#i only learned about these guys recently

[front-facing-pokemon]

#alt with eyes hidden under the cut #cofagrigus #their eyes are shiny. made of plastic. so they're looking a little bright. apologies for this #so. generally when i have quarrels about the pronunciation of a pokémon's name (since i don't watch anipoké) #where someone else and i pronounce the same pokémon's name differently. which doesn't happen very often‚ since typically i talk about #pokémon mostly entirely in text. because most of the communication about things i like happens in text. and the pokémon games #are not voice acted. so pronunciation of their names is sparse and sometimes limited to anipoké but even they're inconsistent i think #but whenever i have quarrels about the pronunciation of a name. someone else and i pronounce it differently. i go to pokédex 3d pro #on the 3ds. because every time you go to a pokémon's dex entry‚ the pokédex guy says their name out loud #i basically treat this as gospel for how to pronounce pokémon names. i've been proven wrong a lot but i've also been proven right a lot #and this guy. oooohhh this guy. before pokédex 3d pro i pronounced this guy's name as though the F-slur was right in the middle #only recently did i learn that it kinda sounds like “grievous‚” [kʰɐ.fə.'gɻiː.gəs] #at least. that's how the pokédex 3d pro guy says it #whereas i had been pronouncing it [kʰow.'fæg.ɻɪ.gəs]. so. you can see the issue that arises with that pronunciation #a lot of these pronunciations that i have to double-check just live in my head. and it's only when i say them out loud that i realize #how i'm saying them. like how i pronounce “centiskorch” as [sɑ̃.t͡si̠.skoʁʃ] for some fucking reason. my brain sees it and is like #yeah that's? a french word? even though it looks nothing like one #i also tend to pronounce “grumpig” as ['gʀʊm.pɪç] because of the “ig” at the end. i guess. german instinct #of course these are pronunciations i never say out loud but the first time i Have to say this pokémon's name out loud i'll go #oh yeah! it's not pronounced like that. i should probably not say that #and then i do not. just a fun little story about my twisted and fucked up mind. a little peek into my enigmatic brainspace #jesus christ these are some of the longest tags i've ever written. i'm gonna stop

[nubcatnoises]

Blows a kiss into the gap between the train and platform from a safe distance. For Sukimamori

#Why did I only learn about this guy recently #It looks so much like a yo-kai watch creature I love it

[bardkin]

been doing some internal questioning that boils down to “is it the auADHD or i am plural in some way???”

and i’m. not sure if i want to know the answer. at least not yet.

#ensiger #possibly plural #this post is brought to you by a monoconscious culture post that hit a lot harder than i thought it would #'wait how long have i been me. when did i stop being the other guy' #also a lot of the Dragonheart Collective's essay points in Dissociation. & internal thought voice. #the only point in Identity disturbances that really hit was - #Feeling like you weren't born in that body & that you simply appeared one day inside of it. #like. i sometimes feel like ''I'' is more than one internally. #like i'm One Person in the way a cartoon character can be animated/storyboarded by multiple artists. #does that make sense as like?? a plural thing??? #or is that just the depersonalization & bees in my brain?? #also that like. the 'current me' stepped into my body & 'replaced' whoever used to be here. i have (most) of my memories & shit but just. #i'm not totally sure if this is a 'i have grown and changed since i was a child' or 'i'm a different person in every sense of the word.' #i kind of stewed on this questioning a couple years(?) ago when i was first learning about multiplicity. but nothing ever really came of it #bc digging further into it didn't feel useful. all the stuff i was reading didn't feel like it was lining up with what's going on in here #i've recently been doing some reading on monoconscious & median systems but. #i don't want to act on anything until i Know. or at least until i Know More. #also i'm about 90% sure my kintypes are not headmates/alters/etc. they feel like / similar to my gender & not. ''extra Me's'' so to speak

[r2y9s-notartblog]

Yooo you played in the school orchestra? What instrument(s) do you play? :D

i'm not in school anymore (that was years ago) but i went down the piano -> violin -> string bass -> cello pipeline! still have my 19 year old cello (mikey) and my 22 year old violin (sherry). i play them every now and then when i have the time :)

#replies #loki-lock #i just recently bought some new violin books to try and get myself to play more #but working full time really does drain a guy orz #speaking of i need to get sherry fitted for some new pegs #younger me had switched out two of the pegs and now it's mis matched and it keeps slipping #so i gotta call the luthier and see if they can do something about it #i didn't play piano in the school orchestra #and i switched to string bass in 7th grade because the orchestra was only violins and it just sounded not good without lower voices #and then in 12th grade i switched to cello bc all our cellists graduated and we had two bassists come in so i thought why not #i'm already reading bass clef how hard can switching to cello be #tbh once you learn to play one string instrument it's not too difficult to adjust to another one #u just gotta learn to read another clef lmao #ough musical instruments is another thing i could talk about all day if i don't stop myself haha

[waywardsalt]

on my knees gripping my head hnngggg i thought abt bellumbeck too hard

tag ramblings are fun and on brand but i have too many disorganized thoughts and tags are limiting.

anyways thinking too hard abt him is an extremely good and fun thing but i cannot draw the way i wish and can't really put my thoughts into fic form so this is very much going to be a fun ramble.

bellumbeck drives me insane we all know this. he showed up in my dream last night as of writing this sentence so he is on my mind, which is surprising bc fictional stuff doesn't usually show up coherently in my dreams but there it was.

it's so incredibly fun to think about bellumbeck. he's such a black sheep of a loz final boss, there really isnt another loz final boss like him in concept or even in 1:1 tone imo. it's so fun to take bellumbeck incredibly darkly seriously.

to be fair bellumbeck is kind of objectively a fairly dark and disturbing final boss on a conceptual level, and it's not really out of nowhere since phantom hourglass has at least a little darkness running through it even if the general tone of the game doesn't really acknowledge or take advantage of it. but if you think about it hard enough even without getting into post-game speculation in regards to what happens with linebeck, bellumbeck is kind of a dark boss and it's great. full on screen demonic possession of a major character with most of the cast incapacitated and link isolated with no escape on the ruins of the ghost ship that started everything and facing a boss that is constantly facing him and both someone he's been with the whole adventure and also the creature that's captured his friends and killed who knows how many people.

it's so oooouuuugghhhh it's so much fun to think about bellumbeck even though it's such a short encounter. it's so... the mystery around bellum, the way linebeck is built up throughout the game and saves link directly before getting possessed, the fucking on-screen vaguely violent possession (i am forever obsessed with the way bellum grabs and tugs on his arms), the way ciela is captured early into the fight, too, the first companion character you meet and, if you had her equipped, it leaves you without a fairy that follows your cursor around for the first time all game, it's very... congrats you and your friends are at rock bottom! good luck getting everyone out of there alive!!!!

of course it's not quite that because this game is geared a bit more towards younger players, but still keeps those streaks of darkness and complexity just simply because they're inevitable parts of this story and it's characters. bellumbeck. i'm talking about bellumbeck. what a soulsborne-ass final boss, huh?

there's only so much a ds game can do in terms of boss animations, but i think a lot about more complicated movements and animations for bellumbeck, so, so much character can be communicated through a boss's animations. in my mind, i enjoy bellumbeck movements with an emphasis on puppet-like flourishes and mannerisms, and an emphasis on weight with how he fights. these two go very well together, and its something i love imagining.

with the latter, an emphasis on weight, would ideally focus on the sword (and im a fan of it being this huge greatsword, reading berserk got me around to liking it because you can do that really well) and how it has to be used one-handed, with bellumbeck leveraging his own weight against it and taking advantage of momentum to use it especially effectively to turn link into a little green and red smear on the wood. attacks blending into each other as he builds up momentum, and using that weight primarily against link, who is a small opponent who relies on rolling around and can’t really stack up at all in terms of brute force.

i imagine this kind of physicality and movement would lend itself very well to bellumbeck also having more puppet-like movements, being a little too tugged-along by his attacks but still retaining his footing, his free arm being just a little too limp a little too often, and his leaning away from his sword side, likely with the intention to properly balance himself out, looks off with how his head lolls unnaturally to that side. the puppetry effect lessens as the fight wears on and bellum gets the hang of the body he’s using, but never actually goes away since he’s not looking to act properly human anyways.

just like... movement flourishes and details that could add a whole lot to the overall experience of bellumbeck that i think about often.

#bellumbeck #loz #legend of zelda #phantom hourglass #salty talks #do you see my vision. do you understand what im getting at here. i need bellumbeck to be a bit scarier #this is. EXTREMELY inspired by my recent elden ring kick. bellumbeck would fit in really well as a soulsborne boss #removing the fact that he only takes damage from one spot. i think you could really easily translate the bellumbeck boss into soulsborne #a few zelda bosses would work really well with soulsborne combat and another one is ww ganondorf #i dont think abt it often but i do love what game animations can convey and i think its like. the way elden ring works has me more #carefully watching game animations bc if i dont learn to recognize them then i die yknow #idk if ill tag linebeck or bellum but maybe not bc this is mostly just a bellumbeck post #technically in a sense theyre both tagged. whatever #‘bellumbeck’s design is a little off/silly’ cool heres how you lean into it. also read berserk. dont read berserk actually #find something else about a guy with a huge sword being taken seriously

[schnaf]

.

#learning hangul never ends #and i am like 🔪 #so you're thinking of yourself as superior to chinese?? at least chinese MAKES SENSE #and doesn't have to make up new rules at every single corner #it's so weird that hangul was invented bcs this guy was like nah chinese characters are too hard i'm gonna make an easy system #and then it's like... oh but this is an exception #this letter is pronounced that way! but if it comes at this position it's pronounced another way #and sometimes it's just silent #and sometimes there are 4 letters but two of them are silent and 1 of them isn't pronounced regularly #i am DONE #sure learning chinese characters is a LOT #but at some point you can see patterns and it all fits together #korean letters are way easier but THE PATTERNS ARE A MESS #(but also i just looked at another way to count in korean) #(like.... i know un deux sept) #(but there's a second way to count and it sounds so similar to chinese and 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳) #(i know there won't be many crossovers so i'm happy about every single one) #((talking about crossovers: i started learning czech recently because i have no self control)) #((((also because i told myself i'd only start learning a new language after being good in chinese and that day will never come)))) #((((so i dropped that plan and now i've got nothing holding me back from starting new languages)))) #((and a few days ago i listened to a russian interview and i was like wait i know these words)) #((it was very nice but also a reminder that i should have stuck to languages that are part of an actual family)) #((i want to know more 'if you know one you know them all' languages)) #anyway that's my language rant for today and if it wasn't for my number crossover i'd be a bit more 'why did i decide to learn korean UGH' #(the answer is immersion btw. i thought if i keep watching korean stuff i might as well learn the language bcs at least i've got immersion)

[falderaletcetera]

every now and then I think about trying to Do Fandom again but then I spend half an hour doing chores and thinking about, for instance, one specific episode [5.02] of Father Brown, realising that the reason the arranged marriage feels like it works in the end (other than both parties clearly choosing it) is that it isn't just the guy's younger brother who's autistic, but his bride-to-be probably is too.

the first time he shows any real interest in joan as a person, not just civility or this low key sucks for both of us so I'm gonna give you as much freedom as I can ("an heir and a spare and you can do your own thing, if you get my drift"), it's when he asks her a question about mathematics and gets her talking - not really understanding it but telling her, afterwards, he'd like to hear more about it sometime.

looking at him a bit closer, I actually like his character more than I expected. he's not a proper young man of his station, he's taken his family's reputation down a few notches through what we can assume is (tactfully put) a fondness for partying, and I'd generally expect a character like that to treat women pretty poorly, except robert seems to be better than that. then there's the toy cavalry soldier he carries as a good luck charm, a major general from his brother's toy set who shares robert's name - because it's something his brother loves, and maybe a way the two of them connect.

and robert's stuck awkwardly chatting to this woman who he's meant to marry but doesn't really know. someone who doesn't always look people in the eyes; who doesn't quite seem to know how to interact with him; who talks algorithms and graph theory and is fascinated with mazes.

this is a guy who, reading between the lines of he loves his brother and he carries around a little soldier figurine is someone who speaks "listening to you infodump" and "sharing your special interest" as love languages. and later when it looks like the engagement's not going to happen, he quietly mentions that he was just starting to like her.

I like to think that his moment walking side by side with her, listening as she talked with intelligence and real confidence, was a bit of an oh moment for him. a bit "this is someone I can relate to", a bit "this is someone I can like". and him showing respect and genuine interest, even after she stopped herself and apologised, probably helped her begin to like him too. not love for either of them, not yet, but the beginnings of something good.

and joan asking to meet his brother, getting to know him a little and asking arthur if he wants to live with them both rather than staying hidden away, brings it full circle in a pretty satisfying way.

(and that is more analysis, perhaps, than the episode calls for.)

#father brown #this is purely for me and to get this out of my head so this might not be very coherent #apologies if there's actually a thriving fandom here!! I'll have to go looking sometime when I'm not meant to be sleeping. #falderal speaks #I don't know how deliberate this rep is but... she's not the only one-off character I get autistic vibes from #(pond life guy in the first ep my beloved) #quite aside from the very deliberate e.g. dyslexia rep even if - for obvious reasons - they don't use that word #and it just feels accurate that a young autistic woman would learn to mask if she can #and totally avoid the diagnoses-of-the-time that an autistic boy in a rich family would get #so help me I need to go looking for readings of father brown himself as autistic later #love it & want to see it & suspect it might be enlightening in more than one way #if anyone has read this far thank you for coming on this trip with me <3 #my head has been all this show all the time recently. I am making helpless hand gestures about it. I am putting on the next episode.

[thedreadvampy]

I think I may be a very boring person bc everyone I know has really off the wall monstery nightmares and listen. ALL my bad dreams are about anxiety from real world fears. I can IMAGINE a scary monster but I'm not sure I've ever DREAMED one.

My bad dream last night was about confronting two girls outside the supermarket for shouting insults at me and my partner and ending up getting chased with a knife then having to grab a cactus to get inside then bring late for something then getting filmed in a public place by Andrew Tate making tiktoks about the degeneracy of modern women. it was very anxious and painful and in the dream Sam was mad with me for getting us chased and hurt and late.

(but it's ok bc I said "aren't you meant to be in a Romanian prison" and smashed all 3 of Andrew Tate's phones very satisfyingly with no repercussions, and after that Sam cheered up and we had a lovely evening inventing a hipster cafe)

but the thing is this is all my Bad Dreams, like, not the ones with the most fucked up stuff happening but the ones that upset me the most and make me wake up all upscuttled. it's all stuff like I Am In A Car I Cannot Drive and I'm Late For Important Things and I Am On A Long Distance Mode Of Public Transport And I Am Trying To Physically Murder My Sibling and I Am In An Awkward Social Situation.

this has always been the flavour of most of my Distressing Dreams and I worry that this is final proof that I'm cripplingly Sensible.

#my most recent Wake Up In Misery dream before this one was an extended sequence where i was at a party #that my ex was also unexpectedly at #and i was having serious trauma responses but also didn't want to be rude and when i tried to quietly excuse myself #the person having the party made a huge thing about it and about me being super unfair to the ex and how he's a really good guy #distressing? yes. interesting? no. THAT'S JUST A THING THAT HAPPENS SOMETIMES. #like BRAIN. LEARN ABOUT METAPHORS. #dreams are meant to be METAPHORS for the anxieties you have not just STRAIGHT UP THE THING YOU'RE ANXIOUS ABOUT #i do have a special second kind of nightmare which is a lot weirder and is called Something Is Outside #I've only had 2.5 versions of this dream i remember vividly though #and one was the scariest fucking thing in my life but it was also. INCREDIBLY NORMAL? #i was sleeping on my friends sofa both in real and in the dream and in my dream i woke up and the was a girl in a red t-shirt outside #and i KNEW she wanted to get in. and in the dream i remembered having seen her earlier in the day outside my friend's mum's window #and she was just a normal person but for some reason i was absolutely TERRIFIED of her seeing me or coming inside #woke myself up so freaked out i couldn't sleep all night #and then there was the one where i was in a house that became underwater and a giant kitten with searchlight eyes was outside. #that one WAS very weird but unusually so #red said

[dido-main]

i might be planning quiting writing for a while after i finish 5 request i have and yeonjun's bday event. i have 4 other works in process too but i will be writing them slowly. but i am not sure. gonna rant in the tags

#maybe those will be my last 10 works #i won't quit tumblr tho #i might come back again #been feeling like getting a grip #putting myself together #focusing on other things #it has been fun #i feel sad and emotional for some reason #maybe i lost motivation due to low notes i am getting but i don't think so since i have been a writing machine recently #and also school will start probably after these 10 works i am talking about #it is not like i am the only pebble on the beach but still wanted to let you guys know #i will also focus on my actual writing ideas like not for tumblr and not in english that might turn into comics #i have a lot of things that i should learn for them #also i think i became kinda obsessed with tumblr so it will be a good thing #like i check my notifications as frequently as i can #definitely not healthy #but i don't plan quiting probably will keep reblogging stuff i like and stuff #also i love my friends and moots here #i never got hate and i also want to thank you guys for that #things i will focus on include myself astrology tarot reading skincare exercising dieting studying using my phone less making friends #and more #also my creative juice ran out #didospeaks #didorants #i might come back #this is not the end #but definitely taking a break #love you all

[shikai-the-storyteller]

ALL MEN DO IS LIE

#i talk #Ive been legitimately so stressed at work today #then I was feeling super down about Rubius and Roier #BUT NO THEYRE BOTH IN QSMP. BASTARDS. I HATE THEM #I'm putting them both in time out they dont get a post til I shower and finish making food #I actually have no idea what the frick to write for Roier #in terms of personality I can do a bit about that but I only recently started to learn about him #so once again: If any Roier or Missa fans wanna step in and give a guy a hand....would be much appreciated #qsmp talk #Its been such a stressful day I'm so burnt out from work. agh. #hope qsmp stuff tomorrow will reinvigorate me

[entropys]

:-) things are getting better september truly is a month of new beginnings

#yesterday i went out to the grocery store late at night and bought so much yogurt i think that was my turning point i am forever changed #and today i went to the mall with my mom and bought myself a pair of sunglasses that i really wanted for so long #and the guy that works there recognized me 😭😭😭😭 #i went there before to buy my cousin a graduation gift and honestly i came back bc i wanted the same ones i got for her they’re so cool #anyway the staff recognized me and gave me a special discount bc im a ‘regular’ even tho this is only my second time buying from them 🥹🥹 #that was so nice of him bc if it wasnt for that dicount i probably wouldnt have bought the sunglasses bc theyre a bit pricey for my budget #anyway i got them 🥹 so im feeling a bit better #also! i bought myself a little rice cooker for one serving so i don’t starve and stop ordering so much food that i don’t have money for #i think this month is spending on myself month #and tomorrow im going out to celebrate my friend’s birthday 🥰🥰 we’re going to a bakery then to a museum and im bringing my camera with me <3 #recently i’ve fixed my 10 year old camera and its so perfect i love it so much i found a manual online and im gonna learn how to properly #use all the effects and settings it has #i bought it with my mom in 2013 and honestly we picked the best design ever it looks so coooool god i love my little camera im taking it #everywhere with me 🥹💛💛 #anyway .. the last episode of uncanny counter 2 aired today 🥲🥲🥲 im gonna make myself some rice in my new rice cooker and watch it 🫶 #then i’ll take a warm shower and finish off my friends bday gift #im making them a crochet cat keychain i hope it comes out well #alsoooo LETTERS WITH NOTES OUT TOMORROW im soooo excited i love you september #anyway i came here to talk about my week bc it was nice :-) i hope everyone’s september is going well too <3

[b0nelessdoodles]

i am obsessed with two shitty little goblins with a complicated relationship and backstory 👏👏����👏

#dungeons and dragons #dnd #dnd characters #dnd goblin #hes my shitty little backstory npc that i only learned was part of tics backstory in more recent times and i love him #if anyone cares to read the tags cause thats where i infodump to not clock actual post lemme keep it short #rip is a piece of tic that was literally ripped out of him when he was a child to make room for a piece of a god #something happened to rip and along the way and uh yeah the guy is nuts #kinda obsessed with either getting his own god piece #or going back to tic and maybe taking over cause he is tired of being the way he is #tic hates him but also cant help but feel a connection and hes not having a great time about it tbh #this is too complicated for his little goblin brain to comprehend #hes a bit of a mess rn about it #im having a great time with it tho hehehe #these are all in the order that they happened in #we got tic and rips first encounter where tic stabbed him through time it was great #we got the ending to the rip fight where tic fireballed them both #we got the aftermath of that whole thing #and the newest thing being tics new fear of spiders for reasons

[astro-b-o-y-d]

One of those ‘non-x fans; pick something that happens in the show’ but it’s about Color Show and the options are 'pick which of these writing choices pissed you off the most’

#Hayley Speaks #The poor racism allegory with the White Fang and making the white cat girl the mouthpiece for it? #(Yes I know Monty is a man of color who was trying to write about his own experiences. But he still dropped the ball on it.) #Could it be the ableism surrounding the man who's half-prosthetics and the implications they tried to push about him becoming- #-less human as a result of losing another limb? #Could it be the ableism about the previous pushed further by making the robotic girl human and pushing this as a good thing- #-because now she's no longer robotic and burdened by...I don't know; not being flesh? #I didn't watch that season I just fucking hated what they did with Penny? #Could it be that they killed her once; brought her back and then did all that; and THEN KILLED HER AGAIN??? #Could it be the hypocritical lessons on trust and how apparently the main characters are allowed to keep secrets- #-but it's BAD when everyone else does? #Even if that secret is literally 'hey the big bad cannot be killed' which would be VERY IMPORTANT to tell the guy they're working alongside- #-because his WHOLE PLAN hinges on the knowledge that she CAN BE KILLED??? #Could it be everything with Pyrrha?? #Could it be that in the recent season they had the main character kill herself from depression and the narrative frames this as a good thing #Like 'Oh you've been grieving about the choices you've been making and are extremely depressed-' #'But actually you're perfect the way you are and don't need to change anything about yourself?' #...Oh yeah the whole 'the main characters never learn anything because the narrative frames ALL their choices as the right ones.' thing. #That's annoying too #Could it be the mistreatment of the LGBTQ+ staff on the show that came to light; only for the remaining staff to canonize- #-a wlw ship they'd been teasing for TEN YEARS #And then started pushing merch for them less than an hour after the episode dropped?? #Could it be that I can't even say the name of the show here because the fans are rabid to even the most MILD of criticism about it?? #Dear God I hate this show

[oars]

IS THAT WHAT THE SONGS CALLED LMAO

#im in love with this song its been stuck in my head for 2 days #i only learned about the reddit guy recently and didnt even remember the song from that just some tiktok taye rbed

[wilhelmina-murray-harker]

Merlin: mrrp! mow! mrrrp! (hello! I would like to come in please!)

Me: aw okay buddy hold on a sec *walks ten feet to the left and opens the front door*

Merlin: *sitting very nicely in front of the porch door, looking at me*

Me: hello sir you can come in now!

Merlin: *does not move*

Me: Merlin? Come on sir

Merlin: *does not move*

Me: ugh *walks back in* Merlin would like to come in, but only through the porch door

Mom: oh yeah that’s a pain

Me: *goes to open the door and realizes that the latch is twisty-tied to the loop so I can’t just open it real fast, undoes the twisty tie and holds open the lower part as wide as I can so he can fit through*

Merlin: *sticks his face in and realizes it will be a tight fit, retracts his face, then squeezes in and goes to eat*

Murphy, seconds later: MOW (HELLO WANT TO COME IN)

Me: *goes to the front door and calls him*

Murphy: *rubs against the door for a good bit and then comes prancing in*

#my cats #merlin #murphy #why is merly like this. normally he is the smart one of the two of them #also yes they are inside/outside guys bc we’ve had them for many years and I learned about the dangers of that way more recently #which is why our other two cats are inside girls only

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #because of all the artists I follow and the art I see I'm able to muster up some art when the muse sings. #so thanks I was able to sketch something for the guy I'm getting to know and maybe will be dating at some point #was thinking about whether to call him cute or not and I think yeah I do think he's cute. #I've been using all my brain power to min-max the interactions we've had without jumping too quickly into the deep end #which is why I don't call him my boyfriend because we've only met irl twice but I think there's no reason why we won't escalate to dating #provided I can not fuck things up #prolly not healthy to have the mindset that I'm responsible for whether things go well or not #not healthy to have the mindset that I'm a stick of dynamite and if I screw things up it'll all blow to shit. #idk. I still feel that way. #we'll see. #either way he's my in to a whole other friend group of coworkers and their friends since we got matched by a coworker/friend #my coworker his friend so I have higher hopes since it's not an online match. #he seems pretty cool and I'm doing my best to spread out the interaction and not get too caught up in his dms #and I was the one to be like “yeah this hangout has gone pretty long” because I know I tend to drag things out longer than they should go. #even if the other person is engaged it's functionally great to make a lunch date last the whole afternoon into the evening. #we both have things to do so as fun as it is to hang out for five hours I'm trying to keep emotionally healthy. #enough distance to keep perspective on things. #my last relationship the other person pushed for more and more hangout time and more and more closeness and I think that's what fucked it #I need to keep my distance to stay emotionally healthy #and honestly? I'm proud of myself for learning that and keeping it in mind. #I've had some hard experiences to learn that lesson but now I'm going to put it to good use and maybe get some dick again. #it's deadass been since October. deadass halfa year since I got dick. #I fucked someone more recently than that but fucking and getting dick are not the same thing. #anyway. new relationship. wish me luck.