering. His relationship with Ryuk varies on friendly to annoyed. The Kira side of him is deadly and violent, more dominant that his Light side and incredibly dangerous. Those that are exposed to it usually don’t live to see tomorrow. I should also mention that my Light is bisexual and has no experience with either male nor female.

Kinks: To be listed as I begin to explore him more. I have not RPed with him yet but I’m definitely itching to.

-My L enjoys his role as L and couldn’t imagine doing anything else, enjoying the cat and mouse game he plays with those that he chases. His idea of justice is watching his opponents die by his means, something that has been known to get him off from time to time. However, while this is very true he does have a soft spot for those he cares for and will do anything to keep them safe (Watari, the Wammy kids, Roger, Wedy, Aiber, etc). This developed after what happened with A and Beyond, something that still haunts his dreams and is the one time he believed that the end didn’t justify the means. He enjoys puzzle solving and a good challenge and has an interest in science and the arts. L is not inexperienced when is comes to sexual situations, having lost his virginity to Wedy at the age of 18 and has experimented around with both her and Aiber through the years. He finds sex as a good outlet for stress and refuses to let feelings get involved, instead burying them deep down even if he does feel something. It would take someone who he views as an equal to break that habit of his. coughKiracough

Kinks: Finger sucking, dirty talk, phone sex, bondage, multiple orgasms (usually on the giving end of that and not the receiving end), rough sex, voyeurism, public fooling around, giving head, dry humping, words of affection (if you tell him he’s doing a good job dear GOD it gets him off), teasing, being put in life-threatening situations, thigh highs and short skirts, hair pulling, being dominated by Kira

Some important facts about my L (tw: suicide):

-Does not want and will not have children. Ever. That’s not to say he doesn’t have a soft spot for children (he loves the ones at the Wammy House) but as far as having his own he hates the idea.

-Attempted suicide by ingesting half a pill bottle at a very young age after being abandoned by his parents for being “different.” Was saved by Roger and Watari. Because of this experience, he has a savior complex when he sees a youth in turmoil.

-Any other questions, please feel free to ask!

#anon #rules and info #Thanks for the ask!

[streetxsims]

Haii 💖💖💖 you inspire me to make a s4 account to post my gameplay but i think nobody will like it because im not as good & im mainly maxis. What are some pros&cons of starting a simming account? 💕

Word?? Glad I could be of inspiration haha :) what do you mean not as good?? There’s a lot of people out there who share the same views/taste with you when it comes to MM style, even if you feel your stuff isn’t “good enough” that’s nothing a little practice can’t fix because we all started somewhere, and probably were all trash at 1st LMAO

I have some “getting started” tips here if you wanna check that outOn to some pros/cons - 

Pros:

Great community to express your love of Sims since we all share that 

A place to chill, get to know/talk to people who’re just like you

Easy to find/keep up with new Custom content or CC in general  

People are always helpful when it comes to anything like CC creating, editing, game setup, picture taking, etc. etc 

Freedom of self expression 

Something to do when you’re waiting for your game to load haha 

Very welcoming(emphasis on this) 

Resourceful for not only sim needs but other helpful resources as well 

A place to learn/see things from different perspectives

Different age groups so you’ll easily find yours 

I honestly think Simblr helps a lot with organization that can be used in real life situations such as school, uni, work, etc, etc.  

You can use your art/digital imaging here in Uni/School to build a portfolio for either gaming, interior design, architecture, or graphic design 

A place to be proud of your art/stories/creations when you have nowhere else to do so 

If you’re into Role Playing/Script writing/Character creating/development this place is for you as well 

Cons: 

[Warning: If you suffer from depression/anxiety I feel you shouldn’t use Simblr as an outlet to “escape” unless you mute/block any form of negativity. Simblr is a trigger on some ends and I feel it’s not safe for some of you who’re easily triggered. Your health is more important. Use other forms to escape harsh reality such as reading ,writing, talking to someone, walking, or practicing other healthy hobbies. This is the internet after all, home to triggers.] 

Pressure to be just “as good” as your peers 

Constant debates/fights about things we can’t control

Being outspoken/straightforward is looked at as “rude”, “entitled”, “stuck up”, “mean”, and last but not least “too popular”  

Lack of creativity; working hard on your aesthetic/style and having someone take every aspect of that down to the way you build, talk; the way your characters/sims speak, act, or look just because they see you getting good feedback they feel if they do the same thing they’ll get the same responses. We all are guilty of being inspired but some turn it to an obsession which results in using you as their blueprint; never liking your post or speaking to you but you always see you in their work  

The constant pressure people put on CC creators to give, give, give which makes them aggravated, which causes them to be a little blunt/nonchalant and villainized  by the “victims” who made them react this way lol 

Touching back on the one above: people feeling entitled to how you run/handle your blog. If you don’t help them with a situation that’s not dire/serious, give them attention, or give them what they want you become a topic in a negative light

People try to project things they don’t like about you into someone else’s mind so that person will not “like you” as well lol 

Too much competition/dire need for notes 

People using you to get their name out their 

Lastly: we all are guilty of being easily pulled into drama, having private conversations, bullying, envious mannerisms, and using our RP/Roleplay characters to express personal issues towards others. Cut that out in 2k18.

Hope this helps you outTY for the love as well :) 

[ask-dr-knockout]

New Job and Confessions

So hey guys, just a heads up I'll be starting my new job here soon in a few days. I just finished the remaining documentation and stuff like that. *Takes deep breath*

I'll be honest I am watching inspiring shows and listening to calming music right now between work in an effort to kind of keep myself positive and a little bit distracted from thinking any negative thoughts or allowing insecurities to fester.

I do apologise for a lack of posts lately and offtopic content as I know I have active RP I need to reply too and catch up with as well as commissions. Thanks for your patience my friends. Please bear with me.

I'm sure we all can relate to feeling a bit uneasy when it comes to change good or bad. It's new and it's a bit frightening at times. I'm about to go through alot of that soon. I've made alot of promises to my family and myself lately too. I want to make sure I do my best.

Not only for the new job but to commit to my own personal health and well-being again by keeping up good routines and cultivating good habits.

This is the first true full time job I'm taking on again since my family went through tragedy 4 years ago. This is a very difinitive time for us and I want to focus and make sure I do everything I can to succeed.

I'm finding myself in the same position my mother was in before she became sick. After financial hardship in the family, my mother went through rigerious training for a new job in order to help support all of us.

Despite her own unbelievable hardships while sick and going through chemo my mother continued to work and even passed her tough training for her job before she became to Ill and had to take medical leave. If it had not been for her efforts we would have not made it.

She did it for dad and I.

In the short time she was with that amazing company she forged bonds and friendships that could have lasted for years to come because that was who my mother was. Strong, determined and outgoing. She was going to go so far they would have promoted her. I sometimes wonder why God took her from us things would have been so much easier to bear if she had healed. She was/is the heart of us. She was my best friend before I had any friends. She still drives me to succeed as any good mother would.

I'm so proud of my mom and my dad for fighting through and being there for each other and me. I'm crying as I write this now but I want mom to know it's my turn now and I'm going to make her proud. If my mom could pass her training as sick as she was to support us I have no excuse but to do my very best like she did. I hope that I can succeed, this family needs some WINS. I owe that to her and dad for being amazing inspiring parents.

I'm tired of holding myself back from living a normal stable life both financially and emotionally. I figure if I can just get past this change I will start to get used to a new and better rhythm in my life once again and will have accomplished something meaningful.

I've been so used to putting out fires or relying on others to take that leadership and provide, but i think it's finaly time to cultivate and rebuilt again and this time I'm going to make that happen on my own merits. I want to do this for so many reasons.

I've had plenty of time to process everything that happened in the past. I can finally talk about subjects that hurt deeply or handle the slightest hint or mention that before could leave me in rough emotional states. I can recognize the fact I'm finally healing.

Where I won't pretend that I'm 100% recovered however, I now have regained enough of my old self to move forward again. I have found tools to work and manage that grief and pain. I've laid out a plan.

I realize I'm rambling alot right now but I need to get these feelings out and the more I say the easier it is to face.

The more I type the more likely I am to stick to my own personal proclimations and goals.

So yeah, I am just trying to keep positive and confidant. For Mom, Dad and myself.

This is going to be outside my comfort zone as it is a completely new field to me but I just gotta keep up the resolve. Lol man, I haven't even started yet, it could be easier then what Anxiety/ uncertainty likes to make one think. Gotta avoid overthinking it and take it one day at a time. I wish I didn't overthink things so much haha. feeling uncertian right now isn't going to help.

Also, this isn't so much just an update post I guess as an outlet to affirm my own choices that what I am doing is the right thing because it's so far from what I ever actually invisioned myself doing. Of course sometimes it's those things that bring us the most happieness too. Life is just not perdicable despite how often we have our own goals in mind. I find it's sometimes best to go with the flow and take what opportunity is presented. And this IS a career opportunity I can be proud of. And I'm a bit overjoyed it is not retail again. I've done retail so much in the past. I finally have found an opportunity I can grow and advsnce within this company. Where hard work supposedly Does get recognized.

But don't get me wrong. My heart still yearns for a career in the arts but I know we can't always have it our way and things may have to come in time. I tried for years to get where I thought I wanted to go without the success I was seeking. It doesn't mean I've given up but I do have to make a new strategy on how to move forward. And with financial stability and new skillsets to fall back on it also opens new opportunities for me as well. I'm making a calculated decision to persue a better future. The dreams are not dead.

Sometimes we have to take a less obvious or indirect route to achieve our goals and be pragmatic. I think the important thing to remember in any choice we make is to stay true to ourselves and especially those we love.

I can do this and I'm not going to let my insecurities get in the way of persuing a better path. but I think I may need help and encouragement from my friends. I really am not good with the solitary thing lol.

I kind of depend on you guys. You really do help drive me. Kind words and actions go a long way they are invaluable to me. Someday soon I hope I can give back to these special people in my life. Hugs

If I know myself, I know that I can be a bit hard on myself too. Another reason I truly depend on my friends. I have alot of big dreams because of my own high expectations and sometimes that can crush me when I think about how far off those aspirations still are. But maybe it's time to start living each day for what it is and having smaller goals leading to something bigger instead.

I'm working on being a kinder person to others but also to myself. I read recently how much our inner voice can truly play a role in our lives. I'm also saying this too for anyone else dealing with that. Be kind to yourself. Coach yourself like you would a close friend you want to help. Give yourself a break when you don't always succeed. If I fail at this new job it just means it wasn't the right fit. But I will have failed knowing I did my best first. At least I can mark that off my list too and move on to the next thing that might be even better.

But anyways yep, I want to keep driving for rideshare on the side as well as working on my freelance art/ cosplay. I don't want to give those things up because they are very much apart of who I am and what I love.

I admittedly still have some doubts about running myself down or the opposite never having the will to alot time for those passions anymore. To be honest I think the second out of the two is my greater fear. I tend to get focused on one task at a time but this job will require me to become more adept at multitasking or stopping and switching gears. not just in the job itself but in managing every aspect of my life. I hope I can learn to do this better as I can be a bit obsessive and too focused on one thing at a time. Also getting bored with one thing. It's definitely a skill I have to work on.

*Sigh* I have to admit too, there's so much riding on this too as I will need to work rideshare the first 2 weeks after i get done with my normal full time training hours to still handle the bills before I can begin to rely more on my new work schedule. After that I can limit my driving to maybe a few hours on the weekends so that I can begin to replenish savings for the future. This probably also means I may be less likely to be attending as many conventions as I used too in the past at least for this first year. But we'll have to see how it goes.

I'll be praying for energy and resolve and any support/prayers or well wishes is super appreciated on all of this. I'm going to need it in the upcoming weeks.

Anyways thanks for reading and allowing me to vent my feelings out to you guys. Your the best.

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