#i remembered it existed and had to share

[pixiemage]

Holy crap I completely forgot I attempted to download the entire Unus Annus channel right before it got deleted. I just found an old hard drive in my desk I forgot I even had, and like - dude. I have no idea how many videos are on here but it HAS to be in the triple digits, including thumbnails. This is friggin' insane.

#unus annus #markiplier #crankgameplays #also I realize that goes against the entire purpose of the channel #I know that #I don't really remember trying to download these in the first place so I can't tell you where the motivation came from #I only saw like two videos back then because a lot of them dealt with some existential topics and I can't handle that kind of thing usually #so maybe I had fomo regret at the time - who can say? #I don't intend to share them on YouTube or anything like that because I know Mark and Ethan didn't want that #I just think it's bonkers that I have a partial archive of something that no longer exists on the internet #this is the coolest thing I ever forgot I did #ADHD is a trip man

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense

[crescentfool]

having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!

#persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #hc and au nonsense #lizzy speaks #happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳 #i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at- #him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know? #and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^ #something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls #you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations #and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4 #and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are... #that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!) #the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES #objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written #but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently #specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship #it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc #it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but #eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses! #regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself- #into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here. #the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go #“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons #anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍 #have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙

[edwardsparkleblood]

I don't wanna bully Wizard reddit too hard but it's funny to me how they are still complaining about the emotion fights in Wallaru and some are even waiting to continue when a patch drops, like yes they're difficult but Wizard tumblr didn't care, Wizard tumblr fought through blood, sweat, and rain because they were NOT about to let Dasein suffer alone

#w101 #wizard101 #wallaru spoilers #fr though I'm on both sides #It's a game for kids at the end of the day and I get the need for the patch for younger players who don't care for deep gameplay #but also it made the fights memorable and kinda iconic when EVERYONE has a shared trouble against them #Playing it day 1 without guides was great #I had to rearrange my deck for the first time in so long and use treasure cards I forgot existed and had to remember which blades stacked #and learn and keep track of the cheats #It was so rewarding when I(a MYTH) figured out how to beat Confusion and got to share deck my setup with my Life brother I was questing wit

[todayisafridaynight]

spiritual sequel to this for our favorite local goober My Friend

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #arasawa #jo sawashiro #masumi arakawa #snap sketches #lord in heaven knows i dont remember how to draw action lines bruh we gotta get on that #i had to do this so i could share the fact this comic exists cause as my friend was leaving she was like 'are you doing anything else today #and when i told her i was prob gonna draw or w/e she was just 'wait do you have any more comic ideas cause...' and then shared This #and i was especially inspired to finish this because she remembered arakawa's name for once but- not remembering who jo was- #was just like 'like you could draw arakawa and his lover- like that guy you draw him with' LIKE HELP? ??? #yeah we can call him his lover why not. had me cackling when i shut the door #ok i have comms to do this morning. but i should eat first LMAO bye team

[snapdragoned]

nothing quite puts a fire under your ass like the ts2 8 day university mod. holy shit

#as soon as i redownload photoshop i have some pictures to share! #i was fighting for my LIFE IN THAT DORM!!! #with born sims who had existing skills it'd be doable #with brand new useless sims i was sweating #the sims hasn't been hard for me in a long time and boy we CRANKED IT TO 11 #it was such a torment nexus crunch that ACR did nothing for almost eight semesters #and then i caught my breath & got everyone graduated just in time to remember i downloaded no $20k handouts... #TORMENT AFRESH #all that to say i'm having a great time!

[funsizedcoffee]

@keydekyie introducing their giant character in their book:

#the moth and the bear #tmatb #just remembered this scene existed and i had to share it cnfjdjchdjjxc #Youtube

[lilflowerpot]

I've been loving your worldbuilding/culture/science stuff— and I haven't even watched VLD. I just found your stuff incredibly neat. I think you mentioned that someone can rise to being Emperor from any of the Three Pillars of Galran society— except for the Archivist. Is the Archivist barred from being the Imperial Consort as well, or is the path available for them? Has there ever been Emperors/Empresses that rose to the position from the Druids side of things?

imperial societal structure | duties of the imperial consort | kral zera eligibility

I'm pleased to know that you're enjoying my worldbuilding(!!!) despite not having watched the show lmao

Though there have been monarchs from all three pillars of imperial society since the Empire's formation under Brodar, of the 33 to have triumphed at the Kral Zera and ascended the Imperial throne, the overwhelming majority have done so via the military sphere, with only 7 successful candidates ascending via the State, and a mere 4 via the Church.

((and I do think it's worth mentioning that though the Druidic Church's primary doctrine is an amalgamation of Druae & D’iijac—the two most prevalent belief systems from Daibazaal's desertous phenotypes, Kyx & Byal respectively—the Church as a whole practices complete religious freedom so long as to do so does not violate imperial law, meaning eligibility for the Kral Zera is not restricted only to High Priests/Priestesses of the galra's most prevalent faith, but anyone holding an equal rank in any alternative religious sect))

Interestingly, though the Church has produced the lowest numbers of monarchs, it’s also produced the least unsuccessful candidates! Some believe this to be due to Sa favouring her blessed few, and so ensuring their triumph, whereas others argue for a somewhat less romantic notion: that druidic quintessence-manipulation is exceedingly difficult to counter, especially when participating in a battle-royale, and so the victory of a skilled druidic combatant is a foregone conclusion.

As for the Archivist becoming the Imperial Consort, though it’s never before occurred, there's no explicit rule barring them from serving both roles; it would, however, be discouraged by,,, pretty much everyone? Both positions are a HUGE commitment, and between serving as the Conduit of Sa, and the secondary Head of State, the Archivist/Consort would end up so thinly spread that they’d rarely see their Emperor/lover in an unofficial capacity. As you can imagine, the kind of pressure that would come with maintaining both roles would take an incredible toll on not only them as an individual, but their relationship too... and unhappy/lonely galra are seldom the strong leaders a demanding institution such as the Empire requires.

#a huge part of the reason the three pillars exist as they do is because to as one person to be all things would break them #yes—technically—the emperor is at the head of it all but remember; the galra are a collectivist culture! they share their burdens openly! #the emperor may reign supreme in all things but their inner circle (this being their consort / adult offspring / favoured aristocrats— #—most decorated commanders / the archivist / prolific high priests & priestesses) are key and valued players in ensuring a prosperous empir #having the consort and archivist be one and the same might risk instability and breed weakness (which ofc the galra abhor) #as it is Haggar is already a....polarising figure....for the fact that she sort of //does// occupy both roles in practice if not in name #anyway thanks for giving me an excuse to expand on this bc i loved & had a lot of fun with it!! #Ao3 Little Blade #sa screams back #galra history & culture

[cynical-things]

some of the g0re / bl00d kink blogs on here are literally insane. imagine getting an ask saying will you ever carry out ur murd3r fantasies and you just say yeah one day I will k1ll my SO (with their consent) 😭😭😭😭 psych hospital for you broooo

#idk if it’s meant to be fantasy #also it doesn’t read like a shitpost. bc like i know some ppl will shitpost about this #maybe I take it to literal #but like this shit does exist #remember that case where that woman who was married had a whole double life where she was a sub #and then she met up with some online dom who then murdered her #but like she wanted it and asked him to ? #like these wild ppl do exist and it’s not all fantasy #and to share this on tumblr of all places #but then I need to remember that I am responsible for my own “’for you’ page on here #💀💀💀💀 #yeah bl00d is hot but not that nah

[deja-mew]

💞🩷🩷✨🩷🩷🌸🌼💫🌼🌸✨🌷🌷Thank God for Suavitel 🌸🌼💫✨🌸💫🌷🩷💞✨🌷✨🥰🩷💞💞🩷

this is just an ode to my favorite smell ever, the smell of my childhood, this fabric conditioner. i recently washed all my bedding with it and am enjoying sleeping in a cloud of this wonderful scent. highly recommend.

#not an ad not sponsored i just love this stuff so much #‘God is love’ boy do i know it he let this stuff exist #i remember my lola washing everything in this and everything always smelled happy #laundry #cleaning #washing machine #cleancore #house cleaning #happy childhood memories #just thoughts i had to share

[yousaytomato]

Tumblr really is one of the last defenders of the: "ooopsy wooooopsy~ looks wike we had a wittle accident 👉👈🥺" style of error message

#there's something else i want to talk about re: old(ish) internet #that i kind of didnt realise had happened #I'll soft launch it here but i might make a full post of it yet #at work i like to watch edutainment vids in my breaks #because they tend to be 15~ mins long and also have subtitles #so I've watched all like to/m scott. map men. #and i started watching old vsauce Micheal here videos #and they don't really seem like 10 year old videos. like the style of them really holds up #EXCEPT probably 5 times a video he'll show us a 'really awesome website' or whatever #like. so many websites with really useful tools. or just showing information. or that are just kind of fun and interesting #like. websites built to do specific things and that share information in unique ways #and like. i remember so many websites like that. even some games that played with the concept #of what a website even is. what are the limits. projects that were not only interesting in themselves #but the way they were presented was slick and fascinating and interactive #do y'all. do you remember that? #there was so much of that 10+ years ago #where did they go. do they still exist? are they still made. are the old ones even still up or did costs get too high #and traffic too low #because i also don't remember them having ads. or maybe they did but just banner ads that went unnoticed #woes of emily

[sashiavi]

AlSo- sorry for posting my thOughts all the time raghejejek

I only really write for characters I have iN my game? Idk why??

Apart from the Zhongli fic - I do not have that man's and he's evaded me since day 1 😔 I need him for my itto </333

Haikaveh sit together in my teapot they're husbands they stay together ♡♡

But also lowkey I've never properly played Kaveh- ya girl uses 3 teams and the dps are Wanderer - Alhaitham and Itto with their needed supports uwu

Maybe I'll run a Kaveh, Baizhu, Yae, Kokomi lil zappy babies

#i just remembered baizhu exists im so sorry king </3 #maybe one day I'll share my characters skslajehaokaaj #ive had xiao for a long long time and ive never ever ever used him once #they sit #in their desolet rooms #no laights #noh moosic #just anger 😔😔

[potatoes-tomatoes]

I’ve been goin thru a steven universe rewatch since last week and… wow. Wow this show is revolutionary for queer voices. It was eye opening seeing everything unfold again.

It’s been wonderful experiencing the show with fresh eyes. I started the show, saw the premiere of the show, followed it and finished it while I was still closeted and bigoted. I saw the reveal of Garnet being a fusion, being love, and was initially disgusted and disappointed because I was TAUGHT to be disgusted and disappointed.

The residual bigotry flares up at times… but it’s not me anymore. Well it is, but it’s like.. the MEMORY of me seeing that moment through my old eyes. I do my best to not feel shame, but to understand and forgive myself and enjoy creating a new experience watching SU.

now that I’m (somewhat) open, I’ve been able to enjoy the show and appreciate how much it’s done for queer voices since. I… saw Ruby and Sapphire’s wedding for the first time, I saw it— not with my hands barely covering my eyes. What a triumph that this show inspired others to let queer ppl share their stories, experiences, hopes, fears, love, without shame! Steven Universe isn’t perfection— it’s flawed, beautifully flawed, like the people who made it, the people who watch it, and the characters in it. If the road it paved wasn’t perfect, then all the better for newer voices, newer stories to be like, that limestone thingy in roman rock to reinforce it. To make it better. to make like, longer gay roads! pff shit I think I was trying to be poetic and metaphorical or something, but I hope my point came across. I just have big feelings right now. I didn’t realize what SU did for this lil baby queer. It’s so inspiring

#I remeber all my old feelings watching the show #I remember my old rambles in my school journals and secret su art #i remember doing my best to not feel conflicted about Garnet and Pearl because I LOVED garnet and pearl #How I felt I had to combat being ‘deceived’ by the show #But really it’s just… Garnet and Pearl and all other allegories/ rep in the show isn’t trying to Convince me of anything #it just wants to exist. it fought yes but fought to be FREE to exist and share itself #shiiittt it’s so weird experiencing this show as an adult and critically watching it (bc when DONT i analyze shit lol) AND self soothing #tween/YA me #and again… I wish I had someone like me to talk about it :’) #if ur an ex-religious queer person reading this hmu 🤙🏼 #cel speaks #i’m goin thru my buried su tag and i think my gen takes are still based lmao as in I still feel the same abt plot points as i did then #lololol #changed my mind abt amethyst BIG time tho younger Cel u were so dumb she be growin so much fr fr

[prettysymbiosis]

really sorry to the few followers I gained from sunnyposting who are now being spammed with dnp content but they're my friends and I missed them AND it's their best era yet :)

#I went back through my phandom tags and it's just so strange... I’ve had this blog for seven years and back then my tastes were so different #but even then I was like wow they've come so far! glow up! new era for dan and phil! and I was saying it four years ago when they came out #and time just keeps going on and on and they keep existing publicly and I keep being invested in their lives and like... #in another five years I'm gonna be like wow we've come so far! best dan and phil era yet! and my posts now will feel a bit foreign to me #it's like an irl relationship in that way - you don't remember every little thing you’ve shared in great detail #and some eras are best forgotten anyway... but we grow and change and learn to self actualize together #maybe eventually they'll be ready to step back from being content creators and focus on more prestigious creative work?? #even then we'll still be so emotionally invested 😭 these tags are a whole memoir but this is a unique fandom experience for me #and just a unique emotional experience in general and time has been extra weird lately so I'm just processing a lot. peace and love 🙏 #phan #phandom

[fierykitten2]

The Violet Book’s imaginary Pokémon looks stoic and two out of three of its modern-day counterparts give off stoic vibes (maybe also Iron Crown but I think it kinda lost the stoic vibes during conversion and almost certainly Robo Terrakion will also look stoic) also fusions of three or more are likely to be quite stoic in order to balance out everyone’s personalities but I can’t help but think that a fusion of the Neo Swords would for the most part be as chaotic but also motherly and friendly as I’ve decided Iron Leaves is

#iron leaves #iron crown #paradox virizion #remember when I decided to continue calling the imagined Pokémon “Paradox Suicune” and “Paradox Virizion” #and then I basically never used that to refer to them again? #neo swords #yeah I still want the fusions to exist as actual fusions and I still think it won’t happen #to be fair every region since Unova with the exception of Kalos has had a fusion mechanic when revisited with sequels/upper versions/dlc #it’s just they always had one in both fusions and fusions consisting of only two Pokémon #whereas this would be three in a fusion and no shared member #so instead of 3 that can fuse there would be 6 (but still only 3 per version)