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champion-of-love · 3 days
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i love cupid so much. i hate that she's so underused in the later seasons. but the few eps shes in are so wild i adore her so much.
picture this. youre a regular student at ever after high. you dont really participate in the royal rebel drama because you're too focused on your classes. a new student enters and she doesn't really have a fairy tale but the headmaster transferred her here because he can't control the students as much anymore. the girl immediately throws a secret rager with help from the resident party girl and the future frog prince against the headmasters wishes. you're like okay whatever you have eight essays to do. then more transfers students and they're from wonderland you're like that makes more sense.
the future huntsman steals her bow and accidentally roofies the entire school. okay you still have six essays. she gives out white roses to help unroofie people. she gives out their meaning. yellow means friendship, red means romance, pink means meant to be together forever. you write that down maybe it would be in a test someday. your brain thinks over the difference between pink and red. future alice gives a rose to future white rabbit and it turns pink. makes sense. future huntsman gives a rose to future cinderella and it turns red. uh oh. you decide to throw that note away and not think about it that much.
(not really an ep but a headcanon) you're falling behind on weapons training and especially on range weapons. you ask the future huntsman for help on bows and arrows because he's probably the best person to ask. he agrees and you say owe him one. you go there early and he shows up on time but spends most of the lesson arguing with his pet squirrel. you realize you're going to fail the exam. former new girl shows up with a weapons case and you gather the courage and ask her for some tips since you're not getting anywhere with squirrel version re-enactment of ratatouille going on behind you. she says she's not really good with bows but she does use another weapon.
she opens her case with a key and whips out a crossbow. it's pink and has heart details on it. you look closer. you think it's partly made of bones. you try not to judge, maybe it's greek. it has a tactical red laser light. you decide not to think about it. she gives you some tips and you ask what types of arrows she uses. she takes one from her quiver and says theyre love arrows which bounce or glide off of non-sentient objects until they hit a target. you suddenly wonder why she's at an archery range if she can't use her arrows on the straw targets. you remember the roofie incident from last month and the only other person in the archery range. you gulp.
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griffworks · 3 months
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Whatever. Beni info dump
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greenerteacups · 10 months
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most of my AO3 comments are really amazing but every now and then i'll get one that is just wildly entitled
like someone just wrote a comment on ch38 that's like "please have them get together soon i don't want to wait. also [x] needs more character development." ??? bitch i'm not a menu why are you out here trying to order
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13eyond13 · 11 months
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crescentfool · 5 months
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i think something that is important to me to remember is that there are small ways i can do things to spark joy for myself and others without waiting for someone else to do it... (conjures up little sparklies from my hands) life is so whimsical!!!
#lizzy speaks#for full transparency i cannot make sparklies emit from my hands unfortunately#but i can imagine that i can and i think thats cool i'm like a swaggy little magician#anyways sometimes i see announcements for games and im like#ok! cool! some people are very excited and happy. so awesome!! happy for them!!!#but personally i think i've found much more joy in doing my own thing#and it's ok if you're not particularly enthused about a new thingy because sometimes you still have other things you can do#or you have other things that feel much more gratifying to you. and thats ok!!!#this is a vague toward reload and splat3 (specifically splatfests)#it's become clear 2 me that reload is curating a different experience for pee 3 with the new mechanics they introduce#and i didn't realize how attached i was to how fes's mechanics (tiredness + fusion spells) can inform's one characterization of kitaro#until i kept seeing the new things for reload. still interested in reload's alternate interpretations but wont be following the news closel#and for splatfest. turf is not my favorite mode in splat by a long shot' but at least i can salmon with friends! or play another game#i think it's always important for me to remember that not everything will be for me and that's a good thing#when i see things that dont excite me as much. it reminds me about what i care about the most and to remember to hold those things close#i can make my own fun with my own little creations i don't need to wait for games to host events for me i can just draw silly little guys#or i can choose to make silly little clownery happen on my own terms and i think thats neat#even if i'm not hyped about something that others are hyped about that's okay because i'm nourishing myself and that's really fucking cool#and hey maybe i will find the joy in those things eventually. or not! and thats ok. who knows!! anything can happen!!#anyway if you read all of this thank you :3 and i hope that you will always be able to find your way to find something that excites you
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burymeinwillow · 6 months
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#IM NOT DONE!!!#When my mom got sick and died- during that period I only watched Bonanza. It was my escapeism. It made me happy watching it-#it made me laugh during a time my life was falling apart around me. I was loosing the person most important to me -#I dont remember much from that time but I do remember how much I watched that silly western and how happy it made me#and that's what it means to me!!! that's why Bonanza is so dear to me!!! and it breaks my heart that I was scared to be more self-indulgent#with it. I was led to believe that I shouldn't like it. That I was strange for liking such an old show. My closest friend made feel weird-#about it. So Bonanza being my fav show was like... my little secret. I felt if I told people I liked it they wouldn't wanna be my friend.#Then Juni became my friend and she just changed all of that. She swooped in and just 'Hey you should be more self-indulgent!'-#and I remember thinking 'Is that okay?' She encouraged me about everything. About drawing... about Bonanza... she made it possible for me t#do things i thought were impossible. Like traveling to the US alone and go to a Bonanza Event?? She changed my life.#Made me realize it's okay to be self-indulgent. Made me realize liking niche and obscure things is NOT wierd.#as you can tell im very passionate about this#Juni came into my life during a very dark time and she changed my life and she changed me#and now im sitting here giggling and drawing this silly stupid cowboy from this silly old western#AND NOW IM REAL ANNOYING ABOUT BONANZA HEHEHE
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meteoritesystem · 9 months
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just remembered this time in line to go to lunch in 5th grade when people were being super fucking loud so i just dissociated on purpose (as one does) and the girl next to me got my attention and was like "how r u so calm rn its so loud" and i was like "oh! i just turned off my brain so i couldnt hear it ^_^" and she was like. what. and i was like yknow. when u just check out of a situation and go inside ur head so u dont have to experience it. and she was like. .....nnnno?
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androcola · 4 months
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i still remeber when someone vagued me on a monke.es confession account saying that i was romanticizing abuse(Several of my followers and moots then came out and were like That Simply Isnt True) and i think that really changed the way i talk about my headcanons
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gibbearish · 5 months
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like theres not a lot of games im REALLY good at so when there are ones i latch on super hard. and boy have i latched on to this one
#and i think part of it is that im on console and therefore kinda at an automatic disadvantage?#like no matter what you do you still will never have as many buttons or the quick cursor movement as pc#so you have to make do with way less hotkeys and either just Way Less Weapon Options or brute force your way through them#like most ranged weapons are Ass on console aiming them is so frustrating because you cant just Put Cursor On Enemy And Track It#and grappling is so much harder too#like i have played a lot on pc too so this isnt just me going 'woe is me this must be harder' like it is So Much Harder#i had to kinda build my own key mapping from the ground up bc the defaults werent intuitive at all#except jump‚ you dont feel like having jump on a trigger makes sense and then you set it to b or a and then the next time you want to jump#while shooting youre like Ah. Its So I Dont Have To Let Go Of The Aiming Stick To Jump. and switch it back in shame#but ! all of that combined. console is so much harder. so i think my brain was like 'alright well in that case#fuck you im gonna get good at it anyways' and now we're here#also i didnt realize until recently that most people play it multiplayer???#like i looked up something i cant remember what but it was like 'if you like most others play in multiplayer-' and im like#Wait Huh.#and it said something about the bosses kind of being more scaled for multiple players and that#single player makes it harder again#so im just like. clawing my way through mud and barbed wire for fun#its funny too cause i remember the controls thing almost made me drop it again but then one day i was like#yeah they are weird as fuck controls and complicated as hell but i bet if i did it long enough i could force myself#to learn it well enough to make it instinct#and sure enough !! like the grapple button when i first set it to b it was sooo hard to use at all#forget shit like grapple dashing or grapple dodging i could barely aim it while walking#and then i realized i had to just. only use the grapple when i could be pointing the movement stick the way i needed#so i couldnt use it as often or as versatilely as pc but i can still use it to some degree#adapt achieve overcome etc i fucking love vibeo game#sorry if this is bragging or weird im just very proud of the amount of skill in this game ive built up so quick#its my one (1) thing right now#my other ones are binding of isaac (not dead god but still p fuckin good tbh *tucks hair behind ear)#splatoon (2&3 specifically salmon run)#but those ones arent really active right now
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marklikely · 2 years
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living in constant fear of even looking at the semiannual drama on That Website because people get so fucking up in arms about it
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bibberbang · 2 years
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i dont think you should be able to take coffee and alcohol together like it shouldnt be possible. that sounds like a combination of drugs that should kill you
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mothbug · 2 years
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spent a lot of time this summer thinking a lot about how im actually a lot more disabled than i thought i was and that waking up every morning with the level of pain, discomfort, and exhaustion that i do isnt like. the norm. and how ive pushed myself past the point of discomfort while in the presence of others and ended up being kind of rude to them or losing my patience a lot more easily. its weird how thats the part im focusing on and not the fact that i can probably never live in exactly the way i wish i could, but idk. i feel very bad about it.
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autistic-shaiapouf · 1 year
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Same anon as before, I’m happy that you’re accepting yourself! That’s great news. I had a very similar situation where I was very embarrassed about what character my brain chose to project onto, but after working with my therapist and years of reflection I’ve realized it had to be that character because they were the only one I could see myself in, we were both abused in certain ways that made it like looking in a mirror, and being Him meant that I was able to protect myself because he could (character is someone “dangerous” in their world). So I really think it comes down to a reflection of trauma, and there’s nothing to be ashamed about. We coped with what our brains found the most comfort in.
If I can ask, what does your therapist think about it? Only wondering because with my therapist, they are aware we have fictives of this character as well as the system as a whole projects through him but I’m still trying to figure out if it’s part fictives and other part alters with psychotic attachments or if there’s something else at play as well like past lives (the old fictionkin community used to be big into that but I know it’s not so much anymore so I’m a little embarrassed but I am still a spiritual person) alr that’s all, looking forward to your response!
First of all, I'm glad to hear back from you anon!!
My therapist and I figured roughly the same thing happened with me! When I say I use this character as a therapy tool, I don't think it's appreciated enough that it's bc my therapist familiarized himself with the source - my therapist watched (and enjoyed) 148 episodes of anime for my sessions and I cannot stress that enough lmao; we're pretty sure that what happened was that I saw a lot of my emotional trauma play out again in front of me in his character arc, mostly in the way he perceives himself but also with how he struggles with his emotions and general interactions with the world (with my own difficulty with such coming from the climate of the family that abused me). He did serve as a mirror, not just of my own trauma, but also of what I wish I could have done, which was to lash out and genuinely own my anger and frustration and do something. Of course there's a lot more to it, but with just covering the surface, looks like we've had pretty similar experiences!
As for my therapist's thoughts on this, we actually haven't put any clinical labels on it. I personally like labels, they make me feel sure and certain about things in my life, which is why I tried to nail this down with the OSDD/DDNOS (complete with question mark) in my bio, but truth be told I'm not entirely sure I meet the full criteria for either of them, in spite of the genuine experiences I've had with what definitely feels like multiplicity of some sort. Interestingly enough, while I myself am not very spiritual, my therapist did make a mention that this is an experience that I could try looking at through a spiritual lens, especially since it's been coming up a lot more as I'm trying to rework some deeply held thought patterns. There's been a pretty positive outlook on it overall and he encouraged me to interact with it - the episodes tend to come with some specific thoughts and feelings, so we're treating them (and by extension, this character) as a sort of conduit for them, sort of like a messenger bringing attention to them. This is all some pretty specific info for my stuff though lmao, I just wanted to cover the ground as thoroughly as I could 💖
#part of me genuinely does wanna reach out to the fictionkin community just for the value of having potential community experience#but also. maybe I'll just watch them for a bit and think about it lmao#my experiences with my dissociation is like. it feels like there's someone else with me you know? im alone but i can feel someone else#and I'm holding their feelings and thoughts in those moments#if i believed in ghosts hardcore this would 100% make me think im possessed but fortunately i recognize where#all this is coming from as far as functionality and the name attached; funnnily enough i remember a video my roommate#put on and it was talking about psychosis scenes in movies + gauging them for accuracy#and the guy starts talking about DID and I'm like okay i definitely dont meet the criteria for that but I'm half paying attention#and he mentions that one of the things that people have reported is feeling like they're possessed and i just sat there FLOORED by this#bc that was exactly how I'd described the feelings in therapy; 1:1 word for word 😳 again i know for sure i dont have DID#but the same guidelines that make up the definitions and criteria are kinda also running along my dissociative episodes as well#ive already said so much in the tags but i did have a session where i just sat there and was like. i want to love every part of myself#and that includes the episodes; i know they're a protective measure and i dont wanna feel like I'm fighting them anymore#that was months ago; this is by far the most vocal ive been about it#it took almost a year for me to settle into it and be able to talk about it even in therapy but I'm so glad i can do it now#and I'm so glad to be hearing from people who understand how this feels 💖💖💖 thank you so much again!!!#im realizing that i actually have a lot of thoughts on this now that im actually understanding it a lot better#the asks are just giving me some chances to infodump a little hehe 💕#you're welcome in my inbox any time!! thanks again!! 💖💖💖#asks
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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afternoon happy random rambles c:
#🌙.rambles#i am. so good at talking to myself#honestly i talk to myself quite a lot huh idk i generally have sm on my mind#i love convos abt stuff like this but idk how do ppl even bring up n initiate convos esp abt these topics#with apollo sometimes we just randomly bring it up n talk for hours but idk how to do that for others#like idk i'm the sort of person i think that seems normal on the outside but fuck no i'm weird#THAT SAID THOUGH i don't care i just wna be myself in this world :c#realizing once more that i am a rather serious person. NOT BORING THOUGH I HOPE#random but i rmb when first meeting w some ppl earlier this year i rmb in call#i don't remember context but i think i said a word n people's reactions were funny#i think it was 'affinity' ????#anyways that makes me remember i'm a person that. idk my vocab is.#i use words in normal day to day convos that most ppl around me dont use ;;;;#one thing i love abt tumblr is that there r sm creative ppl here#i'm not used to knowing creative ppl irl Sigh#i love both the intricate n simple details in life but b#im not used tho to environments fit for ppl like me ig#thinking rn abt how yh i'm really a creative person at heart but i've also always been#intelligent w stuff like memorization analysis uhh maths sciences languages n academics in general#wait i rmb now back to interpretation yes#i love that sm. like yk w music w art w theatre w literature#n that's personally a core theme in my own writing. that i try to implement at least#i love thinking abt how the own things i write r up to interpretation for others#perception in general too is smth that sparks so much curiosity in me#speaking of which i wna make that gforms soon#i wna ask ppl ik questions c: just out of curiosity bcs goddamn i rlly love learning#there's no end to the things to learn in this world. to be created too#n i'll develop these skills n gain more memories until i ultimately get bored to death or smth#hehe 🫶🏼
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dbssh · 2 years
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the big thing for me is knowing i dont always feel like this! sometimes i do feel very not-me in ways that are definable and make sense and sometimes its just magnus being magnus which is why the undefined NO!!! is usually a flag that I Am Here.
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bmpmp3 · 9 days
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i NEEED to be more annoying about being mixed race in public i keep forgetting how dire it is. sometimes i point out stuff in like visual culture classes about like a magazine cover with a biracial model or something and it blows peoples MINDS because the whole class forgot mixed people were real
#sometimes im like nooooo i shouldnt be too loud about it people find it annoyinggggg sometimes#but then i remember. if i dont. my white peers. i love them i do they're ready to learn and they do a lot of thinking#once you point stuff out. but by god you need to point this stuff out first LOL classmates put a lot of care and thought into all kinds of#issues but HOO baby. race is a BIG blind spot for a lot of em hfkjdjdkfh#i just get surprised is all. i didnt realize how little the average non-mixed-race person thinks about this stuff#i like to call myself whiteboy. because i think thats funny. its my internal monologue. but also i am not actually whiteboy#and i forget the real whiteboys (gender neutral?) dont know much about mixed issues hjskasjfkd#oh speaking of i guess as a quick primer: i should probably mention. i tend to call myself mixed race#just the terminology i grew up with. but in most professional and academic settings i'll use biracial or multiracial where applicable#or when referring to people who are not myself or someone i know prefers the term mixed#i dont know why i like the term mixed. maybe its just easier to say and explain LOL but yeah#not everyone likes the term mixed race so its usually better to call someone biracial or multiracial if you dont know#multiracial identities are vast and can be vastly different. one persons experience is much different from anothers#my experience is different from my older brothers and we have the same parents and look pretty alike#and our experiences are different from like. my biracial cousin who grew up in the US#and all of us have different experiences than the only other multiracial classmate ive had in years#really the best thing is to read stuff written by multiracial people. books articles blogs. watch video content#theres a lot to learn constantly even if youre multiracial yourself! lots of people on this earth. but it can be fun!#interesting and fun to connect with others by listening to their stories and experiences!
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