#i need to know/who/ sent it

[adustoflove]

Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.

#bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd splitting #lately I've just been slowly moving away from all my friends too #haven't spoken to anyone on insta for days despite usually talking to at least 2-3 friends every few days #irl sent me a video a week ago...never responded. I haven't even been feeling lonely really #I just KNOW when my period creeps up on me I'll be a whining sad piss baby who's openly pathetic about needing human connection #like I wish I just felt no need for it ever. it feels SO good to be alone and not have any obligations as a person #then the crippling loneliness of forever being alone seeps in when tbh I'm fine with it currently actually

[0vergrowngraveyard]

city boy cant understand a damn thing his pirate brother is saying

#i personally headcanon that sails came from a ship with a very ruthless captain before he joined the angel's voyage #and he witnessed some pretty fucked up shit #and sometimes he'll tell these insane stories with a straight face while everyone else is mortified #or they just dont know wtf hes saying #for those who need a translation: he basically hes saying that he warned a crew member not to rebel #but he rebelled away and was whipped and sent off the plank #while the rest of his cohorts got keelhauled (a brutal form of punishment/execution) #sails is perfectly fine mentally #meanwhile nine is going to kill his brother #prime bros #sails the fox #miles nine prower #sonic prime #art

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

you made it onto a gianni stream did you know this.

INEEDTOLEAVE IGOTTAGETOUTTAHERE

#HELP. HELP. MODS?? MODS. #DELETE ME. DELETE ME AT ONCE #IMLEAVINGIHAVE TOGO CALL ME TAKEOUT THE WAY IM IN A BAG READY TO GO #MY NOTIFICATIONS. #HELP #RATTLING THE BARS OF MY CAGE #GET ME OUT #ok. ok. uh. #I’ll just say I’m glad you guys warned me #vs me finding out while watching the stream at work tomorrow #because it surely would have killed me #on the spot #I need to go to the nearest body of water and let the gators take me now #goobye… #non voice post #ask #asks #edit: to the other people who sent me This Warning #thank you.. I won’t reply to all cause I don’t want to spam #but thanks for letting me know I have to face this tomorrow LOL

[sassypantsjaxon]

Robin and Sanji both being lonely book kids is just so

#one piece #nico robin #black leg sanji #IT IS TWO HOURS PAST MY BEDTIME BUT THEY NEED TO GET AWAY FROM ENIES LOBBY BUT I NEED TO GO TO BED SOMEBODY STOP ME #the dichotomy of Robin being hated because she isn't normal and Sanji being hated because he is #both of them being sent away from their destructions and told to find people who will love them #Sanji would feel so guilty because he found safety with Zeff and she never got that chance #but she would never begrudge him that because she knows he deserves to have been loved too #can somebody just give them both a hug? #they need it

[basketobread]

Happy birthday! Mine was on Monday

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤ And happy belated birthday to you!!! I hope you had a good one!! :) 🙏❤❤❤

#HAHAHA I have so many asks that I need to get to I am SO sorry everyone #I'm over the 100+ mark so I'm having a hard time figuring out how to go about this DSIFHFUIFDSHSDIU #BUT TO EVERYONE WHO'S SENT SUCH NICE MESSAGES AND FUN QUESTIONS: THANK YOU SO MUCH #I LOVE YOU ALL RAHHGHGHGH #I just suck at responding on time again it's a me problem im so sorry #SORRY I KNOW I RAMBLED OFF TOPIC WITH THIS ASK IN THE TAGS BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISH AGAIN #<333333333333333333 #ask bob

[biblically-accurate-dca]

I dropped this before but every Moon needs a comfy pair of boxers. Here ya go Moon!

[image id: a picture of a pair of moon themed boxers with the words "naughty.. naughty.." written on them in a white, cursive font. the boxers are a dark navy blue with a gold colored band at the top, as well as gold colored stars and crescent moons scattered across it. end id.]

uhh... thanks!

#my art #daycare attendant #moondrop #dca fandom #i've seen a post of moon wearing this exact pair of underwear.... are you the same person who sent that ask?? #well regardless im not gonna draw sexy moon. you will take my silly goofsters and you will like it #we need more silly goofster representation #btw.. if i drop off the face of the earth tomorrow you know why B)

[todayisafridaynight]

old man yaoi sketch commission........

Commission Info

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #tf their ship name. idk if someone tells me ill update the tags #koichi adachi #makoto date #snap sketches #commission #OLD MAN YAOI COMMISSION 🗣️🗣️🗣️ #my life's in shambles rn but that's ok i get to draw date and adachi #this one especially goes out to the people who kept sending me adach|wag| asks #cause i think its really funny i kept getting sent asks about that but actually got a com for date/adachi ☠️☠️ #anyway yeah i AM posting this. esp since commissioner wanted to share it around #i need to let the people know i will draw your saucy old man yaoi And More... #ok bye im gonna post another comm in like. ten minutes LMAO

[cas-theghostking]

Hi, sorry if this seems like a bizarre request, but I feel it would suit him. Zane seems like he'd be a dancer, and I'd like to see your design of him dancing (it can be as uncomplicated or as complex as you please)! And if you'd like, you could include another Ninja (or as many as you'd like)! It's all up to you; I would like to see him as a dancer! :D

So this ask was from two years ago and I completely forgot it existed but I absolutely loved this idea so here's zane and pixal doing the lindy hop!

#I have a sketch somewhere from when I first got this ask #But it's from two years ago and is 100% missing now #Something about zane (older seasons specifically) gives me this vibe that he would know old people dances #And I drew #Pixane #Cause they give old people couple vibes #Like that old couple who actually love eachother so much #But anyway #Their outfits are 60s/40s inspired #Like a mix of it #And yes these are my desgins of them #Though pix is usually a bit taller and I should've drawn both their shoulders wider #Oh well #Lindy hop #BTW pixels hand in the back is a reference to the charms my abuela puts on her bracelets but none of yall needed to know that- #ninjago #lego ninjago #lego ninjago fanart #pixal borg #ninjago pixal #Pixal ninjago #zane julien #zane ninjago #ninjago zane #To whoever sent me this ask I'm so sorry it took me so long I forgot it existed #Now that I think about it the original sketch mightve been glacier #Dang it now I gotta go find it #Edit: I changed my mind this is pixal pre being rebuilt but everything i said was off its still off on her pre desgin too so

[anistarrae]

I've had a Kirby hyperfixation since my childhood and your art and super good animations bring back even more of the joy the games gave me. The lighting captures such a sweet mood in all your stuff also as someone who tried animation briefly... Chefs kiss to all of your animations anyway if just thought I'd join in on thoughts about u and ur stuff <3

HI HI im so sorry for not responding to this for a month :sob:

this is EXACTLY how i want my work to feel to others! a brief feeling of joy, something to make you think, something to make you feel something. anything can be artwork, but my favorite kinds are ones that makes you think or feel something, anything. to be able to convey that through artwork and have it work, it feels so special everytime :') i really appreciate your words, i kept replaying this message in my mind, thinking id respond then forget😭.. you get a small part of a bg in an animation im working on as an apology............

#you mention trying animation briefly.. i do wonder who sent this :( id love to look through your work #idk how to explain it but looking through someones work is so magical. you get to know a little piece about them #my mom always tells me how someone presents themself - how they express theirself artistically - how they articulate themself #it all says something about them. and i do believe it to an extent. it isnt always true but you get to talk a little look into someones min #and idk its just so interesting. i like it a lot i love art so much #erm erm lets just say a callum can ramble SORRY. in a life appreciating mood lately. everyone needs it every once in awhile #gamezz.txt

[spaceratprodigy]

*gulp* deacon/iris "please just kiss me" intimacy ask........ NYE party- (i am shot)

@oldworldwidgets — [ intimacy prompts ]

It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again

pose reference

#if u need me I'm gonna be on the floor thinking abt the doomed love of the disaster besties #aud.. aud my love my darling.. this little scene we crafted has been rotating nonstop in my brain for months #it has fundamentally ruined me #but it's so perfect it hurts so good I love seeing the lines blurring I love them not being able to get it right #struggling to communicate through the heartache *chefs kiss* #him.. him being the one to ask.. #I am unwell you are always sending me banger prompts my dear AND you always know how to help put my chaotic ramblings in the perfect words #OUGH miss aud oldworldwidgets I love you with my entire heart and soul you are such a ray of sunshine in my life #also I still have the other two intimacy prompts u sent me for them in my back pocket..... #I've had some ideas of how they can spend the night on the roof under the stars together...... #more on that later #ANYWAY #ilysm I am blowing you so many kisses rn #finally the people get to know who miss iris really kissed on new years eve on this fine day of *checks watch* valentine's day #(sorry nicky ✌😔 just bestie things u know how it is) #my art #sole survivor #fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #deacon #deacon fallout 4 #deacon fo4 #oc x canon

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

#seriously another shout out to my mutuals #id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being #and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting #bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!' #hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over #and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic #sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭 #okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals #like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful #so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up #than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess #they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds #so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW #okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE #SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES #if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends' #then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context #but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic #and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF #okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this #ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day

[dyketubbo]

i think before joining or making a minecraft roleplay server every creator needs to either have played at least ONE campagin of a ttrpg of their choice (doesnt have to be dnd) or they must have spent their entire childhood roleplaying with people on any social media/forum/chat app their tiny hands could get a hold on. i want these minecraft roleplayers to have backgrounds in doing roleplay with actions written out *like this* in their friends text messages and getting into insane drama as teenagers in discord roleplay servers

#if you really want to get into it. there needs to be more mcrps with members who got in trouble for having mary sue ocs on roleplay forums-- #for the record i did in fact do both of the things mentioned at the end here #shout out to my bestie in middle school who would do underfell bone brothers rp with me #we texted each other roleplay and also sent each other voice messages. and also did it irl . #mcyt #mcrp #qsmp #and. to be mean #dsmp #yes i know this would possibly disqualify tubbo because he hasnt played dnd before now #but. he knows what kinning means. i KNOW he knows what kinning means #and he knows the spiritual definition. and hes a creek shipper #im sure that man has SOME sort of roleplay history before joining minecraft smps ok #on the note of things ive gotten into though i have in fact gotten into insane drama because of discord roleplay servers #shoutout to the rp server that ended because one of the main writers partners cheated on them . that server was a pit of toxic waste #but boy did 15yr old me really enjoy working on the story except for all the times i got suicidal about it #but thats the magic of roleplaying as a teenager ok #if you didnt come out of it traumatized were you REALLY roleplaying.

[musicals-and-mushrooms]

ok so a while ago i said id post some of my sketchbook art and i didnt but i was just thinking about twelve and clara and i did this page im very proud of it i think the twelve walking past claras portrait was an instagram trend idk but i used @rumple04 for the reference hope thats okay!!! (Checkout their account their art style is SO PRETTY!!!) I just dont know how to do poses anyway enough yapping heres the page

I stuffed up on a lot of things and its different to what i normally do but i am really proud of it!!

#If you want to see more of my doctor who pages let me know i drew that one really silly photo of matt smith once #Hes always silly i need to be more specific oh well #doctor who #twelfth doctor #12th doctor #clara oswald #Twelveclara #whouffaldi #Could be read as ship or platonic btw that red string i didnt see as soulmates more that thats claras life and they are tied together #And in heaven sent 12 was trying so hard to hold on to clara even though she was gone #Idk i just have thoughts #dw #new who #my art #ish #robyn rambles

[pochapal]

btw for reference Here are all the spoiler glimpses of beatrice's form i've been accidentally exposed to for the sake of transparency and also so you can know how surreal/funny it is for me to be unravelling the meaning of this vicious murderwitch in canon while also seeing occasional iceberg tips of what seems to be some kind of extremely thorough and comprehensive blorbo memeification going on. i think you guys are doing some breaking bad fandom shit to this woman.

#umineko liveblog #one's the icon of the exe file of the game so unavoidable #and one was a random pfp so only having two legit spoilers sent my way isn't a bad track record #pointedly Not thinking too deeply about any of this to not ruin anything for myself #but i will say i'm very amused by how beatrice is seemingly presented as this whimsical jester-like figure who is pro trans rights #very funny considering her only confirmed action in the story was to viciously and spitefully murder a dysphoric twink (kanon) #how fake trans rights beatrice fans look when a REAL murderwitch rocks up #none of this is influencing my thinking since it's obviously all out of context Jokes with no basis in canon #but i think the discrepancy between the presentation of beatrice in the text (elusive haunting horror figure) #and the presentation of beatrice in this limited slice of fandom memes (silly girl. trans ally?) is baffling and fascinating #of course it shouldn't need saying but do NOT discuss anything about this where i can see it #i'm still god knows how long away from beatrice showing up. and probably way further away from understanding even half of these jokes #this is just a curiosity i'm stating for the record and not an invitation for discussion for a long while yet #also bets on whether or not i will see yet another accidental beatrice spoilerimage before i get to the real deal in my readthrough lmao

[oh-gh0st]

Boymatsu Totoko / Regular Osomatsu... Make yaoi real

anon whoever u are... ur brain is fucking massive.

#oso san posting #ghost's doodles #ghost’s asks #boymatsu au #osomatsu #totoko yowai #i need to know who sent this. i need to thank them personally #oso is so gay for him. jus saying.

[eyefocusing]

sunstorm is SO fun, guys

#sunstorm #starscream #i mean. fuck it. i guess ill tag him too. #transformers #the ongoing saga of me trying to figure out how to draw seekers #i wasnt gonna post this here but im in that itchy I Need To Post On Tumblr mood and i do not have a lot of backlog to toss out here #ok but like dw sunstorm specifically is sooooo fun #like oh a radioactive clone who believes hes a divine entity sent to cast judgement or whatever? so good. love it! #plus. i mean. the clone thing alone made him an instant fave. u know how i am #robins doodles #maccadam