#i realized today that the other songs aren't as sad as i saw them to be when i first listened

[sourbinnie]

☆ cerca de ti.mp3 ☆

♡ genre ¿? ♡ -> angst ♡ pair ¿? ♡ -> ot8!skz x gn!reader ♡ plot ¿? ♡ -> the song they wrote when you left them + some moments and how it went down. ♡ warnings ¿? ♡ -> swearing ; smoking (weed) ♡ request ¿? ♡ -> nope

a/n: so i had this idea today and i wrote it all today because i wanted it out as soon as possible. i obviously get it if you don't like or think it's kinda odd? idk i really enjoyed this and the process of it so i hope yall like it too. it was kind of inspired by edits that i see on instagram where they make stray kids lipsync to latin songs, goddamn i love those. so yeah this is my take on how they would sing cerca de ti!

[ intro : chan & seungmin ] cerca de ti estaba bien y de tu vida me borré (close to you i was okay but of your life i got erased) y ella ante' no lo veía, pero sé que te fallé (but she didn't see it before but i know i failed you) y si ahora vuelves, te juro que no te vuelvo a perder (and if you come back, i swear that i won't lose you again) porque me di cuenta que muero si me alejo de tu piel (i realized that i die when i'm far away from your skin)

when they first started writing this song, only one thing would come to their minds and that was you. it wasn't your typical love song or even sad song but more of a mix of emotions that all the members were feeling condensed into one song. one they would call close to you, one that would express how much a certain person had changed them and their experiences with that individual.

chan at first didn't want to take a part in the song, he thought it was too soon, too much but the rest convinced him that it would be a good idea to let go with lyrics (it wasn't). when he wrote the first two verses of the introduction, he knew he was fucked and he was too deep now. when you decided to leave, he was the last one you saw and he got the final word, it didn't go well. he was too harsh and too egoistic to see what was happening in front of his eyes, the hate that blinded him was making him spill words that he didn't mean. 

"(y/n) i don't think you're realizing what you're doing." he said almost as if you were betraying him and the boys as you packed your things. you thought this was the right choice all along and you weren't gonna get convinced, especially by someone who wasn't showing they cared or that they appreciate you in anyway (he did very much so in the end). 

"what do you want me to do chan? to pretend everything's alright? god you guys really only think about yourselves." you said and it wasn't nice but it needed to be said. you've been left in the dust for way too long to care about other people's feelings, especially if it was the 8 boys you were referring to.

"rich coming from you, you act like we don't have a job. our lives don't revolve around you!" he exclaimed but it just made you roll your eyes. you weren't talking about that, you never even once mentioned their job because you knew how busy their schedules were but it just got to the point where they didn't show that they cared, that they loved you, that they wanted you. "if you leave, you aren't coming back."

"watch me." you said as you walked out the front door and out of their lives.

seungmin felt so lost without you, he got too used to your presence. he got used to your morning kisses, you preparing his lunch for work, how you would listen to him. the thing he missed the most was your body, not really in a sexual way, he just wanted to hold you. to feel your skin against his and plant a kiss on your cheek, he wanted to kiss your lips again and love you tenderly & softly.

he didn't think much of you leaving because he knew in the end you would come back to them. when you didn't for months, he lost hope and when the boys suggested writing, he was the first one grabbing a pen and a paper. he almost seemed desperate to get these feelings out of the way.

"you think they're gonna listen to it?" jeongin asked and the older didn't know how to respond. he wanted you to hear it, for you to process the words that everyone was singing. you were always so attentive towards their lyrics that it just made sense that if you heard it, you would want to contact them right?

"i hope so, this is our last shot i think." seungmin responded and jeongin nodded as he sat down next to him to write the lyrics. everyone needed to put in a bit of effort to make a team and for it to be put out.

[ chorus : chan, seungmin & jeongin ] y si fuera por mí, estaría cerca de ti, eh (and if it was up to me, i would be close to you) pero tengo que dejarte volar (but i gotta let you fly) supongo que es una parte dе amar (i guess it's a part of love) y si fuera por mí, estaría cerca dе ti, yeah (and if it was up to me, i would be close to you, yeah) pero tengo que dejarte volar (but i gotta let you fly) supongo que es una parte de amar (i guess it's a part of love)

vocalracha did the chorus, it just seemed right. jeongin finding the right words to go with the flow and chan's voice starting it were exactly what everyone was looking for. it was their way of showing they were letting go but not willingly because if it was up to all of them they would want to continue what they had with (y/n).

jeongin took it really hard when you left. like seungmin, he had hope that you would come back, that it might be a mistake or a joke in bad taste but it wasn't like that. he didn't even get to say goodbye, to tell you to take care of yourself. he wanted you so bad in every way that your presence not being there for him when he needed you the most was destroying him.

"hyung i wish i could talk to them. i'm so lost and i don't even know what to do." jeongin expressed, in the verge of crying because he just wanted you but he was stuck in the dorms not even knowing where you were.

"we gotta give them time innie, i know it's hard but we'll find a way." chan said as let the younger cry and let his worries out. even if he didn't feel like things were gonna get better, his hyung always had his back.

right now he was feeling less broken, more confident but he just wanted you to hear this song. even if you didn't want to, these were the things that needed to be said and expressed by the members. he felt like he was left in the dark, he was trapped and had no way out but right now he was seeing the light. when they were filming the music video, everything shined so bright and it took his breath away. if only you could be right there, right now. 

[ verse 1 : jisung & minho ] cerca de ti fue que sentí que ya no había más na' malo (yeah-eh) (close to you i felt like there was nothing that could be bad) cerca de ti fue que sentí que ya no había más na' de amor (close to you i felt like there was no more love) sé que me fui lastimado (ey), dejaste en mí todo raro (i know i left hurt, you left everything weird in me) yo no sé cuándo estaré sano (i don't know when i'm gonna heal) pacas y pacas, todas las gasté, stop, ¿toda esa mierda pa' qué? (bags and bags, i spent them all. stop, all of that shit for what?) ya no me sirve fumar de la maría si no e' con vo' en el hotel (now i can't smoke the maria if it's not with you in the hotel) oh-oh, no me sirve fumar si no e' con vo' en el hotel (oh-oh, i can't smoke if it's not with you in the hotel)

jisung like he said, was left with a mix of everything. the weirdness that affected him when he wasn't by your side but the way you made him believe that he could be loved again lived within him. you showed him a new side of himself, way more careful and way more calm, one that brought peace everywhere he went. he carried that when he wasn't with you because he would go crazy if he didn't.

"you're kinda different today, i like the vibe." you said as you sat down next to him and he smiled, nodding. he couldn't explain the relaxation that invaded his body whenever he found himself in the same room as you. he couldn't let go of the feeling and yet at the same time he didn't want to.

"just wanted to be with you and enjoy the moment." he mumbled burying himself in you but then coming up to give you a sweet kiss. you smiled and pulled him closer as you made out on the sofa in the 3racha + hyunjin) dorms. 

he found himself smiling at the memories and not looking back because he was confident this would catch your attention. maybe a little too cocky for his liking but he knew you all too well to know that this isn't the end but the start of something different.

minho wasn't a big smoker, yet this verse was a reminder of how fucked up you two got at the hotels when he was on tour. when he brought you along, he wasted all of his money on you and on pleasing you, whatever the baby wanted they would get. maybe he acted more like a sugar daddy and didn't realize but he couldn't care less because he wanted to spoil you rotten.

"dude are you smoking?" jisung asked him and he could just nod, of course jisung was only interested because he wanted to hop on the same train. "this is fucking harder than i thought it would be, everything i write is shit."

"i wrote my verses but i still feel like it's missing their approval." minho said laughing, a bit high already. jisung just laughed because his giggles were contagious. they would spend the whole night like this, just going back and forth with new bars but in the end settling down for the ones they had at first. there was a reason those were the first things they thought of, it was because they came out of the broken heart they were experiencing.

staying silent wasn't unusual for them but since they met you, you would always invade with your voice and say whatever you were thinking. now the silence was uncomfortable and they just wanted to hear your voice again.

[ verse 2 : changbin & hyunjin ; both ] miro pa' atrás y parece to' un chiste (i look back and it seems like a joke) yo sé que no daba y por eso te fuiste (i knew i couldn't do it and that's why you left) no sé qué le pa', no sé qué le diste (i don't know what's going on, i don't know why you gave) pero estoy nuevo, como si no exististe (but i am new like you never existed) y sé que si yo puedo, podría cualquiera (and i know if i can, anyone can do it) porque mi corazón era una heladera (because my heart was a fridge) ahora tropical entre cocos y palmeras (now tropical between coconuts and palms) con un recuerdo dulce de cómo eras tú (with a sweet memory of how you were) ah, de cómo eras tú, oh-oh-woh (ah, of how you were, oh-oh-woh) miro pa' atrás y parece to' un chiste (i look back and it all seems like a joke) yo sé que no daba y por eso te fuiste (i knew i couldn't do it and that's why you left) no sé qué le pa', no sé que le diste (i don't know what's going, i don't know what you gave) pero estoy nuevo, como si no-como si-como si- (but now i'm new, like you've never-)

changbin thought it was genuinely a joke when chan told them you weren't coming back. this is why the first lyric went like this and then they immediately thought of realizing why you left him. it's like he knew he had to accept that you were not gonna come back, that the situation got worse and that they left you behind (without wanting to). you didn't leave because you wanted to but because you had to, you were done with them. 

he was the first to try to pretend like you didn't exist, like it didn't mean a thing to him that you left. while most of them were broken and trying to pick up the pieces, changbin decided to live in his new reality where he didn't even meet you. that lasted way too little for his liking since he got reminded of you everywhere he went.

"i feel like being without you makes me feel so fucking weird." he said one time to you and you raised your eyebrow at this. he wasn't one to usually get sappy but you welcomed this moments any time they happened. "okay i know i sound like a major loser but i love you."

"i love you more and you're not a loser for expressing your feelings binnie." your voice was engraved on his mind but he still craved to call you when he felt low. he knew leaving voice messages was weird to get it out since you blocked all of them but a man had to let it out somehow.

hyunjin thought his lyrics were so stupid but somehow he knew that's the way to go. if he wanted to capture your attention somehow, he wanted it to be in a cheesy line and make it seem like he was doing fantastic. yet when he thinks of the sweet memory of you, he's brought back to you, your perfume/cologne, your smile and your hugs. it felt like home every time you held him in your arms.

"hyunjin i feel like i'm drifting away from you guys and i'm scared." he remembers you said to him this one day and he was a bit shocked. he didn't feel like that at all but there had to be a reason why you were feeling like this and not overreacting right? he knew he had to talk it out with the other guys.

"no baby, we're here for you okay? i doubt anything is gonna happen." he said and now that he thinks about it, he should've done something, he should've held you closer and reassured you even more that nothing was gonna separate you from them. he didn't, he now regrets it every day because he missed you like crazy and there was no turning back.

but he knew he still had a chance to mend things, to at least have a way to contact you if you needed anything. he didn't want your last messages to be so sad, to be blocked in your phone forever 'cause you could never be blocked on his. it was stupid but he wanted to be in your life, even if it was the bare minimum.

[ verse 3 : changbin & felix ] ¿cuántas vece' te fallé? (how many times did i fail you?) sin contar la última ve' (without counting last time) pensando volverte a ver (thinking of seeing you again) cuando llego, yo te llamo y no respondes, baby (when i arrive, i call you and you don't answer, baby) me tiene' quemándome en tu fuego (you got me burning in your fire) todo' tu' problema' lo' resuelvo (all of your problems i solve them) como un boomerang yo siempre vuelvo (like a boomerang i always come back) tengo gana' de explorar tu cuerpo (i want to explore your body) ya me lastimaste, igual no aprendo (you already hurt me, i never learn) (ya me lastimaste, igual no aprendo) (you already hurt me, i never learn) (igual no aprendo) (still i don't learn)

felix didn't think he did things wrong, he didn't feel like your falling out was justified. yeah they made a mistake, he made a mistake but all the missed calls that night would haunt him forever. he wanted to see you, to talk to you, to know how you feel and what went wrong. he still couldn't understand it even if chan tried to explain it 100 times, he wasn't convinced. he wanted another chance and he would live in delusion of you coming back if he had to. 

the last time he saw you, you two fought. he remembers it very clearly but he wants to forget it every day, he felt like it wasn't that bad. was he in the wrong? 100% but it didn't justify you walking out on them. 

"(y/n) come on, you can't be serious. even if you do feel like that, it's nothing that we can't fix!" he said when you came to visit him to talk about how you were feeling. god he was such a fucking idiot, he should've just taken you seriously and the more he thinks about it, the more he cringes at how he reacted.

when you sighed and shook your head as you left, he was so blinded by hysteria that he didn't even look at you. he remembers telling changbin this and he knew he would get mad at him but he didn't care, if a lesson needed to be taught that he behaved in a stupid manner, he deserved it. it never arrived though, changbin understood that he wasn't in the right but he also missed the red flags so he couldn't blame his friend for taking this approach.

"i just want her back bin. this song is all i fucking have and it already feels like it's done for." felix expressed and changbin just patted him on the back as he looked at the lyrics his member wrote. 

"i think we can do it though, i think everything will be alright in the end." the older said as he continued the song with his verse and together they made it work. changbin hugged him and held him close as the other one just lost himself in his hyung.

if there was a feeling worse than losing you, it was missing you felix thought.

[ chorus : chan, seungmin & jeongin ] y si fuera por mí, estaría cerca de ti, ah (and if it was up to me, i would be close to you, ah) pero tengo que dejarte volar (but i gotta let you fly) supongo que es una parte de amar (i guess it's a part of love) y si fuera por mí, no me correría de tu lado (and if it was up to me, i wouldn't be moved from your side) apretados, pero ya embarcaste (tightly but you already sailed away) di todo lo que tengo por vos, pero sé que yo fui un desastre [i gave everything for you, but i know i was a disaster)

he knew his members would eventually fight him because he was the last one that saw you. the confrontation was tough because even though everyone was fond of each other, the glue that tied them together was you when the situations got hard. chan knew he didn't handle the situation well, he knew everyone was disappointed in him and blamed himself for you leaving every day. he didn't want to feel like this but it was impossible when he was so cold and distant with his words and actions.

as a leader he should've known better, as a person he should've been better. 

"hyung please don't blame yourself." seungmin said as he sat down next to him. he was the only one who didn't yell at him and yet he thought he deserved it but the youngest wouldn't do it. "it was long overdue that they were gonna leave us because of how they felt and all of the signs were there."

"yeah but i had my chance to stop it and didn't" chan expressed, rotten and bitter that he still had to put up a fight against himself. if he couldn't keep you, he wouldn't be able to keep anything, not like he cared since the only thing he wanted right now was to see you again. 

"maybe you did but we can't keep on thinking that, we need to do something about it." seungmin said and chan nodded. he was right, he couldn't leave in the shadows forever, he couldn't keep on taking the bullet because it would only make it worse for him.

he really gave everything for you but it wasn't enough. even like he said, he was a disaster and there was no changing what went down or how it happened. there was only hoping that it would all heal and you would be able to continue what you once started. or maybe there would be a part where he would have to let go finally.

jeongin got lost in a train of thought when he had to say his verse. he got completely caught up in a moment that happened so long ago that all he could do was stare as he tried to say his lyrics but chan told him to start all over again.

"innie i know it's hard but i'm always here for you." you said and that should've been sweet but it wasn't because he responded the worst way possible.

"please go (y/n), i can't do this right now." he said and it made him physically recoil. like he could not understand why he was so distant, why he felt the need to talk to you like that and of course he remembers it now that he doesn't have a chance at all.

he was mad at himself not only because of that, because of everything they made you go through. maybe it was for the best that you went away because if you did stay, things would've gotten worse. but he wouldn't go without a fight as stupid and cliche as it was, he needed to fight for you and what your love was.

[ verse 4 : hyunjin, felix & minho ] sé que mucho arriesgaste, pero mirá al final (i know you risked a lot but look at the end) paso la noche viendo las fotos que tengo de los dos (i spent the nights looking at the photos i got from both of us) cara de póker cuando mi brother pregunta: "¿qué pasó?" (poker face when my brother asks the question "what happened?") yo solo estoy enfocado en ver cómo soltarte (i'm only focused on seeing how i let you go) bebé, no quiero perderte (baby, i don't wanna lose you) pero menos que me pierdas una oportunidad (but less that you make me lose the chance) eso significa no verte, fuck mi mala suerte (that means not seeing you, fuck my bad luck) tengo que aprender a soltar (i need to learn to let go)

minho remembers taking a picture of you, it was by the han river and you were making a peace sign. late at night when no one could see him and you didn't have to hide from the public. he wanted to keep you there forever, cherish you and make you feel loved.

"god i look so bad, delete it." you said and he just shook his head as he embraced you, giving you a tight hug. covering you with his coat as the wind blew near the water, it got suddenly colder. you accepted his tenderness and love as you laid your head on his shoulder.

"you look good all the time." he said, smiling and giving you a kiss on the forehead. you blushed as you looked up to meet his eyes and then suddenly closed them to meet him in a peaceful and lovely kiss that you would be sure to remember. well at least he still remembered and felt it from time to time.

"stop daydreaming." hyunjin said as he woke up minho from his daily session of reimagining things again and he sighed, annoyed by the others' presence but he knew they had to record their lines together. "It's all about letting go now like the lyrics say."

"yeah none of us are doing a good job at that." felix said as he walked in, his hair a mess and his voice raspier than usual. he knew he wasn't doing well but this was bottom of the barrel and he just didn't know how to take care of himself anymore.

"tired of saying we'll probably get a chance when i actually don't know." minho mumbled to himself but the other two catched it and nodded along. this was gonna be a tough act to put on but they needed to keep going till the end. a bad loser was one that wouldn't even show up, at least they were trying to win something out of this.

[ chorus : jisung, chan & seungmin ] y si fuera por mí (yoh, yoh), estaría cerca de ti, yeah (and if it was up to me, i would be close to you, yeah) pero tengo que dejarte volar (but i gotta let you fly) supongo que es una parte de amar (i guess it's a part of love)

jisung was in the last chorus because that's what they decided on. he sighed as he had only one verse, the last one to make the chance count. even now he was feeling nervous for one line, he never felt this tense since he started being in stray kids and now he just wanted to shut himself off and close the door to his bedroom to not think about you. he was always invaded by memories anyways, so it's not like he could stop it but right now all the flashbacks like a movie were on his mind and he felt the tears build up.

seungmin found himself saying the last lyric of the song, thinking of the times when you would be staring at him before you two kissed. he didn't want to let go even if the song said otherwise but it would be the best option if things didn't go as planned.

"i love you minnie." you whispered to him after an award show one day. they had collected most of the trophies yet none of them felt as good as your love and having you by his side (as corny as it sounds). 

"i love you too." he whispered back and kissed your cheek as you were leaving the place were it took place. fingers intertwined and smiles on both of your faces. 

he remembered it with such love but deep pain as he pronounced his lyrics. i guess it's a part of love huh? he thought to himself as he saw the video going up, the song reaching an incredible amount of listens and going viral on every platform

maybe something good would come out of this.

+ 1

you knew it was about you and it was absolutely everywhere. you didn't have a friend who didn't send you the song and you didn't have a coworker who didn't talk about it. the new stray kids song is so sad that it will make you cry but it's still a vibe or whatever the headlines were saying. you were done with it but because your curiosity was over the roof, you knew you had to listen to it at least once.

and you did, you took in all the lyrics, all the verses and the chorus. you sighed when you finished it, is it really like this? do they really want you back? do they crave to be close to you like they say? you didn't know fully. maybe they just took in the situation and made the song for clout. but you knew them better than that and wouldn't do that if they weren't truly sorry, it was a whole mess to think about this.

you unblocked all of them, the hardest one to unblock being chan but you did it. speaking of the devil, he sent you a message as soon as you did unblock him and it was like destiny or magic or something insane because he couldn't believe he was no longer prohibited on your phone as he started spamming you. 

then soon everyone started messaging you and it felt like the old times, bringing back a smile to your face. it looks like they really did miss you and wanted you back.

you opened seungmin's chat and wrote just two words.

one chance.

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[faithisthekey-23]

Hi brothers and sisters

Today, I will also write my testimony on how my life looked like when I was listening to KPOP, how Lord of Lords delivered me from listening to worldly music, watching a lot of content from some groups and solists, and how my spiritual life looks like now.

My journey with kpop

I discovered kpop in 2018. However, I only listened to a few music groups: Blackpink; Twice; Red Velvet and one song from Sunmi. I won't say too much about it for it isn't that important. I just liked listening to this music but wasn't that invested in it.

However in March 2021, I started listening to BTS, Enhypen and TXT. I quickly wanted to just know their names so that I could recognize them, but I began to really like their songs. I loved the fact that everytime I was sad, I could listen to their songs and feel happiness. I felt a lot of energy after listening to their songs and began to watch different types of content from these groups and videos their fans published. I was very anxious and thought that they are the reason why my anxiety calms down. Whenever I felt hopeless, I came to their music, I also posted posts about them on a few apps. I didn't see any red flags and even when I began to see that I depend on them when it comes to happiness and my well-being in general and felt miserable, very sad when I thought of going back to school after breaks on which I listened to Kpop and watched Kpop content for a few hours everyday. Even though I could see how I depend on kpop groups too much, I didn't even think of taking a break from it. There were times when I wasn't listening to this music for a few days, but I still watched content related to it. I didn't see that it is satanic, full of blasphemy against my Creator God, personal Savior Jesus Christ and maybe blasphemy against my Precious Friend Holy Spirit too. I was so blinded by all of those innocent looking people that I didn't see that there is so many wrong things about this industry. I saw how people working in it are treated, the negative impact their songs have on my emotions and heart (my heart hardened really quickly after listening to some songs), I heard songs about the devil and revenge, and even though I tried to be closer to God, I actually didn't seek Him in the right way, as I was too invested in this music industry and didn't stop listening to these songs for the sake of my identity as a child of God. I even loved singing them. I even started thinking that I should be like those singers and tried to learn how to sing and dance like them. I had a lot of scenarios about becoming a kpop idol (even though the name is also a huge red flag which I didn't see as I was blinded by satan) to the point that I even dreamed about talking with my (now ex) favorite groups. I am ashamed for I even tried to introduce other people to kpop not knowing that it was one of the reasons why I was so miserable, but I realized it only recently.

How God delivered me

I actually didn't have to do much to get rid of listening to kpop. On 15th March, I went on referat and the for the first time in my life I truly felt that it's not a priest talking about God to me, but it's God talking to me through the priest. I felt a strong presence of the Holy Spirit and loved it. When I went out of the church, my mind was filled with the thoughts that I want to truly start seeking God and spend much more time with Him, at least a few hours. I also lost the desire to listen to the wordly music and after some time I also stopped having the desire to watch movies that aren't about God, study if it isn't about Him (I still study and have good grades, but I just don't keep on seeking knowledge after school at all. However, I love getting to know about Almighty more).

The comparison how my life looked like before and how it looks like now

I can easily notice that just like I had so much anxiety when I was listening to kpop, it is gone. I sometimes feel anxiety when I want to explain the Bible for someone and obey God's will but it disappears thanks to the Most High. Earlier, I used to compare my looks and abilities to everyone around me and got way too involed in beauty standards. However, today I noticed that I haven't felt ugly or wanted to change anything about my looks for a few months now (it's May, so 4 months' passed since I was born again). I also stopped feeling so sad and lonely, don't need to depend on music to feel happy. I found my identity and only true happiness in the Holy Trinity and know that they always care about me. Even when someone rejects me or doesn't treat me with respect, I always come back to my Heavenly Father and remind myself that having Him, Jesus and Holy Spirit in my life is more than enough. I did overthink everything, but stopped. Randomly, different thoughts about future fill my mind, but I able to ignore them and focus on my Savior. These days, I get tempted so much to come back to kpop. To be honest, I wanted to come back to kpop to listen to Christian songs. However, I also had a strong desire to listen to other kpop groups but my King of Kings lead me to the video that talked about the negative impact it has on faith of people. Then, I realized that I could watch kpop content and listen to this genre even for 5 hours during the day but prayed for only 25-30 minutes and didn't feel that I need God as I thought that I only need those groups. I watched a few videos about how bad it is and on the next day, I told myself that I won't come back to this again. I was tempeted way more often and the thoughts that told me to come back to this were really intensive, I also saw some articles and videos on the websearcher but didn't choose to waste my this way. I learned how to stand firm and I am thankful for Holy Trinity, for God helped me. Thoughts of the books I read about kpop also show up in my mind and try to encourage to read them again, but I will not break for God. He died for me, I can at least put Him first and not go back to something that is against Him. You can choose Jesus as well! His Arms are always opened for you, no matter how much you've sinned. He loves you to the point that He even died for you, took your blame on Himself to give you salvation and not let you perish. He is always there to listen to you and give you comfort. Just accept His offer, you won't regret it in the end :)

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[milkybonya]

Hi Milky! It's been a little while :) I've been a bit overwhelmed with life and mentally somewhere else for the past few weeks. Not in a bad place but just.. A lot I guess. It's finals week here and so far things are going well! I've taken 2 of my 5 finals and I got high A's on both so I'm happy :) but I also started my second job yesterday so the whole finals and 2 jobs thing has just been WHOOSH if you feel me?? But I've been staying positive and happy throughout it don't worry :) I still write to Kingdom everyday which is definitely therapeutic and it makes me smile! I found out Jahan's favorite color is purple today bc he answered me in a menpa and I'm so 🥺🥺 over it!! Sweetest boy truly 💙

Sometimes at one of my jobs I get the opportunity to listen to music during part of my shift so I usually put on my soft/slow kpop Playlist so my ear buds aren't too obnoxious with my Jikjin or I love you LOL! The Playlist has a lot of cute songs that make me happy! But whenever I hear My Treasure or Beautiful I always think of you and that makes me smile :) and yes I think of YOU! Not even Treasure themselves 😂😭 I just watched the Darari remix exclusive performance video! It was so great omggg the song is still really cute even tho it is a more rockish remix so I was still a little caught off guard with their all black edgy (but hot) outfits jdjsjs they all looked so fine 👀 Haruto in the long blonde hair I'm losing it 😭😭😭 I'm really into the ripped black jeans look so basically... It was a good video for me lol. I'm sad Darari promotions got canceled tho :( Hyunsuk (I believe it was him, I saw it a week or so ago) had to tell a fan promotions got canceled on a fan call like YG didn't even make an official statement about it :( the same thing happened to Kingdom too... Mujin had to tell us on vlive that Promise promotions got canceled. So upsetting 😔

Also oh my GOSH THE SKZ CONCERT?!!! All your pictures looked amazing oh how I wish I could have gone!! I bet it was amazing... You mentioned seeing red lights live like omg how did you survive??? What an awesome experience!! I can't believe it lasted 3 hours. What a time 🤩 any other concerts lined up??? How much more time do you have in Korea?? I hope you've done everything you wanted to do and more! But there's still time I hope 🥰 I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not but the Russian department at my school is trying to line up a summer study abroad to Latvia as a language intensive program! I'm sooooo excited even though it would be summer of 2023 and that's so far away but it's fine I'm getting hype anyways jfjdjsjs

Also you left me some questions in your response to my ask a while ago and I don't want to forget them!! I haven't seen the web dramas!! But haruto as a cold character ahhh that sounds so good 🤩 I'm going to be so busy over the summer bc I'm still going to be working 2 jobs and I'm taking 3 summer classes with one being condensed into 5 weeks ndndnsn I may or may not cease to exist until mid July starting in like a week or two so if I can't get to it I'll have to add it to my watch later list for the second half of summer (which I desperately hope won't be as busy as the first half)! Also hello??? I didn't realize Asahi wrote/composed orange!! He is so amazing I am falling in love brb don't mind me- jdjsjs and I kind of answered your question about my summer plans earlier! I hope I can go back home sometimes to see my mom. This is going to be my first summer away from my family and I'm kinda sad :( but my roommate is staying at school as well and she is basically a sister to me at this point so it won't be too bad (except when she's gone with her boyfriend which is like all the time but that's another story-). I love hockey!! My favorite team is in the playoffs rn and I am really hoping they pull through the first round 🙏 everyone was expecting us to do terribly (including myself ngl) but we're actually only one win away from getting to the next round! I'm so proud 🥺 I don't play personally but if I had the free time I'd love to pick it up. Whenever I'd play it in gym class it was so much fun 🤩 I can roller blade and ice skate decently but not well enough to do anything more than skate. Definitely not Play a whole sport jdjsjs I'd love to try field hockey tho. Since it's basically floor hockey. Maybe someday!

Anyways I'm going to wrap up here since my message is terribly long now and I'm worried Tumblr will eat it 😫 pls Tumblr nim I beg 🙏🙏 hope you had a good day/have a good day!! 💙

hello my love!! i'm sorry to hear you feel overwhelmed :(( i hope you're taking it a day at a time and that things can calm down after finals! and i hope you get a high A on your other 3 finals!!

omg working 2 jobs and studying,, i worked just 1 before and it was already bad :(( but also i want to tell you, even if you're not in a positive mindset, it's okay ♡ don't feel pressure to force yourself to think any certain way ♡♡ but honestly regardless, i'm so proud of you for staying positive ♡

YAYY I'M SO HAPPY YOU GOT NOTICED IN A MENPA 🥺 and purpoe is such a cute colour ;")

listening to music while working is the best~~ i wasn't allowed to, but my friend who wore a hijab would hide her earbuds under there and i was always a bit jealous hehe but i'm so glad you get to listen to music!! especially since working can be so tiring T-T

i'm so honoured you think of me when listening to treasure AHH honestly i'm always thinking of you too 🥺 and darari remix was insane,, seeing it live too they popped off !!! and now the video is so good !! Asahi being so silly in the background of all the cuts is hilarious hh but i'm also so sad promos are cancelled :(

omg stray kids live,, i'm still not over it ☆_☆ Seungmin is my bias and that day really just confirmed that fact,, the way he was being so cute and running around the stage waving at all of us ! also red lights live aha i aLMOST PASSED OUT IT WAS INSANE T-T

i'm seeing astro on the 28th and i'm super excited >_< Jinjin and another member will have solo stages that dayyy hehe

i only have a month left here,, so sad but i think it really is time for me to go back aHh but i really want to come back here sometime

hey even if your exchange program is summer next year, you can still be excited!! i was excited for my exchange even when it was a year away and still unsure because of covid.. so it's okay to get excited !!!

omg your summer sounds so busy :(( definitely take your time with the web drama and just watch it when you're free! also i hope you can find time to rest :(( but yes, Asahi, Haruto and Hyunsuk all worked on orange!! the kings they are!!!!!!!

i understand you wanting to go back to your mom :(( i really hope time will pass quickly so you can see her soon >_< but wow your hockey team is doing so well!! i hope they stay winning!!

i went rollerblading the other day and it was so fun but scary since i haven't done it in a while >_<

field hockey and floor hockey are both so fun!!!

luckiky tumblr didn't eat this >_< have a good day/night love!!

#yutopiada talks #baekhyuns-lipchain ;3; #beloved Kelsey ♡ #milky's moots

[veenxys]

「Things that break BNHA Boys after a break up」

⤷ Bakugou

when he looks at your instagram feed and sees that your couple pics aren't there anymore. every trace of him has been erased from your social media and your life. it's the moment he finally understands that it's over between the two of you; everything you lived together, everything that today is just a aching memory in his heart. sighing deeply and trying his best not to break, he goes to his own feed to see evidence of what you guys have been before loosely pressing the 'delete' button on all of them.

⤷ Deku

when he makes breakfast for two out of habit, but realizes you're no longer there to eat it with him. he laughs at himself, an empty, sad sound. tears sting his eyes as he stares at the food. he can't help but think about how much you loved when he cooked for you, how happy you were with those little moments, and how much he wished he could relive those moments again.

⤷ Kirishima

the moment his phone beeps, notifying a calendar event only to see it's your birthday soon, but realizing it doesn't matter anymore. he feels a real physical sting in his heart as he thinks about how you would have spent the day if you were still together, and where everything went wrong.

⤷ Todoroki

he tried, but he couldn't help reading all your old messages. his finger lightly running across the screen as he reads each text message, his eyes stinging from the tears that kept coming. every time you asked him to take care of himself, every time you said you missed him, every 'I love you', and if he knew it would be the last time you would say that, he would have said it back.

⤷ Denki

he felt his heart break in his chest when he found your shirt in his room. and he couldn't help it and instantly took it with both hands and inhaled deeply, hoping to find even the faintest traces of you. that night, he slept with his nose buried in your shirt, his wrists holding tight as if he was sleeping with his face in your neck.

⤷ Tamaki

that first night back home to...nobody. there is no one to welcome him with a warm hug or someone to look at him with so much love before kissing him and saying missed him. there's no one softly humming your favorite songs like you used to. there is nothing and nobody for him, there is nothing and nobody in his heart.

⤷ Shinsou

the moment his parents ask him about you and he realizes he has to tell them you're not together anymore; that you are no longer in each other's lives. “how are y/n?” he also wanted to know, since it's been so long since you last saw each other or talked.

⤷ Hawks

when he hears good news that makes him so excited and his first instinct is to call you to talk about it, only to realize the two of you aren't together anymore. but this thought occurs too late and you picked up the phone, he hasn't heard your voice in a while. he tries to be strong, but he feels he can break at any moment.

⤷ Dabi

it’s been a long time since he last saw you. all this time, the pain is dull and sad, he's pushed everything down, distracting himself with other things in life. but what really breaks him is when he sees you with your new partner. and what's worse, he sees you looking at them the same way you used to look at him.

⤷ Shigaraki

when he sees the promise ring you left behind on the table as he hears the door slam. he didn't mean all these things, he didn't mean it was over between the two of you. and now, as he looks at the ring he had given you and which you always wore with love and pride. a horrible realization creeps into him that you will never, ever come back.

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[somya-tsugikuni]

Let's see how yoriichi will be when his wife starts teasing him. 😏

Warning ⚠️

Yoriichi has a kekkei genkai/ special eyes that was in my book

"y/n tsugikuni x Naruto various reader"

The taiyō no me:

Great sensing abilities, able to see someone's past, teleportation, Genjutsu,ability to see/interact with the dead, being able to combine the suns power with any Jutsu. being able to tell the future, ability to unfuse chakra in breathing techniques to make them more poweful, Reflect genjutsu.

The most important one is genjutsu. 😏⚠️

Btw a very very good song to go with this or any smut would be

-House of cards by BTS 🌚🍋-

(Don't ask me how I got to know that 😀 I just read a lot of smuts about yoriichi...)

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Author's pov

Yoriichi was right now sitting outside,

looking at the night sky.

He was just thinking about other things.

Suddenly, you came and sat down on his lap. Yoriichi looked at you and smiled.

"Hello dear~ what happened?" He asked seeing you cuddling him.

"Nothing... I just wanted to spend time with you~" you said snuggling into his chest.

Yoriichi blushed a little seeing you so comfortable on his lap.

He gently brushed his hands through you hair and hugged you back.

"Yoriichi~" you cooed snuggling into his neck.

Yoriichi was flustered and slightly confused why you were being soo flirty but.. ehh

"Yes dear." he said calmly.

"Kiss me~" you said looking at his lips.

"Sure.." he said a little confused why you were being more needy than usual..

He gently attached his lips with yours.

But when he was about to pull away you grabbed his yukata, pulling him close.

Yoriichi was now definitely questioning why you were being so needy... But he did love you to the moon and back so he kissed you back.

After a few minutes the small kiss turned into you guys making out.

You guys pulled away for air.

You both were panting.

"What happened to you today?" Yoriichi asked chuckling.

"Nothing~ I just wanted affection from my husband" you said fluttering your lashes at him.

Yoriichi smiled and kissed your forehead.

You changed your position to now straddling him.

"You really are in a flirty mood, aren't you" yoriichi said wrapping his hands around your waist.

You smirk and started kissing his neck.

Of course yoriichi was very much flustered by your actions but still kept some what calm until you started sucking at his neck.

"Ugh~" yoriichi let out a groan as you started nibbling and sucking at his neck.

He heard you giggle as you kept sucking his neck.

"Y/n~ gosh you are good at teasing me...." he said as his grip on your waist tightened. You left his neck and came to look at him in the eyes.

"Hmm? Really now?..." You said innocently as you played with the hem of his yukata, pulling at it slightly.

He said nothing and kept looking at your hands playing with his yukata, slowly pulling it, exposing his entire chest.

Your hands crept onto his chest, gently tracing his muscles and abs.

You could feel yoriichi relax under your touch.

You took the opportunity and just stood up and walked back into the house like nothing happened.

Leaving poor yoriichi confused 😂✨

Yoriichi got up and went into the house to search for you.

He saw you in the bedroom just sitting on the bed and doing your hair.

He sat beside you and said

"Why did you leave?" He said in slightly confused/ sad tone.

Y/n's brain:

He is so adorable!!! Stay strong y/n!!

"What? I just wanted to brush my hair" you said innocently as if you knew nothing.

Yoriichi looked at you with squinted eyes before realizing you were probably teasing him.

He was going to take revenge for it....

He pinned you down on the futon making you let out a yelp.

When you look into his eyes you saw he had activated his taiyō no me...

The room suddenly became fully black...

Yoriichi pinned both of your hands on top of your head with one of his hands while the other went down to your thighs, gently rubbing up and down it. A small whimper escaped your lips as you tried to free your hands.

His hand slowly went up to your clit, gently rubbing it.

"A-aah~ yoriichi..." You moan and close your legs tightly but yoriichi held your knees and spread your legs again. As his hands were preoccupied..🌚 he slowly pushed his knee up, between your legs.

A gasp escaped your lips as his knee rubed against you.

"Y-yoriichi~" you moaned as his knee kept grinding against you.

"Now... Have you gotten enough of teasing me?" He said with a smirk on his face.You nodded, looking away from his eyes.

"Good girl~" he said as the room slowly went back to normal.

He picked you up and made you sit on the back board of the bed.

He stopped teasing you with his knee and let you catch your breath.

You were panting while looking at yoriichi in the eyes.

You didn't think he would act like this after you teased him because you know.. he was so sweet and innocent...

You could see yoriichi smugly smiling at you... You slightly glare at his little smile.

"Soo... Shall we continue this?.." he said, rubbing your thighs gently going up and down.

You nodded and pulled him in for a kiss by his neck. Yoriichi pulled you more closer by your waist as his other hand kept rubbing your thigh.

He slowly went down to your neck, leaving soft kisses trailing down your neck to your shoulders.

"Yoriichi~" you moaned, tugging at his hair.

He hummed and started tugging at your kimono making it lose and drop to your waist. He started going down to your breasts. You gasp as his hand slowly started massaging your breasts.

He unties your obi hand throws it somewhere in the room.

He took your kimono off as his hands started roaming around your body.

You then started tugging at his yukata trying to give him a sign to take it off.

He understood what you wanted and took off his yukata throwing it away.

He took one of your breasts into his mouth while his hand on your thigh started going up and rubbing you through your underwear.

"Aa-ahh~  yoriichi~" you moan louder as his hand was adding pressure to your clit.

Yoriichi was kinda getting impatient and started rushing things a little.

He went down between your legs and started eating you out. It was like he was starving and you were his meal.

"AAhh!! Yoriichi! Slow down!" You moaned out, surprised at his sudden action. But yoriichi didn't listen and kept going even faster. You clench the bedsheets trying to hold onto something.

In just a few minutes, you cum as yoriichi licks every single but of it.

You were trying to calm down from your high when yoriichi came and kissed you making you taste yourself.

He spread your legs as he put himself in front of his entrance.

"It's going to hurt a little ok?" He said gently rubbing your thighs.

You nodded your head, holding onto his shoulders. He slowly pushed himself into you.

He was so surprised at how wet you were.A small yelp escaped your lips as tears started to form in your eyes. Yoriichi kissed you trying to distract you from the pain.

He gave you time to adjust to him.

When you were finally ok you nodded at him to move. As he slowly began to move his hips.

"Ahhhh~ yoriichi-sama~"

You moaned in ecstasy as he started going faster. You clearly knew he liked you calling him that. He started going even faster just hearing you call him that while moaning himself.

"Y-yoriichi-sama p-please go faster" you pleaded with him.

He put your legs on his shoulders and held your waist tightly. He started absolutely railing you as you gasped and moaned his name loudly.

"Ahh!! Yoriichi-sama~!!"

The only sounds in the room was your moans, skin slapping and yoriichi's grunts and growls.

You soon started getting close to your climax and said

"Yoriichi-sama~ i-i am close-"

"Me too- ugh~"

You two soon reached your climax together and released both of your seeds. You both panting heavily trying to catch your breath.

Yoriichi gently kissed your forehead and said

"You will always be my sweetheart~"

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Anyways-

Remember you are beautiful 😘❤️

Bye~

#yoriichi #fanfic #headcanons #writing #imagines #fiction #yoriichi supremacy #yoriichi x reader #yoriichi tsugikuni #Somyaz-tsugikuni

[ewwhothefuckiski]

You Said Forever- Joshua Bassett

Joshua Bassett × fem!reader

Requested: no, I was trying to sleep and suddenly had this idea so here we are.

TW: Swearing, angst, emotional trauma, mentions of death

Taglist: @tclklater @spicygemini17 @bonobos-candy-bar @kaylinfayezink @jxznotfound {lmk if ya want to be added!!}

A/N: I apologise in advance 🤧 you can thank @hermes-creature and @nickalicious for fueling this fire. And yes this was heavily inspired on his new ep and Olivia's Driver's License. No not for the drama

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:

Love is hard. It can be wonderful, breathtaking. But it can also be painful, soul crushing even. When you fall in love, you give someone your all, you hand over your heart and pray that they don't break it.

But they will- It's inevitable.

Or at least, that's what Y/N told herself as she sat alone in what used to be her and Joshua's bedroom, holding their promise rings and letting out heart wrenching sobs.

She looked around, every picture of her and Josh like a new slap in the face. She looked back down at the rings, screaming as she threw them at the mirror resting on their dresser, shattering the glass.

Her hands tangled into the roots of her hair, tugging as she hugged her knees into her chest, rocking back and forth letting the sobs rock her body.

-

She didn't think Josh would leave her, he had been by her side since they were 16. But he did. They screamed at each other until they were red in the face; him eventually giving up and packing his bag.

Y/N screamed at him more, this time with tears streaming down her face.

"Why are you doing this?" She cried, grabbing his arm and turning him to face her. "You are the one who's in the wrong here, and you just decide to leave?"

Joshua felt his heart break as he stared at the girl. She was broken, hurting- and it was his fault.

But then he thought back to her words from earlier, anger flaring in his chest again.

"I'm in the wrong here? Y/N, you blamed me for cheating on you because of your insecurities. You scream at me after I come home from filming, because you're jealous. I told you nothing was going on with Olivia. But you can't get it through your damn head. You made me choose between you and my job. So I did, and I choose my job. Don't try and put this on me."

"I thought you loved me." She sobbed, wrapping her arms around herself; an attempt to keep herself from falling apart.

Joshua sighed as he zipped his bag shut, turning to face her.

"God Y/N. I do love you, I love you so much- and I always will. But we can't do this anymore. We aren't good for each other."

"You promised me forever." She whispered, staring down at the ring sitting on his finger. He followed her gaze, his heart breaking as he realized what she had been looking at. He slipped the ring off of his finger, gently placing it in her hand, before placing a soft kiss on her forehead. He grabbed his bag and walked to the door, turning to look at the girl who stole his heart all those years ago one last time.

"Goodbye Y/N." He whispered, turning on his heel and shutting the door behind him before she could see the tears running down his face. He stood there for a minute, hearing her sobs through the door, before flinching as he heard glass shattering as she screamed. He sighed and continued his journey to his car, before he finally pulled out of the driveway and left the love of his life behind him.

×××

Joshua shouldn't have had the time to feel the deep ache in his chest with each waking minute that passed without Y/N by his side- HSMTMTS had hit it off and soon his career was launched into full swing. His fans demanding an EP, him booking auditions, all while doing interviews back to back about the "love triangle" between him, Olivia, and Sabrina- but he did.

The fans had all assumed that Josh's sudden change in behavior was because he and Olivia called things off, but in reality, he just hadn't been himself since he left Y/N.

Everyone but him had saw it. So Olivia and Sabrina had been spending a lot of time with him, trying to cheer him up. But the fans read to much into it.

Josh knew Y/N was seeing the articles, he knew she definitely didn't believe him now. All he wanted was to take back the day he walked out on her. But he couldn't, it was too late. She was better off without him now.

At least, that's what he told himself.

Little did he know, Y/N had fallen into the darkest state of depression after he left. She didn't leave her bed unless she had to. She cried, a lot. She didn't have the motivation to get up in the morning, to do the basic things such as take a shower, brush her teeth.

What was the point?

Her friends tried calling her, coming over to help her get out and do something, but she had lost any part of her soul she had left.

When Joshua left her, he took her heart with him. She gave him everything, just to feel like nothing in the end. She loved him with every fiber in her body, and that was the hardest thing for her.

Before she met Joshua, she had been left time and time again. First by her parents, and then eventually anyone she's ever came to care about. She shut everyone out after that, afraid to get attached again.

And then there he was. The brown eyed messy haired boy in the back of the coffee shop.

He looked terrified. His hands were shaking, his face pale, breaths coming up short. She knew that look all too well.

"Hey! Hey look at me."

He snapped his head up to look at the young girl, his brown eyes wide as she talked to him.

"Breathe with me ok? In through the nose for five seconds, out for ten."

She demonstrated what she meant, smiling when the boy started to copy her actions.

"Good, just like that. Again."

She took his shaking hands into hers, interlacing their fingers as they breathed together.

She didn't try and tell him he was gonna be ok, or to breathe because he's fine. She knew when you were having a panic attack, your body looses control of itself. She knew the best thing you could do is to just focus on your breathing until you gained control again.

After a while, Josh finally gained control of himself again. He looked down at their interlocked hands, blushing, but not pulling away.

"How did you-"

"You were having a panic attack. I have them all the time."

Joshua nodded, glancing from their hands back to the beautiful girl in front of him.

"I felt like I was going to die." He whispered, looking down in embarresment.

"I know."

He looked up at her, shocked.

"W-What?"

"Your whole body tingles, you can't slow your breathing, your heart beating so loud you swear your ears are gonna explode." She listed, smiling at him sadly, her heart aching for the boy. "It's like you can't control your own body."

He nodded slowly. "Yeah, Yeah that's exactly what it felt like."

Y/N smiled softly, her thumb rubbing the back of his hand.

"How about some coffee, on me?"

Josh grinned at the girl in front of him. "That'd be great!"

After that, they had been inseparable.

Until now.

Now they were in separate places, trying to forget every painful memory they made together in the last 4 years.

Eventually, Y/N's friends got her out of bed, convinced her to come to the park with them. She reluctantly agreed, but only on the condition that she could drive herself- that way if needed she could leave whenever she wanted.

So she got up, took a shower, brushed her teeth, and put on the best clothes she could manage without breaking down because it brought her a memory of Josh- which was harder than you would think.

She made a mental note to go clothes shopping later.

She sighed as she sat in her car, closing her eyes and taking a deep breath before starting the engine and pulling out of her driveway.

When she pulled into the park, it was deserted, and she sighed in relief. Her best friends sent a text saying they were on their way, so Y/N exited her car and sat on the park bench, waiting for them to show up.

-

Josh was exhilarated. He had just finished his first concert, and the feeling of the fans cheering as he sang was still alive and electric in his bones. His adrenaline was running so high he couldn't sit still.

So he decided to take a walk.

He wanted to go to the park, it was his comfort these last couple of months. It was a place where he could breathe, where he could be alone with his thoughts.

He usually thought about Y/N.

But today was different, he finally felt alive again. He was walking around the park, humming his songs to himself as he took in the stillness of this afternoon. If it hadn't been for the adrenaline coursing through his veins, he would have found it eerie.

But he didn't. So he kept walking and singing, relishing in the feeling of the wind running through his hair.

Until he heard an all too familiar voice.

She was singing- singing in a way that sounded sad, like every word she uttered was forced- but it was beautiful. He knew that voice the second he heard it, but he just couldn't believe it.

He rushed to hide behind a tree, peaking his head out to glimpse at the singing girl. He couldn't believe his eyes, there Y/N was, right in front of him, looking just as beautiful as the day he left her.

But she was different, he could see it in the way she slouched as she sat on the bench, slowly swinging her legs back and forth while singing to herself softly. She was hurting, and he knew it was because of him.

"Y/N-"

He meant to say it in his head, but her name had slipped past his lips, and her head whipped around, her eyes catching his. She gasped in shock, tears welling in her eyes as she looked at the boy who stole her heart away standing in front of her after spending so much time apart.

She stood up quickly, wiping her eyes and running in the opposite direction towards her car, she needed to get out of there before she broke even more. She knew it was a mistake coming here, she should've listened to herself.

"Y/N wait-" he called out, reaching out to stop her. But it was too late, she was already long gone and pulling out of her parking spot, tears clouding her vision. Joshua ran out from behind the tree, running up to her car, before he stopped dead in his tracks, watching the scene unfold in front of him.

Y/N had been speeding out of the parking lot and onto the street, not bothering to look before she slammed on the gas and pulling onto the street, before she saw a speeding car coming at her from the side, ramming into her before everything went black.

She finally found peace.

And Josh had just lost it.

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[babygirlkiki1016]

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Chapter 10: A lovely bond

Chapter 11: Unexpected Betrayal

I resealed the door, drawing the same pattern as before to lock it in place. I was going to miss this little cave, for more memories than I ever could imagine happened here. I ran my fingers over my newly designed dwarven braid, after Thorin saw the one I made he decided to redo my braid into a dwarven rose. It was incredibly beautiful, I don't think I'd ever want to take it out.

"Well, you owe me a tooth." Kili wrapped his arm around my shoulder as we headed to the shifter's home. For he had more supplies that we needed, especially some from my home that we have supplied him with. "I found your courter, I will say I am surprised that it was my uncle. I never believed he could feel that way towards you, but now I understand why he didn't want you to think about marriage."

"Oh really? And why is that?"

"He didn't want you to marry anyone else but him, I guess that means we get to call you auntie now. Auntie Y/n, rolls off the tongue doesn't it?"

"Although I'm glad that my uncle has warmed up to you, why would you want to be with someone who hurt you more than once?" Fili came close to my right, giving me a curious look. I didn't know why I loved Thorin, all he has ever done was make me feel sad. Did I fall in love because I wanted a person that didn't want me?

"I don't know the answer to that Fili, I have no idea why I fell in love with him. Thought I'm glad I did, for he has made me feel something I haven't felt in years." My gaze trailed over to the King who is staring back at me with a soft smile, my heart fluttered. As we made our way to the shifter's home, I rejoined my beloved who led the company.

"Thorin." I greeted, making him glance over at me with the same grin from earlier.

"Good morning amralime, I was beginning to worry you were ignoring me. For you haven't said a thing to me all morning."

"I was busy helping the others pack their things, for some reason they kept bowing as I approached." They had never done that before, and to me it was weird they would treat me such way. It became highly annoying, I had to keep reminding them that they didn't have to do that.

"You are my betrothed, soon you will be the Queen under the mountain. They have recognized you as one of their own, and accepted you as their Queen."

"I've done nothing to prove I'm a good leader, how could they call me such?"

"They first started to admire you when you asked for me to set your people free if you fell. Then you protected us in the Goblin tunnels, and when we were fighting the trolls. Even when you left, you still came back, you showed loyalty. And that's all they can ever ask for, it's all I can ask for." He slipped his arm around my waist pulling me closer to him, that look of adoration now had a permanent place on his features. Yet the small romantic moment came to an end, darkness appeared behind us, an orc pack was not far behind.

"Thorin." The look on my face was obvious, he shouted to the others to get their weapons ready. "This way!" I led them far into the forest, and soon we made our way onto Beorn's land. We ran across the field, the Orcs hot on our heels stop when they hear the creature roaring close by. We rushed to his house with the insanely large bear traveling behind us, quickly I unlocked the door letting everyone in. The creature lunges its head through it, and we all push to close the door. After being slightly injured by the pressure of the gate, Beorn finally moves his head and we manage to shut and lock the entrance.

"What is that?" Ori asked turning to me and the great grey wizard that stood beside me.

"That is our host," Gandalf explained as my focus went to Thorin, who was leaning on the door tiredly. He held his side, I reached forward and pulled away his cloak to see that he was bleeding slightly. "His name is Beorn, he’s a skin-changer. Sometimes he’s a huge black bear, sometimes he’s a great strong man. The bear is unpredictable, but the man can be reasoned with. However, he is not overly fond of dwarves."

"Come, let me fix your bandage." I let Thorin lean on me slightly, slowly I set him down on a nearby stool as the rest of the dwarves questioned if Beorn's abilities were dark magic or not. As Thorin slipped off his top clothing I grabbed a herb from my homeland that we had given to Beorn which he rarely ever uses. It's more of a 'just in case' necessity, good thing he has it.

"What is that?" Thorin took the red egg-like plant from my hand, examining it.

"It's called Arigonis, the juice inside has healing properties, it's a very rare plant. Well was, but we found a way to grow it, it'll heal your injuries all the way. However it will take time, a hour or so tops so don't scratch at it no matter how much it itches." I brought over a small bowl with water within, kneeling in front of him I took the plant and broke it apart. Using the juice and skin, I made this paste-like substance to put on his injuries. He had already taken his bandages off and discarded them to the side. When I looked up to cover him in the red-like paint, our faces were close, it was hard not to kiss him though I hardly doubt he would mind. I got to work in covering him with the herb, and it didn't take long before he went to scratch at it. "Hey, no don't do that." I slap his hand away playfully, he groans in frustration.

"It itches."

"That's how you know it's working, but if you scratch at it your wound won't heal all the way." He wants to scratch it badly, his fingers dug into his thigh so he wouldn't be tempted. Once I was done covering him in the agitating red paste, I washed my hands before making my way back over to him. I removed his hands from his thighs and made him focus on me. I was nervous, for I had never sang in front of anyone before but I figured it would help. I took a deep breath, keeping my gaze to the floor. "Wind howls in my hair, the world stops when you come this near. Starlight on your skin, the sky sways as you pull me in. And I, I wanna swim in your ocean. I wanna know how to love again, Ooh take me into your arm, sirens call, how fast I fall. Beneath your waves, no storm can take my eyes from you." Everyone turned to me, listening as I sang the song my mother used to hum to me when I was a child. "Crash down to my knees, their fears and hopes flood over me.

Your hand finds my own and shows me that I'm not alone. Now I, I'm diving deep in your ocean, I see the way to redemption, Ooh.

Take me into your arms, sirens call, how fast I fall. Beneath your waves, no storm can take

my eyes from you." All gathered around to listen as I sang the vocals, while others closed their eyes to sleep to the sound.

"Y/n." Thorin rested his hand upon my cheek, making me lean into his touch with a need to feel it. His eyes shined with a lovable glare, for he was stunned at my sudden talent.

"Take me into your arms, sirens call, how fast I fall. Beneath your waves, no storm can take

my eyes from you." (Song called Into Your Arms by Ryan Louder & Serena). Thorin's lips found it's way to mine, the rough skin made me crave more but we can only do so much in front of the others.

"You should sing more often." He gave me a pleading look, I rolled my eyes and retrieved another bandage to wrap around his torso.

"Perhaps I will, but for now you need to rest."

"Sing me to sleep, my Queen?" I kissed his forehead, smiling at his request. His hands landed on my waist pulling me in, but he kept me away just far enough where I wouldn't mess up the paste.

"Anything for you my King."

~♪♠♪~

My arms rested around the dwarven man, his hair tickling my nose slightly. Ever since we had proclaimed our love to each other he's been wanting me to sleep by his side. Which of course I was willing to do, but it made me think. How long would I have a moment like this? Surely the other dwarven kingdoms would want him to marry someone suitable, though maybe I am suitable. Once we get those reports and it's shown to the world that my kin is innocent they wouldn't be able to turn down an alliance with the Queen of the Digonisks.

"You seem deep in thought." Thorin's voice rumbled, a shiver ran down my spine at the sudden vibration.

"Have you been watching me this entire time?" He shifted onto his side, those beautiful blue orbs meeting mine.

"No, but I can tell when your asleep and when your not. And when you think deeply about certain things you tend to frown or smile. Today you did both." His thumb caressed my cheek, a gesture to make sure I was alright. "What is it amralime?"

"After this quest, and my kin goes free, won't your people want you to marry someone suitable?"

"You are suitable, there is evidence that digonisks are innocent. Once the humans and the rest of my people realize their mistake, they'll do anything to make their wrongs a right."

"...What if the scrolls aren't there? What if we never find them, will you still love me?"

"Of course." He seemed hurt that I began to doubt his feelings, a determined look appeared. He leaned forward and pecked my lips, but it soon became a more passionate kiss. Luckily we were in one of the empty stables for privacy, or the others would be grossed out. His arms wrapped tightly around me, I settled on top of him and straddle his waist. His bandages remained on his chest, for I had forgotten to take them off last night yet his wounds should be healed all the way now. With a smirk he flipped us over, his muscular figure now above my own.

"We're gonna get caught."

"Let them see." He goes to kiss me again but a loud fake gag was heard from behind him.

"No don't them see." Kili covered his eyes along with his brother, I gave Thorin an 'I told you so' look. "We came to tell you breakfast has been made." They quickly scurried away, sighing Thorin stood and we headed to the dining room. Everyone is sat at a table being served breakfast by Beorn, whose eyes widened when he saw me.

"Y/n." He nods his head slightly as a greeting, but a frown comes upon his features. "What are you doing here with a bunch of dwarves? Shouldn't you be in-" He stopped talking, for he did not want to give away our hidden home.

"No, I've been helping these men for the past few months. Don't worry Beorn they know, and they've accepted me." I stood in front of Thorin, undoing the white cloth that had been around his torso for far too long.

"If your here then who's running things?"

"Lani, my handmaiden why is there something wrong?"

"I've received word from your people that I must pay tribute for the Arigonis. They want me to cut wood so they can collect it." I stopped, pay tribute? I've never had him pay tribute before and Lani knows that, besides it's not that rare of a plant anymore.

"And if you refuse?"

"They wouldn't supply me with it anymore, and if I continue to refuse they threatened to imprison me. At first, I was angry for I never expected this out of you but seeing you now showed me that you had nothing to do with it." Imprisonment? That was nothing like my kin, what was going on while I was away?

"Who gave the order?"

"Fenris delivered me the scroll explaining how things were going to be handled from now on. Though I don't think it was him." There was no way Lani would take control like this, she was an innocent girl, right? Or was she abusing the power I gave her? Maybe it was a misunderstanding, that's not like her, she can barely ask me for something. "They're coming later to receive my answer, they should be here in a few-" Before he could finish his answer there was pounding on the door, well speak of the devil.

"Thorin wipe off the paste, I'll be back." Angrily I opened the barn door to see Fenris, the commander of my armies who immediately bowed along with the rest of his group.

"My Queen! I did not realize you were here."

"I did not realize someone gave the order to threaten my friend, who ordered that Beorn would have to give up his wood for the herb?"

"Well, you did my Queen." I was taken aback, and I could hear gasps behind me. The dwarves watched as I went from angry to absolutely furious.

"I gave no such command, for I haven't been in contact with anyone for quite some time. Where did you hear about this?"

"Lani showed us the paper you supposedly signed, that anyone we give supplies to must pay tribute in return and if not, they shall be imprisoned or worse...be sentenced to death."

@fili-is-my-lover @kirenia15 @lunariasilver @depressedchilipepper @tschrist1 @ayamenimthiriel @ask-the-elf-stuff

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[komaedaslove]

do it for her, a sasha braus x reader

jenna's fics ¡ in which you keep your pronise

warnings: aot s4 ep 8 spoilers, death, loss, grieving/mourning death, denial (i think), it's overall quite sad

genre: some fluff, mainly just angst. however you want to view it

pairing: sasha braus x reader (platonic, but view it how you wish)

extra notes: there aren't any pronouns i use for the reader, however the reader does share a room with mikasa and sasha, but that's it mmm yes.

i listened to this (and some sad queen and freddie mercury songs) while writing this

it had taken a bit of begging from sasha, but she managed to get you out of bed at 1 in the morning. excitedly telling you about how she had stolen some meat and wanted you to go outside and eat it with her. you'd disagreed at first, your main concern being captain levi finding out, but the brunette was insistent. telling you she'll take all the blame if levi saw you two.

you knew that was absolute bullshit, but you were really hungry. so you agreed, sasha excitedly clapping and dragging the blanket off of you. she'd tried to get mikasa to go with too, but the girl remained stoic faced, shaking her head and going back to sleep.

that's how you ended up here, sitting on the grass with sasha, eating meat. at past one in the morning.

-

"sasha, do you ever think this will end?"

the brunette cocked her head to the side at your words, cheeks puffed up with meat and brows furrowed. “y/n! this isn’t the time to get all sad please, i really just wanna enjoy my meat,” she replied with a whine, mouth still full as she spoke. you sighed, rolling your eyes as you picked up another slice of meat. “can i be serious with you for once sash? and jesus close your mouth when you eat. you look like a fucking titan.” she narrowed her eyes at you , opening her mouth even wider as she chewed.  

“you’re really killing the mood y/n, pretty sure even mikasa wouldn’t have asked me stuff like this,” she said, and with that sasha swallowed down the remainder of food in her mouth and fell down onto her back with a groan. she turned her head to look up at you, a frown on her face as she clutched her stomach. “my stomach hurts y/n, you’ll have to carry me back inside!” 

“that’s what happens when you eat so damn fast and so much at once! you’ll have to crawl your way back. hopefully levi doesn’t wake up and see you crawling across the grass from the window or something.” you joked, giggling at the way her eyes widened at your statement. “he’ll skin me y/n! y/n please!” you ignored her pleas and stood up, dusting off your pants. before you could even start making your way back inside though, you felt sasha’s two arms wrap around your legs, pulling her body upwards and holding tightly onto you. “please y/n! do you want captain levi to skin me alive? do you? he’ll probably find some way to make me titan fodder! is that what you want?” she shook your legs and gripped onto you even tighter as she pleaded.

you weren’t actually gonna leave here there to crawl by herself, you knew this was gonna end up with you piggybacking her back inside, but it was a little funny to see her beg you to not let ‘levi skin her’.

“fine fine, just grab the plate and hop on my back,” in almost an instant, she unwrapped her arms from your legs and scrambled to grab the plate, waiting for you to get into position before she hopped onto your back, wrapping her arms and legs tightly around you.

“thank you y/n!” she adjusted herself better onto your back laying her head down with a content sigh. you started walking, holding tightly onto the brunette, she wasn’t heavy at all. you’d carried and flown around with odm gear so much by now that this was really easy for you. 

most of the rest of the walk back was fairly silent, and halfway there you could hear sasha’s breathing slow. she was already beginning to doze off. you shook her slightly on your back to keep her awake. you didn’t want her to fall asleep and drop the plate, then you’d have a real huge problem and levi would quite literally skin you both alive.

after a bit of walking you had finally made it to your shared room, sasha slipped off your back quietly, and as you closed the door behind you you breathed out a sigh of relief that no one had seen or heard you two. captain levi would’ve made you run laps right then and there if he did.

you set the plate down next to your bed, making a mental note to take it with you in the morning and wash it out before levi could question you. ‘’sasha don’t forget we have to-” you started, but immediately stopped when you saw that the brunette was already sleeping, her legs hanging off of the bed and face planted into the pillow. you giggled, one thing about sasha was she was that just as much as she loved to eat, she loved to sleep. you were sure that if she had the option she would probably sleep the entire day, only waking up to eat something before trotting off to bed again.

with a quick stretch of your arms you walked over to sasha’s bed, taking off her shoes and moving the sleeping girl’s legs onto the bed. she shifted slightly, mumbling something in her sleep as you pulled the blanket at the edge of the bed over her.

you turned around, just about ready to get into bed and sleep away what little time you still had to do so, but a soft tug and your sleeve stopped you.

you turned back around, humming in response. sasha’s eyes were still closed but now there was a lazy grin on her face, she tugged you forward, beckoning you to come closer. amused by the sleepy girls actions you obliged, leaning forward till you were close enough for her to whisper into your ear.

“one day y/n, i wanna have a picnic with you. a real one. outside these walls. with all those nice things we had when we visited historia, remember? promise me we’ll do that. you have to promise,” she sleepily slurred her words, but you could still perfectly understand what she was saying, and with a small giggle and a nod of your head, you smiled. you weren’t sure when this hell was ever gonna end, or if it was at all, but sasha’s words gave you the tiniest bit of hope. a rather small glimmer of light at the end of this tunnel, but it was still there. and for the first time in what felt like a really long time, you felt happy. like there was nothing else that you had to worry about, you could be truly happy with no other worries for just this moment.

you couldn’t actually remember how you had ever lived before all of this. was there a time when you actually didn’t have to worry about titans, or about whether or whether not you and your friends and comrades would live another day? probably, when you were really young maybe, but again you couldn’t remember.

but right now you got that feeling, that carefree happiness, you weren’t entirely sure how just a few words from sasha did, but you were thankful for it. and you knew you just had to keep this promise, as trivial as it was you wanted that picnic outside of these walls with sasha someday. and you were gonna have it.

“i promise,"

-

“sasha i know its not what you wanted. but its the best i could do,”

two plates were layed out on the ground, each filled with as much food as you could get your hands on. it wasn’t all of the nice things you’d had when you visited historia, but it was the best you could do.

it felt like decades ago when you made that promise, and thinking back on it now you realize how childish it was. were you so filled with hope back then that you actually made promises like this and wholeheartedly believed it would come true? you don’t actually remember, but you did wish you could still have that hope now today. you envied your younger self for it, for being able to have that carefree happiness you were absolutely sure you would never have again in whatever little time you still had left in your life. your light was gone now, and how naive you were for ever for a second believing you could hold on to that light forever. just like everything in this world-no, in this hell, it came to an end. and maybe if you accepted that fact a long time ago you wouldn’t be where you were now, doing what you were doing.

finding some way to cling onto that light-to cling onto her.

you’d told everyone else about your promise, it was a little embarressing to say the least, speaking about something so childish with tears running down your cheeks. you’d also told them the full story, including how she had stolen meat and you had snuck outside in the early hours of the morning to eat it-much to levi’s dismay.

but no one questioned you, not even a little bit. infact, conny had done something similar, he had the habit of filling a plate of food for her at dinner or in the mornings, setting the plate next to him. everyone knew not to sit there, not to question it, because on the inside we were all hoping she would come and sit there. wolfing down her food and complaining after about how hungry she was. you didn’t realize you would ever miss that as much as you did right now.

“armin gave me this seashell from outside the walls, i can’t really go outside the walls right now, there’s not really a way to take you with me, so hopefully this makes up for it. we can pretend like we’re sitting on the beach,” you held up the seashell, showing it off before you set it down on the ground near your plates. you were talking really loudly, but you didn’t actually notice, it was like a part of you wanted to make absolutely sure she could hear you.

“let’s eat!” 

you ate in silence, you weren’t hungry, not at all. your appetite was completely gone. she would probably be asking for your food right now, saying she was done with hers and that she was still really hungry. then you would look at her for a long time, staring into her pleading eyes with a stoic expression before you brought the food to your mouth and ate it, trying to maintain your serious expression as she groaned about how mean you were for that.

how you wished she was here.

once you were done eating you pushed your plate to the side, moving her untouched one as well. you sat up onto your knees, crawling over to the headstone and turning around to put your back to it.

“now its like i’m giving you a piggyback ride, right sash?”

silently, tears rolled down your cheeks again, the salty liquid dropping onto the ground and dissapearing into the earth. you tugged your knees up to your chest, hugging them as you buried your head into your knees. you weren’t sure when, but you started sobbing, cries muffled by your legs as you gripped even tighter onto your legs. you just wanted to hold her, you just wanted her here,

your light was gone, whatever hope you still had in you left the second she did.

after a while you lifted your head up, tear stained face facing up towards the sky. you laughed. with whatever energy you had left in you to do so, you laughed and smiled as you looked up at the sky. up into the clouds. up into where sasha was. she would want you to smile, to laugh, you remembered that night again, where she told you not to say such sad things when she was trying to enjoy her meat. she would’ve said the same thing now. so you forced out that laugh, forced out that smile. for sasha.

“i kept my promise sasha,”

hopefully, she heard you.

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[word-addict-lisette]

Dear Lisette,

I am back in you inbox, yay! How was your day? How's life? How's school?

I am really mad because we had this piece of work and it was like "pen down your idea on this statement, 'i can do whatever i want on the internet as long as i don't get caught' and i put down my thoughts which were 'this statement is true, i stand by it and you can do whatever you like as long as you don't get caught and don't own up' and then people were like throwing shade at me and i looked at it. I have 5 comments.

My teachers tried to delete it, my classmates literally lectured me and then she read it out loud and the whole class went looking for that one note i made. In the comments, people are spelling my name in caps. It was my opinion, and oh, look all of them are basically hypocrites. Let me just say, these people make me uncomfortable, they don't talk about exactly nice things or approriate things and they are all commenting ( without names too may i add) like "KAT, THAT'S NOT HOW THINGS WORK!" but with my real name and just arghhh.

Also if my teachers wanted me to say, "no, that isn't the right thing to do," or any other answer that the others provided them with, they shouldn't have asked for my opinion. They should have just forced us all to just type the same thing. The other people all wrote like, "no, its unethical and bad" or "False, no, its bad" and stuff like that, filmsy evidence and elaboration. I HAVE MORALS, i am just saying the truth. I feel like the victim of a hate crime. People don't like me enough already, i am a very intresting person, uh, yeah, we are gonna stop there.

Enjoy the rant i guess? I don't know? I am sorry for loading on you but there's a little extra rant so uh, yeah. im just gonna take this out, one sec.

Ok, so uh my teacher was like, next week, we are making pancakes. Fluffy pancakes. It was changed to pancakes without eggs? and now we have to make it ourselves, at home. Where do i get flour? What do i do with the extra flour? I don't know how to cook at all, my partner who has been extremely controlling and like kinda driving me insane, ( ahem i did the whole coursework) also she uses my friend's name for everything? Like, bestie i was literally helping out and you went all, "Oh you don't want (friend's name) to see you burnt right?". Obviously i don't but if i burnt down my house, she wouldn't be surprised. I BURNT MYSELF LAST YEAR, SHE SAW ME BURN MYSELF. Well, my friend burnt me and then the week after that, she burnt herself.

This happens a lot. Also, the very common questions and statements of, "Are you straight?" , "aren't you and (friend's name) dating?", "you guys would make such a cute couple" , " aren't you bi?" and "i thought the two of you were dating," there is nothing wrong with being bi but i am not attracted to her like that. So, they use her for leverage over me to get me to do what they want and also think im dating her? If we were dating, we would both be homeless. I like my house. This doesn't only happen with her. I once got shipped with my brother. I hugged him and some guy was like, "oh you guys like each other," that was awkward. Can i just add, a lot of people like majority of that community know we are siblings.

I also get shipped with his best friend, thanks to a rumor my brother made up. So, sometimes, i would get like comments like, "oh, you like him" or "(brother's name) told me that you and (brother's best friend) are dating," we are not dating. WE ARE JUST REALLY GOOD FRIENDS. I LIKE A FICTIONAL CHARACTER. LEAVE ME ALONE. Also, everytime i have a picture of a guy on my phone or something my cousin just has to tell my brother. THEY ARE STREAMERS. ONE IS OF V FROM BTS SO I CAN TRAMATISE MY FRIEND.

Everytime i cry, someone comes in my room. It is so annoying. LEAVE ME ALONE, I WANT TO CRY. This is why i started reading sad books, listening to sad songs, watching sad movies so i have a reason to cry. There was this once, i wasnt selected to be part of my choir's competition and i was sad about it because i didn't feel good enough. THEY SAID I WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH. So, i cried but it wasn't enough so i read the saddest book i could find so i had a reason to cry but by that time, my feelings were gone. This is why i get breakdowns when im overwhelmed because of all this. You know how old i am. I have to deal with this and the pressure of always wanting to be perfect. What else can i do? I am not pretty or smart or talented or have friends, i have like 6 friends and nobody ever keeps me company. So, i focus on being perfect. 100%, i deal with not having any attention because my parents didn't pay me any attention just because i was "independent" or something?

Did i mention, i babysit all my siblings? I am the second child. I baby-sit my older brother. I am sleep-deprived because i can't sleep well at night and i constantly worry about everything and i have to take care of all my friends and it is so exhausting. Yet, i can not cry.

Thanks for staying with me through whatever that was. Uh, yeah, i took the quiz and got chaotic academia. That is my aesthetic. I really want one of those fancy skirts they wear like on pintrest and stuff? Like you know what i mean? The academia skirt? Yeah, i don't have one yet.

Question of the day, what is your dream profession or you could answer my other question which is what would you want to look like? Or you could answer both?

Ok, thank you again. i am gonna go study. Love and hugs and just literal joy sent your way!

- Kat, the ultimate dino mom of Leo, Billy Bob, Jessica, Sophie, Jackson, Sarah, Lily, the Micheals and all her other kids. (Jessica, Sophie and Jackson are mailboxes and Lily is a computer, Micheal is my screwdriver and laptop pencil, there are two micheals.)

Dear Kat,

It's really good to see you in my inbox. I'm sorry for replying late, but exams really had occupied my schedule today and I got my Saturday exam tomorrow. This week is going to be stressful and today's day has been pathetic. I had nothing to do except study and write exams. I feel like I haven't really been social recently and That I'm losing touch with people that I used to be close with and basically I'm letting overthinking take over my mind.

That is so sick. Why is someone's genuine opinion bothering them so much? I totally wouldn't be able to tolerate that. They ought to understand that there is a fine line between a fact and an opinion, and what you stated was just an OPINION. they have no right whatsoever to come at you like that. I totally agree... the teachers ought to have not asked for your opinion if all they desired was a particularly specific answer which opposed the statement. one of the reasons I hate the schooling system has to be THIS. people who are putting comments like that ought to realize that what you stated is exactly what they do in real life. They just want to be seen as the good kid here. At least you have the guts enough to speak the truth.

Miss! You don't have to worry about ranting out to me. You can rant to me for days and I'd still listen. Just go on ranting nobody is stopping you.

Ahhh! I've had that happen to me. I really understand how tough that can be. I really really hate being shipped with someone who I am just platonically friends with like you've got no valid proof to believe that we are romantically involved with each other. I've burnt myself plenty of times too. It's not a pleasant experience. Plus I also hate having controlling partners. Cause all they do is boss you around while they are barely doing a thing. It sucks.

Why? Just why? Why does it even matter to them? Who you date and what your sexuality is, is none of their business. I have no idea why people concern themselves with topics that really don't involve them. It's like people are just ready to make gossip out of anything. A person can't have a bestie without not liking them? I don't get what's so difficult to understand about that. I hate it when I'm casually talking to a guy and people start shipping us and start spreading rumors of us being in a romantic relationship. Another thing they do is, if a person likes me, they automatically assume that I like him back when I've barely even ever spoken to that guy. And yes! I like fictional characters! Don't even assume I like any of you fools cause You idiots bully me and ship me with total crackheads... And my standards are good enough for me to not include you guys in my list of *appropriate candidates* which consists of non-existent people.

Similarly, the moment I'm chatting with some guy, or like have a pic with someone on my mobile phone people just assume that fact that I'm crushing on him. Like no! I don't. We are friends... the others are celebrities, Why can't you understand that? I can't imagine how thick their skull must be considering they can't let a small statement like that sink in.

The crying thingy... I feel personally attacked. Nobody lets me do anything in peace, let alone crying. I literally use the washroom in my room and even my sister comes in there just banging on the door asking me to get the heck out of there and go somewhere else, like can't she use the other two washrooms or what? I like listening to sad stuff and reading angst cause somehow or the other it calms me down... it makes me feel at peace cause I know I'm not the only one who feels like crying. I've got a lot of friends, nobody remembers my birthday, I remember all of theirs'. They don't even text me, It's always me who takes the first step. All my friends just want me by their side cause I'm a smartass they want to show off as a trophy and cause I've got much better sarcasm than them. They just want to benefit from me. That's all. GOD, I'm not pretty at all. I look like a random idiot all the time. I look pathetic. And I lack talent... And you! I warned you, miss! You are pretty, beautiful, talented, smart, friendly, caring, kind and THE BEST!!!

I've never been given attention. Never ever. My sister has always stolen the spotlight. And I hate it. Not even my friends acknowledge me, my parents just ehhhhh. No matter how good I score, No matter how good I behave, No matter what. I'm just never good enough. My parents think of me as a rebellious kid. And I don't know what to do about that. All I've ever done is listen to them. My parents never allowed me to go out and play with my friends when I was a kid, they never let me go on overnight trips, and they barely let me spend time with the few friends I have. They never let me go to outings my school friends planned. Despite that, I never complained. I never had good friends because of that, yet I never complained. A lot of kids my age roam around in shopping malls by themselves, have sleepovers, spend money, roam around with tons of makeup on their faces, are in relationships, and even get into illegal shit. I've never done anything Like that. And yet... I'm never the good kid. I'm still the rebel.

I've got to take care of my sister almost every day. Get her to study, study myself, take care of myself while tolerating my grandmother. I really don't like my grandma, she s very fussy and just keeps yelling around the house the moment my dad and mom leave the house. I've got sensory overload because of her voice. And now I sit and have an anxiety attack almost every time she speaks. I've always got to strive for perfection as well. And I too can't sleep well at night just cause all the worries of the world, keep weighing me down.

Chaotic academia sounds good. It's the same aesthetic my sister got when I asked her to take the test! And oooh! Me too! I love those skirts and outfits they show on Pinterest. I'd love to have them someday.

My dream profession has to be that of a writer. Or perhaps even running a library. just something cozy. Ohh! I'd love to have brown hair, and I'd want to be tall just a little shorter than What I am right now. I just reached my father's height yesterday. And more or less, I'd like the rest to stay just as it is. and perhaps a lighter shade of skin tone. What about you though?

My question for you! If you were to be stranded on a beach island for a week. Who would you bring with you and how would you spend your time there. You can include whatever elements of nature you want to include like forests, lakes, and all.

Sending love, warmth, hugs, and whatever I have to spare that you would like to you!!!!

-Love from Lisette

P.S. That's an interesting family you've got, right there!

#kat the eccentric(indeed) #sweet sweet asks #dear kat #love from lisette #long post

[starlit-serenade]

Dance With Me | Chapter 7

💙 Summary: After visiting the members of ONEUS during their dance practice, you find yourself inspired to learn to dance. You ask your friend Kim Geonhak to teach you.

💙 Chapter 7: 2,479 words

💙 Pairing: Reader X Kim Geonhak/Leedo / Characters: GenderNeutral!Reader; Kim Geonhak/Leedo; Son Dongju/Xion; Yeo Hwanwoong/Hwanwoong; Lee Keonhee/Keonhee; Lee Seoho/Seoho; Kim Youngjo/Ravn;

💙 Rated: T for some minor swearing / Warnings: Minor Swearing; Jealousy (Later in the fic) / Genre: Fluff; Minor Angst (Later in the fic); Friends-To-Lovers; Happy Ending;

《 Series Masterlist // ONEUS Masterlist // Boy Group Masterlist 》

You carry a plastic bag with you as you head into the RBW building. You hadn't told the members that you were coming, hoping to surprise them after a long week of practice. It's been a few days since Geonhak's birthday, a busy yet fun day. At some point, later at night after dinner, Geonhak had pulled you aside to talk about learning the next song--Twilight--and in your excitement, you wanted to come to practice early.

A trainee in the hallway nods to you. You've spent enough time here that you know most of everyone at RBW. You're friends with ONEUS and ONEWE. You're close with quite a few of the trainees, and you've even met the members of MAMAMOO.

You stop in front of the practice room again. The music is playing gently in the background, but instead of being accompanied by the sounds of dancing footsteps, it's accompanied by laughter and chatter.

You place your hand on the doorknob and poke your head in. The six members are sitting in a circle, chatting about who knows what. Something about a new song or something.

"Hello?" you say, knocking on the doorframe. They look over at you, and you hold out the bag of food. "I got you guys some food, if you guys want it."

"Y/N!"

Dongju runs to you, and you expect a hug. Instead, he takes the bag of food from your hand and sits back down in his spot between Keonhee and Hwanwoong, and the three start digging through the bag.

"Wow, I thought you'd be happy to see me, not the food," you say, laughing. Geonhak, across the circle, scoots aside and beckons you to come sit in the newly made spot between him and Youngjo. You do, and smile over at him.

"Excited for practice today?" he asks quietly, smiling widely. "You've got Lit all the way done. And Valkyrie is most of the way there. We should be able to start with Twilight today."

You clap gently, very excited. Geonhak chuckles and smiles his cute, nose-scrunchy smile.

"Geonhak," Keonhe says. "Come with me to finish heating the food."

Geonhak sighs, before getting up.

"I'm excited for this afternoon," you say to him as he leaves.

Hwanwoong looks up from the takeout in his hands, from the other side of the circle. "What's going on this afternoon?"

"Oh, I'm gonna start learning Twilight with Geonhak."

"Oh right! I forgot you're dancing with Geonhak. How's that going?" Hwanwoong asks excitedly. "What have you learned so far, Y/Nie?"

"Geonhak has taught me A Song Written Easily, Lit, and I'm almost done learning Valkyrie."

"Oh?" Youngjo asks. "You should show us what you have done for A Song Written Easily. Let's see how good of a teacher Geonhak is."

You stand up, and Seoho plays the song from his phone. You start dancing along with the music, recalling Geonhak's movements as you watch yourself in the mirror. The members in the room--Yongjo, Seoho, Hwanwoong and Dongju--clap and cheer you on.

Once you finish, you bow as they applaud you.

"That was great," Hwanwoong says. "Geonhak's a good teacher, hm?"

"Yes, he is."

"I'm not surprised. And it shows. You dance like you've been doing it for a long time," Hwanwoong says.

"You said you're working on Valkyrie?" Seoho says. You nod. "Why don't you show us, and we give you some pointers?"

"Alright."

You dance as Seoho plays the song from his phone.

"At that part," Hwanwoong says. "You should bend your front knee more. It'll make it easier to move on to the next part."

You nod, continuing the dance.

As you reach the end of the song, your right hand stretched upward, the members clap for you. You sit back down, smiling from all of the attention.

"So, how'd you manage to get Geonhak to teach you right before our comeback?" Hwanwoong asks.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm just curious about how you got Geonhak to teach you," Hwanwoong says, eyebrow raised.

"Well," you say, "I asked Geonhak because I was too nervous to ask you, actually."

"What? We're friends, aren't we?"

"Yes, but back then we weren't as close as we are now." You laugh at the thought. "But now we're much closer."

"Hey, I'm still open to teaching you if you're interested, Y/N," Hwanwoong says. You open your mouth. Would it be rude to reject him?

But Geonhak is already teaching you.

The sound of a door closing echoes through the room, but you're too focused on the conversation to notice it.

Suddenly, Dongju smacks Hwanwoong's arm and whispers something in his ear. Hwanwoong looks from the door to you.

"Or not. Geonhak seems to be doing a great job at teaching you already, you know," he says quickly. You nod.

"Yeah. Thanks for the offer, though."

Keonhee walks over and hands out the snacks, small tubs of food. He hands you one and you frown.

"Where's Geonhak?" you ask Keonhee.

"He said he was going to the restroom," Keonhee says. He seems to want to say more, but doesnt.

As the ONEUS practice comes to a close, Geonhak doesn't appear. You ask Youngjo, and he seems as concerned as you. The rest of the members pack up to go to their respective spaces after practice ends. Youngjo heads to the studio, and Hwanwoong, Dongju and Keonhee pack up to head to the dorm. Geonhak is nowhere to be found.

Seoho taps your shoulder.

"If Geonhak doesn't show up," he says, "I'll be two rooms down, and Youngjo is in the studio. If you need either of us, feel free to interrupt either of us. Okay?"

"Thank you," you say. He waves goodbye and leaves the room. You're left alone in the practice room.

You pace back and forth. You still have ten minutes until your practice technically starts. Perhaps he went to get an extra snack for the two of you. Maybe he had to get something from the dorm.

But as the minutes pass, you remain alone in the practice room. Five minutes, then ten minutes past the start of your practice together, you're sitting with your back against the wall.

You take out your phone and call Geonhak. He doesn't pick up. You call again, and he doesn't pick up. The third time you call, the phone rings for a long time, and just as you're about to hang up, the other end picks up.

"Hello?" Geonhak's voice is muffled by the phone, but you'd recognize his voice anywhere.

"Geonhak," you say, breathless with stress yet relieved that he picked up. "Where the hell are you? Our practice started ten minutes ago."

There's a long pause. Or at least, it feels long. "Why don't you ask Hwanwoong to teach you?"

"What?" You pause for a moment, trying to figure out what's going on. "Geonhak . . ."

"You know what? I'm feeling a bit sick, I'm going to hang up. Bye."

He hangs up, and you're left alone in your thoughts.

What the hell?

You want to curl up. What is all this about? Geonhak is obviously mad at you for something, but as you think through the day, nothing comes up.

You sniff and wipe your eyes. Your hand comes away wet, and you realize that you're crying.

You stand up, sniffling, and sluggishly make your way out of the practice room, down the hall, and knock on the door to your right. The door to the studio opens up, and Seoho is standing beside the door, hand on the doorknob. Further into the room, Youngjo is sitting in front of the computer. 

"Y/N?" Youngjo asks, leaning away from the computer. "Are you okay? Aren't you in practice with Geonhak?"

You look between them, and Seoho's face falls. He can tell from the sullen look on your face. You two might not be super close, but he still knows you.

"He didn't come," Seoho concludes. His voice sounds as sad as yours. He opens his arms. "Come here."

You hug him, and for some reason, you're crying into Seoho's chest. You don't see Youngjo and Seoho exchange worried glances.

"Do you want to sit down, Y/Nie?" Seoho asks, gesturing to the chairs against the back wall. You nod and sit with him. He hugs you and pats your back gently.

You hear clicking and look up. Youngjo is pressing things on his phone furiously.

"What are you doing?" you ask.

"Calling Geonhak."

You stare at him as he holds his phone to his ear.

"Geonhak, where are you?" he scolds into the phone. There's a pause. "Y/N is waiting for you, why aren't you here? You need to come back. No  Geon--Geonhak! You can't just do that to them." He pauses, and then his voice softens. "They're in the studio with me and Seoho. Geonhak, what's going on with you? Geonhak!"

He takes his phone away from his ear and sighs.

"Youngjo . . . what'd he say?" you ask.

"He told me he's at the dorm. He's not coming back. He didn't say why."

You nod. At this point, you just want to know why Geonhak isn't here. Why he's mad at you like this. You two have argued before, you've been friends for years. So what could you have possibly done to make him suddenly leave you?

Or is this him getting back at you for the one time you left him during practice, because he got too close to you?

"That stubborn kid . . ." Youngjo looks at you and pauses. "The youngest three should be at the dorm by now. I'll ask Keonhee to check on him."

He types a text to Keonhee, then sets his phone aside. He turns his chair to face you.

"Are you okay, Y/N?" he asks gently. "I know these practices mean a lot to you. They mean a lot to Geonhak, too. I don't know what's wrong, but it's not your fault, okay?"

"Thank you, Youngjo. And Seoho," you say. "I don't know why he's upset at all. I think I did something but K don't know what."

"Wait, wait," Seoho says, thinking. "Geonhak disappeared right after you brought us snacks. You only saw him for a bit before he went to help Keonhee with the snacks, before he left. What could have happened in that time?"

You shake your head. You don't know.

Suddenly, Youngjo's phone rings. He picks it up quickly.

"Hello? Ah, Keonhee. He won't? What's he--oh. Please keep us updated, Okay Keonhee? Thank you." He pauses and whispers to you. "Geonhak won't say anything to them. He barely said hello when they walked into the room."

You want to find it comforting. That you're not the only one he's ignoring. You want to think that he might be mad at someone else, one of the members, but not you. But you have a feeling, deep down, that it has something to do with you.

"Y/Nie," Seoho says. "If you want, you can stay here. We'll walk you home after we finish, okay?"

"Okay," you say.

Geonhak sits on his bed, phone in hand. He's watching music videos, listening to music, playing games, anything. Anything to distract him from you. But he can't help but think back to only a few hours ago at the end of the ONEUS practice.

He was so excited to teach you today. He'd practiced extra this morning, redoing the Twilight choreography a few times and figuring out the little things like positioning.

He was elated to see you come in early. He couldn't help but smile when he saw you, both in general and today.

When he had walked back into the room to hand out some of the snacks, he saw you talking to Hwanwoong.

"I asked Geonhak because I was too nervous to ask you, actually," he had heard you say through the crack in the door. He knew this already. You'd told him the same thing when you asked him to teach you. But he doesn't like hearing he was your second choice.

"What? We're friends, aren't we?" he had heard Hwanwoong say.

"Yes, but back then we weren't as close as we are now." Geonhak heard you laugh. He loved your laugh. But he didn't want to hear you laughing with Hwanwoong. "But now we're much closer."

"Hey, I'm still open to teaching you if you're interested, Y/N," Hwanwoong had said. Geonhak froze. Now that you and Hwanwoong were close, there was no need for you to reject him. After all, he was the main dancer.

Geonhak loved teaching you dancing. He loved teaching and being helpful, he loved spending time with you, and this was a combination of the two. But thinking that you could always Hwanwoong teach you instead . . .

Geonhak turned around, closing the door a bit louder than he had intended, and stepped back. Keonhee had nearly walked into him.

"Aren't you going inside?" Keonhee asked, frowning.

"I, uh, yeah. Take these, please, I have to go to the restroom," Geonhak had said, handing Keonhee the food. He walked past him and headed down the hall, straight back to the dorm.

All he could think of was Hwanwoong teaching you instead of him. Hwanwoong offered to teach you, why would you refuse when the whole reason you didn't ask him in the first place was because you were too shy, and now you're closer?

"Geonhak?"

He looks over to the doorway, and Keonhee is standing there.

"Oh, you're home."

"Geonhak, are you okay? Are you feeling sick?" Keonhee asks.

He tries to think of a way to answer the question, but how to do that? No? Yes? He turns away from Keonhee.

"Let me know if you need anything."

After a moment, he hears Keonhee leave the room. He hears speaking in the other room. Dongju and Hwanwoong. Shouldn't he be glad that Hwanwoong is here instead of teaching you?

He starts to think of you again. You must be still with Youngjo and Seoho at RBW. You must be so mad at him for abandoning you before practice.

He's liked you for a long time. Long before he started teaching you dancing. He met you maybe four years ago, and he started thinking of you as more than a friend perhaps two years ago. You'd never seemed to feel the same way, and so he never acted on those feelings. But spending time with you, teaching you to dance, he thought maybe there was a chance that you might feel the same. That maybe you could be more than friends.

And then he'd heard Hwanwoong offering to teach you instead. He felt himself feeling absolutely crushed, absolutely deflated. So very jealous. He still feels that way, that he likes you so much and that to you, you're just friends.

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[raylee-kai]

When You Love Someone - Park Jae Hyung Chpt. 1 (Part 1/2)

Here's the thing.

You hated playing the guitar. 

You were clearly a keyboard/piano person but when you heard that Jae had volunteered himself at the local music shop, you barely hesitate to put your name down on the form for the guitar lessons. It might have got something got to do with the crush you harbor on the guy. 

Your hate of the guitar was mostly because of the fact that your fingers were never flexible enough to press on the strings, how loud and gritty the sounds of an electric guitar echoes and also how there were different ways to play with different songs.

Like what on earth was plucking? 

Why are there different ways to play one instrument? 

It didn't help that there were different ways to tune a guitar. The amount of time you struggled with the tuner was making you regret the decision but as soon as Jae smiles at you and helped you out, you found yourself back in the studio, practicing yet another song on the guitar.

"Have you been practicing your chords?"

You nod, totally forgetting that he was actually asking about guitar chords and not keyboard. He gave a small chuckle and settled in front of you.

"Great, let's see it!"

The next few minutes consisted of;

"Did you tune your guitar? It sounds a little weird.." 

"That's the G chord."

"Bring that finger here and this one here..." 

"Show me A chord..... Uh... That's C chord."

"That's not even a chord."

It was amazing how Jae was never frustrated with your inability to learn the chords because your limit was approaching fast. 

Every mistake you made, you simply want to throw the guitar down and leave but Jae was always there to stop you from doing that. With his kind smile and carefree attitude, you could not stop yourself from falling for him even more. He was honestly your only motivation to learn the guitar.Your frustration was clear on your face but once he ruffles your hair, you can't help it but to come back for the next session. 

"You did great! Just need a little more practice."

Jae flashed a proud smile when you get a chord right was the highlight of the entire lesson.

"That's it for today!"

Jae clapped his hands and pats your shoulder, as if signing to you that you did a good job. Your shy smile made its appearance along with a slight blush but luckily, his attention was on the notification of his phone. He briefly read through and perked up, catching you before you leave. 

"Before I forget, here!"

He held out a shiny silver ticket out to you and grinned.

"Umm... What is this?"

"There's a gig, tomorrow at Club Eclipse. Thought that maybe it would be nice for you to see a few live performances."

You eyed the ticket for a bit before you glance up at him.

"You'll be playing?"

"Not this time but I'll be sure to invite you next time! Pinky promise!"

He stuck out his pinky, wiggling childishly to which you curled with a small giggle. Jae gave you a ruffle on your hair before looking at his watch. 

"I'll pick you up at about 7 at the cafe near school?" 

"You have a license?" 

"Only one way to find out right?" 

He winked, smiling while you tried to bite back your smile. 

You might have went all out in trying to find the perfect outfit which had Seungmin groaning in pure annoyance at the fact that you just practically dumped a bunch of clothes infront of him. The amount of times that you ran into his bedroom's toilet and came out with a new outfit had him regretting his friendship with you.

As if he could break a childhood friendship that easy.

You and Seungmin met each other at a piano recital when the two of you were younger. Ever since then, it was as if it was fated for the two of you to be friends. Both of you kept getting into the same classes, courses and school with or without planning on it. Plus, it did not help that Wonpil, Seungmin's brother, was your partner for a piano recital which made the two of you even closer.

"Are you seriously doing this at my house?"

"I need fashion advice."

You pouted, turning away from the mirror for Seungmin's view. He barely gave you a glance and scoffed.

"Stop pouting. You ain't cute."

You pouted even more at his harsh words but it was just a Seungmin thing to do so you weren't offended in the slightest. 

"Why aren't you asking Hyunjin for fashion advice? He is better than the rest of us at fashion."

"YOU'RE A GENIUS, SEUNG!"

You immediately grabbed your phone and called Hyunjin over to Seungmin's house. It didn't take long for him to arrive but not alone.

"Who invited the sunshine twins here?"

"We are here for mental support!"

"Get out of my house."

"Why do you like Jae anyways?"

Felix's question threw you to a state of flabbergast.

"Why Jae?"

Jisung added on, while Hyunjin was picking up outfits and trying to pair them together.

You sat on Seungmin's mattress much to the other's displeasure and thought about it to yourself. 

At first, it was the smile. You always thought that Jae had a cute smile with how he smiles with his eyes. He had a variety of smiles from the playful mischievous grin to the tired yet blessed smirk. It stays in your mind every time and you could not help feeling warm seeing his smile.

"Who's that?"

You asked Seungmin, who had been re-reading his script for the tenth time that day. Your dear friend was a part of the MC line up for some after school event which he was extremely nervous for which was why you, his dear friend, was there to cheer him on.

"What?"

"That blonde? I don't think I had seen him before."

"Oh, Jae?" 

You raised a brow as if trying to get him to explain more. "He was a student here, my brother's senior. They called him back to help us with the event."

Your attention went to the blonde who was joking around with some of the MCs to calm their stage nerves. The way he threw his head back to laugh caused you to smile a little.

"Cute."

Then, you fell for his personality. How friendly and welcoming he was with everyone, how thoughtful to those he held those dear and how mature and gives the best advice at times. He was like a canvas with similar yet different shades that you would only realize after looking closely.

Jae was not close to Wonpil by any means. 

It did not mean that they hated each other or anything but it is just that their friend circles never really clashed. So, Jae had no reason to protect Wonpil like he did that one time during his third recital. 

During his third recital, the seniors had Wonpil running around, forcing him to do stuff which would make him late to the recital. They went as far as to cut his formal clothes causing him to turn up with red slick back hair and blue button up which had caused a ruckus among the audience and judges for not being professional. But without a doubt, he was able to pull a performance that had the audience crying and reaching out for their tissues. 

Unfortunately, Wonpil was disqualified and was banned from joining in another recital in the event hall for not being "professional" and was reported for "harassing" the seniors that he had helped. 

That had caused you and Seungmin to fume in pure anger with how you had seen Wonpil going around to help the seniors, even going as far as to cut his practice time. 

It was the first time you saw Wonpil getting upset that he walked away. 

You and Seungmin were about to storm into the judges when Jae reached before the two of you could and provided them with evidence and eyewitnesses of the seniors bullying Wonpil and forcing him on errands. You watched in pure amazement at how the older glared the seniors down. 

When you asked why would he stand up for a total stranger, his reply would always be the same. 

"Why not?"

After, you just could not help but pay attention to him no matter where he goes. It's like your eyes would constantly be searching for him. There was just something about his presence that made you look at him in amazement. 

What do you like about Jae?

"I don't know. I just like him."

You should probably trust Hyunjin more than you did because the outfit he put together really looked good. Not only you looked good but you also feel good in the outfit. So there you were with nervous jitters waiting outside the cafe for Jae, typing at your phone furiously, trying to calm yourself down. 

Millennium Line Unite (5)

Memelix : Still cant believe u got boss to give u today off

Memelix : On short notice

J.ONE : Not fair :(

SeungSky : I dont get y u guys complaining

SeungSky : M covering her shift 

SeungSky : If anyone want complain it be me

                                                    lmao he saw my ticket 

                                                    he just send me off 

Dramallama : boss said you need friends 

Dramallama : hes sad Minnie is ur only friend 

Dramallama : WHO TF CHANGE MY USER NAME 

Memelix changed Dramallama to PrettyJinnie 

PrettyJinnie : Aww

PrettyJinnie : Thanks baby

Memelix : Anything for my Prince 

J. ONE : my eyes

J. ONE : NEED BLEACH

SeungSky : No flirting 

SeungSky : Not in this christian household 

Memelix : jokes on you

Memelix : im catholic 

SeungSky : And Jisungs a rapper 

Memelix : ??? 

J. ONE : ??? 

PrettyJinnie : ??? 

                                         ??? 

SeungSky : it means idgaf 

                                        Ouch

                                        taht got to hurt 

SeungSky : Idgaf bout ur date either 

                                           :(

SeungSky : u made me work on my off day 

SeungSky : u officially out of my friend list 

J. ONE : at least u were in his list 

SeungSky : Han 

SeungSky : stfu 

Oh shit oh shit oh shit

Jae here gtg 

wish me lcuk

Memelix : Stay safe 

PrettyJinnie : Use protection 

J. ONE : good lcuk 

Private Chat : SeungSky

SeungSky : Text me ASAP if somethings wrong 

SeungSky : Don't accept drinks from strangers 

SeungSky : Stay close to Jae hyung

                                        Must u do this everytime 

SeungSky : U only have one braincell

SeungSky : It worries me that u dont have common sense 

                                        I do have 

                                        hope I dont make a fool of myself 

SeungSky : Tough words for a clown like u 

                                        f u 

"Coming in?" 

Jae's voice hollered from the car as you look up from your phone. You darted into the car taking the seat next to the driver's and greeted him casually. You tried to avoid his look, considering how he actually put effort in looking good and you could barely stop yourself from combusting at the sight. 

"Looking good today."

"Thanks. You too, Jae. It's been awhile since I saw you in something other than a shirt."

"That's cause I'm usually half awake and late for work."

"Well, does that mean that you are late everyday?" 

"Hush now little one."

Laughing quietly at his words, you guys started talking about random things and before you know it, you were already there in the club.

"Nervous?" 

He asked, seeing how you hesitate after parking the car nearby. An arm over your shoulder had you calming down almost instantly. It was as if just knowing that Jae was there brought you calmer. 

"Is this the wrong time to tell you that this is my first time going to a club?" 

"You mean to tell me… you're a club fetus?!" 

You giggle at his dramatic scandalised face and playfully pushed him away. He laughed and placed his hands on your shoulder leading the way. 

"Don't worry and just stay close."

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Close As Strangers (Vince Neil x Reader)

Requested:

@antheasnow

Summary:

Vince calls you one night completely wasted. He ends up cheating on you and you hear it through the phone. Vince does everything in his power to make it up to you.

Warnings:

Fluff, language, angst

Song the title is based off of:

Close As Strangers

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You throw your bag down on the floor once you get into the house that Vince bought not but four months earlier. He'd only gotten to spend a month in it and then he got sent back onto the road. You miss him a lot. Late night phone calls just aren't working for you anymore. You need him with you now. Holding you. Kissing you. Doing other things to you.

You miss his smile, his laugh, the way he knows how to treat you like a princess even when you're yelling and screaming. Things just aren't the same without him here.

Here recently, every time he calls he's wasted out of his mind or the boys are yelling "hi" at you as you try to talk. Man, you love those idiots, but they're so goddamn annoying. Mick would get them to shut up. Vince just seems distant, and you hate it.

You feel like you did something wrong. Maybe you're being too clingy? Maybe he found someone else? Maybe you weren't doing enough before he left?

So many questions with so little answers.

The phone starts ringing as soon as you sit your ass down on the couch.

"Goddamn it," You mumble.

Nevertheless, your heart beat picks up. You hope it's Vince. You've been missing his voice all day. You get up once again and head to the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey baby!" Vince slurs. You can see a goofy grin on his face.

"Vince, how wasted are you?" You ask, tired of this.

"None! I'm perfectly fine."

"Vince," You groan.

"Calm down, babe. I'll be home in two weeks," He says.

You feel your mood shoot up. "Really?!" You nearly squeak.

"Yep! I'm coming home baby!" He laughs.

"That's awesome. Vinny, I mi-." You're cut off by the faint sound of a woman's voice. "Vincent who is that?"

It's like he doesn't even hear your question. "Not right now," He says to whoever's in the room.

"Vince-."

"I'm on the phone with my girlfriend," He says, sounding further away from the phone.

"Vince," You say louder.

His voice is muffled. You can't hear a word he's speaking.

Tears spring to your eyes as his soft moans drift through the phone. You hear the woman's voice again. Tears start rolling down your cheeks. You hang up the phone, standing there in shock. You knew something was wrong. Who knows how many times he's cheated on you now?

You feel numb and like you can't move. There's one thing you know for sure. . .you need to get out of this house.

You go upstairs to what used to be you and Vince's room. You pull down you suitcase and start putting your stuff in it as quickly as you can. There's no rush because he won't be home for two weeks, but you just want to get out of here.

An hour later you finish up. You look at the nightstand which has your favorite picture of you and Vince for your two year anniversary.

It has Vince holding you from behind, a huge smile on his lips and his face nuzzled in your neck. Your hands cover his. Your head is turned to look at him and a huge smile is on your lips as well. You both look in love. He's obviously not in love with you if he can cheat on you.

You glare at it. The anger starts coursing through your veins instead of overwhelming sadness. You grab the picture and throw it against the wall with an angry scream escaping your throat. The glass shatters on impact, making it glitter all over the floor.

Your eyes widen. You're not an angry person. You're very calm and don't let anything get to you. This has just sent you over the edge.

You go to start picking it up, but you realize something. He can pick it up his goddamn own. He caused you to feel like this. He can deal with the aftermath.

You pull your suitcase to the front door with bags hanging off your shoulders. You set them down and go back to the phone.you dial your best friend's number.

"Hello?" She answers.

"Hey, Chrissy," You say, trying to keep your voice level. "Would it be alright if I stayed with you for a while?"

"Of course!" She pauses. "Don't you live with Vince?"

"I'll explain later," You say lowly.

"Okay. The front door will be open," She says, not pushing you any further.

"Okay." You hang up the phone.

You go to the front door, picking up the bags you set down and the bag you threw down when you got home. You take one last glance around the house. You look at the pictures of you and Vince. You were so naive. You knew he was a ladies man the moment you laid eyes on him. You were just dumb enough to fall for it.

You walk out of the house, not looking back.

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Two weeks later and you've finally gotten all your things from Vince's house. Just in time too 'cause you saw Nikki's car with all the boys in it not too far from the house. You really hope none of them recognized you.

You have to go into work today, so that's what you did. You manage a tattoo and piercing shop not too far from Chrissy's house.

You walk in. The smell of rubbing alcohol nearly burns your nose. You make everyone keep the supplies clean. You wouldn't want to get a tattoo that's infected because of the stupidity of the workers. You have no tattoos, which is odd since you work at a tattoo parlor.

You smile at Sebastian and Colin who are sitting at their chairs, ready to work. Sebastian doesn't have any tattoos either, but Colin on the other hand has sleeves.

You go into your office. A shit ton of paperwork is calling your name. You start on it, but you soon hear yelling from outside.

"You can't go in there, dude!" Colin says.

You furrow your eyebrows, but you soon realize who Colin was trying to keep out.

With a head full of teased blonde hair, Vince sits down in the chair in front of your desk.

"`What the fuck are you doing here?" You ask, wanting him to leave immediately.

You hate yourself for this, but you still love him.

"Why's your stuff gone? Is that why you haven't been answering my calls?" He asks. He sounds like he's genuinely confused, but you know that's not the truth.

"I'm supposed to just stay with the guy that cheated on me?" Tears spring to your eyes. If you're not careful, you will have a breakdown.

"I didn't cheat on you," Vince says, laughing as if it's a joke.

"Yes you fucking did. You fucked her while I was still on the phone!"

His eyes widen as if his memory was finally coming back. "I was wasted, (Y/N). I had no clue what I was doing."

"How could you forget me when I was on the goddamn phone?" You ask.

"I'm sorry. It was an accident."

"How can you accidentally put your dick inside of someone?" You laugh bitterly.

"I'm so sorry, baby. I lo-."

"Don't you fucking say those three words. If you really did love me you wouldn't have been unfaithful," You say, tears rolling down your cheeks. "Get the fuck out of here. I don't want to see you again."

He doesn't say anything. He looks at you with sad eyes. He gets up and leaves without another word. Once the door shuts, you allow yourself to breakdown.

You let out all the tears you'd been holding in. Fucking hell.

------

Two weeks pass. Everywhere you go, Vince seems to be there. He'd beg you to go back to him. You wish that he'd just leave you alone. You want to forget him. At one point he even sent you a hundred roses to Chrissy's house. She told you to go back to you. She said it's obvious that he's still in love with you. You almost gave in. Almost.

You get back to Chrissy's place absolutely exhausted. You'd given so many piercings today along with a mountain of paperwork. You just wanted to sleep.

However, Chrissy left you a note on the coffee table.

Meet me down at the beach. We're going to have dinner on the sand tonight. -xx Chrissy

You sighed. Maybe that will help you de-stress. One can only hope. And with that, you go back out the house and to the beach.

Fifteen minutes later, and you arrive there. You get out, looking for Chrissy. Her black hair is hard to see, but you instantly spot the nearly neon shirt she's wearing.

She walks over to you, linking her arm through yours. She starts pulling you down the beach.

"So, what are we eating? I'm starving," You say, forcing a smile.

"You'll see it's a surprise," She grins.

You groan. "I don't like surprises."

"You'll like this one."

She stops at a path that's covered with roses.

"You finally proposing to me?" You laugh, confused.

She laughs, pushing you to go down the path. You do so, looking around at the gorgeous layout.

You finally arrive at a canopy tent thing. You aren't sure what they're called. Standing i front of it is none other than Vince Neil. You cover your mouth with your hand. This is amazing.

"Vince," You breathe out.

He walks over and grabs both of your hands. "D'you like it?"

You nod, completely speechless. No one has ever done something like this for you before.

"I'm sorry. I really am. I was being an idiot. As soon as I realized you weren't going to come back, I felt like there was a piece of me missing. You're my other half. You're my girl. I love you so much. Seeing the way I hurt you, it killed me. I'm so, so sorry. Can you forgive me?"

You look into his eyes you can tell he means it. "Yes. I love you too."

He kisses you deeply. His hands rest on your hips as he pulls you closer. You wrap your arms around his neck. He smiles into the kiss, which makes you smile.

He pulls away. "Now that that's settled, let's eat. I'm starving!"

Tags:

All fics: @the--blackdahlia @sugar-content @sharon6713 @siliwanoel @charlyallise

Vince: @moon-beame

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[softmintmochi]

Genre: Angst

Summary: The biggest day of your life is finally here. You've never been happier in your life. Everyone important in your life is here, glad that you're happy.

Jimin's POV

I sigh deeply as I steady myself, my nerves making me feel on edge. Today is the day. Surrounded by my friends, I feel a sense of security. "Are you nervous, Jimin?" Seokjin pats my back soothingly, and I smile up at him. "Of course I'm nervous. What if I do something wrong? Say something wrong?" I ask, my fingers fumbling with my tie. I groan in frustration, and Seokjin takes over for me, tying it perfectly. "You're gonna be fine. We're all going to be there standing right next to you." He assures me. "Yeah, you've got nothing to worry about. Here, maybe this will calm you down." Yoongi says, handing me a flask. I gladly accept it, taking a swig and letting the liquid burn my throat. The door swings open, Namjoon smiling brightly as he raises his hands him the air. "Alright guys, it's time! Let's go get married!" He declares.

The venue is beautiful. I've seen it in pictures about a million times, but pictures can't even begin to compare to the real thing. A spring wedding in the forest. That's always been her dream. She's been planning this since she was a little girl. The trees towered over us, giving us nice shade from the sun's rays. Rows of cushioned seats decorated in lavender ribbon were lined up, facing the alter, which was also laced in ribbon, also pale pink roses poking out. It was absolutely perfect. I walk around, greeting people, ushering people to their seats, waiting anxiously for it to begin. I check my watch, and it's 20 minutes until it starts. I make sure everyone is seated and as soon as they are, I take my place up at the alter, all of my friends around me. I take a deep breath, trying my best to calm myself. It's time.

The music plays, and the doors of the building open. Taehyung rubs my arm that's hidden from view soothingly, trying to calm me down. Everyone turns as she appears, her father locking arms with her as he guides her. Her beautiful fingers wrap around the bouquet of pale pink roses, her veil draped over her face. Even with the veil hiding her, I can still tell she looks absolutely amazing. She always does, of course, but this is a day I've imagined repeatedly, and she looks even more stunning than I could've ever dreamed. The closer she gets, the more nervous I get. My foot taps unconsciously, my fingers fiddling in front of me. She looks at me, smiling before she kisses her father on the cheek, taking her place up on the alter. Her veil is lifted, and I can feel tears pricking my eyes. She's definitely more gorgeous than I could've ever dreamed of. She's perfect.

I remember the first time I saw her. We were just kids, and she sat in my table group, and I would always tug on her hair or tease her. Whenever I did something to her she'd do something right back, and that set they basis of our relationship. For years we teased each other back and forth, and the older we got, I realized my feelings for her. She would always tell me about what she wanted her wedding to be like, and I always promised her I'd make it happen. Even though I knew I loved her, I was always too nervous to tell her. It wasn't until we were 16 that I finally kissed her, and it was the best day of my life. After that happened, we talked about where we stood, our relationship, and how things would play out from then on. A few weeks later I introduced her to my other friends, and she got along with them really well. Maybe if I didn't introduce them, it would've been me standing on that alter with her.

The day after we kissed she came over to my house, sat down on my bed like any other day after school, but she seemed tense, a bit awkward. "Jimin..." She speaks softly, looking down at my floor, and I start to worry. "About last night, I-I don't think it should've happened." Her words are like a knife through my chest. "I'm sorry, but I really don't feel anything romantic towards you. You're my friend. My best friend. I still want to be your best friend." Another knife. I really don't feel anything romantic towards you. The words ring through my ears over and over. All I can do is smile and nod. "Alright then, best friend. No worries." I laugh, and she smiles. "This isn't gonna make things weird between us?" She asks nervously. "Nah, it's all good. I don't want things to be weird between us." I wave my hand, doing a damn good job at hiding my broken heart. "Oh that's great!" She jumps up, running over to hug me, as she's done many times.

Weeks later we were still hanging out after school, like nothing ever happened. I introduced her to some more of my friends, and we all went to hang out at a park, and from the moment she waved at everyone, Namjoon going the extra mile to get up and shake her hand, I knew I was screwed. The more we hung out the closer those two got, his love for literature and music, his morals and ideals and philosophies matching hers. The whole time, all I could do was stand by. Whenever I wanted to say something, do something to show she should be with me and not him, I couldn't. They're perfect for each other, and who am I to try and stop their happiness?

Somehow I managed to stay composed through the whole service, even smiling and patting Namjoon on the back after they kiss. I have to keep it together until I go home. Please, at least until I get home. Everyone goes straight from the service to the reception, the venue being nearby. The happy couple takes a car while the rest of the wedding party splits up between two vans, bridesmaids in one and groomsmen in the other. When we're finally in the confines of the van, a collective sigh spills from our mouths, and I lean forward, my head in my hands. "You did a great job, Jimin." Jin reaches up, patting my back. A round of agreeing hums sounds through the car, and I sniffle while nodding.

"I can't do this right now. I just need to suck it up." I nod, wiping away any tears that escaped. The van pulls up to the venue, and I hope my eyes aren't red. I don't want Y/N to see me sad. We all get out, Going inside and taking our seats at the large table. It takes about 20 minutes for everyone to gather, taking their assigned seats. I smiled as Namjoon sat down next to me, but on the inside, I was falling apart.

Speech time. One of the many moments I had been dreading since I became the best man. I stand, clearing my throat and tapping my glass, getting everyone's attention. As everyone quiets down, all eyes on me, I feel on the verge of breaking again. Its hard, but I keep my cool, smiling out at the crowd. Guess it's go time.

"Hello everyone. For those of you that don't know me, I'm Park Jimin. Now, I've been friends with Y/N and Namjoon for a really long time. I was actually the one that introduced Y/N to Namjoon. Um, I didn't actually write anything for this, I figured I'd just wing it. Let's hope it goes well." I smile, and everyone laughs. "I don't really have much to say, um, I could tell some funny stories about each of them, God knows I have so much dirt. But, I won't do that. As I look around the room, and saw the service, I can tell you personally that this is absolutely Y/N's dream wedding. Trust me, she told me for years every little detail of what she wanted. Everything looks perfect, and she truly deserves it. Namjoon and Y/N, I knew from the moment I introduced you that you guys were perfect for each other, and I'm really glad you guys are happy. You both are amazing people that deserve only the best. I know it's short, but like I said, probably should've prepared something. I don't think it really takes much to get my point across though. These two are amazing together, and I hope you guys have an amazing future together."

Everyone claps, Namjoon hugging me as Y/N smiles at me. I take my seat, and all the other speeches are done. Mine probably sucked the most, but at this point, I don't really care. I'm just glad it's over with. After the speeches everyone eats and mingles, the music starts to play, everyone hitting the dance floor. The main dances take place, then everyone starts to dance together. Even though dancing is my passion, I decide to stand to he side, watching Y/N as Namjoon spins her around, holding her close to him. She looks so happy, it puts a smile on my face. All I've ever wanted was for her to be happy, and she is.

After a bit, she notices me, waving me over. I put my hands up, shaking my head, but she comes closer, grabbing my hand and pulling me up. I groan in defeat as I start dancing, her sweet laugh ringing through my ears. She's having so much fun. A slower song comes on, and I get bold, holding my hand out to her. "Namjoon, you mind if I take this dance?" I ask my friend, and he smiles. "Nah man, go ahead. I'm gonna dance with my mom." He smiles, patting me on the back. Y/N takes my hand, and I pull her close, my hand resting on her back.

"So, are you having fun yet?" She asks. "Yeah, I am. It's a great wedding. You guys did an amazing job." I smile at her. She beams, and I'm so glad it's finally because of something I did. "You were there to help a lot. I'm so lucky to have a best friend like you." She chuckles. Best friend. That's right. Even now, as her hand is in mine, holding her close to me, I'm still the best friend. All I can do is nod and smile, focusing on keeping composed. Apparently, it doesn't work. "Jimin? You okay?" She asks softly, rubbing my bicep soothingly. "Of course. Why wouldn't I be?" I smile, hoping it helps. "Chim, I've known you since we were five, I think I can tell when something's bothering you." She scoffs. All I do is nod, not saying anything.

It's takes a few moments, until she speaks again. "Is it because of-" "Y/N." I cut her off before she can say more. "Are you happy? Really happy with Namjoon?" I ask. She nods, looking up at me. "Then that's all that matters. I'm happy you're happy." I smile, rubbing her back. She nods, understanding that I don't want to talk about it anymore. The song ends, and Namjoon comes over. "Jimin, mind if I steal my wife back?" He beams. "Of course. Go ahead. I think I might be heading out soon anyway." I say, patting him on the back. "Wait what?" Y/N asks. "Leaving already?" Namjoon says. I smile at both of them. "Yeah, I'm exhausted. I'll see you guys when you get back from the honeymoon?" I ask. "Yeah. Alright then. Rest up, bud." Namjoon nods, patting my arm. Y/N reaches over, giving me a hug. "Thank you Jimin. For everything." She whispers. I pull back and smile at them before waving. I say goodbye to the guys and then wait outside for my cab. I'll be home soon. Finally.

As soon as I'm safe in my home, I close the door with my back, sighing deeply. I slide down the door, and as my bottom hits the floor, I lose it. I hug my knees to my chest, sobbing loudly. I've kept it together for so long, and everything is gushing out now. I'm glad she's happy, but why couldn't it be with me? I'm a good guy. I could make her happy. I'd treat her like the queen that she is. I'd give here everything she's ever wanted and everything she deserves. My body shakes as I sob. I'll never have a chance. I just hope Namjoon treats her right. He's a good guy, so I hope he keeps her safe and happy. I'm glad she's happy.

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[shinkookiefanfiction]

SHE'S MY NOONA

Chapter 22

The after party

The guys left leaving Min ah with her dearest friends for a sleep over. Min ah was overwhelmed with joy and happiness just thinking of the kiss she shared with Jungkook.

"Okay tell us their is something going on between you guys." Her friends demanded answers from her seung her weird act and smiling to herself like crazy. " mwo? Nothing nothing actually." They promised eachother to keep what happened from others. " yah! We are your friends we know everything about you, that weird laugh, smile and also lost in the moment." Shin hye curiously commented approaching Min ah making her lay on the sofa.

" those actions actually tells us that something is up....tell us what happened with you and Jungkook at the roof." Go ara cried demanding answers from her friend as Min ah decided to give in and told them what happened.

" What you two KISSED! I mean...you kissed an idol!!" Go ara cried with excitement " so he revealed he also has feelings for you then you confessed back and then he pulled you in for a kiss." Shin hye repeated making Go ara even more happy " What made you even excited it's not like you are dating him." Shin hye cried " aniyo...it's just like a drama...ooh i'm so jealous." Go ara cried making her shy.

" so are you guys a thing like a couple you know?" Shin hye asked but Min ah didn't understand cause all she knew is that they confessed and kissed but did not like make it official to start dating.

"Yah how come it's just like eating food and not get satisfied with it...Min ah that is the most important part." Go ara adviced " it's okay he can do it some other day as long as I'm with him." Min ah gave herself hope.

" What if another woman grabs of him...how will you challenge that if he's not your boyfriend..Min ah.." "...Yah..I believe in him I don't want to rush things with him despite he's famous and I can't afford seeing him lose something important for him that he worked long for just because of me." She said in sad tone " i'm eager to wait." She then smiled happily to herself as her friends stared at her in confusion but decided to support her.

" we just want you to know no matter what we are here to support any decision you make." They hugged her. " good luck with your handsome looking boyfriend that every girl is willing to have." Go ara teased " not on my watch!" Min ah laughed pretending like a super hero.

The next day

Min ah's p.o.v

I kept thinking what my friends said yesterday. I was in deep thoughts, my little love affair just began but why do i feel a little awkward.

Today my uncle the manager called me and asked me about my grandmother's health " she's okay." I explained more about my conditions but I wondered why my uncle called me today " you seem to have something you want to tell me?" "What about you...I see you also have something to tell me." He asked me

What no...should I ask him if i can date Kookie? Won't it be a bad idea? "Well it's nothing important..What about you?" " Well you remember that variety show you attended with your best friend and Jungkook." He asked making me worried if he discovered I got hurt.

"So what...about it? Did they tell you anything?" "Aniyo look at this." He handled me his tablet making me wonder what it was? I managed to look at the screen and saw pictures of me and a fan page. " yah park what is this?...since when did I start having a fan page?" I got confused

"Well alot of people started following you after seeing you on the show because of your prettiness alot of people watched the show because of you?" He explained making me feel more amused " uncle stop kidding me...you know I'm very serious." "Do I look like I'm joking?" He said seriously

Later

I got out thinking of what uncle said " i remembered your dream of becoming model so some agencies and your dream school at London want to train you to one..so what do you think?" I was so happy my dreams were coming true but thinking about it i just can't leave kookie..." wait...I'll think about It" "yah...isn t this what you always wanted...I even struggled for it and now you need to think?" He cried " aniyo right now there's so much I need to concentrate like grandma and would appa agree with me?" I asked

End of flashback

I had to deliver some songs to the boys in their recording room. I managed to get in the room finding their producer working with their music. I could see the boys in the recording studio singing. The song was really sweet and nice "can you stay here abit and look at the boys I have something to do in a meanwhile." Their producer asked me to stay as he left.

I sat their and looked at the boys till they discovered i was watching them and I waved at them. Jungkook was really happy as he waved at me with his sweet smile. They continued to sing their song called 'Make it right.' It was a sweet song about love, the boys were really amaizing singing and dancing with fun from their heart so as Jungkook.

How could he have such a sweet angelic voice, he then winked at me making me imagine as if he's singing for me. Soon the song ended just as the producer returned on time. The boys got out of the recording studio laughing and smiling at me " so how was it?" Namjoon and Jin approached and asked me as others talked to the producers.

What is kookie doing shouldn't he follow me first? I was really mad my eyes could only fix on him. " Ooh it seems your eyes are enly fixed somewhere else." Jin and Namjoon laughed " mianhaeyo." I chuckled having no excuse that guy after what happened he couldn't even text me at night? I was furious, trying to flirt with me during recording and couldn't even approach me.

" guys i think i need to go." I cried heading myself outside, pabo! pabo! I'm such a fool I stuttered knocking my head just when someone took my arm. I realized it was him he grabbed my arm wrapping himself on his waist like a couple.

" aigoo! Don't knock yourself you'll get hurt." He cried as i hurriedly removed my hand on his waist " Yah!, what are you doing? Are you crazy! What if we get caught?" " I'll protect you." He leaned and whispered to my ear. " yah stop it" i found myself whinning so stupid of me.

I then saw a group of staff women coming when we hurriedly parted and pretended to walk different paths " ooh it's oppa!" They cried running towards him " oppa !" " yah you know i don't like that name." He cried as the women laughed realizing it was a mistake " mianhaeyo Jungkook but can you sign our autograph please?" They asked as Jungkook continued signing giving him praises and gifts.

" What is she doing standing there, aren't you busy?" One asked me as i realised i wasn't suppose to be there. I was about to leave when " hey didnt I tell you to wait for me?" He cried as the girls felt abit jealous from the look of their faces.

We continued walking as i looked at him. He is truly indeed a god with that face every girl is ready to pounce on him. " What? Like what you see?" He teased me again making me frustrated " was what's wrong?" He slowly asked " i hate it when you treat other girls with that charming smile of yours...they'll just fall for you." I complained as he smiled again " What what with the smile?" " you are jealous right?" He smiled leaning close that he pecked me " kyeopta." He said huskily making me nervous once again that i hurriedly left. " stop It!"

Jungkook's p.o.v

I smiled to myself at how she made me laugh. She was really shy did she think I was new to this things? I decided to text her on my phone "hey should we go somewhere at night?" I texted her as i hoped back to the boys happily.

"Yah where did you go? We were waiting for you mmh?" Tae asked " just at the washroom." I smiled at them " you are lying Suga hyung just came from there and you weren't there." Jimin cried " actually.." "lets just forget it and go on with our business." The producer gave us some sheets of paper to give us to practice. " you are lucky but Later." Jimin cried.

It was ten minutes of learning and Min ah never replied back, I was really angry and mad what does she think she is? Ahh ok this girl all this time was I the only one texting? " sir isn't it break right now!?" I stood to ask making my hyungs laugh " it's true our lessons have ended hope you practice that song very well and Namjoon lets meet up after this." Our producers asked knowing that it maybe trouble.

We all departed heading to the cafeteria when Jimin, Tae and J hope stoped me " yah why are you weakening, you are acting strange since yesterday evening we left." Tae asked " why are you even in a hurry?" "Could it be her, Min ah?...I noticed you two acting strange together did something happen?" J hope jumped into conclusion making me nervous.

"Actually something did happen...you two were together last night right?...you both didn t look okay." Jimin commented curiously with a smirk as both of us sat down to eat. My hyungs were already getting on my nervous so I decided to say it to tell them. " jinja!?" J hope happily smiled "so that means you wo are dating now?" Mwo?! " " you didn't ask her to be your girlfriend?" " geesh you are really stupid..What did Min ah love from you." Jimin cried as Tae remained speachless " Tae aren't you happy for me?" I asked " congrats...I was just in deep thoughts." " yah isn't that Min ah with Min woo?" Jimin pointed making me look back and see Min ah walking with that guy Min woo laughing and chatting. My heart felt really sad and angry. I wanted to follow that barstard " yah even if you follow her, she's not your girlfriend." " you can't stop her from interacting with others."

" is it a must to be a couple! Aish." I stood angrily and left making a fuss without being able to finish my food.

I went upto my studio where I stayed there playing my piano thinking about what my hyungs said "should I have to make her my girlfriend?" " what girlfriend?" Someone from behind shocked me. It was Min ah she was laughing holding food " What are you doing here?" I furiously asked "same to you." " yah why can't you leave me just go to that Min woo guy since he's always there with you" I angrily cried but she just chuckled and came to sit next to me.

" Are you also jealous?....kyeopta." She smiled looking at me remembering what I said earlier to her " you didn't finish what I did after that." I nervously said to her " What...you mean the kiss?" I noded " right here you know the glass from your studio is see through?" " it's a punishment for not replying my calls and talking to that dude." I pout my lips but I got a knock " yah that's not what i meant." " What about you...you didn't even text me yesterday after what happened you are really selfish."

She cried making me realize how stupid I was and made me apologize " mianhaeyo it was so stupid of me....from now on I'll always call you mmh?" "I already did all you have to do is eat." She gave me a spoonful of food feeding me.

I was really happy to be with the woman I really love and loved me too. " Min ah can you call me...oppa? If i make you my girlfriend?" I nervously asked her considering her to be the only person to call me that. " eat....oppa my cute bunny." she smiled nervously exposing her cute dimple making me smiled back at her making my heart flutter even more. I promised myself that i will always love this woman infront of me no matter what. "

[uta-no-knb]

Is it possible to get headcanons for Natsuki, Ai, Syo, and Reiji who have an s/o who struggles with adhd/ learning disability and struggles to learn things, but absolutely hates asking for help because when they do they often receive looks of disappointment, frustration, and even backlash from many because they aren't able to keep up with others. This makes them reluctant to work with others because they're scared to let them down, but also afraid of being yelled at.

I”M ALIVE!!

When I saw this request, I teared up a bit; because I suffer with ADHD myself and this touched home a bit; so the s/o in this request will be based on my personal struggles with ADHD and the demons that haunt me.

Anyway, this is a cute one. There is a poem that talks about ADHD (which actually does include stuff on learning disabilities) that I will be including throughout the….CRAP!!! I WANNA MAKE THIS A SCENARIO NOW!!! T__T

ONWARDS!!

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Ai

“God Damn it!” you exclaimed, throwing your hands in the air as papers flew off the piano stand. You have been working on this music theory homework for the past three hours and this one exercise is tripping you up. Yes, you took notes on modes and the different kinds, and even the chart to make it easier, but you were still struggling. You loved music with a passion, but one of the many struggles for you was music theory. All your life, you’ve had issues with learning, and even doing simple tasks; you would forget something immediately, even if you wrote it down, and when you would ask again, you would get reprimanded for it, or looked down upon. Oftentimes, you felt like people treated you as if you had a full mental disability-but you don’t. You simply have ADHD. You know there’s nothing wrong with being diagnosed with this, since there are a lot of people diagnosed with it, but at the same time, you felt as if you’re alone, that you’re nothing but a thorn and an annoyance in everyone’s side.

For one person in particular, you felt as if you were the biggest thorn in their side, and what makes the feeling worse, is that he always has a stoic expression and that makes it hard to understand a majority of the time, and that was your boyfriend.

You knew that you could go to him for help, yet you’re scared that he’ll find you a disappointment, an embarrassment, or even just plain break up with you. He is Mr. Perfect in your eyes; and due to this, you were scared that he would end up leaving you.

“Why the fuck can’t I do this right? It’s not that hard!” you said, as you were on the verge of crying.

“Nothing is ever really ‘hard’ in life,” a voice said from behind you.

.Turning around, you saw a familiar mop of red hair, and the owner had a smile on his face. “Hey Otoya,” you greeted, “Apparently, music theory is,” you said as you pointed to the chart that you were trying to figure out.

Picking up the chart that had ended up on the floor, Otoya took a look at it and just like you was utterly confused.

“Ai-senpai is good with music theory, why not ask him for he-”

“Absolutely not!” you said, a bit louder than you had intended. “I can’t…I just can’t.”

“If you’re struggling-”

“Otoya,” you said, voice shaky but still firm and serious, “You’re the only one who knows, and while I’m grateful that you haven’t told anyone, and haven’t treated me different, I do not want Ai knowing. He’s a professional, a perfectionist, and someone of that nature doesn’t want someone like me in their lives.”

“But you know he’s going to find out sooner or later. And who knows what would happen-”

“I’ll cross that bridge when I get there, but for now, it’s better that he doesn’t know. I don’t want him to think of me as pathetic, and to even yell or be disappointed in me.”

Otoya let out a sigh, running a hand through his hair. “While I know very little about ADHD, I do know one thing, it doesn’t define who you are. “You’re pretty, positive, and plus you’re smart-”

“But not smart enough to figure this shit out,” you sighed.

Otoya inwardly groaned; he knew that he wouldn’t be able to get through to you, since your stubbornness is kicking in (he’s learned the hard way that when you’re stubborn, you could get pissed off easily….and he does not want another slap to the face). “Then I don’t know what to tell you, (F/N), “ he said, turning around to leave. “I know that Ai-senpai’s opinion of you won’t change.”

“Wait, aren’t you gonna help me?”

“Are you kidding? I barely passed music theory.”

“Thanks for trying, but I must get back to this,” you said, as you turned back around to face the ‘demon’ that was placed before you.

“Good luck, (N-N)-chan!” he said, walking away, waving at you from over his shoulder.

The moment he had closed the door to the room you were in, he ended up walking into another person, the impact caused him to stumble back a little bit. Looking in  front of him, he saw no one other than the person he had suggested you to ask for help.

“Ai-senpai, hey,” He said, sheepishly.

“Hello, Otoya, have you seen (L/N)-san? I haven’t been able to find her.”

“She’s in the practice room, struggling with some mode chart,” he said, without realizing that he had pretty much told his senior what you were doing exactly. “But I wouldn’t bother her, she’s really determined to figure it out on her own-she doesn’t need help-”

Ai just stared at his junior with his eyebrows raised. “What are you rambling about?” he asked. “She’s never needed help with theory. Why would she be struggling now?”

Otoya mentally slapped himself, “Nevermind!” he said, briskly walking past him. “I have an interview to go to, so I’ll see you later!” he lied as he quickly turned the corner and disappeared from Ai’s view.

Ai turned his gaze back to the door that was separating the two of you, still confused as to what Otoya was rambling about. He had heard the whole conversation that the two of you were having. You never told him that you had ADHD, and he’ll admit that hurts him; aren’t you supposed to tell someone everything about you when you’re in a relationship?

Walking away from the door to the practice room, he went back to his own room, to further research the condition of ADHD.

A few days later, Ai was in the practice room that you visited whenever you worked on your theory homework; he knew you would be here today since you were still struggling with the modes chart. He was sitting at the piano, passing time by playing his song, “A.I.” - which he found kinda ironic since that’s his name-thinking about the words that he had overheard from your conversation with Otoya.

I don’t want him to think of me as pathetic, and to even yell or be disappointed in me

Why would he yell at you for a condition that you had no control over? He wouldn’t be disappointed in you for asking him for help since he loved music theory; he would instead feel honored that you reached out to him for help since you rarely do.

His playing came to a stop when he heard the door to the room open, and turned to look at you.

“I’m so sorry, Ai,” you say, “I didn’t know you were in here-”

“I’m glad you’re here, (F/N)-chan,” he said, getting up and walking towards you. He saw that you were turning to leave, and it was at that point that he reached out and gently grabbed your arm. “Can we talk, please?”

You let out a sigh, following him as he guided you back to the piano bench; you pulled a chair over, as he straddling the bench to face you. You had so many thoughts going through you head. Was he going to break up with you? Did he notice how distant you’ve been? “W-what did you want to talk about?”

“Why don’t you trust me?” he asked, his blue eyes staring directly into yours, sadness and hurt swimming in his eyes.

“What are you talking about? I do trust you.”

“Then why didn’t you come to me to help you with your ‘theory demon’?”

You were silent; you weren’t expecting to cross this bridge this soon so you weren’t really prepared. “Because you’re so busy with your music and tours that I didn’t want to burden you with something so stupid-”

“You’re lying,” he said, cutting you off, completely startling you and taking you by surprise. “While I do have a busy life as an idol, i never use it as an excuse when it comes to you.”

“I”m sorry Ai,” you say, as your voice gets to be a bit shaky.

“No need to apologize,” he said, reaching out and placing a hand on your shoulder, his thumb rubbing gentle circles. “Please tell me what’s burdening you.”

“I-I can’t Ai, I just can’t-”

“I don’t care that you have ADHD, (F/N)-”

“What?!” you exclaimed, jolting backwards, “How do you kno-I’m going to kill Otoya-”

“I overheard your conversation that day with Otoya,” Ai said, trying to calm you down, “If anything, he was rambling some gibberish about how you can figure it out on your own; it honestly didn’t make any sense.” He saw your facial features shift to what he thought was fear. “Why are you scared?”

“Because I know you’re going to yell at me for being stupid and dependant, and you’re going to see me differently since I have ADHD.”

“I have an eidetic memory, and I don’t recall ever saying those things,” he said, his heart breaking as he saw your eyes start to water, “Why would I think those things due to a condition that you can’t control?”

“B-but my anxiety-”

“While I can’t relate to ever being anxious, I can relate being nervous.”

“The great Mikaze Ai, nervous?” you sniffled, as a smile appeared on your face, “You’re kidding.”

“I am not,” he said, his own expression softening,  happy to see that at least he cheered up you some. “But I’m serious.”

“You don’t understand, Ai. Anxiety and nervousness are completely different things; plus ADHD isn’t something that’s easy to understand-”

“You have a different brain,” he started, “Everything collides, your thoughts, sights, sounds, and due to that you can’t make concrete decisions which leads to you not being able to process things the same as others. How it takes a bit longer for you to do things, and not only is it exhausting for you, but you’re also scared to get things wrong.”

You silently gasped, surprised at the words that your boyfriend said. He pretty much summed up the parts of your condition that you are currently going through at the moment. “But you don’t have it. How do you -”

“Because unlike other people whom you might’ve dated, I can point out all of the good traits you have, and can overlook the negative ones; ADHD doesn’t define who you are, YOU define who you are. You are (L/N)(F/N), the most amazing girl in the world; amazing personality, adorable laugh, and the most prettiest smile, and I embrace everything you yours, both good and bad, because I love you.”

The music materials you had set in your lap fell to the floor as you leaned over and started crying into your hands, the words that Ai had said melted your heart. “I”m so sorry Ai,” you sob out, “I’m such an idiot-”

“You aren’t an idiot,” he says, as he brings you into a hug, “I just don’t like seeing you like this. Just come to me if you’re having trouble with anything alright?”

All you could do was nod your head as you buried it as close as you could to his chest.

Ai rubbed circles on your back, resting his chin on top of your head, softly singing the final chorus of his song, ‘A.I.’, muttering “aishiteru” in a soft voice.  

It was hard for you to open up to anyone about your struggles with ADHD, since you were usually scared about how others would treat you. Yet, here was someone, someone whom you love with all your heart, that has accepted you for your flaws.

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Natsuki/Syo

“Okay, this is how you set a pitch-class set into its prime form, (L/N),” Ai started, as you began to write down what he was about to say. “Put the pitch-class set in its normal order-”

“Normal order?”

“Normal order is a pitch class set reduced to its basic form,” Ai started, reminding you what the definition was, “the arrangement of pitches of a set from low to high; so that the first and last pitch have a span of the smallest possible interval.” To finalize the definition he gave you, he went ahead and wrote down an example.

“Okay,” you said, still slightly unsure about this topic.

“The second step is to transpose that order to that the first pitch class is 0. Then, you will invert the results from what you got from the second step and put the result in normal order. Fourth step is to transpose that result from step 3 so that the first pitch is 0 once again. Then, you compare the results of both sets, and the prime form is the most compact version. It’s quite simple really.”

You stared at the teal haired idol with a look of confusion on your face. “I still don’t get it,” you sighed in defeat. “I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get this stuff.”

“People learn differently,” he replied, “It’s alright.”

“But I know how busy your schedule is-and you’re wasting your only free time helping someone who can’t seem to do anything right. It’s so damn hard to get shit done with how I am.” Sighing, you looked at the idol, slight fear in your eyes. “I’m sorry for wasting your time, Mikaze-san. Please don’t be mad.”

The usually stoic idol’s facial expression softened at the sad and fearful tone in your voice. “I’m not mad at all,” he said, “It’s alright. I don’t mind doing music theory. I do agree that it is tricky at times, but you’ll get it.”

“Yea, and who knows how long it’ll take.” You turned to look at the stuff in front of you, the gears in your brain working overtime trying to figure this out.

“Why don’t you ask your boyfriend for help?”

Natsuki

You froze. “I…I don’t want to burden him-” you said softly, pausing when the idol next to you raised his eyebrow. “I mean, like…Starish is still…learning and improving their talents that I don’t want to take away from that. Plus, i don’t want him to think differently of me.” You tried to hold back the tremor in your voice.

You’re usually good at hiding tremors in your voice, but Ai picked up on it. “He won’t do that,” he said, flicking you in the forehead. “From what I’ve observed, Natsuki is the most outgoing, understanding person that I know. You should honestly tell him what’s going on.”

“You don’t understand. I’ve dated guys with a similar personality to Natsuki,” you started, placing your pencil down, “And they all have been disappointed in dating someone like me or they got angry since I learn at a slower pace. I can’t even count the number of times I’ve gotten into fights.” You looked at Ai again, “I really cherish Natsuki and I don’t want to lose him.”

“___-chan! Try some cookies!” Natsuki said, barging into the room.

The idol’s action startled you, and letting out a yelp, you ended up hitting your elbow against the table.

“Natsuki, please don’t barge into the room like that,” Ai said as he stood up from the chair he was sitting in.

“What are you two doing?” he asked, setting the cookies down. His tone of voice, while holding a happy tone, had an underlying hint of sadness.

“”(L/N)-san asked me to help her with some music theory, so I was offering her assistance,” Ai replied.

“I see,” he said, as his senior walked past him out of the room.

“Good luck, (L/N)-san,” Ai said, as he vanished, leaving you in the presence of your boyfriend.

When the door closed shut, the tension in the air was thick. You and Natsuki stared at each other.

“So…how was rehearsal?” you asked, trying to break and ease the tension in the room.

“It was fine,” he replied, his signature smile on his face.

You noticed, however that the smile he gave wasn’t his usual, sincere smile. “What’s wrong, ‘Suki?”

“Why was Ai with you-alone?” he asked, trying his hardest to contain his jealousy.

“Nothing really happened, ‘Suki,” you started, “Ai-senpai was just helping me with music theory.”

“I see.” You noticed that the tone in his voice held a bit of sadness. “Why didn’t you ask me?”

“I…I can’t tell you,” you say looking away. “I’m sorry, ‘Suki.”

“(L/N),” he said, as he started walking towards you (and startling you since he never called you by your last name). “I’m your boyfriend am I not? Do you not trust me?”

“T-That’s not it at all, ‘Suki,” you defended standing up. “It’s just-I don’t want you to think any different of me.”

“Why the hell would I do that? What’s going on?”

With a sigh, you grabbed his hand and led him to his bed, both of you sitting down. “I don’t like asking for help with things,” you said, looking at the floor, “It never ends well for me.”

“…Care to elaborate?”

“I suffer from ADHD alright?!” you exclaimed, startling both you and your boyfriend.

“Everyone suffers with some form of it-”

“You don’t get it,” you cut him off, looking at him with glossy eyes. “My brain is wired differently; I can’t decide on certain things, making me very indecisive. It’s hard to get my school work done since my mind wanders. I just…don’t process things the same as you. Plus, whenever I ask anyone for help, I just get yelled at or shot down.”

There was silence that filled the room; the blond trying to take everything in.  

“The only reason why Ai-senpai was helping me was because I know he can make sure that I don’t get side-tracked-” You got cut off when you found yourself engulfed in a hug.

“Do you really think that I would hate you for this?” he said, tucking the top of your head under his chin. “I could never hate you. I could never yell at you. I don’t care if you’re different-everyone is. If you’re struggling, just let me help you; thats all I ask.”

You nodded and shifted so you could hug him back.

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Syo

“You know how Syo is,” you say, “he doesn’t really like music theory. Plus, I know that he sometimes has a hard time with his…emotions….and I don’t want him to lash out or hate me.”

“I do agree with you in regards to him having a difficult time with his emotions, however, I do not believe he would lash out at you for something you can’t control.”

“It’s still-he’s still hot-headed and who knows what would happen.”

Before Ai could respond, your boyfriend walked into the room. “Hey Ai, have you seen-” he paused when he saw how close you and Ai were. “What the hell is going on?!”

“Ai was just helping me with my homework,” you said, “He really knows his stuff when it comes to music theory.”

The ‘excuse’ you gave him entered one ear and went out the other; Syo could feel his anger starting to surface and all he could see at the moment was red. Before he could realize what was going on, he was running towards Ai, hand in a fist.

“Syo! Don’t you dare!” you exclaimed, scrambling up and standing in between the two idols. “What the hell is going on with you?”

“I think this is my cue to leave, (L/N)-san,” he said, getting up and power walking out of his own room. “I’ll email you some notes tonight to help.”

“Like hell you will!” Syo exclaimed as the teal haired idol closed the door to his room.

“What the fuck has gotten into you?!” you exclaimed, flicking the blond in the head. “He was just helping me with theory!”

“He was too close!” he exclaimed. “How long has this been going on behind my back!?”

“Just today,” you said, taken back by Syo’s anger. You’ve seen him angry, but never this angry (and never thought it would be towards you). Suddenly, you started to breathe rapidly, and felt your body start to tremble. Fuck, not now you thought, as you felt an anxiety attack start to surface.

Noticing your change in behavior, Syo stopped his ranting. “Oi, (F/n), whats going on?!”

At this point, you ended up feeling dizzy and-still conscious-fell to the floor. Immediately, you brought your knees to your chest and tried to steady your breathing.

Syo got on his knees and placed a hand on your shoulder, still unsure of what to do in this situation. “Hey, just breathe,” he said, the tone in his voice changing completely to one that was calmer. Noticing that just his hand on your shoulder wasn’t really doing much, he yanked you into a hug (which was slightly uncomfortable since your knees were pressed against his chest.

After what felt like hours, you felt your body start to stop trembling, and your breathing slowly got steadier. It was at this point that you just started crying.

Syo rubbed your back, trying to get you to calm down. “Just breathe,” he said, rubbing circles on your back. Once he felt you calm down a bit, he pushed you back lightly, keeping his hands on your shoulders. “What happened?”

“I…I had an anxiety attack,” you said, embarrassed, “It happens when I’m really stressed…..sometimes even without warning.”

Syo immediately felt bad-feeling that he caused it. “I…I didn’t know. I didn’t mean to cause it. I’m so sorry, (F/N).” he said, kissing your forehead. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“It’s embarrassing,” you said. “It all ties into my ADHD.” You looked up and felt your heart sink as you saw an unfamiliar look on his face-as if he’s judging you. “I’m not defined by it by any means!! I’m still sensitive and kind and fun-”

“I never said you weren’t” he said calmly. “I guess I’m just hurt that you went to Ai for help instead of me.”

“No offense to you, but Ai is a better teacher,” you chuckled. “Plus, you’re hot headed and…I struggle with things that are easy for others…and I’ve gotten so much backlash from it that…I got scared you’d do the same.”

“I’m not going to lie, but I’m a bit hurt that you’d think that,” he said, “But I don’t know much about the topic, but I do want to help you. I would never do any of those things. Besides, I find that this makes you unique.”

“…not really helping there, Syo,” you said with a slight grin.

Leaning forward, he placed a gentle kiss on your lips. “Promise me that next time…you’ll come to me for help; whether it be theory, or an anxiety attack, I’ll be there.”

You smiled and, wiping a tear away, you kissed him.

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A few hours later…

Hoping that things had calmed down between you and Syo, Ai headed back to the room. However, he was not expecting the sight that was before him.

Papers were thrown about, crumpled and surrounding the trash can and the smell of what he assumed were hot pockets filled the room. What really grabbed his attention was you, sitting on Natsuki’s bed playing your game console and Syo scribbling away at the desk, grumbling in frustration.

Noticing the teal-haired male in the room, you just shrugged.  

…Looks like he has someone else to tutor (you he didn’t mind, but he didn’t want to tutor Syo.

Just my luck, he thought.

“This shit makes no sense!!!” Syo exclaimed, banging his head on the table hard.

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Reiji

“Reiji-sama!”

“Marry me!”

You inwardly growled at the loud noises of the fangirls that were surrounding the radio station window, where your boyfriend was currently in the process of doing an interview. While Shining allowed for your relationship with Reiji, the only requirement was for you both to keep it a secret, which meant no publically going out on dates (or if you did, then he would have to be in a very good disguise). One of the options that Ringo suggested was for you to be his ‘manager’ and personal assistant, which Reiji of course found amazing.

You were of course fine with that (except the personal assistant part since he took massive advantage of that), but however, this meant that Reiji still had to put on a flirty act with his fans-and although you know that it was an act, you still couldn’t help but notice that some of it seemed genuine, since some of the acts he shows for the fans, he doesn’t show towards you.

So currently, you were outside of the interview studio, where hundreds of screaming fangirls were crowded around the window, giving them clear access to watch your boyfriend conduct his interview.

This now brought you to how you were currently feeling; anger and jealousy. You were extremely jealous of how he could freely ‘flirt’ with his fans and yet, he can’t publically do that to you (you were consistently being hit on whenever you were out and about without him around and that annoyed the hell out of you). Lately however, you’ve noticed that you and Reiji haven’t been spending a lot of time together doing non-work related stuff; you missed the movie nights that you two used to have when you were hiding your relationship from the others (except Reiji pretty much spilled the beans due to how he was interacting with you). It was as if you two were drifting apart.

Despite all of the harsh teasing, you truly love Reiji, and yet, it seems like he doesnt love you back. This feeling really didn’t help your mood at all. You suffered from ADHD and what most people don’t realize is that it causes you to show your feelings more easily than others; you get jealous and angry a lot easier.

Leaning against the wall, you crossed your arms, counting down the minutes until this radio interview was over. You tried playing some games on your phone, but still found yourself getting more distracted and losing interest in the games.

Please let this end! You thought. You just wanted to go home and change into sweats and a shirt and binge your favorite anime, Kuroko no Basuke for the 5th time (not your fault you found the male characters handsome).

“Any final words you would like to say, Reiji?” you heard the reporter say. You immediately got excited and straightened up.

Reiji pursed his lips for a bit and with a smile, began to talk. “I just want you ladies to keep supporting me and Quartet Night as we prepare to go on tour.”

You noticed that he winked towards the girls outside, and you felt jealous again. If you didn’t know any better, it would seem like you’re going out with Ren rather than Reiji-since Reiji was acting a lot like the orange haired male.

This little shit you thought, as you stormed out of the studio and left, leaving Reiji behind to deal with the mob of girls.

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You were settled in your bed, in your favorite sweats and wrapped like a burrito, watching Kuroko no Basuke. You were at the point where Seirin High was facing off against Too Academy for the second time.

The sound of a door slamming brought your attention off of the show and made you look at the entrance to your room. There, you found your so called, ‘boyfriend’, not wearing his usual smile-or saying his usual greeting like usual.

“Can I help you?” you asked. “I really don’t want to be bothered, Reiji.”

“What the hell was that back there?” he growled, “Do you know how many girls I had to fend off?!”

You merely shrugged, “I’m just your assistant, not your bodyguard. Besides, you’re a big boy-and you ADORE your fans after all, so why should it matter if I’m there. By this time, you were getting angry once again and ended up raising your voice when you just spoke.

Reiji stared at you, dumbfounded at your outburst. For the months he’s been dating you, he never once heard you raise your voice. “(F/N), what’s going on? Are you mad at me?”

“Well congrats on figuring that out! Do you want a gold star!?” You sarcastically said back, slightly annoying the male.

“What the hell did I ever do?”

That sentence is what caused you to fully snap. “You act like I don’t fucking exist anymore! All you care about are your fans, and even then flirt with them! You pay no mind to me and are oblivious to my own needs as your girlfriend!” You were full on angry at this point, tears streaming down your face. “I’m pretty much invisible to you! I would think that with you leaving for a few months for your tour, that you would like to spend time with me, but it looks like you dont! It seems like you don’t even love me anymore or even want me as you girlfriend!”

Before you could continue your rant, Reiji strode over to you and, while gently grabbing the upper part of your arm, yanked you towards him and kissed you, hard. The rest of the tears you were trying to hold back were released, completely staining your cheeks.

When Reiji broke the kiss, he stared right into your eyes. “Of course I love you,” he said softly, as if he’s treading on thin ice (which he technically was with you with your current state at the moment). “It’s all just an act. It’s the only way that we can actually be together-remember?”

“I know, but…it’s hard.”

“I know it is, but you must know that I really do love you and nothing will change that; no fans, or even Quartet Night will ever change how I feel about you.”

You smiled, only for that smile to falter when Reiji asked why you snapped at him the way you did. You were really hoping you wouldn’t have to answer his now-let alone tell him about it. “I…I really don’t want to tell you,” you said looking away. “I don’t want you to get mad or be disappointed in me…or even embarrassed.”

“You can trust me,” he said calmly, placing his finger under your chin and turning it towards him. “Just tell me what’s up. I don’t judge-you know this.”

Letting out a sigh, you began to explain to him what the backlash was about. “I suffer from ADHD,” you started, “While ADHD mostly refers to not focusing well, it can also cause my emotions to show more; I get jealous and mad easier. I physically and mentally can’t help it.” You paused and once again, looked away. “I never wanted you to know about this, because these mood swings are apart of me….and you’re just a very optimistic and cheerful. And I completely understand if you now want nothing to do with me.”

There was silence between the two of you for a good while, which was broken by Reiji laughing.

“I fail to see what’s so damn funny, Kobuki.”

“You’re just too cute,” he said with a smile. “I could never think differently of you. You can’t help the fact that you have ADHD. I honestly don’t - and probably never will understand it-but I do want to help you. I love you and I want to do whatever I can to make things easier for you.”

You couldn’t help but smile and, startling the male, jumped and gave him a hug. “Thank you Reiji.”

He hugged you back, resting his chin on top of your head. “I’ll try to spend more time with you.” He kissed the top of your head, enjoying the moment that he was having with you

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Holy shit!! I’m so sorry it took so damn long (This request-without the poem-ended up being 23 pages….thats a lot of words XD) I apologize if it seemed rushed.

Like I mentioned in the beginning, I based these off of my own experience with ADHD-and also based the scenarios with the poem below (which I find explains ADHD very well).

Hope you enjoyed!

~~~~~~~~~~~A.D.H.D.                                                           Take my hand and come with me,I want to teach you about ADHD.I need you to know, I want to explain,I have a very different brain.Sights, sounds, and thoughts collide.What to do first? I can’t decide.Please understand I’m not to blame,I just can’t process things the same.

Take my hand and walk with me,Let me show you about ADHD.I try to behave, I want to be good,But I sometimes forget to do as I should.Walk with me and wear my shoes,You’ll see its not the way I’d choose.I do know what I’m supposed to do,But my brain is slow getting the message through.

Take my hand and talk with me,I want to tell you about ADHD.I rarely think before I talk,I often run when I should walk.It’s hard to get my school work done,My thoughts are outside having fun.I never know just where to start,I think with my feelings and see with my heart.

Take my hand and stand by me,I need you to know about ADHD.It’s hard to explain but I want you to know,I can’t help letting my feelings show.Sometimes I’m angry, jealous, or sad.I feel overwhelmed, frustrated, and mad.I can’t concentrate and I lose all my stuff.I try really hard but it’s never enough.

Take my hand and learn with me,We need to know more about ADHD.I worry a lot about getting things wrong,Everything I do takes twice as long.Everyday is exhausting for me…Looking through the fog of ADHD.I’m often so misunderstood,I would change in a heartbeat if I could.

Take my hand and listen to me,I want to share a secret about ADHD.I want you to know there is more to me.I’m not defined by it, you see.I’m sensitive, kind and lots of fun.I’m blamed for things I haven’t done.I’m the loyalist friend you’ll ever know,I just need a chance to let it show.

Take my hand and look at me,Just forget about the ADHD.I have real feelings just like you.The love in my heart is just as true.I may have a brain that can never rest,But please understand I’m trying my best.I want you to know, I need you to see,I’m more than the label, I am still me!!!!

~Author Unknown

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SHE'S MY NOONA

Chapter 10

At a nearby restaurant

Min ah could only drink her heart out. She never drinks but today it was the right time fir her after being betrayed right before her eyes. She sat there drinking before Jungkook who was sad for her.

Jungkook didn't like the look on her face hence he wanted to cheer her up." Noona, dont be like that, you look very ugly so dont cry." He said to her

"I'm a fool right? Everyone kept telling me that i was deceived but i never believed in them." She cried "andwe! You aren't a fool we were both blinded and deceieved by love so you aren't the only one." Jungkook cried gently holding her hands.

Min ah could just quietly stare at Jungkook's hands "kumaoh, you always help me but i never did anything to fulfill our promise." She sadly stated broken.

"It's okay i understand you've been through alot so as your dongsae i'm ready to wait now smile for dongsaeng." Jungkook sang making Min ah's smile back on her face.

" Noona, do you realize that you are pretty whenever you smile." Jungkook commented as he smiled at her but Min ah suddenly changed into a nervous. She then pinched Jungkook's cheek "Yah!!, are you mocking me you are the handsome one here!" Min ah cried as she just laughed.

Jungkook's p.o.v

It was fun and simple getting her smile back. She was so cute that made me want to be beside her so bad.

Recently I have been even able to write songs because of her, simply to say it she was my inspiration now that I can not stay a day without seeing her.

She then snapped out my thoughts I could sense she wasn't in her right mood since she was all bubbly and cheerful. I just managed to laugh as she cried to forget her x boyfriend.

"Jungkook let's cheer for forgetting my stupid boyfriend and.." "..and for leaving such a beautiful girl." I cried as she smiled and we cheered but later cried. It was so complicated at first till I got used to it I guess she isn't a drinker.

"Min ah since its fireworks festival let's go outside and watch." I insisted as she agreed and we both went hand to hand up to near the Han river beach were couples sat.

I then got a call from my hyungs but I ignored them cause this was the time I wanted to comfort her and myself for betrayal since it reminded me at the past.

We also sat there silently staring at the waves. " You know this was a time I always wished to stay with my true love at the beach during fireworks festival, Omma always told me that you can make a wish when the fireworks are released but it didn't happen, I don't know when will it ever happen?" She sadly said to me.

I felt sorry for her it made me feel like going to beat up that person. "But Jungkook aniyo.." She denied asking making me wonder what she was about to ask. "Min ah your x boyfriend is such a jerk, how can he leave my pretty noona?" I cried looking at the beach as I got a glimpse of her smile.

"You smiled right?!" I cried as I laughed and faced her. "andwe, I didn't do you have proof?" She chuckled.

"Yes I can get proof!!" I cried as I got an idea of tickling her. I managed to tickle her under her arms as she laughed mercilessly begging me to stop but I didn't till.

End of p.o.v

The two tickled each other till they accidentally fell on eachother Jungkook who was above Min ah as they both stared at each other's eyes.

From above the crowd and everyone cheered when the fireworks were released. As the two were far from the world drowning into each other's world.

The next morning

Shin min ah's p.o.v

I woke up from my sleep feeling my head hurt I think I might have drunk a lot yesterday but how did I reach home?..I looked around only to see nothing. I decided to go into the kitchen that is when I saw breakfast on my dinning table covered with a food cover.

I opened and it smelled really nice and there was steak as I smiled then my smile froze after I saw a note written beside it.

Anyeosseo, I cooked you breakfast for your hangover yesterday you drank too much soon I eat porridge first and don't freak out when you go into the kitchen. ;-) Noona.

Jungkook must have written this, was he with me yesterday?! I started asking myself a lot of questions did I say or do anything stupid. why can't I remember it clearly? But why did he say not to go into the kitchen? I got curious and went to the kitchen only to find dirty utensils, it was a mess.

How could that boy leave like this but did he sleep here or did he leave? I wondered. As I got a call from some karaoke bar.

Meanwhile

Jungkook was already back and lately their music video had hit big time and everyone was celebrating. Jungkook was the happiest ever he couldn't stop hugging everyone that everyone thought it was normal except his members. His company decided to have a welcome party.

Meanwhile

At karaoke

Jennie was in deep thoughts as her friends were busy celebrating them being in top 10. Jisoo and Lisa seemed to notice her being upset and in deep thoughts.

"Yah!, Jennie what's wrong with you I thought you came to give up on Jungkook by the way he's too good for you." Jisoo cried making Jennie mad as Lisa stoped her from saying that.

"I can't believe what I saw, didn't he say he won't date!!" Jennie cried angrily throwing things and complaining. "What! tell us you just keep getting mad with no reason." Rose on the other side cried peeping through the door.

"I saw Jungkook with another woman kiss at the festival yesterday." Jennie cried softly as the others gasped "jinja!, that's amazing it seems he moved on." Rose cried sarcastically

"Yah!, Jennie just give up on him already but you betrayed him first." Jisoo cried "he must have hated me because he met another woman." Jennie angrily cried "Wait this woman is she a public figure? She must be really hot to draw Jungkook's attention." Rose said taking a sip from her glass.

"Andwe! I think I saw her somewhere but I can't recall it." Jennie cried "hey girls since its and other staff are in the next karaoke room their manager invited us to join them, aren't you coming?" The manager insisted as the others were happy to join putting make up properly.

Jennie's p.o.v

We both were invited so I accepted but it was very awkward of me. We went in it was a big karaoke room were different boy band such as BTOB, GOT7, EXO, TWICE and Girl's day.

They were having such a good time. Everyone was so happy when We black pink came in as others began cracking jokes. I watched Jungkook from afar even though one member kept on flirting with me. Jungkook seemed not to concentrate or focus on others even after we locked eyes when I got in.

Why was he acting this way? Maybe it was a mistake to what I saw. I decided to cool for once since I planned to win back Jungkook cause I love him.

End of p.o.v

"Yah!, Jungkook we didn't see you when we first came here where were you?" Kai from exo asked as his other members also wondered where he was?

"Actually i was at my friend's." He lied despite knowing ge slept at Min ah noona. "Dont tell me at a girlfriend's. " others laughed and teased.

"Not what you think it didn't...excuse me i have to go to the washroom." Jungkook cried leaving that place as Jin followed.

The other members laughed at him for being clumsy as always. "He was probably with a girl." J hope cried drinking his beer.

Meanwhile

Min ah had alot of appointment to deliver alot of orders so she didn't know who to call since everyone of her friends was busy. So she managed to it herself.

It was one famous karaoke. So she had to deliver her chicken to one place and get money. "Woow it seems that their is an event going on they must really love my chicken." She said to herself getting in carrying her alot of package.

Min ah's p.o.v

I headed keep asking for the room that was having an event. So i headed to where i was told till i lightly bumped into a woman. She was so pretty and with dark hair.

"Yah! Watch where you are going idiot!" She cried angrily as i apologized, i bet I've seen her before i then remembered she was that girl who was talking with Jungkook. She also must be famous.

"I do know you, have we met before?" She asked me as i told her " so you are the chicken delivery girl? By the way what were you doing there i happen to know people like you aren't supposed to be there." She spoke rudely towards me is she crazy, can't i be there.

"Excuse me miss i know you are famous but do you know that I'm a little older than you?" I gently talked to her but she just smirked at me.

"Arasso, we have a party and it seems you brought these for us follow me." She turned slightly making a sexy move. Jungkook must have dated this woman, i can't believe our cute Jungkook would date such a girl she doesn't deserve him. I thought as i carried these heavy boxes of chicken.

We neary got close to the door i saw alot of celebrities my heart neary skipped. I just stared at myself how could i get in what if bts are there, i panicked. " Excuse me my job is to just drop these boxes and leave." I said as she glared at me as i wondered what i did wrong to deserve that look from Jennie.

"So are you telling me to serve them?!" She cried " It's your job anyways just go in you might be rewarded some tips." She said as i felt nervous.

I was about to get in with the heavy loads when i tripped on something, i knew right away it was all her plan to embarrass me to her fellow idols. I saw all my chicken scattered on the floor. I could sense my face getting red and hot as a tear formed from my eye.

"Min ah ssi." I could Tae's voice from the front they sat with some other men "Min ah get up aren't you embarrassing yourself?" I heard Jimin whispering beside me. I couldn't face them everyone kept staring at me. Bad enough i ruined one girls dress as she kept shouting and crying.

"Yah!, don't you have shame you ruined my dress and you are still sitted there!!" Girls day Hyeri cried as she jumped up and down like a child.

"Mianhaeyo, i just tripped accidentally." I cried but she couldn't understand till one of the guys that i didn't know stood up and helped me up since Hyeri was been supported by some of her friends.

"Are you okay miss you look hurt" he asked me with a smile. I then knew it was BTOB Sungjae my favourite idol group. I noded as the bts showed their concerns late. I bet they didnt want me to have any worries and isues to deal with me unluckily. But Jungkook wasn't around.

"What the heck is he trying to be nice infront of that girl?!!" I heard some of the idols mummer baddly about me that's when I decided to ran. Till i bumped to someone at the door as Sungjae was behind me, i realised it was Jungkook.

"Jungkook!" I cried only to realise that i had to act like i didn't know him infront of others since it was for the best bad enough what would a bad looking girl be seen with these idols so i hurriedly left.

5 minutes ago

Jungkook's p.o.v

It was only the time when Jin came from telling me that if I'm seeing Min ah noona it should be a secret since it was best for our reputation and her

"You should know that, you can't trust any of them arasso?" Jin hyung advised me when we were in the washroom.

"Jin hyung i think it went too fast." I said to him having a flashback on how Min ah lightly kissed me thinking i was his x. "So?" Jin cried " i felt so happy at first but thinking about it i feel as if she hasn't given up on him." I cried hopelessly.

Jin could just stare at me and shake his head "what did i tell you? Things should go smooth if you want her to acknowledge you." He advised me making me more confused.

"You are still a child when will you mentally grow up." Jin continued teasing me as we got out and headed back to the party.

I then accidentally bumped at someone at the but i then discovered it was Min ah, she looked hurt behind her Sungjae was holding her hand. Anger then vent in my heart wondering why she came here.

She then decided to leave without saying a word as i looked at her as she disappeared around the corner making me go after her but Jin held me back.

"Yah! Jungkook you should know that people will talk if they see you with her." Jin whispered making me get in. As i kept asking myself why she avoided me or maybe perhaps she remembered what happened yesterday.

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