#i really didnt mean for this to get so long sksksk my bad

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Ma'am, Nanami Kento just fucking infatuated with chubby/fat reader, pls 🤲🏼

Just him fantasizing about how he wants to live between their thick soft thighs and lay his forehead on that FUPA and hold their belly while he eats them out or fucks them so hard that they are drooling and sobbing 😭

Pls Ma'am, just a few headcanons pls 🙏🏼

ANONNNNNNN BABYYYYY YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I CRAVE NANAMI/CHUBBY READER CONTENT, OF COURSE I WILL MAKE SOME FOR YOU

Imma do fem reader since you mentioned fupa :3 also gonna put this below a read more bc jesus its gonna be long skksks

Nanami Kento x chubby fem reader coming up 💕

CW: fluff and smut, thats pretty much it sksksk, creampies, oral (male and female receiving)

Ok lets get one thing straight right off the bat

Nanami is whipped for chubby ppl

AND HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW UNTIL HE SAW YOU

Its not like Japan is crawling with fat people

And don't get him wrong, he's not a full blown chubby chaser

He's dated skinny/average sized ppl before and it was fine, but nothing extravagant or especially memorable

But once he sees you?

Oh shit, he is fucked

I imagine he meets you at a café

He's heard about this place before and its a bit out of the way but he'd like to try it

He walks in and hears a cheery "Hellooo~" from the counter and good god, his heart almost stops when he sees you

He doesn't mean to stare, honest

BUT JESUS FUCK YOU'RE STUNNING???

Your wide hips, your waist cinched by your apron, your tits pressing firmly against it and peeking out the sides, jesus he hasn't even seen your thighs yet but he just knows he wants to live between them-

Oh shit you're talking to him

You're asking him how he's doing today and oh god you have the cutest smile spread across your round face

He just wants to cup your plump cheeks while he kisses you

BUT HE'S GOTTA FOCUS

He's here for coffee and these pastries Gojo has been babbling about for days

He struggles to look straight at you (bc he knows he'll just get distracted again), and he stumbles over his words a bit but you're so patient and sweet and shit he's never believed in love at first sight but this is pretty fucking close

He really wants to stay and enjoy his food while he stares at you across the room, but sadly he has to leave

He hates that he has to leave god damn it why the fuck does he have to work why tf does capitalism exist work is shit

But then he comes back on a Saturday and sits with a book while he enjoys his meal and steals glances at you from across the room

He becomes a regular, showing up every Saturday around 10am for a coffee and a pastry, taking a seat near the back, giving him the perfect view into the little coffee shop kiosk where you work

He's ashamed of it, but he cant stop looking at you

You are literally so pretty and you're not even trying! Wtf!

He loves watching you make drinks and take orders and bend over, giving him the perfect view of your ass jesus christ-

You two get to know each other a bit better and he is definitely falling for you 🥺

Like yes you're the most gorgeous person he's ever seen but you're? So nice? And compassionate? And sweet? Like all he wants to do is scoop you up and whisk you away someplace so he can treat you like the queen you are 💕

And then one day he sees you squat behind the counter and take a bite out of a sandwich you snuck in

You pop back up, covering your mouth as you chew but then realize you've been caught and you start giggling, putting a finger to your lips, silently asking him to keep it a secret

His heart is literally pounding in his chest but he mirrors your action, his index finger resting against his lips and he swears he can see you blush before you give him your signature sweet smile

Okay that's it, if he doesn't ask you out its gonna haunt him for the rest of his life

He ends up asking you out to dinner, and he almost passes out when you agree

He keeps it well hidden behind his stoic façade but inside he's SCREAMING

Takes you to one of his favorite restaurants (which is also hella fancy bc god damnit you fucking deserve it)

He insists on picking you up bc you're a queen and he wants to treat you like one

When he sees you in a flirty short dress, he gets half hard skksks

He cant help it! Your thighs just look so delectable peeking out from the bottom of the dress and the low cut makes your tits look so good and holy fuck the way the short sleeves squeeze around the fat of your arms has him practically drooling

Does he show any of this? Of course not, he's too professional for that.

"You look lovely," he'll say with a smile, hoping that you wont notice the slight tent forming in his pants

You go to the restaurant and feel a little out of place (you're a little underdressed and everyone looks so good and you just feel kinda :/ about the whole thing), but that thought quickly fades when Nanami places a hand on your waist and brings you a bit closer

"Our table is over here."

Of course he reserved a fucking table the smooth bastard

Tbh Nanami is using this date as a bit of a test

Yes, he is mesmerized by your body and he thinks you're so so sweet

But are you a foodie like him? Are you restrictive with your diet or do you indulge yourself the way he thinks you should (bc honestly you're incredible and you shouldn't hold yourself back from enjoying yourself just bc you're insecure about your weight)

Once he sees your adorable chipmunk cheeks and the hearts in your eyes as you mumble through chewing "'s sho good!", he knows you're the one

He pays for dinner (don't you dare try to pay, he'll hold your purse above his head so you can't get to your wallet, he doesn't care) and takes you home

Although he would love to kiss you on the lips, he wants to be a gentleman

Proceeds to grab your hand in his large one holy shit your hands are so soft and press a kiss to the back of it

He loves how flustered you get from it

"I'd love to do this again sometime, if that's something you're agreeable to."

UHHHHHHHH OF COURSE YOU'RE AGREEABLE TO IT 🥴

Soon enough yall are going steady and Nanami has never been happier

Most dates are revolved around food (going to restaurants, cafes, picnics with charcuterie boards that he made for you, etc.) bc it's honestly his love language and also who doesn't like food dates?

But he also likes taking you to bookstores and museums and he tries to focus on the place you're at but you always wear the cutest outfits and he can't help but stare at you more than the thing you came there for

His favorite dates are when you stay in and cook dinner together and just relax in your casual clothes

There's just something so soft and domestic about it that makes him want to wife you up and take care of you

Lowkey the biggest simp you will ever meet but honestly who wouldn't simp for a goddess like you? It's what you deserve 😌💕

He doesn't rush anything; he'll go at whatever pace you want bc he's just so grateful to have you in his life

It is kinda hard to hold himself back when you wear revealing clothing, but he's a strong-willed individual and gets through it

So what if he jerks off later on when he's alone, thinking about the short-shorts you were wearing and how you bent over right in front of him-

BASICALLY perfect boyfriend material

He buys a few XXL shirts and sweaters for himself so you can steal them from him

He usually wears them once or twice around you and sprays plenty of his cologne on them before you sneak into his closet and take em

He likes seeing you in his clothes and having you smell like him

He might've also asked what perfume you wear so he can spray it on his pillow but he will never admit to it

Just a big ole simp who would do anything for his sweet chubby girlfriend 💕

But lately you've been dropping hints that you want to go a bit further...

You've started sitting on his lap more during movie nights, pushing your body against his when you don't really need to be so close, moaning a bit louder when the two of you make out

He's trying to be a respectful boyfriend, really he is

He doesn't want to make the first move and accidentally make you uncomfortable bc that would be shitty and that's the last thing he wants to do

But jesus christ it's hard to hold back when you are literally so fucking perfect and sweet and he just wants to worship you-

So he suffers in silence for a bit sksksk

But then one day you're like "so when are you gonna dick me down?"

And all composure just flies out the window

This man legitimately drags you to his bedroom (or yours, depending on where you are)

Get ready for the heaviest petting while you two make out on his bed

No seriously, those big ass hands are gonna go everywhere he's wanted to touch

Tits, belly, ass, thighs: any place that he's avoided touching is now fair game to him (as long as you're comfortable with it)

He gets you out of the baggy shirt you were wearing, groaning when he sees that you weren't wearing a bra (of course you were planning for this)

Literally buries himself in your chest

Face in your cleavage, a hand on each titty, just groaning into your skin as he fondles you

He'll give your tits plenty of attention: massaging, licking, sucking, pinching, biting

You are covered in love bites once he's done, and he looks so fucking proud of himself

He'll urge you to lie down on the bed, kissing down to your stomach, marveling at how soft and plush it is

Sure, he's touched you lightly there before, but he never imagined how warm and soft you'd be against his calloused hands

Palms at your fat, leaving sweet kisses over your skin, nibbling at it gently

He is literally so smitten with you jesus christ-

Next are your pants and underwear which are both pulled down at the same time

When i tell you this man is awestruck by your pussy, i mean that he legit stares at it for a full minute, drool pooling around his mouth

He loves the way your pussy looks

No, seriously, he's never seen a prettier pussy in his life

Your FUPA is so soft? Like that little extra pudge with your pubic hair is just so squishy and pleasant against his palm and he cant help but squeezing it before he pushes your legs further apart

YOUR PUSSY LIPS, don't even get him started-

He loves how chubby your outer lips are and how they practically engulf your labia and keep it hidden

He hooks his thumbs over your lips and pulls them apart so he can see you clearly and good god he's never been so turned on by such a simple action

He doesn't know why he finds it so hot, but just having to open you up so he can see you is so satisfying

It's like opening a present, it's so exciting and invigorating for him

This cheeky bastard makes you hold your legs back so he can hold your lips open and eat you out

And he goes to town

No fr, he acts like he's parched and you're the only source of water for 30 miles

Loves sucking your lips into his mouth and tugging them with him as he pulls back and loves the moans that come with the action

This man straight up latches his mouth onto your clit for an hour, at least 2 fingers pumping into you and pushing against your g-spot the whole time

His free hand would go exploring, squeezing and palming at every inch of you he could reach

His favorite place to hold onto is your tummy bc he loves feeling it shake beneath his hand while you struggle to stay still

Close second is your thighs bc good lord they are delicious and he would not be upset if you cracked his head open with them-

He moans so fucking loud when you grab a fistful of his hair and pull him closer to you

Having you mess up his neat hair and forcing him into you makes him so horny

Like 'yes fuck please smother me with your pussy good god thats all i want-'

He is so fucking turned on from eating you out that he actually cums in his pants 😳

He's a bit embarrassed by it but that feeling goes away the minute you tell him that you think it's hot that he's so aroused by you

And that just gets him hard again and he just goes back to eating you out

Will not stop until he gets that creamy white cum to drip out of you, and he drinks it up gladly

Finally comes up, wiping the cum on the side of his mouth and sucking it off, eyes dark

Oh, he is gonna beat your pussy up

He undresses so fast and just kicks his clothes somewhere, doesn't matter where since he's gonna be too busy diving into your cunt to care

He rushes to put the condom on and ends up snapping the elastic on him which fucking hurts, but you pull him down to you and give him kisses so he feels all better 🥰

And baby, when I tell you this man thinks he died and went to heaven once he slips his cock into your cunt

Jesus CHRIST you feel good

He's not a gynecologist, he doesn't know shit about vaginas, but he's certain that your pussy feels so much better than others bc you're chubby

Like he thinks your vagina is chubbier too which makes it softer thats not how science works bby but whatever makes you feel better

Oh, and if you were overwhelmed when he was eating you out?

Ahahaaa

Just get ready for when he finally fucks you

This man goes fucking feral

No, seriously, just turns into a wild animal

He'll be grabbing onto your hips and thighs so hard that the indents turn into bruises the next day

"Holy shit, Y/N, you feel so fucking good"

He's trying to be gentle, truly he is, but you're just so soft and warm and tight jesus christ he's never felt this good with any of his previous partners wtf-

He can't stop staring at your cute tummy and those gorgeous tits or your fucked out expression

LOVES seeing your body jiggle with each thrust, it's just so sexy and cute and it just makes him want to fuck you for longer bc he's so mesmerized by the movement

Will not hesitate to hook your knees over his shoulders and fold you in half, pressing himself against you as he just full on rails that pretty little cunt of yours

Oh, you thought Nanami was stoic 24/7? You thought he'd be quiet in the bedroom?

Guess again bitch

"Holy shit, Y/N, you feel so fucking good"

"Jesus Christ, you're tight"

"God, you're so soft, how are you so soft, what the fuck?"

"That's it baby, you're taking my cock so well, such a good girl for me"

"Oh my god, you're perfect, you're so fucking good, jesus fuck I love you"

The praise falls from his lips so easily that you wonder if he's the same person you started dating

Makes you cum at least two more times on his cock

One was bc he wanted to know how it would feel and the second was bc he was so mesmerized by how you looked and felt that he just had to experience it again

He doesn't last very long once he's inside you; he's just really good at overstimming his partner and making them cum quick

He lasted a max of 5 minutes in your pussy during your first time sksksk

What can he say? You just felt so good that he couldn't help himself 🤷‍♀️

And afterwards?

He just collapses onto you (doesn't put his full weight on you bc he doesn't wanna crush you), sinking into your body and practically melting

He's never had sex that was that good

Would legit consider asking you to marry him at that moment bc he knows for damn sure that no one else will live up to you also he doesnt want anyone else to have you, he's a selfish bastard at heart

He is the KING of aftercare tho

Hands smoothing over your sore muscles, kissing over your neck and face whispering sweet nothings to you

"That was amazing"

"You were so good, Y/N"

"Thank you so much"

Of course he's the kinda bastard to thank you for letting him fuck you but its lowkey super cute and sweet

Do you want a shower/bath? Or something to eat? Do you just want to go to bed? Just say the word and he'll do whatever you want

Oh yeah, you've definitely got yourself a keeper 💕

He's a lot handsier with you after that

Not so much in public bc he isnt too big on pda, but at home?

Babe, you're gonna have to pry him off with a crowbar bc he will not let you go

You're cooking? He's behind you, arms around your waist, face tucked into your neck while he rubs your tummy

You're on the couch just minding your business? His hand is on your thigh, massaging the inside and squeezing occasionally while he reads

Cuddle time? If he's the big spoon, you're on his lap, his body engulfing you as he holds you firmly against his own

Little spoon? He's either lying down facing you, head on your stomach or chest, arms wrapped around you, or he's resting the back of his head on your fupa, your thighs on either side on his face, his hands squeezing them lazily as he watches tv

Regardless of how you cuddle, he is definitely pressing himself into your pudgy bits and enjoying every second of it

He likes going shopping with you 🥰

He knows it can be tough to find clothes that fit just right, so he's there to scout out the best stores with the best styles and the best prices

Is actually really good at finding quality clothes that you like, and he doesn't even break a sweat while doing it

He does insist on being in the dressing room with you so he can help you get the tighter ones on and off and also to give you his opinion and maybe his hands linger for a bit too long and kissing turns into groping which turns into a quickie in the dressing room but really who's paying attention to all that

He also insists on buying you said clothes

He doesn't care if you can afford it or feel bad: he's the one who will enjoy the clothes the most and your happiness is one of the only things he lives for so he's gonna fucking do it

"It's an investment" BOI IF YOU DON'T SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME PAY FOR THIS SUNDRESS

Has a habit of buying you lingerie without asking you

He'll keep it in his closet and wait for the right moment to bring it up to you

He asks very seriously and politely if you'll model them for him

And of course you do bc you love him and he's just a big ole goober and he deserves a little show every once in a while

It takes everything in his power not to grab you when you come out wearing the first piece

Like he just wants to fuck you in it so badly

But there's like 3 more for you to try on so he's gotta be patient

He's got this serious look on his face and his hands are folded and hiding his mouth, his eyes are burning into your soul jesus dude calm tf down-

He's not really showing how he feels so you're a little worried that he doesn't like how you look :(

But then you see the big ass erection poking out of his slacks and you're like "ok he likes it 🥰"

At the end you have him choose his favorite one and you give him a blowjob while wearing it 💕

Imma be real wit you: this man is absolute putty in your hands

You say jump and he doesn't even ask how high he'll just fuckin do it

And having you down on your knees in front of him wearing the skimpiest baby blue lingerie he could find just makes him weak

He cant even form words when you start sucking him off, he's just so in love with you jesus christ

If your hair gets in your face he'll hold it back for you 🥺💕

He likes rubbing his hands over your puffed out cheeks, savoring the softness of them while you shove his cock down your throat

He never lasts long like this

You look so fucking good in that lingerie, like your tits are delicious and your ass is stunning and when you arch your back just a bit and push your ass out and look up at him with those pretty doe eyes he just can't take it anymore and cums in your mouth with little warning

He doesn't mind if you swallow, but he prefers when you stick your tongue out and let his cum drip down onto your tits, your eyes hooded and fucked out already

It just makes him hard all over again

Proceeds to lick his cum off of your tits and your tongue before he lifts you up and takes you to the bedroom 😈

Has a habit of pushing your limits during sex bc he wants to see every part of you

Like when you're a little hesitant to sit on his face bc of your weight he's just plain irritated

"But what if I hurt you? :("

"Im stronger than you, Y/N, there's no way you can hurt me"

"But what if i suffocate you? :("

"That's the whole reason why i want you on my face jesus christ what is not clicking here?"

He'll end up holding you up and fucking you while he stands just to prove that he's strong enough and can handle your pretty pussy smothering his face

And when you finally relent and sit on him?

BOY OH BOY IS HE HAPPY!!!!!

Wraps his arms around your thighs, large hands squeezing them as he holds you down onto his mouth

He is fucking relentless dude

He doesn't stop after you cum, he just keep overstimming you over and over until you're crying and begging for a break

But even then he just keeps going, gripping your cute tummy and pretty tits and fat ass while he goes for "just one more"

Bitch dont fucking lie, its always more than one 🙄

He easily cums from this and doesnt even need to fuck you bc he's beyond satisfied after drowning in your pussy for a couple hours

Will apologize for pushing you too far but doesn't promise he won't do it again bc he sure as hell will and he won't feel sorry about it

Nanami is v straight forward and doesn't beat around the bush, so if you're ever insecure he's a bit too blunt

"Why are you insecure about x? There's nothing wrong with you, you are the most perfect person I've ever met and if you can't see that then i don't know what to tell you."

If you're still insecure he'll just hold you down and devour your pussy until you apologize and say you believe him and say all your positive affirmations for the day

Truly the best boyfriend around 😌

He rarely asks anything of you, he's very accommodating, but there is one thing that he wants more than anything

PLEASE LET HIM FUCK YOU BAREBACK

He would never do it if you don't want to but he's already taken an std test to prove he's clean and he's more than willing to pay for birth control and-

You have to stop him bc you're worried he'll pass out

To say he's excited when you agree is the biggest understatement of the century

He is so fucking ecstatic when you agree that he literally starts shaking with excitement

He looks like a lil bomb about to go off

You decide to help him chill out and fuck him asap

This man moans so fucking loud when he pushes into your cunt without a condom

He thought you were incredible before, but this? Your plush, sweltering, dripping, achingly tight cunt in direct contact with his cock?

He's yours point blank period, whatever you want he'll give it to you, shit he'll cut off his arm just to fuck you like this every single time-

Yo

Chill tf out Ken

You dont gotta do that sksksk

This pussy is yours whenever you want it 😌💕

He is such a sucker for creampies, especially with you

Has always liked cumming inside and seeing his cum leak out of his partner, but seeing it stick to your chubby lips and get stuck, forcing him to peel them back so he can see all the thick white cum coating your precious pussy?

He gets hard just from looking at it

Ends up pushing his cum back into you with his fingers before fucking you again and again and again until he's shooting blanks and you're unable to speak

He treasures you so fucking much it is insane

He wants to spend the rest of his life with you and take care of you and make you happy

Please be gentle with him bc you are his whole world and if he can't make your life better it will shatter him

You are his saving grace, his reason to get up and go to a shitty job, his darling dearest

He would do anything for you, and he won't have to think twice about it 💕

#nanami kento #smut #ask #omg this got long #chubby reader #fem reader #nanami kento x chubby reader #nanami kento x fem reader #chubby fem reader #nanami kento x chubby fem reader #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #headcanons #i really didnt mean for this to get so long sksksk my bad #i just got excited and my fingers started flyin sksmsk #i hope you enjoy 😊💕 #☀️ asks

[ton-e]

Little details about the 513 Thunderfam that make me really happy/intrigued me a lot and deserve to be talked about more sksksk

Everyone thought Borr may suffer of insanity not because of the general shittiness he caused, but because he wasn't fateful to Bestla and didnt even thought of her as beautiful, objective or otherwise

As a child, Hel was described as 'fragile' and 'delicate' for his softness towards animals, children, elderly, and so an so. It's said he was a very sensitive boy who couldn't even stand the sight of ants being stepped on and cried immediately when anyone was bullied so he made Odin promise to keep conflicts at bay (Odin did, even if he knew it was outside his control)

But he was also a little shit who pulled pranks as often as sun raised, especially on rich Lords. He enjoyed pranking his family the most because his tricks and schemes made Bestla laugh, which she didn't do a whole lot of. It was especially funny when magic came into play because the sight of Odin and Bestla trying to give diplomatic speeches with blue hair and Santa Claus beard is a sight EVERYONE should enjoy

That being said IDUNN was very fucking rowdy and liked to roundhouse anything she got her energetic little hands on, from some poor kid not knowing what they were getting into all the way to the Queens Guard who became Fearful KSKSKKS

Most of her pastime is spend either coloring on the Castle walls because it's the only place big enough to fit her ideas, or teaching princesses how to break someone's neck with the material of their dresses and go skyriding with her Pegasus until they were sick

.When she wanted to spend extra time with Freyja, she'd pay cleaning maidens to inform her she was running around the training grounds with the Valkyries knowing her mom would stop the meeting she was caught into, pick up the ends of her royal dresses and chase her around and she did everytime skksks

Skuld is basically the cool aunt that gives you your first joint, never married, slides you a 100 dollar bill when your parents aren't looking, is like "who's bothering you?? That little shit??? Alright let's go kick his ass", most likely a lesbian, loves her grandkids to death and jokingly says she has favorites that change according to favors she needs jsksk

Her and Balder have a love hate relationship, you just KNOW they do. Balder enjoys her presence because it annoys Borr, and Skuld likes anyone who can match her in wits. They greet eaxhother like "Good day wench" "Looking good for once in your life, shithead"

Once, when Odin and Freyja were 10, they broke into the Castle's supply of drinks and wanted to try the wine that won Borr such fame. They were caught by Shaggydog who ends up giving them both a wack upside the head and a promise to tell Bestla about this bc fuck you kids we do not need anymore drunks in this household sksksk

Freyja knows for a FACT Bestla is a worse fate than Borr so she makes him a deal: If he can drink more than them, they'll follow without complaint. If they outdrink him, he has to cover for them when they do play raids in the city. Shaggydog is ofc like, I drank with an entire army supplied by the God of drunkards himself I think I can manage

It takes Odin less than one goblet before he passes out. Freyja makes sure to stick her tongue out at the knight later that week as they sneak out of the Castle and doesn't stay long enough to see Shaggydog giving her the bird sjsjs

It's?? Very uncommon for Bestla to be anything other than stoic, Its a practiced controlled only southern ladies have but also a frosty camouflage she learned early, when she was first dropped in Asgard and knew no one and nothing. She's a Queen loved by many, and she loves her people just fine, but it's a one at a million time occurrence to catch a glimpse of the smile she saves only for her children, Skuld and Shaggydog, her laugh even more of a rarity. The only one that made her laugh out loud was Eitri and Hel :>>

It doesn't matter how taller and older he gets, Odin is still referred to as "little lion" by his mom and Skuld and I think that's adorable skksks

Farbauti just,,, Inviting himself to Borrs party KNOWING Borr hates him, therefore he didn't extend an invitation to him but the man has a 5'11 wolf mama besides him and a very sharp sword what are you gonna do

FRIGG CALLING OUT BORR ON HIS OWN BIRTHDAY FOR BEING A LIAR ABOUT HIS VICTORIES IN BATTLE AND ALSO BECAUSE HE WAS MEAN TO HER DAD SKSKSK

"Entertainment women" seeing Odin fresh out of battle and pushing their titties around for him to say, I only love my mama and my horse I'm sorry-

FRIGG AND FARBAUTI POUNCING WJWJW

The crowns three talking about the times they first broke rules after getting away from the party.

"Well I had that whole anarchy and stabbing the maker I never met thing for a while, like that happened"

"When I was 5 one of my tutors gave me a bad grade on a paper, so I learned her handwriting and sent words of marriage annulment to her husband. Turns out that was lover and her actual husband found out, so yeah, I kinda ruined her life"

Odin just looks around as if to check if someone was listening, Frigg and Farbauti prepare to hear something really bad but Odin, eyes big and serious, remorseful even, says "When I was small, I stole a chicken leg from the kitchens before dinner bells rang" he doesnt get why they're laughing he spent at least half the evening in the corner KWKWK

#earth 513 #thunderfam #odin borson #frigg eitrison #farbauti fenrison #Bestla #bor #Balder #hel hellison #Freyja #idunna freyson #Shaggydog #eitri #Skuld #The norns

[luvknow]

1. sksksk good job on getting concert tickets to see day6!! omg enjoy the concert uwu and the hi-touch!!!! im so jealous sksksk they're coming to my country too but i'm pretty sure i'm not allowed to go (cos my parents dont know) so i can't (im so sad cos they're kinda my ults and i listen to music the most out of all the groups i stan, esp for doing hw haha, but like im so so sad cos i can't go) (its after finals too, im devastated) (its fine i'll get over it,,,,,,eventually i guess ugh) :///

2. i was immersed in the story n suddenly it was like, "we're going to singapore yeehaw," and i was like "siNgApoRe? what do you mEaN singapore i live in singa- oh,,,,,,,right....." SKSKS I FACEPALMED INTERNALLY SO BAD I- also i like how you've incorporated a few local cuisines (like prata with curry, milo, noodles, kway teow, etc.) in this au it makes it feel more real (ooh that rhymed) cos it's actual food that we get here uwu so yEaH :D (also these r asks that i wanted to send but didnt work)

3. aLSO YOU'RE SO PRETTY I- sksksks you are super beautiful (also don't hate me but i kinda see you with xiaojun for some reason heheheh) (also dont mind that the other asks are from really long ago, i've been trying to send them for a few days but tumblr wouldn't let me send them :(((

omg thank you!!!! i’m literally going to cry at day6 ahh!!!! i know what it’s like missing seeing your ults, but i’m sure they’ll come back!! :((((( AH IS THIS ABOUT PRICELESS?? I’M SORRY IF IT’S INACCURATE I DID LIKE HALF AN HOUR OF RESEARCH THAT’S IT :(((((((((( omg i grew up on milo HAHA i miss it so much, i gotta go to the store and buy a jug of the powder so i can just mix it whenever i want hhhhhhh i hope you liked it!!! AH STOP I AM BUT.... A SHINY BEAN............................. AND YES I LOVE XIAOJUN HE’S SO BEAUTIFUL I WANNA TAKE A BILLION PICTURES OF HIM........... THE WAY I LOVE WAYV.............. MINUS TEN THAT HANDSOME BASTARD-

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Take Us Back “Review” ig

Wow that episode was just... wow 😭 That was actually a really good ending (at least the one I got, I'm not sure about any other endings there might be) to an amazing series 😭😭

Also, if you haven’t blocked the twdg spoilers tag, I’ll put a break here but if you haven’t played the episode and/or don’t want major spoilers for Take Us Back, don’t read the rest of this long ass post. You have been warned. (That sounded super serious sksksksks 😂)

Ok so I’m just gonna start off with the beginning when AJ voiced the “last time on The Walking Dead” like damn that entire sequence put my anxiety (which was already super high because I was literally freaking out about possibly getting Clem or anyone else killed) through the roof. He was listing all the things I’ve taught him in the past and that shit honestly gave me ten different types of anxiety.

So, I got James killed in the last episode so I have no idea what he says in this episode or anything like that, but I’ve heard that it’s not great sksksksk

Anyway, the fact that we literally saw James as a walker broke me so much I was literally crying at that point.

And then when AJ said he wanted to be a firefighter damn that shit was lowkey kinda cute. At that point I was a little more relaxed because we were somewhat safe in the cave.

But then shit went so south when we left the cave and after we met up with Violet.

Of course I had to mention the tree house and omg I almost cried again just thinking back to season 1 when we met Clementine in her tree house 😭 (Even though I’m pretty sure she said she hated her tree house in season 2 abgsfhj)

And of course I had to rename Ericsons to Castle Violet who do you think I am

But the bridge OOF

Fuckign Minerva akajsfkjh I’m wondering if there was a way where she could have lived I highly doubt it but damn I wasn’t expecting her just die like that wow I was lowkey kinda hoping maybe she would get some kind of redemption but wow that whole dragged out death was so gruesome but not necessarily in a bad way, at least not for this series sksksksks

And damn Minnie just had to fucking slice Clem’s leg that shit looked like it hurt askdjashdg

AND THEN TENN FUCKIGN DIED WHAT THE FUCK

I think if I hadn’t told AJ to make the tough calls then he wouldn’t have shot Tenn, and Violet probably would have died instead (or Louis if you saved him at the end of episode 2) Fucking hell

And when we split up and Vi went back to the school goddamnit that scared me because I had a feeling something was gonna go wrong  AND I WAS FUCKING RIGHT WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK

At this point I was fucking crying my goddamn eyes out because CLEM GOT FUCKING BIT WHAT THE ACTUAL SHIT JFHJKSGHJGF

I was such a mess at this point there was honestly no saving me

The entire time I was shouting at Clem to just chop her leg off at that point because there was no way that Clem was gonna die in such a stupid way like damn. wait fuck that's how Lee died AKSFJKG IM SORRY LEE I DIDNT MEAN TO DISRESPECT YOU LIKE THAT FUCK

Anyway

And then when I got that fucking achievement after that at that point like, first of all fuck you game, second of all fuck you. But seriously, I was genuinely wondering if there was any way to avoid her getting bitten but idk at this point it’s almost 1am I have school in the morning and I am way too tired to replay the entire episode even though it was a lot shorter than I thought it was gonna be tbh probably because I didn’t look around for collectibles as much and because I probably didn’t pause the episode as much as I usually do while making hard decisions sksksks

And then when we made it to the barn and we fucking started playing as AJ I was freaking out at this point

But when Clem was literally dying I was sobbing the entire time and just fuck, the parallels between that and season 1 when Lee died goddamn that shit hurted

I literally had to pause the game at this point because AJ was crying right in my ears and I couldn’t focus because I was also crying and only one of us can cry at a time buddy

Originally in episode 3 I told AJ to leave Clem if she ever got bit but fuck I didn’t think it was actually gonna happen so I changed my mind and told AJ to kill her because god damn I’m not gonna let her turn into a walker fuck that (even though that’s exactly what I did with Lee fuck) (Also I just looked and I’ve literally used the word fuck in this post like 23 times so far sksksksksks 😂)

And when it cut to black after that, literally all that was left was the sound of my sobs goddamn. And the achievement “final lesson” that shit just made me cry even harder

And the fucking ranch flashback right after goddamnit I was still mourning Clem you can’t just have me play as her again like that, shit. Also damn poor AJ 😭😭

And then when AJ was fishing and Rosie showed up damn she actually put a smile on my face somehow. I didn’t think that was possible at that point

Clem’s hatttt 😭 I was so scared I wouldn’t get it because I kept missing the quick time events but then Rosie got it thank god

And omg when we got back to the school and Take Us Back started playing I was even more of a mess I thought the episode was gonna end there but boy am I glad it didn’t

Also omg Ruby and Aasim holding hands damn that shit was adorable

When the music faded out and shit, I was like ok I think there’s still a little more to the episode but then FUCKING CLEM STARTED TALKING AND AT FIRST I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING IS AJ IMAGINING THIS BUT NO CLEM WAS ALIVE AND OH MY GOD I LITERALLY STARTED CRYING AGAIN BUT THIS TIME THEY WERE HAPPY TEARS AJHAFSGF

I was so fucking glad that Clementine was alive I didn’t even care about the fact that she was missing a leg I was just so glad to see her oh my god I really thought she was dead

And they all lived happily ever after

Jk except for Tenn GODDAMNIT HE DESERVED BETTER

But seriously, I was so glad Clem wasn’t dead and that mostly everyone was alive I seriously thought I was gonna get a shitty ending (But I’m also a little confused on how Clem survived the bite. I know she obviously cut her leg off and she did say something to AJ about she was glad he didn’t listen to her in the barn which I’m assuming was referring to when she told him to kill her, but if that was where Clem had her leg chopped off, I feel like the bite would already have spread to the rest of her system at that point? Idk I’m not gonna question it I’m just extremely glad she’s not dead)

And the very ending where we walked through the hallway and it showed all the names from the Still Not Bitten Team damn I loved that so much

And omg when we went into the room and were able to look at Disco Broccoli and his friends, I noticed that the option to look at Disco Broccoli kept popping up so I kept selecting it and ALKHASDFJKG I FELT LIKE I ENTERED ANOTHER DIMENSION WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT I don’t wanna spoil it but y’all need to see that if you haven’t already skskskkssk whether you replay the episode and see yourself or if someone makes a video of it on YouTube (which I feel like someone will eventually)

But omg the very ending with the “thank you for playing” that shit hurted 😭 I literally started crying again but not nearly as much as I thought I would tbh I thought I would be bawling my eyes out for hours but at this point I just feel kinda numb 😂 Like it hasn’t really set in that The Walking Dead just ended. Maybe because I can immortalize it forever in my Steam library and replay it however many times I want (and by reading fanfiction sksksksksks) 

(Also this post is gonna be put into my queue until more people play the episode so it probably won’t be posted until later tomorrow. So just know that this post was made at 1 in the morning a few hours after the release of episode 4 and I have to go to school tomorrow morning. Wish me luck)

Long story short, that entire episode was amazing (even if it did fuck with my head a little and was a little emotionally scarring sksksks) and I am so glad I was basically able to grow up with Clementine and this entire series

Also here are some screenshots because why not 😂

sksksksk AJ’s face 😭😂

This shit hurted 😭 (But it’s also a really pretty picture and I highkey want this framed on my wall or at least as my wallpaper on my phone or some shit)

What the fuck when did I ever say it was okay to try and kill someone if they try to steal from you alskhjags (Update: I just realized that this was referring to when I attacked Abel aksjdhkhg AJ THATS NOT WHAT I WANTED YOU TO TAKE AWAY FROM THAT)

This was actually really cool and even though it made me feel a little guilty because some of these choices I made weren’t the best, oh well

And here are my choices because why not 😂

And lastly, I want to thank Skybound from the bottom of my heart for saving this incredible game. If it wasn’t for this company these last two episodes wouldn’t have ever come out and Clementine and AJ’s story wouldn’t have gotten a proper ending. So thank you so much Telltale for starting and creating this amazing game and thank you to Skybound for giving it a proper sendoff.

#twdg #twdg spoilers #spoilers #dont say i didnt warn you #queue #telltale games #skybound #skybound games #the walking dead game #great now im crying #goddamnit

[wondercookieunicorn]

1/? That's mean of her :( but im glad the call went well! and asdjskl pls keep making jeffrey jokes i love inside jokes. YAS the arcana is great!! I only started a few weeks ago but i love it soooo much!! Julian is def my fave (lucio the prick is second and i love portia too) but im almost finished with julian's route and it makes me sad bc i love him so much :( you're still a little taller then me~ im 167cm and i hate it i want to be taller :

2/? And you think you might be ace?! That's awesome!! I'm ace myself! Don't let anyone tell you what you can identify as, you know yourself best and only you get to decide! Also if you have any questions to ask about asexuality (or aromanticism, or anything really) i'd be more than happy to answer them as well as i can! ^^ Hahaha yea i get that feeling! When I wake up i usually am very out of it and can't focus well, but i get cranky on top of that when i am rudely awoken XD - 🌱💚            

3/? YEAH!!! I'm really excited to have my braces removed though i know it will be weird for a few days. But I'll get retainers instead so I won't have to miss braces for long XD (seeing doie in that one jcc ep lowered my self-consciousness about my braces/retainerrs a whole lot and he looks so cute with them in and i uwuwuwu) but thank you anyway!! your taste in music is cool, too!! and i come here daily now that i know you (omg i cant believe i wrote that i never flirt ever this is cringy) 🌱💚 

4/5 OH GOD WAKEY WAKEY IS AN EXPERIENCE i literally cannot listen to the song because of the hair. what on earth was he thinking, honestly. ohh yea i see. for me i knew about nct since predebut when they were ft in exo 902014 and then nct u debut came but i didnt like the song back then. But i did like fire truck and chewing gum when they were released but i never liked it enough to stan (big mistake on my part) so years went by and i re-found out about them during regular promotions and - 🌱💚     

5/5 i was intrigued by the memes and stayed for the boys and music, and i do not regret any minute since. I'm sad i havent stanned them for longer but im so super glad i know about them now. but yeah, that's my nctzen origin story XD as for the movies, i watched Missing Link and Always Be My Maybe. they were entertaining, though not my fave movies ^^; But i'll be signing off and going to sleep soon, just fyi! It was fun talking with you again and i hope you sleep well later! ily!!! - 🌱💚                  

I have mastered jeffrey jokes, so that part of me is very relieved lmao!! 💓 

My friend ditching me ain´t suprising so- whatever idk it happens

Julian was my fav at first too, but Muriel TT sksksks

Don´t wanna be taller. yOu just think that. Trust me. We have the perfect height. Every human of our size is the perfect size! Easily hugable, not too tall, not too small! I´m rooting for our heights! no lmao but srsly tho, I rlly do think that that´s kind of the perfect size~

Ahhhh you´re too kind sksksks!! 💓  I´ll make sure to let you know incase I ever have questions about sexualitys! Plus, I might not be the greatest help rlly, but if you have questions or just feel the need to complain about anything of that sort (or any other sort lol), feel free to do so ~^^ 💓 

being rudely awoken should be an illegal crime period

Awww sksksksks I think I gotta crack into Yutas contacts and make him give me Doyoungs number or anything so I can send him to you sksksks you´re so cute when you´re talking about him sksks when you´re talking abt the others it´s cute too but not to thAt extent sksks 💓 

hahahsjskhadahhf I love u sksksks I never flirt either, that´s a weird experience sksksks I´m glad you´re making an exception for me right dere where´s ma lenny face at ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ksksksks (I don´t know how this´ll come across but I´m still joking sksksks dw! 💓)

Don´t attacc johnny like th---- You know what? That hair was TRAGIC SKSKSKSK I am- anyway

woah since predebut?? That must rlly hurt thooo ohnoooo, BUT you here now, that´s all that matters!!!! PLUS The 7th Sense-- I- I never got friends with that one smh. And cherry bomb was almost everywhere and it annoyed me. Main reasons why I ditched 127 for dream somehow. Idk. But yeh. We here now!! 💓 

Well I don´t know both of those movies,,,, or I might know them, just not the english titles,,, uhhhhhhh - okay i googled, I don´t know both of them but the pictures from Missing link kinda creep me out,,,,

What are your favorite movies/genre then? Your question for tmr lolol  💓 

YES YES, go to sleep love it´s getting late~ Sleep well 💓

#anon project

[dfwemelie]

May 2019

May 1st, nothing really that special happened today. We made icecream in Culinary and Carlos got really excited cause their were sugar cones. Izzy ate the most icecream out of all of us and hes lactose intolerant so he was hurting afterwards.

May 2nd, I was really stressed out this motning cause I havent finished my dress for the Fashion show tomorrow and it was raining and thundering. I had to stay after school for Fashion till 4 and I stayed with Scott after that until 5:30. I like staying after with him. We just makeout and talk and get paranoid about cars passing by. I think today we made out for 25 minutes straight which is a new record lol. He tops himself every fucking time and it’s so hot. Like holy shit because makeout sessions ever.

May 3rd, today was the fashion show and I was really stressed out at first but I ended up finishing my dress. The problem was that it was extremely short so I kept having to pull it down so you wouldnt be able to see my shorts under it. Seth and Aj were their watching their girlfriends and both of them took videos of me and sent it to Scotty. He said I looked beautiful. I met Kelly’s mom and sister and they seem really nice. I havent ate since Chickfila this morning and I’m starting to get really hungry/hangry. I might make me food but idk yet.

May 4th, Lots of pain occurred today. I woke up at 7:35 to get ready for the Nami Walk. Once my grandparents picked me up we got to Chickfila and headed to the Sam Houston State Park in Houston. The walk started around 9:30 and we finished at 11 only because my meme and Mrs.Pat walk so slow. It was fun overall but my feet were killing me and the back of my left leg was hurting alot and idk why. After the walk we headed to Galveston to meet up with my family. We stayed at the beach for an hour then went home. I ate a little bit and took a shower and now I’m here. I’m currently watching Thor Ragnarok cause it’s the only Marvel Avengers movie I havent seen.

May 5th, Cincooooo De Mayooooo. I didnt really do anything today besides sleep. I woke up at 3am for no reason then fell asleep. then woke up at 7 then fell back asleep at 1 till 5. I dont think I will br falling asleep early tonight cause I’ve slept so much. Scotty got to drink a margarita and I’m jealous. Also Ghala and Kaylie are so fucking cute and I stan them sooo much.

May 10th, damn. I told myself I would do this more often, bitch I havent done it in 5 days. Let’s talk about yesterday, May 9th. Scotty and I stayed afterschool (nothing new) and he was sitting down and I was ontop of him and we were making out. This BITCH flips me over to the ground, puts his hand down my pants, and…yeah…not actually touching me, just through my underwear. I was very ShOoK by this but I didnt stop him cause it felt really really fucking good. Like I’m not complaining.(I hate the word moaning so I use cake) Lots of cake was happening and he end up getting a boner. He has actually been getting them since we first started staying afterschool and I didnt know lol. I almost ended up having an orgasm but cars kept driving by and I told him if I see a car then he has to stop. I’ve never ever gotten this close with a guy. Not complaining. While cars were going by we kept telling weird sex related stories to eachother. He told me how when he was little his parents used the word dessert instead of condoms when he was around. Then his older brother told him what it meant and he was shook. On his 13th birthday his dad said he had a surprise birthday present in his drawer that didnt get opened at his party. He asked what it was and his dad said dessert. There were condoms in the bottom drawer of his dresser lol. Scotty also told me that he has personally bought different ones to use for future purposes. Now listen, I know its gonna be with me. I want our first times to be with eachother. That sounds strange but I love him and I want to lol but not now. Scotty wants me to go over to his house on his birthday to meet his parents. He also wants his birthday present from me to be us doing it. I said that’s not happening for a long ass time cause it’s too early and I’m not ready yet, even though I want him to be my first.

Different topic lol. Yesterday we got hit with some really bad weather and it fucked up my sleep schedule. I fell asleep at like 9pm then woke up at 11 then woke up at 2 then stayed awake till 4:30 then woke up at 5 then work up at 11. Like wtf??

May 12th, wow get ur shit together lol, do this more. Its official, I will be going over to Scott’s house if I get my gas laws homework packet done. My mom thinks I’m going over to Kaylies house, I hope she buys it. Im extremely nervous about meeting his parents, I’m hoping I’ll make a good first impression. Ive never met a boyfriends parents before so idk what to expect. I sent Kaylie a bunch videos about me deciding on what I’m gonna wear. I’ve decided on curled hair, light natural makeup, my blue ripped Jean’s, and either a red or blue shirt. I dont know how to act ugghhh.

Today I went over to my grandparents house and it was okay ig. My cousin Coleson came over and I was excited about that. He is my favorite cousin by far. I played basketball and ate food. I also drove from their house and back twice and I did pretty good. I wish I could talk to Scott but I dont want to interrupt his time with his mom cause it is Mothers day after all.

May 13th, I feel sick sksksks. like a vomit kind of sick and I feel like my limbs are weak and they are kinda shaking. It’s making me scared asf. I hope it will go away soon. I dont like feeling like this cause it gives me really bad anxiety and makes me have anxiety attacks. I’ve been getting alot of anxiety and panic attacks since sophmore year started

May 16th, Wow I really need to start doing this more often. Yesterday was Scott and I’s one month and he made a really cute video and I love it so much. I am still super nervous about Sunday, for alot of reasons. First I gotta meet his parents and idk how im gonna do that. I don’t know how to act or anything. Also Scott said its a shoes off house and I don’t want them seeing the cuts on my ankles. I’ll try to wear socks that cover them, I mean im gonna have to since i also wanna cover my 2 ankle tattoos. Also Scott says he wants to have sex. I don’t know if im ready for that yet. I’ve been thinking about it alot, mostly what would go wrong. Of course we would use condoms but they are only effective 98% of the time. I’m mainly worried about if I am gonna get pregnant or not. I can’t get pregnant. My life would be over. I’m saying this now, which is very contriversal, I would have an abortion. Yes its a human person who probably deserves to live but I just cant do that. I cant be pregnant. I don’t want to focus on all the bad stuff about sex, but the good stuff too. It supposedly has alot of health benefits. I don’t know how to do it though. Like I know how, but at the same time I don’t. Ya know? I also think we should wait to do it but in Scotts words, “I don’t plan on breaking up with you ever so we arent gonna get the opportunity to do it for a long time. So why not do it now when its gonna happen eventually.” I think im gonna do it. Talking about it makes me feel less nervous and weve been talking about it more and more since his birthday is in like 3 days. I want to talk to Kaylie about it but im scared she might say its too early. I know shes gonna support me in whatever I do, but I still want her opinion on it. I also nervous about Scott’s parents or siblings knocking on the door while we are in the middle of having sex. Scott always has his door locked which is good for the both of us. I know his older brother wouldnt bother us cause he’s like a cool brother and knows whats going on lol. I hope it doesnt happen but it might, just might be his mom checking up on us. I think im ready. Im nervous, but I want to do it with him. Im not being pressured into doing it by the way. He knows that if i dont want to do it, he won’t try, we would do what we normally do afterschool, but in his bed. 

I should probably talk about what has happened today instead of talking about sex lol. Nothing special really happened. Scott wanted me to go eat lunch with him and I said no. 1. I dont like school lunches, and 2. I don’t want to sit even remotely near Derek, and 3. I don’t eat lol. I kept telling him he should go eat and he said ok. I just layed down on a couch on my phone alone. Felt like old times, when I had no one to sit with so i just listened to emo bitch music. Good times, good times. 

May 17th, I had to take out my nose stud for pictures in Journalism and my piercing closed. At around 10pm I repeirced it with a thumbtack in the wall. I put a part of an earring in so it doesnt close overnight and now I have to sleep like that till I can go to the mall tmrw and get some more.

May 18th, I went to the mall and got some new piercings. I got a black star, blue ball, black hoop, purple gem, silver star, and a skull. I'm wearing the black hoop right now since it's my favorite. The skull makes me look emo lol. I'm really nervous about going to Scott's tmrw. Wish me luck

May 19th, Ok so I just got back from Scott's house. When my parents dropped me off they wanted one of them to walk to the door with me. I legit begged them not to. They wanted to make sure at least one parent was home so Scott's mom went out and waved. She also said she was Scott's mom but I dont think my parents thought anything of it since they didnt say anything to me yet about it. I met alot of people like his stepmom, stepdad, mom, all his siblings, some of his cousins, aunt and uncle, grandmas, and dog. His step dad was really funny and made alot of jokes. His step mom and I were talking a bunch about how cute JJ Watt and Tom Holland is and Harry Potter. We had pie and a bunch of us went up to his room and just messed around. His older brothers Damian and Ralph were messing with us and it was funny. My mom decided to be an asshole and picked me up 30 minutes early. I wish I could've stayed longer but Aunt Mandy and her boyfriend James are coming over to watch some wrestling thing. I'm glad I got to see Scott on his birthday. He seemed happy.

May 21st, I texted my mom yesterday about Scott, how we are dating, and how I lied and said I was at his house meeting his parents instead of going to Kaylies house. I thought I would be in really big trouble since I lied but apparently I wasnt. When I went downstairs to talk to them they were just happy i finally opened up and told them something about my personal life lol. They didn't ask that many questions about him which is a good thing cause i dont like questions, they make me feel uncomfortable. They know hes getting his license soon so my dad said we are gonna have to talk about people driving me around, other than Michael and his mom. I think it's just gonna be about not leaving the state and just staying close by to our house. At least I hope that's what it's only gonna be about. Knowing them, they are gonna put a bunch of restrictions. I'm pretty sure they would also want to meet Scotty before he drives me anywhere. They are 100% gonna make fun of him for driving a mini cooper lol, I already do. I'm actually really nervous about him meeting my parents, both sets. Ik I was nervous about meeting his but I think I'm more nervous about him meeting mine. I dont know how anyone is gonna react. Gavin is gonna be all weird and would want to talk alot lol. Gavin likes Scott, I really dont know why. Makes me nervous just thinking about it.

I took Scottys keys in Journalism today lol. It was cool just carrying them around. Made me feel like I actually had my own car even though there is a keychain with Scott's name on it. When he was walking me to class he took them back and I got offended. That's all that's happened so far lol.

May 23rd, I cried myself to sleep last night. Lol what a great way to start an entry. Basically I felt like I ruin everything I touch and somehow I was gonna ruin my relationship with Scott. He tried making me feel better but it didnt really work. Anyways, today has been kinda an off day. I dont know what it is about today, just not a good day. Haven’t been in the best mood since last night, but it’s fine..im fine. Everyone has their off days and I guess today is mine,  

May 24th, Yesterday Scotty was acting kinda weird so I typed him out a little paragraph to at least try to make him happy and all he sent back was "Love you too". I'll admit, it was a little bit frustrating spending all that time on that and getting a short response but its fine.

May 25th, I'm spending the night at Kelly's, well actually I already did. We went night swimming and it was fun. I woke up at 5am cause I was in so much pain and now I'm in even more. I just love bleeding internally and having cramps that make me feel like I'm gonna vomit. I tried looking for some aspirin or advil but I couldnt find any which is just so fucking great for me. Yeah anyways, I'm in alot of pain, feel like I'm go throw up, kill me to end my suffering

May 28th, wow yeah love procrastinating this lol. I had my Journalism and Child Development finals today so basically I did nothing at school. I accidentally stole Scotts key for the entire day and I was lowkey panicking cause I didn't know if I was gonna have the opportunity to give them back. I mainly played on my phone in Journalism. We judged the class Photo Safari and my group got 1st place in two of the categories and got 2nd overall. I was really surprised the portrait of me won cause I don’t think I look that great but apparently the yearbook staff thinks so. Thanks Avery :’) Our child development final was easy. We basically just had to write down about something interesting we learned and 3 jobs associated with child care. After that I got out a piece of paper wrote down everything I was thinking cause I cant actually say it or else I think people would hate me. But I basically wrote how I think Scott doesn't understand how I am feeling and my bipolar and depression and about an Instagram comment about something I really shouldn't be worrying about. Also I was writing on their how I am a stupid piece of shit who doesn’t deserve anything in her life cause she is just gonna fuck it up anyways just like she always does. I got done with that and the bell rang. I went to meet up with Scott and give him his keys then he walked with me for a little bit before he had to go talk to his teacher. Seeing him makes me happy, one of the few things that make me happy in this cruel world anymore. My dad called me and told me I had to get all of my work done tonight or else I would get my phone taken away all summer. I just don’t have the motivation to do this or anything for that matter. I’m gonna fucking fail anyways, might as well just deal with it. 

I don’t feel anything anymore. No pain. No happiness. I am simply just...here. Maybe that's why I do it. To feel something...anything. I don’t care if it gives me pain I just want to feel human again. 

Anyways. goodbye. Ig ill see ya in the next entry if im not already dead yet.

May 29th, today overall has been pretty good. I helped Cameron, Drew, Kaleb, Cassie, and others on the Geometry final. Which basically means I gave them all the answers. Cameron was 2 rows away from me so I texted them to him. I also took my Chemistry final today and I already know I failed that bitch. My parents are making me go to summer school for it which is no bueno. After the last bell rang I got to walk with Scott to the back doors. I don't want school to him. I'm gonna miss seeing him everyday. Tomorrow is the last day of school which means it's Izzys last day. I already know damn well I'm gonna fucking cry. I don't want him to leave but hes moving so their is nothing I can do about it. Tomorrow I'm gonna tell him how much of an amazing friend he has been and that everything will get better in the end. I dont want it to be tomorrow.

May 30th, Last day of school and just as I expected, I cried...alot. I didnt have a chance to say goodbye to Izzy like I wanted which made me very upset. I actually liked going to school, just not the learning. Seeing all my friends was the only thing I looked forward to. Now I have nothing. Once Scott gets his license we will be able to hang out but I want that to happen now, not in like a month. I said goodbye to Avery, Kaylie, Carlos, and all my teachers. I'm gonna miss it. But hey, I'm finally a junior. 2 more years then we can move to California. Maybe I'll start looking forward to that. I have to go to summer school and I'm really not excited about that, I know alot of people that are going which kinda makes me feel better ig.