#i really really wish i hated him i really dont wanna like him | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

kimtranssexler · 2 years

Text

i want to hate lalo soooo bad but hes so charming i cant bring myself to do it

#i really really wish i hated him i really dont wanna like him #bc he hurts nacho and jimmy and kim and i care about them a lot #and yet #hes just so cool and funny and pretty and badass and he dresses like me #how am i supposed to not like him. this dude was engineered in a lab to be likeable #that smile that damned smile etc #i honestly dont really hate ANYONE in this show even if i really want to #like chuck??? why tf did i like chuck???#this is killing me #nyways im almost finishd w season 5. gd i dont want to be done with this show but at the same time i just wanna be caught up with it already #bcs liveblog

4 notes · View notes

moeblob · 26 days

Text

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

24 notes · View notes

cerubean · 1 year

Photo

india is pregnant! they’re both terrified, but happy nonetheless. her dad is nosy so he was the first to find out, he even dropped a little gift as well.

#her dad doesnt really like max but at least he's nice to him for the most part #i feel like he wishes she had stayed home longer after she graduated hs bc he hates seeing her struggle financially #sims 4 #s4mm #ts4 gameplay #simblr #s #oop not me posting regularly gross!! dont get used to it yall i dont wanna get ur hopes up </3 #garners

85 notes · View notes

skrunksthatwunk · 5 days

Text

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know.#at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow?#it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker.#i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time.#but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him.#im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more?#just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him.#she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on.#she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him?#so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea.#but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

4 notes · View notes

soul-spoken · 6 days

Text

I vent or breakdown so often, I know I get told it's fine and talk when I need to but geez it feels so excessive, like I'm overly sensitive or just really really easily triggered over things that shouldn't even relate to my trauma

We come to solutions or we distract from it, or we cuddle, but it's just always there.

I can almost always feel the dumb anxiety or depression feelings, I don't want to

I wish my brain understood that

#im tired of only feeling safe when im overly babied and small. i know at this current time point certain traumas are still really fresh #and i need to let myself acknowledge that and relax and maybe be taken care of on a higher level but #i feel so clingy and embarrassed #and i really wish i wasn't still reminded of things from the past. i hate getting anxious over things from high school or college #that doesn't matter anymore #i don't wanna be so vulnerable and scared all the time #but i think i need to #i just want to be held. feel skin to skin. get kissed and called sweet names #i wanna feel his nails through my hair. hear that hushed voice he does when being soft. i wanna be closer #i wanna be safe and told its not scary. its not bad. instead of how we've been going about things..#cant i just feel secluded and loved? feel protected and small #i wanna be told that my ptsd is a normal reaction and that i dont have to be like i was before. i can take a while to gather myself #to mourn and exist. to just.. be #be however my brain is needing to be in order to relax #i wanna be intimate and romantic and loving and gentle #i feel so guilty over these wants and needs #i wish i didn't have them. i wish i understood that its safe to have them.#i wish i was different #i wish i was me. but me before #when i was stable and felt nice and independent but i still had little moments of softness and needing help. i miss my early early twenties #but. i also miss the feeling of being held tight by him and told nothing could hurt me anymore. that he was gonna keep the bad away #like middle school. keeping the mean kids away #i love him. i want to feel loved #i am loved. i don't doubt that. but i wish i could capture every soft second and live in it forever #and i feel so guilty #trav.txt

2 notes · View notes

comet-wire · 11 days

Text

Ngl I've been having a gender crisis again on top of all the stuff that's happened with my dad, I think I still identify as male/masculine idk 🗿

Same with my ace/aro spectrum placement ☝️🗿

#comet rambles #putting in queue to deploy later #parent loss tw #just in case by association n implications ☝️🗿/nm+gen #when i get stuff set up with my checking account i was already thinking of getting a new chest binder once our personal issues with finance #has been figured out definitely #i dont wanna say much n jinx stuff so ill leave it at that #personal #gender shit is hard n i really think i may be a he/they or he/him still #or if not then closeted butch lesbian idk #most signs point to male gender identity leaning though 😔👍#also my social battery is outta wack but i needed to get this out so i apologize to anyone who i have yet to respond to/gen+nm 🥹#like i genuinely still feel as though ive been born in the wrong body and i tried to accept my feminity and it went well!!#like i started embracing my femininity the past few years and now i think im over it because it feels like i just attempted to try #and be something i wasn't if that makes any sense #i hate being referred to as she/her or as a girl even if i understand some people will still see me as fem despite my personal identity etc #its not that i hate my femininity its just i feel anything but female while still enjoying traditionally fem stuff at times #hope this makes sense #🗿👍#still ace/aro though just cant figure out if i only enjoy the thought of romance (cupiosexual/romantic) or if i feel comfy in one #i know im sex repulsed though thats for certain #as of lately chris Redfield and Albert Wesker have become two of my transition goals and idk what to do about this lmfao #i wish i was kidding #but im not 😭#sitting here like EVA shinji with his head in his hands in the damn chair image/lh #also wanna be a rootin tootin goth cowboy 🥰#if it turns out im like a comphet butch/nb lesbian im gonna shit myself though/lh+nm

2 notes · View notes

sonknuxadow · 1 year

Text

remembering that ive seen some people say stuff like "movie sonic would be a cop when he grows up because he wants to be like his dad uwu"

#SONIC WOULD NEVER BE A COP FUCK YOUUU HE LITERALLY OPENLY HATES COPS IN THE GAMESSS #also while im at it Society if tom wachowski wasnt a cop *insert that picture of the futuristic city*#listen i love the sonic movies i really do #and i think the fmaily stuff theyve got going on is cute and all. but i really Do Not like that tom is a cop #especially when in the games sonic like. openly dislikes cops #i wish they had made him a firefighter or something but its too late for that now so tom wachowski i am begging for you to quit your job #maybe they can bring back his whole arc in the first movie of realizing he doesnt need to be a big city cop to help people #and have him realize Hey cops suck actually i dont wanna be one at all anymore.#or just have him quit offscreen sometime before the third movie or even before the knuckles series. please

23 notes · View notes

nthflower · 9 months

Text

Your faves written very mediocre so you don't even care about them anymore is another special kind of torture comic fans endure I think.

#god i wanna feel insane about cyke again #like really insane #but he is just a guy now #he was amazing when people hated him tbh like big marvel didn't realised people loved him #and now they know people love him and they milk this and it lost what made him special they still dont get him #like every two panels we are getting Cyclops was right talking balloon but #we are getting a Cyclops was right moment never!!! only little glimpses when some writer who gets him write him background in their book #in his main books right now he is just a shell of what makes him One of the guys ever of girlies of tumblr #i missed the old cyke #he was so special to me and i missed that cyke a lot #i missed only i understand him type of cyclops wish people still hated him and he was still a loser in eyes of editors writers fandom etc #like i am a Cyclops hipster now i think #he is popular and now it sucks but it is also more complicated than that

6 notes · View notes

sprinedankle · 3 months

Text

damn nobody gonna steal your girl fucking damn You and your delulu ass can gtfo

#“i dont like her.. hmm intuition or am i very delulu” Shut up literally shut up #shes my best friend we literally do not do anything weird like those REALLY crazy “friendships”#i've known her for 5 years Who are youuuuuu #listen if i were in a relationship i would be a bit delulu too but i don't talk shit about my partners friends behind her back ?#and you said you dont even have a reason to hate me aand you dont know why you do Ok then shut up #we're not going to stop being friends just because you're a little craycray #dont forget you play with your gf's insecurities talking about real/fictional men all the time #like oh hes so hot i wish he was my bf i wanna do this and this to him #knowing she feels bad about that uhhh okay whos the weird one here #okay sorry about the rant bye

6 notes · View notes

theevilicecreamsoda · 6 months

Text

I think i ever processed anything that happened from 2021 to now like ever

#sniffle… also body dysmorphia hit #i hate this stupid website i hate it i hate how much hate there is but god its where all of my friends are #im really starting to hate someone and im just… god i hate them i wish i never met them id do better being alone in 7th grade #they were never my fuckingg friend they just treated me like shit #‘i hate talking to you so much but im not gonna tell you and i never will’ great your boyfriend told me what you said during an argument lol #worst thing was i hated talking to him i hated it!!! id forget to reply for five minutes then hed be like ‘are you there’#im just… pissed he didnt speak up but i guess i didnt either #god im just… sometimes i just want an apology or just a hug i feel like some big bad in some dumb show or something #and it makes me wanna isolate so bad i just wanna stop going to school im just so tired #i just want to die sometimes i just feel like everyone hates me and thats why people dont talk to me #i just want to die sometimes or like just be a observer #i just wanna watch people sometimes when i was younger id want to disappear and then see what people said about me #to see if they missed me or anything #its so stupid that that never fully went away #anyways fuck idk why i fucking bothered typing all this nobody fucking cares anyway 💥💥💥🦅🦅‼️‼️❗️❗️#if youre reading this far sorry #evilsoda.hater

3 notes · View notes

brine-in-my-eyes · 9 months

Text

going back to school by next week. sadness forver :(

#I actually like my school and the subjects #i just hate this one professor for my filipino subject and just made meetings with him so unnecessarily stressful #i literally had a panic attack during one of them #i hate school #i hate college #i feel really dumb on my language classes and like filipino is just the worst #i wish i was more fluent in it #i hope he isnt my professor anymire but if he is im gonna be so sad #i also hate group projects!!! grrrrrr #im not ready yall i wanna go back to doing nothing and playing games and having fun #sigh #i just hopei can survive this year #this is my last grade in high school so once i graduate i will go to an actual college i think #i also want a job but i have no skills to do so #sigh... too many things are happening and i dont like it #rambles #vent ish

3 notes · View notes

sundial-girl · 9 months

Note

Meep meep meep

The Oliver :3

ehehe the little guy of all time...

My favorite song of theirs

ughgighghkjdg this is so hard wtf he has good songs 😭 i'll give u 3 b/c i can't decide

to be basic: "Amygdala's Rag Doll" -> it was the first ever oliver (and GHOST) song i listened to. still bangs after all these years

to be emo: "Thing" -> also one of the first oliver songs i started listening to, resonates w/ me deeply b/c personal issues. also very lovely and haunting

to be interesting: "Collection" -> OLIVER IN JAPANESE also the pv is so nice and this just soundsss so pretty. also not an og song but if u want more oliver in japanese there's this cover i'm going insane over

Who I ship them with

ok i'll b honest. len.

blonde boys that die in a lot of their songs

I THINK ITS FUNNY OK 😭 its not all that serious but they r cute. they both do have other cute ships too but i like this. or aroace oliver too thats slay

My favorite part about their design

ughhh everything abt his design is perfect its so gooddd but like... ig for one thing the long coat?? i suck at drawing it sometimes but i just love shit like that so i have the chance to draw flowy shit. extra dramatique. realistically ik wind physics whatever don't work like that BUT IT LOOKS COOL esp when other people do it in art too i love to see it. and in general it just ties his whole design together, blueee

also idk if james counts but best decision ever was giving him bird. yes. love to see it

A random headcanon I have of them

you get 2 b/c i couldn't decide which one's better

at this rate b/c of how much inedible stuff he's eaten he's practically immune to food poisoning. you can't kill him in any way that matters

HE AND MOKE ARE BESTIESSSSSS. you will never take this hc away from me even from my cold dead hands I WANT THEM TO BE FRIENDSSSS!!! bird enthusiasts. they go birdwatching together and have very long conversations about ornithology stuff. they arrange very sophisticated playdates for both their pet birds. ily them

name a vocaloid in my askbox and i'll tell you stuff

#ask #i got disconcentrated while answering sorry this took so long?? 😭 ALSO I HATE THE NEW EDITORRR i hate npf so much i jakfdsnjkgndskgjsgk #sorry if this isn't very exciting kdsjg. its like that post i like getting asks but answering them makes me nervous 😭#the bird stuff also definitely hasnt intensified due to where my life is going in (bird direction). REGARDLESS BESTIESSSSS PLEASE!! FRIENDS #im so sorry to both len and oliver. or really any vocaloid i get attached to my shitposts are so BADDDD DSHKJGHKG BUT ITS FUNNY #its a cute ship but i wish people were less creepy/weird abt it :/ ya know? but i dont wanna start drama #ive been meaning to make a post abt this but I WISH IT WAS EASIER TALKING ABOUT MY HCS FOR THESE VOCA MFERS #cause the inconsistency. the way nothing is like properly sorted. sobs. theres very few things that actually are somewhat 'default' but aug #lmao though he's like... a mini evil food eater conchita at this rate what have i done 😭😭 he'd drink straight poison for fun he dont care #thats one of the few things that stays consistent w/ him. boy cannot be stopped from eating things he should not be eating 😔✌️ he's feral #anyways i am so sorry i suck at tumblr :') i hope this makes sense???

3 notes · View notes

bugdogg · 9 months

Text

havent felt this violent about anyone in a while....

at least with this fictional loser i can actually have fun with it