#i rewatched the scene again and i honestly

[curioscurio]

I'm rewatching Steven Universe and I will never forgive Fandom for what it did to her

#also watching it at age 19-20 as it was released and experiencing the resulting clusterfuck online fandom response was a wild trip #im finally rewatching it again at 25 and really really feel lucky to have seen it at the age i did #i have completely different perspective on it now that i have 3 young nephews and a neice where before i was in college #the music is still as incredible as it was back then #and the animation #i cant beleive people got honestly and truly upset and violently aggressive about characters being off model sometimes #early stevens voice though kills me after awhile...... the yelling .... but his characters growth and development also being reflected in #his voice changing as he grows up #they also go crazy hard on some scenes #who am i kidding the show was a masterpiece and ahead of its time

[castielmacleod]

It’s been a hot minute since I watched any spn at all but I’m pretty sure Emily Swallow’s raw charm and screen presence quite literally saved Amara’s character from the depths of writing hell. Do you ever think about what this person was up against. Do you ever think about how bad some of Amara’s lines are. To say nothing at all of the Dean thing. And it’s just like.. how did Amara survive that? How did she become a Good Character not only in her initial season, but then also go on to become something of a fan favourite for just her minor role in s15? I’ll tell you. It’s because Emily got out there in front of the camera in spn s11, and she looked up from her script and said, I am going to say these lines but I am going to tilt my head and make my little faces and add just the right cadence to these words and I am going to create scenes of incredible palpable emotion and I will have her be so alien yet so human at once in faultless balance. I am going to make Amara Supernatural more endearing and sympathetic and dimensional than she could ever be on the page in my hands I will do this if it fucking kills me

#And I love her for it #Amara spn #Honestly s11 Amara reminded me of earlyish seasons Cas in such a charming way #Like I’m remembering that scene where she goes to the church and is talking to the priest all matter-of-fact #Idk I just found her really endearing. I think she also murders a bunch of people in that same episode but that’s ok that’s #an enhancement honestly. #My posts #As a disclaimer I am very much a proud card-carrying member of the Never Hated Amara Gang so I will always back her even in s11 #But if you are someone who didn’t like s11 Amara but enjoyed her in s15. Go back and watch her in s11 again #(If you can stomach rewatching any spn at all that is. Lord knows I cannot) #But go back and watch her and watch her more closely and the little things Ms Swallow adds to her even then. I think you’ll enjoy her more #Idk why I’m having an Amara moment but I am. Meri jaan <3

[illiana-mystery]

😨😰😢

#so i found my dvd of this movie again #so i decided to rewatch it #is it just me #or does him on his knees #just automatically remind you of that scene #in spiderman when he was crawling to the goblin mask #because that's immediately what i thought of #anyway #i like this movie #it's a bit rough around the edges #but it's alright #honestly i was glad to see father gabrjel again #he's so fine #and i love his deep ass voice #it's so sexy #father gabrjel #the edges of the lord #willem dafoe

[chirpsythismorning]

Not them needing 4+ crew-members (2 being the show-runners) to make sure that Reagan sign was in the perfect spot for this shot…

#stranger things #stranger things 2 #the wheelers #behind the scenes #byler #reagan yard sign #i never wanna hear antis say everything is a coincidence ever again #I’m not saying it’s never a coincidence #but come on #every shot takes time to write plan light mic film and also rewatch to in dailies to make sure it fits with the story they want to tell #there’s a lot more intentions than coincidences #honestly I think it would be even more impressive for most evidence to be a coincidence #like those would be some pretty epic coincidences

[mutantfactor]

Legend Of Exorcism - “Hongjun. What happened to you?”

#them 🙏🏻 #honestly these two are just the softest #i have started listing scenes i wanna gif and i should probably rewatch the whole thing again for it #anyway while my gif making motivation is on i will keep making gifs of these boys #as a treat #legend of exorcism #tianbao fuyao lu #tbfyl #天宝伏妖录 #li jinglong #kong hongjun #longjun #my:gif #mf tbfyl

[thatgirl4815]

I am 86% sure that Kinn knows that Porsche is bothered by much more than the punishment. I just rewatched their scene in Ep5 after Porsche returns from Yok’s bar, and if you follow their conversation closely, I think the truth of it comes out just from how they respond to one another. 

Porsche: “At least they’ve done me no harm.”

Kinn: “Are you saying that I’ve hurt you?”

Porsche: “Or have you not?”

Kinn: “Don’t you forget. Your life is mine. I can do whatever I want.”

Porsche: “Then go ahead. C’mon. Do it. What are you waiting for?” 

*Cue Kinn leaning in and pulling back just before their lips touch*

At surface level, they’re talking about the punishment. But the fact that Porsche tells Kinn to “do it” and “What are you waiting for?” proceeded by Kinn leaning in close makes me think that Kinn knew exactly what he was talking about. A dare of sorts. “What are you waiting for?” = “I dare you to try to violate me again.” 

I also think Kinn began to sense his resolve melting under Porsche’s gaze (coincidentally, the very thing he’s been hardening himself against) and leaning in was a challenge to himself, of sorts. Through it, he is simultaneously telling Porsche that he is nothing special to him, while also trying to convince himself of the same thing. By closing the space between them, Kinn is confirming that he knows what this is really about: how Porsche feels violated. He is acknowledging what happened between them and re-asserting (to himself, mostly) his control over Porsche--when really we, the audience, know that it is the other way around. Porsche has Kinn in an emotional chokehold, and if he could see that...well, I can only imagine how that conversation would go. (I mean, can you imagine what Kinn would’ve done if Porsche would’ve closed the space between them? The man’s entire world would be rocked.)

So, yes. I think Kinn knows. But nobody wants to be the first to bring it up verbally, so they’re just trapped in this tense dance around the subject.

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche meta #kinn porsche #kinn and porsche #kinn x porsche #back again with more #this is how I pass the time waiting for Saturday #it's honestly unhealthy at this point #I've rewatched this specific scene so many times I've lost count #I think I've even had a dream about it #I hope I'm not just rambling nonsensically but if I am please disregard this post #but I wanted to talk about it because I've seen people in the tag #saying they don't think Kinn knows what Porsche is really upset about #but I really really think he does

[jemmo]

i don’t know how else to describe eternal yesterday, and the profound affect watching it has had on me, other than it’s the most quietly heart-breaking show I’ve possibly ever seen. It presents its subject matter so simply and plainly in a way that makes it feel huge, overwhelmingly huge, painfully huge. It’s premise is not for supernatural drama, it isn’t played up, not laughed at or exaggerated or used to give things more unnecessary emotional weight, it simply gives physicality to the real experience of letting someone go, to having to let someone go, to having to let go, and the indescribable pain of it that you can’t truly know until you’ve experienced it. It’s a glimpse into this short period of time, less than a week, that is so private to them, and is so concentrated with emotion, that truly does feel like time stopped, holding on, the fear of the moment passing, so instead the pain of it is just dragged out. You think of course they should do this, fight for every last second they can have together, but then you come to realise this life after death, this impossible extension, its a curse just as much as it is a miracle. We always wish we could know when we are going to lose someone so we can take that chance to say goodbye, but is that easier or harder? how do we wrestle with the pain of holding on but the pain of letting go? its a situation we cannot win, its simply a situation that has to happen, and we have to let time tick on. 

there’s so many moments i want to bring attention to in this series but i’ll hold back and just talk on the 4 that feel the most special to me. first, a personal one, because in so many ways oumi reminds me of myself, and never has that been more true than the line “honestly, i feel comfortable when i’m alone. and i hate myself for being comfortable”. i cant think of another character that has embodied this anxiety i have in myself so much, and so simply, this ridiculous contradiction of being so at peace in your own company and despising that peace sometimes, wishing it wasn’t so peaceful, so maybe you wouldn’t be alone, maybe you’d do something, go out there, find people and things to do, and yet all that time maybe you’d be thinking “i’d like it so much better now if i was at home by myself”. its kind of ridiculous, and maybe people like us do need a koichi to be the company in our lonely peace, but yeah... i just have never felt so seen by a show before.

secondly, that final conversation oumi has with his father, because this whole time the situation feels so insular. even though other people know, and other people love koichi, and koichi loves other people, this is about oumi and koichi, and no one can truly understand the immensity of what those two are feeling in that moment. its like i said, you cant understand it unless you’re in it, unless you’ve experienced it. and yet, at the end, this minorly present, distant father comes in and says “what you’re going through, i went through that too”. and its the kind of conversation that doesn’t happen because they’ve both experienced this supernatural phenomenon of a love one existing after death, it happens because they’ve both lost people they’ve loved, and that something thats universal, and the people watching don’t need to have experienced anything supernatural to empathise with that. its when the audience truly realise that this story might be insular to them, but the story has also been told infinite times by countless people, and such the emotion of it is both theirs and everyones.

third, i think my heart actually crumbled to pieces when koichi said someone could have 2 number 1s. its his phrase, he loves mitchan the most, mitchan is his number 1. and its only given more weight when oumi says it back, and even more so when we hear his ending lines, about always wanting to be number 1 to someone, and that someone being his number 1 too, and how much of a miracle that is. for that same person, knowing he has to leave that person he loves the most, to say you can have 2 number 1s, saying to oumi its ok, you can move on, in the future you can have people that are precious to you, thats so fucking beautiful, and is an act of such love i cant even put it into words. you can feel so guilty sometimes for moving on from a loved one, for even feeling like you’re replacing them, so that gesture, that permission, that almost request, to not lose happiness and love because you’re losing them, to let yourself be happy again, because thats the biggest gift you could give to those you lose, thats just beautiful. 

and finally, the moments in episode 6 where koichi is starting to disappear, and when people start to walk into rooms and not see him, i don’t think i’ve ever seen such a good metaphor for what its like to have a same-sex partner and for them to never truly be seen as your partner. because when that nurse walked in and was just talking to oumi, like koichi wasn’t there and yet he was, and oumi got so mad because thats the most important person in his life how dare you not see him, how dare you ignore him. i think it was him saying ignore that connected it for me, because thats what its like when you walk in with a same sex partner and you’re not recognised or seen as a couple. I thought to myself if this nurse walked in and oumi was sat with a girl, how he’d instantly be asked if its his girlfriend, but no he’s sat with a boy so you dont even bother asking, either because you dont think to or dont want to. we get flashes of it throughout the show with people not knowing about their relationship or the relationship between the teachers, how the gay is hidden. and with koichi gone but not gone, he’s like a ghost in oumi’s world, and i feel like that’s what it can feel like sometimes, walking around with someone you feel like no one else can see when theyre all you can see. theyre there but no one draws attention to them, no one wants to acknowledge them or it, the relationship, the ghost in the room, to the point you want to scream they do exist, how dare you think they dont. and when oumi gets angry on koichi’s behalf, thats what happens, thats what it can sometimes feel like experiencing homophobia. its horrid and angering and you want to scream because how dare they do that to the most important person in the world but theyre at peace with it. koichi has accepted his fate much like someone learns to accept hate and harrasment, they become at peace with it. and you can get angry all you like but that doesn’t change anything, that doesnt stop it from happening, thats what it feels like. you get that when you lose someone, you get angry when other people have moved on when you cant, you wont, you dont want to, you think why dont people care anymore, how can they be so unfair and unkind and unfeeling, which is why its shocking that themes of loss can mirror these queer experiences, where a partner can feel invisible to everyone even when their heart is beating. thats why i think this blending of actual loss and actual invisibility with queerness being hidden and unseen is just heart-breaking genius.

this show is heavy, and has honestly brought out in me one of the most condensed visceral reactions to media ive ever had. i feel sad, i feel drained, i feel broken. ive cried so much, and my sadness is physical, my heart hurts, it feels heavy. and yet... i do feel at peace. i feel at peace with this sadness because its something you have to learn to do in life. these experiences are inevitable and ive always tried to avoid these heavier shows, things i know will hurt and make me sad and feel things, where there isn’t a core of happiness, a good ending to keep you together. but sometimes it has to be embraced to see the beauty in it, because as koichi said, despite what happens, despite the tragedy and sadness and loss, at the core of the story if two people meeting and falling in love, and how that simple, human connection, that we all have, is a miracle, so treasure it. 

#jemmo sad hours #im literally writing this through tears #i just needed to rant otherwise the sadness would eat me up and id become a ball of depression for a week #this show is just stunning #and such incredible performances by the leads #that scene in the last ep of them holding each other and koichi sobbing #honestly ive never seen anything so intimate and touching and heartbreaking that was just phenomenal #im so grateful for this show and its message and the love and care everyone involved put into it #these plots can so often be overdone or cliche or sad just for sadness sake #but this felt simple and pure and raw in a way that trusted the story and characters and performers to covey the emotional weight with #understated sincerity and i adore that #nothing extra nothing unnecessary just how it feels to be in love and lose that person #they know they dont have to overplay that #they know if its acted and put together and produced well that it will say everything it needs to #im in love #and ill never rewatch this show again bc i cant take the heartbreak but ill treasure it forever #eternal yesterday #made by jemmo

[avaantares]

Nobody:

Absolutely no one:

Guardian:

Me:

#guardian #no i'm sorry that was some other viewer who watched this scene eight times why are you looking at me like that? #honestly I did not expect them to do the kitchen knife scene in the drama so it caught me off guard but totally worth it #in fact i think I actually like this version better than the book scene (in spite of the hand-wavey 'energy' explanation) #(especially given what we learn about that incident later in the book *smacks novel!shen wei upside the head*) #anyway when shen wei teared up on the 'payback' line i'm pretty sure my spirit vacated my body temporarily so i had to rewatch. again.

[thesundanceghost]

man okay like vida really was such a good show

#yes im rewatching already shut up #the s2 finale is honestly so good #the baco plotline... the filming as eddy finds vida's husband... the end shot of emma smiling at lyn and lyn slowly starting to sob #genuinely such a good moment? #the more i watch it again the more i think this show has its tone down perfectly #even when it switches from incredibly rough dark moments to silly sex scenes #it feels incredibly intentional and that /is/ the voice of the show is this complicated balance of life and death and laughter and tears #and i think a shit ton of that has to do with being written by mexican americans #and so they can use over the top plots like literally having 3 different secret marriage reveals in this show #and it still feels completely genuine and not like theyre just doing shit for the sake of it #anyways. shouldnt have been canceled.

[izzy-b-hands]

God I just. Cannot get over the kiss scene tonight. That's the first proper kiss like that, relatable and realistic, that I've seen on TV. It is literally truly going to live rent free in my mind forever.

But like, just. I can't say it as well as I wish I could. But they nailed it not just in acting and writing and direction but just the overall vibe, of being in public but in this little pocket of privacy with someone and the Tension hits and you can finally act on it.

Like I remember in high detail how that felt, the first time I kissed a guy like that (and had realized I was definitely a couple shades of queer, but was still figuring it all out lol.) And it was awkward and stiff and I initiated but like. Did not know how because yes that was also my first kiss at all, so like. Literally the scene in ofmd is so accurate even down to that. There's no tongue and it's pretty tame but you can *feel* the want behind it, with the implication that later they will figure out how to get more wild with each other lol (to note on that re: comparison to my own experience, y'all remember how I've referenced nearly fucking a guy in HS in a school computer lab during a late after school project? Yeah, that was also that first and most important kiss lmaoooo.)

Like and that relatability aside, it's just. This is an important TV kiss! Like, in a way that way in the future a museum might note it in an exhibition abt old TV (like we had at the local museum recently, it was v cool) and the fact that I'm alive at a time to witness it!! Is cool as hell!!!!

I'm stoned so this is written far too train of thought, my apologies for that but it is what it is I am afraid

#text post #marcian watches queer pirates #ofmd #kind of afraid to main tag it in case ppl think this is dumb #but honestly the tag is busy so probably no one will see this lmaooo so im worrying for nothing #anyway i need to go rewatch the kiss scene yet again to heal my soul brb

[loverboybrightsideghost]

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#okay so obviously i fucking loved glass onion #as of right now i'm like twenty? thirty? minutes into my rewatch and i just gotta say the (musical) theme of this movie fucking slaps #i’m partially rewatching to analyze the music (the other part is analyzing everything else lol) and i just gotta say that along with #the soundtrack being amazing #the theme is just really fucking good on it's own? that's what i like about nathan johnson's music for this movie and knives out #(i haven't heard/seen his other stuff) #that the stuff he composes for the movie function on their own as beautiful complex and just COOL pieces of music #as well as Movie Music #i will say though maybe it's just cuz i payed TOO much attention to the music the first time i watched it #i feel like andi's theme is a liiiiittle overused at the beginning? like we see her as a mysterious figure and those scenes are kinda close #together #temporally speaking within the movie those scenes take place close to each other within the run of the movie itself #and so to me it feels a tiny bit like overused but also i completely understand why it comes up each time it's on screen #like audiences aren't supposed to be picking apart the music of a movie lol they're supposed to just kind of absorb (and enjoy it) kind of #in the background subconsciously (or consciously in some cases) enhancing the film #like i said i try to pay attention to the music in movies i watch #so it could just be me paying too much attention #but personally i feel like those scenes w/ andi are very close together and it feels like that music was very on the nose like #andi's on screen! play her theme!!!! #which again i completely understand that's totally valid and honestly i'd probably do that if i was the one writing the music #it's just a personal thing #but for real the music for this movie is so fucking GOOOOOOOOODDDDD #bluebird.txt #glass onion

[optimisticrunawaygalaxy]

DAMN I HAVE SKIPPED THE GOBLIN PETER FIGHT SCENE ALMOST EVERY SINGLE TIME (After watching the movie for the first time) SO I REALY REALY AM NOT USED TO IT AND

AUGRHGRHGHRJGHRJHGJ

#Like i know the movie so well I can speak along to 70% of the dialouge etc etc #but I always ALWAYS skipped once otto leaves the appartment #I honestly dont remember why. probably because the first few times of rewatching it I didnt feel comfortable rewatching that scene #and- #like WOW #This is like watching the movie for the first time again holy SHIT #I also didnt know peter got shot?? Like actual bullet hitting him?? #OMFG THE EXTRA FUN STUFF VERSION IS GOING TO TEAR ME APPART I DIDNT EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT

[23meteorstreet]

i wish hotel artemis was a good movie...

#just rewatched and remembered why it was so forgettable to me #i love the characters (esp charlie's obviously) #but it's just so talky!!! #like literally nothing happens til the end #and all the moments that shouldve been tense just kinda... started and ended there was no tension #i honestly wish it had had more mystery? like trying to figure out who's sabatoging things #or action (like maybe ppl breaking in sooner?) #or was just framed differently to show the different backstories instead of telling #it was also visually annoying bc they sorta just drowned out all the color with blue and orange with no apparent thought #it maybe couldve used some foreshadowing? rather than just random scenes/details #like they made such a big deal of those cards acapulco had for them to never come up again #i wanted to like it sooooo bad #for obvious reasons but also bc i love scifi (and that heist scene!!!!) #it's going on my list of movies i wish i could fix :(

[magentagalaxies]

last full day at home before mouth congress!!!!!!

#btw update my mom liked the mouth congress documentary. yeah she thought it was weird but enjoyable nonetheless #she very much enjoyed the modern section every time scott and paul were bickering about random nonsense #which honestly is great bc that's the thing that's closest to what i'm actually going to be part of up there #random behind the scenes nonsense #also this morning my dad said he was disappointed we watched it without him #and i was like ''really? you're sure you want to watch the mouth congress documentary???'' #so i'll probably have to watch it again with him lmao #(which like i'll take any chance to rewatch the mouth congress movie but i thought my dad wouldn't want to see it???)

[kingpippthe2nd]

It took me until this week to realise how much season two has changed my perspective on... well almost everything Good Omens.

I finally rewatched season 1 for the first time since Neil broke my stupid little heart. Honestly, I had convinced myself that I was over the heartbreak.

Do I torture myself on this website on a regular basis? Yes. Do I refuse to read fics without a "hurt/comfort" tag? Yes. But I was fine. I was healing. I was good. I was over it.

Did episode 3 hit differently after everything I'd been through after S2? A bit. But nothing I didn't expect.

And then there was S1E6. The Ritz. Nightingales. And I just wasn't ready. I had heard that song a thousand times throughout the last few weeks. But context does seem to matter. Because here I was, three notes in, sobbing mercilessly.

This scene used to be a safe space for me. A warm little patch of sunshine to curl up in, when I felt down. It was hot cocoa on a rainy autumn day. It projected to so much love and comfort. And now it's all twisted.

The contrast to S2E6 couldn't be sharper. Oh, what a beautiful web of similarities Neil has woven for us. Here are our two favourite idiots, smiling at each other, so in love, not a care in the world, because the world is safe and they are toasting it. Yet I know, what the future holds for them. I know, how incapable of truely communicating they are. I know, how they will break each others hearts, paving each others way to hell with all the best intentions.

You have to hand to Neil. He really knows how to tell a good story.

I haven't dared to listen to " A Nightingale sang in Berkeley Square" in the last week. It will take me a good long while to work up the courage again.

I don't even know, how to end this mess of a post. I just hope, Neil will bring the song back in season 3 and make it be all fluffy and comfortable and lovely again.

To the world, my friends.

#no hot takes to be found here #i'm just rambling #don't mind me #I'm fine #nightingales or no nightingales that's the question #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #neil gaiman

[caedi]

Hi Emily, I know ep 10 just came out so you’re probably busy, please do prioritise your own ideas, but I was wondering if you could make a veemark love languages gif set? I completely understand if you don’t want to do it, but I know that if you do you’ll do it beautifully!

omg anon look at what I started drafting ideas for on my phone yesterday, while waiting for episode 10 to drop 😂 I definitely want to make it and will do my best 🥰

if anyone has particular scenes they’d like to see in this set, send them my way 🌈💖 I still have about four scene-specific sets I want to do for episode 10, and then starting on this next.

#i am slow because i stupidly made plans this weekend #anyway i was rewatching the whole series before episode 10 and started drafting this while watching it #as you do 😂😂😂 #they're so well suited to each other #and we see that through their love languages all season #so many that i don't think we can fit them all into one gifset 🥺🥺🥺 #ahhh #like acts of service.... do we go for all the times they cook for each other?? #or all the times they've looked after each other when they've been hurt or unwell #gift giving we have the rose the mugs the ring #honestly it will probably end up being whatever scenes look good in the set #because we have so many choices #we are truly blessed with this couple im #i'm getting emotional again #emily answers #look at these tags apparently i have feelings lmaoo