#i really really dont want to do my homework like really

[puppyeared]

i wanna post my skip to loafer art but i cant do it knowing ppl are gonna put it on tiktok and pinterest bc itd be like. bringing an invasive species ykwim

#my meds just kicked in so im feeling talkative but truly idk how to explain it #its like. with anything else id be more than happy to introduce it to ppl like monkie kid and mp100. witch hat maybe but its personal to me #but skip to loafer is special to me. and i feel bad for saying this bc other ppl do deserve to watch smth they will enjoy #hell the reason i got into it was bc my friend was kind enough to lend me her copy and i got hooked #its so ironic im saying this esp given how insecure i am abt depicting characters wrong. but i really dont want to look thru the tags #and see them on a 'can i copy your homework' tier list. or ppl getting mad abt why egashira mitsumi and shima cant just be a throuple #its just!! i wont stop you if thats how you like to engage with the show or how you interpret it bc ill just ignore it and leave u alone!! #and theres no objective wrong way of doing it!! and i know that interacting with the work is what forms a community after all!! #but keeping it tight knit is just easier for me bc nobody has to worry abt making each other laugh and we can enjoy it for what it is #fully aware im saying this as someone whos drawn monkie kid art with text post memes and owl house draw the squad templates #but at the same time i just. dont want to explain myself or give ppl reasons why shima and mitsumi are ace coded just bc it 'feels right' #fandom is a communal thing and it feels so hypocritical thinking this. too many conflictng thoughts that idk what to act on #yapping

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right????? #this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh. #when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!! #idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy. #epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍

[aahsoka]

torn between going up to my bfs house to surprise him and watch a movie with him in person instead of online tonight or if that would just make him feel stressed

#im like ok this is what I would want if this situation happened to me #but what does he want. idk the man is an anxious mess #hed be like oh no i have to feed u or oh no u need to be doing ur homework or whatever . #i could pickup food on the way 🤔 #im just thinking about it like he only lives an hour away that was really nothing when i lived in wyoming #wed drive three hours to places on a saturday and back home all the time #it is a busy time for him work wise so i dont usually stay over bc we wouldnt get to see each other #but like we are gonna take a break to watch a movie Anyways . why not in person #jordan talks #someone help me out here should i just do it lmfao #tbf i havent even started sketching my project thats due tuesday .

[skeletoninthemelonland]

Is your springdad au and excuse to make most of the fnaf cast into straight up furries

maybe, maybe not

#maybe i also wanted to sprinkle a little dust of ✨brasilidade✨onto my art #i really like fatherly figures as well y'know #also love it when characters live a domestic life and have domestic life struggles #things like #'did you make your homework?' #'dad i threw up' #'SHIT I FORGOT THE KEYS' #'she hit me first!' #'i dont wanna go to school >:[' #'dad i need help with my math homework' #'aight kids. bedtime. you have school tomorrow' #'DAAAAAAAADDD can you do my hair pleeeaasee' #'i had a bad dream' #'EEWWW I HATE ONIONS' #'i got the matches. LETS GOOOO' #'dad said its my turn with the gameboy'

[spider-man-2o99]

the current lplan is to see ATSV this weekend because of drs appts eating up my thursday and friday (fucking exhausting) so Remember everybody remember it’s only canon if i like it . if mig’s Only Goddamn Movie writes him bad then it IMMEDIATELY is getting thrown in the fucking massive heap of spider-man media that Also Features A Shitty Adaption Of Spider-Man 2099 In It! and i will just sit in the theater crying painful quiet devastated tears in my seat and Frown whenever his scenes come up if so need be. but. if it’s Good my autism will b Fed for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever i think

#talking tag #atsv #spider-man 2099 #spiderman 2099 #miguel o'hara #kind of unrelated but. like. the more i really Think abt it the more i just Dont Like that migs design IS so Huge and scary actually. #i dont think Miguel should ever Loom. i think he /tries/ to loom and if he is standing on a wall above people’s /heads/ it works. #but. like. Miguel Just Standing There In His Costume should just be like an unnervingly Quiet guy yknow. #it’s SO EASY to mess up miguel’s character he has SUCH a distinct and memorable characterization in th comics that Not Doing Ur Homework— #—SHOWS y’know. and a Movie can only Show So Much while JUGGLING as much as atsv appears 2 be juggling #(long long sigh) not Once have we gotten a story where miguel and A modern spider-man got to. like. just HANG OUT. and Talk to each other. #is it really so much 2 ask for the spider-mans 2 just Talk Abt How Things Change & Don’t. i like it when mig shows vulnerability by bein Emo #idk there is Still Time perhaps i will be proven Very Very Wrong in my Many Worries and things will be fine :)) #but. GOD. there are So Many Ways 2 bungle mig. and i dont want to have 2 Wait Seven Years for ppl to calm down again not again

[certified-anakinfucker]

ok this is unprompted but if you pride yourself on being the reason people leave a space for something they genuinely love and have done no objective wrong - youre a piece of shit btw. like full send youre horrible.

#cheeri rants #this is brought on by me finally letting myself get back into smth i loved for like 5-6 years #and got squicked out of by senseless witch hunts and trans/misogyny and the like #im really sitting here remembering all the nights i stayed up with amazing friends #the shoulders i cried on and the hands i held for others #the people who stood with me through some of the toughest times i can remember #we all loved the same silly things #we all poured bits of ourselves into everything we created and we shared that with everyone #i still so vividly remember lamenting that id never get to see our interest irl #and someone i didnt even know all that well dm’d me a few days later asking if i had venmo or paypal #because they were going to give me $50 to buy a ticket. they wanted to go but couldnt #for some reason i cant remember but they gave me their own money and told me to please enjoy in their place #and you know what? i fucking cried that night. you dont see that anymore #the all-nighters i pulled with my best friend watching the live reruns of our interest before we even got into the fandom #doing my homework while we were on facetime together squealing #and all of this came to a screeching halt because of some . PEOPLE. #who figured we were having fun the wrong way because they didnt like it #and we put up all the flashing neon signs to warn people #warn them of smth they should have already known #and just because people ignored those signs it was taken out on us anyway #and i have never been so heartbroken to watch one by one as some of the brightest people i ever knew #started leaving. breaking down. their light was being stomped out because some assholes cant mind their own #and i will be fucking damned before i stand by and let that happen again. to anyone.

[onceuponasnacktime]

I simply want to relearn throwing pottery, but the studio in my town is ALWAYS booked during the hours I'm available. I want to create things to put other things inside and wood working comes with too scary of tools

#not really actually wood working would be fun too #but i am a bit affraid of electrical saws #i have therapy homework to do more things alone #because i usually only do things outside of my apartment if a friend or family member are going too #so my counselor was like “go do the things before your partner moves in itll be healthy” #but it's hard because people idk scare me #and so i want an emotional support friend to join me but im supposed to do alone #like i need to have something that is mine thst i dont do with gf or my emotional support friend alyssa #its hard and art seems like the thing to do if theyd just have openings

[fagrackham]

I WANT TO DROP OUT :(

#im just bored. and i feel like my being here is a waste anyway since i barely do the homework except for reading the novels we’re doing in #my modernism class. aside fromt #from that i dont do a whole lot but also like i have nothing better to do. it WOULD be nice to have a degree but like. in fuckijg ENGLISH? #like hi employers i really like to read can i have 401k matching please #idk. at the very least maybe i should take a semester or two off. but also my dear pal from my old school who transferred w me is thinking #the same thing. and i dont want my parents to think im like doing it bc of them #and its a weird mix of like college is hard for a lot of people but we all do it and part of me feels like olivia jade where its like whats #the point of my being her besides saying that im here. you know. #UGH.

[sensacetionalshady]

the overwhelming urge to do things because I've never learned how to relax is strong

#adventures in tda #im staying home today bc i dont have the spoons for an artem class or just class in general #chronic fatigue ✌️ #but my brain keeps telling me i should use the time to work on my homework or organize my playlists or work on my fics #when me doing work on the weekend is the whole ass reason why im too tired to do anything today #not to mention my social battery is so low if i hear anyone talking im gonna cry #i really don't want to miss out on our first animation drawing class but like #i cant #i just fucking cant today #i barely have the spoons to make myself breakfast #urgrhgrhgrhh #i should make a vent tag oops lol

[lockandkeyhyena]

so stressed about school i feel like im going to throw up but at least im not having another derealisation attack so theres that

#its not even over anything bad #just the smallest things will send me anxiety spiralling #like my chest is so clamped up right now and all it was because i accidentally submitted the wrong file for an assignment and now its late #and i have to ask my teacher to let me submit the proper file but i know that accidentally making it late makes more work for her and idont #want her to be upset/mad at me even though shes a great teacher and the worst i would get would probably be a stern reminder to submit the #proper file next time or an exasperated sigh #but do i care so much BECAUSE shes a fantastic + fun + kind teacher?? would it be easier having a bad tecaher #SEE IM SPIRALLING THIS IS WHY I WAS HOMESCHOOLED FOR TWO YEARS #i guess i am still homeschooled mostly kind of #its more like i just dont go to school half the week #im so stressed i think because this is my vet course and i cant miss any classes and i really like it and dont want to fail #you know what im gonna go have a hot bath and read some fanfiction and take my mind off homework i cant function like this #yeen rambles

[toytulini]

mental health just straight up plummeting

#toy txt post #everyday the smallest things have me spiralling into such stupid despair #constantly fighting myself cos every single thing has me wanting to throw up my hands and walk the fuck off bc theres bo point #whats the fucking point!! just despair and exhaustion and burned the fuck out and gnashing at the fucking walls and then spiralling into #a stupid little self pity self hate spiral cos im just a weak stupid little baby who cant handle the real world. plenty of ppl have it so #much worse and havent given up yet so whats my fucking problem? which is so stupid. but i cant logic my way out of this one #so i am simply sitting here feeling so god damn bad #and i dont even really have. a good reason for it. idk. like i dont have a lot of concrete quantifiable reasons i can present about why #i am so goddamn miserable at my job. im just. going insane i need out im performing badly its not worth it theres no fucking point #every day im fighting the urge to just fucking walk off over the stupidest tiniest things that are definitely not worth that kind of #reaction. like yea maybe i do need like mental health meds or smth but i also know. i need out of this fucking. job. but i dont know #like. idk its like my options are just kore of this same stupid bullshit or retail/food service. and like. shout out to retail and food #service. i fucking could not i fucking cannot. but like im reaching that point here too. everything hurts all the time with no reprieve and #all my options just feel like its gonna be ! even more stupid repetitive motions that wont help! like idk! idk what to do. i just #wanna read about stupid little fucking worms and fish but doing that professionally im not sure im up to it and #between me and that career path is thousands of dollars and homework. so #now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead #trying so hard not to display idk red flag behavior but im Going Insane. i should just start crying at work. why bother hiding it. whats the #point #vent #ig #i should go eat. and waste the rest of my stupid fucking night playing zelda trying to soothe my brain enough to function except im not #functjoning cos then itll be 5am again and ill have done nothing but play zelda and be up too late and go to bed and not get enough sleep #and be a little to a lot late and be miserable and the cycle just fucking never ends #not enough fucking podcasts about worms out there for this #i opened several academic papers on tongue eating isopods to cope and barely read them bc i cant do that at work it takes too long and i get #lost and my productivity is already in the shit and i need to stop being on my phone and i know that but like also if i dont fucking #distract my stupid fucking brain right fucking now im gonna start throwing things and crying #anyway. thats how im doing. bye

[bmpmp3]

although i guess a point to me being genuinely kind of offline is i once had a job interview and they asked me what i would make as reels for their corporate instagram and i had to ask them what reels were

#i applied to that job by accident and i didnt realize it was a social media manager position until like i was already in the zoom call #(this was like in 2020 or something) (in my defense the job posting was vague) #i didnt know what reels were!! i didnt know. i hadnt used instagram for more than like 20 minutes before orz #that job interview in general was a little painful i felt so so bad for the interviewers #i knew theres no way i could get the job nor did i want the job once i realized what it was #so i was just like okay sure heres a quick little practice interview then so i didnt mind #but i imagine those poor interviewers. imagine u get a candidate for like. a chef position. and they dont know what a knife is #they asked me if i used twitter much and i was honest and said not since a little bit in 2014 for a class project #they asked if i used instagram and i said once or twice. also for school #facebook? anything? not really. technically tumblr and dA and such but i wasnt gonna tell them that part LOL #also sorry im suddenly really chatty at midnight. i had a bunch of homework to do and i just finished #so now ur getting all the thoughts i wanted to blog about while writing some discussion posts about class topics hjkfdsjgdklfsgsfa

[synonymouslyyours]

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#vent #someones giving me a referral for an internship and im so grateful buts its happening so damn fast and i cant get this goddamn cover letter #its my first time writing a cover letter now that i have actual experience to draw upon and its such a different skillset than #the bullshit i wrote before #and youd think it would be easier but i am just so overwhelmed and cannot handle this #i found out about the internship monday. met with the guy for the referral tuesday. and so he wants my materials to recommend on wednesday #but its 5am and i dont have it done yet and im scared ive already fucked this up because i shouldve tried harder but im just freaking out #cuz i still havent done my homework and i still havent done any of my grading work for 17 fucking students and i need to interview peopl fo #project management stuff in the next couple days and i need to fix my class schedule by thursday and its rosh hashana on friday night and i #just cant do it all im not managing to do any of it #but this is huge opportunity the internship is at a great company and its 50 bucks an hour which is crazy and this guy is a great connectio #which i dont have for any other opportunity so #i dont know if i can afford to fuck this up and i just need to get it done but i just cant i just cant do it and i tried to schedule a #career advising meeting but theyre all taken until THURSDAY and the guy really likes proactive people and hes for sure going to have a #lowered opinion of me for not being able to get a cover letter done which is supposed to only take 15 minutes #so im fucked and i fucking hate everything im just so goddamn done with how stressful everything is even when good things are happening lik #whats the goddamn point #ok i think im having an anxiety attack

[arthur-r]

genuinely how does someone succeed in college when you’re so terrified of being incorrect or looking stupid that you can’t even say anything to begin with???? i was trying to go into this year brave and everything but i’ve already been laughed at multiple times by a class full of people older and scarier than me and i already feel like i’m being judged and underestimated for so many reasons that i don’t want to give anyone another reason to look at me that way. but it’s gotten to the point (in the less than one week that classes have been in session; maybe it’s always been at the point) where i’m failing to submit assignments because i know that my teacher is going to see it and think i’m stupid, and never listen to me again, and i’m going to lose all the credibility that i’m trying so desperately to hold onto. and i know from a logical standpoint that it’s the teacher’s job to meet people where they’re at and lift them up from there, but honestly is that much even true anymore?? isn’t college about figuring out who has what it takes and who is going to get left behind???? why did i enroll in fucking honors classes of course i can’t do this???? i’m really not feeling well and i stayed in tonight and missed dinner and i miss home and i miss being able to talk to my friends and not be actively ruining my future. i feel like i’m always good until i’m not, and i don’t realize i need help until i’m too far in and by the time i get it, i won’t need it anymore but i’ll have ruined everything back when things were worse. i’m isolating from my roommate (who hates me because he thinks i hate him) and losing every friend i’ve started to make at the same time as i’m losing all the real friendships that i already have. and my roommate is across the room right now as i’m quietly fucking crying. and i want to go home and i want to be safe. and why is everything so unfamiliar and simple and wretchedly complicated.

#im really not feeling well. i want to go home and im not used to that at all #i miss my little sister. i miss my teachers and i miss my friends. im not used to this #what prompted all of this: i was trying to do my linguistics homework and i made it about an hour in coming up with faulty hypotheses #and i realized that far of the way through. that the only dialects i’m fucking familiar with are all fucking variations of north central #‘whoa somebody talks similar in anchorage as they do in taylor’s falls?? it must signify a deep linguistic thread traceable over generations #they’re just both right next to fucking canada???? of course they fucking sound similar???? the fact that i don’t know anyone from the east #or the south and even the people i know in the west are still the same fucking thing we all talk the fucking same #i know village english that’s a little fucking interesting but it’s not like i have any INSIGHT i don’t KNOW anything!!!! #told my french teacher i’m learning latin he asked me if it’s fucking ecclesiastical because once you’re in college it’s just normal i guess #i just feel like. yes i’m here because some part of me stood out from my peers. but in this group of special people?? i’m nothing!!!! #so i’m really struggling. and i want a hug and i wish things were different. i want to be here but i don’t feel like i deserve it #and i’m not going to get anything done if i keep feeling like this #i dont know. i hope everyone is doing well. sorry for the extra stress it’s just really difficult and strange #i hope everyone has a good night - i’m heading to bed soon #me. my post. mine. #friends only #vent cw #delete later #and everyone here speaks fcuking MANDARIN or something and all of a sudden my five years of french feels fucking basic. #kids who have been in advanced programs since birth. the imposter syndrome is fucking PALPABLE!!!! i want to go home and i want to forget #okay i’m done. im done!!!! everything is fine. hope everyone is well

[wormsdyke]

not to be dramatic but ooooohhhhh my god???? what???? what the fuck?????? can anyone hear me??????? what the fuck??????

#just like in general #but also. i'm. i'm sitting here trying to learn how to calculate population growth rate #my dad died. and im trying (and failing) to learn how to calculate population growth rate. my real life dad is dead and i'm doing homework #im sitting on the floor of the communal laundry room eating spaghetti out of tupperware trying to teach this to myself #and the only reason i have to teach it to myself is because i missed most of this class. because my dad died! #like???????? this feels unreal??????? #how am i supposed to do this. how am i supposed to just do this. #a week before he died almost exactly i walked for hours around the parking lot of my apt complex in the middle of the night #and then he died. really died. is not coming back died. and now im sitting here calculating population growth #this is not possible #what??????????? #how am i supposed to just pick everything back up and turn in all my late work? my fucking dad died! in pain! terribly! #grief isn't linear its a stealth sniper #um. oh my god. #i keep having this intrusive thought that i want to grab people by the shoulders and shake them and say isnt this insane? isnt this terribl #how could this have happened? isn't it terrible? isnt it hard to believe? #i feel like i want someone to look back at me shocked and say oh my god that is terrible it is hard to believe it is insane #so that i dont feel so insane. i dont know #i feel like im going to throw up my tupperware spaghetti #and then what? i keep doing overdue homework? #i go outside to throw up in the parking lot then i keep doing homework and in a bit i fold my laundry? how am i supposed to do that? #vent post #obviously #j. #tw: grief #orating!

[weaselishmcdiesel]

AHSJSJ in reference to https://at.tumblr.com/weaselishmcdiesel/idk-if-youre-being-serious-in-the-tags-but-if-you/b7me6xnnx57f (i was the anon in question)

its definitely less “official” than proper therapist, but the letter of recommendation for an emotional supper pet you get is in fact from a Real Certified Therapist (at least mine was, i checked), and it carries no indication of being provided through the website, so i doubt people would be like “oh this isn’t legitimate”

in general is it cutting corners? certainly, but it is a good option if you dont have access to/funds for a proper diagnosis, and if you genuinely think an emotional support animal would make your life better, its worth researching. i dont know if i’d call it “fake” per say, but it is for sure easier to fake than yknow a proper diagnosis, so i see why this would be an issue nonetheless. two sides to everything etc etc

(if youre curious to know more or see my letter i’m happy to send it through dms or whatever)

oo, erm, please take the rest of my response in the context that i really have, maybe a collective of 3 hours worth of research on this topic as i was originally planning not to use an ESA site at all, and im not aware of the specifics of any experience using official, medical, therapy options.

im really glad that everything went smoothly for you, and i hope that more people can have access to treatment just as easily and with just as much documentation to prove it.

But the conduct surrounding the treatment of mental health is unfairly complicated so it's not unwise to be picky about which route one takes to receive the documentation and care they require. ideally, no one would have to worry if the letter they acquired IS legitimate and they could collect the proper benefits. unfortunately, i dont know if my school cares about my mental health more than their precious building so much so that they would dig around and find some critical loophole to keep my pet out

the research i DID do uncovered reviews stating that people had their pettable letters denied and in some cases there was fine print that prevented them from getting refunded. the question at the end of the day is do i trust the ESA site to give me valid documentation MORE than i trust my school to be OVERLY, even MALICIOUSLY nitpicky about the legitimacy of my paperwork.

and, i personally would have to be cautious since it's more than a simple drive my cat would have to endure but a plane ride too, and another one back if he's suddenly denied an ESA position, so i can't risk the letter having even one pitfall. i do hope you understand everyone's apprehension ^^ I will continue doing my research and hope that in the end i dont give my school one more reason to be even more strict with ESA especially for people who need them more than me (because there are, probably, people who poorly fake the papers and then make it harder for the rest of us as the other user is calling attention to)

#if it's alright i dont want to take more opinions on this! not mad but i would like to conduct my research with a little less bias :) <3 #plus i dont want to stir anymore controversy alright? #and ofc i dont want to have to reveal the specifics of my situation if it comes down to it haha #but your input is appreciated- dont worry too much about me ok! #im sure that whenever i get my cat ill update everyone ahha ill never shut up about him #i saw your second ask and i havent even scoured the whole website for that option yet- i AM busy with homework haha #weasel speaks #asks! #i hope nothing comes off as aggressive i just want to explain the other side fairly #it's never in poor interest to be cautious! if someone really needs their ESA im sure theyll figure out a way to do it #.....hopefully..... but that isnt always the case #but i also doubt those people are coming to my blog for advice