Manic after the FMA:B anime, thinking about rewatching Naruto again, getting excited thinking about Naruto, getting excited thinking about the elaborate p3/naruto crossover daydream I concocted back in 2018 ish that will never actually become a fanfiction, BUT it's making me think of the possibility of making a trigun/naruto crossover fic, Specifically with vash & co in naruto world
Would anyone be interested in that 🥺🥺🥺 it wouldn't be for a long time 🥺🥺🥺 but I have loved naruto anime for approximately 60% of my entire life. It's only natural for me to gravitate back to it and make more elaborate crossover aus fhskhfkshd
Just think about it.... just Think about it........ I am Thinking about it.....
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Losing someone who was actually very nice and warm and friendly, and expressed true caring about my thoughts and feelings, really hurts. They were even asking me about my favs and open to any discussion. I didn't connect the dots between my significant improvement mentally for the past week or two at first, but now I know the secret was the feeling of very bright and positive connection with a new person... So now it feels like actual piece of soul torn from within myself.
I kinda learned to get less attached and usually I feel only slight bitterness and shrug it off if someone leaves, but this time I actually feel empty. And I know this cavity will be filled with poison in no time, as much as I don't want to feel bitter again.. but it is never hollow for a long time. I mean, there is still a solace in the fact that they do not even buy into bullshit and only left to not get harassed; being scared is NEVER the same as being brainwashed. So maybe things don't have to be that pessimistic. Like 'benign' kind of loosing.
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If you had a house (or if you already have one just adding it) what big special details would you want to get put into it?
oh gosh, if only i could have a house.... (only a small apartment right now!!!) but if i could, hmmm... i would love at least one room with wall-to-wall shelves, for keeping all of me and my loved ones' books and trinkets and such... it would be nice to have one or two dedicated workspace type rooms, too! an office or streaming room, sure, but more than that I would love a proper crafting room, with a big table for working and places to organize and store all sorts of paints and brushes and fabrics and yarns and such... maybe a little shed or garage for wordworking and such, and of course a garden for my partner... oh, and i would love a nice kitchen, too... i like my kitchen now but it only has a few small counters! a nice big island for kneading lots of doughs and making lots of treats... imagine..!!! oh how spoiled I sound...!
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waiting on this package might actually make me start working on my NJ build again
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still thinking about what we talked about in therapy on wednesday. that it’s not too late, that i can still hope, that my life can change for the better, even when i least expect it, and that i’m not inferior or different than others and that if other people have good things in their life and if love happens to them then it can happen to me too. even though i’ll be 30 next year i just need to forget that. it’s hard to because it weighs on you and it feels like it makes everything harder and scarier but i have to if i want things to change. accept it and welcome it. i can’t be closed off from others anymore and while it’s hard to let myself be open and vulnerable to others because i’ve never been so before, it’s the only way anything will happen and slowly it will amount to something...
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