im back again with another lyric analysis <3 this edition is for Sastiel (my beloved).
State Of Grace by Taylor Swift (preferably the acoustic version)
All Sam has known for his whole life is touch and go. He has never been in one place for more than a few months at a time (other than his escape to Stanford).
He also has been more aware and open-minded than Dean his whole life; he has a changing mind when given new information, like how he learns to understand that the ‘monsters’ they fight aren’t always evil, and that he can empathize with them. He learned this far before Dean.
He has always loved whole and hard; his love always bleeds, he has been hurt so much through losing the people he held dearest. They fade away.
“You come around and the armor falls” <— is literally the Gadreel grace retraction scene. Cas telling Sam “The only person who has screwed up things more consistently than you, is me.” !! So delicate and intimate.
They have each other. Even when Dean is missing or gone, even when they feel like they have messed everything up, they have each other. They don’t let go, they can’t, they won’t. <3
“Just go to my room and turn on Netflix, you will figure it out” is such an important line to me (even though i couldn’t find the real quote). Sam feels comfortable enough with Cas to let him be in his room, his private space, alone. Cas feels comfortable enough in Sam’s room to take his beloved trench coat off. They trust each other; when they are together, everything is wiped clean.
THIS IS THEM !! ^^^
Cas was never a saint. He didn’t succeed as God. He didn’t succeed as an Angel of the Lord. He didn’t succeed in Dean’s eyes. (“Something always goes wrong, Dean”; “Why does that always seem to be you.”).
Sam loved a werewolf. Sam loved a demon. Sam loved a witch. In Dean’s eyes, Sam always loved in shades of wrong.
They learned to live with the pain, separately at first, but, they also learned to live with each other’s pain. Cas literally told Sam, “I was lost until I took your pain”.
According to Google, Mosaic is “an individual (especially an animal) composed of cells of two genetically different types”.
Sam and Cas are systematically different on a surface level, obviously, as angel and human, but Sam also has demon blood running through him. It’s part of him. Sam and Cas, on an inner, biological level, are opposites. They’re LITERALLY “Mosaic broken hearts”.
When they’re together they’re brave. Especially when Cas is looking for Sam, or protecting him.
- “Who are you, and where is Sam?”
- “You wont take Sam Winchester. I won't let you.”
- “You come near Sam Winchester, and I will kill you.”
But, also, their love is wild, they have such s chaotic energy as a duo. They are unhinged, but also mean well.
To me, grace is literally their entire theme. (I am a bitch for the grace drinking ‘purification’ idea, too.)
Cas believes Sam is a worthwhile fight: “Nothing is worth losing you”.
This last line, to me, is totally post-Jack era. They have a family together, a son, that they both would die for. They love each other. Sam sent so many texts with Cas left, he was so worried. When Cas showed back up in the bunker he looked at him like he could make his world continue spinning.
Lastly, the chorus:
Sam never thought Cas would come into his life. A real angel. An angel who would later become one of the most important people in his life.
Cas never expected Sam to be this important to him. He thought of Sam as the ‘boy with demon blood’, an abomination. But, Sam proved himself to be so much more than that.
Neither of them would ever be where they are without each other, and they will never be the same.
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Okay :3 that is all.
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