#i should sleep more often

[nyoomkitty]

mmm hmm.

#metalocalypse #skwisgaar skwigelf #king of the hill #nyoomart #I don’t know if I’ll do the rest but #Toki=Bill #Murderface=Dale #Nathan=Hank #Pickles=Bobby or Ladybird #I should sleep more often #created by Kat

[jestroer]

The silly. The goofy.

#this is kind of a redraw from the thing #if you know you know #they are silly #scar in a dress my beloved #i should draw impulse more often #ill go to sleep now that i drew the silly #impulsesv #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft #impscar #not intended as ship but you can see however you want #court jester's art #hermits in dresses! #court jester's dress moment #im literally so fricking sleepy man you cant imagien

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

To continue riffing on the marriage/tradition stuff because that’s one of the themes I’m obsessed with in her discography, it’s fascinating because it would be easy to reduce it to, “she’s adhering to patriarchal societal norms in chasing the traditional nuclear family and that’s why she throws herself into these relationships,” but it’s just so reductive to well, how human beings exist in the world. Just because it’s a societal pressure doesn’t mean some people don’t genuinely want to get married or have families.

Yes, she’s been singing about it right back to her first album when she as 16. Yes, her view on it has evolved, from marrying the sweet neighbor boy to the princess fairytale early on (debut/fearless), to the disillusionment that increasingly pushed it out of the narrative (speak now/red/1989), to slowly letting herself believe in forever again (rep), to seemingly actually committed (lover), to questioning what that means (folklore/evermore) to trying to reconcile what it means for her current life (midnights). Every relationship she experienced throughout those periods informed those views and how *she* pursued it.

I think what makes it so interesting on TTPD is that it is EVERYWHERE, as I mentioned in my previous post about it. And it’s unsettling because it’s not just in the setting we expect it to be — e.g. a long term partner she’d previously indicated she was ready to marry — but also in songs about a man who swooped in to save her when she was low only to break her apart, in thinly-veiled fantasies about strange bedfellow neighbours, another thinly-veiled story about marrying the person you want consequences be damned, in taunting your on again/off again partner in a bar (e.g. i want to smash your bike or be your wife).

And it’d be easy to chalk it up to, well she’s in her 30s and the clock is ticking, she’s just obsessive! And there’s a nugget there about women and their bodies and both the lauding and weaponization thereof and everything that personally I’m dying to talk about at some point. But when it comes down to it, I’m willing to bet that the reason why it’s everywhere is because THAT WAS HER LIFE. That was the plan she’d taken for granted for so long — and I don’t just mean in a general sense as a girl in the world — but in the very real, very tangible way she was living her life and in the circumstances that led to what would be written about in TTPD. By working out all these scenarios through her songs (and tbh in whatever she was doing IRL that inspired them), she was grappling with and grieving the loss of the life she thought was ahead of her. We’ve talked about how pervasive grief has been on her recent albums, in all kinds of forms, and I think this is kind of the culmination of all of those worries.

She’s not the girl with the paper ring and all’s well did not end well to end up with him. She’s not the girl who has his midnights after cleaning up bottles on New Year’s Day. She couldn’t give him her wild or a child because it wasn’t enough. She may have even been the self-fulfilling prophecy of the girl who is fucked in the head, but feels more like the one left out on the landing.

So in TTPD, she is all of these things. She’s the neglected wife whose husband cheats on her so she runs off with an old flame. She’s the one who gets the jewel on her ring finger and talks about babies because he says it’s love. She’s the woman whose partner once made a promise but never followed through. She’s the hell-raiser who follows love in a different kind of getaway car while the town calls her mad, consequences be damned, but joke’s on them because she gets the wedding in the end anyway. She’s the wife who feeds her cheating husband to the swamps of Florida. She gets swept off her feet by an old flame to run down the aisle. SHE’S the one who gets to decide if she’s gonna marry him or decimate him (be his wife or smash his bike). She’s the girl who didn’t become the wife while she watches the one that got away marry his. She’s the woman scorned who has to call the whole thing off. She’s the saucy girl who bets her new lover is gonna marry her for real. She’s sold off as chattel to the highest bidder in an arranged marriage. She’s the young girl starry-eyed with the dreams she grew up with only to have them go up in flames, leaving only her pen behind to turn it into art.

She navigates all these scenarios because in the end, she isn’t any of them and she is all of them. She’s mourning what she gave up, mourning what she’s already lost, mourning the time she feels she wasted and could have started over. She’s mourning any number of women she could have been if she’d just tried something else, but also mourning that ultimately much of this was out of her hands. She’s grappling with a past that can’t change and a future that doesn’t exist. Every one of these scenarios is a way her life could have gone with any number of different decisions, but in the end, none of that matters, because she is who she is and what happened happened.

Obviously there’s a lot more going on in the album; she’s not just processing the end of relationships, she’s processing her fame and career and health and harassment and trauma and struggles and misogyny and any number of things in frankly shocking ways. But, I think there’s also no denying that this very important thing — the step many young adults expect to take in their lives — precipitated a whole lot of what went on, and may have even had a domino effect on all the other issues explored. It’s raw and vulnerable and ugly and funny and human.

Anyway apparently I’m back and thinking.

#maybe i should not sleep more often #the tortured poets department #writing letters addressed to the fire

[jordanhaszane]

They call me Zane the way I neglect past trauma *wipes memories* They call me Zane the way I neglect past trauma *wipes memories* They call me Zane the way I-

#this was in my drafts wow i should get 1 hour of sleep more often #ninjago #ninjago zane #zane julien #zane ninjago

[15-lizards]

MADONNA WHORE COMPLEX ROBB STARK LET ME COOK…

The whole idea of the Madonna-Whore complex is that a woman can either be put on a saintly pedestal for purity or be debased and degreased for their sexuality with no room for the idea that they are complex humans. Why does this fit Robb. He’s not a teenage boy he’s not somebody’s son he’s not a kid making human mistakes he isn’t allowed any of that. He’s a king he’s the stuff of stories he’s an inspiration to his men. Or he’s fool for breaking his vow he will pay for his mistakes with his life everything is over because he slept with the wrong girl. There is no room for nuance Robb is either the Madonna on the pedestal or the fallen Whore paying for his mistakes. He is a king facing the plight of a woman

#asoiaf #woah #what was I cooking here #I’m running on no sleep #maybe I should not sleep more often bc this is kinda fire #I know George did not mean to imply this in any way but that’s kinda what makes it everything to me… #this subconscious subversion of gendered ideas…you ate that gurm

[caitlynmeow]

last night i fell asleep while i was watching videos of her 🥰 best sleep in a long while

#personal #i should do this more often y’all #like— i was knocked OUT #her soothing voice just serenading me to sleep #resident evil alcina #house dimitrescu #alcina dimitrescu

[blizzard-nightlamps]

lugia.........

#this is cool. i should draw instead of going to sleep more often #pokemon #my art #art #pkmn #lugia

[vivitalks]

more adhd jason grace or die by my sword

#jason grace #heroes of olympus #pjo #riordanverse #is he a strong leader. yes. is he the most forgetful man you ever met. also yes #could he kill you with a lightning strike. yes. does he often get lost in his activity du jour and forget to sleep. ALSO YES #stuff #also side note - more dyslexic jason specifically struggling at chb #where everything is labeled in ancient greek for the greek demigods' ease of comprehension #this is a fic waiting to happen but like #jason being completely lost with every sign around camp because his latin wired brain can't read that shit #he doesnt say anything because he's like 'im the guest here i should just learn ancient greek' #easier said than done his brain Rebels against learning it he tries but none of it seems to stick #until someone notices how jason will just blank-stare the sign posted on the armory door that says 'closed for cleaning' #and it's written in english too but that doesn't help jason he's almost as bad at reading in english as he is in ancient greek #so he DEFINITELY cant read the smaller print that says 'do not enter under threat of being eaten by cleaning harpies' #and our man just walks right in and almost gets eaten lmao #and then nico or someone is like. hmm. has anyone considered that this roman dyslexic demigod just cant fucking read ancient greek lmao #cue a campwide project to add latin to all the signs #these tags are a runaway train i just want more adhd dyslexic jason grace that's all

[unknownplants]

Usagi wearing Tokyo fashion

Im going to be honest, i have ZERO sense of fashion and have no idea what tokyo fashion is, i just type that into pintrest and drew the ones i liked the most. Anyways, congratulations into tricking me into doing some fashion studies

But in all seriousness, thank you so much for the idea! i was only gonna do one but i was having fun so i keep going <3

BONUS:

The references had different colors but its weird to see usagi in any color other than blue :P

BONUS BONUS:

#leosagi rottmt #leosagi #katana shipping #leo rottmnt #usagi rottmnt #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #leonardo rottmnt #i should use references more often... #i was painting the red outfit and started laughing bc he looked like juan carlos bodoque #maybe 3 people would get that reference #idk i just thought that was funny and wanted to share #im running on 3 hours of sleep 👍

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

really wish my one friend would quit flirting with me. and trying to goad me into hanging out more. and assigning us fictional characters that are oh-so-coincidently either couples or with romantic tension. and then interrupting our gameplay to ask me repeatedly if I think they’re “like us” (which they rarely are…). and matching my icon on discord without asking (again, usually by insinuating a couple connection). and giving me random things I do not want and did not ask to receive (and then forcing me to take them???).

#storyrambles #it’s not creepy. just for context. it’s just irritating because I’ve told this person repeatedly that I’m not interested in romance. #this person is also naturally a huge romantic so it is next to impossible to tell whether it’s actual flirtation or just flirting for fun #flirting for fun is cool. I wouldn’t mind that. but if I do it once this person will take that as an invitation to do it an excessive amoun #but yeah after being given 12 roses out of the blue when I said ‘no don’t buy me flowers’. there’s only so many things that can mean #‘it’s nice to see your face you always cover it!’ …I’m masking. because of covid #I’m narrating a game and suddenly ‘I like hearing your voice I should call you every day so I can hear it for 10 minutes’. …no. #‘you have to take the snack I brought you know it’s rude to refuse a gift’ I have never refused a gift. It is rude. But also I didn’t ask. #‘you know this game is one you can play without talking so we can play more often!’ we already play games once a week for usually 3 hours. #‘but it’s not talking so it’s less social energy’ no. that is not how it works. #sorry for the rant im just. tired. #you know those people who are so pleasant to hang out with and then they try way too hard #and that’s actually what makes things awkward? rather than when they’re just being themselves? #yeah. that’s this friend here. #usually I go along with the bit but when I can never tell when the bit is actually a bit #and you insist on me taking on the ‘girl role’ for most of them #I am not going to play along. #UGH don’t get me started on the ‘you’re cute when you’re flustered’ #I wasn’t even flustered. I was trying to do mental math while running on four hours of sleep and he was staring directly at me #it’s uncomfortable. #also. I never want to hear that again. fuck. ‘you’re cute when you’re angry’ ‘you’re cute when you’re upset’ ALL THE FUCKING TIME AS A KID #will I be so cute after I kick you in the nuts? will I? #(for clarity I don’t want to kick him. I want to kick those other people.) #I need a lot of alone time. I really do. I can do 3 hours and then I will be drained for the rest of the day. #‘how did you grow up? did you not talk to your mom for more than 3 hours a day?’ #first of all. that’s different? #secondly we actually regularly do separate things without talking to each other. or go in separate rooms to take some time to ourselves #also I don’t have to be on high alert for if I’m going to be flirted with. so. #ugh. I like him as a friend. I really do. I know this all makes it seem like the opposite. I try so hard to be as nice as possible. #but UGHHHHHH

[laddy-storm]

They're gonna miss their stop, are they stupid or something?

#This is kind of embarrassing actually but shhhh #I'm not sure if its clear but they are sleeping on a train! #I usually fall asleep on the bus on my way home but im normally myself so i almost get robbed like constanly #Anyways like i said totally embarrassing but i like the colours in this piece #I should try backgrounds more often #chibita #karamatsu #karabita #osomatsu san #ososan

[luvaaheee]

mix match!!!

#sleep deprived podcast #aztrosist #apandah #mikasacus #my art #honestly should combine traditional and digital more often i love them both so much

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

prayers for my poor brother please

#twice yesterday someone hugged him and he burst into tears #he is plainly terrified #last night when he ws deciding if he thought i should just present straight to emergency just in case he was so close to tears so often #ad he got barely any sleep also #i feel like hes struggling more than me atm in truth

[andyridgeley]

duality of man

#bob odenkirk #personal thingys #he should say kitty cat more often he's good at it alksjdf #ok for real now goodnight hopefully i get good sleep before tomorrow ugh

[pockykierra]

Crowley hated this.

No, not watching Aziraphale prance ahead of him, absolutely beaming with his plans for the meeting that night. It wasn’t that he hated. In Crowley's eyes - snake-like as they were - any moment spent admiring his angel was a moment well spent. He could never detest seeing Aziraphale so happy, exuding pure excitement and energy. Never.

What he hated was the distance. Aziraphale was barely an arm's length away, Crowley swaggered only a few steps behind - and yet, despite everything, despite the years of them being an "us, " it still felt like a chasm between them. Something keeping them out of reach from one another, this time entirely out of the influence of Heaven and Hell.

Though, in all honesty, it wasn't the physical nature of the distance that bothered him. For them - for Crowley - it would never be that simple. If only he could pick up his pace so he was walking side-by-side with Aziraphale, and everything would feel right in the world. If only their proximity was the issue.

No, it wasn't the gap between their bodies that he despised. It was what it represented. He hated the distance between them because it symbolized where Aziraphale would always be for Crowley.

Just out of reach.

#good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #good omens 2 #good omens fanfiction #good omens season 2 #I've just been having SO MANY FEELINGS about them today but I don't have time to write a full fic #so here's this #I have a notes folder full of quotes I periodically think of (usually while I'm trying to sleep lmao) #and I saw this one that I wrote down literally like five years ago and I thought it fit them PERFECTLY #I should start looking into that folder more often and not just writing things down and forgetting about them #pkfanfics #crowley #aziraphale

[clumsyhusky06]

snork... mimimi...

he comfy,,

#bdoubleo100 #bdubs #bdubs fanart #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #i just think hes a little guy #people should draw the sleep king in comically large beds more often #school's been kickin my ass lately #so have a lil bdubs doodle #ill be back posting again soon #hopefully