#i start to feel guilty

[aoarcturus]

Miss Lily Evans the ICON :))

(also omg look at me finally posting again!!!)

#the way i had one day off where i had no assignments on sunday #the first time since i started uni where i could chill in my room #without feeling guilty for not doing work #crazy stufffffff #lily evans #lily evans fanart #marauders #marauders fanart #marauders girls #my art

[samipekoe]

anyone mind if I continue to go insane

#the apothecary diaries #kusuriya no hitorigoto #maomao #lady lihua #lady gyokuyou #im starting to feel guilty posting these to the main tags when im the only crazy person not posting jinmao #im Sorry i imprinted on the concubines as soon as i saw them

[felsicveins]

Jumping on the bandwagon where people resurrect Creek to be whatever the fuck they want

AU where he winds up as Velvet and Veneers assistant after talking his way out of being eaten

#i cant help that his design is super fun to draw and im addicted as horrible gay assholes #why is he gay? dont ask me stupid questions #trolls #trolls 3 #trolls band together #trolls creek #creek trolls #floyd trolls #trolls floyd #brozone #trolls fleek #HAHA YEAH WHY NOT #consider me paying my way into heaven because this is indulgent #floyds hair is still pink cause i imagine creek would start to feel guilty watching someone slowly die so he wouldnt be around as much later #or maybe not maybe hed hang around more later!!!! haha why not WHY NOT!!!! : D #ill think on it

[thresholdbb]

How it started:

How it's going:

#look at that promo pic that little grin the backlighting #star trek voyager #captain janeway #kathryn janeway #year of hell #we're off to a great start #having an internal debate about wanting to do silly fandom things and feeling guilty about being unemployed #which means I just don't do anything all day and feel bad about it #think we're in a combo of skill regression and paralysis #melts into oblivion #memeish #yeah I'm positive this is not original #needed the parallel arm placement though #gah the little peach fuzz I adore

[black-quadrant]

you won't be "too much" for the people who are right for you. you'll be good enough and you'll be loved for the things others didn't value in you.

#motivational #if they tell you you're too much you gotta bounce #before you start to feel shitty abt yourself #bc it isn't true and you should not have to feel guilty or inconvenient (i once did) #like it's ok if that's their capacity #just means you probably aren't compatible emotionally #or as a deeper connection

[anistarrose]

the thing I keep coming back to about TAZ Balance, I think, is that there's heroes — lots of them, even — but there's not really a hero, not a singular one. when our characters try to save the world all on their own, and oh, do they try, their arcs — while eventually culminating in happy endings, for the most part — are, at the time, cast as tragedies. lone heroes, in TAZ Balance, are invariably tragic heroes.

Lucretia can't gather all the Grand Relics and defeat the Hunger on her own. Barry can't find Lup, much less sway Lucretia from her plan, on his own. Lup, crushed by guilt, sets off to neutralize her greatest mistake without even facing her family as she leaves, and that decision sets the story into motion in the first place. their intent to spare their family, to shoulder the burden alone so no one else will have to, fixes little and leaves them isolated. lonely. trapped.

even Magnus, rustic Folk Hero of Raven's Roost, fails to avenge the community that took him in. he sets off on a solitary mission to do so, never opening up about his pain to even his closest friends, but he never sees Kalen again. yet, maybe not too late, he learns, or rather, remembers — the strength to protect and avenge others comes from the strength to ask for help. the last thing helping anyone is trying to do this alone.

Lucretia assembles the Bureau, and as soon as she sees a way, brings Tres Horny Boys back under her wing. Barry, the very same day that Lucretia recruits them, sees the Phoenix Fire Gauntlet surface, and realizes it's time to put his trust in his family again — he shows himself to them soon after, and even with him putting up a facade, that's progress. and Lup, with endless time to reflect, is possibly the first of all of them to see where she went wrong. she won't be making that mistake again.

there's not a singular hero of the story, because taking on the burden of saving everyone is no task meant for one person. there's "our heroes," Tres Horny Boys, and there's the secondary, "secret," but no less important heroes who complete the ranks of the IPRE, but none can defeat the Hunger — nor reunite their family, nor vanquish an old foe — without leaning on each other, and on the new bonds they forged on this cycle. leaning on Johann, Kravitz, Team Sweet Flips, and the whole ensemble; every single connection that convinced them not to flee but to fight.

accepting that none of them can, that none of them should, be the hero alone — that's what averts the tragic end. the Hunger, terrible as it is, is wholly united, sharing and amplifying each other's despair. the only way to victory is to rely on each other, to care for each other, to learn how to be cared for, and to let your loved ones grant you hope.

#taz #taz balance #taz balance spoilers #taz meta #lucretia taz #barry bluejeans #lup taaco #magnus burnsides #i just typed this in a haze but like. give me an hour and a powerpoint and i could keep going with this! #like don't even get me started on how lucretia and barry and lup responding to guilt in deeply similar ways #that were well-intentioned but counterproductive at best and self destructive at worst #limiting their interaction with their family let alone with the world #“i would feel guilty living in a world that i poisoned” etc etc #but those bonds with both their family and the people upon the world proved critical to stopping the hunger! #like it just Gets to me. i will never stop thinking about it

[soni-dragon]

aftermath

#hey man the sky’s lookin a lot like a legendary pokemon tonight… i shouldn’t worry about it? okay dude #< conversation from random swimmer on route 126 #alt title to this was ‘late spring’ and then i was gonna do another that’s ‘first love’ btw #im imagining theyre on mt pyre after returning the orbs… and are both feeling very guilty but at least they have each other #starting to fix things yknow yknow #in hoenn and also between them #:] #hardenshipping #my art #pokemon #pokemon oras #pokemon rse #magma leader maxie #aqua leader archie #pokemon maxie #pokemon archie

[lucky-fy]

For the Laicion nation (aka, me and three other people)

I had this illustration commissioned (a big thank you to @lunehowls) for my werewolf AU Laicion fic (still a WIP).

The general pitch is as follows :

AU in which Laios never got to meet his sister again, putting his life on a whole other path, a more desperate one. A military deserter with barely a coin to his name, Laios hitches a ride on a boat to one of the elven continents, where he learns about magical tattoos that binds one’s soul to a wolf’s, effectively making them artificial werewolves. Illegal magic be damned, this feels like the answer to… everything.

In the process, he learns about the existence of an illegal fighting ring in one of the elven cities, where beastmen gladiators gather. Freshly tattooed and without anywhere else to go to, Laios decides to head there, where he meets Lycion, an elf and artificial werewolf gladiator. If they first bond over a simple shared meal, by spending time together (sharing the same room in the barracks, maybe the same bed? gasp) they find that they have a lot in common, notably a shared distaste for the body they were born in, a dysphoria partially remedied by becoming a werewolf.

They bond :)

#dungeon meshi #laios touden #lycion #laicion #I'm heads deep in research regarding Ancient Rome gladiators... and loving it. Really fascinating stuff. #I bemoan the fact that most papers are locked behind a paywall (though I found one that gives a free pdf access) #(and no. Sci-hub is not an option. It's blocked in my country) #I'm also re-reading DunMeshi and taking notes to get a better grasp of Laios and Lycion as characters. Character studies if you will #and I still need to fully outline the fic #I know where I'm starting (struggling to choose a POV for that first chapter LOL) and where I'm ending so there's that #and a bunch of disconnected scenes (as we all do ahaha) #anyway. Doing all of this while studying for veterinary school. It's hard. I feel guilty whenever I'm not studying... #let's just say I don't expect the prep work for the fic to be ready before this summer (+ I need to finish the Kuro cosplay for Japan Expo) #hopefully; once it's done; I'll be able to set a schedule and write smoothly #werewolf #werewolf laios #rarepair

[poqu]

wip,, going to go for a different coloring method/style this time >:0

#wip #i’m starting to feel a little guilty that i keep drawing them

[buglaur]

#ok i only made them to show the new floaty head but i kinda love them #matching jort gfs... #ts4 #sims 4 #i finally got my class timetable and it's not good 😔 #classes start 9am and end at 5:45pm 😭 not including the 2hrs a day commuting #coming from sitting at home doing nothing for 10 weeks this is gonna be painful to get used to #at least i've got wednesdays off #i want to make a sideblog so i can text post without feeling guilty #so i won't have life updates in the tags of every damn post lol #anyways... its almost midnight. gonna read some kmik before i sleep because i'm shamefully behind

[uncanny-tranny]

I've talked before about how the way people treat suicide can be unintentionally devastating to the suicidal person, but I don't think I really ever said how to avoid that.

Speaking about suicide in how selfish it "is" ("think about how you'll transfer your pain to your loved ones!") might seem like a way to put logical sense into the suicidal person, but, honestly? It runs the risk of massively increasing their shame and guilt about being suicidal. Suicide is not inherently a revenge fantasy or a way to "get back" at someone's loved ones, so when the suicidal person is treated like a criminal of a "crime" they haven't even committed yet, you can imagine how unhelpful that can become.

Instead, if you want to point out how cherished your person is, frame their relationships as something they can keep fostering.

"Your cat will miss you :(!!!!" becomes "you and your cat seem close, right? I'm sure it's beautiful having a close friend like that!" and maybe include ways that they and their cat are close and meaningful to each other, tailored to that relationship.

That's only one example, but when you shift the focus away from why that person should repent and feel guilty for being suicidal, you can instead focus on why they would live for that reason. See how you can frame that as a positive? Whatever is keeping that person tethered should never be used as a bludgeon, I think, because then you're taking away why they're living, the positivity of why they are here. Whatever they are here for should be remembered often and honoured.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #mental health support #suicide #suicide tw #(after this i'm going to rant about being told the unhelpful narrative i included above) #when i was younger the thing i was told the most was that suicide would only transfer my pain to others... #...and is that true? maybe. was it helpful? no. #why was that unhelpful? #because i started using that as yet ANOTHER reason to feel guilty and to lash out against myself... #...because that didn't magic away my suicidality like it 'should have'... #...and that was ~obvious~ proof i didn't care enough about my loved ones to keep them out of harms way... #...and it can be really hard not to do that (give advice like that) because if you're not the suocidal person... #...you have the luxury of thinking without the burden they are labouring under... #...you can see 'logically' and make assumptions about what the other person 'needs' #it's just frustrating because i know that people like this want to help but i worry about *how* they are helping... #...in the sense that i want their efforts to actually help their person and bring them closer

[charlunday]

it's okay to be sad. 💛

#tw suicidal thoughts #i should really start an art tag #the hunger games #peeta mellark #toast babies #everlark #hey everlarkshipper #this is what you meant right #right #I imagine that when Peeta feels particularly guilty/slips into a minor relapse/has an outburst (VERY normal for PTSD) #he retreats into their bedroom and locks the door. #Partly because he doesn't trust himself not to hurt his precious family (he wouldn't #ever) #and partly to punish himself. #This consists of hammering his head against things to have some painful distraction #and to reprimand himself. He copes how he can. #These episodes are few and far between #but when they do happen #he consistently has a very stubborn very chatty visitor on the outside of the door. #She doesn't see him as a monster #She sees him as her dad #who would never hurt her #who just has to hide sometimes

[shadeops21]

Rules/Recommendations for writing an Australian character/OC

(The following is just a list of things I personally feel should be included or considered if one makes a character of Australian nationality, descent or heritage. It by no means is a hard and fast ruleset, but just things that can be done to enhance a character’s flavour or add a little authenticity)

Shortened nicknames for fellow characters that follow Australian Shortening Conventions: multi-syllablic names are condensed down to one, and an -a/ah, -o, -zza, -y, or -sy is added, eg: McKenzie (or and Mc name) > Macca, Damien > Damo (Day-mo), Jeremy > Jezza.

Swearing. This is actually a common trap I’ve seen, with some Australian characters being less reserved in their language than others. This will depend on the specific background of your Aussie, as vulgarity is moreso a commonality in smaller cities and rural spaces, and less so in larger built-up cities. That said, we do tend to through the more vulgar words around with greater frequency than other cultures, with f### and c### being thrown around more freely.

Slang. Again another trap, especially with older “stereotypical” Australian slang that I personally hear more from my grandparents and older uncles and aunts and less so my own peers + 10 years. That said, some terms are still used very frequently and have no generational boundaries, including but not limited to: ute (pickup truck), bottle-o (liquor store), servo-o (service/petrol station), “the shops” (any centralised marketplace from your general stores to large malls), booze bus (roadside randomised breath testing/DUI checkpoints, some which do both alcohol and drug testing), hoon (reckless driver, typically young males in cars too powerful to handle at their skill level).

Weather tolerances. This varies based on a character’s geographical background, but you’ll find that most Australians have higher than normal levels of tolerance to extreme heat. However, those that live around the Brisbane latitude and north have decreased tolerances to cooler temperatures, decreasing the further north you go. (Personally I find myself pulling on long sleeves and hoodies after it hits 20 or cooler.)

There’s probably more here, but it’s approaching 10pm for me at time of writing, so for my Aussie followers/mutuals, please feel free to expand upon or add your own tips or recommendations to writing Australian characters in a believable fashion. Curious to see what they are!

#ramblings #australia #australian characters #definitely not trying to project my own personal feelings onto others #but the number of stereotypes i read in fiction and fan fiction is starting to aggravate me #like some of y’all have never actually spoke to an Australian person and it shows #even if i am guilty of employing some of these tropes and stereotypes to an extent in my own writing

[sunnykeysmash]

what I wouldn't pay to see mac punch holes into the walls of the suburbs house as he's tasked with fixing something he doesn't know how to fix and meanwhile the only constant in his mind is how much he misses dennis

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #mac mcdonald #do you vibe do you understand what im saying #those holes covering the walls of the living room speak to me deeply because he looks so calm in the episode. in fact it's dennis that - #gets the freakouts. but the wall is covered of mac's ones. we just don't see them. he didn't go to school for it. #and so they're hiding all the trash in a room and all the mac n cheese in the closet to not deal with it. and mac's still kicking the #monkey under the counter to not deal with it. hide and deny. he Doesn't know how to fix things. he wants to. he tries. he can't #no one notices the fire starting in his room until you open the door #i feel guilty all the time for my thoughts and urges #everything i do i do for you #to the point of complete self destruction that drags BOTH down #analysis

[purple-ravaged]

chin up, kakashi!

#i started feeling guilty abt how sad my team minato fanart has been #so here u go :) nothing sad here #fanart #my art #digital art #kakashi hatake #naruto #obito uchiha #rin nohara #kakashi fanart #naruto fanart #team minato

[starrysharks]

STICKERz

#zeno's art #ocs #ultimate x-calibur #nova starbridge #optico #of course a redraw of jan's new years piece #have i improved? idk #i guess my artstyle is more cartoony now #i want to say i've gotten better at coloring but i used less colors here than i did in jan #this will be the end of the purple period (lying) #also whenever i draw personal art i always feel guilty i've got like 10 comms to do 😭 #i hope you guys can forgive me #here's to a year with better art #and also 2024 WILL be the year i start a band it's been my dream it will happen god willing #even tho i've gotta get a gee-tar first... maybe i'll practice my sister's dusty old acoustic to get used to holding them #ok. sorry i was weird this year but thank you all for supporting me!