#i should just become a night person

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Saying this as sb who loves drawing Alistair with visibly pointy ears to spite bioware's "elf genes are always recessive" bullshit, but canonically i do think it makes much more sense for him to look fully human.

Except, maybe the children in the monastery made fun of the new kid's jug ears. Or maybe Ferelden's king is known for his unusually vibrant and shiny eyes. Or maybe his fellow Wardens grumble jealously at their commander's effortless agility.

He is a Grey Warden though, so an oddity or two are to expected, of course

#idk. i just think it's neat when his heritage shows in more subtle ways that are not as immediately clockable as elven #bc sometimes mixed ppl dont look it. and bc i doubt that if he was very visibly elven that it would just never be brought up ever #especially not if he becomes king #and also it's fun to think abt the possible rumors bc i imagine the most common assumption/explanation for anything ''odd'' #would be 'grey wardens are fucked up u know how it is' #(then again. would the average person know that abt the GWs?) #n e ways. i should get a tag for late night ramble posting lmao #lay rambles

[friday-answers]

THIS IS A @universe-friday PSA:

thalia is NOT nor inspired by a pre-existing osemanverse character!

#seeing too many theories and after last night's excerpt i feel like i have to clarify finally #like guys #we both read the same thing right? #well i wrote it but still #i would love to bring in a character aled creates inspired by another person #at some point #actually i DEFINITELY will #but i swear i am not trying to allude to any character with thalia right now #i think people should go over their universe city facts... #what kind of characters DOES aled create? #maybe... other than.... sidekicks... #and there will be a lot more where that came from! #anyway this isn't to tell anyone off #but just to make it clear before it becomes problematic . thank you #aled last #alice oseman #radio silence #universe city #osemanverse #february friday #carys last #frances janvier #ask me anything #original fiction #heartstopper #hstv #aled and frances #daniel jun #friday answers post #universe friday

[isfjmel-phleg]

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#random personal stuff #whining ahead feel free to ignore #Thursday nights used to be a lot of fun #somehow I feel like they've devolved into something stressful even though I don't think I'm doing anything different #I stress myself out making a full dinner for 3-4 people #try to convince the temperamental TV to stream our show #politely listen to conversations that are often hard to contribute to #wash a mountain of dishes after everyone goes #they always seem to have a good time! that's the important thing #not sure what MY problem is though #this should be a lot more fun than it has become #maybe I just have a bad attitude #the guests are happy and that's the point #it is my job to facilitate this get-together that we wouldn't be able to have otherwise and thereby provide social enrichment #it's successful it should feel more successful than it currently does #anyway enough of that good night everyone

[wildflowercryptid]

i've already latched onto dogen as my resident blorbo kiddo in psychonauts so of course the gears in my head are already spinning for what i think he'd be like in his teen & adult years. i wanna see him happy and healthy and also get that pet his parents promised him.

#i haven't even finished the game yet i'm just really invested in this lil dude #rn i'm spinning around some ideas for what his teen years like in particular #i could imagine that his teen years were really rough for him with him starting to introspect more on his past >>> #and realizing that he feels othered even amongst other psychics due to how dangerous his powers are #i kind of like the idea of someone trying to convince him to become a villain when he's at his lowest #but then raz and lili swoop in to save him with the power of friendship #and also beating the shit out of whoever tried to use dogen for their personal gain #also i think he should have a hairless cat that wears lil knit sweaters and hats #i played more of the game last night but i got stuck at the lungfish battle #i got to the last part and kept dying bc i couldn't figure out how to stun her and get hits in #( i figured it out on my last life and was just too tired to repeat the level ) #if i get don't come back to this game after my indigo disk hype dies down i'll be very mad at myself #i need to sleep now i'm tired 😭 #mj.txt

[please-dont-pet-the-okapi]

"Will Anybody Ever Love Me?" by Sufjan Stevens // The Book of the Dun Cow by Walter Wangerin, Jr. // Twelfth Night by William Shakespeare // Dune (2021) dir. Denis Villeneuve // "Whatever Makes You Mine" by John Van Deusen // The X-Files, "Anasazi" // "I'll Keep It With Mine" by Bob Dylan // Star Trek: Voyager, "The 37's" // "Passenger Seat" by Death Cab for Cutie

#thought about adding more things to this but decided to keep it short #but i've determined reading twelfth night as a child rewired the way my brain looks at ships #(it's about your beloved being your friend before anything else! #how they don't just accept you but also actively lead you to become a better person!) #that's the thing that compells me about all of these ships in different ways #yes janeway is the captain BUT chakotay is not afraid to challenge her. and she relies on him to set her aright! #yes scully is critical of mulder's theories BUT he is also her friend and respects him and insists that others show that same respect to hi #and leto and jessica... #i just keep thinking about how in the eyes of the bene gesserit leto is expendable and yet jessica gives him an heir (AGAINST her orders) #and leto is told he should not trust jessica whatsoever but he chooses to trust her anyway (and is RIGHT to trust her) #anyway #@jae i hope you will appreciate this #trust and stuff cinematic universe #red string and thumbtacks

[antstarion]

oh stars save us. save us save us save us save us🙏🏻

#oh cosmic hourglass #GUYS #guys guys guys #do you ever feel like you’re out of time #its okay because this is the birth of something new #gripping the sink. knuckles white. THIS TOO SHALL PSS #PASS #WHATEVER #the protostar will become a star #it looks like time is running out but really the time is just beginning #thinking about gale talking about his last night alive #thw orb. what a great representation of always living in fight or flight mode #ive always said that at my worst i feel like i could just die at any moment and gale made me feel so seen because of that #anyways i will continue ranting in tags because someone has to listen to my philosophy space gale random bullshit #stars amaze me so i will ask them questions #I want to believe in the many worlds interpretation simply because i want to believe in the possiblity of there being somethig better #in the past and future and whatever #maybe it should be wave function save us #ANYWAYS #if you read to this point i am personally sending you a printed out picture of a star

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i���m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao) #so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still) #plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say! #i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶 #bella talks

[opens-up-4-nobody]

You don't understand how unhinged I feel trying to construct an ending for Bleach that I personally would enjoy while knowing Bleach does not deserve my time and also not remembering enough to actually make anything coherent. And yet here I am.

#god. no one gives a fuck abt bleaching. i am screaming into the void. y cant i put this energy into being productive #i just want there to be themes and a satisfying ending. and ending that is sad and yet happy #i just think. for me. ichigo kurosaki died on the night rukia pierced him with her zanpakto. oh fuck i cant spell. fucking strap in #i kno he didnt technically die according to the rules of the universe but i think as soon as ichigos soul left his body. that body became #a corpse. so when he goes back into it its not suitible to live in anymore and he only starts to feel that with the fullbring arc #i think when rukia jumpstarted his powers she lit the fuse of a bomb and becoming a visor allowed him to chanel his resentment #bc he does resent. ichigo is an emotional person. he felt emense guilt when his mothet died bc he felt he couldnt protect her bc he was #being raised to protect. the boy has a complex and its kinda fuckrd up and its 1000% isshins fault. so when thr opportunity comes for #ichigo to sacrifice himself for his family he does and he literally and metaphorically dies. his life from that point on is overtaken by #death. so what do we do with ichigo after everything is said and done bc he cant go back to being human he cant be a living corpse. he has #to go to the soul society. bc i like to imagine everything hes done to his soul. his twisted cosmically weird special boy soul. hes like a #bomb. its unstable and they need to teach him to control it so he doesnt tear a hole in reality and let thr hollows pour in. so its safer #if that happens in thr soul society. and rukia lil miss ice princess can teach him to do that. i would also make it weird with god stuff but #i never read the blood war stuff so i dont kno enough abt the gods. also i would make rukia more at odds with everyone who was gonna let her #fucking die and who overlooked her bc she should b held with more reguard for her fighting. but misogyny 😒 so then what do we do with #ichigo in thr soul society? i cant stand the idea of him becoming part of the institution. i cant. i think he should be rogue. rebell. idk #train to be strong and battle agaisnt the 13 court guard squad who r clearly going to try to control him as he tries to control himself. #send my boy to therapy so he can control his reatsu? is the the word? idk. maybe he should go to that dead dog district and look for kids #with spiritual pressure. he needs to feel useful. maybe id just give him weird god powers. i am an ichigo special boy apologist #thats as far forward as i can think. ichigo has to b dead. has to learn to control his power before he can go fight. rukia can teach him #he rebells against the institution. encourages rukia to go apeshit bc fuck everyone. and then idk. he keeps trying to save ppl forever #or he dies and destroys the universe. a big ball of resentment and bad feels and secrets upon secrets upon secrets. god y am i thinking #abt this so much. ive got bullshit to deal with. anyway. idk i just like ichigo a lot and i think thr ending to bleach is th worst forever #bleach ramblings

[woulddieforloki]

i desperately need to know what happened the first time Thor had the audacity to tell Loki to know his place

#idk why but the way loki so readily accept it in thor 1 makes me feel like he's heard it a million times before #and i really want to know what happened the first time thor said it (or said something of the sort) #like it's one thing to feel like your big brother is outshining you and to see other people putting him up on a pedastal #but it's gotta be another thing entirely to hear for the first time that your brother genuinely feels he's above you #personally i think loki should have punched him in the face #but i feel like thor wouldn't be saying it anymore if loki reacted so harshly the first time #do you think loki even acknowledged it or do you think he was just mYsTeRiOuSlY qUiEt for the rest of the day #and then probably cried himself to sleep that night because if thor's like this now he can't even imagine what's going to happen when #he becomes king #back on my bullshit

[ioannemos]

some jackass (who really should know better by now bc of all the true crime stories he's read about high-risk lifestyles like prostitution leaving people vulnerable) while reading a true crime story about a different jackass who murdered multiple women who were prostituting themselves (usually to pay for the hardcore drugs their boyfriends got them on): sex work should be legal tho :/ isn't it proven that legalizing it makes it safer?

me, who has seen the Receipts that what he just said is 100% wrong but can also follow basic logic:

#prostitution becomes legal. demand goes up. where do the women come from huh buddy? where do you think they come from? the ether? #you think legality is the only thing keeping a whole lotta women from accepting money from men who want to treat them like literal trash? #you think a whole lotta women will sign up to be degraded? a depressing number might. but enough to meet the demand? #no. once women are products and don't supply themselves someone Will supply them. they will manipulate drug kidnap rape etc #once you start treating humans as products welcome to hell. your slavemaster predecessors are over there go say hi #you think a man who will spend money to degrade a woman is treating them well? you think he respects her?? BRO HE PAID FOR HER #a man who pays for sex has NO respect for the woman. none. so explain to me how that leads to a better society. explain. i'll wait #(this is the same guy who thinks religion is stupid so i should probably just stop watching his videos) #UGH #rape #anti prostitution #personal #abbie needs a twitter #yes i have been up all night it's just the Stress™ that i am handling poorly that's all #you know how it is ahaha #🙃

[harmonizewithechoes]

It’s my middle child’s 3rd birthday today 🥺

3 years ago my partner was deployed overseas and couldn’t come home for the birth because the military didn’t want to spend so much time quarantining their soldiers. Fortunately I had help as my parents were watching my son (at the time just a month shy of 2) for a few days before my due date and we had moved across the street from my partner’s parents when we found out about the deployment. So I had his mom with me at the hospital holding up her phone while we got to have a rare video call with my partner as we welcomed our daughter into the world after a very quick labor. I then had two months with our two very little kids by myself before he came home. It was an incredibly hectic time and I’m still not quite sure how I was able to get through all of that but here we are with the sweetest little 3 year old (let’s call her C) we could have asked for 🥰

C loves to play dress up and she has specific characters she’ll play as where you can’t refer to her as her name or she’ll get mad. She’s not C she’s Dr C or Baby or Baby Kitty or Princess Bucket (this was her first character and yes she does put a bucket on her head as a crown). Her favorite game to play is hide and seek and she loves dance parties and drawing and she’s obsessed with her 1 year old sister. We love C so much and I’m so excited to see how she grows and changes and learns over this next year ❤️

#personal #tonight her and her little sister are sleeping in their beds in their very own room for the first time #they’ve had their beds in my bedroom since we moved in and very often just ended up in our bed #but I’ve spent the past few days getting the room we’ve used for storage ready for them #and they’re doing really well so far #I’m sure they’ll end up in my bed again at some point but this is at least a step in the right direction #our crib that we’ve used for all 3 babies turns into a toddler bed and as I was taking it apart and putting it back together in the new room #my son started crying because he didn’t want his sisters to be big girls in their own room #he wanted me to put everything back and make the 1 year old 0 again so she could keep being a baby #I should point out that he is also obsessed with his baby sister #I told him that’s not quite how it works and kids are meant to grow up #and then he asked yet again for a baby brother because he loves babies so much and then he’d have a brother just like him 😅 #he’s very sweet but also…. that’s not happening lol #I’m slowly becoming a person again and being able to focus more time on hobbies #and my partner and I now have our room back #all of that would be reset again with another baby not to mention another year of nursing and diapers and sleepless nights…. pass lol #I’m emotional about my babies growing up but I’m also so excited to learn who they’ll become as time goes on #sorry for rambling I get sappy on their birthdays

[mainfaggot]

little sisters are a test from god actually

#i think I've made this exact post before ... #shes just so MEAN to me #like I'll say good morning or good night and she just glares at me and tells me to get out of her room #I'll ask her where xyz kitchen appliance is and she'll tell me to use my eyes and stop annoying her #I'll sit on her bed to pet the cat and she'll yell at me #I'll wear something cute and ask her if she likes it or ill ask for her opinion #and she'll tell me that she doesn't care and that it doesn't even matter what she thinks so i should stop seeking validation #like???? i just want a little compliment every once in a while... is that a crime #she'll openly compliment my older sister constantly but when it comes to me she suddenly thinks she's some life coach or something and that #im an idiot for wanting to get a compliment when i feel a bit more confident in my appearance #she'll talk my ear off when she's in a good mood but if i talk the same amount she gets irritated and zones out or just starts being rude #i cant tell her things most of the time because she's always being mean to me. #i cant tell my parents things half the time because they dont get it and because it's so hard to be vulnerable #also because im gay and closeted #im out to my little sister but i cant even tell her anything about my life because shes so. #she doesn't care. shes judgmental. she always has something rude to say. she's supposedly supportive #bc she won't out me. but she makes me feel like a bad person for being a lesbian sometimes #it's so weird. i cant be sisters with my sisters because my older sister is so different and so homophobic #and my younger sister has become so prickly and cold over time #we used to be close before. #z.post

[alsaurus-loves-dean]

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#my wife just left on a work trip #she'll be gone for two nights. so that's two nights and two mornings with the kids 🤪 #the baby still wakes up for her multiple times a night. he's NOT going to like this lmaooooo #that's the part that I'm most worried about #i already do most of the getting them ready in the morning so it's just adding bringing the 5yr old to school down the road #and the evenings will just be whatever... surviving lol. I'll clean during the day when i should be working #i can do this. i can do anything for just a couple days! #...and then next week my wife goes on ANOTHER work trip!! hagagaghahaahhahah 🫠 #only one night though #to be clear. when she agreed to this first trip she had no idea that they would both be back to back like this #and travel isn't going to be a THING for her really. just one offs once in a while like this. #this is her first one and she's already been a consultant for like two years #one good thing about the pandemic. as much as the business newspaper articles want to convince you..... #remote work is here to stay. for people in specialized careers anyway. they will NEVER get us back into offices lmao #my wife never wanted to become a consultant because of the travel #if it weren't for covid she would still be doing emergency management and business continuity in-house #(and i would still be driving across LA county 50+ minutes each way lmao) #anyway. traveling to work for clients in person on a regular basis is pretty much over in her industry #thank god #I CAN DO THIS

[im-no-jedi]

you know what? I know what my real problem is

I’m not cringe enough

I need to be more cringe

I need to go back to like how it was last year when my entire blog was dedicated to MLWTBB

screw the anxiety, become cringe 😤

(and anyone who says otherwise, there’s an unfollow button with your name on it 😌)

#I think I’ve let the anxiety reign too much this year #King Boo decided to really go for it ROFL #my head has become Luigi’s Mansion 🤣 #anyway I’m gonna try to ignore him going forward #he only ever speaks nonsense anyway #if he tries to tell me I’ll ‘ruin’ my blog or whatever #the rational side of my brain will kick down the door like HECK NO #cause at the end of the day it doesn’t matter #like I said last night about my art #those who actually care about me as a person are the only ones who matter #haters can see themselves out✨ #wait hang on wait I think I just figured out a new persona #and I know EXACTLY who it should be!! 😁

[catboyrightsdefender]

mitski really was doing something evil when she was opening her 2022 tour concerts with love me more

#.txt #i love this song but lord does it impact me negatively #to think that i was still with my evil ex when it dropped. and that i was listening to it when we were SITTING TOGETHER IN A TRAIN on the #verge of tears because she was ignoring me and the relationship was becoming really rancid and i had the worst abandonment anxiety ever #that alone should have made me realise things weren't right but i was so blind :/// tfw you're so starved for love that you accept being #treated like shit and abused :///// #also the line 'we'll pretend it ends tomorrow' makes me think about leo now lskdkd added a whole new layer of evil to the song #like...when he told me he wasn't in love with me and didn't want a relationship on the last night during the time i was visiting him after #acting like a couple for MONTHS.....and i was so pathetic and in love that i asked if we could just. pretend it was still the same and be #tender and affectionate with eachother until the next day's afternoon when i take my train......most pathetic raph moment fr #the morning after when he was still sleeping i considered leaving but i stayed just so i could have that last bit of delusion. god when #we were waiting for the train to leave and we kissed one last time under the rain. most heartbreaking kiss of my life fr i was such a #fucking mess. and all of it meant absolutely nothing to him #so yeah that line feels very personal #anyway lol

[stayathome-ts]

This is getting increasingly messy.

#I’m not going to be doing work today because I guess our brain decided I should take on all the messy feelings associated with #what happened two nights ago and I honestly can’t function academically like that #if this becomes a genuine trauma thing I swear to fucking god #I’ve got a feeling it already is though since our brain may have clocked my thoughts on this as similar to thoughts about past trauma #in a disconnected this didn’t happen to me but it happened and it was so bad way #which is annoying to consider! #frankly I don’t want that role here! #and yet I’ve been replaying what happened in my head dozens of times and it never gets any better #and the only thing which seems to jarr that is doing something engaging #which would be great if I didn’t realize that’s just what I’ve always done in response to shit like this #annoyingly I am still the exact same person in some ways #god damn it