#i really need a good grade

[valcaine]

I forgot to post this here whoops

#technoblade #technoblade fanart #yes this is on a test paper #now we wait and see if I got a good grade 💪💪💪🔥🔥🔥 #doodle #dude I REALLY NEED TO GET TO THOSE DOODLE REQ ROTTING AWAY IN MY ASKBOX but I have yet to finish techno’s new design #would this also count as a ramble. idk #my hands burn #and I am tired #art #art more like fart #shoutout to the mechanical pencil I scrounged up from the ground that I proceeded to use for this

[gurinpotte]

evidence dump of the brain altering that rewatching atla for the first time as an adult has caused in the past few weeks

#atla #avatar: the last airbender #aang #katara #zuko #kataang #tiny bit of maiko #kataang kiss on the cheek for katara seeing as she's always the one kissing on the og #kisses for this girl #i love zuko #you get a good grade in redemption mr hotman #an sleek adult aang reminding everyone he doesnt eat meat. like me #an buff aang is his loose robes phase i needed to see it #i love aang #too much for my own good #sketches #gurinillustratesatla #avatar the last airbender #i'm sorry this blog has really derailed as a themed blog i'm sorry

[uncanny-tranny]

A big argument against asexuality and aromaticism is the idea that you can be too young to know. I remember people being so put out by the idea of somebody under eighteen identifying as aro or ace, and they made it known how they thought it was bad.

However... I really don't agree with that outlook. I knew something was up with me when my friends were developing a "normal" identity in the eyes of amatonormativity, and I was under eighteen. Mind you, I didn't have words to express how I felt, so I was in a perpetual state of feeling pressure to be "one of the normals." It made my life miserable because I was being dishonest to myself and cloaking who I was behind a layer of shame.

My point is that... when you know, you tend to know. Sure, your identity might change, but is that more important than making sure you are comfortable in yourself? Would you rather feel the way I did at my age hearing about my allo friends? Because it was unbearable, and I don't wish that on anybody.

#ace #asexual #aro #aromantic #lgbt #lgbtq #i guess i can see where people are coming from... but a lot of people who say this don't seem to be aro and/or ace #and it's like... okay you can ask how people can *know* they're aro and/or ace at a young age but it seems rather pointless to me #like... i feel the same way about being aroace as i did when i was in sixth grade having the same feelings so... #...i guess people are really under the impression that secretly *everybody* is allo and they just need to be proven they are #i'm here to say how wrong that is. allo is natural and so is aro/ace #anyway if somebody outgrows being aro and/or ace then: GOOD FOR THEM /gen /nm #i WANT people to understand their own sexuality and romantic feelings. i WANT people to be honest with themselves #and if that means they stop IDing as aro or ace or allo then so be it!!!!!

[synthesizerfaggot]

affirmations or whatnot: i need to finish this essay in order to get my nose broken in a mosh pit and chop my tits off and start a band later in life

#i also need to get a good grade in english class which for once is something that is actually normal to want AND possible to achieve #ghost posts #im really struggling here folks 👍👍👍

[problemcore]

been real cloudy here, without any rain

#halfway thru this i realized i was drawing myself and not gumi and i had to take a moment and re-gumi-fy the drawing #cant help being a gumi kinnie i guess U_U #dnoodles #vocaloid #i guess? idk i dont think a lot of people will reblog this. i actually kinda hope not. #hello dear followers #yea wow i have um. not been drawing at all lately. #not even simple doodles. i couldnt even pick up a pen. #so i sat down. turned on my favorite music. and drew what i wanted. #not what i wanted to see as the result #but what i wanted to let out of my system. #i dont really care if this looks good or bad. i dont care how messy the lines are. i dont care about the colors or the background #i just wanted to have a good time drawing again. and have a good time i did :) #i have a big drawing ahead of me i need to do. that i Want to do. #im scared of it not turning out good. especially since its for a friend. especially since im being paid for it. #but. im gonna let myself enjoy it. sink into the feeling and let the pen move on its own. indulge in the joy of creation. #i missed art. i missed posting. #sometimes i think about how i was able to crank out so many drawings in high school. #not without extreme determent to my grades of course. but still. i was drawing So Much. and i utterly loved it. #i still wish i could go back to that. perhaps i will. perhaps i wont. #but i want to let that wish go away. and. i guess. start a new chapter. #reinvent my relationship with art. #its going to be bad. its going to be messy. its going to hurt your eyes. and its going to be fun. #WOW okay that was an essay. thank you for reading. #im gonna go eat something and. actually get back to drawing. hehe

[brown-little-robin]

I emailed one of my professors about the ridiculous amount of work being asked of me for homework in her class. please pray it works out and at least she's not offended

#robin processes emotions on main #I am. struggling. with this class. #and it's terrible because I've been this professor's research assistant for TWO YEARS. I like her. I respect her. #but I... I'm gonna get a sub-optimal grade in her class. I'm struggling so hard. I'm TRYING but it's TOO MUCH it's too many hours #sighhhhh #I'm going to get a B in another class too because of unrelated reasons (refusal on moral grounds to do some of the homework) #and it's kinda really hitting me in the emotions #to be struggling so hard in classes I actually LIKE and am legitimately good at #my worth is not in my grades #now if only I could FEEL that #haahhh... I need to spend some time in prayer or something #and/or maybe a breakdown. just a little one! it would be cathartic

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

sketchy sketch of kitty cat L

#death note #l lawliet #furry #my art #forgor to give him pants bc i was trying to figure out how to do anthro cat legs #i'll prob have them wear pants tho #but L feels like the type to not bother ngl. i can't imagine the feeling of long fur inside denim would be very nice #anyway he's fun to draw #unsure if you all are as on board w cat death note as i am but i am kinda obsessed #i really should be doing schoolwork but tbh by this time at night i like. crave drawing. i need it #and besides i have all of tomorrow free bc apparently my prof is letting us skip our final if we have good enough grades #and i have like. a 96 or smth and i would rather not have to study when i'm still working on my art hist paper #all i have to do is art hist stuff. my prof wants us dead. everyone was talking before class today like. whyyyyyy #it's painful but at least it's cool #side note: i should put cat L in the laundry. spin him. wet soaked pathetic cat in the wash and fluffy puffball in the dry

[koszmarnybudyn]

Finally listened to the new dndads episode (might do some art for it later) here are my thoughts:

-you guys were right about those close family feels i am indeed sad now,

-did not expect Terry to be the one to shot Nick's arm off (thought it would be Grant) also i get the ship now, i do

-kinda glad that stampler thing was brief cause i think we tackled Scarys and Robs and Tjs relashonship before and it was nice for them to just be soft

-does Hermie age?

-the Wilson boys need to learn how to use the bathroom like normal people (its wilsons with their piss and the oaks with their stink and retainers i swear)

-Taylor had feelings?

-I love Glenn i really do, and i understand getting better isn't linear but god did he fuck up, i dont have personal experience with absent parents but god did it hurt

-Taylor and Norm gonna have to fight now i guess, its very funny

-yay i get an excuse to draw norm ugly crying and its canon now

-Scary is so so fun, i missed her, and Link,

-oh also, the Closes are so so ADHD (i mean id Jodie its canon, and honestly i headcanon most of the cast as autistic/adhd but the closes are the most adhd ones to me)

-do i have time to draw? Yes i think, will i? Hopefully

-i think that's it, this episode was fun, ended sooner than i thought, very good, stabbed me in the chest and took it

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #rant #really need to finish that mama's boy taylor animatic i kinda planned #cause the program i use finally has animatics #also i got some good grades today and am not totally exhausted so that's fun #cause next week is exam hell (i have like 2 big tests and 3 smaller ones) #also am on like episode 100 something of wtnv and it slaps #oh and i binged sherlock and co its great go listen to it it slaps #dndads spoilers

[fabdante]

lately i've been on a comically intensive quest to recreate my grandmothers rice pilaf

the dilemma being my grandma died when i was in elementary school and i cannot ask her questions

#little lebanese american things #channeling your feelings into reclaiming little bits of culture and a comically intensive quest to recreate rice pilaf you haven't had sinc #fourth grade because you suddenly got a hankering and now you just really need to figure out how to fucking brown the pilaf asdfghj #i have a plan for today after consulting my parents about this #their memories on how she made rice pilaf differ but im going to figure this out asdfghj #fab talks #fabtalks #like look the rice pilaf i've been making is good and all but i feel like i can make the pilaf browner yo usee asdfghj #my current plan is to brown it first that's plan 4 you see #i might delete this later the comedy however has struck me asdfghj

[r2y9s-notartblog]

Yooo you played in the school orchestra? What instrument(s) do you play? :D

i'm not in school anymore (that was years ago) but i went down the piano -> violin -> string bass -> cello pipeline! still have my 19 year old cello (mikey) and my 22 year old violin (sherry). i play them every now and then when i have the time :)

#replies #loki-lock #i just recently bought some new violin books to try and get myself to play more #but working full time really does drain a guy orz #speaking of i need to get sherry fitted for some new pegs #younger me had switched out two of the pegs and now it's mis matched and it keeps slipping #so i gotta call the luthier and see if they can do something about it #i didn't play piano in the school orchestra #and i switched to string bass in 7th grade because the orchestra was only violins and it just sounded not good without lower voices #and then in 12th grade i switched to cello bc all our cellists graduated and we had two bassists come in so i thought why not #i'm already reading bass clef how hard can switching to cello be #tbh once you learn to play one string instrument it's not too difficult to adjust to another one #u just gotta learn to read another clef lmao #ough musical instruments is another thing i could talk about all day if i don't stop myself haha

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[riverbeatsaber]

I know that the Imperial system is bad and all but I gotta say. I do really like how it works for sewing

#was watching jan misali's video on the imperial measurement system and thinking. #yes metric system is easier to multiply by 10. but you are not multiplying by 10 when sewing #you are dividing #specifically by two more than once #which gets Real ugly with 10 #but is very nice with 36 and 12 and fractions of an inch #I like being able to divide inches when doing seams instead of having to work in arbitrary numbers of millimeters (too precise) #or numbers of centimeters (not precise enough). #like you got 1'' 5/8'' 1/2'' 3/8'' 1/4'' 1/8''. very directly related to each other. all the precision you need. easy to remember #also easy to standardize for different 'types' of things you're sewing #clothes are 5/8'' or 1/2'' seam. accessories like purses are 1/2'' or 3/8''. quilts are 1/4'' and French seams are 1/8'' #and you can remember that and use it when you don't have a pattern to work directly off of #yards and fractional yards are also really nice to work off of when buying fabric. inches turn into fractional yards really really nicely #you can take a 5'4'' measurement for a cloak #which is 64'' just by remembering the multiples of 12 (remember your times tables? i learned those in 3rd grade) #which is 1 and 2/3 yards! very easy to remember and go to the fabric store and buy the right amount of fabric #(though i would round it up to 1 3/4 yards just to be safe) #good Lord 95 percent of this post is in the tags. anyway #my posts #sewing

[july-19th-club]

me age seven being sat down in front of the school’s district child psych lady and being given strange, simple spatial puzzles to solve and then long, complicated worksheets and hammering my way through them at the speed of light while having zero comprehension what their purpose was or why i was here: this is urgent! i have to get a good grade in Weird Puzzles, Or Else, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

#kjalkjsdalkjasdl mrs button was a nice lady but not one adult in my childhood ever seemed to notice what to me now seems like #a pretty obvious case of the autisms #then again maybe they just didn't look as hard unless it was *really* obvious back then . it was like. what. 2000? a couple years later #everybody was talking about autism but not when i was six or seven then it was usually just when it was Very Visible #a couple years later my cousin who's more visibly on the spectrum than me got her diagnosis so young that she's pretty much always had it #which is...well i think it's just made her life difficult in a different way. people underestimate her or don't treat her like she's her age #but then she's always had the opportunity to get accommodations and people are sometimes more forgiving when she can't do something #whereas i got labeled 'kid that should be ahead of the game' from a pretty young age and then when i struggled adults either ignored it #or it was just a huge hassle to them and even i could see it exasperated them to have to work around me #but because mrs button (nice lady but what were you thinking) hadn't told them to treat me like a kid with a developmental disorder #they didn't do that in good OR bad ways . so i never got any accommodations with school stuff i struggled with which was a fair bit #i wasn't supposed to need extra testing time in a quiet room or tutoring with math or help organizing my abysmally scattered things #the only time i DID get that was in sixth grade when i was sort-of friends with this kid jonathan who was Very On The Spectrum #he wasn't really a talker unless it was about whatever he was reading which suited me fine so we just kind of existed in each other's space #and his TSS was this very smart and nice lady who had clearly clocked that Something Was Going On With Me and even though it wasn't like #her JOB she made a little bit of time for me. mostly with emotional stuff (i think i was under the impression she was a therapist?) #but if i had some problem with being unable to keep friends or being frozen out by the kids i wanted to be liked by (happened often) #she'd be able to just like. be there she'd make the time . wish i could remember her name

[cheeze-whiz]

Forces you to listen to my post-musical/body-switched azathoth headcanons you will listen you will listen you will listen you will li

-It lost it's omnipotence after they actually got to earth (Marly did too).. they could finally stop realizing /j

-It dresses so. weird. like .. some days it'll be in booty shorts that say 'INVADING DENMARK BE BACK SOON' on the back and a suit that's way too sparkly and some days it'll be in a crop top that says 'NASA' and neon green jeans

-They start modifying their mortal vessel as soon as they're able to understand the concept of money .. dying their hair, getting either Simon or Adil to help pierce it's ears, getting tattoos of strange symbols... a lot of stuff (of course it has blue hair and pronouns /j /ref)

-One day the band decides 'hey this guy really needs a makeover or something' and it goes through like. a Disney channel glow-up sequence kinda

-it looks fabulous btw

-its a better manager than bobby was i just know it

#rockabye #rockabye musical #imagine it's lost omnipotence being like. ok so you know how when you don't need to actually try in school to get good grades but then #you forget everything you 'learned' because you never really paid a lot of attention in class because you knew you'd do good and suddenly #it gets really hard for some reason? yeah like that #basically gifted kid burnout but you're just a silly creature #i don't have a favorite character why do you ask? /s /j #pushing my horribly dressed azathoth agenda

[0mega-x]

"Vous n'avez pas assez travaillé" l'évaluation était casée en plein milieu de 2 semaines où il n'y avait que de ça et où je ne pouvait pas privilégier une seule de ces matières et j'ai fait de mon mieux sachant que la seule méthode que j'avais pour faire cette foutue analyse de doc était une fiche méthodologie assez abstraite.

"Une note généreuse" j'aurais pu avoir moins ?!

"Il faut se rattraper pendant le mois de décembre" ça fait 3 semaines que je ne m'amuse plus. Littéralement. J'ai réussi à sortir samedi dernier et c'est un exploit. Je ne veux vraiment pas sortir de ça pour m'y replonger pendant les VACANCES où il y aura déjà des devoirs et VOTRE dm.

#mes blogs #a little vent in french bc i really need to destress right now #she told me to not take what she wrote on my paper personally.... but like thats my paper #that's your feedback on what i did #and you're saying i didn't work. #how am i supposed to take it #its supposed to be my favourite subject #and its genuingly interesting #i used to have such good grades #now i get this #i feel so stupid in this subject now #i dont understand how to.... UNDERSTAND what im supposed to do

[theghostofashton]

just hopped off a call w my boss where she told me that an author had personally reached out to her to say how wonderful it's been working with me this is my win for the entire week

#getting a good grade in employee which i should not care about achieving but really do for some reason lol #but fr that was so needed this morning it has been Rough #neha rambles