#i really like this tho

[edens-vicess]

whaaa first art post😱😱

#this actually isn't my usual style but i'm experimenting hdhfrbhrr #i really like this tho #i post more art on baphobat on insta #iv sleep token #sleep token

[ahollowgrave]

thinking thinking thinking

#trying out a new hair #i think i like it but #i am so ! picky about hair for odette #i really like this tho #it's about the right length with the front pieces #and its an updo #so it may just be her 'updo' hair for some outfits and shots #thinking face x20 #middie #midlander #pigeon screens

[homicidalfantrolls]

16 for Tori!!!

wrath

The days where no amount of blood was enough were getting more frequent and harder to deal with. The usually satisfying feeling of a blade cleaving through flesh like air wasn’t the same. Nothing felt the same.

The only thing Toresce could hope would fix it at this point was numbers. Quantity over quality. It didn’t matter that he’d already killed what had to be a dozen trolls in the ring. It didn’t matter that it was getting increasingly hard to keep his footing on the blood soaked ground. He needed more.

The next round was two of the largest purples Toresce had ever seen. Perhaps it was his vision, blurry with exhaustion, that made it seem that way. But it was his pride that told him he’d handled bigger. Shifting his feet and his grip on his gladius, his hot pink eyes narrowed at the smirking clowns.

“This is the guy? The almighty Gladiator?” one snorted. “He looks like he’s set to fall over any second.”

As true as it was, it was impossible to care. He’d only had a couple of scrapes. No blood loss. Sure his gills were raw from lack of water, his lungs burning with exertion. Nothing mattered.

He lunged.

All the exhaustion was forgotten as adrenaline took hold. He didn’t have a body, he wasn’t a troll, he was pure killing instinct. The shocked expressions on the twos faces didn’t register, even as they struggled to deflect blows. Toresce never left any time to counter.

But purples were durable. And these ones were fast. If he had taken them on twenty minutes ago or after some water, it would be different. These ones were experienced and shrugged off every wound. An opening— he needed an op—

Pain shot up the fuschia’s leg as his sandal found a rock slick with blood. His legs swept out from under him, he crashed into the ground. Experience and instinct let his grip stay firm on his sword, stupidity having him fall on his other hand. If he was any lower he’d have broken it. As it was now, he hand was simply skewered straight through from an unfortunate dagger left behind.

The purples looked at each other before bursting out into laughter. “Are you serious? You fucking fell? Messiahs, here we were almost startin’ to think you were worth something.”

They prowled closer like coyotes, their bloodthirsty grins blurry and unfocused. Toresce’s arm felt like lead as he struggled to lift his sword, adrenaline seeping out his body through the wound in his hand. One of his opponents snickered, stepping forward and crushing his hand and the hilt of his sword under their boot. Toresce’s vision went scarlet with pain, the metal cleats of the boot piercing his skin on one side, the pressure having rocks like razors slice into it on the other side.

As blinding as the pain was, it wasn’t as bad as the tightness in his chest. He couldn’t breathe. Where was the air? There was plenty just a minute ago, and now it was gone. How did they not notice? How could they breathe with no air?

They laughed. The one crushing his hand kneeled directly onto Toresce’s ribs. It was impossible to breathe now, the gladiator wheezing and struggling to take in air through his raw gills. The purple tilted Toresce’s chin up with a single claw in what could almost be seen as affection. “How pathetic. Don’t worry, you’ll be with the gods soon. If they even have a use for someone as pathetic as you. It’ll be a mercy killing. She was right about you, you know. You’re weak.”

Heat encompassed Toresce’s hand. Bubbling heat; like a warm bath. It was comforting. Why was it so warm? His blurry vision slowly focused, his sight revealing the purple on top of him, clawing at their own throat. A calloused, scarred hand was caressing their jaw, the dagger pierced clean through the hand now through the flesh of another.

The purple swatted their hands at Toresce, claws digging into his skin, eyes wide as they choked, blood bubbling over their lips and onto Toresce’s face. It tasted sweet, like fresh grapes. Soon, however, the pitiful clawing stopped, and the clown went limp, lifeless body held up only by the knife that turned it that way. What a beautiful sight.

Toresce’s attention was pulled away however when realized that he wasn’t alone. That’s right. There was another. Another purple, eyes wide in certain admiration. Fins fluttering as he preened, Toresce grabbed the body by its hair, pulling it clear from the knife in his hand to let it fall into the rocks.

The purple took a step back as his opponent rose to his feet, not even removing the dagger to lick the messy fuchsia and violet off the blade.

The living purple took a step back, grip tightening on the flail that hadn’t left their hand. Impressive. He didn’t let his guard down for a second. Even when victory was certain. Toresce pulled the blade free from his hand, tossing it to the side where it landed by his gladius. His opponents gaze followed the weapon before returning to Toresce. Their purple eyes narrowed. “You just threw away your weapon.”

Toresce laughed. “No. I didn’t.”

Flails were too slow. You never used them in one on one combat. Any skilled tighter knew that. It was far too slow to catch Toresce before he was ripping into its wielder’s neck, tearing a chunk out with his bare teeth. If they were lower, they’d be dead before they hit the ground.

As it was, the purple pulled at Toresce’s hair gently, claws digging into his back even as their knees gave out and they fell to the ground. Pulling away from their neck to swallow the flesh, the gladiator watched as his opponent choked on their blood, eyes never leaving the fuchsia’s face. The hatred burning in those eyes was hotter than the blood pooling over Toresce’s fingers. The hatred didn’t fade from those eyes as the life did, the painted face going soft as their head lolled limp to the side, lifeless.

They were strong. Stronger than the other. They could help Toresce be stronger, too.

And nothing would go to waste.

#hey ghosty I got carried away #gore tw #cannibalism tw #ask if I should tag anything else!!! #I really like this tho #Toresce gladia #ask #I really like this though I think I wrote Tori’s perspective very well #Corpse writes

[kavaleyre]

• The Hanged Man •

“Compared to what Falin went through? This is nothing.”

#my art #laios touden #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi laios #hanged man #falin touden #dungeon meshi spoilers #cw blood #walk it off kid walk it off #I really thought hanged man was a good choice for this moment #hanged man is all about sacrifice and introspection and intuition #and a moment of trials that lead to clarity #also when he was falling??? with the blood out of the dragons mouth??? #stunning #i love him so much #the line art for this was so fast and then I colored and revolted the flats for like. 20 hours #like how it turned out in the end tho #kavaleyre

[gunpowdercarousel]

You know what? Fuck it.

Githyanki Cleric of Selune

Romance~

#baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 memes #shadowheart #bg3 tav #tav #my tav #honestly tho i really like her design #also it makes sense that gith would worship selune #since lae'zel is literally from the tears of selune #like #why not

[hansoeii]

I probably won't finish this piece any time soon, but I wanted to share the unfinished version with you anyways!

#i'm just so busy these days I can't find the time to work on bigger illustrations #:((( #I still really like how this looks tho #So I wanted to show it to you all anyways #this is south downs aziracrow #good omens #good omens fanart #good omens 2 #aziraphale #crowley #aziraphale and crowley #ineffable husbands #ineffable husbands fanart #good omens 2 fanart #my art

[vita-divata]

Finally got the time to fuel my new hyperfixation yippeee <3

#my art #tlok #legend of korra #korrasami #asami sato #I love Korra so much I am NOT immune to powerful women….. #I watched the show like 4 months ago and I already have like 50 wips 😶 #really loved it tho #some real good ships over there #:3c

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

#warm up #this isn't good #writeblr #this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3 #but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker #and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS #the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!? #..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much. #on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt #and medical debt #i will put that first little bit of cash #into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments) #i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option #but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver #oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs

[kithj]

good games i've played on itchio lately:

please tell me you love me - chat with your guild members for the last time before the game's servers are shut down

GIRLKILLER (covet) - there is a girl who looks like you, and today you're going to kill her

cover me in leaves - stuck in your small hometown, you get your first tattoo. and then a few more, and more, and more

don't rock the boat - play through the different perspectives of a women's crew team as they are stalked by something in the water

GUTLESS - you are the captain of a deep sea vessel. your mission doesn't go well

so, about last night... - you wake up sick and weirdly hungry after hooking up with someone at a party. you spend the next night trying to find her.

close the window, my love - short bitsy poem about closing the window. sound on! this creator has a lot of short bitsy works i recommend.

there is a beautiful star - just a short, cute side scroller. lots of short, lighthearted games from them, definitely recommend for a mood booster.

#these are all p short except for so about last night gutless and rock the boat #still not super long tho #these are all on my itch page too but whatever lmfao #also cringe i feel so awkward writing descriptions but i dont really have a lot to say personally #except. Good Game 👍 #also sorry recommending gutless a second time sue me #i think girlkiller is my favorite atm... i like the ambiguity in that one and two different endings #games

[nouverx]

It's funny how my Alastor art is like

"Baby boy baby!!"

".... Evil"

#hazbin alastor #alastor #I usually draw him so round and cute I felt like it wasnt fair to his actual character ahah #I'm really happy with how my angry Alastor expressions turned out #but he's still babygirl tho #hazbin hotel fandom #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin art

[transthatfag]

looking.

#I was really in the mood to do a portrait soooo #though the colors were really hard for me to settle on ngl #like even not im on the fence about them but its cool #the hand and the face are pretty fine tho #art #digital art #my art 🦷 #mcr #gerard way #my chemical romance #mcr fanart

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[saintforan]

Oh no, he's turning him into bread!

#art #artists on tumblr #digital art #digital illustration #poppy playtime #poppy playtime 3 #poppy playtime chapter 3 #catnap #dogday #smiling critters #i really need to know how animators do this #i nearly died on this like 2 second gif 😫 #but thats okay tho i learnt how to do something new

[jagalart]

Yarrow and Feverfew

Art trade with the incredible @liscepu, I'm so grateful for the chance! Thank you for fueling my love for the game again <3

#arthur morgan #red dead redemption #rdr2 #rdr fanart #flowers #portrait #illustration #Also #since gathering and crafting from plants is one of my fav things in open world games I've been really enjoying drawing game characters with #like I've done with Geralt or Pathologic before - I will be definitely doing that more in the future! <3 #This also reminded me I still need to return to platinum-ing RDR2... #...These damn 70 golden medals tho #I have no idea how I'll do it 💀

[starrysharks]

friendship is magic

closeups:

#zeno's art #my little pony #my litte pony friendship is magic #mlp #mlp fim #twilight sparkle #rainbow dash #fluttershy #pinkie pie #applejack #rarity #this was a fun redesign practice #tried to be diverse with body type and species as the og show is pretty limited (i understand why tho) #my personal favorites are rainbow dash and rarity #and twilight. i cooked tbh #i feel like a lot of redesigns just add accessories which is fine but i really wanted to change a lot #some more than others #also dashie is a half zebra and pegasus and fluttershy is half pegasus half those little bug ponies that showed up in one ep #pinkie is a sheep #i might do equestria girl designs and slash or some background pony redesigns #idk #enough ramble

[liquidstar]

stim toys for old greek men ^

#this is very specific but if you know an old greek man youll understand #theyre actually genuinely fun to play with tho i get it. it really does occupy the hands well #i cant do tricks with them like all the old men tho LOL