#i really cant think cuz im brain dead rn

[nerves-nebula]

2012 has so much room for character analysis. And analysis in general.

I watched it when It was coming out on tv and have been rewatching it for the past couple months very slowwwllllyyyy. Shshsbbdd

Anyway I'm just getting nna ramble my analysis in your direction.

Starting with Mikey! Par tof the reason people sorta cling to Mikey I think is cuz like, splinter sorta ignores him.

It's this sorta odd thing going on where we have scenes like splinter telling Donnie to act more like Mikey cuz he's thinking to much and it's impeding his abilities cuz he's overthinking. Which, is an attempt to address Donnie's anxiety albeit in not the best way but it sorta worked?

Which means splinter is acknowledging mikeys fighting prowess. And that Mikey not thinking to hard and just doing is a good skill to be able to execute.

But ALSO, we get a scene of when the boys first got their weapons, and splinter tells everyone why they're getting what weapon, and why they'll enjoy it. Except Mikey. Mikey just gets nunchucks. Which, is dead ass the hardest weapon to wield there so what the fuck dude?

And Mikey is, so fuckin smart. His brain just in Canon goes too fast for him to remember words and shit. He's so adhd frfr

But Leo is dead ass the golden child. Like, everyone asked to be leader, cuz they are teen boys, but splints chose Leo cuz "he asked for it" and then instills all his ideals in him! He's treated like he's the best at everything and is expected to be the best at everything AND to care for his brothers. And he can only feels like he doesn't really have a life. Which leads into the whole Leo develops a crush on his half sister while not knowing she's his half sister nonsense.

Donnie is just, he's the smart one. He's stressed all the time, but also a. Fucking simp who is never reprimanded by his dad for how he treats april, which he really should be! Having mindmap of every possible way an interaction could go with her is creepy! And literally stalking her!!!! Donnie's also the one who deals with Timothy and he gets in trouble for it with splints despite not even wanting to be dealing with it himself. It's a mess.

Raph has just, obvious anger issues. And splinter does not address them in a healthy way frequently. It's a lot of, "just breathe" and Raph is just: "I want to punch someone or something yesterday."

OH and splint sets his brothers shoot him with plungers while yelling at him and roah like, has a whole ass panic attack. That manifests aggressively cuz raphs anger oh so obviously comes from anxiety. But splinter like never picks up on that.

2012 splints treats the boys like students more then sons ALOT. But also cares about them enough to do shit like, break brain control cuz he didn't wanna kill them ✌️

I could probably word that better but I'm still a little high on laughing gas rn cuz I just had a dentist appointment.

yall be out here writing fandom dissertations & shit after going to the DENTIST yknow what I do after going to the dentist??? lay around in mild agony cause my sensitive ass teeth hurt...

anyway these are fun times.

i still cant get over the fact that i made my neglected turtles stay underground and never go out as a way to reflect my weird family isolation as a kid and then i watched the first ep of 2012 and it was like "yea they're fifteen and they've never left the sewers. they only know each other" and im LIKE!! WHAT!! THEY'VE LITERALLY ALMOST FINISHED PUBERTY AND THEY NEVER LEFT THEIR HOME???? THEY ONLY KNOW EACH OTHER????

i dont think the writers understand how fucked up that makes you and your relationships to people and its just like a part of the turtles story i guess???

LIKE THINKING ABOUT IT, I GET IT, and im sure thats how it is in a lot of tmnt iterations, but thats crazy. these boys would be so fucked up irl.

sorry for the ramble i just aint got much to say about ur analysis, cant say if i agree or not cause i aint even watched much 2012 lol.

#nnstuff #ask #tmnt 2012

[transgenderdragons]

mushroom sly backstory!!!!!!! tw for general gross fungi shit, kinda body horror-y, etc

Some Guy, in ye olden times, is just fuckin around with fungi and makes this crazy powerful fungi! the ultimate life form!

it eats him

(not really lol)

it takes over his body and uses him as a vessel to spread to lots of other people

(since obvi no one at this time has special healing powers like sly, the fungi reaches the Brain Controlling point pretty fast)

the fungi basically decimates the town

a few brave survivors manage to kill everyone who was infected, the fungi on them kinda just. dissolves away

except the originally infected guy. idk why maybe bc he was the first one to be taken by the fungi so its like,,,, hardier or something

(hes basically dead but the fungi still seems healthy)

they smash his head into a pulp and bury him

"Phew! Thank goodness that's over with" they say! "No one will ever be infected by this thing again!"

BA DUM TSS

cue mr beewell. obviously hes only tryna dig up graves with mellified people in them so. i think there somethin weird about Some Guy's grave

maybe the soil looks weird or theres faint glowing mycellium or smthn idk im not the fungi expert. either way sly digs this guy up

the guy is completely covered in the fungi, but it looks very dead even tho it prob still has a faint glow

sly, being the genius he is, decides to partake in exactly Zero extra safety precautions and load this bad boy into his truck

because this thing looks weird and is potentially magic!

he takes the guy back to home base, unloads it somewhere, prob pokes and prods it a little before he hits the fucken hay

since the fungi needs about an hour of contact to spread, im saying he was just Sciencing long enough to catch the fungi. or he took a bite

however im also saying that since the fungi was mostly dead, there was no actual physical evidence of him catching it before he went ta sleep.

(no little mushrooms no weird patches etc)

so hes oblivious until he wakes up

he wakes up. notices some weird textures on his skin. turns on the lights and finds a mirror

what the fuck

theres patches of mycellium shit everywhere! and some baby mushrooms also

hes probably freaked out, he tries all the obvious methods of removing stuff, etc

calls up taylor eventually

[CUE CROWD CHEERING]

taylor time!!!!!!!!!! he also has no idea what to do. if this au intersects with mothboy au(prob not because its just. a Lot at once but its a cute idea) then they figure out eventually that t cant catch it. if its just Normal T then he just. wears gloves, probably a mask as well just in case of spores

they probably do some research, maybe t takes some samples for a lab, etc

at some point, maybe later in the day or the next day, sly is probably not having a great time bc those mushrooms are getting bigger and the patches have prob shifted a bit

GOOP TIME

as ive mentioned, the goops is kinda triggered by strong emotions. so hes just kinda secreting it rn.

gross

tub time!!!!!!!!!! hes like WHAT THE FUCK

probably calls t again

idk they just spend a lot of time researching and isolating. together #lovewins #slay

and at some point. evil grin. goodbye eyeball

prob starts with a film over slys right eye. kinda weird, a little concerning cuz it doesnt seeme to be coming off but. the mycellium patches always kinda shift around anyways + hes literally had Goop secreting out of his eyes before so.

hes in denial mode bc its Fine, actually, and also there's no good way to remove it other than shaving off any growth around the eye as best as he can

he wakes up in the middle of the night bc something feels wrong

everything looks kinda weird. a little off, like somethings missing

there is a giant clump of mushrooms growing out of his eye.

[LAUGH TRACK]

ok i think thats all for tonight folks!!!!!!!!!!!! uhh if any of this seems lacking in context any other info can be found in my mushroom sly tag 👍if u have any input/think this is out of character/etc lemme know ^_^

#chatty catty #sly #mushroom sly #lemonverse #YIPPEE #long post #body horror #lots of the beginning stuff was brainstormed with jess ^_^

[thetindin]

I HAVE COME TO SHITPOST!!!

Based on this:

#doodles #moomin #snufkin #shitpost #little my #swear #swearing #swearing mention #i really cant think cuz im brain dead rn

[whamcitycomedy]

im actually the dumbest person alive I cant believe i didnt realize this until leafy was like haha tcom hamlet au but like. Tcom is literally hamlet. Like. The story’s slightly different but now that I’m thinking about there’s literally so many parallels like it HAS to be intentional. And actually the story is pretty similar too, like hamlet is jack, his dad Tank Mann who’s like the head of his wealthy powerful important family goes missing, his wife cheats on him with Frank, Tank Mann sends tapes back, and the Mann family basically goes slowly insane. And then in Hamlet, Hamlet’s father, the king, dies (instead of goes missing), his wife the queen (doesn’t rlly cheat on him cuz he’s dead) but immediately marries Claudius (who like Frank is also kind of the villain and obsessed with power and money), and the kings ghost comes back to talk to hamlet (instead of the tapes), and everyone in the royal court also goes slowly insane. Like Jack slowly getting more and more emo and angry as tcom goes on is literally so much like hamlet, and they both really miss their dad who they think is great for some reason but isn’t (hamlet sr might actually be chill I’ve just always felt like he probably sucked so). And Courtney being Gertrude (the queen) and Frank being Claudius is actually so perfect. And Oh My God also how did I not realize the whole poison in the ear thing literally happens in hamlet just like in tcom (except it’s poison being put in someone’s ear not a tooth, but like the tooth obvs fucked up jack’s ear so pretty close to poison I think). And for both of them this is supposed to represent a motif of communication causing corruption which actually is a huge theme in both of them now that I think about it. And now that I’m thinking about it there’s a bunch of other stuff too and I just. bro. Maybe this was like super obvious to everyone but me but I am just now realizing it and im. Having A Moment. This probably makes no sense and is very confusing and probably no one cares but. I just can’t believe I’m just now realizing this. Also I have to stop typing my brain is going too fast and I’m about two seconds away from trying to connect every single character in tcom to their counterpart in hamlet which I will probably be unable to resist doing at some point but should try to avoid rn so I can sleep

#hamlet #tcom #aaaaaaaaaaaaaah

[emo4life]

ugh okay so like i feel like these past 12 months ?! (or like maybe since i finished hs i cant rlly remember freshman college year rn) ive just lost interest in like ... everything !! like from music ... becauze i dont like necessarilly “stan” something specific anymore thats one thing i feel like ive found it hard to be into because like i have always gone through phases with music and really stanning certain artists since like 5th grade jdkfvsnd and like tv shows are something i just do not watch anymore and i havent in a long time ugh and like i watched kdramas for a while which was good becauze i had INTERESTS still but i domt think i could even get past like an episode anymore then same with anime like i feel like its just so hard to focus on anything ... and i can hardly read so thats out of the picture ugh like the begining of the year was cool cuz i read like 3 books and thot hey maybe i can do this ! but then i tried getting on my fourth book and like i just couldnt djfbsbdh and its crazy like things that used to interest me just FADED out of my brain like i remember i used to be into space and would try to somewhat learn about astronomy and its like , i completely forget about that like why dont i care enough anymore !! and like in freshman year of college i knew i was interested in the peace corps and like i feel i comeetely forgot about that all this year like idk !!! i feel like my sense of identity has just faded away and like im not picking up any new interests like vene SOCIAL MEDIA i cant with twitter like i deleted mine becauze i just didnt care for the content i followed anymore bc i lost interest in kpop but its like ... i wouldnt even know what/ who else to follow !! so now i only follow like 5 people on twitter and thats cool but its like lame because that means theres not much to be on there for and like at least even before on tumblr i used to follow more people and be more active and have more mutuals that i could interact with now i just cannot follow anyone and like again my dash is just dead like !!!! idk i have no interests and i dont do anything everyday ... feeling like #half a person ugh idk if this makes sense but ya !!!

#i suppose nothing ~sparks joy~ in me anymore #and another thing is like i feel like i cant even get into much irl rn either because idk !!! #maybe its that i feel im not in complete control of my living area so i just dont start anything new #like plants or with trying to eat food how i want to etc #ugh maybe thats another reason i wanna live on my own #anyways i need to write this in my diary too sigh

[lesbiannya]

11 Questions tag

Tagged by @kessavel :^) your questions were fun jsjsj and im dead at ur last answer lol

Rules:

*Answer the 11 questions you’ve been asked  *Nominate 11 other bloggers~

*Ask your nominees 11 questions  *Let them know you’ve nominated them~

Answers:

1. Is there anything special you’d like to say to a person, who you are sure will see this post? 

yeah @everyone who sees this

2. How do you cheer up youself when you’re feeling down?

i just go outside and get distracted at walmart lol

3. What fictional character inspires you?

everything i do i do it for shadow the hedgehog

4. Do you have a song in your playlist, which you’d never believe you will like?

i listen a lot to that one phantom of the opera song were the girl goes OFF at the end, even tho i dont actually like the phantom of the opera

5. What scene from a game you played last time got engraved in your memory?

i recently played the remake and the last chase scene from The witch’s house STILL gives me anxiety, its been 7 years

6. What behavioral trait of yours you’d like to work on?

i dont like talking about myself so im a mystery irl

7. What are your favourite childhood series? 

STAN BRATZ OR DIE

8. For how long your earbuds live? xD 

LIKE 3 WEEKS? i buy very cheap ones cuz i fucking destroy them pretty fast akjdsk technology wants to kill itself around me

9. Is there a thing you wish for, but can only get from another country?

not relevant anymore but when club nintendo was alive i had the RIGHTS to a physical copy of the smash wiiu soundtrack but since club nintendo was US only i couldnt get it cuz i live in mexico and i think thats... stupit. im still mad about it.

10. Do you have a special meal you cook to impress your loved ones?

i dont cook for anyone besides my siblings.... and ive never really tried to cook to impress them 🤔 but if i did i would learn how to do pastries

11. Yo, I have only two brain cells left to be creative enough for last question. How much brain cells do you have?

like.... 3 whole brain cells, and 2 of them are for storing pokémon names

Questions:

1. Do you have any pets?

2. Favorite stuffed animal?

3. Do you believe in ghosts?

4. MARIO OR LUIGI? 👀👀👀

5. Is your room clean rn? 🤔

6. Current song stuck in your head?

7. Favorite bug? :^)

8.  Do you have any awful nicknames?

9. Do you collect anything?

10. Do you sleep in jeans? I’ll kill you if you do btw sorry

11. WHAT WOULD YOU WANT YOUR LAST WORDS TO BE? 🔫

i only taaaaaaag: @sapphic-suchoripterus , @gcncontroller , @goldndoodle , @pixiemarkers , @toxikita only if you wanna do it ofc. i cant think of anyone else rn so if anybody wants to do this just say i tagged u :^)

#piplup.txt #long post #tag meme #i didnt know what questions to add so i just googled 100 questions JEJ

[kokeggy]

my brain is filled with ouma and i cant stop it

i totally forgot the time man, its almost been 2 months since i played the game and it totally didnt feel like that at all

i still can recall a ton of things fluidly and as for now i dont see a particular reason to replay the game (other than wanting to get to know ouma better) 

but oumas character is just.. so tragic. i cant even begin to explain the depth of his character, it would be pages long and im way too lazy for that. ill always just write mental drafts and let myself feel when it comes to ouma

ill a cut here since its already a bit long rn lmao

and i think ouma is a character who is deeply troubled by his insecurities/possible mental illnesses (such as bpd or servere depression) in a way that these insecurities are his most memorable characteristics. that is absolutely sad and tragic

furthermore since the moment i started to play this game i always thought it was suspicious that ouma claimed he hated liars even tho he was one himself. sure that couldve been one of his lies, but my intention rlly didnt like this idea so i thought he was actually speaking the truth. i realized today that ouma was hinting at shuichi that he hated this persona that he had to create for the sake of this game

but i do agree that i sometimes tend to overthink ouma lmao while is incredibly intelligent, he couldnt have figured everything out, plus his trust issues and paranoia were in the way of looking into every possible situation. yet i somehow believed that he did a lot of stuff while being completely aware of their consequences - but thats not possible. ouma is not a superhuman who can figure out what happens to the world in [insert year]. hes a character with deep flaws which balances his cunning behavior 

to his actual personality, i might seem like the most biased person in the world but i truly believe that ouma didnt want to harm anyone. its just that the killing game... happened lol

as far as i can self-insert, i do believe if i happen to be in a killing game i would be quite similar about it. minus the creating a fake persona thing for me its absolutely impossible to trust 15 people whom i just met that they wouldnt kill me under stress. you know, if you activate the right buttons on someone, they can work how you want them to. and this is what feared ouma (rightly so)

anyways i take the anthologies as canon material since theyre approved and licensed by spike chunsoft, and we obviously see that ouma is nowhere near as antagonistic as he was in the game. although, i only have read the first anthology (also while we are at it, i cant wait to buy the thjree v3 anthologies even without knowing japanese, lulz)

but we also see his character actually getting darker and darker with each chapter, with chapter 4 probably taking the point. esp on when it ended. at first i was kind of conflicted about his oversentimal reaction towards gonta being executed, because that felt just as fake as his overly evil presentation afterwards. altho after some time thinking abt this, i came to the conclusion that he just leaked a little bit of his juicy true self(tm), realized that what he meant was actually genuine and then proceed to vent his emotions in making him seem like the most villainous person u ever met. because i think one of the reasons ouma acted out like is because he believed he was at fault for gontas death. so instead of trying to sweet talk yourself, he just took the oppurtunity to make him the least likeable person. cuz who would ever want to like someone who jokes about genuinely being concered about someone dying? yeah no one dude

also i think ouma is ironically a bit well-mannered (yeah guis im not joking here). ..  .if we ignore all his stupid pranks.. so you see, whenever i got rejected after dates with ouma in salmon mode.. it went like this for example “eeh, wow you are going to the libary with me and now you want to leave? that hella rude man, why am i wasting my time like this” or “wow you really must think highly of yourself if you think you are worth changing for, how arrogant”  which looks like he knows what is appropriate and what not

i remember what he said that and i suddenly went like “shit i cant believe im hearing this from you man” which was kinda funny as a side note btw

anyways, to his motive video. oh shit, his motive video . . . even without having known how messed up the translation was, that damaged me.-.. i mean i always thought that ouma exaggerated the size of his organization, at some poiint i just thought that his entire organization was a lie and his tru talent was the ultimate liar. which obsly wasnt the case lmao 

but his motive video.. just wanting to prank ppl for laughs and entertainment. its so light hearted compared to what he claimed it to be that it hurts another thing that i think is worth noting is that DICE was his motive video, not his family. DICE, who is like family. but not his actual family. what does that mean? does that mean that his actual family wasnt like family to ouma? i sure as hell thought so and i still do 

a different thing is that ouma said that nobody would care about him dying and that his organization would be better off without him, plus that it seems that monokuma said that ouma knows what happened to DICE in the motive video which leads me to.. uhh.. what if ouma did something he absolutely regretted doing (since it caused DICE trouble?) - but im not entire set on that theory

its also sad that he constantly had to hint about hiimself instead of just talking abt it to shuichi. like, he wanted shuichi to help him or actually even hinder him at carrying out his plan, he low key hoped for it because shuichi is a detective which showed to be shrewd enough to be able to make proper deductoins in class trials, furthermore he isnt a dick towards ouma and actually respects him in a way. something that ouma most likely didnt calculate

which mades the statement that shuichi said in the end of chapter 4 even more painful. shuichi was the only person that ouma kind of trusted and relied on. and prob the only one he wanted to show his true self to, that very person told him hes 5 ever alone with no friends at all. that hes a pathetic little brat who should start to view the world differently (def not what shuichi said 1:1 but.. yeah idk my own interpretation) 

im pretty sure that hurt ouma a lot 

hnnng, i truly wished for ouma to be one of the survivors. altho i figured that hes gonna plot something absolutely mind blowing in chapter 5, i seriously couldnt believe that he was actually dead... well, not until the closing argument. as soon as there were the words “closing argument” all over my screen i began to cry like an idiot. i couldnt even read properly man, thats just how blurry my vision was from all the tears

in other hand: i was (and still am lol) extremely attached to ouma and his death was very unsatisfying, since he died quite heroic but nobody considered him so. also he never made up with these ppl. also fuck kodaka

#drv3 spoilers #ouma kokichi #my posts #im trying this very sleep deprived so excuse me for my grammar and spelling mistakes u will ever seen one #ill try to correct it after i get some sleep

[whalefairyfandom12]

Your Love's a Fucking Drag (But I Need it So Bad)

Summary: Dan likes black and leather jackets, Phil likes reading in solitude and playing video games. But they have one thing in common as new roommates at uni: They are both completely straight. Just because they like to get each other off every once in a while doesn’t make it any different.

A/N: We've been writing this fic for over a year now and it's strange to think this is the last time we'll be doing this. Thank you so much for all of your support and we hope you enjoy the final chapter <33

Masterpost

Chapter Nine

 *picks up after “true bros swallow” from chapter seven

-

don’t judge me makila

I’m 110% judging right now smh no homo just bromo

I came here to have a good time and im honestly feeling so attacked rn

Not as attacked as Dan’s cock amiright

STOP THIS IMMEDIATELy

...That's what he said and then Phil made him

My mind is literally blank rn jfc i have absolutely no comebacks whatsoever

On a scale of one to Dan’s mind during orgasm from a brojob how blank?

Like dan’s mind during orgasm and then some

Yet somehow Phil Lester’s lips aren't involved. I think he got the better deal, really. Also cuddles after

Im jealous of dan i want phil lester’s cuddles :<

I swear to god we sound so ace right now 100 to 0 real fast

*writes sex scene* “Wow i cant wait to cuddle the fuck out of phil” 100% ace

Seriously though Phil probably gives some of the best cuddles imaginable I'm jealous

My friend met him and she said he gives the best hugs out of anyone she’s ever met

You know what fuck Phan I'm stealing Phil for myself

“Hi do u have any philxreader fics” dats u

“I don't want the yang wang dang just the hugging”

Im fucking pissing myself im hilarious

I think my mom just heard that snort

Im literally laughing so hard and my dogs started barking bc of it christ i need sleep

Jesus Christ has very little to do with this conversation, trust me ;)))))))))))))

I hope he isn’t too mad that i started involving him in our crimes

We’re all going to hell anyway, what's one more crime really

Imagine if jesus went to hell with us JESUS READS TOO MUCH GAY PORN

“So what was your punishment?”

“I liked sucking cocks too”

“Same. Only bros?”

“True bros swallowed. Dat was me.”

Jeezy wheezy (sry i cant type wow) thats amazing and i had something to say but i dont REMEMBER

They say losing your memory this early means you're definitely screwed and damned to hell

I mean we already knew i was going to hell so whats the difference

I've spent my evening reading gay porn stars AU instead of studying that ship has sailed

Porn star aus are the best thing ever no ragerts

“Ragerts”-Rachel, 2016

The sin has clouded your thoughts

Im gonna get that tattooed on me “no ragerts”

You can say not only were you extremely drunk when you got it you were also drunk when you thought it up. A win win

“How did you get that tattoo??” “Well im always drunk man”

“Drunk on gay smut and memes”

I read too much about bros swallowing loads

You need to fire your autocorrect and get a better one

Im on my computer so looks like i just have to fire my brain

Our wordcount has upped significantly can we just keep this here. “Now presenting a short intermission from your writers”

Oh my god when we upload the last chapter (whenever the fuck that will be jesus christ what are we doing with this story) we should post this

Imagine the day when our inboxes will no longer be filled with messages of “WHEN THE FUCK IS THE NEXT CHAPTER OF YLAFD GOING TO BE UP??????”

That’s the day that the earth will truly implode

See the real question is who’s going to store all these screenshots on their camera roll? Forfeit those sick GBs

I can screenshot them on my computer hahaha

Way to ruin the moment Rachel wooooooow :(((((((( That was so low not even Dan could recover (get it because he’s a bottom? I'm so tired smh)

Sorry bro (*insert lenny face here bc im too lazy to do that*) i hope dans proud of me

He knows it's just about bros doing bro things I'm sure he’d fully endorse our fics. (And let’s be honest, I'll bet you one hundred dollars this hasn't happened to him at least once)

Oh him and phil have d e f i n i t el I GIVE UP fucked

Which will come out first? Dan Howell or Sherlock’s next season? YO MAMA’S SO FAT BY THE TIME SHE TURNS AROUND DAN HOWELL CAME OUT!!!!!1!

JESUS CHriST “How many licks does it take for dan howell to come out?” “The world may never know”

Oh he’ll be coming all right *insert lenny face*

HE’LL BE COMING AROUND THE MOUNTAIN WHEN HE COMES

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WHAT THE FUCK MAKILA NO the human centipede lol

ヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉ POOP

Ur enjoying urself aren’t u

FIGHT ME (ง ͠° ͟ل͜ ͡°)ง (what? I don't have an entire wall of lenny’s saved to my notes for this very purpose that would be ridiculous haha ha ha ha…)

Usually when i use a lenny face i go back and copy it from one of my friend’s text messages so ALL THE JUDGEMENT HERE UR FIRED

AT LEAST LENNY STILL LOVES ME 
( ͡°╭͜ʖ╮͡° )ᕤ holy shit we broke 14k yay us #rakilaftwrioolymipcs2k16

(ʘ‿ʘ✿) we literally broke 14k because we wrote an entire essay about how much of a meme we are (why is this a different color text wtf)

All better. The perfectionist in me is satisfied.

Im proud of you makkypoo

BU-BUT SENPAIIIIIIII REALLY????? JU-JUST ME???????

JUST U MACKLEMORE (i think im so funny)

Macklemore I'm dying (right and Phil’s dating Dan. Oh wait)

I think your nickname is no longer makila but instead macklemore

Once we release these screenshots it will be THANKS RACHEL UR FIRED NOW

BUT ): A KOUHAI CANT HIRE THEIR SENPAIIIIIIII (also i hope you start getting messages about macklemore now)

WOW I FEEL SO LOVED :,(((((((((( a single man tear

A man tear… like uh i dont have a fucking comeback im So TIRED LIKE UR MUMS MAN TEAR

THE NERVE!!!!!!!!!1!1! WELL YOUR MUM’S MAN TEAR IS SO UNMANLY NOT EVEN DAN WOULD THINK IT WAS ATTRACTIVE SO THERE BITE ME

Cuz we all know dan thinks every man tear is attractive rip to dan’s heart (and his sexuality)

“Here lies Dan’s heterosexuality and heteronormativity. It will be sorely--screw it no it won't.”

Dan’s heterosexuality&heteronormativity,,, June 10, 1991 - Today (what is today) August 20, 2016

“We gather to celebrate with smut and Lenny human centipedes.” I need sleep so badly right now smh I'm dead tomorrow

GO TO SLEEP (honestly i do too i have to wake up early to move back to uni rip)

I will if you do. A bro pact. (A broct? Pacbro?)

Just… stop right there LOL lets form a broct(?) and just brosleep it out

I hope Phil brohugs you bro

Thanks bro i hope phil brocuddles u my dude, my bro

Aw you mean it bro? U r always there for me, man, I luv u u r like a brother to me, bro

Bro… oh my god bro, that’s the broest thing anyones ever said to me… i love u bro.. Like bromantically

Not as much as I platonically 110% heterosexually love u bro. Just bromo tho no homo

That’s the new phrase of this fic “just bromo, no homo”

*deletes summary and changes it to that* seriously why aren't we sleeping GO TO BED RAKILA

OKAY IM GONNA ACTUALLY SLEEP NOW CUZ WE NEED IT

NIGHT BRO DON’T LET THE FIREFLIES BITE MAN

NIGHT TO U TOO BROKILA DONT LET TO BRO BUGS BITE

#your love's a fucking drag (but I need it so bad) #ylafdbinisb #fanfiction #phan #phanfiction #phan au #this is it guys #the end #:'))

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When I told you Imma start getting over you I hoped so. “Wounds heal over time”. For whatever or whoever they are. At least thats what people say.

But the sad truth is my wounds didnt heal. Not fully. Not yet. But neither the world ended as I though it will. Doors open and close, people come and go. All the time i was standing in the corner hopeless, convincing myself it will all pass; most times i hit the ground grasping for air with pain in my chest so intense I wished I was dead. I swear I hope that not even the people that did me dirty to experience this. So am not so sad about some things as i used to be but thats not healed i think cuz tears keep falling down my face when I remember. Imma say Im used to it. Cuz its the only thing I could do. Many times I ve asked myself why this have to happen to me? Will everytime I start to get better something worse have to happen to bring me even lowest. Till when? I fear happiness. I really do. Like nothing good ever stays with me. I lost myself many times but somehow Im always back on track, soul hurt but never hardened even after all. Feelings are for the brave they say. So I guess I am brave. I got this on my own rn and I always did.

But in the world where everything is so temporary choosing to be permanent is insane I think. It hurts being the only one tryna hold on everything, its foolish. Its useless and it leaves you bleeding.

But I guess some souls are restless and yet never tired. Somehow they always find strength.

And I refuse the world to make me hard. I ll never be like them. I hope so. I will never lose you because of my pride. I will triple text and not be ashamed to show you that I care for you. And if I say that I care for you more than I care for me, dont ever doubt that. Also I wont show less attention and interest in you just for you to not take me for granted. Never. I’m letting you know that you mean the world to me. That my feelings for you wont fade. I trust you with my secrets. You ll have me by your side as long as you decide you want to. They all say trust my words but I ll tell you watch my actions and judge by them. My words fail many times and you know Im tongue before brain. I may sometimes say things that dont look like me (like tryna appear unbothered) and I keep forgetting that you know my soul. Also I wont ever leave you wondering.

But lemme keep this straight. I wont beg for you. Wont beg for you to stay and be by my side. Thats the most heartbreaking thing ever. And my heart aches remembering my mothers eyes begging for my dads presence. Me begging for dunno what cuz i was so confused like i had to carry the whole weigth of the world on my shoulders. Feeling so small and worthless while you have whole universe inside you so loveable.

I dont know what happend that thought you and shaped you like this. You remember times when I told you that I cant figure you out but i know there s something. For everything there s a reason. I believe there s much more to be understood underneath the surface. I wont even beg you for you to open up to me I ll just ask from you to trust me with your soul. To give me your hand in mine, fingers intertvined with mine and trust me that everything you go through I am by your side always. Let me be your strength. Help me understand your reasons.

Cuz there is a reason for everything.

Like there is a reason that I met you. That you walked in my life and flipped it upside down. I had my trust broken, my heart was betrayed and shattered into milion pieces tried to handle it all , all by myself. So I know how being introvert and all alone feels like and Im glad that Im not like that with you. Its not that I wont be able to live without you the thing is that i dont want to. Dont ever want to remember how life before meeting you felt.

So Pleasepleaseplease. I know that you arent as you used to be and that you are not the same with the others and me and Im glad for this. Open up to me try it you are not weak not shame not worthless I promise you!

Tell me your problems from the past and presence, your shitty days, your fears, your passions, your dreams- lets share everything. I know I never stop talking but Im such a good listener. When I overreact its because I love you and I care for you. Trust me with your secrets. Its just me and you.

Being like this in a world like this hurts like hell aint gon lie but whats the point of being like all? Pretending that u dont give a fuck about anything or even worse not even pretending. Is that how its supposed to be? Am i the one who s wrong or its the others? I m giving you my hand and in the other you got the gun with you finger on the trigger.

So teach me :)

At least thats real love I think. Finding that one person and showing them how vunerable you are and they deciding to never leave your side. Loving you when your are least loveable (You when I was all curled up in bed, face black from the ruined make up, shaking and crying my soul out)

And remember Its was worth it, it is and it will be. Because in the world so temporary you made me happy and glad that im yours so many times that i ll use them wisely enough to survive for a lifetime❤️

At least I ll try

I hope this never happens, Me to never be without you and you to be the one that decides to always be by my side and never gives up on us. But whatever happens, wherever life brings you if you r ever in doubt just remember my eyes watering when Im telling you “I love you” and remember my body warmth when I hug you- I ll be always by your side.

Ps gotta stop now mom s bringing me a lunch and my face s all red from crying ily

#dedicated to u #spilled thoughts