#i need to write my love letter to octavia butler bloodchild it like actually saved me from at least one thread of mental anguish

[stilitana]

im starting to read annihilation and one of these days after the years it takes me to formulate a thought, i am going to have something to say about how within the genre of ‘cosmic horror,’ works riffing on similar images & themes using the same tropes/mechanics (body horror, found fragments of firsthand accounts, etc) manage to convey extremely different messages. julia kristeva abjection goes here somewhere. which part of awe have you chosen to emphasize, the horror/repulsion or the adoration/attraction. (it’s always both, since works focusing on horror/repulsion often note that what makes the object so horrific is that it is somehow attractive/desirable, incorporates elements of beauty/the sacred/humanity and corrupts them, etc. a trope i hate and am entirely sick of seeing and have nothing to say about except for what it says about whoever created the image, whoever’s nightmare it is.) blah. if i was well read i would probably be aware of like several books that have already thought this through and could just read them lmao

#i need to write my love letter to octavia butler bloodchild it like actually saved me from at least one thread of mental anguish #even just the afterword #i kind of hate a lot of 'cosmic horror' branded stuff cos so much of it is lovecraft/lovecraft fanfic #look i /get it/ the detached characters who are more sketch than human being are the point because humans are insignificant blah blah #whatever yawn. boring. i literally dont give a shit about cosmic horrors beyond my comprehension they arent interesting the only #remotely interesting aspect of that is human reaction to it/what it reflects about whose phobia this is #sorry got angry there for a second. remembering. there is always one lovecraft lover in every workshop. always one. #i dont know why i feel so strongly about this but i do....i need to live just so i can one day articulate #this one thought...it's like my only thought...ive been trying to think it forever #but annihilation good so far....take me to the zone #txt