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gaytobymeres · 6 months
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[crying tears of blood] i will get my sparkle back!!! i will find my joie de vivre!!! i will be creative again!!!!!!!
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Hearing a doctor say “your skin is so soft” is both flattering and terrifying 😂
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mooodyblue · 1 year
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i have so many ideas for things i want to accomplish and concepts i think will work to aid me in doing these things. i’ll be so confident and ready and then suddenly one thing in my brain will trip me up and now i’m having an existential crisis and wondering why and how i’m still alive. humaning is weird.
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basic-enemy · 8 months
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amen
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sweetlittlevampire · 1 year
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Re: the 'clumsy writing' you mentioned on twitter - I suggest you either invest in a good English tutor, or you try writing in your native language. It would certainly help with the clumsiness.
Will you pay for the tutor, oh wise anon? What else do you suggest - that I get my fics, which I write for free, for fun, peer-reviewed before I post them?
Please don't do this to a non-native English speaker. English is, in fact, my fourth language, and I am trying very hard, thank you very much.
(Context: I reread my first multichapter fic this morning - a relatively old thing - and commented on how much my writing skills have evolved since them, calling some of my phrasings 'clumsy' - which they are. Why Anon was too much of a coward to confront me on twitter about it if they saw it there is beyond me.)
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fella-lovin-fella · 2 years
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i really wanna cry hdjsjsjs
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ofduskanddreams · 1 year
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~ jUst AdHD tHinGS ~
Me: goes to write
Me 3 hours later: 57 total words written, entire office rearranged and deep cleaned 👍🏻
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lovelyasteraceae · 1 year
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cw // vent
as tired as i am of suffering in silence, i'm more tired of trying so hard to ask for help, only to be hurt by those who claim they're always here for me. meanwhile they never have been. i can't shut off the part of my brain that tells me help will make things worse, because it hasn't really been wrong before.
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andallthatmishigas · 2 years
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Kinda fucked up to realize you’re not the main character in your own life.
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trash-user · 2 years
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do my neighbours hate me? probably
but in 2 weeks i wont be here anymore so that give me a free pass to be as loud and annoying as possible
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It's been hard lately to muster the will to even function. I flip through the TV channels mindlessly until I ultimately just let the noise drown out mine.
Homework. Eat. Sleep. Self care. A list of things i must do but I rarely do well. I'm always tired. The insomnia and bipolar mania rule this realm. My appetite is lacking and I notice I've lost weight without really trying.
Is this how my life is going to go? I dig deep for the answer to this question but am found wanting. Always wanting but never getting.
Just let me fade away.
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antisocialbutterkat2 · 10 months
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Every time I go on twitter I get slapped 😩
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Chapter 14 of tpwm when?
Aha, soon! Like usual, my weekend was pretty busy, so I decided against editing and focused on getting my work done. I also wasn't feeling very well so I spent most of the weekend that I wasn't doing school work in bed, resting. Posting on the weekends is becoming a bit of a challenge to me, thanks to the fact that my school work is due on Sunday, and I've always been of the mind that "due Sunday" means "DO Sunday," you know what I mean??? Basically, I am not at all like Taka, ha. But it works for me, and I'm often not rushing to finish the work. It just takes most of my evening.
However, editing during the week is challenging too, since I have work with children all day and by the time I get home, I'm not in the right state of mind to be editing my work. I also got some worrying news today from some lab work I had done by my doctor (nothing super major, I don't think. but definitely worrying to me, a professional worrier), and right now I'm a bit preoccupied with that, so... I don't know. I can always just post chapters without editing them one last time, but I dislike doing that, since it's a sign that I've given up on the story and have lost interest. Plus, these later chapters have barely been edited by me, which means they probably need these last minute run throughs to catch errors.
So, all of this just means that, for the foreseeable future... I think updates will be a bit more sporadic. I will try my absolute hardest to not go longer than 2 weeks without an update, and if I ever do for any reason, I will definitely let you all know in advance. I'll try to keep to posting on the weekends, hopefully Saturday? Maybe? But I don't know. Things are very up in the air for me right now. I'm just feeling a bit stressed out by everything in my life right now. I'm nearing the end of my grad program, and now I have the terrifying realization that getting a job in my field just might be impossible. Luckily I do have a decent backup, which is working up in my current job, but no matter how high I go the pay will never be THAT great, so... yeah. Lots of stress. I've also not been sleeping well ever since I had COVID, and last night I got maybe 2 hours, which hasn't been helping much.
More than anything else, I will always put my health and well being first, so while I know it can be frustrating to not know when I will post, there isn't much I can do about it. I hope y'all can bear with me and know that I'm doing my best with this all. So... yeah. I hope this didn't come across as snappish, I'm just so freaking exhausted right now, oof.
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the-tired-commander · 6 months
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hey could y'all do me a favour?
Reblog if you're okay with "weird" compliments on your stuff!
things like "biting this" and such
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despairingethics · 2 months
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i get so tired easily and it makes me feel embarrassed
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